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just watched the hockey clip. that looked intentional. i'm not a crazy huge hockey fan or anything but i've never seen a hockey player throw their foot like that before. it didn't look like he slipped or was off-balance or anything. bro looked like he was staring directly at his victim, deliberately moving around the other player to get in range of him, then apparently deliberately swinging his foot toward his neck.
#fucking brutal#what a tragic way to go#right in front of his girl too#i hope there is justice#even if the other guy wasn't intending to kill him#he was being so fucking reckless that he deserves to go to prison anyway#if you can't comprehend that swinging your bladed foot toward someone face can result in their death#you can't be trusted as a part of our society
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#the Nowhere Man who waits and the God of Stories who watches
#mobius#loki#lokius#mcuedit#lokiedit#marveledit#loki spoilers#owen wilson#tom hiddleston#owenwilsonedit#marvel#dianagifs#😩😭#what... in the most tragic of romances did i just witness#gotta rewatch tomorrow but cannot BELIEVE how okay i am with everything atm???#their story clearly isn't done their burden is obviously going on without each other and they exist fundamentally connected#they've lost everything but being able to see mobius every step of the way is enough for loki to make the sacrifice#and mobius left for his timeline with no other purpose than to make sure loki could do just that#now they're lost without each other?? the only thing mobius can do is exist for a moment in loki's creation i'm UNWELL#god this is the star crossed angst that's gonna keep me going for the rest of my LIFE they're my everything#loki s2 spoilers
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I don’t know why people are saying the Hansry reunion at Suchdol was underwhelming?? Look at the time they’re in, they can’t exactly go around screeching their feelings for each other—but if Henry stands up for Hans during the talk with Hanush about his wedding, it’s so bloody obvious how in love Hans is with Henry.
That speechless, longing look he gives Henry when Hanush says Hans isn’t happy about the wedding, and Henry looks directly at Hans and says with intimate understanding, “I can see why.”
The conversation with Hans after Hanush leaves where he tells Henry how worried he was about him, how Henry promises to tend to his wounds later and Hans’ voice softens in the cutest way because he’ll do just about anything to be alone with Henry again.
Hans mentioning finding somewhere more ‘private’ for the two of them to live together while Hans actively sabotages his wedding at every turn (lmao love him for that).
And when Hans says, “You and me… I guess we’ll have to wait and see” - if you listen to the determination and thought in his tone, this isn’t him saying he’s laying down and taking whatever is being forced on him. It’s him promising Henry that there will be a ‘you and me’ regardless of what happens. Which means even if he does get married, he’s going to find a way to still be with Henry—status and expectations be damned.
They literally cannot live without each other, it’s absolutely disgusting and perfect and horrible and lovely and devastatingly beautiful, I hate them so goddamn much (affectionate)
#kcd#kcd2#kingdom come deliverance 2#kingdom come deliverance#kcd spoilers#kcd2 spoilers#hansry#henry of skalitz#hans capon#lord hans capon#apple babble 🍎#apple plays kcd2#i actually didn’t mind that ending at all like you gotta realize how to read tones fr#there was nothing in Hans voice that even HINTED that he was going to abandon Henry in any way#it actually sounded like he was already strategizing how to do what he does best#and be an absolute troublemaking brat to keep them together lmaooo#the historical accuracy part of kcd of course can likely steer a tragic route#but i genuinely believe kcd2’s ending gave us pretty good hope for Hansry in the next game#anyway#that’s just my onion
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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah
#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again#the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys#saw#well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand#know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows#your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn#thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down#something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness#the transformation of a man into a monster#and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption#sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this#do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore#it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating#fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn#i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him#until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else#well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God#where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium#anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus#maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man#i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed#if only he hadn't been weaponized first#god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already#but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there#rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts#ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly#cat chat
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like I had this thought!! what if Maomao feelings for Shisui and the aftermath of what happened to her makes her even more hesitant to accept Jinshi's feelings
like if Maomao's love for Shisui didn't save her, one could make the assumption that it wouldn't save Jinshi either!!!
like the love was there but it wasn't enough!!!
It will just reinforce Maomao belief that she as a lowly servant doesn't matter. that her love won't matter. it won't keep anyone safe
and that's what matters more to Maomao!!
she would rather have her loved one's safe than be loved herself
She would rather Jinshi be alive then returning Maomao's feelings and risking him having the same fate as Shisui!!!
keep in mind I've only watched the anime but I know some spoilers from the light novel but I haven't read it.
but like Shisui being self-sacrificial will make Maomao more self-sacrificial in order to protect the one's she loves!!
I LOVE COMPLEX CHARACTERS!!! THIS IS SO JUICY!!!!
#i love someone seeing bring self-sacrificial as a heroic thing but in the end it only will make the ones they did it for also do it!!#the rwby stan in me being like omg parallels!!! the effect of trying to be heroic!!! and negative consequences of it!!!#tragic yuri#it will get ya#having a homoerotic friendship that burns intense and fast will shape u in such interesting ways!!!#a milestone for every queer girl#i think people arguing about whether shimao or jinmao is the better one and deserves to space in the story is stupid#both are important#Maomao loves both of them#in different ways yes#but they also got different time#Shimao developed a lot faster bcs they didn't have obstacles in the beginning and they were running on Shisui's borrowed time#Jinmao developed a lot slower bcs they had obstacles in the beginning but they have time#they still have a long way to go their relationship they're only in the very beginning of it#both may be different#but both still have merit#both of them make the story more interesting#sure it might be more complex that way but that's what makes it better i think#the apothecary diaries#apothecary diaries#maomao#shimao#jinmao#knh
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sam is like his father. was innocent to the reality of what was going on until something bad happened and he was forced to become a monster he shouldn’t have been, all for the greater good.
dean is like his mother. cursed with the knowledge of their reality, forced to grow up in it and ready to do anything to save their counterpart from anything that tries to kill them, even at the expense of the greater good.
#season 4 episode 3 i am going insane#she struck the deal for john??? are you serious???#whats the literary word for this. opposite of foils#a mirror#i love analysing everything i watch like the english lit freak i shouldve been#this show is driving me crazy. i’m gonna go nuts. SO MUCH DRAMATIC IRONY IN THIS DAMN EPISODE#tragic that mary never wanted them to grow up the way she did and yet they had to.#supernatural#spn#spn season 4#sam winchester#dean winchester#mary winchester#john winchester#i should make a tag for how much i talk about spn. because its a lot#sam yaps about spn
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quick question because i’m curious:
#very sure if the homewrecking plotline was on this it would win with flying colors#so i’m curious what the general consensus is outside of that#the hair thing. i know it seems kinda stupid compared to the rest of the huge problems on this list#but it is genuinely one of the largest mischaracterizations about him in my opinion#he would NOT HAVE THAT HAIR BRO. it makes him look more like a teenager!!! which he always hated!!! like!!!!!#it’s constantly in his eyes!!! bro gets annoyed by the tiniest little things you think he’s gonna be chill with constantly sweeping#his bangs out of his face? VERY LOUD INCORRECT BUZZER#literally all of these are so extremely out of character i’ve spent the last several days just thinking about this#but i’m personally going with him not being affected by his apocalypse#0% chance the guy would’ve just casually told lila to get down and then get out of there#PTSD is a bitch but it’s real!!!!! and i’m beyond pissed the writers completely wrote it off#now i do think an in character five would’ve put up a bit more of a fight before giving into the cleanse#but i don’t think that was actually that big of a mischaracterization#in season 3 he was told by himself not to save the world and then he gave up just like that#as sad as it is i do think he’d surrender if told that there was no way out#now: his surrendering to the world ending and not caring that his family was off probably dying without him while he was off in the subway#that is very out of character#for sure he would’ve immediately turned back to get back to them#but a five who discovers many many versions of himself who have all given up and are now telling him to give up?#idk man i could 100% see him giving in at that point#even if it is very tragic#laur says stuff#the umbrella academy#tua#umbrella academy#five hargreeves#tua s4#hargreeves siblings#number five#tua season 4
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Strowill junk w/ some post game designs and a Louis/prince cameo cause. Why not. Smiles
#idk what the prince and Louis is called. louprince???#i have a very specific dynamic for those two it's all about the tragic what could've been of their relationship#strowill is just cause yay yay best friends yay happy world#also yellow strowill piece is an evil and malicious wip coming your way. soon. hopefully#unfortunately I go to university#chirithy art#metaphor refantazio#will metaphor refantazio#leon strohl#leon strohl de haliaetus#strowill
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DPXDC Idea: Mother of Monsters Dan(yal)
Specifically Fem!Dan because I made this in mind with my Fem Danyal Au bUT. The best part about Dan is that I get to play dress up with her, and Fem Dark Dany is gonna go by Layal (pronounced lae-el) because it means "the nights" and it sounds similar to Danyal, and I think she'd choose that name to mock Dany. ANYWAYS
Mother of Monsters Danyal. She may be evil but she's an Al Ghul at her core (even with vlad's soul merged with hers - however, considering that Layal looks and sounds like Dany, she considers that soul to be the more dominant one.) and loves animals. And she might be heartless, but she adores the monsters of the infinite realms.
Mother of Monsters Layal who hates everyone but utterly dotes and adores on every manner of beast she comes across. Stealing the eggs and infant young beasts of the Infinite Realms to raise as her own because she wanted them. Her own island full of monsters, a monstrous menagerie of her own. She steals most often from poachers or exotic pet keepers and other menageries -- the full grown beasties can keep their young.
And with every monster she raises, she can shapeshift their features onto herself, allowing her to change her shape from humanish to any matter of monster or hybrid creature. She calls herself their mother, and them her children. Her precious little babies, capable of incredible mass destruction and mayhem.
From little griffins the size of kittens, to stymphalian vulture chicks, and leviathan young hatching from eggs the size of her pinkie, to creatures native of the ghost zone that didn't even have names in the living realm. There really wasn't a limit to what or who she would take in and she didn't limit herself to any form of mythology. If they were beasts and they were unwanted, she wanted them. And as such, amassed her own mini army of "children" willing to listen to her any command.
Earth doesn't know what hit it when she attacks them.
There are many monstrous forms she could take on, the first one I've thought of is a combination of various serpentine/reptilian features. The body of a naga -- her lower half long and serpentine, her upper still human -- with spiked fins connecting from the bottom of her arms to her sides, ever seen Sinbad where Eris goes "you might have seen my likeness on the temple walls" and her arms do that fin thingy? Same concept. Her hands are webbed and taloned, perfect for slicing through the skin of the living, and her teeth are needle-sharp and shark like. Her hair can either be spiny and feathery-like like the spines of a lionfish, or frilled like a frilled-neck lizard. It's perfect for dealing and doting on her reptilian and amphibian-inclined darlings.
I'm more of a fan of aus where Dan is a sibling of Danny's rather than their kid, so Layal's redemption(..?? probation?) proceeds with her legally becoming Danyal's "twin" sister, who had been lost to the foster system before the Fentons adopted Dany, and was only recently reunited with her. The two of them look so alike that the lie is easy to take root and spread.
Layal is very indignant to the fact that she's now ten years in the past and has to restart her menagerie all over again. Do you know how much blood and sweat went into raising those children? How dare you separate them from their mummy. Although she'll admit she does miss their juvenile years, so she won't mind (too much) needing to raising them again. Dany is helping her retrieve all of them though, dammit.
long story short: epic the musical's "Scylla" has a CHOKEHOLD on me and this is the result of it
Unlike her Dan counterpart, Layal's voice is dancing and sirenic. It's purposely alluring and motherly, in order to lure people into a false sense of security until she feeds them to her "children." Echidna doesn't have shit on her. She almost seems friendly and reasonable, until you get too close and realize it was all an act and she drops it to metaphorically swallow you whole. She's like an anglerfish that way. She and Dany both sound like Scylla from Epic.
#mother of monsters danny#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dp x dc#dpxdc crossover#dp x dc crossover#dpdc#dpxdc au#dpxdc prompt#fem danny fenton#fem danyal al ghul#danyal al ghul#dany helps laya find one(1) beastie and instantly falls in love. laya does not need to convince her to come help her rob other ghosts blind#of their exotic “pets” or animals or whatever the reason they have beasts that they shouldn't for. she'll volunteer willingly its a trait#that they share. laya knows that raising her babies will be difficult now that she has to g back to *school* but dammit se's not leaving#them in the hands of the people she found them in. those are HER children fuck you.#Layal is the one to reveal to Damian that his older sister is alive and it was on purpose. It was to send him on a wild goose chase looking#for Dany in order to be around to save her from becoming Layal.#'Tragic. Terribly tragic; your dear sister had her soul ripped from her body and merged with another. What was left of her...'#'well. i put out of its misery.' she's very cloying towards damian and this is on purpose because she thinks its funny to get under his ski#goes out of her way to only ever refer to him as 'little brother' but if she can't she'll call him sickeningly sweet nicknames.#this happens about oooo midway 'redemption'? Where Laya is actually rather fond of Dany and is starting to consider her as a sister#as well. and she likes Ali. Laya herself is still rather unsympathetic to the world around her. only acts on a kindness for 'her people'#her people includes Dany which is why she even actually told Damian that Dany was alive and gave him an incentive to look for her#because she saw DAny mourning another lost birthday for her little brother and decided to go 'aw fuck who gave me feelings' and decided to#make it everyones problem.#starry rambles
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the letterboxd top fours of select jeeves and wooster characters
these are just my choices for laughs!!
bertie:

Clue (1985), Charade (1963), The Birdcage (1996), and My Man Godfrey (1936)
jeeves:

Portrait of a Lady on Fire (2019), La Belle et La Bête (1946), Roman Holiday (1953), and The Lion in Winter (1968)
dahlia:

The Death of Stalin (2017), Knives Out (2019), Adam’s Rib (1949), and His Girl Friday (1940)
bingo little:

The Ex-Mrs Bradford (1938), Ocean’s Eleven (2001), Pretty Woman (1990), and National Velvet (1944)
stiffy byng:

Paper Moon (1973), Gone Girl (2014), Pearl (2022), and How To Steal a Million (1966)
madeline bassett:

La La Land (2016), Enchanted (2007), Howl’s Moving Castle (2004), and Sabrina (1954)
#i have specific reasons for all of these picks#some based on what book genres the characters like#ie bertie’s mysteries and bingo’s race horse books and madeline’s tragic romances#and of course jeeves’s love for rosie m bank’s interclass romances#others are based on plot like my man godfrey (which even references jeeves!!! so that’s particularly relevant as a choice)#or how to steal a million cause stiffy’s greatest dream is having a man rob a whole museum for her#and also she’s the type of person to go around saying “she’s so me” about amy from gone girl#dahlia’s choices are a lot of chaos and illegal tomfoolery#and don’t think too deeply about three of jeeves’s films being about interclass/forbidden romances with tragic endings… it means nothing#i tormented for ages on whether or not to include My Own Private Idaho for jeeves#cause it’s…. poignant shall we say#but in the end roman holiday won out because that’s THE bittersweet classic romcom of all time#and i know he can recite it like rosie’s novels#anyway i think everyone should do this it’s super fun and also deeply frustrating in a good way#jeeves & wooster#jeeves and wooster#reginald jeeves#bertie wooster#pg wodehouse#jeeves books
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Skelter Family Portrait
#Burglary and Bobsledding#Sfth#Helter Skelter haunts me a little bit like fr#and this idea wouldnt get out of my head so#*jazz hands*#Genuinely am obsessed w/ how fucking tragic b&b is and how fucking tragic Helter is like#His father dies in his arms and he has to support the dead weight of a man whos just admitted#that every way he ruined Helter's life WASNT to support him like he always claimed like Helter knew it wasnt#and the play ends w/ Helter holding his dead father as he is presented w/ a gold metal#Victory LITERALLY cost him everything and AAAAAAAAHHH!!!!!!!! and now hes alone a one man bobsledding team w/ a fucking#ski chattel(?) or smthg to run alone#Burglary and Bobsledding has sooooo fucking much backstory in it that is just glossed over that drives me insane#the mom left bcuz of the dads gambling addiction and at some point died Jörgen went to wales for several years for a job 2 pay off the debts#but Helter stayed and like what did it get him? nothing but watching his father spiral further and further#AND ALSO the dad being like 'hey yknow that sick af feeling u get when bobsledding yee i only ever got that w/ ur mom'#as Helter's last person dies in his arms feels so so much like the dad telling Helter that he's never going 2 b fully happy again#like the dad never was#and I dont think Helter would take up the gambling addiction but i KNOW that man already has a hidden booze stache somewhere and#hes never gonna b the same again!
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i, for one, am looking forward to windbreaker hypstage's delinquent wars in october lmao
#this is vee speaking#one day we'll have a piece of hypmic aux media where ichiro is as sappy as he is in canon towards kuukou lol#it's def not going to be hypstage tho so i'm putting it here LOL#(i dare you to shut me up hypstage lmao)#mtcdh was an original story for the most part but it where it wasn't was in dh's entire half and where mtc ended up thematically#so i'm like........ so curious what they'll do to set bbbat on their theme trajectories lol#breaking the spiral of violence and the power of rap/words to prevent violence while going up against some spiteful mfers#and danjo LOL#i'm still on the fence of them adapting bat's canon story as the crux of the play lol like i don't think i want them to play it safe#i want them to be bold with their writing and to be rewarded for it#i just tragically have trust issues lol#hhhhhhhhhhhhh i'm feeling excited about hypstage in a way i don't think i ever was in legends era lol idk how to handle it LOL#vee is arting
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I like to think alternate Leo was about 17 when he got ricocheted into the universe. I also like to think he turned 18 at some point as he was still away, becoming an adult and meeting that milestone in his life all alone.
#rise comic spoilers#tmnt 40th anniversary#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt leo#rise leo#rottmnt headcanons#no confirmation about their ages but they still looked like kids so that’s what I’m going with#had to be post invasion long enough for them all to be healed up#but soon enough to still look the way they do#and there’s just something so tragic about Leo becoming an adult far away from his family#about Raph just barely an adult and already everything’s falling apart#about Donnie becoming an adult with his family around but more alone than ever#about Mikey who sees this all and dreads dreads dreads getting older#because it seems every time a family member reaches 18 something awful happens#I think they may be meant to be about 20 or so if we take actual time in the real world into account#but I like this more ngl#it also makes more sense to me personally based on their designs and attitudes#even if he was already 19-20 it would still be incredibly tragic#but just based on looks alone it seems more likely that it was relatively soon after the invasion
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Never getting over Fulcrum being a project manager...
Idk why, but something about that is so funny to me. Not just because the title of "project manager" is inherently kinda funny for a Decepticon, but also because-
1. It's vague sounding and hard to explain irl because it technically exists in multiple fields, like healthcare or manufacturing, which surely translates into canon in some way.
2. In canon, it's simultaneously a really mundane, innocuous sounding job, yet it's also a super morally awful position to reside over depending on the context. (*cough* forced colonization and cyberforming *cough*)
And 3. It solidifies the fact that behind all the surface level militaristic work we get with both the Decepticons and Autobots, there's also Cons and Bots with "normal" jobs in both factions.
Like, sure yeah we get scientists and doctors, engineers and programmers, but usually in big important or warfront positions. (For plot reasons, understandably.) But it's also really funny and interesting to think of those that worked background positions, or minor jobs.
Like an Autobot working in their equivalent of an HR department, or a Decepticon who runs one of their outpost's or starship's kitchens.
Just all the pre-war jobs that didn't just disappear with the war, but instead evolved to exist within the factions.
It's particularly funny with the Decepticons though, because it could be a super mundane job or situation, but because it's them, it has to have an air of ~e v i l~ to it, either legitimately and/or merely for the vibes, like Tarn's "performance reviews".
#theres this one comedy thing. a think its from that like. puppet comedian dude??? cant remember the name rn-#-buts theres a bit about a person in the crowd being a project manager and how silly the job sounds#at some point the person the project manager is with gets pointed out when the comedian asks smth along the lines of-#-''is he a project you're managing? he looks pretty managed to me.'' smth smth. thats fulcrum and the scavs to me#idw fulcrum#fulcrum#mtmte#tf idw#idw tarn#tarn#transformers#maccadam#Decepticons being cartoonishly evil while doing mundane shit will never not be funny to me#'i need to send an evil email to my evil boss about an evil supply chain issue involving my evil workers evil rations and evil mail'#<- fulcrum#sorry. yes he is a tragic yet simultaneously silly guy. but i will never not shut up about his stupid awful job#''he's a project manager!'' oh yay :D! ''he's overseeing the destruction and forced cyberformation of a whole planet'' ...what#not saying he deserved being turned into a bomb. but i think a solid uhh maybe 1000+ organics get a free chance to spit on him or smth#get his ass lmao. i swear hes one of my favs. its just he is objectively an asshole. and i must speak on it bcs i love him#sort of unrelated. but along the same vein of jobs and positions in the Decepticons. ive been trying to puzzle out Krok and Fulcrum's ranks#and. it might not be accurate. idk what sort of ranking system bullshit is going on in canon. so im going off what i know#but. im figuring krok was some sort of warrant-esque officer? aka. he was a general solider. who worked his way up through skill to NCO-#-then specialized in strategy to the point of becoming a warrant officer for strategy and studies. so. higher than NCO but lower than CO#so on the other hand. fulcrum is a CO. bcs he wasnt a solider. he was a technician. but also in advanced management. so. CO???#for irl comparison. NCO/Warrant = worked towards over time from low ranks. CO = fast tracked bcs of formal education or smth#(take the irl comparison with a grain of salt. im not an expert on that shit. i just considered becoming a CO bcs of pressure once)#((CO in this context stands for commissioned officer. not commanding officer btw. so. its like management shit))#(not that i think cons have commissions or anything. just using the terminology as a place holder or smth ig)#who outranks who is debatable bcs canon doesn't specify rank. but if going off this as a basis. fulc would outrank krok by a technicality#but. assumedly. battle experience is seen as more impressive and noteworthy to cons. so its more likely krok outranked fulc bcs of that
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{☆} characters furina {☆} notes cult au, imposter au, drabble, gender neutral reader {☆} warnings angst, suicidal thoughts, hurt / no comfort {☆} word count 1.4k
This wasn't fair. This wasn't fair. This wasn't fair!
She thought, for one moment, she could put the mask down and breathe – for one moment of daydreaming, she thought she could just be Furina. She thought she would finally get to live the live she should've had in the first place, the life she threw away to play God to an audience who saw her as nothing but a circus animal, dancing to their whims. Furina just wanted to be selfish for one brief and fleeting moment..and it was gone before she could even grasp it in her hand. A comet soaring past far out of her reach.
She can barely keep her hands from violently shaking as she looks down at them – broken and bloody and more a corpse then a person – and she feels so numb she can't even feel the rain pelting against her back. None of this is fair, she wants to scream, why is it always me? But her voice is silent beneath the torrent of rain. She wonders if the ocean would take her if she sank into it's depths – just for a moment, she wonders how it would feel to finally be able to sleep at ease.
Furina is tired.
But Furina is nothing if not useful, isn't she?
So she forces her feet to move, dragging against the stone beneath her heels, and drags their bloodied body into the nearest empty building, letting the rain do the work of washing away the smeared blood following her path. The smell makes her feel sick, the feeling of it sticking to her hands and gloves makes her lightheaded, but she persists. Because Furina is useful, because Furina won't let them die out in the rain, because Furina won't stand by and just let them rot on the streets like some..pest.
Furina wants to go home. She wants to sleep and she isn't she if she wants to wake up, this time. But she keeps going anyway.
Because it's all she's ever done, and the habit sticks.
An Archon she may not be, not anymore, but the expectations of five hundred years still linger like eyes on the inside of her skull. They watch her, pry and prod at her thoughts, mocking laughter and judging eyes following her as she forces herself to dance to the song they weave with glee. Furina never stepped off that stage – she's still there, she thinks, watching the crowd stare at her in disdain as the curtain call looms above her like a guillotine. She still hears Neuvillette deliver her damnation and salvation with a trembling voice, still feels her hair stand on end when electro crackled like the crack of the whip, Clorinde's blade aimed at her like a loaded gun.
She's trapped on that stage and she never left, not really.
She hates it. She thinks she hates them, but it's not their fault. They didn't ask for this, didn't ask for everyone to turn against them, didn't ask for her to save them. Neither did she..yet here they are, she thinks.
She tries to tell herself she's in control this time, though. She can stop performing her part in this horrible, bloody play any time she wants. It makes her feel better, just for a little while, if she convinces herself she's still Furina, painfully human.
And Furina has always been good at lying.
It's the believing that's the hard part.
There isn't time for her to wallow in her own self pity, though. They're still bleeding out onto the dusty, creaky floorboards of some random, broken down house and she's just standing there as the blood stains the wood. She can fix it – she's good at fixing things. She's done nothing but fix things – try to, anyway – for five hundred years. She can fix a little wound, how hard could it be? Her hands are clenched so tight they ache as she kneels down, wincing at the creak of the floorboards beneath her heels– she hesitates just long enough to wonder if she's making a mistake before she peels away just enough of the outer layer of their clothes to see the deep, bloody gash across their chest. She tries not to think about it – it's deep, too deep, and she feels dizzy just looking at it, but she's handled worse, right?
Furina can fix it. That's what she's good at.
She doesn't feel so confident when she tries to wrack her brain for..something. Five hundred years, and a little wound stumps her? No, she had to have learned something, right? She's decidedly not trying to buy time because she's panicking, parsing through hundreds of years of memories like flipping through a book. Furina isn't made for this, not really – she's running on nothing but adrenaline and she's really not sure what she's doing, but she's trying. And just like before, it won't be enough, will it?
She'll fall short again – she'll be too late to fix it before she's alone again.
Furina was an Archon..used to be. What use would she have for that sort of knowledge? Which makes her predicament all the more harrowing and bleak. What was she supposed to do?
Furina had heard it first hand, that vitriol in Neuvillette's voice. She isn't sure she's ever heard him that..angry before. She's not sure he would listen to her if she tried, either. And that scares her more then anything. All of Fontaine was up in arms about this..imposter, yet here she was, staring down at them bleeding out in front of her, and she was trying to save them.
Why? Why is she throwing away her only chance at normalcy for a fraud? Why didn't she just turn them in?
They were dying – that should've been a good thing, shouldn't it? So why didn't it feel like it?
"Why you?" Her voice breaks as she speaks in harsh tones, grabbing the front of their shirt in trembling, bloodied hands. "Why now?" She wants to scream, to demand answers they can't give, to claw back the reprieve she was promised after five hundred years of agony..and all she can do is sob into their chest, pleading for an answer that will not come. "Why me?"
Silence is their answer, and it hangs heavy on her trembling shoulders as she cries.
Of course they don't, she thinks bitterly, no one has ever answered her pleas spoken in hushed sobs. Not her other self and certainly not them.
Furina has always been alone. Furina will always be alone.
Because Furina never left that stage, never left that moment when she looked at herself in the mirror and took up a mantle too heavy for her to bear. She always finds her way back eventually. There's no one on the other side anymore – she stands alone on a stage, waiting for an inevitable end she isn't sure will come.
"Please," She pleads through tears and choked sobs, clinging to them like they are all that keeps her from sinking. "Please don't leave me, too." The words burn on her tongue – how pathetic is she that she craves companionship from the bloodied body of the imposter? Perhaps she's truly lost her mind after all these years..perhaps she's finally gone mad. She must have.
But their presence is like the first feeling of gentle warmth upon her skin as the sun crests the horizon, like the gentle lap of tides along her heels, the sway of branches and leaves as the wind blows through them like an instrument all it's own. They are the soothing sound of rain against the window as she watches the dreary skies in fond longing, the first bloom of spring as color blooms upon the landscape like paint had been spilled across the hills and valleys.
They are like the faint spark she carefully nurtures and stokes, so fragile even the smallest wind could blow it out like a candle. She cradles it within her palms, pleads with whoever will listen – prays that someone finally listens, because if not for her, then for them.
She's failed to protect too much already, let too many people with so much trust in her fall between the cracks of her fingers like grains of sand. She won't let them go – she can't.
If nothing else, if she couldn't be saved when she begged for salvation from that five hundred year long agony, even if she never got that chance..
Furina will make sure they do.
#sagau#genshin sagau#self aware genshin#genshin impact sagau#self aware genshin impact#genshin cult au#genshin impact cult au#fic tag#furina#so um. looks around. okay look. i know im like THE ts@r1ts@ dealer (censored so it doesnt show in tags. hopefully)#but the moment i saw furi in fontaine the day it released she became my fav even more then the tsaritsa SORRY SHES SO..#this is my love letter 2 furi (making her suffer unimaginable horrors)#open ended kinda in case i decide on making a sequel maybe#furi makes me feel cuteness aggression so bad i start acting like a rabid animal#furina the woman that you are. thats my girlprince meow meow id kill someone for her#playing her part as archon so well but being so horribly irrefutably human in every way..#five hundred years not even knowing what the real plan was. when it would end. knowing if she slipped up it was over.#and in the end almost no one knew what really happened. a select few people know the real weight of her sacrifice.#furina's story was always a tragedy. it was never going to be anything but a tragedy.#and thats one of the most tragic parts of it isnt it? she didnt know how itd end. she didnt know her story was always going to be a tragedy#furina never knew a thing. and still she did it for the people of fontaine and succeeded.#how do you define “yourself” when you havent existed for 500 years?#to be so selflessly human you give up “yourself” to save people who will never know of your sacrifice.#sometimes i think about the confrontation on the stage and have a week long mental breakdown#sacrificing EVERYTHING for fontaine and still. still! the people closest to you turn on you.#heavy on clorinde. she was as close 2 furi as neuvi fight me on this. i bite.#her bodyguard and friend and she ends up staring down her blade wondering if this is it. she failed. she failed them all#because even when faced with the trial. with losing everything. she still thought only about fontaine. oh furina.#do you think she has nightmares. wonders if she was never meant to win this game of g-ds. that her story was always meant to be a tragedy?#do you think she still wonders if she was ever meant to have a chance at a happy ending? a doomed tragedy from beginning to end
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what is the theory that ivan manipulated the event where till and mizi met the wagyein?
It's not a theory, actually! It's confirmed that Ivan orchestrated the whole event. The true reason as to why however is still unknown. The information provides more context to this scene, though:


During the earlier times of ALNST the most rational explanation for this scene was that Till ran after a flower crown (presumably Mizi's) and Ivan followed him in out of curiosity. Now we know that Ivan was conveniently just standing there because he was waiting.



Side note, I find it heartbreaking (and maybe a little funny, sorry) that Till most likely didn't notice Ivan in this scene. That's just like him, isn't it. Always too busy running after Mizi while Ivan trails behind, an ever-present shadow.
I'm not sure how Ivan manipulated the circumstances for both of them to end up there, but it is confirmed that everything was intentional. What strikes me most is how they describe this particular scene:


I can't copy down what they said word-for-word (Patreon info), but they described Ivan watching "creepily" as Till and Mizi are faced with danger. We know that Ivan was familiar with the Cerberus wagyein beforehand, enough to touch its teeth and even to rest himself inside its maw. To Ivan, the wagyein is not dangerous, but to Till and Mizi, it could be. Ivan prepared the wagyein, led them there, and watched "creepily" from afar as Till fell on his knees, seemingly injured.


The closest I can get to making sense of Ivan's "scheme" is that he wanted to see how other children would react in a dangerous situation. Ivan's always been an observer, after all, and he's learned to survive by copying the more "normal" behaviors of his peers. This situation occured when Ivan was still young and had not yet developed his more charming mask, so perhaps he staged this encounter to study a situational response, to learn and mimic the emotion of fear. And what better subjects for the experiment than two of the most expressive and reactive humans of their batch? It helps that he was already fixated on Till beforehand, too. I think Ivan became irreversibly obssessed after this incident, especially since it's framed as a turning point in Ivan's life, comparing Till to the stars.
This is just my attempt at an interpretation, though. It could very well be for another reason. He most likely chose Till and Mizi specifically for personal reasons, not just for reaction. I'm still not sure on the purpose behind the whole thing.
The team wanted to capture Ivan's "dark emotions" through the shot of his stalking, which could relate to his more sinister intentions. His gaze can be read in a few different ways, though. Curiosity, interest, fear, etc. Maybe that's why they decided to redraw the shot in ROUND 6.

I think this better sells the feeling they were trying to convey.
#ivan u fucked up little guy.#also okay i just wanna clear this up#i know i make a lot of posts about ivans darker side and his more problematic traits#but this isn't me trying to villainize him or reduce him down to “toxic yaoi”#I HOPE YOU GUYS KNOW ALL MY TOXIC YAOI POSTS ARE LIGHTHEARTED.#i just want to clarify that ivan was always intended to be a darker and complicated character. even since his debut in round 3#the way i refer to ivan (“twisted” “creepy” “obssessive” etc) are literally the direct words used by q and v themselves to describe him#but despite that id like to emphasize that i don't see ivan as a villain or a completely bad person. hes complicated#there is no normalcy in this world they are living in. none of the characters know what being truly normal is#this isn't me condoning his actions#but it has to be acknowledged that alnst is fucked up in nature. we can't expect perfect relationships from people who are born to die#plus ivan has a lot more layers past the “dark” parts. he's constantly battling himself and his desires#especially at the end of round 6 where he performs a myriad of conflicting actions (kiss strangle peck smile)#thanks to the r6 production notes we now know that ivan was going through a rapid internal conflict#“sure and unsure at the same time”#there is sooo much to ivan. his low self-esteem. his desire and possessiveness despite knowing till will never love him#his VEHEMENT insistence that till will never love him vs his desperate persistence in trying anyway#uh i need to shut up i think#anyways sorry. just wanted to clarify my thoughts on him in case people think im. yk.#in short. hes a fucked up little freak and he fascinates me. this poor tragic child. i love him.#SORRY I GOT CARRIED AWAY#alnst#alien stage#alien stage ivan#alnst ivan#asks
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