#welcome to hell :] /lh /silly

[the-resilience-of-truth]

Wh. Why are you eating a Peach Bao.

~@ask-sage-of-truth

"I didn't bring any of Raisin's crows with me on the way so I ended up getting lost and taking a detour- a nice cookie offered me some and then guided me in the right direction!"

*Okay, now he's got a peach bao too, and the cream sheep is still eating the one it had.*

[gamerbot-22]

Hi, it's me again, I have a silly little thought

What would the Trigun characters do if you came to them in the middle of the night to tell them you threw up (standing over the bed or in the doorway like 'mom I frew up' style)

Oh my god this is so funny what a wonderful return request lol

“Trigang, I threw up—“

TW/CW: Mentions of throwing up but no detail given outside the after effects, written from the idea that the reader was actually sick and is an adult, not explicitly romantic but it can be read that way, Nai is an asshole but we all knew this, no particular version of these characters in mind except for Nai, goofy as hell, barely proofread and I appreciate spellchecks!

Characters Included: Vash the Stampede, Nicholas D. Wolfwood, Meryl Stryfe, Milly Thompson, Millions Knives/Nai

A/N: This was such a silly fucking post I want to give it a paper crown. These are a bit shorter than my usual HC posts (usually it’s 7 points each, but this one only have 5 each) because the premise is a lot lighter than ones I’ve done before.) Also one day I'll make my own Trigun dividers. And finish '98 and Maximum so I have another frame of reference for Nai. But today is not that day!

Likes and Reblogs appreciated and Requests are Open! It’s all under the cut!

Dividers in this post were made by @/strangergraphics ☆

🥀 Vash the Stampede

Instantly hits you with the “Oh no, are you alright?”

Sits up right away, even if he’s a bit slow about it. Even though you’re already up and out of bed he offers you water because he figures your throat must be killing you.

Asks a ton of questions. “Was it something you ate?” “Do you feel any better?” “Why didn’t you come wake me up sooner?” That kind of stuff.

He worries! Especially if you aren’t in town but are just. Ambiently out in the desert. Stomach bugs while your traveling are the worst, he knows from personal experience.

Might tease you about you potentially being contagious but that’s all it is, really. If you’re feeling well enough to go back to sleep he offers himself as Well Ventilated Sacrifice to keep you cozy.

🍭 Nicholas D. Wolfwood

I feel like Wolfwood can’t. Be woken up normally. Like you so much as open the door and he sits bolt upright, wide awake, ready to fucking go. Traumatized dog energy-- /lh

Then you tell him you’re sick and he just collapses back into bed. It takes him a second to like. Settle enough to respond to you and while he’s obviously annoyed at having been woken up, he doesn’t take it out on you.

He doesn’t have any medicine specifically for your stomach, but you’re welcome to one of the candies he has in his jacket pocket. "It’ll help wash the taste out."

After a little while, when he’s actually chilled out from being startled awake, he gets all soft and sleepy again. He advocates for you going back to your own bed to sleep, but if you’re insistent he’ll let you sleep in bed with him.

Do not. Expect him to wake up if you’re sick again, though. Now that he’s filed away the fact that you’re stomach’s not doing great, he knows that any bed movement or floor creaks are most likely just you.

📷 Meryl Stryfe

She doesn't fully wake up when you come to tell her. Like she has her head up off the pillow, yeah, but she's just kinda staring at you with her eyes half-shut and her brain obviously still booting up. You're probably going to have to repeat yourself--

When you repeat yourself/she figures it out herself there's another beat of silence before she does anything.

She has a whole conversation in her head about how you're an adult, you should be fine before she remembers you're her adult and would probably like a hug about it.

She makes you take some medicine for your stomach if you haven't already before you come lie down. And really I think she only lets you share the bed if you are absolutely certain that you're not contagious.

If you aren't, though, it is snuggles until dawn, and then she locks the fuck in if the stomach bug continues.

💼 Milly Thompson

Doesn't even lift her head I don't think--

Again, Milly comes from a family with like a thousand fucking kids, this is not her first rodeo even a little bit.

Like she rolls over, doesn't open her eyes, points at her bag, and mumbles something that vaguely sounds like "leftmost inner pocket..." and surprise surprise! She has some medical stuff stashed away in there.

It ranges from some mild pain meds to stuff for the flu to a tiny little bottle of stuff to settle your stomach.

Once you take that she just throws her arm back with the blanket. Medicine and a Warm Milly should have you on the mend in no time <3

🔪 Millions Knives/Nai

"...And you didn't go to Conrad because...?"

Listen, if we're going with canonical Millions Knives, as he is presented, I genuinely think if you told him that you'd just been sick he would sooner die than let you any further into the room.

Humans are already gross! And you just threw up! From your mouth! In his church! What! The fuck!

Not only does he send you packing to Conrad for an eval/medicine but he orders you to brush your goddamn teeth like yesterday even if you already did.

You're only allowed within six feet of him again when you're no longer considered sick (even if you weren't contagious) and he keeps that fuck-ass hood on for a good while after that--

[pixelated-screaming]

WELCOME TO HELL 2025

HAVE A HELI/ROTOCOPTER GIF FOR YOUR TROUBLES

It only goes downhill from here /lh/silly/j

[beckywiththeshitassbangs]

It’s abt time I captioned this post by saying

hello everyone, welcome to my silly choices account :3

This is a safe space for Becca bangs slander AND love. I sometimes find the bangs hot (yeah sue me)

N*than sterling slander safe space! This is his fans’ enemy territory /j /lh (I slander the character, not the fans dw!!)

Kaitlyn stan safe space, get behind me y’all I will protect you! <33

I’m a Filipina so naturally there’s gonna be TFS filo au in my account because I’d like to be silly sometimes

If I ever post a fic, that means I’ve been possessed. The sky is falling.

Basically I just post every gay little thought I have in my brain, most of them being about my lawyer wife and my duchess wife 🩷

PB might (more than) welcome ai “art” but fortunately I’m not them. (PB slander is always welcome 😚😚)

I enjoy crackships (Becca x kaitlyn, Nathan x beau) so if you don’t fw that, to each their own, and u can ignore it :))

Toxicity will not be tolerated, pls remember to be kind :)

I’m just looking to have some fun with what’s left of the choices (mainly tfs and trr) community. If we’re small enough to fit in a bus, we might as well make one hell of a road trip out of it 🩷

Choices playlists I made:

[cutely-inserts-my-opinion]

"earth x nebula" "earth x taurus" "earth x monty" FUCK THIS EARTH X MONTY X NEBULA X TAURUS. POLY. THEY ALL LOVE EACHOTHER. You're welcome

Understandable

But, anon, I will have to say fuck you for this because oh my god I'm about to have a hell of a time tagging, sighed /lh /silly

[ochrearia]

this has all singlehandedly been the reason my fnf fixation has been going so strong. godspeed to you and the rest of your moots fr /gen

fheidjdjfkfjd godspeed to us because we sure need the help this brainrot is insane /lh you're welcome anon

Honestly I feel like I'm going to have the problem of staying here way too long when everyone else might move on but I have really longgggg fucking. fixations the last one was for 4 years before I finally moved onto something else... hell on earth

Fuck it RGBFverse for 4 years /silly

[kin-katalogue]

Welcome to my self-discovery. /silly

I figured something out last night.

(It's some bull! /lh /silly)

I realized I was drawn to Spiderman and Deadpool as concepts and not characters. Then I figured it out , in the grace and beauty of that one Markiplier quote.

"Deadpool kintype? Who the hell is- Oh my god no, it's some random ass dude who HAPPENS to he Deadpool." /ref

So yeah. I'm just SOME GUY with a similar background to Deadpool, but I'm NOT Wade Wilson. My Spidey was different, I was different, etc.

(I think Spidey was like a little brother to me. I want to remember his name or what he looked like.)

So, this will be a journey.

Here's a picrew of what I looked like as Deadpool for your troubles.

[subway-boss-jericho]

(same anon that threatened you with art)

legally required to tell you which ones I like- understood. Namely it’s steady tracks (bc I’ve actually had a wip drawing of that for uh *checks files* a… year? And a half?) bc I freaking Love It when the twins become Creature.

by extension that means I adore comebee ingo and emmet and the fossil au and spirit keeper.

those are! The main ones but I really like a Whole Lot of ‘em. Very few will be spared in my (eventual) rampage

whoa epic awesome cool wicked thesaurus.com synonym for great

Welcome to the steady tracks curse! you have it in your wips and then years go by! no one is spared, not even me! /lh

That's a great trio to follow up with though. Those four combined are barely similar /lh You've got the two pokemon AUs and the two ingos in the Oldest Guy Ever club. You love to see it.

But no seriously, this is a serious all star team of favorites. I haven't elaborated on a lot of them beyond the masterlist posts I made, which is super on me, but Steady Tracks, Combee AU and Spirit Keeper Ingo are three of my oldest AUs. By extensionm they're also the ones I am most emotionally attached to. I don't know what form/s it will come in, but spirit keeper and combees are DEFINITELY getting more stuff eventually. I just have to figure out. How. and what, and when.

Fossil AU is one of the ones I've had a while but only started developing more recently, so it's currently in my head all the time. I wish I could elaborate on it but unfortunately it is in the stage of mental illness where I have no idea how to talk about it or explain it to anyone outside of two (2) very close friends. that will absolutely fucking happen though i still stare at that drawing i made a few months ago with fossil ingo and little pearl. i'd fucking kill for little pearl so we're clear. I'm so unwell about fossil it's just in the intangible inexplicable kind of way currently

Downside of having all these AUs is that they all exist in different forms in my head. Spirit keeper is probably supposed to be a comic, but might also end up having longer fic-like sections. Combee AU i want to be a fic i think, but I haven't actually WRITTEN anything for it in SO long. it's gotten swept under the artistic rug in favor of silly doodles. Steady tracks is in eternal hell under the curse, as we all know (nodding sagely)((ITS GOING TO BE FUCKING FREE SOON SO HELP ME GOD)) and I'll be honest I haven't thought about fossil au long enough for it to have a solid medium, but i feel like looser doodle comics would be fun. Or maybe more Big Cool Artwork + smaller written thing. Unsure.

But like, god forbid we talk about Mecha AU or Coupled Uncoupled. The original timeline of the mecha au is an official pokemon animated feature-length movie in my head. I have since developed it in a different direction and I have no idea what the hell I'm gonna do with that. There may or may not be a fully 3D animated goodbye to a world animation for that in the next 3 years because i learned how to model and animate in blender and my power is now unlimited. Coupled (Uncoupled) is a series of Long Fics (like, steady tracks long) mixed with song animatics and animation memes. That thing is so not going to end up being told in the form it exists as in my brain. Many of the other aus are like this

Oh that was a Ramble:tm: my bad. All of this was to say hey, if you ever need a reference for steady tracks ingo, I'm trying to make a 3D model for him rn. It's currently being sidelined in favor of the chapter itself and a 2d artwork I'm doing, but some day he'll be Real. I've got everything modeled except for his legs (hell) and prat of his head (also hell but less) so that's at least something

I forgot where I was going with this. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to fuckin prattle. love prattling. in controlled environments

If you like it when there are Creatures, consider also checking out omgPMD AU and Take My Hand. Similar but slightly different concepts. I imagine you've probably already seen them but I figured i'd mention anyway

Thanks for chatting!! <3 <- i did most of the chatting via ramble but i still value you engaging with my work more than i can put into meaningful words

[nok-joke]

would u like to ramble to us abt ur au..... /lh - idia

hi welcome to my roblox hell hole where I, a nearly 20yr old college student, get fixated on silly free games instead of the handfuls of more "my age" games I have on steam.

I have no clue how to explain ANY of this to someone who doesn't know at least Phighting or Blocktales . The simple version is: Crossover au!! Local man(?) gets hit with an exploding sword so hard they wake up in a different world / local man's family vanishes, goes on quest to find them

[godawfulhomestuckships]

Welcome to the mind of a Homestuck shipper.

Hello! This blog is for every Homestuck ship that follows a set of rules of mine. I have everything in a queue system unless its an ask so feel free to ask any time. This blog is 100% in good fun and I even ship some of these I make fun of.

This blog started as a in-joke as I wanted to create a tier list of Homestuck ships because there weren't any with a few rare pairs I find cute so I wanted to be extra and make a blog making fun of everything and everyone in good faith as an OG homestucker. I have been a Homestuck fan for 10 years so trust me when I say I am not taking the piss out of the fandom or what have you since Homestuck is why I find relationships so fun since now my brain is forever quadrantfied.

Also I would like to preface I do not ship most of these. There are some I might be more biased for but I will still give them an attempt silly name. Please do not fight over ships and if they are toxic and what not in the replies because sadly a few I have a HUGE distain for allow them past my personal rule set so if I have to suffer making it, you guys gonna suffer seeing it /LH. Also, just because they are a ship does not mean it has to be seen in the lights of matespriteship and I made it ambiguous on purpose as some of these can work for any quadrant or none at all so forcing a label onto it would be dumb and too much work for my ass.

So if you have any questions or just REALLY want a list of ship names or hell even my own personal OTP's (as basic as most are bc well OG's made it basic LOL) feel free to drop an ask about it!!!

(By the way the tier list will be edited here once I make it because I am still making all the shitty images ok it is 4 am I need to SLEEP I got college in the morning)

-Mod Nepeta

[yfmconfessions2]

this is such a contrast to my last confession but erm

honestly, wish my yfm phase ended like idk, around the same time most people's yfm phase ended (which was around idfk mid 2023?) cause now its a pretty dead fandom (shoutout to that one twt oomf of mine who let me ramble about yfm to them, ily dude/p) with the possibility of ray cancelling yfm 50/50. i do hope i don't sound like im begging that guy to release songs everyday but my point is, idk man, kinda miss tht kinda short-lasted hype around yfm in 2022-early 2023. like i was so excited because i discovered this dumbass (/lh) band in like 2021 and i was so sad it was retired because i loved their songs so only god could describe my excitement when june 1 came, and to be honest, dont wanna sound like a bitch but some of their gen 2 songs disappointed me but i was happy otherwise. and the talent this fandom has like GOD YOU ALL ARE SO TALENTED (except for some of you, you know what im talking about). i dont even know why it hasn't ended yet, perhaps because yfmblr has cool shit and some of the "lore" you guys found out about puff and your hcs and all made me go "he kinda just like me ??" that and i gotta talk about ray's content too. like yeah, welcome to part 10 of "wow smth i liked is now bad! fuck me!" dude, that guy has sm potential in comedy, loved his old shorts and videos. like who tf told that guy to, idk, make those types of crime videos ??? like im serious, where and how. HE'S EVEN COLLABORATING WITH DHAR MANN GOD HAS TO BE KIDDIGN MEEEE. ray please do you need some life-changing video to convince you to do those shorts again. because i can do it bro please i miss the silly shorts. like does he not realize how his views dropped or how most of us dont like the new content or?? like what prompted this man to do these crime videos with shit ai art anyways thanks for listening to my rant, you, yfm-confessions and featheredcartoonist are my favs on yfmblr, and one of my favs on tumblr. i feel like you guys bring that old feeling of the hellyeahyourfavoritemartian blog :3 i didn't have tumblr that early to read them but based off the wayback machine, it looked really cool and fun actually. like ray noticed it whay the hell. anyways wish both of the admins a great day ! take care <3 - ❄️🎀

I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND!!! i still have a lot of faith in things turning around cuz thats just me being me. if theres a dead fandom, its chance of resurgence is running on my hope LMAO

HONESTLY THE YFM FANDOM KINDA COMES ALIVE AGAIN WITH EVERY NEW SONG THAT'S RELEASED.

AND YEAH. I TRULY GENUINELY HOLE RAY OPENS HIS EYES AND REALIZES THAT COMEDY IS WHAT HE DOES BEST AND WHAT EVERYONE ENJOYS!!!!

also feathered cartoonist whos that

[fernlessbastard]

Suppose it's high time I made one of those

Hello, I'm [insert some shortened version of "fernless bastard"], I use he/him, 21yo

I have accidentally become an internet father figure for like half of the tntblr, but honesly, I'm perfectly fine with it (I'm ok with being called "dad", if you want to do so)

I'm just a ND artist here on Tumblr sharing my hyperfixation(s). Tnt duo currently owns my life, and it doesn't seem to be slowing down (2024 edit: yeah, still balls deep in this hell/lh), but I sometimes do some other stuff too (not a lot tho--). Can't keep a consistent schedule, don't worry if I disappear for longer periods of time, I'm just a little silly like that

If you wanna commission me:

Also, LINK TO TNTBLR COMMUNITY THAT I KINDA ACCIDENTALLY MADE!!!! You're more than invited to join :]

I also run @tntblr-community-official so follow it to have all the community updates in one place

Anyway, I also have Twitter, Instagram and AO3 so feel free to check them out

Asks are very welcome, and even encouraged, and although I might not answer immediately, I'll get to it eventually, pinky promise

btw as a bonus I made a post explaining the context for the iconic tntduo kissing image for the newer folk (some crucial tntduo fandom lore and context for what you might see in the earlier content of the two)

Tags:

#fernless bastard - my art

#ferns spicy art - my more raunchy pieces (some are tagged as mature content) - MINORS DNI.

#fern writing - some snippets of my writing, as well as links to my fics

(old tag) #losing face quackbur - my fic on ao3 - “Losing Face”, feel free to check it out!

#ferns faves - self explanatory

(old tag) #fern - more personal stuff, a general tag

#fernless rants & #fern rambles - both positive and negative rants and random thoughts

(old tag) #tw quackbur shipping - a joke tag i sometimes tag my quackbur posts with

#support art - I try to tag all drawings I reblog as this

#support writing  - I try to tag all pieces of writing / fic links I reblog as this

#support animation - I try to tag all animations/animatics I reblog as this

#support music - I try to tag all music I reblog as this

(Old tag) #thank youu - I tend to respond to reblogs that say something, so, idk, yeah

Some great people you should check out! 

(aka the tumblr users I’ve accidentally adopted + my bitch)

@octobre-ackedia my beloathed<3 unhinged ramblings

@eggicup she does art and writing!

@ace-of-tnt also does great writing!

@quacktities my beloved son with major brainrot /pos

@your-best-emo best boy *pat pat*

@pebblebrain-by-lovejoy my sweet boy who does art and writing!

@pupperish another chaotic child /affectionate

@tntduocore my baby who also has major brainrot

@tnt-my-duo another delightful, brainrotted person whom I adore

@lookineedsleep does art and I’m so proud

now, these two arent adopted, but

@brrxmbll my fren who does very pog art!! :DD

@peachtub my other fren who does very pog art!!! :DD

[prismartist]

The Devil's in the House of the Rising Sun

Fandom: Empires SMP

Words: 1032

CW: mild horror, mild body horror, vomiting, nightmares, derealization, demonic possession

A/N: yes i made an original "song" for this. i put some references to other Red antagonists from minecraft roleplays as well, see if you can spot them ;)

tbh this is just a call-out post for mc series always using nether blocks for supernatural villains. use end blocks or moss blocks for once smh /lh.

enjoy!!

Ao3 Link

- - -

Beware the Maroon, the colour of Hell The endless Nether is the shell Of sprawling dark rocks framed by Black Attached and covering the Devil’s back

Fwhip sings the old folk song quietly as he traverses the cobble bridges, dodging fireballs casually as he reviews his notes. The surrounding danger doesn’t faze him–being the Ruler of Darkness and Chaos, it shouldn’t, and he has more important matters at hand anyhow. The demon is causing far more trouble than he likes, and he takes every opportunity he can to study it. Committing its characteristics to memory will probably be useful.

The heat of the Nether doesn’t seem to be as sweltering, somehow. He hasn’t broken a sweat yet either. As the fireballs whizz by his back, they’re almost… cold.

Fwhip halts in his tracks as another Ghast misses. Did the Nether always feel this nice?

He ponders for a bit, then shrugs before continuing on his way. He must be getting used to it then.

Beware the Crimson, the vines and sobs Your love, your land, the whispers do rob Gives you death, and riches, and nothing less In return, gives back all your promises

Something squirms under Fwhip’s skin.

On most nights he jolts up in bed, unsure if he is forced awake by a nightmare or the uncomfortable feeling creeping down his spine. Flashes of a red room dissipate from his mind as a dark, thick, thing crawls down the back of his arm.

He looks, and despite the lack of light he swears he sees a crimson worm-like strand under his skin, pulsing as it pauses its journey for a brief second. It’s dense, reminiscent of a varicose vein, and Fwhip feels it straining, as if holding itself back from tearing his skin open.

It escapes to his fingertips, leaving a chill in its trail, and disappears.

Fwhip feels like he should shudder. He doesn’t.

Beware the Red Sun, of endless shine Its dust trails a bright, useless line The only comfort ‘cross endless yellow Blood dripping in a hallway narrow

Fwhip hums, kicking the red “Corruption” with a grimace. He should really clean these up soon. Not doing so might make the demon think they’re welcome, and that’s the last thing Fwhip wants. No no, he’s very pleased with his own corruption, thank you very much. The glistening redstone set in deepslate was much more aesthetically pleasing than whatever the demon had in mind. Who were they to impede onto the Ruler of Darkness and Chaos’ idea of… Darkness and Chaos?

Not wishing to frown further at the gross crimson (that was almost familiar; did it always remind Fwhip of something wriggling just under his skin, threatening to burst from it?), Fwhip turns his attention up. It’s a nice, sunny day, perfect for farming and expanding the Grimlands. He takes a deep breath, taking in the fresh air and the smell of gunpowder wafting from the farm nearby.

There’s a taste of iron as well.

How wonderful.

Fwhip finds himself humming a tune. Despite its dark tone, he knew it to be a song for children; it’s perhaps a little silly to be singing a lullaby.

Well, he can’t help it. He’s always liked songs about themself.

Fwhip stops humming.

Did he?

Where did he hear that song from again? He doesn’t remember learning it.

I learned it from the gnomes, you know.

The corruption hums lowly from under him. It might be singing along.

They liked it too.

The sun is bright. It’s wrong.

No, no it’s not. It’s lovely.

It’s sweltering.

The sun is bright. Red, even.

A breathy chuckle brushes against Fwhip’s ear.

That’s how much they feared me.

He can’t turn his head.

Was there something dense wrapping around his feet?

It’s wrapping around his neck too. It feels like a hug.

You’re doing wonderful, my test subject.

He tries to scream, but something thick blocks his throat. It’s wriggling, bubbling up. He can’t tell if it’s bile or something else.

The hug tightens around his neck. He can’t keep it down.

Perfect. So little struggle.

But for now, it’s time for me to move on.

Fwhip opens his mouth, and instead of a scream, Red comes out.

Fwhip jolts awake, scrambling at his blanket in a cold sweat. He glances around frantically, begging his eyes to adjust to the dark. Fwhip presses a hand to his chest, and feels his heart beating rapidly against his skin. At least he’s still alive. And not being eaten by red vines, judging by the lack of it wrapping around his body.

He takes deep breaths, trying to calm down. It’s dark (not Red, no, it’s just black), the outline of chests barely making themselves known. Fwhip clutches at his velvety blanket, and inhales the grassy smell of petrichor from outside.

He doesn’t hear a song, or a growling laugh. He doesn’t taste blood on his tongue.

Fwhip sighs and lies back down, his hand still on his chest, as if trying to keep his heart–or something else–inside of it. He tries to goes back to sleep, his quiet mind somewhat alleviating the unease.

He doesn’t have nightmares for a while after that.

- - -

Gem places down the spruce rhythmically, grateful for the mindless task providing stimulation. The Wizard Tower was coming together quite nicely. Soon enough it’ll be complete, and she can put her powers and studies to use in it.

Hopefully it’ll help with learning about the demon and the Corruption, she thinks with a frown. My nightmares aren’t a good sign. I need to find a way to stop them. They’re a danger to the server.

You’re a danger to your friends, a voice whispers, but she doesn’t dwell on that.

Gem continues building. She doesn’t break a sweat, to her pleasant surprise. She must be getting used to the altitude then.

She can’t help but place the blocks to the beat of a song playing in her head.

Beware the Corruption, the swirling strands Empires so strong will fall at its hands Taint sacred ground, still water shall boil Beware the comforting burns of the Devil’s toil

Something squirms under Gem’s skin.

[mileycfan4eva33]

Fandom: SVU

Title:Epitaph Song

Chapter: 1 Down South

P O V: Amanda Rollins

Billy's Diner

Loganville, GA 2020

(A/N: Thank you as always for the readers who take the time to review, favorite or follow. As usual I own none of these SVU characters just my original characters. All others belong to NBC, Dick Wolf and Wold Ent. Jessie, Billie do not exist in this fic, I am still deciding if Noah dose or not. If you have a preference as to if you want Noah in it or not hit me up reviews motivate me.)

"Oh, Air Condition, thank God! It's hotter than a roasted pig on a skewer out there." Olivia Benson's laugh is light and airy as we enter the restaurant. "Oh, Amanda, I love your expressions, don't ever change. Seriously your southern drawl is so cute. Don't ever lose it."

"No worries, Olivia; it's been nearly ten years since I moved to New York. I haven't lost it yet." "Thanks again for coming down south with me. It means a lot."

"Your welcome Amanda, are you feeling any better since this weekend?" Shaking the soreness out of my weary bones I feel a yawn snaking up my jawlines as I try to fight it off to no avail, the yawn is relentless in its attempt to escape.

"A little thanks I am still tired and nausea I don't know why I slept all weekend, yet I still feel dizziness not as much as this weekend, but I am still weakened almost as if I am drained of all energy." Sliding into the booth, I lean back against the cool plastic backboard. "I'm sorry for calling out on you this weekend, Captain."

"Amanda, please, stop don't worry about it your health is too important don't apologize." "I am sorry, Liv, not just for this weekend, but now we're both away from NYC."

"Because your dad passed away, Amanda, we're not here on vacation. Kat and Fin understand, and Chief Garland sent two detectives to help out, SVU is covered. Please take some of this concern and apply it to yourself; you lost your dad. I know you haven't been close to him in years, but he is still your dad, give yourself the allowance to mourn, Amanda. Don't hide your emotions down and pretend that everything is perfectly fine."

"I don't think it's hit me yet, Olivia. I just don't feel anything." Olivia's hand slips over my hand as we lay them on the table, waiting on the waitress to come over to us. "It will Amanda, I don't know when sweetie, it may take weeks, days, months, but it will hit you. I just want you to know that I am here, honey, whenever you want to talk."

"Thank you, Liv; I appreciate this jester I know we haven't always been close, but I love the friendship that has been built over the last four years." "As do I Amanda. I love the trust that we've built within each other, the respect. Where is the waitress?"

"Liv, it's the south; we take our sweet time with everything, ain't no rushin' in the country life."

"You ever miss living down here, Peach?" "Honestly, Liv, there are parts I miss like my family, friends. I miss the comfort in knowing there is always someone here who will have your back. What I don't miss is everyone knowing everyone else business."

"Is that a true thing? Everyone else knows each other's business?"

As if God was given me a clue incomes Betsy Jane Rose "Oh, my bless my heart Amanda-Taylor Rollins, is that truly you?" I pick my head up, gritting my teeth as she comes flying inside the restaurant arms wild "Betsy Jane Mary-Sue it sure is, wow child it's been yonders since you've rolled back into these parts."

"Oh, I am so sorry about your daddy, such a shame bless your heart honey-bee."

"Oh well, how sweet of you, Ms. Betsy, so very kind of you thank you, how did you hear about my daddy's passing per se? We didn't put it in the Tribune or online."

"Oh, Sugar, you know how these things work, Lord, who needs that dingy old paper when we gave word of mouth. Has it been that long Darlin? Surely you remember the good old Betsy-Jane- Mary-Sue train."

"Well, butter my butt and call me a biscuit. Oh Amanda, let me enlighten you wow New York City has slapped you silly, child. Anyways So Mary-Jo Higgins oh heavens I was born at night, but not last night! Duh, of course, you don't know who Mary-Jo Higgins is, well back in our days of youth she went by Mary-Jo Robins, so any who baby, Mary-Jo is now an RN."

"That's a Registered Nurse, by the way." "Yes, Ms. Rose, I know what an RN is."

"So yeah Mary-Jo works a that's Loganville Medical Center where your daddy was brought to by the Ambulance. So Mary-Jo was there when he passed bless his heart so Mary-Jo well you know good ol' Mary-Jo never could keep a secret so of course, she told her Mama who had to run down to the Salon to say to Ms. Sue who of course told the whole Salon."

Both of us laugh, "How did you find out, darlin?"

"Oh, you know this little thing called HIPPA they like to notify the Next of Kin, and since my parents you know divorced many moons ago, that would make me the eldest child his next of kin, since he hasn't gotten to remarry yet."

"Speaking of kin-folk dear, where is that sister of yours? She straighten her life out yet? Kimberly coming on her own?"

"No, Ma'am, I'm afraid she ain't gonna make it, you know the whole being in jail thing it kind of puts a cramp on a person's freedom. Thank you so much for coming over though, I sure don't want to keep you."

I don't give her a chance to answer quickly, sliding back into the booth turning to Olivia. Just as our waitress comes over. "good afternoon- honey pies, what can I get you ladies?" after we order, I lean back as Olivia starts to laugh, unable to hold in her amusement over Ms. Rose any longer. "So that's how news travels down south Captain." eagle eyeing Betsy across the room, I can already see she's on her cell phone. "Well, the whole damn town will know I am back soon enough." "that has to be frustrating, Amanda." "Oh, Liv, you ain't got a clue. Every day dealing with women like, is there any doubt about why I got out of here faster than a bat out of hell."

I stay silent about the other reason I left Georgia as soon as I was old enough my sexuality there's no room for differences here in the good old south. No way could I tell Olivia this though she has no idea I am a lesbian. "So, is your Mom coming?" "Lord, no Liv she's up in NY taking care of Mason, Mama said she was sorry the son of a bitch died, but she dumped his ass years ago, let his new hussy handle the affairs."

"My dear new sister, who I haven't even met yet. She's handling everything as per my dad's living will."

"Amanda, I am so sorry." "Don't be Olivia, I am fine." "Of course you are." I don't reply not because I don't have the response in me but because the doors burst open and a vast mass of people come pouring into the already packed diner.

"Amanda! It is true! You are back!" Tommy Jake Edwards "TJ" calls out "Yo Ms. Betsy Jane was right boys. Good Ol Rollins is back in town." there are rumblings from the entire group of men "Liv meet the former jocks of Loganville High School Pyro Red Devils who ruled LHS's halls from 1996-1999."

"Rollins, how can you sneak back into town and say nothing? Yo, Rollins, that is rude! I thought we were your boys!"

"Bump that T-rolls, I am pissed forget these clowns, I am your cousin! Uncle Jimmy is my kin-folk too. Where's my love?"

"Hey, Jensen, I just got back into town like literally ten minutes ago. I'm sorry it's been crazy these last few days. My head is still spinning. I haven't told anyone yet, sorry, truly."

Jensen's arms wrap around me tightly. "No worries, cuz. I got you. I am sorry I know you and your Pa wasn't close but damn it still sucks." "Thanks, Jensen, yeah, it does."

Coming out of his hug, I'm met by his brother Blake who I hug as tightly. "Yo boys will catch you later going to hang with family." the rest of the crew waves blowing me kisses as Liv, and I make room for these two. "Hi. I'm Olivia Benson, Amanda's boss, and friend."

"Oh honey-child we know who you are, we've heard all about you now haven't we Blake?" "Oh, yes, Yes, we have well let us introduce ourselves since Miss. Amanda has the manners of a pig. I am Blake Yankee; Jensen is my twin brother; our Mama is Amanda's dad sister."

"Were you three close growing up?" "Oh, tighter than chili papers, Mama, us, and our uncle TC's kids, our cousins Alonso and Scottie, are coming in tomorrow." "They called us the Rollin- Yankee-Terrors." Sipping my sweet tea, I groan, remembering all the names the seven of us use to get growing up. "don't tell her that she is my boss."

"Oh relax Junebug, it ain't like I told her about the time you put laxatives in Ernie Reynaldo's cornbread when you were ten and locked him in the outhouse for the whole day and told our teacher he ran away to the circus."

Olivia laughs so loudly. I feel my temperature rise in my face. "You what?" my face buries into the palms of my hands. "Yo, boy, that was nothing. Remember when we were twelve, and Kyle Kane told Manda she was uglier than a burnt barn, she took his pants and underwear while he was changing and threw it into the river."

Both boys bang on the table laughing, shoving each other as Olivia arched an eyebrow in my direction "Oh, yeah I do, she let the anger seethe inside all week till Saturday when the whole town was gathered for the annual fishing competition. When Kyle's dad was with the reporter for Atlanta news, Kyle comes walking bare-ass naked; the entire town saw him walking his little dude swinging in the breeze. Kyle was grounded for months. "

My embarrassment only increases as I lay my head down, groaning while all three laugh. "Oh, God, even as a kid, Amanda, you were a rule-breaker and a little shit-head." I feel Olivia's hand stroke mine laughing as she hangs her head down tears running down her face, which a lovely rose color.

I only pick my head up when the food arrives, feeling my whole body shiver and jolt as I lean back, smelling the greasy food. Reaching for the ketchup, I pop a fry in my mouth. I still can't shake this feeling of being drained or the tightness in my head.

"Oh My." another voice pops into my world as I see Mr. Jason Axson and Mrs. Janet Axson coming in with their two kids Christopher 17, Savannah 14. her voice cuts through the air. "How are you, Sugar?' "I am just peachy; thank you, just enjoying dinner with my family, here."

"Oh, of course, we don't mean to interrupt. You could use the food; obliviously, you are mighty thin sugar. Your daddy was right; they are working your tail to its bone up there in that big city unless you are sick again, darling."

"No Ma'am, I am right as a peach as I said, but I am trying to enjoy my dinner." "Yeah, Janet let these nice folks eat; worry about our own family; I do apologize, Miss. Amanda lovely to see you again, we shall pop in at another time."

Olivia's eyes stare right into mine. I know she's wondering about the "Are you sick again" line my face flushes as I look down, avoiding her eyes and the question. Another part of my past she has no idea about, My stomach rolls as I think about all the secrets and pressures I have on top of me, none of which Olivia needs to add to her plate.

"I need to use the bathroom, I'll be back, excuse me." getting up I start to head there, of course, a two-minute walk becomes ten as I am stopped by multiple people offering their condolences. My back hits the wall just as another wave of dizziness hits me; I do everything inside of me not to show it to anyone, I can see Olivia's eyes on me from across the room. Yet it isn't Olivia who catches my attention, rare I know.

This time, Savannah's voice so young, scared, and nervous. I am standing right next to their table as I hear Savannah say. "Mama, Daddy, I have something to tell you." Savannah's beautiful emerald eyes glisten as she stares at her parents. "I am a Lesbian, and I plan to come out this weekend at the prom."

Savannah's courage freezes me. I am forty and don't have the courage she has at fourteen-years-old. I can't think fast enough to react before her mom is out of her chair, smacking Savannah across her face. "You are not gay! Stop your lying, you fifthly whore! Who put these lies in your head? You are a good girl, a good baptist girl. Take it back!"

"No Mama, I can't I won't because I am gay, and yes I am a good girl, I am a baptist and MVP for the last two years in all the southern regions. I will play at college, and I will go pro, and my sexuality won't stop me from doing any of that."

"Fool, of course, it will, but you won't have to because you are not gay!"

"Mama, I am please just listen to me. Stop being such a bitch."

Her dad jumps up, grabbing at Savannah as I react, finally racing towards Savannah as Jason starts yelling. "Don't talk to your mother that way! Ever! No daughter of mine will be a sinner! I could deal with you being pregnant, not this! This is unforgivable. You either get over this phrase you little slut or you are OUT OF THIS FAMILY! Let's go now, Christopher, Janet leave her."

I hurry towards Savannah, who is trying with her whole body to remain strong as her family walks out. I know her face is stinging from the assault, but it's nothing like the pain in her soul. The rest of the restaurant sits there, not offering to help just turning to their families. My hands connect to Savannah's as I help her sit down "Sweetie, I am so sorry that your parents reacted to you."

"It's okay, ma'am, I excepted this. It was so so stupid-crazy to even except for any different outcome."

"No honey, it isn't it's not crazy or stupid to except unconditional love from your family; that's what parents are supposed to do. Of course, you wanted to tell them living in secrets, hiding who you are, it's exhausting. The if only or what-ifs or the I should have's, they take their tolls."

"It's 2020, not 1990 times have changed; maybe the south should catch up." My hands rub Savannah's back softly. "I'm from here honey, so I get it baby-girl I know how scary accepting your sexuality is, I know how painful it is to hold this all inside, to feel as if you ain't normal simply because you don't feel fireworks when the popular jocks kiss you."

"I knew that when I was thirteen, I felt it already I was great to hang out with boys all day when it came to playing ball, or telling dirty jokes or pulling pranks, but when it came to who I was attracted to sexually or emotionally, guys they just didn't do it for me. I could feel myself gravitating toward girls in ways that I didn't with boys."

"Don't let your sexual identity label you or define you—whether it be as lesbian, bisexual, asexual, or another term—how you choose to label yourself is not based on a checklist. You can still be everything you just told your parents; you can play any instrument you want to learn, you can be the best damn softball player this world's ever seen."

"Savannah, I started figuring it out at thirteen, but I didn't let myself act physically until I was 16, I kissed a girl at a party for the first time, and it was magical. Everything flowed so naturally, my body just knew what to do. I reacted to her in a way that felt right—the way I had always envisioned the first kiss to be. I tried saying I was bisexual for a quick minute and even had sex with several guys to prove that I wasn't an abomination the way the church, my family, and everyone else in this town always said gay people are. Still, I could feel myself gravitating toward girls in ways that I didn't with boys."

"Did your family accept you?"

"I don't know I never told anyone I was too scared. It was a different time back then before it got better or internet support. There were no Gay pride parades even now at forty living in NYC, a place filled with cultural and sexuality differences. I am still living in that small-town mindset. I can't tell anyone. I can't even tell the woman who I am madly in love with who I know is so accepting of people. Because I am still afraid that even with an open mind as beautiful as Olivia's, I am afraid she'll reject me."

"Savannah, I know this feels like the end of the world right now, it's not I am right by your side. I will support you; you can stay with me. Will get through this together."

"Thank you, Miss. Amanda. Thank you so much. I think you should tell this Olivia lady how you feel. Even with my parent's rejection, I feel such a weight off my chest; I feel as if I can finally breathe."

"Amanda, maybe you should listen to Savannah, she seems like a brave young lady, and I love women who are strong in body, mind, and spirit. You have a very sexy strong body, and I know your mind is sharp, so if you get some balls Amanda and tell me how you feel face to face, I think we might be able to make a beautiful connection, of our minds, souls and our bodies." Olivia's voice completely freezes every sense, emotion and body function inside of me. I can't speak, think, move or even breathe.

Did she just hear me confess my deepest feelings for her?

[fukounaboy]

HELLO ! ! !

Welcome to my blog. !!!

Here is some. V silly stuff about me. So you can get to know me. Or. Whatever the point of these are. !!! :D

Anyways,,,

BASIC STUFF :3

(Bold (I meant ITALIC but whatever...) is most preferred !!!)

☆ - Name(s) :: Ciel , Cecilia , Collette , Chelovek , Tobias , Mattias , Koda. Give me new ones too. And also I'll probably steal your name if I like it so. Don't mind that. :3

☆ - Pronouns :: It/Its , Kie/Kym , Hy/Hym , Literally anything that isn't She/He/They , Hell give me new pronouns idc /lh /gen

☆ - Age :: 16 !! (Birthday is 10/25)

☆ - I am :: Genderfluid , Abrosexual , Arretaromantic , Hypersexual , Hyperromantic , Aplatonic , Fictoromantic , etc (This will absolutely probably change eventually. So.)

☆ - I am diagnosed with ADHD and GAD, & I'm probably autistic n probably have HPD. Probably more undiagnosed, but that isn't really much of your business anyway. (/lh)

☆ - I 🤍 my husband @outlying-hyppocrate :3 <1212

Fandoms / Stuff I enjoy / Idrk !!!

☆ - Genshin Impact , Honkai StarRail , Identity V , Zenless Zone Zero , Wuthering Waves , Whump , Vocaloid , Character.AI , Popee The Performer , Cult Of The Lamb , Deltarune , Fundamental Paper Education , Hello Charlotte , PJSK , Billie Bust Up , Willard (1971) , Edward Scissorhands , Ride The Cyclone, Cookie Run Kingdom/Ovenbreak

☆ - Music :: Will Wood (+ Anything with Will in it like A Verbal Equinox, The Stereosexuals, etc) , STOMACH BOOK , Sarah And The Safe Word , Jhariah , Buerak , MARETU , Ghost and Pals , Ghost , Deco27 , Orville Peck , Arctic Monkeys , Yaelokre , That Handsome Devil , The Paper Chase/John Congleton (And The Nighty Nite) , Alice Schach and the Magic Orchestra , Utsu-P , Chonny Jash , Masa Works Design , Tom Lehrer

☆ - YouTubers :: Ludwig , JJJacksfilms , Sambucha , Neurosama/Vedal , Zy0x , Penguinz0 , Shayy , ItzJolted , Vlad Ncl , WavyWebSurf , Why Suda , ItsPaikon , TehMimi , Tuonto , LoeyLane , Camila (VTuber) , Skeppy , Internet Anarchist , Whang! , LSuperSonicQ , Karl Jobst , Nick Robinson , Matt Rose , Filian , Danny Gonzalez , Kurtis Conner , F1nn5ter , Kenji

Uhhh random stuff !!!

☆ - I am a Therian (Red fox , Crow , Cat , Moth , Rat , etc) , Otherkin (Angelkin , Vampirekin , Dollkin , etc) , Fictionkin (Mainly Aventurine (HSR), and Tobias Schneien/Carmelo DeMonte (Ghost Eyes)) , OCkin (Mattias , Caelum)

☆ - Very silly. The silliest even.

☆ - Age/Pet regressor. !!!

☆ - Professional silly lil guy.

☆ - Pro-let people do whatever the fuck they want on the internet because literally what does it matter in the grand scheme of things. Who does it hurt in the world. (No one that's who.)

☆ - Self-shipper. I take it v seriously and I will not interact with you if we share an F/O I'm non-sharing. (You can follow/interact but I won't do the same for you. It isn't anything personal rlly you're probably cool (/gen) but I just can't yk.)

☆ - Forgot to add but I am a system !!! I am a multigenic system (ADD MOST NOTABLE/"STONGEST" ORIGINS HERE WHENEVER) of...~20 smth. Nobody cares enough to add tags (and my (Ciel's) own personal fear of appearing "cringe" permeates through the whole system so. No tags !!! (Not saying it's cringe for anyone else btw !!! Just me/us. We used to watch a bunch of those "DID faker tiktok compilation" videos on YT and it made all of us. Mentally go back like 10 steps. Idc if you use tags but for us...not yet, at least.)) BUT if you want to know who's fronting or wanna talk to someone else, just ask !!! (☀️ is the most friendly out of everyone here. He would probably like saying hi if you so please. :3)

☆ - #1 PLAYABLE PANTALONE BELIEVEr. TRUST ME. PLEASE HOYO. (I dont give a FUCK what that one """leaker""" said he will be playable or else.)

☆ - If I make posts like. Freaking out. Just ignore it please. Bcz im probably just having an episode or smth.

☆ - Also if I say I'm gonna kms I'm either joking or just. Not being serious. So.

☆ - Also I lllooovvveee attention and I will do lots to get it. (See above 2. Sometimes.) So uh. Yeagh sorry sometimes I will say lots and lots of things. Bcuz I want attention. So gimme pleaaaase thank you. :3

☆ - Please don't DM me! If you wanna talk to me, send me an ask with whatever you wanna say. I won't respond to your DM (unless I know you very well). I have very bad social anxiety, and people DMing me randomly scares me. (Crispin is an exception.)

IF YOU DO NOT WANT ME TO ANSWER YOUR ASK PUBLICLY TELL ME IN THE ASK OR I WILL ANSWER IT PUBLICLY. :3

☆ - I think thats all :3

☆ - My DNI is ➡️➡️➡️➡️ here!! ⬅️⬅️⬅️⬅️ Right here!!! DNI!!! Read it oh my fucking god!!! It only takes a few seconds!!! Read it right now to see if you can interact BEFORE you interact!!! Please!!! I am so tired of blocking antis who follow me just read the fucking DNI!!!

Accounts / links (in the same place because of image limit. :'])

@wh-wh-whumpified - Where I reblog whump stuff !!! (I WILL WRITE WHUMP EVENTUALLY...(I am LYING))

@genderhoarded - Genderhoard reblogs where I reblog stuff I shove into my genderhoard. >:)

@angelkiddoz - Agere/Petre reblogs !!

@ciel-x-crispin-incorrect-quotes Joke acc. Probably repurposing soon.

@mizukistims - Stimboards bcz i love them. :3

@takis-official what can I say. Takis official.

@bleuctipie - repurposing.

Uhhh I have many more blogs but those are the ones i will let you see. :3

DON'T ASK WHY I HAVE MULTIPLE PRONOUN SITE ACC THINGS. OKAY. :3

Pronouns.page

Pronouns.cc

Rentry / Rentry 2 / Rentry 3 (Kin stuff) / Rentry 4 (fav characters from everything ever. V important stuff.) / Rentry 5 / Rentry 6

Youtube / Youtube 2

Pinterest / Pinterest 2

Spotify / Spotify 2 (Will add later. :'])

Spacehey

Reddit

Instagram / Instagram 2

Discord - Histrionique (main) ccasadastraphobia (alt)

Anddd that is it ! :3

Thank you for reading. :D