#what really enrages me about all of this is i'm literally always the one that's actually calm and civil and respectful

[kittycak3s]

I hate that I'm being made responsible for coping with and "forgiving" abusive behavior just to protect myself.

I'm tired of being fucking "understanding". I'm tired of my survival being dependent on how much I'm able to take. I'm tired of being treated like dog shit for no reason.

[annymation]

My Thoughts On Wish Deleted Scenes

Now that we got all the deleted scenes out, I thought it would be fun to share my thoughts on them... Mostly rant, yeah, I might get pretty heated with this heheh but it'll be fun.

Villain Couple

So let's begin with my personal favorite, the villain couple that we could've had

I am literally scared with how I nailed their characterization in my rewrite, like, that's them, that's King Magnus (Magnifico) of Rosas and Amaya (Amable) of Rosas right there. The dramatic, power hungry dude that can barely control his temper + a cunning, calm and collected queen that thinks before acting but is just as vicious as him.

AND THEY CALL EACH OTHER SO MANY PET NAMES! SHE CALLED HIM "GOOD BOY"!!! HE PULLED HER FOR A ROMANTIC DANCE UGHHH DISNEY YOU TOOK THEM FROM MEEEE!!!

Now let's talk about... WHY this was scrapped, according to Mark Kennedy, the head of story in Wish, he says in the Behind the Scenes documentary that the reason they changed this, and I quote:

"We didn't want people to know Magnifico was evil right away, we wanted the people of Rosas to love Magnifico, and have only Asha realize he's not as good as he seems"

... Okay? That's not a reason to not make him SECRETLY evil, just have the rebels be like a group of people who are considered ungrateful weirdos by the people of Rosas, and the king spreads rumors that they're a threat, since they think NO ONE should get their wishes granted. So we have Asha being part of this rebellion, that doesn't fully know what Magnifico does with the wishes, but they know he's doing something bad, so it's up to Asha to find proof and open the eyes of the citizens of Rosas who love Magnifico, easy.

"Also it serve the story better to have Amaya be a good person"

Why? Because she distracted Magnifico and told them about the pulleys they needed to open the castle's ceiling? Just have one of Asha's MANY FRIENDS be a spy of the rebels that became close to the king and queen, maybe the king's apprentice, let's say Safi, and he tells them that info and also distracts them if needed, there, no need for good queen.

This one is the cheery on top, are you guys ready? I don't think you are, but here goes... "Additionally we couldn't really answer the question of why Magnifico wanted a star, and what it would do for him."

............................. I don't know if I can put into words how ENRAGED this make me feel, but I will try.

Mark, my guy, I'm sure you're a lovely person, but I know for a fact that you are lying. Because in a room full of professional screen writers THAT MADE IT TO DISNEY there's absolutely NO WAY no one stepped in and said "Oh but why does the villain want power though?"... THAT'S LIKE ASKING WHY JAFAR WANTED THE LAMP OR WHY URSULA WANTED THE TRIDENT!!!! HE'S A VILLAIN!!! VILLAINS ALWAYS WANT POWER!!!

"Oh buT MaGNiFicO Is DiFfERRenT bEcAuSE He'S A kINg sO He alREadY HaS pOWeR" SO WHAT??? Villains are never satisfied! Magnifico says it himself in the deleted scene

"I can't take it, this wanting that is never satisfied"

THERE! That's your villain motivation, he wants to fill a cup with no bottom, he wants more and more than he already has! Which makes him a PERFECT FOIL to Asha, because Asha wishes for more to her people, because they indeed are struggling, she wants what they need! And she'll fight for it, while Magnifico will only lie, cheat and steal his way into more power! GAAAAH IT WOULD BE SUCH A NEAT CONFLICT I'M GOING FERAL!

Anyway, on to the next one

Wishing Tree

Deleted Sabino my beloved, you only get one scene in my rewrite, Tiana's father style, but I love you so much you sassy old man

I love this concept of the wishing tree so much, because this is actually a tradition here where I'm from, we take colorful ribbons, think of a wish, and tie them on a tree.

Would be lovely if Wish showed many types of different traditions of wishing besides just wishing stars, like blowing dandelions, throwing a coin down a well and soon.

But I digress, Asha has such an inspiring personality here, her writings show how she's fierce, longing for adventure

SHE HAS KNACK FOR SWEARING LMAO

She has an undying hope in her, and she wonders if it'll take Magnifico to DIE for her people to be free to wish, this is amazing, this is what I wrote my Asha into in Kingdom of Wishes

@uva124 joked the other day saying I might secretly be one of the disney writers just pretending to be a fan and sharing the original script, guys I swear that's not the case, they just communicated with me telepathically.

Jokes aside, this scene is so beautiful, Asha had everything to be an amazing protagonist.

Now for what Mark said in the documentary... Oh boy...

"The people of Asha's village keep their wishes a secret, and don't say them out loud, because if they do Magnifico will find their wishes"

Now THIS is very interesting, making Magnifico this almost omnipresent threat that even if you just SAY what you desire he might hear with his magic, maybe with a crystal ball or something Idk but regardless this is a great way to make him aware of who Asha is.

Cause think about it, Asha does make a wish, upon a star, so Magnifico would probably feel that wish, and thus he'd know Asha is the one who summoned a wishing star, so the chase would begin.

Heck, with this concept he could manipulate Asha into giving away star by promising that if she did so all her people would be free and he'd stop eating wishes all together because he wouldn't need more power anymore, obviously that'd be a lie, but it would make Asha have to choose between taking the easy way out and giving away her friend/love interest in exchange of her wish coming true, or risk it all and protecting him at all cost, ya know, a internal conflict.

"We wanted people to love Magnifico, and Asha to be the only one who finds out about his true evil nature, that way, when she tries to tell people, nobody believes her, and that's make fighting him much harder for her"

See Mark, that's a good idea, thing is, that's not what happened... Asha didn't try to tell people, and the times she did tell her family that Magnifico would never grant their wishes, they DID believe her, and Sabino got mad she wanted to tell him his wish. And when she told her friends, they didn't question her much about the fact she challenged the king, Dahlia just rolled with it like it was no big deal...

So yeah it would've been great if Asha tried to spread the truth but people didn't believe her, it really would, but that's not quite what we got

Star and Asha Chase Scene

And there it is, the closest thing we'll ever get of Star Boy, and I love him

Star can take shape of any animal in this version, and that made him too similar to Maui and the genie, well, dear Disney, riddle me this, why didn't you just scrap the idea of him being a shapeshifter? There are many ways for a being to embody magic and creativity that don't involve them turning into animals, maybe have them be- oh I don't know- ANIMATED IN 2D???

"The ability to change into anything made star very powerful"

Here's an idea, make Magnifico MORE powerful than star, by making forbidden magic Star's weakness

"We wanted Asha to be our hero, and we wanted her to solve all her problems by herself, without too much help from star"

Bruh, Walt Disney said himself "You can design and create, and bild the most wonderful place in the world. But it takes people to make that dream a reality" Asha could NOT do this on her own, and that doesn't make her weak or less of a hero, it just means the threat was too big.

And if she was the one who had to make her wish come true, GREAT, just use Blue Fairy logic, she couldn't make Pinocchio a real boy right away, all she did was give him life so he could pursue that himself, same could happen to Asha, star gives her some magical intervention, but he can't do everything for her.

Also let me just say, that interaction between Asha and Star?

"Star we'll have to be very discreet" "Discreet? Got it, sounds like another plan, I'm getting pretty good at this planning stuff" "Uh you know what would help that plan? If you weren't so bright" "Oh-hoho thank you!- oh wait, you mean-" "Shinny, glowy, way too much light, turn it down"

I can SEE KOW!Asha and Aster having this exact same interaction!

And then that scene Star holds her hand under water! Bruh don't tell me they wouldn't be a thing Disney!

And all the sea creatures coming together to make a big spectacle, THAT felt like Disney magic, that WHALE!!!

That would've been so beautiful to see fully animated.

In The Dungeon

Can't believe that I also wrote a scene of the 7 teens and Asha going to the dungeon before this scene came out, like, it's such an specific scenario

Anyway, so once again we see this better version of Asha, that is caring, smart and inspiring.

And Magnifico being a freaking DESPICABLE monster, saying that Dahlia is a burden that no one would miss because of her disability, like DANG that's something I never considered writing because it's so heavy, but they almost did include it, and I think it would've been great to show just how evil he is, and in turn, how amazing Asha is because of what she says next

"He underestimates you, and that's a good thing. When you're underestimated, they don't see your power coming until after it changed the world"

Thank you Wish deleted scenes, I'mma take this line and fit it in my rewrite somehow cause WOW imagine that, the 100th disney princess teaching something very valuable for children of today!

Think of all the disabled kids that would've felt seen in this scene! Instead Dahlia's disability is more of an after thought, and from what I've read, the way she walks doesn't even seem like she's disabled according to some crutch users.

"Also, Asha already had 7 friends, and we thought adding another one was too many"

I agree Mark, so here's a thought, make ONE OF THE 7 TEENS the apprentice that gets locked up in the dungeon, like Safi for example, and they find him by hearing him sneeze! There, suddenly the character whose only personality is sneezing get's something to do!

Magnifico breaking the wishes of people "No one would miss" is actually a thing in my rewrite, I didn't explore it that much cause it wasn't that important, but I'm glad I also got that right

Star was more useful in this clip than he was in the whole movie

Climax

Not much to say about this one, hot take, but I'm actually glad this one was changed, sure I like Magnifico eating a bunch of the wishes to get more powerful, but personally I'm not a fan of him turning into a giant muscular monster, but I understand if you're into that.

Though, it's still a funny scene, it's silly yeah, but it's definitely entertaining, which is more than what I can say about the movie

Also Valentino is cute here

I like how Magnifico uses the wishes to shine a spotlight on Asha

This face, lmao

"THATS JUST A GOAT!"

The thing about this scene though is that... I can't imagine where they were going with this, like, then what? Magnifico climbs the tower to get star and Star manages to defeat him somehow? If so then yeah no wonder you deleted star for doing all the work for Asha, what's Asha supposed to do now that the king is all powerful???

Star saying "We just need one more ingredient" YALL MAKING A POTION??? This feels weird, a magical being making a potion... Wait hold up, I thought of this in this second, was the last ingredient Asha? Like she goes up there to warn them and it turns out she was what they needed to figure out how to defeat Magnifico?... Probably not but who we will never know.

Wish Worth Making

This made me CRY when I first watched it, like WOW Disney, are you TRYING to make this movie as soulless as possible???

This is such a powerful moment that would make us actually CARE about Sabino, feel what Asha feels, and it's a calm and beautiful moment in this movie that never stops to just BREATHE.

Can you imagine Magnifico showing up after THIS?? It would've been so scary because it was the calm before the storm.

Imagine him breaking not only Sakina's wish but also Sabino's lute!

If I was Sabino's voice actor I'd be pissed to find out they deleted my song but kept the chicken dance song... That was a thing.

Anyway, hope yall had fun with this little rant, let me know YOUR thoughts on these scenes too! See ya next time!

Thank You For Reading!

[beanghostprincess]

*holds you by shoulders*

WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE THING ABOUT 1082 I WAS SURE IT WAS SHIPPY THING AND NOW I NEED TO KNOW

*starts sobbing while slowly falling to my knees*

…….please

I SAW THIS YESTERDAY NIGHT WHEN I WAS ABOUT TO FALL ASLEEP AND I JUST WOKE UP EARLY TO REPLY BECAUSE I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR AGES FOR THIS QUESTION I AM GOING TO KISS YOU ANON-

I do love and adore the shippy part of 1082 because I am a very intense Shuggy shipper and I had been waiting to read their break-up for sooo long. But it's not exactly what made the chapter life-changing for me, tbh.

Buggy's speech is... Is incredibly beautiful and encouraging. It explains so much about his character, the dynamic he has with Cross Guild, and why he's so resentful toward Shanks. Throughout the manga, we've seen him in serious moments, yes, but usually, Buggy is pretty much used for comedy relief more than anything. This is one of the first times we've seen Buggy realize the position he has now and say "Fuck it. Already on the verge of dead for these two, might as well do something with this shitty situation because for once, I have the opportunity to be brave and be more than what people think of me". There's literally nothing stopping him right now, and he prefers to risk his life enraging Crocodile and Mihawk than letting this opportunity of showing who he truly is slide.

And tbh, we haven't seen them ever since (I am starving please-) but I am really hopeful his speech somehow makes Crocodile and Mihawk have a little tiny itty bitty of respect for him at least. Because out of the three? Buggy is the one who deserves the title of pirate more.

Mihawk and Crocodile don't have dreams or ambitions and see pirating as a business. Even when Crocodile did have ambitions (remember when the silly rubber guy destroyed all of his dreams that was a funny arc haha) his whole personality has always been more of a mafioso than anything. Mihawk is a simple man and is bored with life being at the top of the top, he clearly wants something interesting to happen but doesn't see any use in looking for it himself. They care about their commodities and wealth. But out of the three, Buggy is the one who had to give up on his dream and now he has the opportunity to fulfill it.

"How can you call yourselves pirates with schemes like that?! You're doing it all backwards!! [...] Way back when... What did you guys want to be?! [...] I wanna be king of the pirates!! Wealth? Power? Why stop there when we can have it all?!"

This is something a real pirate would say. He talks like Roger here, I am going to curl up and cry don't look at me-

What I like about One Piece is the constant use of themes like dreams and freedom etc, etc... That's something we all know. But you wouldn't expect it coming from Buggy, of all people. And I think I'm pretty fond of him being brave and finally acting upon what he truly wants to do. What makes it great is that you have this comedy relief character standing up for his dream in front of clearly two other antagonists that have control over him in, well, strength and everything. But Buggy has something they don't and it's so, so much ambition and a dream that could be considered childish but it's the representation of freedom and doing things because you want to follow your heart. This is kind of why I always say Luffy would be more fond of Buggy if he knew the whole story and would probably support him a lot--

What I like the most about this chapter is both Buggy's character development through a speech + flashback and Mihawk and Crocodile being completely stunned by it because they weren't expecting this to happen from Buggy of all people. I know I sound like a broken record but I really, really, want them to respect Buggy a little bit more after this. Also, Buggy doesn't do this only to announce he's going to follow his dream now that he's on equal footing with Shanks. He does it because the other two mention needing overwhelming power over the rest. Buggy isn't stupid and knows how manipulating people works. The thing that makes pirates work harder isn't money, it's a dream. And there's nothing a pirate desires more than the One Piece, so that's kind of why he announces it publicly. First, to establish power, and second, so that way Mihawk and Crocodile don't get rid of him because seriously, Buggy is a better boss than these two because their followers appreciate him and don't feel forced to follow him.

Not to mention that the whole thing also shows more of Buggy's relationship with Roger and how left out he felt because people thought highly of Shanks instead of him. But Buggy, even if he was jealous, was willing to follow Shanks despite his feelings because he accepted being less worthy of respect than him. Shanks shone brightly and Buggy decided that, even if he wanted to be seen like that too, he'd give up on his dream and support Shanks instead because at least they'd do this together, just the way they did everything back at the time.

But then Shanks hesitates, and I think that's Buggy's last straw because he sees giving up going for the One Piece as something disrespectful to their captain (dad) and thinks it's unfair that Shanks is so respected by everyone even though the one wanting to follow their captain's steps right away is him. It's honestly frustrating. And then you understand better why Buggy is angry at Shanks-- Yeah, he made him eat the devil fruit and lost the map because of him (not really but whatever), but the way I see it that's just a metaphor for the real reason why Buggy is so resentful. Shanks' existence, even if it was not on purpose, made Buggy feel so powerless he gave up on his dream. And eating a devil fruit means the sea hates you and you can't have any independence in the pirate world, and losing the map is kind of like losing the only thing that guides you. He left Buggy with nothing and let him carry the burden of a lost dream.

This is funny because Shanks did absolutely nothing wrong and everything is a product of jealousy and miscommunication, but I understand why Buggy blames Shanks and this chapter makes it clearer and explains it perfectly.

Basically, it's such an amazing chapter for Buggy's character and it's definitely my favorite for him specifically. Although the flashback does wonders for my Shuggy heart.

Also, adding more points for the revolutionary plot in the end and Sabo showing up because I adore him <3

[kagoutiss]

You call ganondorf a girl a lot and now I'm wondering if you actually see him as a girl in some way? I can't see him like that but I am actually really curious how you interpret his gender now

!!! so i’ve written a more in depth summary about how i interpret his gender but the short(er) version is basically like…the gerudo don’t actually have an inherent concept of gender or gender binarism, and ganondorf doesn’t really even think of himself as being a Man. but as a result of him being raised for this role that is, by hyrulean standards, contingent upon Maleness, he’s also learned to despise having to navigate hylian society in this very constrained way that is completely arbitrary in his own culture. all in order to be perceived as a proper king, or be seen by hylians as an authority figure at all, or else be called effeminate or whatever. or be constantly othered from the rest of his people in the eyes of hylians, all on the basis of his biological subtype, which just happens to be extremely rare in gerudo people

and anyway i just feel like if he had to actually tick one of the 2 boxes on some hyrulean administrative form and didn’t have to stoop to anyone’s expectations of him, then he would mark F instead of M, partly because he’s so so sick of Having To Be A Man, and partly because all of his loved ones would be boxed into the F box by default, and i like the idea that the gerudo don’t really perceive themselves as being separate from ganondorf in the same way that hylians perceive Men & Woman to be separate, if that makes sense? and he also thinks that those designations are silly in general, so he’ll kind of just do whatever he wants when he doesn’t have to stoop to those constraints. like he fully enjoys having the title of King, and he uses he/him pronouns in the hylian language and is fine with them, and he’s not particularly dysphoric about anything physically, but in his mind he just isn’t a Man. gender is a silly contrived thing to him, but he’s had to study the nuances of it for his entire life, he could literally teach Hylian Gender Studies courses if he had to. and he’ll adopt certain aspects of gender stuff that he finds funny or interesting, or that feel more fitting to him, or that just confuse/enrage people, because he enjoys doing that too. but anyway to answer your question yes he is genuinely a girl to me sometimes agskfhakfjsksk, i’m not saying it as a joke. like he’s not always a girl but he’s often a girl and he’s almost never actually a man, and every other time, he just isn’t really assigning a gender to himself at all because ultimately it’s all made up anyway

that being said tho i like reading different headcanons for him :-) like the gerudo just ending up with one trans man every century who becomes king. there’s a lot of different ways you can interpret him gender-wise, which is part of what makes him fun lol

[sophieinwonderland]

It turns out, I'm still not done venting about the SN's smear document and the grievances with my November posts they used to defend contextualize the fakeclaiming and misgendering posts from the admin about me.

A recent post from Lunastus reminded me of this bullet point.

This threw me for a loop because this quote isn't even mine.

It was from the Lunastus Collective who coined the term.

Sure, I reblogged it and defended it, but it wasn't my quote and it's so weird to see this attributed to me.

But with this latest round of drama SAS started, I also want to talk about the drama surrounding the word endogenic and its coiner.

Recap for those who missed that ridiculous drama: The LC coined the term in 2014. In 2021, SAS found a 2015 article that loosely associated the word "endogenic" with Freud supporting the fantasy model. SAS specifically claimed that "the term 'endogenic' can be traced all the way back to Freud's work in 1956!"

But on further investigation, every paper prior to that used a similar but different term, endogenous.

In the end, "endogenic system" is a term 100% coined by the Lunastus Collective.

Endogenic was never used to refer to systems before that.

Now, rather than admit they were wrong, SAS and their entitled cronies doubled down and claimed the words were still too similar, then had the gall to demand an apology from the LC for the baseless made-up manufactured drama.

I've seen some argue that their issue was less with the term and more with the response. That they felt their feelings were being dismissed. (And that part, yeah, was mostly me.)

The problem is that not all feelings deserve to be validated. Not everyone who feels they're in the right actually is. Sometimes in life, you're just on the wrong side, and humoring your feelings will do more harm than good.

Personally, I think The Lunastus Collective deserves an apology for the harassment they received over SAS's smear campaign.

Now, coming back to the latest round of manufactured drama today... let me tell you what these experiences have taught me.

These people don't have "morals." They have friends and enemies.

If you're lucky enough to find yourself on the former list, expect them to loyally turn a blind eye to your wrongdoings for as long as they reasonably can. And when they can't, you can depend on them to make a 20-bullet-point list of things your victim did to deserve it. (Much of which will be fabricated, twisted or taken out of context.)

If you're an enemy, expect them to comb over every word you say. Expect them to twist your words and outright lie about you. Anything to justify their hate of you and manipulate others to feel the same.

This is, unfortunately, their modus operandi.

The thing is, I think they overplayed their hand this time.

I don't think people are really buying the whole "wanting anti-endos to be ostracized is literally worse than death threats or suibait" talking point they have going on.

It's comically overdramatic and, frankly, minimizes the real harm of death threats and suibait in favor of a cheap talking point.

Obviously, people who hate me will continue to hate me and the usual suspects are jumping on it hard as always.

But their posts about this aren't generating much engagement, which SAS's usually do. Usually a couple days into one of SAS's smears, I might have lost a few followers that will take me a whole day or two to regain or I'll get a couple hate anons relating to it.

This feels different. Especially if people were buying the severity of the allegations SAS and pals are trying to push. I have no doubt everyone would be rightly enraged if I were sending actual threats of violence.

But I'm not seeing that here.

I hope this means people are waking up to the lies and manipulation tactics they use, and will start thinking critically about SAS's past smears of both myself and other systems. Admittedly, this might be too much to hope for.

Anyway, you can all can go home now.

This one's a bust.

But maybe you'll get me next time. 🤷‍♀️

[poindexters-labratory]

Uhhhm, vent, I guess? I'm just trying to put my feelings into words because it bridges that gap between my thoughts and verbalizing.

Um, there's a bit of a breakdown, and I start talking to myself. Also, talking about emotional trauma. I just kinda wanted to get out somewhere. Sorry to use a public platform, but I don't really have a safe person to rely on.

I'm a very slow thinker. I always have been. I'm not witty or able to absorb information very quickly. I can pretend like I do, and it seems like I do, but my mannerisms and patterns of speech are a result of me desperately trying to keep up. Trying to keep my head above water.

My processing speed has always made me vulnerable. I can't keep up fast enough in open conversation when it comes to groups of people. On top of that, I have mild deafness in an ear on top of autism and ADHD, which makes audio processing extremely difficult. Over time, I've learned to become agreeable, easy to manage, and quiet.

But that life gets lonely. Listening in on conversations you'd like to be a part of, being the last one included, the last one invited, the last one considered, the first one abandoned. I wouldn't say that the experience has made me bitter or cold, but I do have some level of expected disappointment. And I get stressed when there's no attention put on me.

I've always been the kid who has been overlooked in class or at home. My family hardly knows what I want for my birthday, I don't have close friends, even when I like to say that everyone I talk with is my friend, I don't have a best friend. Everyone deserves to have a best friend, right?

It sucks to feel like I should apologize for being sensitive, for being quiet, for being naive, but I am. I feel like I'm no fun as a person. I'm literal, and we're living in an age where all our insecurities are hidden behind a layer of sarcasm and jokes that I just can't seem to wrap my head around. I'm easily scared by the jokes people say.

Not to mention traumatized from a life in an emotionally unstable environment. Terrified that if I made the tiniest mistake, the people around me would blow up in my face.

I weep for the child who learned how to open his school binder silently in class or hide in his room to avoid the potential of screaming downstairs.

The child who hid his entire personality for years to avoid conflict.

The child whose lost friend after friend, in every single location he's been to and left.

And I'm enraged. I had no other choice. And I'm scared. All my life, I've taught myself that if I just shut up, then no one will ever hurt me. If I just shut up, then I'll be safe from everyone.

"I'm too stupid for conversation anyway, I'm too slow to be a part of a group, to have a seat at the table, and I will finally be safe because the only things anyone has ever been interested in are shoving things that in the way and stepping on things that are too small."

That is a horrible thing for a child to convince himself of.

All of this is probably why I have NPD (narcissistic personality disorder). I convince myself on especially bad days that I'm obviously just better even though I consciously know it not to be true, and everyone is jealous, and that's why no one is talking to you. I have this deep desire to be admired in impossible ways, and I struggle immensely when I have absolutely no attention.

I need people to love me. I shouldn't give a reason because if I was loved and given attention properly, then we would be here.

"Am I really that awful? I can't possibly be. I'm positively normal and well-mannered and polite. I'm almost too nice. Sickeningly sweet. If people see how good I can be, then there's no reason why they wouldn't want to be my friend, right?

But I don't want to be too overbearing. I don't want to be too chatty. People hate people who talk too much. Especially when they talk about the same thing for hours. Especially when they can't take the joke. Don't be so serious, don't be so concerned, just fade into the background, and be as unremarkable as possible.

But I'd like to be noticed. I want that attention. I want the attention for saying something, doing something. Make the conversation about me, talk to me. Please talk to me, don't you see me? Don't you know how cool and remarkable I am, I can do all these amazing things, and I know all this information. Won't you like me?"

I also expect people to read my mind because that's what I do for them. I wait and pray that someone will notice the person sitting in the corner by himself. It hasn't quite worked yet.

So, now I imagine myself sitting in a field surrounded by people rushing around me. And I'm waiting. I've been sitting in this field for a while, envious of the people who walk by with someone in tow. I would like to be someone's someone.

It would be a lie if I said I didn't think about it often. I'm not interested in romance, I just want someone to be silly with, who I'm safe with, who likes to fool around sometimes, who's just there with me. Hell, it doesn't have to be one person. I just love people. An extrovert who's all alone is so depressingly ironic.

I don't have the answers or the steps to find the answer, but I know that it will unfortunately take time. Life will continue, and I will continue it by myself until I fortunately don't have to anymore. Until I won't be alone anymore. I feel like it will take as much time as it needs to.

[roamwithahungryheart]

Unpacking the Sex & The City references in 3x08:

The parallel between Roy & Keeley's fight in 'Headspace' and Keeley & Jack's fight.

The episode she's watching before the big blow-up with Roy is 'The Good Fight'. It's Carrie & Aidan, the couple who split up, got back together and got engaged. Sure, they broke up later down the line, and Aidan had his faults, but they were sweet together. And they might be getting a third shot at love in the next season of And Just Like That...could we be in for a 'third time's the charm' moment with Roy & Keeley?

The episode she watches before her argument with Jack is 'The Post-It Always Sticks Twice'. It's Carrie & Berger, the toxic office romance that ends with a blunt and brutal break-up, quite literally on paper. Jack's 'apology statement' is her post-it.

Unlike Roy, (a Carrie & Berger parallel of the smallest proportions occurs - 'he wanted to work things out, aka leave in the middle of the night') it's pretty clear Jack has no intention of coming back to work things out with Keeley. In SATC, Charlotte tells Carrie 'even in the worst relationships, you learn something [...] everything happens for a reason.' As we know, Keeley strongly believes in trusting in the universe. She needs time alone to process things, and at this point in time, she's definitely better off alone. Keeley is in her Carrie Bradshaw era. Although arguably she's much more likable than Carrie. Sorry not sorry.

What's interesting is that 'The Post-It Always Sticks Twice' is also about getting 'engaged and enraged'.

Ted knows about Michelle's love of SATC. He knows about the finale - Carrie & Big in Paris. He knows what Paris means to Michelle, not just as a fun pop culture thing, but as a romantic gesture. One he couldn't offer her (for perfectly understandable reasons). Jake, however, just wants to sweep Michelle off her feet. He doesn't care about it, he's just doing it because it's the done thing. This is evident from Michelle's response to Ted about the trip. It was just 'alright'.

Regardless, Ted spent the whole episode convinced it was a grand gesture. He panicked over a proposal that (presumably) never happened. He wanted more information on Jake and his relationship with Henry. He wanted to believe they were happy so he had something to cling to, to give him closure. But he didn't get it.

Carrie, Big & The Pont des Arts bridge

SATC fans will know the significance of this moment. It's when Big finally confesses his feelings to Carrie.

'It took me a really long time to get here, but I'm here. Carrie, you're the one.'

Considering the fact that 'We'll Never Have Paris' was all about defining relationships, you have to wonder if Michelle & Jake had a big (pardon the pun) conversation about their relationship that didn't end well. On the flip side, you might say that Carrie & Big's moment on the bridge was a truth bomb...and we know who's due a third and final one. Is it foreshadowing? Are Ted & Rebecca the healthier Carrie & Big of Richmond? Maybe it's just wishful thinking, but after that green matchbook and those magnets....anything is possible.

[ramengirl03]

I made a girlfriend for my transfem Leo headcanon.

Her name Is Eris Usagi. Yes, she is a descendent of miyamato Usagi.

(I actually like the leosagi ship, but in the 2012 series Usagi is most likely in his 40's while Leo was most likely 17 or 18 at the time they met.)

She is an English Spot rabbit.

She met Lilly while eating at the restaurant she worked at with friends. Lilly was their waitress on that day.

All she did was ask them what they'd want to drink, causing Eris.exe to stop working.

Like, her foot was stomping like that one scene from Bambi with thumper.

(this scene here)

Like this girl was love struck by cupid's arrow and was making it 'really' obvious.

Lilly wasn't sure how to respond to her actions, only asking if Eris was alright.

__________

"is she alright?!"

"uh... Yeah she's fine. Do you mind coming back later, we haven't made up our minds yet."

"oh uh, of course. Take your time."

___________

She was just genuinely worried and left them alone.

Meanwhile, after she left Eris's friends managed to finally calm her down.

________

"dude, are you alright?"

"what happened? All she asked was what we wanted to drink."

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Eris, still in a love struck haze, only managed to utter the words "beautiful" as her ears flopped and her tail began to wag.

Her friend group already knew how she felt about women, so it wasn't hard for them to realize what was going on.

I say that because literally after that they continue to tease her until one of them sees Lilly walking by with another table's drink.

(they basically pull this move)

Lilly only saw this as a compliment, giving Eris a smile before thanking her for the compliment.

Let's just say that Lilly's smile was enough to cause this poor rabbit to pass out.

After that, the restaurant became the new place where Eris and her friend group would meet up.

(totally to not see a certain turtle. Of course not)

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Over time Lilly and Eris soon became friends after always requesting her as their waitress.

They'd go off the first name basis when they see each other while Lilly works.

Even her friend group would call her by her name. (They felt like they adopted her)

There was one evening where Eris and her friends were eating their food, until a loud commotion was made across the dining area.

A plate of food was laying on the ground, smashed from being thrown.

Most of the food staining Lilly, as it was thrown at her.

"you stupid freak! I specifically told you, no fucking onions!" A customer yelled.

Lilly was still processing a plate of, hot, food being thrown in her face. Staining her uniform.

"Hey, I'm talking to you! My wife is allergic to onions! Are you trying to get her killed?!" He screamed as he began to get in her face. Snapping the turtle out of her trance.

"No-no sir, I wasn't aware of onions being in her food. My deepest apologies, I'll get you another plate ma'am." She said.

The enraged customer grabbed hold of her arm.

"You really want my wife to die?! Is that what you want!" He screamed before slapping Lilly across the face, causing her to fall to the ground due to the force.

And at this point, Eris has seen enough.

She gets up from her seat, ignoring the protests from her friends as she walks towards the customer.

Once she got close enough to him, she drew her hand back and landed a hard punch across his face. Knocking his over.

He got up once again and tried to land a hit on Eris, but she was quick to dodge. Causing the man to fall into a couples table.

Eris took this opportunity to grab hold of the man's shirt, forcing him upward and slamming him on the ground.

And at this point Lilly and Eris's friends try to pry her off the enraged man. But she just continues to punch the man in the face.

Even the Man's wife tried to stop him from fighting, the whole restaurant was just a mess.

That is until Tiger Claw comes out, demanding an explanation.

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"Mr. Tiger Claw, it was my fault. I didn't check if there were onions in her food. Her husband got upset with me because of it. I take full responsibility for this mess." She says as she bows her head before her boss.

Tiger Claw took notice of the food staining the floor and her uniform, along with the bruise forming on her face from the slap.

Before he could even speak, Eris and her friends tried to defuse the mess by saying that Lilly was assaulted by the customer and that they were simply trying to defend her.

Even when he was upset that his restaurant became a mess, he had one simple rule that many people knew about the restaurant:

'Don't harass the employees'

He, calmly, asks one of his employees to escort Lilly to the back to treat her wounds and tells Eris and her group to, please, meet him by the front while he 'handles' this customer.

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Listen to this. Once you get hired at his restaurant you're only seen as his employees. But once you've gained his trust and earned his respect, you're seen as his cubs. (He treats everyone in the restaurant like he would his family)

So if you mess with his cubs, you might be banned from the restaurant. Along with some threats, he's not just the owner. He's a very powerful person in general.

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So while Eris and her friends laugh at the guy getting tossed out by security, Lilly comes out to thank Eris.

"Eris, I just wanted to thank you for what happened. I'd normally handle people like that, but since I was working I had to follow company policy. So thank you very much." She says with a smile.

Eris gets all nervous again when standing in front of her.

"No-no problem! You're welcome!" She says, nearly sounding too loud for her liking.

She takes sight of the forming bruise on her face.

"sorry I wasn't able to stop him from hurting you. I should have tumbled that guy the second I saw him being a jackass to you!" She said in anger.

Lilly took hold of Eris's hand before speaking.

"it's alright. I'm just glad he didn't hurt you. You were actually pretty cool back there. I've.... Never seen anyone go out of their way to beat the crap out of someone for me. I'm very grateful to have someone like you in my life." She says.

After she said that, Eris is left a blushing mess. Like her tail is wagging and she's doing little foot stomps.

__________

These two are meant for each other.

Even when they start going out, Eris is never bored around her.

She's grateful to have her and would gladly drop everything just to be with her.

She even gets along well with her brothers.

And when it comes to relationships with Lilly, if her brothers don't like you then she won't be with you.

Her brothers mean the world to her, so when she sees that her brothers get along well with Eris, then she knows that she's with the right person.

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If you have any questions about these two feel free to ask.

I also wouldn't mind you guys coming up with scenarios for them.

(for the previous TMNT post with the same character with the name Eris, I just could give this one a different name. But I can change the Sirens name)

[lottieurl]

i'm curious about how you'd have jackie be a part of the cannibalism? because i find the concept absolutely fascinating (especially in the 21 timeline honestly because can you imagine the kind of person jackie would be if she survived all of That.) i just haven't given toooo much thought to the "how" of it myself

hm if you want like a specific scenario i feel like i'd have to write a fic lmao cause there's so much to cover (and honestly! maybe i will eventually. did ANYONE write cannibal jackie au or is it real boring on ao3 idk i haven't browsed the tag too much) but after s2 it's actually baffling to me that people are so insistent on how jackie Never Could?

everyone is SO focused on the creators saying her death represents the death of civilization they seem to actually forget she's also a character not a symbol (and i've seen the way people analyze some of her behavior in like the weirdest way just to keep everything as symbolic of civilization. like incomprehensible things being said just cause someone analyzes her only through the "she symbolizes civilization" lenses. i love her death and the way she haunts the narrative as much as any other shaunajackie enjoyer lmao but come on) like do we all understand that ben could die early on and also represent the death of civilization AND death of authority (from their life before crash)?

with that out of the way. here's the show we're all watching. natalie who was the other person horrified and enraged by what the girls did at doomcoming is A PART OF THEIR CANNIBALISTIC MURDER CULT. travis the guy they assaulted and tried to kill on shrooms is a devoted lottie follower now. travis the guy who was throwing up when he was trying to get the ring off his dead father's finger to give to his brother. that travis. is eating his brother's heart raw. taissa the sceptic who was one of the only people trying to get jackie to stay inside and who had to repress her first act of cannibalism and who threw up when she found out about it and who was the most vocally against what lottie was doing for a while (other than nat of course) is A PART OF ALL THIS NOW. van the girl who couldn’t handle seeing worms in a dead deer and nearly threw up is a shameless cannibal now and doesn’t flinch seeing all the blood. and we also have akilah who seems so kind and doesn't really want to take part in any of this but wants to survive and is scared of the rest so she does. there is lottie who doesn't want what is being done in her name but is scared and confused and lost and is being told this is all on her. and you're telling me you cannot imagine jackie taking part in any of this? on this show? like okay fine but i have a creative mind and see the kind of characters we now have in a cannibalistic cult and can tell none of those were characters who - before crash - Seemed Like People Who Would. literally none of them

but back to jackie! people ALWAYS mention the way she had trouble adapting, the way her death represents the death of civilization (which is like. literally pointless to mention if we are entertaining an idea where the death does not happen? like?) and that she wasn't eating much by doomcoming. YEAH CAUSE SHE WAS SO HEARTBROKEN AND SUICIDAL AFTER FINDING OUT ABOUT SHAUNA'S BETRAYAL. can you really just not imagine any other path for her character if she didn't die? cause i'm thinking of what liv said about van and about how it's "the corruption of the beautiful parts of her" and can see that with jackie too. all the other traits of hers like. yeah she was very depressed and lost after the crash. okay. imagine if she had a reason to stay alive (shauna lmao like. quite literally not a lot of other reasons for her she's so pathetic (affectionate) but yeah shauna or shauna related things everytime). the girl who - before crash - was so determined to be this person she was pretending to be and the image she was crafting that she was in a long-term relationship with a guy she didn't love and had sex (yeah she didn't consider it sex but like. it was. we are here in the 2020s and not ill with cishetnormativity so we can say that much) that made her miserable because she was such a determined person. how would those traits look like corrupted by the wilderness? because we somewhat saw it already at doomcoming when she just decided she's gonna sleep with travis and then made it happen. or those traits of her we see that help make people feel better? to me echoing van's storytelling and how it made others relax and how it entertained them? it feels like it comes down to jackie only ever being seen as A Bitch by jackie haters or a failgirl angel who has no flaws by her fans so the latter have an issue even like. trying to imagine a jackie corruption arc so to speak that would end in her participating in cannibalism

i just do not! get! why everyone is SO INSISTENT she never could. like how are you watching that show. i am not asking rudely just genuinely curious. because if you think Under No Circumstances Could She Ever then i suppose you think there are two types of people (well, characters) you can sort into two boxes. those who could engage in cannibalism and those who never would. which is.. i mean i disagree but fine. just tell me this then. do you literally think all the rest of them just happen to be in that Could Do Cannibalism box? like inherently? the plot luckily happens because those characters are just inherently people who CAN do this unlike those other people who never could? i'm sorry but that sounds like such a boring way to watch it. especially when canonically at least some of them are so openly distressed by having to do this and they very much do invent a religion to be able to both shift blame and excuse their actions in their minds

[purplekiwis]

I Did Something Bad

Hey! I was bored, so I decided to write a short, completely random halloween blurb about a a newly born demon who lacks control over his killer instincts.

warnings: do NOT read this if you're skirmish about death stuff!!!! mentions of blood, demons, dead bodies, literal murder and creatures feeding off creatures. ⚠️⚠️

words: 1.2k

“Harry!!” You screamed as soon as you laid eyes on the reason why you had been asked to descend to the earth's surface that night. You'd come down to fix what your apprentice had described as a small screwup, only to discover it was actually a monumental fuck up. “That’s Lucifer’s son-” Your voice was laced with sheer panic. “You killed Lucifer’s son! You- you butchered him!!”

Harry stood next to the deceased, his head bowed and his arms dangling behind him like the ones of a child who realizes they've done something bad. “‘M sorry. I-I didn't mean to. I just… was really hungry and...” Your enraged gaze lifted to him. He wasn't supposed to be hungry this late at night - he'd been sent down to feed himself. “I know I was supposed to be hunting humans, but they’ve all been so nice to me, and blood is so yucky. I'm not interested in eating them.”

You glared at him. “So you chose to eat one of our own instead?”

“No, of course not. I had no intention of eating him.” He denied right away, offended by the suggestion. “Why can’t I eat non- bloody food like humans do? Did you know they have a building called Wendy's where you can get a Frosty? Those are my favorite food. I wish I could eat them every day.”

“A Frosty,” You snorted derisively. “Your demon hunger will never be satisfied by human food. It's not nutritious, and it’ll give you fang decay if you have it too often.”

“Well then I'd rather not eat- which is precisely why I was hiding out here in the woods, where people don't come at night. But then he showed up out of blue and… I think I bit him. I don't remember it very well.” He looked down at the lifeless body for a moment, then back at you. “Have you ever bitten someone you weren't supposed to?”

“You didn't bite him Harry; you ripped half of his neck off.” You stated matter-of-factly. Thankfully, demons did not bleed as heavily as humans did, but it still didn’t look pretty. Harry's face, hands and shirt were covered in blood, but the head dangling off his victim by a sliver of tissue was undeniably the worst. “We’ll have to be careful while we move him. The last thing we need is for his head to fall unnoticed somewhere. I don't think your darling humans would like that very much.”

“You’re being really mean right now.” Harry grumbled, crossing his arms in a furious manner. “You were supposed to be helping me feel better, but all you've said so far has made me feel worse.”

You let out a harsh, sarcastic laugh. “Oh, I’m so sorry. Please tell me, what should I say to cheer you up, exactly?”

“Anything that relieves my guilt.” He huffed.

“Okay, then.” Crossing your arms as well, you sighed. "Taking everything into account, at least you got rid of the stupid offspring rather than the valuable one. Killing his sister—who has always been daddy's favorite—and getting away with it would have been much more troublesome. Oh, and I've always thought that he lacked survival skills. Does that improve your mood?”

Harry appeared surprised, as if he had not expected this outcome. “A little bit, actually.” He noted, inhaling deeply before turning his attention to the matter at hand. “Okay um… now what?”

“Grab his arms, I’ll take the legs.” You decided quickly, putting yourself into position. “We have to drag him deeper into the woods. The wolves will take care of the rest.”

Harry positioned himself on the opposite side of you and gave a single nod. Together, you attempted to lift the body. “Bloody hell!” He groaned, as you both shifted from side to side in an attempt to balance out the added weight. “Why are bodies so much heavier when they’re dead?”

“Good thing we won’t have this problem once Lucifer finds out what you did. He’s going to chop you into pieces. You’ll be much easier to carry that way.” You chuckled but soon realized Harry wasn't on the same page as you. His face was pale and solemn. “Hey, I was just kidding. No one’s going to find out, okay? We'll make sure of it.”

“Yeah, okay.” He nodded but didn't seem entirely convinced. “Let’s just go.”

The entire forest was shrouded in fog. The more you looked up at the evergreens, the more they blended together like a dry pastel painting in deep blues.

The ambient noises created by nature at night were spine-chilling, but they were drowned out by your heaves, grumbles, and the thunderous sound of your feet as you moved through the isolated forest lands.

“Okay. Here is good, I think.” You took a deep breath as you carelessly placed the body on the ground. You'd spent thirty minutes walking deep into the woods. There were no running trails that led this far, and the area wasn’t regularly patrolled by rangers either.

As far as you knew, the only creatures that walked through these dense, hazy grounds so late at night had fur, sharp teeth, and a fondness for biting. You hoped they were feeling ravenous...

“Now we wait.” You murmured as you sat on a fallen tree stem a few meters away. “It shouldn't take long. They've been watching us for a while. I could feel them moving alongside us as we walked.”

“Okay um… big question; won't they try to kill us if we stay here, like, right next to the fucking food source?”

“No.” You replied flatly. What a ridiculous question. “They're scared of us, but don’t worry… they’ll come. The free food is too tempting for them to refuse.”

Just like you had predicted, it didn't take long for a wolf pack to start crawling from behind the foliage. They prowled the area like scavengers, until they finally approached their easy meal.

“I think I'm going to be sick,” Harry's murmur drawed your attention away from the wolves and toward him. He appeared even paler than before - he was practically yellow.

“Don’t you dare.” You warned him, angry eyes flashing directly at his. “You are not going to puke twenty feet away from where we dumped the body. Hold it.”

He swallowed heavily, leaning against a tree to try to keep his composure. You had been in his shoes before, so you knew what it felt like. “How do you do it? Why are you staring at it? It's revolting!”

“Because I’m evil, Harry.” Your lips smirked slightly. You had been expecting for him to go into shock eventually, and it was likely that was what was happening. “And so are you... you're just not ready to accept it yet. One day you will though. One day you’ll realize how pointless it is to try to run from who you are - from who we are.” You held out your hand and grabbed his red-tainted one. “You have a monster's heart....  and what you did tonight only goes to prove it.”

He shook his head as his eyes began to well with tears. “No. Tonight was an accident. I wasn't trying to kill anyone.”

You looked at him with wide eyes, almost amazed by his conviction. “Good people don't experience accidents like these, I'm afraid.” You squeezed his hand and cracked another smile. “Come on, let's get out of here. As soon as the sun rises and Halloween is over, walking around with all that blood on you will start to look suspicious.”

[cwarscars]

🔥

Send me a “ 🔥 “ for an unpopular opinion.

i'ma shape this one around the final fantasy vii fandom and go off on my usual spiel ( or, old spiel? cause i haven't chatted it in a while lol ).

i honestly despise the lack of love that the side-characters get as a whole from the fandom. i really don't like what the remake did for the franchise ( i do love the remake, don't get me wrong, but i think it bought about some of the fandoms worst traits ), and i cannot stand the 'one rule for thee, another for me' mindset that fans have regarding characters.

let's start with numero uno - so, obviously i write heid. lol. he's not particularly liked & that's totally fine...but man. finding content for him is horrible. there's nothing. like, barely anything. the few fics that exist are either rape fics or are ( and i hate saying this ), sorely out of character. the art is few and far between and usually more bara-anime-oriented. overall, i feel like i'm drinking from a dried up well. actually, nah. there was no well in the first place.

i always understood that heid isn't exactly the character who would get much fanfare but it's so disheartening to shift through five million pics of 'x' character and find two of heid. i can't even draw ( or at least, im not at all confident in my art ) and yet i took to drawing heidegger all of the time because i had to start making content for him. and in doing so - my art gets no regonition and is totally ignored anywhere but here. i think if i drew a popular character, i'd maybe get more attention but...i can't bring myself to do so.

in general though; heid isn't the only one. even reeve is quite underrated and ignored by the fandom as a whole (or implied to be an owo cat boy which makes me cringe). even, dare i say, barret is often shoved aside in favour of the more 'popular' characters ( the whole tifa/cloud are now marlene's parents suggestion by some people enrages me, like, wtf? )

secondly, i don't like what the remake did for the fandom because i think it bought the worst out in the fans. it appealed to cloud/sephiroth shippers despite that ship making no sense. you could argue the sephiroth cloud sees is just an extension of himself. they're both essentially jenova. but the remake makes it overtly sexual / suggestive. even as i played, all i could think was 'yeah, this was done for fan service'. i don't even think sephiroth should have been seen in remake part 1. ( obviously that'd never happen ).

but whereas there are things i adore about the remake. i think that they dumbed down the story and by extension, made the worse aspects of fandom writers become apparent. like, by making AVALANCHE basically entirely innocent ( despite being literal terrorists ) - they make shinra ENTIRELY evil. in the og, shinra were weirdly nuanced. they were 'evil' sure, but then they were also genuinly trying to save the planet from sephiroth. as for AVALANCHE; yes, they were fighting on behalf of good. but they did murder people in their quest to shut down reactors. in the og, reeve even calls barret out on this. but...now we probably wont get that? like, way to go rid your main heroes of any nuance. god forbid a hero does something bad.

my final point cause goddamn is this getting long is - i despise the way that the fans talk about characters & the whole 'LOL i can ship this but if you ship that then lol stinky gross smelly ewww'.

i've always wanted to explore shinra/heid as a young men. like, really explore their relationship. potentially even one-sided ship them. i love the idea of it, it's interesting and i imagine their dynamic was similar to tseng/rufus. how many jokes have i seen about shipping them? tonnes. but it's not okay to diss any other ship. make a joke about tseng/rufus and ohhh noo, you fucked up, kiddo.

i've seen people imply heidegger is a pervert because he commented on sephiroth being good looking. literally suggesting he 'creeps' on sephiroth and people wholly agreeing like 'omG LoL YEs' - as if calling someone good looking is an alien thing to do or means immediately that you want to bang them (smh).

in general, i constantly see the fandom make jokes about certain characters & imply that if you ship them, like them etc - 'loool something wrong with uuu'. it's dumb as shit. don't be mean about other people's preferences when half of the fandom can't take being told that cloud shouldn't be shipped with whoever.

[vacantgodling]

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thank youuuu!!!

🪄 Aishite Aishite Aishite — Ado

Don’t get angry. / Don’t abandon me. / Don’t go anywhere. / (Hey)

starting with a vocaloid song of course we are lmao. there’s actually 2 ways you can read this song (that i’ve seen, though more than that exist im sure) — the first is more akin to the actual intent of the song which is talking more about and alluding to yandere undertones of obsessive love even if it doesn’t seem Real. the second and the one that i associate with dearest narcissus spokes from paramour/prim & provocative is a more Literal reading of certain aspects of the song. she’s terrified to be alone, she wants people to love her and think that she’s important, she doesn’t want people to abandon her—but to others outside her it seems like an attention grab or fake etc etc. but she means it she’s genuine she just doesn’t know how else to ask for love because no one’s ever really given it to her.

(she’s also arospec if that means anything either)

i really ADORE ado’s vocals in this song because it really captures the RANGE of emotions that narci is feeling. pleading, sweet, enraged, manipulative, sincere—it’s everything all at once. a lot of this energy is definitely directed at myrtus (her ex husband) at first, but it is genuinely how she feels about the world. she feels discarded and abandoned by it (and has been a bit) and she doesn’t know what she’s doing Wrong to make people never give her the time of day or love her.

🪄 MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT — Loveless

Just call on me, oh / Just call my name (just call my name) / Like you mean it

i’m a sucker for bridges. also this cover is so insanely good.

this entire cover is actually the beginning band sequence (after maverick quits the band) to my wip LuKEWARM ReJECTION — it represents the band’s best and most hard worked on song; maverick’s (the ex lead singer’s) magnum opus. it took them nearly a year to perfect it, and as di somberly thinks when they get up on stage for the battle of the bands with their new short notice fill in lead singer toph, there’s no way in fuck they’ll be able to pull this off. toph hadn’t even had time to practice. they get onstage, make their intros, and then they start off the chords for the song.

and toph just blows it out of the water.

his voice is better, stronger, more emotional, more star like than anything maverick has ever TOUCHED and as they roll through the whole set toph just knocks the pants off of everyone including the band! it should be a momentous moment but for di it’s so so SO bitter because he and maverick were dating and he not only left the band, he left di, and you just can’t get over that with the snap of your fingers.

but i LOOOOVE this song as an opening too bc toph deadass thinks these lyrics are so juvenile LMAO it’s the first fight he and di get into after the performance bc he disses the song and di still has emotions high so they start arguing. how dare you call my boyfriend my ex’s magnum opus garbage!!! and toph is all these lyrics were written by a washed up pop star wdym (which hits better for my imagination since the loveless version IS a cover lmao and for me personally, the lyrics aren’t hella compelling i moreso like the bridge for the singer bc his voice MAAAN it’s so good)

🪄 Better Than Me — Hinder

And I can't pretend / I won't think about you when I'm older / 'Cause we never really had our closure / This can't be the end

i have this song on so many playlists i’m literally INSANE about it. also once again the bridge makes me crazy.

i specifically think about this song when i think about amon and hya unsurprisingly but i also think about this song with graves and dove from the graves we dug. like GODDDDDDD the yearning, the pain that was caused, the struggle to accept that it’s over even if you don’t want it to be ???? like how am i supposed to be normal about this.

🪄Split — WILLOW

I'm always acting tough / Close my heart and now I starve the love / And no, I never wanted / I never wanted this for us

this whole album makes me crazy willow is so talented i love She.

i got this song on a couple of playlists but most recently i was thinking about this song in the context of betwixt thumb and forefinger and it really makes me think of sjaak. like he really doesn’t ask for 99.9% of the shit he’s going through and his reactions are horrible but understandable. the background sound and the vibes and the emphasis on the i never wanted this for us is literally him @ biscella and you can’t convince me otherwise.

the other person i’m thinking about with this song is arden from red death & the oracle’s favor, our favorite scorned prince. but instead of like sjaak and it be him talking to someone else, this song for him is more like him talking to himself. he never wanted this responsibility placed on his shoulders and he plays the part but it’s so hard to on some days — how does he survive? he doesn’t know.

[lestatisprince]

i don't have much knowledge of the books and i know the show is different but i am chewing at my walls with wanting a better idea of the general arc with louis and lestat. i know the idea is they are endgame with reunions and separations along the way but what is the direct aftermath of lestat's swamp time? like it feels silly to ask but is he like pissed when he comes back in the books? is louis distraught having [] him? are they a little bit healthier with themselves and each other/lestat ~better behaved~? what's the growth, i guess? i'm just so curious!! i suppose i should read the books...

I need to preface this by saying it's been years since I've read some of them, and I purposely didn't reread before the show aired. I wanted my brain to let me enjoy the changes without anxiety. I have been going over key passages though. All that's to say I forget most of the nuance from the over all arc.

Also confession time. It actually took their chemistry in the show for them to become my number one ship. Reading the books I could never get past the tragedy of Nicky. And then David came around and their deep talks got me. (I don't ship them anymore after what Lestat did to him though.) When we meet both of them in the show I'm sure this will be very apparent on my blog.

Anyway sorry! I know you don't have much book knowledge so that all means very little to you.

To your question:

Lestat only gets one word of dialogue after the swamp, Louis. "Louis! He called to me. Louis! he roared against the door." He says in his later books that he was proud of them, but here... I think he's probably closer to heartbroken. He's also in a lot of physical pain, and definitely enraged.

And for everyone saying the fight in 5 was ooc I'll leave this passage here:

(note this is page 157 out of 342)

Louis the unreliable narrator is on full display here.

But what I really want to focus on is how Louis snaps. Antoine is visible on the balcony and he sees red. He gets Lestat levels of violent, kicking and biting at his fingers before setting him on fire.

There is an evening of wrongs in this scene. A score settled.

I can't wait to see what the show does with it.

As for arc it's all about growth and change. Lestat goes quite literally through hell in the later books. His attempt to draw Louis to him by becoming a rock star ends up getting him abducted by the queen of the vampires. And with her he does things that haunt him.

And without going into spoilers for the last 2 books he matures in a way that means he can no longer be as reckless and impulsive as he once was. He becomes what Louis always wanted.

Which makes this line here so perfect.

[softquietsteadylove]

I see your thenamesh pkmn au and I raise you: Gilgamesh is actually a pokemon ranger! Rather than training and battling pokemon, he has a bond with them! He protects locals from enraged pokemon, he helps deal with ecological problems, he even arrests pokemon poachers. It's got all the bang for its buck of Gil being a protector and a fighter. They absolutely adore each other, Gil for Thena's absolute scary proficiency in battling and Thena for Gil's love and conservation of pokemon. >:D

"Gil!"

"Thena!" he waved, able to spot her from a mile away. He grunted as Dragonite started a descent maybe way, way too quick. "Whoa, buddy, I wanna see her too, but you've gotta slow down. Dragonite--Dragonite, please, pal, slow down! Slow-!"

Thena laughed as Dragonite swooped in, picking her up in its arms and hugging her gleefully. She liked to act like she was annoyed by it, but she never put up much of a fight when it happened. "Hi, Dragonite, I missed you too."

"Buddy, you're killin' me back here."

"Gil!" Thena gasped as he, letting go of the safety harness between Dragonite's wings, slid down the curve of his tail and dropped to the ground. She kicked her legs to be let down, crouching beside him. "Are you okay?"

He picked himself up, fixing his hat and then letting out the straps of his backpack, setting it beside him. "It was quite a morning."

Thena took a seat next to him on the cliff overlooking the valley tucked between mountain peaks. "Poachers?"

"Yes and no," Gil frowned, pulling out some supplies from his bag. "We seem to have cleared them from the area, but there are still a lot of repercussions we're seeing. Tauros are displaced, there are wild Hydreigon fighting with Tyranitar in the caves. They really did a number on the ecosystems."

Thena sighed. She had heard all about the poachers from Gil, as well as some of the other rangers stationed in the area. She had even joined him on a few missions to arrest them. But he was right, the wild pokemon population wasn't going to recover in a day.

"That's how I found this little guy," Gil announced, pulling open his pack and unveiling a large head with even larger ears. "Come on out, bud, it's okay."

"Teddi?"

"This is my friend Thena," Gil smiled, fishing the young Teddiursa out of his pack and holding the little guy in his hands. "We found him among the rubble of a landslide. Probably got separated from the rest of the pack after that huge Rhydon battle in the north caverns."

"Poor thing," Thena frowned. She tilted her head at the little bear pokemon. It tilted its head right back at her, toddling its way over to her. She watched it carefully, until it leaned against her arm, latching on with a fierceness. "Hello."

"Ursa?" it looked up at her, eyes all wide.

She used her other hand to ruffle the fur between its ears. She looked up at Gil, who had the same sappy look on his face he always got when he was rescuing a pokemon. "Looks like you when you first hatched Dragonite."

"He likes you," Gil beamed, utterly enchanted to see the little bear clinging to Thena. It was a marked improvement from trembling in fear inside his backpack all morning. He pulled open one of the bottles filled with vitamins, "come on, little guy."

The young pokemon turned its face further into Thena's arm, burying its cold, wet nose against her.

Gil sighed. This had been the struggle earlier too, "buddy, it's good for you. You have to eat."

"Teddiursa!"

Thena let out a faint laugh. It was so cute to watch Gil argue with a literal baby. But this was what made him such a great ranger--his ability to work that charm he had with everyone, from people to pokemon; from a baby Teddiursa to the biggest, meanest Salamence. "Come on, maybe he'll eat inside."

"Dragonite," Gil stood, "will you go back to base camp and tell the others I'm working on the Teddiursa situation?"

The orange dragon saluted his paw(?) to his head and nodded. He waved at Thena before taking off again.

Gil followed Thena back to her cozy little house she had on the cliffside. "I really don't know who he thinks hatched him, me or you."

"It was a joint effort," Thena laughed. Really, it had been Gil who had taken such amazing care of the egg. Thena had been there when the Dratini hatched, but it was undoubtedly Gil to whom the dragon was bonded immediately.

Gil sighed as soon as he stepped into the cabin home. It smelled like Thena--and a few of her pokemon, of course. "Hey, guys!"

"Everyone, this is Teddiursa," Thena introduced properly, speaking softly with the little bear held in her arms. It looked around the room nervously before burying its face against her again. "Gil rescued him just this morning, so he's a bit nervous."

"Gallade?"

"I don't know," Thena looked up at her battle partner. He stood off the couch, leaning over her shoulder to look at the little bundle of fur. "As long as he needs to."

Ninetales sniffed over to them, letting its psychic energy draw what conclusions it needed.

"There's my girl," Gil greeted the fox pokemon with a bright smile. She bounded over to him, happily letting him run his hands over her fur. He had rescued her back as a vulpix. It had been the fire type's desire to battle that made her such a good match for Thena, he'd found as he'd nursed her back to health. "Your fur's so shiny! Someone's been using the zinc supplements I recommended."

Thena rolled her eyes at them. "Yes, I continue to spoil her by your recommendation, against my better judgement."

Gil snorted at that. As if Thena didn't take the best care of her pokemon he'd ever seen in a pro trainer. She could easily be part of the league, maybe even Champion class. But she kept insisting she had no desire to be confined to the plateau day in and day out as an Elite 4 or the like. And being free to roam Victory Road did suit her more.

"Froslass?"

"Hello again," Gil greeted the newest to Thena's team, taking off his hat for the lady. She had actually kidnapped him into an ice cave, thinking his soul was ripe for the plucking when she found him.

It was Thena who had come to his rescue, fighting Froslass off with Ninetales. It had been so impressed with her that it had excitedly asked to join her team, although Thena made a point of telling her that she would no longer be bringing 'handsome men' off the mountain with her.

"Froslass," Thena turned to her ghost with a stern voice. She was entirely aware of the phantom's fondness for Gil. "Leave him be."

"Ah, she's okay," Gil waved off, enjoying the bright smile he got from the ice/ghost in return. He had always thought a ghost type would suit Thena, it was just a question of which one. And she and Froslass both had a certain pretty quality to them.

"Come on," Thena said softly, the little bear still trembling in her arms. She reached into the cupboard, pulling out a basket of berries. She turned, "is this okay for him to eat?"

"Oran should be fine," Gil advised, walking right over to her, leaning against the counter and touching a hand to her back. "I didn't want to give him anything sweeter than a sitrus in case he'd been gorging on them in the woods."

"That's true," Thena murmured. She shifted Teddiursa against her, pushing one of the supplements into the core of the berry. It reached out its paws, claws extending for the fruit. She drew it back, "ah! Medicine and all."

It pouted at her, "teddi..."

"Medicine," she pressed, holding the oran as tightly as a pokeball. "Or no berry."

The little bear huffed, but nodded. Its face brightened instantaneously as soon as the oran berry was in its paws. "Teddiursa!"

Thena smiled as the little thing gobbled up the berry, vitamin mix included. "He is kind of sweet."

"Ace trainer Thena, all soft eyed over a cute pokemon?" Gil chuckled, bumping his hip against hers ever so gently. "Never thought I'd see the day."

Thena just rolled her eyes at him, watching the little pokemon stuff its face. She reached up, brushing some stray crumbs out of the fur of its muzzle.

Gil was looking at Thena.

Gallade was looking at both of them, thoroughly unimpressed. But he was used to this with his trainer, thickheaded as she was. If it wasn't a pokemon battle, she wasn't going to understand it any time soon. "Lade."

"Nine," his comrade shared in his plight, settling herself on her bed by the fireplace.

"Hey," Gil said softly, now that Teddiursa was done with his meal. "I should go."

"Okay," Thena nodded, trying not to look too disappointed to learn he had to return to duty. She had almost forgotten it in the quiet moment of them in her kitchen. She looked up, just now realising how close they had gotten while watching over his rescue. She looked down again, hoping her elevated heart rate wouldn't startle the little cub.

"Teddi?"

"Come on, buddy," Gil extended his arms, ready for it to be transferred from Thena's arms to his. "Let's get you back to the ranger centre."

"Teddi!"

They both blinked at the little bear, crossing his paws indignantly. Thena looked at Gil. He shook his head. "Come on, pal, there's a pokemon centre--we'll get you all healed up."

"Teddi!"

"Sweetheart," Thena joined in with a stern tone, trying to physically deposit the cub into Gil's hands. It clung to her forearm. "Don't you want to see the rest of your pack? The Chansey and Audino will heal you and then you can go be in the wild. Won't that be fun?"

"Teddiursa!" it protested loudly, clinging to Thena with all its little might. Gil let go of its belly and it curled its legs around her wrist as well.

Thena looked at the bear, attached to her arm like a Komala to its birth tree. She turned to Gil, holding out a hand.

"Uh," Gil put his hat back on, eyeing the distressed pokemon with a chuckle. "I'm gonna be honest, we usually try not to force it, in situations like these."

"What do you mean, situations like these?!" Thena whispered/hissed as Teddiursa began inching up her arm like a tree branch. "You encounter this often?"

He laughed, which Thena visibly didn't appreciate. But it was so cute! "Well, no, but come on. The little guy just misses his mom, and you were the one to feed him."

"You were the one who carried him around all morning," she protested. Although, like with Dragonite, she didn't exactly force the little bear away from her either.

"And clearly it didn't bond to me at all," Gil shrugged. Part of being a ranger was knowing which battles could be 'won' and which needed a different approach. "Look, I'll check in tonight again, okay? If he hasn't detached by then, you might just...have a new pokemon."

Thena sighed, although she had to admit, she couldn't bear the thought of trying to rip the little cub off her arm anymore than Gil - with his big, soft heart - could. She looked at it, and, as if sensing her gaze, it looked back at her.

"Teddi?" His eyes were big as saucers, glassy and pleading not to be taken away.

Thena sighed. She looked at Gallade, sitting on the couch and watching tv. "What do you think?"

"Gal-Gallade," it waved its hand at her. If the cub was that attached to her, why upset it? He wasn't going to have a problem with it, nor would Ninetales.

"Froslass!" the ghost pokemon materialised just to smile down at the little cub, who laughed as she disappeared again.

Thena withered. Even her antisocial ghost was onboard. She looked down at the cub. "Fine, you can stay. But this behaviour is not going to be sticking around. Do you understand that?"

"Teddiursa!" The little bear lifted its paws in celebration, only to latch onto her neck in a full embrace.

Thena sighed, letting it rub its fur against her cheek. "I suppose I have a Teddiursa now?"

Gil snapped a quick pic. "That's so cute."

"Gil!"

"Okay," he waved, settling his bag on his back again, "I'll see you tonight!"

Teddiursa waved, happily clinging to Thena's shoulder as Gil closed the door behind him.

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@idolsummons cont. from (X)

People could say what they wanted about Fuyuhiko; that he was a criminal, a murderer, that he deserved nothing but the worst in life and some days he might agree, but no one could deny that he would defend those he cared about to the death no matter the situation at hand. Luckily, it didn't seem like this time anything more than some minor blood would be spilt, something that there was no avoiding in Fuyu's mind when it came to something like this. Some guy wanted to be a fucking creep? He was going to at the very best be punched, and at the worst? Well, bullets could be rather persuasive in their own way, should it come to that...

Beyond that? It was a job for his sister, and that wasn't a fate he would wish on anyone. That was a lie, he's wished her bloodthirsty wrath upon many of people over the year, and Natsumi is always more than happy to oblige...

Going from annoyed to enraged in just a matter of seconds, the yakuza's teeth grit together as the idol clarified her wishes, his freckles popping out across his cheeks as his face grew red with anger. "What a fucking lowlife." Said with almost palpable disgust, it seemed even a known gang member had standards when it came to how people conducted themselves. "Yeah, I'll take care of 'im. What's this creep look like? And how bad do you want me to hurt 'im? Or...am I just scaring the prick off?" He figured it didn't need to be said that if prompted he would be hurting the guy no matter what she said. It depended on him and how fucking weird he wanted to be about what he was doing to Hana. He may not know her personally, but Kazuichi, Sonia, and Gundham talked about her enough for him to gather that she was special to them. He had no idea what she knew of him though, if anything. Would she even be talking to him if she knew he was a yakuza? Either way, Gundham must be busy if she's not asking him, or she doesn't trust him not to kill the guy, which...yeah, that was fair, all things considered.

"You uh...you do know who I am, right? 'Cause I gotta say, kinda surprised you'd risk being seen with me, with your idol bullshit 'n all..." Being around him could only lead to trouble in the end, no matter who it was... "Besides, don't you have a literal fucking demon for a boyfriend? And a guard dog of a werewolf that follows you around like a fucking puppy? Or are you taking the easy way out and asking me, banking on the hope the guy will know I'm with the yakuza and fuck off so I don't kill him." It...would make sense, Gundham and Kaz were threatening in their own ways, hell even Sonia could get the job done in her own princessy way, but they weren't Fuyuhiko.

Sonia was a princess, she couldn't afford to get into trouble over something like this should things go wrong, and Gundham and Kaz? They were scary, sure, but in a manageable way; a big ass dog wasn't really all that hard to handle especially a scardy cat like Kaz and Gundham was only a goth chuunibyou on the surface who may flash a bit of his powers to get his point across if he needed to, but unless he wanted to out himself as an actual fucking demon on the off chance someone else sees him, his hands were tied.

Fuyu though? People knew who he was, what he had done, what he could do. If this guy was smart, all the yakuza had to do was show his face, say his name, and he'd know just what and who he was messing with. And if he tried to tell anyone about Hana hiring the yakuza to scare him off? That was easily hushed with all his connections, and that was even if anyone believed the guy. He'd have to admit why she would have had to hire the yakuza in the first place. Nothing about it would end well for him no matter how he went about it when it came to the heir.

"If you don't want someone like me to handle this shit, I could always get someone else on it. It'd be discreet, no way to tie it back to me or my clan, no danger for you or your job."

[aureiki]

[Note: I wrote like 6 paragraphs and left but I was an idiot and forgot to save, silly me! (I'm enraged.) So most of the post will be based off my poor memory pls ignore if it sounds weird. Rmbr to save ur progress, kids.]

Hey babes did you miss me? No? Too bad, I have more backstory theories for you all. I'm left with more of the confusing/vague ones now so real sorry if my theories are pretty nonsensical (well, they normally are) so without further ado..

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Ace Markey

"I don’t know what to do with myself anymore."

Pretty simple and out there, Ace is a massive coward. He's literally described as someone who hates anyone and anything. Though I've always wondered, *why* is Ace afraid of everything? I mean, the only reason he's the Ultimaye Jockey is because he's afraid of failure. How scared must you be of something to purposefully succeed infront of hundreds?

He's scared of things to a concerning degree, he's afraid of certain people, to a concerning degree. Very likely that he was a lot more calmer before all this, and that the aggressiveness is just to cover up his fear (albeit very poorly.)

I def think something.... happened. People tend to develop fears because they had a bad experience with em. For example, someone could be afraid of dogs and cats because they were scratched/harmed by one. Someone could be scared of swimming because they almost drowned.

Thing is though, Ace, like I said, is scared of *everything*. And I find it very unlikely he went through every possible accident from every possible thing that could presumably kill him.

So instead, I feel like one major incident is what made him this way. Something so big, so awful that it changed him entirely and how he perceives the world and its people. How big? Maybe a building fire, a kidnapping, etc. Something that could scar him for as long as he lived.

Now what about his HQ, 'I don’t know what to do with myself anymore'... Well, his life is possibly ruined. What can you do in a place where anything could possibly kill you? It's so overwhelming and scary, to feel so small in a dangerous world.

It obviously doesn't help that he's in a killing game where, quite literally, anyone could and would kill you.

Veronika Grebenshchikova

"Once something is broken, it can never be pieced together in quite the same way again. The same goes for people."

Veronika is one of the more... eccentric of the cast. She's a horror fanatic who lives for the thrill, she enjoys any form of horror whether it be books, movies, you name it. But just what exactly got her so engrossed?

I remember seeing a theory where Veronika was likely hospitalized for most of her life. She had also mentioned that she *used* to be really outdoorsy. Perhaps during her time in the hospital, she picked up consuming horror media as a fun past time, which slowly grew into an obsession, and now her actual Ultimate talent.

She probably holds horror very close to her heart if that's so, it's the one thing that kept her company and kept her going during her time there. How does her HQ fit into this though?

I feel as if she lost/broke something, or someone very dear to her. It's not worded in a way that makes you think that 'thing' is gone for good. Rather, it's broken in a way that can't be repaired to how it was originally.

Whether this is something said *by* Veronika herself, or it describes her, I don't know. If it's the latter, then perhaps it implies that something caused Veronika to change drastically. That 'something' probably being the incident that landed her in the hospital in the first place, assuming it's true.

When a vase is shattered, you can still repair it, but it will retain the cracks from when it broke. Similarly, a person will still be scarred both physically and mentally even if the matter that caused it is resolved. Yes, Veronika is still 'Veronika', but not the same Veronika from before.

Levi Fontana

"I always believed that a person is defined by their actions alone. But maybe that’s just a poor excuse for my heartlessness."

Levi's literal description says that he has a 'dangerous past that he's unwilling to talk about.' If that doesn't say anything, I don't know what will.

On a more serious note, he seems to take the safety of others very seriously. Showing anger and intimidation towards anyone dangerous, or whatever he thinks could hurt him and his friends.

Levi was probably.. not a very good person. He describes himself as heartless, thinking that he's just making poor excuses for it. Thinking that a person is defined by their actions is not a good way of thinking. There's always the person's intentions, their thought process before said action, and so on.

There's very little revealed about Levi, and it's hard for me to think of anything.. Maybe he feels guilt for the person he once was, and similarly to my other theories, acts this way just to feel better and atone for his wrong doings. The thought of a personal stylist suddenly having a dark backstory is eerie..

Aaaaand that's all for now I think, have a great day or night!