#what does this say about me? doesnt matter. more importantly what does it say about how satan was written 🤨

[dnpg-hiatus-survivor]

the air has shifted. i was able to sleep but still when i awoke my heart was pounding and i can’t breathe. because of… dan and phil.

maybe this doesnt mean anything. maybe im just a crazy phannie (well thats true no matter what happens but still).

however, this has happened to me before. twice. let me tell y’all about those times.

the first time, i want to say was august of 2016 (could be slightly off). i had been watching dan and phil for over a year but i was still pretty new to the phandom as a space. i was at my grandmas house just chilling upstairs when this photo hit the tumblr scene:

and oh. my. god. my stomach dropped. my heart started racing. i was pacing around the room going holy shit holy shit holy shit. this photo was a big deal at the time. it was dan’s first time letting his hair be natural at a m&g or youtube event. and, it was the first time ever we had seen dan wear nail polish.

when i woke up the next morning, i still couldnt breathe. the main thing is that i was surprised how much hold these youtubers had over my heart like jesus christ. but more importantly…

the. air. had. shifted. and i knew it.

this photo, to me, is the beginning of the soft launch era. it was after this that we got the halloween baking monster pops video, which entered our post baking universe. and it was after that we got the first gamingmas. but this photo, was the start of it all. the start of dan and phil tearing down the wall just a little and starting to be more themselves on camera.

the second time, is a bit more obvious of a shift. it was june 2019. the june video had been talked for over a year at this point. we weren’t really sure if it was happening or not. what it was. but we all had… ideas. but oh my goodness, the entire first 13 days of that month. i was just buzzing. i was freaking out. and i didnt know why!! well… i knew why. but surely two youtubers could not make me feel this way for two weeks straight. oh yes they could actually.

when this tweet happened:

holy fuck, i think i shit myself. i felt the air shift. like in real time. i could barely talk because my heart was pounding so fast. i was playing truth bombs with my friends (because yes i am the #1 phannie) when i read the tweet, i dropped my phone and started tearing up whispering “oh my god its happening” over and over again. did they think i was crazy? yep!

but y’all… the. air. had. SHIFTED.

anyway long speech over. what was the point of this. to tell you that my phannie brain is convinced that something is happening. the air has shifted. i know it has. it has before. what does that mean for dan and phil? i don’t know yet! we’re just gonna have to see :))

[lazycranberrydoodles]

ughhhhh so probably the tgcf scene i think the most about is in the final battle when hua cheng is holding xie lian and backwards gripping eming with his other hand i . god. this is referenced off of The Fallen Angel by Alexandre Cabanel (i’m pretty sure everyone has seen it by this point) which is surprisingly pretty topical for tgcf.

[wispystar]

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spencer reid . iv

✦ = finished | ✧ = not finished

Feel free to recommend me some more fics! If there is any author that doesn’t want their work on here pls let me know and I’ll remove it. Series are at the bottom. Be warned for spoilers. I will not be adding spoiler warnings so tread lightly. please lmk if links arent working

back to <- spencer reid . iii

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Bets by @eideticreid

genre: fluff, fem reader, bau reader | summary: You and Spencer have managed to keep your relationship a secret from the BAU, but who wins the bets when the team finally realise your secret?

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books and bruises by @recollins

genre: fluff, slight angst, fem reader, established relationship | summary: reid has a secret girlfriend that the team doesnt know about then something happens to spencer and the team meets her by chance and everyone is surprised and start piecing together why reid declined to go out all those times and stuff

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Bonding by @fandom-monium

genre: fluff, slight angst, gn reader, bau reader | summary: In which you suddenly transfer into the BAU, and Spencer is too socially awkward. (alternatively, the failed attempts Spencer makes trying to connect with you.) “You’ve been profiling me, Doc?”

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Caught by @a-bau-tiful-mind

genre: fluff, fem reader, established relationship | summary: Spencer has a girlfriend and the team doesn’t know about her until they catch him kissing her.

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Crashing by @writersblockedx

genre: fluff, fem reader, established relationship | summary: It just so happens that girl’s night is taking place at Y/n and Spencer’s favourite restaurant.

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Complimentary Colors by @street-smarts00

genre: fluff, slight angst, fem reader, bau reader | summary: After recently joining the team, you and Spencer could never get along. What started off as you two ignoring each other turned into bickering at work. What happens when a stressful moment for you turns into an opportunity to get to know this fascinating coworker of yours?

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"Didn't Know" by @reidsaurora

genre: fluff, fem reader, bau reader | summary: Y/N doesn't even realize that she's been cranky, gaining weight, and extremely picky with what she eats. On the contrary, Spencer does notice, and knows exactly why she's been acting this way.

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Don't Go to See Her by @aperrywilliams

genre: slight angst, fluff, fem reader, bau reader | summary: After the team saved Austin, the signs point that she and Spencer are romantically involved. Reader is not amused by the idea. Are her suspicions correct?

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Enough is Enough by @curlswithcreativity

genre: fluff, fem reader, bau reader | summary: Y/N is tired of waiting for Spencer to ask her out… so it’s time to take matters into her own hands

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Falling For you. by @boldlyvoid

genre: fluff, fem reader, bau reader | summary: spencer reid x BAU!reader but they’re in a secret relationship, and basically she gets him to watch all these romcoms, so when he makes a reference to something like Notting Hill or You’ve Got Mail and then the whole secret is blown.

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Forgetmenot by @thepsychewrites

genre: angst, fluff, gn reader, bau reader | summary: You and Spencer are feeling the aftermath of the biggest fight you have ever gotten in, one that was fueled by Emily’s return, both in life and to the BAU. Will he be able to save your friendship? More importantly, is he finally ready to confess the one lie he has kept from you? 

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hate by @hercleverboy

genre: slight angst, fluff, fem reader, bau reader | summary: #36 ↠ “Do you trust me?” “No.” #41 ↠ “You say you hate him but your red face is telling me otherwise.”

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honey and glass . ii by @sarcasmandships

genre: angst, fluff, gn reader, fbi reader | summary: i am in love with spencer reid but he only has eyes for jennifer jareau

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In Another Life . ii by @ssimagines

genre: angst, slight fluff, fem reader | summary: You and Spencer have been together for nearly a year. In a surprising turn of events, you find yourself looking for a way out.

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Lunch Meetings by @spookydrreid

genre: fluff, fem reader, established relationship | summary: surprising reid at work and meeting the team

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I love you, please don't break my heart by @unholyobsessions

genre: fluff, fem reader | summary: Falling in love is stupid, or it was until you met him.

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Maroon . ii by @wtfevenismypage

genre: fluff, fem reader, bau reader | summary: you're all at Rossi's mansion for the weekend for poker, pasta and cigars. Spence is getting Rossi's place ready with him, and the guys and won't shut up about how much he fancies you, and the guys all encourage him to tell you and you're at Emily's with the girls getting in the car for the weekend. They know how you feel about him, and how he feels about you. One evening, you're all super drunk and Spence blurts out his feelings for you.

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Not Your Backup by @imagining-in-the-margins

genre: fluff, angst, femr eader | summary: Following JJ’s confession, Spencer and JJ argue about her unwarranted jealousy of his girlfriend.

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Reunited by @angelbaugh-writes

genre: angst, fluff, gn reader, bau reader | summary: coming back to the team after your breakup with spence

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Sundays by @definitelynotkatesblog

genre: angst, fem reader | summary: Reader helps Spencer grieve the loss of a loved one, and loses parts of herself in the process.

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secret by @avenging-fandoms

genre: fluff, fem reader, bau reader | summary: having a secret relationship with reid bc y'all are both working in the same field

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Spencer's Secret by @thatgirlstrawberry

genre: fluff, fem reader, established relationship | summary: In which Spencer doesn't answer his phone and the team goes to check on him and an unfamiliar person answers the door

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too little too late . ii by @multiharlot

genre: angst, fluff, fem reader | summary: spencer and y/n have been together for about eight months and she’s beginning to pick up on some things she wish she could remain oblivious to.

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The Next Three Years by @think-blot

genre: fluff, fem reader, established relationship | summary: The past three years of your life were the best they could possibly be all because of Spencer Reid. You wish you could take the next step but his job keeps him from making it. Then he comes back from a case, ready for you to finally meet the team, and you’re none the wiser to what he has planned. 

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Third by @mindfullycriminal

genre: angst, fem reader, bau reader, established relationship | summary: A bombing suspect causes Spencer to react without using logic, and you’re forced to accept your place in his life.

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touches . ii by @lipstickstainz

genre: fluff, angst, gn reader, bau reader | summary: Spencer doesn’t like to be touched. But what happens, when he gets comfortable around you? | tw/warnings: normal crimi violence, gun, blood, injury

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too late . ii by @reidamancy

genre: angst, fluff, fem reader | summary: Spencer and you never got closure after you broke up. But hidden feelings and confessions reveal themselves when you’ve been abducted. Now Spencer is forced to analyze a voicemail you left for him to try and save you before it’s too late. | tw/warnings: detailed descriptions of kidnapping , knife and gun usage, slight mentions of blood and drugs

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Unrequited . ii by @cacoetheswriting

genre: angst, fluff, fem reader, bau reader | summary: feelings are shared in a stressful moment | tw/warnings: normal criminal minds violence, reader being held at g"npoint

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Wallpaper by @httpnxtt

genre: fluff, gn reader (derek calls reader princess once), bau reader | summary: reader is determined to make spencer smile even if it means changing his wallpaper to see his smile for a second.

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soulmates by @sometimesiwritebadly

genre: fluff, angst, fem reader, soulmates au, established relationship | summary: You and Spencer live in a world where soulmates can read each other’s minds. | notes: this can be read as a series or individual fics

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[etherealkissed88]

I really wanna manifest a new love interest but like I feel not good enough. Like ik im pretty (which I’ll work on more) but I just feel like I’m not enough and that they won’t like me and that I don’t deserve it. Do u have any tips for this?

you feel like your not good enough because you feel lack within. your self concept is low. self concept is your concept of self so how you view yourself, what you assume to be true about you so clearly you dont think highly of yourself. this is why fulfilling yourself is so important. satisfy yourself in imagination! what do you want to experience? being w this sp but more importantly, feeling secure in yourself and knowing you are good enough. give yourself the feeling of being secure. realize you hold the power at every given moment and you can decide you are now that person who knows they are good enough. deciding takes 1 second. great now its done. now that you are this person whos self concept is on 100, you can have fun in imagination and actually experience anything you want (-> gets you into the wish fulfilled if you havent gotten there already thro deciding).

you can imagine whatever you want that implies this confident version of you. i can give you some ideas: you can visualize a scene where you are looking at yourself in the mirror and you are loving what you see (it doesnt matter what you visualize, its the feeling it gives you so whatever scene that gives you self confidence is good). same with other techniques (affirming, scripting, inner convos, etc -> they should give you the feeling. its not the techniques that manifests, the techniques are only changing yourSELF and its SELF that manifests). anyways, when you visualize your scenes or affirm or do whatever, focus on actually satisfying yourself in imagination. what actually makes you feel “good enough”? play around with this and know a confident version of you already exists. your only job is to embody that version and decide thats you now.

someone who has a high self concept is someone who knows they are top tier and they always get what they want, etc. embody this version! from here do whatever you want: techniques or no techniques, you are being this person in imagination. with techniques, you experience what you want for fun while knowing or with the intent of knowing (getting into the state of the wish fulfilled) that its done. with no techniques, you just know/decide its done. your goal is to hold this high concept of self by satisfying yourself aka accepting/assuming it.

once youve felt this confident feeling and you can confidently say: “i know i am good enough” or if you just decided you are good enough, its done. continue being that person in imagination since thats who you are now. if you fall out this state, just get back in when your ready and know you are always perfect ! 🎀

to add: working on self concept means: you are no longer the person who thinks theyre not good enough -> you know ur good enough, (like duh). you are no longer the person who’s sp doesnt like them -> duh they like you because your literally perfect. change those assumptions on yourself. and i make it clear that getting into the state of the wish fulfilled does all that for you.

[leahblackk]

Little Details

summary: Spencer does something Y/n didn’t like and now he has to apologise and make everything good again.

request: Hello! So I don’t know if you are taking requests…but if you are then could you possibly make a sad heartbreakingly angsty one where reader and spencer are dating and they have these small things that they always do like no matter what they’ll always like eat together (even over ft) or like just cute little fluffy things. But they get into a really huge fight and reader doesn’t think she can handle going through the rough patch anymore obit spencer just thinks that they can work through it so the next morning he cooks her her favorite breakfast or something thinking she’ll come down and eat with him like they always do and will proceed to do all the things they always do but she leave without saying a word to him? Be as creative as you’d like :) if not no worries!!

i couldn’t do the exact same thing you asked me to cause i felt like it was too mean but i got the main idea whatsoever! i hope you like it and i’m so sorry it got me this long to make this happen

couple: spencer reid x fem!reader

warnings: a little bit of crying and a little bit of angst but nothing too bad.

taglist: @ssavanessa22, @all-tings-gubler, @cance1medaddy, @doctorspenceryeet, @matthew-gray-gubler-lover, @nomajdetective, @reidselle, @hey-dw, @demigirl2007

Loving someone is learning their little things, knowing their behavior in certain situations, learning why they do the stuff they do, knowing what they like, but most importantly, knowing what they don't like, so you can't do them again.

That's something Spencer has learned about Y/n for the past years they've been together. He has never felt as in love as he feels right now, he's never been as euphoric to have someone who cares about him and whom he can be as open about his thoughts. He's always been afraid people are gonna run out the door as soon as they know what's going on inside, but she didn't. Once Spencer let her in–it was totally different from the rest.

She wasn't scared or weird out. She wasn't running as soon as she could. He felt loved, and he didn't want that love to end, he didn't want her to stop loving him, and he knew he could never stop loving her.

Spencer has learned the things she doesn't like, however, from time to time it slips through his mind, and he does them anyway. He apologizes, she forgives him, they cuddle and tell each other how much they love one another, they sleep, he wakes up and makes her breakfast and they sit down and eat it. It was like a routine.

Although, it didn't happen like that.

Spencer recalls what happened last night, how could he forget?

He made her cry, heavily crying.

He knows one of the things she doesn't like him, or anyone, doing, is raising their voices. Spencer hasn't, never ever yelled at her, but he raised his voice. He snapped, and he could look into her eyes and know it hurt her deeply. Her tears streamed down her face. He wanted to make them stop, he didn't know what to do, but he wanted to make them stop.

He couldn't believe he just did that when she has told him several things she doesnt like it. He tried and walked to her, tried to hold her in his arms, tried to kiss her head and make the pain go away, but she didn't want that, she stepped back, and Spencer involuntarily–, totally unconsciously whimpered. He whimpered at her stepping back, and not letting him touch her. His heart ached and his pout grew down on his rosy lips.

The frown more prominent, and the heart pain even more.

She shakes her head and walks upstairs. She wanted to be alone, clearly, but Spencer didn't want her to. He didn't want her to cry alone, he wanted–he needed to hold her in his arms and move her side to side and let her know it was all okay, and that he was deeply sorry, of course he was. He couldn't believe how bad he behaved, however, she wanted space, and even if Spencer was not good with it, he was gonna give her that.

They haven't been alright for a few weeks now. Fights and fights occurring. Him spending too much time at work, her not paying attention to him because she was busy with other stuff. It was like the time was never enough. Both of them wanted to be curled up next to each other, and hearing words of love, but that couldn't be possible, and all that tension grew to this.

It could be seen as a minimum thing, but Spencer knew it hurt her deeply, cause the reason she didn't like being yelled at, was definitely one they both shared in common.

He sighed, tears coming down his face as well, as his heart ached. He sat down, and curled up on the couch, hugging the blanket that was wrapped around her moments ago, and sighed. He felt his body aching.

He got up moments after, going upstairs and seeing her staring at the window, he whimpered, hoping she'd notice, and she did, only that she didn't look at him, which made Spencer's frown appear once again that night.

Spencer didn't know what to say, he knew he should apologize but now that she didn't even look at him he didn't know if she wanted to hear his apologies.

He got into the bathroom and filled in the bathtub, lighting up her favorite candles and putting her favorite bath bombs. Y/n knew what he was doing. Before they went to sleep, they got into the bathtub together to unwind and relax before bed. He was trying, but she was proud and stubborn.

He sat on the bathtub, hoping she'd come in so he could hug her, but she didn't. Spencer sat there sadly and got up covering his naked body in a towel, and walked to the bedroom where she was already in bed, sleeping.

He wanted to cry, they always cuddled before going to bed, she brushed his hair and he grabbed her pajamas which he made sure were ironed so she could feel the warmth of it and sleep comfortably, he made sure her pillows were perfectly for her and he brushed her hair, so it wouldn't tangle at night. He stared at her silently as he felt his body shiver at the cold.

He put his pajamas on, silently and sadly. He knew he deserved it but he was trying his best.

He finally sighed, defeated, and crawled into the bed next to her, feeling around for her waist to pull her in, but she complained in her sleep, and the young doctor sadly turned around.

….

In the morning, around eight, he woke up and saw her sleeping there, he smiled to himself and got up from the bed. Even though she was mad, and he knew that, it wouldn't stop him from trying.

He went downstairs, and took all the ingredients and the bowls out to make her favorite breakfast. That was something he always did, didn't matter what, but he knew he had to make it extra special for her.

Spencer moved around, picking up stuff, pouring and mixing until it was all ready. He smiled and sighed, and prepared the table, to one then he sat and waited for her to come down. She always woke up a eight and a half.

Spencer tapped his fingers on the wooden table as he waited, and waited, and waited. At nine he frowned. The food was getting cold and she didnt come out.

He went upstairs once again, and saw her there, getting dressed.

“What are you doing?” he frowned.

She didn't answer.

“You didn't wait to shower with me and you didn’t come down for breakfast,” he said, with a sad voice.

She stood there silently, and Spencer felt like crying.

He walked to her, and grabbed her arm, “Please, say something,” he said with tears in his eyes.

She looked at him, her own heart aching, “I am mad at you,” she said.

“I know,” he whimpered, “But I am trying.”

“But you haven't apologized,” she explained, “You try for me to jump back on our routine when you haven't even apologized!”

He looked down in shame, “I know. I am so sorry,” he held her hands and kissed them, “I am so sorry but I'm not good with apologies. I tried to, but you stepped back and i didnt-i didnt know what to do!, You came here and i looked for you but you weren't even looking at me, i didn't know what to do,” he cried out, “But i am so sorry, so deeply sorry for snapping that way and for racing my voice when i know you don't like it, and i knew you didn't and did it nonetheless, forgive me, my love,” he said as he grabbed her hands and cup his face with them, which made her smile a little bit.

“Dont do it ever again,” she said.

He nodded, “I promise,” he pouted.

She smiled, and kissed him sweetly and shortly, when she pulled back he whined “No, come here,” he complained, now he was cupping her face and kissing her.

He bent down, and grabbed her by the thighs, lifting her up, “Now, are we gonna have breakfast or not?” He said.

She giggled, “Of course my love.”

[justcallmesakira]

"HOLD MY HEART AND RIP THEM OFF, DONT LET IT BEAT"

Summary: how you hate everything thing, how drowned you are in self pity you feel like vanishing within the darkness and you lover dazai is here for you. But is he though? Because even if it is it will be your last night together

Genre: hurt to comfort

Warnings: suicidal tendencies, implied self harm, VERY happy ending, self hatred, basically mentally ill stuff

A/N: tired...

He notices everything you know? How you smile so brightly at wotk even with a hundred different scars beneath your long sleeves.

How you kiss him back with your chapped lips knowing you hate them and the melodic words they speak out.

Dazai also notices how tired you get nowadays, not that he is too. Infact he probably also knows how he mostly hangs around women.

You also know about dazai, the past 7 years sticking around with him and the ginger head who neither of you give a fuck about with how hard your lifes been getting.

Two lovers who share deep cuts together yet so afar from each other.

Thats what you two were. But even so was there a way for dazai to bring back your smile? He isnt much of a good person anyways but maybe if he stopped hanging around women or maybe if he asked how you were?

You stayed still in the corner of your room like the time, it was a horrifying thing for you. How tired and fucked up you were right now, no all your life.

A Click, your door opens and in comes a tall figure, taking his coat off and hanging it on something, not that you cared.

For some reason as the man stands there looking at you form a dark shadow casts over his amber brown eyes. He kneels down a sad smile on his face as he brushes the hair on your face if only this man could brush your sadness out of your life.

"[Name]" he mutters softly as if he was speaking to child weeping though you have no idea when was the last time you were a child

Dazai gets up starts cleaning the horrid mess around you as your empty eyes watch him, holy fuck he is actually cleaning your room when he cant even clean himself mentally and physically.

Dazai really didnt know what to do. what could he do for you? you would always think he doesnt know either. Him? be a decent human being and tend to your need? You are being too delusional

But even so his body knelt down next to yours, handing you a mango juice box. It had a smooth surface and square-shaped box, you took in the shape. Most importantly it wasnt an alochol bottle.

"Life sucks shit doesn`t it?" "It fucking does" both of you converse for a long while as he takes out another juice box and starts sucking on the contents.

"I am not really good at life counseling." he nonchalantly says. "You`re not even good at your own life how will you help me?" you luagh at your own joke. The air getting lighter.

"Oh c`mon name! i am not that bad at comfort" He shouts out dramatically, the darkness casting his eyes clouding away. And so the evening goes on with both of your life goals which is jumping off a cliff yet in a much more serious matter. It isnt so bad to talk to someone no matter how cringe and violated you feel.

a/n:

divider crds: @cafekitsune

[calmingthoughtsinyourhead]

Not to rip off the plot of avatar (like i usually do) but i’d love to see Aziraphel do a hero-vilain-redemption-ark in the next seasons

Like after Aziraphale returns to heaven, it all starts with good intentions and him trying to make the difference he wanted

He makes a vow to himself that once he has done enough, he’ll reach out to Crowly

Let the demon know he made the right decision.

that is was worth it (was it?)

Only it isn’t exactly what he had expected

Only in order to make the world a better place, sometimes that means making tough decisions

At least that’s what Metatron tells him

Maybe sometimes the greater good asks for a few sacrifices?

(What was that quote again about the path to hell being paved with… ah never mind)

Aziraphale feels weird about it

like really weird

But every time he’s about to run back to earth (back to Crowly), the Matatron talks him out of it

It's a bit strange how good he is at that

But Aziraphale can't focus on that, lately everything's been a bit... blurry

“Don’t give up now Aziraphale, we’re the good guys”

And we notice (subtly, but more visibly as we go on) that the angel is slowly turning into someone we do not recognize

Up to a point where the Metatron doesnt have to coax him into doing the dirty work anymore

So that’s when the Metatron announces to him and the other angels in heaven that God is dead

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God is dead

As in gone

God. Is. Dead

Aziraphale doesn’t even blink when he hears the news

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God is dead

But Armageddon will take place

Because they will finish what She started

It takes a while before hell responds

(It’s one thing to hate and rebel against Her. It’s another thing to hear the person who created you is dead.)

But as expected hell does NOT like this news

More importantly, most of heaven does not like the news either

sure, everyone wanted the apocalypse at one point

but not like this

Not with Her gone

Not with the archangels acting like they don’t even care

Not with the strange, uncanny power radiating of the Metatron when he speaks

The unthinkable happens: the angels leave

almost all of them do

And for the first time since the world started, angels and demons are on the same side again

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Crowly isn’t even in hell by the time the first refugee angels arrive.

He’s already on his way to heaven

Because this isn’t just a lover’s quarrel anymore. Earth is in danger

Much more importantly: his angel is in danger

he finds Aziraphale already waiting for him at heaven’s entrance when he breaks in

“Crowly.” He tjirps (he looks so happy and if that doesn’t just rip him in two), “what a lovely surprise”

Crowly has to blink himself back to consciousness when he sees him again.

No time for this. No time to remember what it was like when they ware almost “us.” No time for taking in the feeling if Aziraphale smiling at him like he’s the only one who matters.

He doesn’t even notice that something is just so off about his angel

The way he stands, the way he talks, the way he breathes

“We have to go. It’s all going up in flames, angel.”

“What are you talking about Crowly, i’m perfectly content here.”

“Are you insane! Did you not hear what they are trying to do”

“Ah. I see. They told me you’d say that.”

Crowly only now starts to realize what exactly he’s looking at.

“Aziraphale”, he speaks slowly “your eyes are glowing.”

“Another great bonus that came with my promotion, thank you Crowly.”

“They’re glowing red”

“I don’t see why that’s relevant.”

Azirapha-“

Then his eyes fall on the sword in the angel’s hands.

It’s no longer burning, but he recognizes it nontheless

“Why do you have that with you.” He asks, but it’s not really a question.

And before he knows it, Aziraphale has thrown him across the brightly lit, white hall of heaven (which is pretty far)

So now his face is all bloody and his hands are trembling (just great)

And Aziraphale is standing over him, raising the sword like he had done so many years ago

“I’m so happy you’re here, dear boy. Don’t worry, It doesn’t have to end with this thing. It’s just insurance so you cannot tempt me again. It’s all going the way He said it would.”

“Who the fuck issssss He?”

“Our true God.”

“Go fuck yoursssssself.”

Aziraphale laughs, like the demon is just being silly and it sounds like his old self so much it hurts. “Oh, Come off it Crowly. Just come with me. We can fix all of this mess together.”

Crowly feels nauseous. “Why don’t you just use that thing for it’s intended purpose and get it over with.”

Suddenly Aziraphale looks confused (heartbroken?) “Crowly, what are you doing?”

Crowly just raises his chin defiantly.

“Don’t- don’t make me do this. It’s not supposed to happen like this, I don’t want to hurt you. Can’t you see that his is your last chance at redemption. Do you not understand that? We’re the good guys.”

“Issss that why half of you jumped sssssship” he growls.

Aziraphale’s eyebrows draw together “It’s-it’s okay, my dear, you are finally going to see the light like I did.”

He raises the sword higher.

He gasps

And then he drops it again

“What on earth am I doi-

The bentley bursts straight through heaven’s gates, hitting Aziraphale head on.

Crowly escapes

——————————————————————————

Maybe its the concussion

Maybe it’s the thought of what he had almost done to Crowly

But slowly the angel’s eyes turn back to brown when he wakes up

“Cro-Crowly? Oh no. No no no, hell- for heaven- what have I done. What have I DONE.”

He tries to stop the Metatron

He really does

But with the loss of his red eyes also comes the loss of his new powers.

the Metatron beats him easily

His new God is not happy

And for a second it looks like this is where it’s going to end for him.

“Aziraphale.” The Metatron hisses, slamming him down on heaven’s holy ground (it cracks open beneath his skull in the shape of a hallo). “Snap out of it.”

The angel struggles to break free. He has to escape, he has to warn earth about what the Matatron is planning.

(He has to save Crowly)

“That demon has corrupted you,” The Metatron growls. “that’s what they do. He wants you to rebel against what’s right.”

And Aziraphale suddenly smiles

“You know what happens to angels who rebel against god?”

They fall

Aziraphale sinks out of the Metatron’s grip and through the floor

——————————————————————————

Aziraphale, now part of the war against the Metatron, meets up with Beelzebub in hell (I think she and Gabriel would return to save earth). Where the other angels are already waiting for him.

It takes a bit for the other side to trust him

But the angel’s now black wings are a pretty dead giveaway about whose side he’s on

And with the former right hand of the Metatron on their side, they might actually have a chance.

Beëlzebub shows him to one of the offices, he already recognizes it.

“He’s in there?” The angel asks

“Yes”, beelzebub says

He hesitates.

“You know, he had the chance to rid himself of you many times since you arrived here

“he’d never try to hurt me.” Aziraphale mumbles “but demons… they’re not that quick to forgive”

“No, but when we do it, it means something. Can you say the same thing?”

Aziraphale swallows. “Does he know? That I’m here I mean”

“Of course he does. He follows all the updates on you.”

——————————————————————————

He walks in

he doesn’t recognize Crowly immediately

The demon has got his back turned towards him

He sees a pair of white wings

And it’s only then that he realizes who he’s looking at

“Crowly?” He croaks

The demon doesnt respond

“I- fuck- I don’t even know where to start. I’m- I’m so sor-I was so stupid, and they trick- but i still - I hurt you and I’m sorry, I’m so sor-, and and and I can never ask for your forgiveness. I just need you to -fuck, I’m so sorry, I just need you to know how sorry I am, and-“

And he feels it.

A wave of love.

The opposite of “this place feels spooky”.

Someone loves him so so so much.

slowly Crowly turns around

His eyes are still golden, like when they first met

“Do the apology dance”

[linalavender]

How Tatsuki Fujimoto writes Affection

First of all I would like to give massive credit to Tiktok user @campaign_baby for their Tiktok I saw on this that really made me think of it alot more

I will Bring up Examples from:

Shikaku

Mermaid Rhapsody

Goodbye Eri

Fire Punch

Chainsaw Man Part 1 (Quite a big spoiler in this will give fair warning)

Fujimoto has a sort of strange method he uses to write that a character Loves/cares deeply for someone. And its The character either being willing to be consumed or to provide sustenance to someone, Or to consume the other person. Examples:

Shikaku

After Shikaku confesses her love for Yucel, He rushes to the hospital to offer her his blood, Making her into an immortal vampire just like him. Yucel has also fallen for Shikaku, its basically his confession of love, He wants to live with her Forever.

Its drawn in a way you can tell its such an act of compassion too.

Mermaid Rhapsody

"I loved her so much that I thought, If it was by someone with a smile as pretty as hers, Maybe being eaten wouldn't be so bad."

Toshihides Dad feels the exact same way about his Mom as Toshihide feels about Shijyu. Mermaids eat humans, But that never mattered to either of them.

Goodbye Eri

In Yuutas Movie about Eri, He writes her to be a Vampire, because he wouldnt actually mind to be her sustenance, In his movie, he loves Eri so much. (I genuinely cant read this fucking story without sobbing, Rereading it again just to get this screengrab just made me cry for like 20 min help)

Fire Punch

This one is Pretty straight forward, Agni with his regenerative powers feeds his village by continuously chopping of his Arm so they dont all starve to death. But more importantly he does this to prevent his sister from doing it aswell. He doesnt want her to suffer that pain so he takes sole responsibility for providing himself to the village.

Agni also later feeds his followers with the help of Togata Chopping of the part of his face that isnt on Fire. I think this has more todo with making sure Togata gets fed rather than his followers, To Agni Togata means alot.

⚠️Chainsaw Man Part 1 (Spoilers for the Final arc)⚠️

When Power is about to Die, Power not only offers her own blood For Denji to Drink so he can get back to health, But Pochita also offers a small part of himself so she can come back as a Powerful Devil.

And ofcourse the big one is Denji Eating Makima. He obviously has to and all for the sake of erasing her. But he explicitly says it wasnt an Attack, It was an act of Love.

Its such a fascinating thing that the idea of consuming someone can be concidered something you do to a cherished one, as an affectionate thing. I guess as Denji mentions that you basically become one with eachother in a way if you consume them.

But this is such a Weird thing Right? Where does this idea even originate from? Well ofcourse we can only Speculate but I really think he took on inspiration from his own life here, Because he has actually done this to someone he loved. Yes, Seriously.

Tatsuki Fujimoto eating his deceased Pet Fish

In the Authors notes for "Tatsuki Fujimoto Before Chainsaw Man: 22-26" Fujimoto shares a story from when he was 24:

"Even though we were poor, we had a pet Japanese rice fish. I found it dead one summer. I went to toss its body into the trash like in Parasyte, but my girlfriend said she wanted me to bury it, So off I went to the park, alone. I tried to bury it under this big tree, but the ground was too hard, my hands got all dirty and I had no hole to show for my effort. Out of Options, I figured I would pretend I had buried the fish and left it lying there on top of the ground. As I watched it for a little while, ants found the body and began to carry it away. Im not sure what came over me, but in that moment, love for that pet fish welled within me for the first time. I brushed the ants away, and then Ate it."

You can read the full story here

It has that "Wait what the hell am I reading" Charm to the story like alot of his works, But theres something so weirdly beautiful about this story, Somehow stricken with grief and love for this fish, He ate it. As Denji says, its not an attack, his fish is part of him now and its an act of love. So strange, yet so Beautiful.

Anyways thanks for reading this insanely long post if you even got this far I appreciate it!

[aroanthy]

i think what gets me the most about 'nobody else will do. it has to be you' is that touga does say this to nanami, but it's insincere(?)/laced with reluctance/discomfort/resentment. like. 'it has to be you', in the car, fighting the duel, wielding your own heart in your hands. touga's very aware of what a sister should be to her brother in ohtori, and he's willing to make that happen because i think touga's willing to do anything if he believes it'll get him what he wants. there's no excess of blood that can be spilt to him. spilling it in the first place is a necessity of living (and there is a degree of truth to this re: the vulnerability of sincere connection, but touga. is profoundly traumatised. and has adopted this worldview to rationalise his experiences and not buckle under the weight of them (it doesnt work very well)). touga says 'nobody else will do. it has to be you' because he thinks that's what nanami needs to hear, but he misses the most important part, is physically incapable of fulfilling it: 'as long as you can feel sure those words were sincere, you can live through anything, no matter how painful.'

nanami understands, if not wholly then certainly in a way that matters, what she is to her brother. she knows that he doesn't believe that no one else will do, or that he'd rather it could be someone else, or something else equivocal about these statements. more importantly, she pokes holes in her own desires. it doesn't have to be anyone. it's all an artifice. she can live not hearing those words because she hasn't all this time, and she's living, isn't she? she wants to be living. god fucking damnit, she wants to be living despite it all, despite being born as a stain upon her family!! 'nobody else will do. it has to be you' becomes violent, and in that nanami sees a fundamental truth, and something ignites within her that makes her want to break out against everything she's ever believed and valued, even as she still clings to those things. the grief and pain and betrayal. i still love you but i don't intend to see you anymore. etc etc etc. crazy about these kids fr fr fr

[svedupelle]

the random antisemitism on my dash from you fucking blew, that post literally has someone saying death to jews in the notes

Im guessing this is the post ur talking about and that this is the comment u mean

(if not, and someone somewhere in the tags said word for word "death to jews", then i didnt spot it. But more importantly, you understand that i am not responsible for that person writing those words, right? and that i may have reblogged that post not because of what some rando said in the tags that i didnt check beforehand, but because of what the post is actually about? which is the state of Isr*el's continued atrocities against palestinians, and more specifically the morbid humor in some random isr*elian on the internet being blind to the real extent of their nations descent into despotism and violence? Just so we're clear about the subject matter of the post)

Anyway. so if that is indeed the comment ur saying meant to say death to jews, then it would seem ur confused about something. Namely zionism *isn't* the same thing as judaism. let's start with the fucking dictionary:

So merriam-webster agrees with me that being a zionist is not the same as being jewish. And quite frankly, it can't be, since unless if we want to posit that gentiles have an inherent and innate opposition to the jewish people having a nation of their own, then it must be possible and true that gentiles can also support a nation of Isr*el, and therefore, can be zionists. And I don't personally believe that not being jewish inherently makes you hateful of jews and opposed to a peaceful existence alongside and together with them. I doubt you do either, considering.

So, we've basically already established that being a zionist does not automatically make one jewish, which means that calling for the death of all zionists does not mean you are calling for the death of all jews.

On the other hand, it would make sense for a lot of zionists to *be* jewish, thus meaning that you are calling for the death of, if not all, then at a least a lot of jews. Now i hate pedophiles. IF we were to imagine a world where 60% of pedophiles were jewish, and i said i think pedophiles should die, i do not believe it would be antisemitic, because i would arguing for the death of pedophiles *regardless* of a majority of them being jewish. Similiarly, the person calling for the death of all zionists is probably doing so independantly of a lot of zionists being jews (maybe, i didnt check to see if there are any statistics on that and im not about to, because this is mostly hypothetical anyway).

"But 'zionist' is just a dogwhistle for jewish, so they do mean death to all jews!"

Then let's take a look at the first part of their comment: "death to the illegal settler colonial state of Isr*el"

now im no expert. but i do believe they may be referring to the aforementioned atrocities and the current apartheid that palestinians endure under the rule of Isr*el. Personally i find it reasonable and to some degree expected of people to condemn these acts. Maybe calling for the death of living people is extreme, but either way, i dont think this person is calling for the death of jews, specifically.

Or maybe they are. Maybe the person in the notes is a big antisemite. I dont know. I dont feel like digging through their blog to check. What I do feel more strongly about is the fact that you worded your ask in a way that suggests you know me, since you expect better from me. Whether ur a follower or a mutual, it makes me incredibly sad that you felt the need to send this through anon instead of a dm. maybe its intimidating or something, but getting this ask doesnt feel like a dialogue, it just feels rude. u didnt even greet me first

i'll make it clear: i have no ill will towards jews. at all. i very much want for all jews across the world and especially in my country to be able to live their lives free from the prejudice, hatred and trauma that they may suffer as a result of antisemitism at the hands of people like myself. i dont know how to make this clearer

i do not support the nation of isr*el. i dont like its actions, i dont like its leaders. i am a firm believer in the fact that until the nakba ends, there will never be a worthy argument for the nation's continued existence. and i do not like how people intentionally misconstrue criticisms of it as antisemitic to condemn the critic, such as what you are doing.

The fact that you seem to be familiar with me annoys me. i despise letting people down. i always do my best not to do so, and always wish to be reliable. but you're annoying. so either dm me if you want to have a real discussion, or block me. read this before you go though, its somewhat interesting. now fuck off

[faerieismm]

how The brothers Reaction to a Albino!gn! MC? MC have white hair, Heterocromia eyes, white as snow skin ( this is basically my Obey me oc look like if you don't mind ofc )

hello!! ofc i dont mind :} every skin color is beautiful, appreciated and welcome here! alrightyyyy hereee we go~

the brothers with an albino mc!

tw: none oui oui

genre: FLUFFIESSS!

luci~

- what an extraordinary human you are~

- stares into your eyes quite often

- he can’t help it

- they’re so unique and beautiful!

- proudly walks around with you

- because pssssttt

- secretly he’s showing you off🤫

mammonnnn

- OI WE MATCH

- well for the hair part atleast-

- awed

- can’t stop staring at you

- like he will try to deny it but its so obvious and he does it so often and his stuttering and blushed face gives it away so easily

- invites you to photoshoots!

- he is proud of his human🥺

- look at them

- *insert more mammon gushing but in his head probably maybe out loud tho but-*

levi my beloved

- list of characters you need to cosplay incoming

- also very awed

- LOOK AT HOW PRETTY YOU ARE!!!!

- blush?

- blush.

- excited ranting about characters he saw that reminded him of you

satan

- huh

- how interesting

- he’d read about it, but now that he sees it in person

- even more interesting

- might ask you a couple of questions

- but also he doesn’t wanna be annoying or rude

- what a beautiful human

assmo

- “well well darling, seems like your beauty gets pretty close to mine!”

- likes to be close to you to study your features

- “aaahhh, those eyes!”

- “i need to post this on devilgram!”

- what he’s actually saying is i need to show you off in as many ways possible

beeeel

- :)

- human pretty

- pretty human

- hshehe

- it really doesn’t matter for him what the color of your skin is

- neither if you’re human, demon or angel

- you’re just you :)

- he does think you’re very unique and beautiful

- but most importantly, you’re you

belphegor

- oh okay

- nice

- ur pretty :)

- studies you closely sometimes

- but also doesnt care

- you’re you oui oui

sorry this took a little longer!! i’m on vacation in spain rn! i hope this was okay :) take care~

yours truly,

[hcvenue]

doie is beautiful, exquisite, precious, perfect, elegant, fantastic, stunning, world changing, alluring, the best person in the world, outselling all these flops, jaw dropping, amazing, impressive, noble, exquisite, beautiful, gorgeous, angelic, soft, graceful, marvellous, feet kicking, making my heart go cherry bomb, awfully addictive, admirable, fascinating, soothing, comforting, underappreciated, loveable, revolutionary, mesmerising, classy, captivating, my sugarpop, my pookie, my muffin, my angel, my dear, my darling, my sweetheart, my honey, the loml, my one and only, the only person i see, my comfort person, my home, my everything, my universe. but most importantly, my kdy. hes making me shed so many tears, dreamy, out of this world, making me feel something i never felt before, the person that showed me a new side of myself, making me emotionally attached to it, amazing which you can’t explain in words. he ended wars. solved world hunger. his voice is ear blessing, such an eargasm, my fav ever, sweet like cotton, smth that i would die to hear 24/7, indescribably amazing, unique, making me weak and much more that i cannot define.

i love doyoung hes my comfort person istg. everytime i dont know what to do with life, i go watch his vlogs. they are really comforting to me aaa. i appreciate doyoung and his talents soso much that i can’t explain in words. like im new to nct but still am so amazed how he can be such a great person ☹️☹️ sure, there are more people out there that love doie more than i do and i’m by far not the best doiezen but that doesnt stop me from loving him right? (not in the delusional way dw) everytime i look at him my heart aches. how can someone be like him? last my 3 months were amazing because of him! hes so incredibly talented and comforting. nothing matters more than he does. i genuinely dont know what i even did before stanning nct and doyoung. gosh the man he is. i hope that he knows that us nctzens appreciate him really much and hope for the best <3 oh my god hes the reason of my joy and happiness how could i ever survive without knowing that kim dongyoung exists. whenever im not in the mood for anything, doie is the solution. not only is he just an idol to me, no, hes also my everything that i’ll love beyond infinity. his words are like a melody in my head that is never going to go away. sometimes i do wonder if future june would still adore doyoung as much as my current self does rn. me rn would be so devastated if i would not ult doie. id have more to say but yes. for now, we can live, laugh and love thanks to my lovely star doyoung!

i love you with all of my heart, body and soul. nothing will ever stop my love for you. distance may be keeping us apart but remember, you will always be embedded in my heart! something about you makes me fall deep for you ml. you’re the main character in my masterpiece labeled life. i dont get how anyone could not be obsessed with you. its so unbelievable that we live under the same sky. my undying love for you is deep to the core, doie. nothing feels better than seeing you my dear. your lively eyes remind me of the freshly fallen snow on a glacial winter day. the cheerful smile that i’m dying to see daily, that pleasing look, your presence and those adorable habits arent enough to define your astonishing existence. you inspire me sm. something about you makes me want to achieve things. i need you love. kim doyoung, my eternity, my only one, my universe and beyond, please don’t ever stop being the way you are.

remember the first time i saw doyoung? the memories are amazing. it was clear from the start that i was meant to be a nctzen. i just cant comprehend that one clip of my bae would be the start of a beautiful journey that is going to blossom to a greater extent! my whole life was dry and boring until you came into it. not even sunghoon was enough to make me feel as good as you do. youre special, kim dongyoung. doyoung you will always be iconic!

[xxjunebestgirltoesrhotuwuxx]

june is beautiful, exquisite, precious, perfect, elegant, fantastic, stunning, world changing, alluring, the best person in the world, outselling all these flops, jaw dropping, amazing, impressive, noble, exquisite, beautiful, gorgeous, angelic, soft, graceful, marvellous, feet kicking, making my heart go cherry bomb, awfully addictive, admirable, fascinating, soothing, comforting, underappreciated, loveable, revolutionary, mesmerising, classy, captivating, my sugarpop, my pookie, my muffin, my angel, my dear, my darling, my sweetheart, my honey, the loml, my one and only, the only person i see, my comfort person, my home, my everything, my universe. but most importantly, my kdy. shes making me shed so many tears, dreamy, out of this world, making me feel something i never felt before, the person that showed me a new side of myself, making me emotionally attached to it, amazing which you can’t explain in words. she ended wars. solved world hunger. her voice is ear blessing, such an eargasm, my fav ever, sweet like cotton, smth that i would die to hear 24/7, indescribably amazing, unique, making me weak and much more that i cannot define.

i love june shes my comfort person istg. everytime i dont know what to do with life, i go watch her vlogs. they are really comforting to me aaa. i appreciate june and her talents soso much that i can’t explain in words. like im new to dodo farm but still am so amazed how she can be such a great person ☹️☹️ sure, there are more people out there that love june more than i do and i’m by far not the best yeri toe but that doesnt stop me from loving her right? (not in the delusional way dw) everytime i look at her my heart aches. how can someone be like her? last my 3 months were amazing because of her! shes so incredibly talented and comforting. nothing matters more than she does. i genuinely dont know what i even did before stanning dodo farm and june. gosh the woman she is. i hope that she knows that us yeri toes appreciate her really much and hope for the best <3 oh my god shes the reason of my joy and happiness how could i ever survive without knowing that june exists. whenever im not in the mood for anything, june is the solution. not only is she just an idol to me, no, shes also my everything that i’ll love beyond infinity. her words are like a melody in my head that is never going to go away. sometimes i do wonder if future ky would still adore june as much as my current self does rn. me rn would be so devastated if i would not ult june. id have more to say but yes. for now, we can live, laugh and love thanks to my lovely star june!

i love you with all of my heart, body and soul. nothing will ever stop my love for you. distance may be keeping us apart but remember, you will always be embedded in my heart! something about you makes me fall deep for you ml. you’re the main character in my masterpiece labeled life. i dont get how anyone could not be obsessed with you. its so unbelievable that we live under the same sky. my undying love for you is deep to the core, june. nothing feels better than seeing you my dear. your lively eyes remind me of the freshly fallen snow on a glacial winter day. the cheerful smile that i’m dying to see daily, that pleasing look, your presence and those adorable habits arent enough to define your astonishing existence. you inspire me sm. something about you makes me want to achieve things. i need you love. june, my eternity, my only one, my universe and beyond, please don’t ever stop being the way you are.

remember the first time i saw june? the memories are amazing. it was clear from the start that i was meant to be a yeri toe. i just cant comprehend that one clip of my bae would be the start of a beautiful journey that is going to blossom to a greater extent! my whole life was dry and boring until you came into it. not even sunghoon was enough to make me feel as good as you do. youre special, june. june you will always be iconic!

- @yeritos

[ganondoodle]

Hey, I adore your artstyle mate, I loveeee all the vivid colors and the fact that most of it lacks lines?? You doing the hard stuff, but it paying off 💜

can I ask, as I’d like to get into comic making, how long does it take you to finish a a single panel?

Hi!! thank you very much!! drawing lineart is incredibly frustrating to me so im very glad i was able to make the jump to mostly lineless artwork, tho im very much still at the beginning to learn how to do it xD

to answer your question, i .. cant say really, it depends on what is on the panel, and i always jump around when working on a page, i draw half of the very last panel, then jump to another, maybe i see something i want to change right away and work on the third besides i ... dont know anything about panel composition, i think in movies so i play it and try to pause it on a frame that could work as a panel, whichs is probably why it goes alot slower than normal comics, idk how much to skip gndfjknvgfdjk

im by no means an expert in making comics, you kinda have to find your own way of what works for you, i have done many in the past but all failed, i gave up before getting even one chapter done many times

general advice i can give you is, most importantly, dont wait, i know its daunting to start, but you have to start, even if you dont think you are good enough, you will always change and improve anyway, better start now or you might do it never, and remember, when a page is done its done, i know how tempting it is to go back and redo it, but if you start with that it will only lead to an endless cycle of remaking it over and over

a cause that made me abandon my old projects, was partly lack of support/recognition, but mostly that i was forcing myself to things that werent fun, like one i made in black and white bc i thought you had to do it bc color takes too long, but i live for colors, so it drained the fun out of it immediately

the only "rules" i have set for myself is that its understandable, the flow of the action doesnt flip around too much, speech bubbles are aligned in a way that guides you (of course im not perfect at that either and always learn); i dont jump between pages, i jump between working on panels, but i dont start another page before the previous is at least acceptable, otherwise id get ahead of myself and get impatient, just wanting to skip ahead and neglect older pages; and that i only work on a panel/page as long as it has acceptable quality and is fun to draw, when i notice im getting bored or frustrated i finish it quickly as best as i can and move on, otherwise it might drag the entire project down, which is why each panel or page in 'Destiny' varies alot in quality

i can barely look at the first pages .. or even at the last one i made for that matter, but its also fascinating, how much my art changes within even one update which takes me about a month for 4 pages, since i have set my 'fun' rules at least, it used to take much longer (i wish i was faster, and i could be, but i have a job, and have to look out for my health, both physically and mentally, so i take whatever time i need and draw however much i feel like drawing, no rushing)

my progress so far is that i write a rough script, what happens, what dialog, where it ends, and so on, it doesnt have to sound good, god knows mine are shitty xD but its a good guideline, even if rough! then i make a rough draft, basic panel layout, dialog (it always changes fro mthe script, again its more liek a guideline than a rule ;) ) then i start with actually drawing the first page, my art and way of .. art and writing changes incredibly fast (idk if its for the better lol) so .. by that point i redraw the rough draft version of the page if i see how it works better, rewrite dialog too, and even cut stuff from the rough draft

im not done with the first chapter (im slow af lol), but wrote the script for the second one when my hand was injured and i couldnt draw for a month, once im done with this chapter i will draw the rough draft for ch2, then write the script for ch3 then go and draw ch2 fully, at least thats the plan the more time passes the more i know what the next chapters are gonna be, tho i know the important points long before; right now i have the entirety of the first arc sepeareted into chapters, and the end of it all too, but between there its still a lil blurry and im adjusting everytime i think of soemthing better

anyway, sorry for that long ass ramble, its late and i thoguht about this ask bc im trying to get my want to draw back (not feeling well rn nkfdnkd) so i randomly decided to answer it .. probably in the most unhelpful way possible, alot of stuff noone aksed for lol

anyway, sorry, and goodnight uwu

[fauslayer]

I'm gonna say it, Faust

LETS GO BABY LOVE DA FAUMT

– Overall opinion of them

faust is my dear sweet guy. my srumple. my blorbus. whatever of those words you want to use but not in the fandom sense. he is deeply important to me and infinitely fascinating. he is kind and he is weird and he is your friend.

– Gender/sexuality headcanons

no matter what the sexuality part is i think A. he is nonbinary (i have proof of this or whatever) and B. he likes men

– Favorite moment in canon

this entire scene. the whole thing.

his voice cracking on the last part of that first screenshot, brought to tears while i-no lays in silence on the ground. does he let himself cry because he feels alone? because he is resolute? idk. there is a sense of himself healing in this scene for me. i like scenes where hes talking about being a doctor in a way that doesnt have the usual undertones of "im a doctor and thats all i am an anything else is a fluke", where he recognizes himself as a person with a lot of love to give.

also, the scene in the strive another story where ramlethal shuts down his plan to sacrifice himself for delilah by finally getting it through to him that hes precious cargo too; he is also a life to be saved, and him subsequently letting go of the him that bundled such resentment against himself for so many years. square one <3

– Favorite moment in a fanwork

GO HERE AND READ SPAGHETTIS FICS NOWWWWWWWWWW

if you want specific requests for faust stuff:

primum non nocere is a excellent dive into fausts perception of the parts of himself and it makes me cry like a little baby bitch i love you faumt most importantly i love you spag IM GOING TO FUCKING GET YOU!!!!!!!

trains in the depot is gorgeous post-ST another story calm. fuaaaa...

a doctor, a politician, and a cowboy walk into a desert... is perfect slapstick and perfect character piecing. i love goldlewis. i love goldlewis.

polyester coffin is part of the faust autism agenda, alongside being a wonderfully moody piece that cuts to the bone of his character and ends with loving catharsis towards his future.

i think i need to stop myself here bc im realizing now that im just going down the list essentially and that would be 27 recommendations so you should just click the link i gave you if youre reading this and GOD FUCK I DIDNT EVEN GET TO TALK ABOUT THE BEDMAN FIC CHAPTER WITH HIM OR JUST ANOTHER DAY OR INTO THE VOID OR HELPING HANDS GO GO GO GO GO GO GO GO GO G

– Favorite line, in canon or otherwise

the "forgive me, i seem to have lost control" bit from xrd, as well as "lying is bad for your body, you know?" delivered in that certain lilt from the sign post-credits sequence between him and chronus. there are so many other lines that make me roll around and shout so this is just the ones i can think of but pweh pweh pweh pweh

– Characters I love seeing them interact with

SLAYER is the big one. from their interactions starting in x2 to their deeply personal (for fausts standards, especially) implied relationship (friendship or further) in xrd just really fucking gets to me. someone on the internet put it best with "Slayer is one of the few people capable of grabbing him by the arm, looking him in the eyes, and saying in a stern, yet caring voice, ’no. You are staying here. Rest.’ And it was a power he was happy to abuse."

other than that, his interactions with fanny in petit are INCREDIBLY fun (she doesnt like him but i totally think they could start an actual friendship in the future once shes done despairing), and of course ZAPPA my MEGASCRUNKLE i LOVE whenever they get to be in the same room.

his interactions with baiken, testament, and potemkin also make me weh cry i love guilty gear

– Last thing before sleeping headcanons

i think as of strive hes trying to be a little more gentle with himself before sleep. actually nestling down his stuff and tucking himself in and everything. I do not think he did that before. i think he slept on the ground and felt bad about anything else unless it was his rinky dink clinic that got burnt down in ggx.

– Sleeping habits headcanons

pre strive: doesnt sleep a lot, usually only out of exhaustion. wants to fall asleep as FAST as he can (fainting is good for this) because he doesnt like being alone w/his thoughts before it happens. nightmares flare up randomly but are better around xx.

post strive: likes big, fluffy nonsense and is getting better at admitting this to himself. loves soft and silky textures so at the very least hes buying a nice blanket to carry around. trying to follow his own sleep advice, but does often find himself lacking still. sleeping habits are just things that are hard to fix.

all the time: man sleeps like an Embryo. his back is so unbelievably fucked up from everything, whether it be his build or his posture, and his sleep is definitely a big wedge. hes as stiff as a rock when he sleeps.

– First thing after waking up headcanons

pre strive: guy who hypes himself up by saying "keep going bitch!" in different accents in the mirror and one day its gonna work. basically just gets dressed, sorts his supplies and gets on his way for another exciting day of Earth

post strive: gets himself a little more leg room, maybe some actual breakfast. its easier to sleep and be comfortable in a bed when you are in a nice place and/or have sleeping clothes and dont wear your dress pants and shirt to bed (xrd).

all the time: he has comical striped old man pajamas with the bauble hat and everything but they only seem to be on when its funny for him to have them. hes an enigma. guy who sleeps in boxers and a big shirt when applicable tho.

– Favorite locations headcanon

faust loves the world AND the people in it, but in my head i always think of him with like. a specific attraction to festivals. maybe its like. this old fanart i saw of him just towering over a traditional festival ground and having all the lights reflecting on him, but i think those kinds of energetic spaces would both compliment his silliness and also give him an opportunity for stillness, in that he can let the world around him keep spinning and laughing and for once, simply bask in it. that kinda stuff.

thank you dearly for the question! i cat kiss gif you

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I was going to talk about it ..u posted it...right fans were kinda sad that he didnt active on weaver's I guess....but u knw i want to ask this..is jaes brain and charecter is entirely and totally different than any others in 127??

I mean when they were sending messages literally evryone was together...dy even said we are infront of yuta in one message right....cant jh just go with the flaw..dont take it wrongly...I am not forcing and pushing anyone out of their charecter...infact I knw people who goes with the falw and people who ignores these kind of things ....I am not judging them..I have no right on that...but most of the people who ignores this are someone who doesnt have followers and admirers...so they dont have to care what others think and most importantly they wont criticized that badly ....but jh is an idol with millions followers...fans are eagerly waiting for his updation when evryone in his group is active ...I knw it is the exact reason why he divide his life as jh and yuno...but when he is jh he needs to fulfill some duties right.. not just to please the fans but also to save from this kind of stupid criticism...I myself is not a fan of asking my idol to do something or forcing them to entertain us..fans...I think it is totally bullshit and ridiculous..I knw idol are just common people like us who have feelings and pain...ok..but what I want to convey is there is a clear way to stop this kind of talk of fans from happening...just giving out messages playing with the members wont do anything...plus it will be good for his image...but he chose not to do that...instead gets the criticism from fans and tells them to dont be upset ..and it is me ...this behaviour is what I dont understand...u should knw that I am not saying he should always please the fans and entertan them...but their criticism if really hurts him...and it Is not the first time too...if it really hurts his feelings then he can go with easy way that evryone is using right...even if he does that he can still says that jh is different from yuno..who would never do smthng if others want it from him...and he really dont care abt the world ...I guess..

That's why I ask u as a long term observer of jh...what is his charecter..I knw u wrote about his brain type..I read it...but that's not what I wanted..I mean why wouldn't he choose an easy way rather to makes things more complicated.i felt it is amazing..and his is kinda stubborn nature..no matter how soft u are these people can blast ..and I really wonder how jaedo being in a relationship almost for 10 yrs this smoothly..both are kinda weird...strange tho...

I guess Jaehyun is resistant to peer pressure. If he is not bulging, it means the issue is important to him. Something that might look as not big of a deal to you, might be betraying himself in his own eyes. I can say for myself that it is extremely hard for me to ask for forgiveness for something I didn't do. There are situations where it is easier to just say "I'm sorry", brush it off and move on, but I will rather go into escalation of the conflict than lie and "acknowledge my fault" in such a case.

Jaehyun said he decided to post once a week on bubble, he normally writes thankful messages after concerts and such. He sometimes participates in leaving comments on socmed under other neos' posts/lives, but only when he wants. He has already started posting much more frequiently on IG and on bubble. He posts whimsical pictures, jokes. The thing is, nothing will ever be enough for some of his stans, and antis will always find a reason to hate on him and a way to paint him black. It is antis who use his socmed behaviour as a tool. If he gives up territory now, he will be pressured to give even more later. Give fans an inch, they will take a mile. Remember Doyoung's situation a year ago? When he talked about Link+ instead of Brasil where 127 had a concert? This happened to a neo who rivals Chenle on the number of messages to fans on all accounts.

Notice that Jaehyun underlined that he is always glad to see fans during fanmeetings and on concerts, he also wrote that he will continue to give his fans back via performing and new music. He drew a clear boundary and showed who he thinks are his real fans (those who like him for the music and who accept the real him).

Jaehyun didn't say the accusation hurts him. He said he doesn't like that his fans are hurt because of those "fans" who calculate his love for his fans based on the frequiency of his messages. He did precisely what you want him to do: he came in and stopped the issue from developing further. He said "(fans) trust my words (don't be gullable)". Doyoung does exactly the same, just with more sugar.

Remember that his fans turned on him during his scandal, he was sent death threats during live in the chat. It is already wonder he was able to comeback to communication with his fans to almost how he was before after 2-3 years. There is a need to divide the mass of fans into real fans who really cherish you and wish you good and those fickle fans for whom you are an object.

As for Weverse. He let Jungwoo take a picture with him and post it. They were drinking beer and relaxing. For Yuta chatting with fans is fun, he wants that attention, he wants to live the rock-star life (he once said he reads comments on YT about himself often). Taeyong is chronically online as well. Doyoung always thinks about promotion (and the current Weverse activity is promotion). As for Jaehyun, he most probably just wanted to relax after work, maybe he talked to his parents or his non-NCT friends. It was his private time. He probably hasn't figured out how to use Weverse, so "leaving a few comments" would require a lot of work, actually. Other neos regularly write nonsence on IG under each others posts, he never joins. So why would the thought "I should join to not look suspicious" occure to him on that day?