#what an absolute trainwreck they are

[thatrandombystander]

Thinking about how when Sunrise was making Code Geass, they got CLAMP (who made Cardcaptor Sakura amongst other things) to do the character design

Except CLAMP was originally formed as a BL/yaoi doujin art group before they started making original work, so they also made some REALLY homoerotic official art of Lelouch and Suzaku. Like, you can find these in the artbooks or even on screen during episode credits

I just think it's hilarious how CLAMP had to witness whatever the hell was going on between these two, pick up on it enough to make official art of it, and then watch as the show included numerous women in love with Lelouch

[jennycalendar]

the moment at the end of school reunion where mickey is like "can i come? :)" and rose is visibly Sulky Teenager as tho mickey is some sort of obligation and not HER BOYFRIEND who she has REPEATEDLY COMMITTED TO is so fucking funny to me. like she wants to be in a relationship with mickey, her boyfriend, who is back on earth and not at all with her, but the minute he expresses a desire to be like her and see the things she's seeing, he's cutting into her time with the doctor, who she definitely has a normal relationship with. not to mention that by this point in time mickey has completely chilled out about the doctor and made peace with his place in rose's life, AND ten is so much less openly combative and derisive towards mickey (still a little mean, but not nearly as much as nine!)

if rose was being honest with herself and with mickey about what she wanted -- if she really had wanted to be with him at any point in time -- this would be such a wonderful moment for her! but she treats the relationship like an Obligation. like she feels as though she has to take care of him. she is visibly most delighted by mickey when she knows she's going to get to leave him -- she likes having him on standby and obviously cares about him but doesn't at all want to actually consistently spend time with him. and he KNOWS THAT. phenomenally messy, & in retrospect, amy and rory feel like such a fascinating sequel to this.

[birbgalaxy]

i lost my stride lol 💪

[cescalr]

Barbie movie trailer looking fucking terrible. BRB gonna go get out my white blue and red 3d glasses and watch magic of pegasus to remeber what joy feels like /joke but not really. Only the part where I still have those glasses and wouldn't give myself a headache trying to use them haha don't you just love degenerative eye conditions and the passage of time

[g00ngala]

i swear i have tmnt opinions yall are not ready for

[corrose]

Me: huh my leg hurts. Why?

Flashback to work yesterday where I climbed up on a tall stool to get something. Stepped wrong. Foot slipped off the rung of the stool. Struggled to stay upright for like 15 seconds by clinging frantically to the stool with my knees (hands full) [man with snow shovel slipping and sliding for 30 full seconds trying to stay standing] and then finally fell over in slow motion onto the ground. And then the stool fell on top of me.

Me: oh yeah. That's why.

[twilightarcade]

I've drawn evie red more often than I've drawn xem green actually

[softandwildx]

One of the worst things about depression for me is that I can't enjoy the things I know I love most of the time. I'm either too distracted to stay focused on it, too low energy/not in the mood, or I pick something up and put that back down and move on to something else just as quickly, over and over again endlessly.

This mostly comes in the form of video games for me, because they require the least effort of the hobbies I enjoy. I've started like 12 or 13 different games in less than 2 weeks just to abandon them out of boredom or lack of interest.

And this happens all the time. And for other things like playing music, seeing my friends, drawing, reading. It feels like there's a wall that I just can't get around, physically blocking me from these things that I used to do without thinking because I wanted to.

Now I just don't care enough to put the effort into these things on most days. I have rare moments of inspiration and initiative that feel likes wins, but even then the crash afterwards is so much worse.

Having dealt with this since my very early teens feels a lot like not knowing myself or what I've ever enjoyed. I barely remember a time when I wasn't just going through the motions or feeling burn out from the things I used to take pleasure in.

And it's just really fucking sad. I am constantly breaking my own heart because I want so desperately to enjoy things again. But I just can't. And most of the time I can't even find a clear reason why.

I just can't describe the feeling of having no fulfillment in your life and not even being capable of doing something fun for a few hours without wanting to just quit and go back to bed.

[wolves-in-the-world]

my boy's about to start a fiiiiight <3

[eurekavalley]

Me waiting for next week.

[robinsnest2111]

After doing some light research my mystery illness symptoms don't really match up with prolonged mold exposure/a classic case of mold allergy but there are some types of mold that can cause headaches/brainfog, fatigue/weakness, inability to sleep, neurological issues in general, etc. so idk

gonna inform my doctor in 2 weeks and see what she thinks about all of this :/

[bd-bandkanon]

meanwhile there’s all this Phil art I have laying around that don’t exist on any platform other than the ND Discord. Maybe I’ll upload them onto here.

[itskindnessinfinite]

SINCE WHEN COULD DEMONS BE TRAPPED IN A RING OF SALT

[perenlop]

:(

[abrushwithdeath]

((I just find it really interesting that, aside from maybe some loud surface thoughts, her mind is actually really hard (often nearly impossible) to read- 1) because of the chaos of all the other personalities in her head and 2) because of all the mental blocks she has in place. Telepaths have had a notoriously difficult time reading her thoughts, her memories, her emotions, because it’s hard to parse her mind with all the other psyches in there and because of her incredible mental defenses after the situation with Carol Danvers. It’s also been, like, super helpful when it comes to enemies trying to take over her mind. (Like, even being taken into a hivemind she got free pretty damn quickly and flipped the script. Also, this quote from Betsy: "Even amplified by Cerebro, I cannot read her thoughts. She is a wild eclectic mix of human and alien, her natural psyche jumbled together with the one accidentally stolen from Carol Danvers." and also: “[Rogue's] mind is virtually impossible to probe, even when she's cooperating." Though Xavier does get inside of her head to help her, so I’d like to think she gets enough control that she can essentially allow people to read her mind... but they still have to sort through all the psyches / voices and that’s not something she can help much with, so it’s still pretty damn hard for most telepaths to focus on whatever they’re trying to get from her enough to actually get it, ya know? But, like, I just imagine a psychic trying to read her mind and either getting a wall of fucking nothing because they can’t break through her mental barriers or, if they’re strong enough / her guard is down a little more, it’s just... a fucking mess. Like all these overlapping thoughts and voices and noise even though she’s not doing anything, just, like, eating lunch or whatever because that’s how her mind is all the time. Just constant chaos. Of course, if she hasn’t allowed it, she’d probably notice the intrusion almost immediately so be prepared to get at least angrily stared down lol)

But it’s also detrimental, in a way? Just because, like I mentioned, she has all these mental blocks in place to try keep herself sane and to prevent any of the stronger personas from literally taking control again- and that’s great and all bc her mind is nearly impenetrable (though they can communicate with her telepathically?). The problem, though, is that this further hinders her powers. Her issues with controlling her powers stem from her fears, insecurities, and doubts and those are all hard emotions to get in check as it is, much less when you’re a person like her who not only can’t touch anyone but has been manipulated and weaponized by people she loved for a good portion of her life. It also doesn’t help that she feels detached from the world and, while that really fucking sucks... it’s also safer that way, she thinks. Not just physically (her powers) but emotionally (her abandonment issues / general fears of connection). So it’s like an endless little loop of: she wants to touch people, to be close to people... but she’s also afraid of it because she could hurt them physically (and they could hurt her emotionally)... which makes her powers harder to control because her lack of control is based primarily in her fears and insecurities... which makes her more afraid of being close to people because she doesn’t want to hurt them.. etc etc.

Anyway, I just think she’s a fascinating lil’ character. And also I’ve got a lot of muse right now lol))

[septemberbells]

episode 2 continued (ran out of tags in last post)