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litt1e-prince · 11 months

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"Who's your friend, MK?"

INSPIRED BY THE FIC: https://archiveofourown.org/works/46162438/chapters/116212117

Which, if you 'haven't read yet- why not?? go read it now!! It's literally so good, its so good- had me crying- LIKE. I WANNA FIGHT WUKONG FROM THIS FIC SOOOO BAD but at the same time,,, i wanna hug him and bring him nice things and make sure he's safe and happy! The author writes so amazingly and aaaah! the pain!!!!

#N E WAY #i wanted to do it in a sorta crayon style #so it had a sort of 'through the lenses of a child' kind of look - idk if it came out well #but i do like the style! i saw an artist at comic con + it looked like they went over their art with a crayon effect which i really liked #but i got a bit of the way through and went 'hm. what if i just did it all crayon.' whICH I ENJOYED SO SHRUGS #i haven't read the newest chapter yet! but as soon as i post this im going to #and then prolly slide into Smiles dm's and cry - ive been told it has angst!#its such a good fic tho #100% recommend it #along with their other fic - Taken #which is also really good i have a lil drawing planned for that oneee #hint hint its about the name line - 'A name is the first gift you are given' cause it made me cry a little #shadowpeach #MK #macaque #six eared macaque #sun wukong #lmk #lego monkie kid #monkie kid #the day the world eclipsed #fic inspired #my art #smudged art #artist on tumblr #SWK #qi xiaotian #lmk fanart #lmk shadowpeach

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idkimtiredanddumb · 2 years

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Steve’s awful stuffy parents who never cared what he did so long as he maintained their image as The Harringtons come home early because something weird and terrible is happening in Hawkins and they should make an appearance and find their son in the living room, COVERED in grime and blood with a bat of nails by his side and a skinny messy haired metalhead boy on his lap SURROUNDED by kids calling him mom

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officialrapunzelfitzherbert · 9 months

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rip luke patterson you would have loved boygenius 😔🙏🕊

#luke is a julien stan btw he told me #however do NOT think abt him hearing emily im sorry for the first time do NOT THINK ABT IT #i think of julie introducing the boys to modern music often.....#she sits them down one day and plays the brooklyn steel video #and they have to keep pausing it bc someone needs to go lie face down on the ground outside #alex @ do you hate what you see like i do reggie @ phoebe belting luke @ juliens guitar solo #(alex and julie are both lucy stans reggies a phoebe stan luke is a julien stan)#(u KNOW alex is crying to night shift like. daily)#anyways. thats just what ive been thinking abt #julie and the phantoms #art #luke patterson #jatp #luke jatp #sunset curve #this is gonna be a series btw alex is next i think!!!!!

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needylittlegirl · 2 months

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if you dont “believe” in aftercare you deserve to get run over by a bus btw

#tbd #saw a crazy tweet now im just thinkin abt how many people dont think aftercare is necessary #my ex didnt think it was needed ever #he would do crazy things specifically to avoid anything that could be taken as care or intimacy after sex #and it did awful things to my brain!!#i have such a weird relationship with sex now because i’ve never experienced aftercare #its crazy that people think its an absolute necessity #i remember one time he left immediately like he always did #so obviously i started crying cause its very confusing to have sex and then the person just walks out not even 5 mins after!!#especially for how young i was it was Confusing #and he came back cause he forgot his wallet or something so he saw me crying #got mad at me it become an argument etc etc cause i told him why i was crying #and he said to me and i Quote #‘expecting a guy to care about you after sex is idiotic and immature-#‘you should be glad you’re even getting laid in the first place so take what you can get and stop expecting guys to care abt anything else’#which is an insane thing to say and i Believed it for years #the fact i was sitting there crying and i told him it was bc he made me feel like he hated me and i was awful and a worthless girlfriend??#and that was his response ??? how crazy do you have to be #anyways. aftercare is always necessary and if you dont provide then one of you is gonna be suffering

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moeblob · 17 days

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You know, when I kept getting asked "so you didn't ever have severe pains before now?" in the hospital and I kept replying "I have a high pain tolerance" I meant it. However, there is only so much pain my tiny 4'9" body can hold... (aka I am sweating and in agony bc I'm getting told to use LESS severe pain meds so I don't rely on them too much and it is AWFUL)

#moe talks a lot #i was shaking earlier and despite the fact i sound like im gonna cry #and the fact that my mom can pick out im about to cry from pain bc im trying to take less pain meds #LIKE MY MOM IS INSTRUCTING ME TO DO #shes like well why arent you taking any pain meds #BECAUSE THERE ARE TWO AVAILABLE OPTIONS AND ON A SIX HOUR TIMER #i cant take both at once or else what happens to me if i hurt before the six hours is up #i have to manage them in a way that allows me to benefit from both and being told im doing it wrong #after being told well its your fault it got so bad because you never complained about pain before #YEAH NO JOKE? REALLY? I NEVER DID? because everyone acts like im too young to feel that kinda pain #oh youre hurting? just wait until youre older #and its currently agony to breathe again but that i guess is also my fault bc im trying to use pain meds #holy moly i just want to not get dizzy standing up cause wow dang #sure would be nice if the multiple incisions in my stomach didnt THROB every time i sneezed or coughed or cleared my throat #but since i didnt use much pain meds before because i would be mocked for being too much of a baby its like #welp damn now i could really use some and im being called out for being too reliant #anyway time to sleep more because that means im not noticing my pain #im literally smaller than most children and so i do understand my body size makes people worried about the medication intake #but can i please just go a day without being asked how much im taking or when i last took it or if im gonna cry #anyway sorry for the excessive rant today never really had surgery or anything so this is brand spankin new suffering

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explodingstarlight · 1 year

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the emo trinity is alive, well, and prospering in 2023

#what if i said i have been listening to FOB's new single on repeat since yesterday #immaculate music to draw to ngl #speaking of: remaining asks i PROMISE i see you omg #ANYWAY god bless and amen i can't believe early 2000's emo is alive and thriving rn #if you told 13 year old me this would happen i would laugh in your face #and they're all TOURING (or have been touring recently)#*takes a short break from turtle posting to cry over new music from bands i've been listening to for 10+ years* how true and autistic of me #mcr #paramore #fall out boy #we don't speak of Him here; their glory days are long dead #ifykyk #emo memes #idc if that's not the proper genre name im still using it and no one can stop me #foundations of decay #this is why #love on the other side #<- the titles of the singles/EP btw in case you haven't heard them yet

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oatbugs · 3 months

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my research partner and i are huddled in a blanket in paddington waiting for a too-late train i already miss you and you and you

#he keeps falling asleep almost on my shoulder and waking up and readjusting but i want to tell him its ok weve seen a lot #of each other ive seen your brainwaves you called me crying a few nights ago. research partner right now is a potentiality #friend is a certainty. i met a banker passionate about finance. he said his advice made the lives of others better and he likes the numbers #more than he likes anything else. on a high rise near canary wharf the view was wonderful and the people even moreso #he said i loved her but i spent 33 grand on her and i cant do this anymore. his voice cracked talking about her. he did love her.#and she talked softly she grabbed my hand she bought me a pack of Marlborough gold she told me to snap #the russian menthol cigarettes of the tortured polish man near us with my teeth i kept staring at her teeth #bright white and sharp. i couldnt find her heartbeat but i did find warmth and i did find her lips and i did feel #how she felt pressed against a wall. a pretty boy held my hand and i gave him my number. i couldnt stop smiling about her no matter #how many runways youve walked on how many collections youve designed how many students youve taught. senior lecturer teaches me how to do #very unethical things ethically over a double shot of vodka made by the half-persian with broken farsi. she talks softly #and she says her eyes are hazel but they appear a shade of red. pure gold on her hands and leather on her back and her fingers on my lips #(she talks softly sees through me she says something i cant hear but i wont forget the way she flies) she talked to my research partner #about the possibility of moving to sunny dubai with the rest of her family and my heart felt pierced. on her arm i traces a tattoo of a #knife passing through a rose. she told me she thought there was romance in severing so i kissed her some more.#he sat me down and asked me what i loved and i told him and he said no romance no person no tragedy will take that from you.#the room was filled with a collection of people in love with something that wasnt a person and i kept looking at her.#red eyes bitten jawline beautiful hands. it is 3 degrees Celsius my head is on his shoulder i miss my friends #we walked out the lecture hall with arms linked a photo of two years ago and we both said #jesus christ. i miss you all. and i miss logic metatheory lectures. im glad i get to stare at the depth of your eyes #i wish i had met you years ago.#crushposting

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hopefullystillliving · 10 months

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You ever get lulled into a false sense of security during the first two thirds of a kid's movie that's good with a serious plot but mostly a pretty fun time, only to have the entire final third tear your heart out, chew it up and spit it out, crush it into even finer paste beneath its heel, and add the fine powder your ribs have been turned into by the sledgehammer it whammed you with as a seasoning?

Anyway Nimona was great, 10/10 would recommend, I was crying on and off for what probably totaled 20 minutes of tears.

#hopeful rambling #nimona #cw graphic #i think that's probably the right tag for that description #anyway yes im a little late to the train but i was waiting until i could watch it with my dearest #my takeaway is that they should put a content warning on it for trans people especially bc you will feel punched in the face #that allegory sure can trans.#i think i related to it in a different way than most people #bc being genderqueer yeah nimona going im not a girl im just myself hit home but im not *trans*#so i think i actually ended up projecting onto balistar as someone who deeply loves a trans person (different ways obviously)#being told 'yes you can rejoin the society you betrayed you aren't like *her* you arent a monster everything can go back to what it was #you can be one of the good guys if you reject the freaks'#but they betrayed you first and the good guys aren't good and how things were is worse actually than saying i love you i see you im with you #to the freaks and the monsters who will accept who you are unlike the society that never will always keeping you to an impossible standard #of never being yourself #so yeah the religious/societal prejudice trauma was very felt at some points #and i grieved for nimona not because she was me but because she was my dearest and she was a friend #and she was a thousand people i will never know who decided it was better to die as yourself than be killed as someone you aren't #and didn't have a person to say im sorry. i see you.#anyway. yeah im still crying. altered my brain chemistry is mild i think it rearranged my organs punched a hole in my chest and i thanked it #nimona spoilers

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koko2unite · 3 months

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I'm so mentally ill I can only draw in my cheaply bought pre-owned tablet from 2015 using my computer in my silly little room in my house and not anywhere else

#what the hell #also idk how you guys can do it but drawing in ipad is so difficult #screen too tiny every button is so tiny half of my shortcuts doesnt work #sobbing #i wanna go home #oh i never told people but im at my parents house right now and i cant go home until uhm indefinitely #so not only my work commute is much more longer i also cant game #but also #i cant draw #even though i brought my ipad with me #because???? idfk #my brain suckssss #and if i push forward and keep drawing the result ended up looking shit and my mood just got worse and AAAAA #Also everybody here is on diet so no snacking!???#im gonna cry #also i have 2 comms right now in the work but i didnt upload both in the cloud so i dont have the files rn and im crying and aaaaaaaa

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frogmanfae · 5 months

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Rest in peace David Jacobs, you would have loved The Beatles

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tehohaews · 2 years

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Billkin & PP in เท่าไหร่ก็ไม่พอ - Bell Supol

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nextstopparis · 2 years

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I WAS FOUND DEAD!!!! LOOK AT THIS AND TELL ME ITS NOT THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING YOUVE EVER SEEN.

gorgeous stunning beautiful lovely incredible amazing illustrations by the talented BEYOND WORDS @cypressarts .

#IM ON THE FLOOR IVE BEEN SCREAMING CRYING ETC SINCE YESTERDAY #GODDDDDD do you know my life will actually never get better than this . wow #wowow #i told you id never shut up aND GUESS WHAT IM STILL NOT GOING TO #oh . my GOD #bbc merlin #merthur #merthur fic #heyyyy u guys should👀👀 go read it on ao3👀👀👀#printing this on my tombstone and tattooing it on my forehead btw

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crimeronan · 6 months

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you guys. my biggest client who dropped me for AI just gave me over $1,000 of work.

#work tag #my fiverr offers remain very open bc i need to build a client base that cant be torpedoed by one dude being a dumbass #but GOD. im gonna cry. what a RELIEF #'oh i'm experimenting with open source AI for my content' and how has that worked out for you #i raised his price and told him it was to cover the increased cost of living from inflation #and he didnt even haggle. he just sent over seventeen long orders.#THANK GOD. I HAVE BEEN SO POOR STRESSED AND HUNGRY.

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dietmimo · 1 year

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okay so first off SPOILERS FOR ORV EPILOGUE

and 2nd

KNW LJH and OD being a sneaky trio and trying to sneak in snacks before dinner. SP catches them and of course punishment is in order.

KNW and LJH get swat at the back of their hand from trying to sneak the snacks.

OD closing his eyes expecting that he's about to get the same. Instead he feels a stick film on his forehead and a sheet covering his face.

OD opens his eyes to a piece of paper stuck to his forehead. He peals it off and freezes at what is written on it.

KNW and LJH getting curious/alarmed at OD's horrified face getting teary, looking like the world is ending.

They gasp in shock.

Basically SP avoids giving corporal punishment to OD and thinks of creative ways instead.

Written in SP'a scrawl are the words 'I am VERY disappointed in you'

And it works, because what other worse punishment could their be than your favorite person expressing how disappointed they are in you.

#dietmimo headcanons #dietmimo chattering #orv #orv spoilers #OD: AHJUSSSIIII IM SORRY I WONT DO IT AGAIN 😭😭😭😭😭#999 shenanigans man #also OD getting the heaviest punishement because he's the one that planned the snack heist LOL #KNW hugging a crying OD and LJH pointing an accusing finger at SP #LJH: YOU MONSTER HOW COULD YOU #SP: .....#Uriel and LHS coming down later for dinner #LHS: what happened?#SP: they tried to steal snacks before dinner #SP: I told them 999 was disappointed in them #Uriel: You Monster

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leonardoeatscarrots · 7 months

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Art therapy is so fun because today I just drew pathologic fanart, and my therapist was like, "Awesome, so tell me about it"

#pathologic 2 #pathologic #artemy burakh #мор утопия #my post #art therapy #i spent a couple hours playing on my birthday recently and it just made me so happy #i had to explain to my therapist what the game was #at first she was like “are you sure you should be playing that?”#but then she started to get really excited when i told her about how ive been using it to help manage stress n shit #plus hyperfixation mode activated #my stress tolerance and ability to break down tasks has improved so much because of this game #its literally my favourite #sobbing crying #did i mention i love this game?#anyway she said it was very insightful and im so happy because all i had to do was be autistic for half a session #also no. you may not see the image #i didn’t have a reference so its off model lmaooo #may redo the concept on digital ::3

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oatbugs · 8 days

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procrastination is starting to have its consequences finally

#on my friends living room floor they love together but one of them has been london for weeks or maybe months #to be with her love. im on a foam mattress from one of their beds next to a glass bottle of water opened by one of them #in a mug given to me by another. the weather felt like my childhood today and it also felt like 2 years ago.#(put space in the heavens Einstein's idea and hes your friend too so nothing to fear) around the table they drank and laughed and i thought #i hope you keep growing so full with the love you receive . i hope your appetite becomes insatiable from how used to it you are #and i know youre all leaving soon but i hope one day you miss this and that youll be happy you miss it #its worth missing i think #i thought he didnt care but he said after exams hes going walk around this area over and over #(this is near where he lived and where we visited almost daily for a year)#(hed come across the bridge on a lake)#we went where she used to live and at the entrance a fox sat calmly. it just yawned and stared.#it felt important somehow. i think maybe their impressions of me will never be close to how i feel inside but i think #i love them enough for that not to matter. i dont think theyll ever know this. i dont think if they did it would change much.#and seeing them smile makes my heart glow anyway. today i tried their malaysian tea the ginger burned my throat #they warmed my heart. hes going to canada soon and hes going to the US soon and shes going everywhere soon ill never understand #how were supposed to live with memories and with seperation and with the past but we do it anyway so i think it doesnt matter much #i wanted to write a poem for the lab rats with the fibre optic wires lit with blue forcing them to turn around and around #something about how im sorry that the two photon arrays burned the inside of your brain. im sorry about the sharp points of multielectrode #arrayes. im sorry about everything we do to you. she asked to see me tomorrow. im trying to have self control but i miss her so awfully #last night my friend talked to me and i updated on everything that happened with love and the lack of it and she just started laughing #and she told me about the same thing from her side. and she told me about how she loved london because she would walk the streets #and she felt like the people were her. and her eyes would go over the people and the bag of bagels and the construction men they probably #have a kid at home maybe shes a daughter. this kid is crying for her mother and the building you just walked past caused #blisters and pain and people died in it and very likely people were born in it. we talked for hours and i felt like #i was holding her hand just like that time she held mine watching a horror film. i love her so much #my friend is a genius and i remember her picking up the charms of my phone and staring at the leaf hanging from them. shes side stepping to #music drinking dangerous cider and cocktails from a movie and chit chatting with billionaires and undergrads #i love her dearly. his head covered in electrodes. she tells me about a syrian guy shes in love with and she says #what you feel and what i feel is like cocaine. ive tried a lot of fucking cocaine.#she says ive reminded her of what living actually feels like and to never put energy into someone who doesnt see me this way.

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