#whatever gods you pray to- if you would be so kind- please include me in your prayers

[honeyedbrie]

I love all of those memes from 2020 like "it's 2023, covids over" because guess what hoes, it is 2023, and I am officially in isolation for the THIRD TIME IN 3 MONTHS because Yet Another of my family members has covid.

[zerobaseonefics]

first kiss with ricky, zhang hao, seunghwan and park hanbin (requested)

boys planet trainees x gn!reader

genre : fluff

note : mention of food in zhang hao's ⚠️ xiaoting of kep1er in seunghwan's one cuz yes she IS a whole warning

sorry if i took too much time anon <3 didn't include jay because i didn't have any idea for him tbh

• ricky

ricky always acted like he was some kind of player, stealing hearts everywhere he was going. even though most people were attracted to him, he was far from the playboy persona he was promoting.

when you started dating, you expected him to be straightforward and initiate most the skinship...

however, it was not the case. in fact, ricky was a bit shy about it. to be fair, he was only 18, and didn't have many partner before dating you. because of that, he was scared of doing things the wrong way. that's the reason why he would rather let you initiate things like that.

your relationship was still fresh, you were only two weeks in, so that could explain why neither of you dared to kiss the other. but that day, ricky felt different than the others. he couldn't explain it. maybe it was the way the sun hit your pretty face the right way, or the outfit you were wearing that suited you too good. maybe it was the fact you prepared that whole picnic and you thought of buying strawberries because you know it was his favorite.

ricky wasn't used to be spoiled by the people he loves. most of the time, it was the other way around. but now that you did something for him, he felt a different type of warmness in his chest.

shyly, he grabbed your hand in his to have your attention. you turned your face his way, and he started leaning in almost unconsciously before realizing you might no be ready. he stopped his movement just before your lips could touch, feeling his cheeks blushing.

"y/n... can i kiss you?"

your only answer was to break the distance between you two to give him what you both wanted.

"i thought you'd never ask" you said when you pulled apart, making him giggle before he leaned in again.

• seunghwan

seunghwan saw this situation as his chance, if God decided to turn in his favor, this could be the moment he finally confessed to you. he started to pray in his head.

"please let me be with y/n, please let me be with y/n, please let me be with-"

"y/n! you're going in with seunghwan."

seunghwan felt like a mastermind. what could possibly go wrong?

you and him were sharing the same friend group for years, and since the beginning of your friendship, it actually.... never felt like a friendship. call him cliche or whatever, for him, it was love at first sight. he knew he'll love you the first time you talked to him. he got to know you better and realized you were everything he was looking for, in a friend as much as in a lover.

now call him cocky, he knew for sure that the feeling was mutual. the way you'd giggle when he would say you look good, the smile and the red cheeks you tried to hide whenever he would jokingly introduce himself to strangers as your boyfriend, the handshakes where you would let your hand in his longer than it should... seunghwan was sure you loved him back.

today was the birthday party of your mutual friend, junhyeon. (yes that's my junhyeon jackson wang of 5th gen agenda)

he wasn't the type to make only small events, no, he made sure he invited everyone in your grade.

it was getting late, and a smaller group of people were sat in a corner of the living room, having fun with the childish game of spin the bottle. you were there, next to your friend xiaoting, and seunghwan was in front of you. for the moment, none of you have been chosen for the game, only observing and joking with the people there.

"hey! how about the next people chosen by the bottle play 7 minutes in heaven?" proposed xiaoting.

"what's that?" asked gyuvin.

"well, we, i mean the bottle chooses two people that will spend 7 minutes together in a dark enclosed place."

"sounds more like 7 minutes in hell, why would you be alone with someone alone in a small and dark place and..... oh, okay, i get it" said woongi.

if seunghwan thought the game was a bit stupid at first, he quickly changed his mind. if he never confessed to you properly, despite giving you plenty of signals, it's not because he didn't have the guts to do so... he just never found the moment to. you were rarely alone, and each time you were alone with him, it was just not the right moment for him to open his heart. but this! if seunghwan had 7 minutes of his time alone with you in a small place, what will he do other than confessing? that was the perfect plan! (if someone ever confess to me in this situation i think i'll hit them bcz wtf) (but listen at this point seunghwan is desperate)

the bottle first chooses him. he sent you a look, that you didn't catch, lost in your thoughts hoping he will not end up with someone else. however, xiaoting did catch that look and knew it was her time to be a hero.

a shocked look on her face, she pointed her finger at something in the crowd.

"hey! what the hell is junhyeon doing? look at this!"

she didn't expect that to work, but it did, the people with you all turned their eyes towards that non-existent scene and she quickly stopped the bottle to make it point at you.

"oh! seems like we got our lucky pair." declared xiaoting

"y/n! you're going in with seunghwan. now, that's funny..." added woongi.

seunghwan got up first, taking your hand to help you get up as well. xiaoting took the mission of leading you guys to a closet big enough for you two to fit in. before you got in, xiaoting gave you a death glare. "y/n if you mess up all my hard work..."

finally, the door closed, leaving you two in the dark, your bodies so close that they were almost touching.

"hm. isn't it funny that we ended up there?", said seunghwan as a conversation starter.

"i think xiaoting is responsible for this but i don't blame her. i'm glad it's you".

seunghwan softly laughed, making you smile as well. the only source of light was the one that could get in from the corner of the door, but it was enough for seunghwan to see your face a bit.

"i wanted it to be you as well." said seunghwan.

"yeah, you better not want someone else for this.", you scoffed.

seunghwan took this as his sign that it was the right time to have the conversation. he smirked, and you could hear his smile in his voice.

"yeah? why? you wouldn't like it if i wanted to go there with someone else?"

"don't ask."

"why?"

"because you already know why i wouldn't like it."

"no, i don't know. tell me, y/n."

"well, it's just that way. would you be happy if someone else was here with me?"

he answered your question, telling you you were right. he would not be happy about it. hesitantly, he sneaked his arms around your waist to pull you closer. it was not the first time he did that, but now, the atmosphere was more serious so he didn't want to rush you. you let your head rest on his chest, and it encouraged him to continue.

"do you want me to tell you why i wanted it to be you?" he said in a whisper.

"hm, tell me" you responded, turning your head to look at his face, your chin resting on his chest this time. he look at you in the eyes, losing the meaning of words for a second, before regaining his composure.

"because you're not mine yet, and if you went with someone else, i was afraid you might slip through my fingers."

"if it wasn't you, i wouldn't have play the game." you assured him.

"why?"

"somehow, i'm unofficially already yours."

seunghwan tried to hold back his smile from getting wider, simply kissing the top of your head as you smiled back.

"i love you. i'm sorry it took so much time for me to finally tell you, but i really do love you."

your hands went to his face, caressing gently his cheeks with your thumb. your eyes met his, locked together for a few seconds, before your lips got attracted like it was natural to his own. his heart started racing as he couldn't focus on anything else than you, kissing you back with eagerness. it was his first kiss with you, and despite all the scenarios he made in bed before sleeping, he never thought it would happen like that. but he was so happy about it, it was better than all that he ever imagined.

• zhang hao

zhang hao is simply a very direct man. where ricky was fighting his inner demons to know if he could kiss you, i feel like zhang hao would naturally feel if you were comfortable enough to do it yet.

the thing was, zhang hao wasn't against pda. he could hold your hands, he could hug you, but he was just not the type to kiss in public.

it was only a few week since you started dating, and you never kissed yet because you just haven't seen each other a lot indoors. most of your dates were outside, so since your boyfriend was uncomfortable with it, it never happened.

that day, zhang hao was practicing at the company with the other trainees. you two texted this morning, and he told you he was going to be there until late at night. proud of how hardworking he was, you decided you'd grab lunch for zhang hao and his teammates.

you knocked on the practice room door, and when you heard zhang hao telling you you could come in, you opened the door. you were met by faces you didn't know, and your boyfriend in shock.

"y/n??"

"the one and only!"

he jogged toward you to greet you with a hug, asking you what you were doing here.

"i know you guys are here for the whole day so i thought it'd be a good idea to bring you food."

the younger boys, yujin and ollie gasped at the mention of food while the other guys thanked you properly.

"hao! i think you should kiss them as a thank you" said ollie in a teasing tone as you gave the boys the bags you brought. yunseo hit the younger one in the arm, gesturing him to shut up. "what?? he's their boyfriend after all, why wouldn't he kiss them?"

zhang hao started to feel a bit embarassed meanwhile you laughed at ollie's teasing remarks.

"eat well! i'm gonna have to go."

zhang hao followed you to the door, opening it for you. you thought he would simply go back to his members to eat, but he followed you in the corridor, out of the practice room. he took your hand to have your attention.

"hum? is there a problem?" you asked.

without a word, zhang hao looked around to make sure it was only the both of you. when the verification was done, he pulled you closer to him by the hand he was still holding. before you could react, he leaned in to connect your lips together. it wasn't long, but it was enough for a warmth to blossom in your chest and your cheeks to turn red.

"can i come over after practice? i'll give you a proper 'thank you' kiss."

maybe ollie's teasing wasn't that bad.

• phanbin

what a good day for park hanbin. for the first time in a while, his best friend, you, where at his place for a sleepover. the occasion used to be a regular event before you two got into college, meaning you had less time to spend together.

but it was not only about the time. in fact, you were deliberately trying to spend less time with him. for a few years now, you started to see your best friend in a different light. you were sick of the one-sided feelings you had for him, and realized college might be the solution for you to avoid him a bir in order to let your feelings die down.

little did you know, your feelings were mutual, but you were trying to shut them down by dating other people, convinced he didn't like you back. laying shoulders to shoulders on his bed, you ranted to him.

"so that date didn't went good", concluded hanbin.

"not at all."

"see, it always go sour when they try to kiss you. do you have a problem with it particularly?"

so turned so you could face him. "hanbin."

he turned as well, facing you too. "y/n".

"can i tell you a secret?"

"of course."

"well, i didn't have my first kiss yet."

"what ??"

hanbin jumped up, now sitting on the bed. you sat as well, embarassed.

"you're kidding me right??"

"i'm not! i never kissed someone, the action just freaks me out!"

"but you had a boyfriend for like... two weeks!"

"i know but i told you i didn't like him that much..."

"what blocks you exactly?"

you looked away, trying to find an answer quickly. the truth was you couldn't kiss anyone because your feelings were still for hanbin. how could you give away your first kiss to someone you don't even like?

"i don't want to embarass myself, you know. i don't know how to kiss someone, so it will probably be awful. plus, i can't give my first kiss to anyone, it has to be a special someone."

"special? what do you mean by special?"

"someone i'm close to, you know? like... like you."

hanbin felt his cheeks getting warmer, so he turned his face to make sure you wouldn't see him blushing.

"well... you know... maybe i could teach you, then."

"teach me?" you repeated, not sure you understood.

"okay that sounds stupid. but if you're afraid of being a bad kisser, i can teach you how to be a good one. you'll have your first kiss with me, someone special to you, and so... it'll be easier for you to kiss other people afterwards."

he didn't like the end of his idea and neither did you. however, it was still a good idea, you thought. you would learn how to kiss, you would have your first one with someone special, and you would kiss hanbin above all.

"...that do sounds stupid but i think it's a good idea."

"for real?"

"yeah... i'd rather give you my first kiss."

hanbin bit the inside of his cheek in order not to smile. you both stayed sat on the bed as he came closer to you. you two shook hands to conclude your contract.

"okay. i'm gonna do it slowly so you can pick up the things you have to do. it's okay i touch you a bit, right?"

you nodded to give him your consent. his right hand went to your jaw, as he slowly leaned towards your face. you felt a feeling of giddiness and nervosity as you saw his look going from your eyes to your lips. hanbin tilted your chin a bit to adjust himself properly, and he finally closed his eyes and went for the kiss. it was delicate, soft, as he tried his best not to rush you. it didn't last long before he pulled away, his face still close to yours. you could see the colors on his cheeks, similar to the one on yours, as both of your hearts were racing.

"how do you feel? did you get it?"

"maybe you could do it again..." you said in a quiet voice.

let's say y'all didn't stay friends after the second one.

[thedeliverygod]

The Final Chapter of Noragami

I'll start off by saying no matter what, this is my favorite manga/anime series. It'll always be near and dear to my heart. And thank you again to @fast-moon who has put so much time in effort into this series so that we would be able to read it in English ASAP.

But here are my honest thoughts, below the cut

There are far too many open ends. As a writer and a fan, I get that it's good to leave things pretty open ended and give fans a chance to explore possibilities. But there was too much here.

Something that struck me during my read of the translation (as I read the raws about an hour beforehand) was the absence of Nana. Arahabaki and Shiho are at the hanami, why not her? Especially since she's got a bond with Bishamon as well.

Is Nora just a free agent, doing whatever she wants? We see that Yukine still has his Hagusa name, so clearly she would still have Mizuchi. And we know Yato can't re-name her. Does she spend time with Yato and Yukine at Kofuku's house? Is she Yato's secret agent in watching over Hiyori? lol

Kazuma is the only one (aside from Nana) who survived the God's Greatest Secret without being named with the koto no ha. How is he dealing with it? Is he also having nightmares like Yukine?

Yato being 'saved' by going viral is a bit dumb especially because the posts are like "wow this guy is doing like a 10 year old meme lame" etc so it didn't seem like it should have blown up much anyway? and he also says no one actually remembers 'him'/uses his name just Teke-Teke so how does that... actually help Yato? Granted he didn't die and he has a smartphone now but I feel like he would... actually have to really be acknowledged to get money and have a shrine other than Hiyori's shrine (which btw what happened to THE DAMN SHRINE??? its on the cover but the chapter??? absent)

"I'll give you all of me" and dramatic crying/kiss but then Yato just seems so... detached. granted I KNOW it's because of the near shore/far shore and he doesn't want to endanger her again and just looks over her and it's a trope that's been in a million fanfics including mine but it just feels so off and bluh to NOT GET ANY RESOLUTION OTHER THAN HIYORI JUST RECOGNIZING HIM and then a line in the journal about how he tried to play it off.

I can't even think of everything tbh there's just a lot I want answered that wasn't...

I would say the best part of this chapter was the stuff about Fujisaki. It finally answered that he was 'born' with Father present inside of him and they kind of switched back and forth. Although again that leaves the question of how much was Fujisaki and how much was Father in terms of hitting on Hiyori/how much did Fujisaki know about Father's antics. I also love that Yato still hates him anyway even without Father LOL

lastly father was this giant cataclysmic force in Yato's life for literally over a thousand years and he's finally free. and we really get no reaction in regards to that. And that is especially disappointing when it's a major theme of the manga as a whole, you know?

idk that's my piece for now. I'm sure I'll have more to say in the coming days/weeks/months/etc but I hope and pray there's maybe any sort of small addition to the tankobon release.

it did mention "please look forward to adachitoka's next work" but I think that was just like a publishing nicety. I think noragami's ending was rushed due to their ongoing health problem and/or pressure from the publishers and I honestly don't see them coming out with a new series any time soon.

[might-as-well-make-nonsense]

Sometimes the Best Medicine is Love

A Sokeefe sickfic (Mostly fluff, tiny bit angst) Please repost w/credit.

Disclaimer: I own neither the franchise nor any of these characters.

Sophie was concerned.

If there ever was a sign that something was wrong, it was a silent Keefe. With everything that had been going on lately, she wasn't surprised, but still, it was worrying. Was he ok? Was his father being a jerk, as usual? Was he upset with her? She reached over to where he was sitting at the lunch table and gently flicked his arm.

"You ok?" She mouthed when he glanced up.

He nodded, then plopped his head back down to his folded arms on the table, his blond hair gently flopping to the side of his forehead.

She frowned. Something must really be the matter for him to not even bother with a quip of some kind. Oh well. Better to give him some space and just keep an eye out - she knew well how stubborn he could be.

She rubbed his arm in a (hopefully) comforting gesture, whispered a quiet "see you," and moved on to her next class, glancing back and biting her lip. He'll talk to me when he feels ready, she thought. Hopefully that's sooner than later.

As Sophie left, Keefe completely slumped onto the table, all pretense gone.

He felt awful.

Really awful.

Not only had he barely said a word to his girlfriend - is that what they were? - all day, his head also wouldn't stop pounding, his nose was running, and his throat felt like he was swallowing rocks. He wanted to sleep so badly. It was better this way, though; his father would have confined him to his bed and insisted on "taking care of him" in that stuffy, formal way of his that only included bringing him a glass of water every so often and pretending to care about how he felt. 

Best to just suck it up, get through the day, and maybe find someplace to camp out until he felt a little better.

Although, the way he was feeling, who knew how long that would be.

He jerked forward with a sudden sneeze, banging his head on the table. Hard. Ugh. 

He dragged himself out of his seat, rubbing his forehead, and started the long trudge to his class - way too late. Now, he'd probably have detention to deal with. It's going to be a very long day, Keefe thought.

Sophie lept home after school, her mind still fixated on Keefe. She was a habitual worrier, after all they had been through - and were going through - ever since she had arrived in the Lost Cities. As she walked into the dining room, she made up her mind. She would pay Keefe a visit, just to make sure. He'd understand. 

She zipped into her bedroom to change out of her school clothes, throwing on a new tunic and leggings in record time, then dashed out to the backyard.

"Edaline, I'm going to Candleshade to check on Keefe," she called as she ran past the pastures. "I'll be back soon!"

She opened a rift, closed her eyes, and ran into the void.

Meanwhile, Keefe flopped on his bed, just praying his father would leave him alone. Hopefully, he could remain uninterrupted long enough to sleep off whatever this was. Then someone knocked on the door. He groaned, sniffling, and draped an arm over his eyes. Never a moment of peace when I need one, Keefe thought, letting out a little whine.

"Keefe," came his father's incredibly annoying, posh voice. "Sophie Foster is here to see you."

His head jerked up. Sophie? Why on earth would she be visiting him after the way he'd practically ignored her earlier? He lept off the bed, blinking hard, straightening his wrinkled tunic and running his hand through his sweaty curls. Oh, god. She can't see me like this, Keefe panicked.

He opened his door, trying to feign alertness.

"Hey, Foster," he muttered. "What's up?"

She didn't say anything, just walked inside and closed the door.

"Keefe, what's going on? You've been acting strange all day, and I want to make sure you're ok. Really ok," she amended before he could interject.

He took a second, seemingly trying to decide what to tell her, before apparently giving in. "Don't feel good," he croaked, sitting back on his bed and directing a pathetic sneeze into his wrist.

She watched the facade drop before her eyes, and the confident "Hunkyhair" she was so accustomed to dissolved into a lanky, pale, shivering boy. Poor Keefe.

She noticed, now, his bright, glassy blue eyes, and the sweat beading on his forehead - he must have a pretty high fever. She reached out and gently brushed his damp curls away, laying a hand on the blond boy's forehead and quickly withdrawing it at the heat.

"Keefe! I'm bringing you to Elwin right now. You can't stay here like this," Sophie decided. "Why didn't you say anything?"

"Just didn't," he mumbled, coughing. "I was tired, and my throat hurt, and I didn't want word getting back to my dad. He's even more annoying when I'm sick." He mustered a weak grin at that, showing his exhaustion. Even sick, though, he could never pass up an opportunity to bash his lousy excuse for a father, Lord Cassius.

Sophie hummed in agreement. She knew Keefe didn't have a good relationship with his father, which made all the more excuse to take him to Elwin. Elwin had a certain way with Keefe, a gentleness and concern that his father lacked. And he really could use some gentle concern right about now.

She opened the window in Keefe's bedroom, crawling out first and dropping to the ground, then gently helping the sick boy out of the window. He was shivering too hard to stand, so she managed to hoist him onto her back and, once more, ran into the void as Keefe passed out, lulled to sleep by the combination of exhaustion, fever, and Sophie's warmth seeping into his own tired, freezing body.

He awoke in the Healing Center, with Elwin standing over him and flashing various glowing lights around his body and frowning.

"Hi," Keefe croaked, sitting up slowly and blinking hard. He suddenly snapped forward with a harsh sneeze, managing to catch it in his hands. "...Ugh." He groaned, sniffling and rubbing his hands on his tunic. "Gross." 

Sophie winced but said nothing, sitting on the edge of the bed. 

“How are you feeling?” Sophie asked gently, brushing his curls away from his face. 

“Eh. Could be better,” he mumbled, giving her a wry grin. It was the truth, after all. He still felt pretty awful, but both getting out of Candleshade and whatever Elwin had been doing seemed to have helped some. 

He coughed, then looked at Elwin. “What are you thinking?”

Elwin pushed his goggles onto his head and sighed. “Keefe, you have quite the knack for getting yourself into trouble, one way or another.” He chuckled. “This time, however, it’s thankfully not too serious. Some kind of flu, but I’d like to keep you here for a few days, if you don’t mind?” Elwin met Keefe’s eyes, waiting for his answer.

Keefe knew that, like it or not, he’d end up staying anyway - Sophie would make sure of that. However, he actually found himself wanting to stay. Anything was better than Candleshade, especially feeling like this. He nodded, then sneezed again. Ow.

“Wonderful! Stay here, and I’ll go get some elixirs for you to take. I’ll be back in a moment.” Elwin dashed back to his office, leaving the two alone.

Sophie watched Elwin leave, then looked back at Keefe. He had sunk back into the pillows, apparently relaxing now that his fate for the next few days was decided.

“Promise you’ll tell me next time?” Sophie asked, meeting Keefe’s tired blue eyes. “You had me worried for a bit there. You were out for a while.” She smiled softly.

Keefe grinned. “Best sleep I’ve had in a while.”

Sophie laughed, then raised an eyebrow. “But do you promise?”

Keefe sighed, which quickly turned into a short coughing fit. When he could breathe again, he smiled weakly and shrugged. “Yeah, I promise.”

“Good.” Sophie kissed his forehead. 

“Stay with me?” Keefe whined.

Sophie glanced over at Elwin’s office door, but saw no sign of him coming back soon.

“Of course,” she agreed, snuggling in next to him on the bed and wrapping her arms around his shoulders. 

Keefe melted into her warmth, and his eyes turned heavy as he burrowed into her touch, sleep quickly claiming his exhausted body. Sophie smiled, laying her head on top of his and stroking his damp curls. She, too, closed her eyes, and all the stress of the day melted, pulling her, too, down into sleep. 

Elwin walked back into the room just then with the elixirs, but stopped quickly when he saw the sleeping pair. He smiled and grabbed an extra blanket, draping it over Keefe and Sophie. 

Sometimes the best medicine is love, isn’t it?

[cheerfullycatholic]

Hello--I have sent asks to other Catholics and am a little scared that I will confuse details between them because I am upset and afraid right now, but will you please pray for me?

I have been failing miserably at following any of the plans I set out for Lent, and on Ash Wednesday, our priest told us that Lent is a contract with God, meaning that if we don't follow through or aren't really committed then it isn't God who comes to collect and give you blessing, but it is the Devil who swoops into fulfill his job as Satan.

I'm sorry for sending this on anonymous--this plan is posted very publicly on my side blog, but it wouldn't let me ask under that name and I don't want people connecting the two. Anyway, I would talk to my current and local priest about this, but I have previously been involved in a controversy with members of the Diocese because of some things I believed, and I don't want to drag those still active members into more drama, nor do I want to end hurting new people who are only trying to serve my community as best they can.

I'm scared of judgement, drama, and unintended consequences. I only want to do the right thing. I'm scared, upset, feeling very alone and worried that God is not happy with me because I am failing so hard at these things I agreed to. I've been getting positive signs, but I am afraid that I am only reading into it what will comfort me and not taking srsly the consequences or the intentions of my actions. I know my current priest believes very heavily in spiritual warfare and I am afraid he will try to exorcise me or that I will end up being condemned.

{{{{{Lenten Plans from the Universe/The Messiah/The Golden Timeline (02/13/24)

Okay so basically, here is the plan--handed down through divine intuition or signs or whatever gave me the information--I trust the information source--so here's my spiritual cleanse for the 40 days:

3 days of (as close as possible) no sleep--72 straight hours--then 2 days of regular sleep schedule for the next 40 days

40 days of no more than 1200 calories every day

40 days no spend (outside of food and bills)

40 days (at least) of no medication (exception--Excedrin Migraine but only in extreme situations...)

Increased prayer/communing/sign reading

***I want to be clear that this is something that I am doing for my own spiritual cleanse and enlightenment and enrichment and etc; I'm not advertising this as a responsible or safe or anything--this isn't a recommendation--you're welcome to join me in an attempt but consult with your own support system including mental health team.***}}}}}

I am in contact with my mental health team, including my therapist and they are aware of what I am doing, and they are trying to support me, but they aren't Catholic, and they don't know the anxieties that come with the rituals and traditions of the Church. I am very scared, and I hope you are having a beautiful Lent. God bless you; I know if you find my side blog that it has a lot of very controversial statements about the Church and my beliefs--but I'm trying my best to make sense of what is happening, and I do not want to be insulting. I'm scared about that too--that all the Catholic blogs I admire will find that place where I explore spirituality and think I am being flippant or cruel or sacrilegious when I don't mean it that way at all. I am confused, scared, and very, very much trying to do what is right. God bless you and thank you for reading this--I understand if you do not post this, but I would still appreciate prayers--I know you are kind enough to pray for me even if I am a blasphemer. I will keep you in my prayers as well.

Of course I'll pray, but I also need to say something

Lent isn't a contract, it's a time of prayer and fasting in preparation for the Resurrection. God isn't looking down on us with a giant microscope to see who stumbles with their Lenten promises to add to His list of naughty kids, that's not how it works and your priest is wrong. It's human to mess up sometimes, especially with promises as extreme as yours. Thankfully, God is merciful enough to not condemn us for it. Now, I do believe the devil can use moments when we stumble for his own gain, but we can stop him by not feeling discouraged and continuing on as best as we can. Media has made the devil out to be this scary, unmovable force, but he's not. He's a weenie

I really like this quote from an article I once read on Grotto Network

If you have fallen away from your Lenten practice, there’s no scorebook where you’ll be penalized. It might be a good time to re-evaluate what you are committing to and why, and to listen for ways the Lord might be leading you in a new direction. In Lent, we remember Jesus who himself fell three times en route to Calvary. And three times he got back up and continued on. In Lent, as in all seasons, Jesus is our companion and guide. No matter how perfectly we’ve executed our Lenten disciplines so far, it’s never too late to continue to walk with Him toward Good Friday and Easter Sunday.

[ave-immaculata]

Hi. I am messaging as many Catholic blogs as I possibly can for spiritual help--I don't know if this is offensive. I don't mean it to be--I honestly, I try my very best to be a good practicing Catholic--but life gets very confusing. Anyway, I've been absolutely failing at every aspect of this Lenten promise, and I am terrified God is going to hurt me or hate me or punish me or just let something like that happen--that is not to say God is vindictive--He isn't; I'm just being very evil by making a promise to God and then not sticking to it. I've been getting mostly positive signs, but I am afraid that I am interpreting them that way out the selfish desire to be good and loved by God and not because He is actually pleased with me. I know this is complex problem. I know if you find the side blog this is from that it is going to be filled with non-canonical thoughts and desires and takes on God. I don't do it to be disrespectful--I love the Church with all my heart. I never wanna leave Her. So, if you do find it, please don't be mad or think made this out insincerity. I'm just scared and life and maybe the afterlife is throwing things at me at a much more advanced speed and understanding than I am prepared for. I would talk to my local priest, but I have caused trouble in the Diocese before, and I really don't wanna drag those people back in or my current priest or my family and I don't wanna be humiliated again. So, all I am asking for is prayer. Just pray for me.

{{{{Lenten Plans from the Universe/The Messiah/The Golden Timeline (02/13/24)

Okay so basically, here is the plan--handed down through divine intuition or signs or whatever gave me the information--I trust the information source--so here's my spiritual cleanse for the 40 days:

3 days of (as close as possible) no sleep--72 straight hours--then 2 days of regular sleep schedule for the next 40 days

40 days of no more than 1200 calories every day

40 days no spend (outside of food and bills)

40 days (at least) of no medication (exception--Excedrin Migraine but only in extreme situations...)

Increased prayer/communing/sign reading

***I want to be clear that this is something that I am doing for my own spiritual cleanse and enlightenment and enrichment and etc; I'm not advertising this as a responsible or safe or anything--this isn't a recommendation--you're welcome to join me in an attempt but consult with your own support system including mental health team.***}}}

I'm sorry this is so long. I'm sorry for being confusing or weird. I hope you are having a blessed Lent and I hope that you are given many blessings for praying. God Bless and thank you.

I will absolutely pray for you. I also want to add, despite what I'm about to say, that I get the worry you're describing about God punishing you or letting something bad happen as a consequence. I experience that kind of thinking, and even though intellectually we know that's not how God operates, it doesn't necessarily make it any less stressful. Any practices or penances that are amplifying those concerns are not drawing you to God and are not good.

Your series of Lenten devotions, in my opinion, were always going to be failed. These are collectively (individually, even), stricter and more difficult than most religious people (monks, nuns, etc., not just people who practice religion) would take on. I would sincerely recommend considering lessening your observance for the rest of Lent and discerning these sources pushing you towards them with renewed skepticism (especially using Ignatian discernment, which I can describe more if you like). Especially concerning (outside the penances), is "sign-reading." I don't doubt your sincerity or love for God, but I don't know that, given your worries and anxiety, this is going to be fruitful or draw you into a deeper communion with God.

God will not try to trick you with confusing signs or threaten you for not being able to keep up with this. God isn't going to ask you to stop taking prescribed medications as a penance. Let your your love for Him and His Church be the foundation of the remainder of Lent; your desire to please Him is delightful to Him. Read the Scriptures and dwell with Him.

I obviously don't know the situation with your diocese, but please consider speaking to one of the Priests about this.

[sig-nifier]

21, 23

21 - a piece of my writing that i liked, but had to cut

i actually don't keep drafts of my writing, so i normally only have the finished product. (i also never edit fics, what i post is usually the first draft and i'll reread it once, fix any mistakes and go eh good enough) having said that, i do still have a line from make you feel alive that i never included

"John believes that if you're most likely to be shot down and killed everytime you do your job, you have to make the most of the time you have.

Gale would agree, but he'd also argue that a man is less likely to be shot down and killed if he flew like a sane human being.

Bucky doesn't see the fun in that."

23 - a piece of my writing that was inspired by a work from another medium (music, visual art, dance, etc.)

i nearly wrote my uni disseration on a series of conversations with an alien, where the alien learns about life on earth. it was going to be about really simple or broad things like birthdays and standing in line and that kind of thing, but i only ever wrote one conversation. it was about friendship, and it was heavily inspired by the 1986 film stand by me.

(i was going to post just a snippet but honestly i really love this and someone should get to see the whole thing)

The alien arrives on his doorstep, suitcase in hand, and says; “I’ve come to learn about humanity.”

Friendship

I never had any friends later on like the ones I had when I was twelve. Jesus, does anyone?

“Well?”

The alien is sat cross legged on the floor in front of the TV. A mug of tea – teabags had been fun to explain – is clasped snuggly within their six fingers. “I’m not sure I understand.”

“I – what’s there to understand?”

“This is a well-loved film among your people?”

“It’s a classic, yes.”

They turn from the television screen to look back at him. “A classic?”

He waves a hand, wafting through the air to try and locate a better definition. In the end, he simply settles on; “well-loved.”

“But why? What’s the message?”

“Films don’t always need a message – but this one, I suppose, is about treasuring friendship, or something like that.”

“Treasuring friendship.”

“Appreciating the friends that you have, yes.”

The alien shuffles (rather badly) to turn their body away from the screen and face where he sits on the sofa. Tea sloshes over the edge of their mug, but if they notice they do not show it.

“And what is the purpose of a friend?”

“Well, that’s…hm. The purpose of a friend is to be a friend. It’s sort of a broad but simple term.”

“What do friends do?”

“They spend time together, for one.”

“Why?”

“Because they enjoy each other’s company.”

“But what’s the point?”

“The point?” He sighs.

“What do you gain?”

“You gain their friendship. That kind of is the point.”

“But why?”

An alien, it occurs to him, is sometimes no more than an exasperating child. Their innocence is so pure, their lack of knowledge something to be defended, and yet it is every parents wish that their child would grow wise fast, with the outcome being that they never again have to hear the phrase but why.

“Because it’s nice, having someone who you have no real loyalty to – hanging out with someone you like just because you like them and share some kind of mutual, unspoken promise that you’ll keep on liking them for no real reason other than you just do.”

The alien considers this, tapping an uncomfortably long finger on the side of their mug, and he prays to whatever God he doesn’t believe in that their next words won’t be another question.

“Are we friends?”

Well. That was certainly unexpected. He supposes caretaker would be a better word, but the alien is looking at him so expectantly and hopeful.

“Yes, of course we are.”

The alien seems pleased.

“Does it make more sense that way?”

“Yes, I think it does.”

[ha-youwish]

This is not a vent post, it’s a book recommendation and self-analysis kinda. Please consider reading this, I won’t blame you if you don’t.

Last year around this time, my granddaddy passed away. Usually, online and in formal spaces I would call him my grandfather, but that’s not what I call him and I will not limit myself for this post.

Last year around this time I was beginning my second semester of college ever. I was not doing so well. My grades were low because my attendance was abysmal and my work outside the class was shit. However the previous semester I had taken a class that I was able to stick around for more than the rest.

This class was studying how different major religions and cultures coped with death and how they thought of the afterlife. I bought the books for that class with financial aid and never read them.

Just now I got done reading one of the books, When Bad Things Happen to Good People by Harold S. Kushner, never read it until I found it sitting around today.

It’s a relatively short book, under 200 pages, about how Kushner deals with the question “Why do bad things happen to good people?” from his place as a rabbi.

Now I don’t have any sort of relationship with god. i’m not strictly atheist or anything but i tend to believe in whatever religion people want me to believe in if they ask me to pray for them or a family member.

when grandaddy died, i had nothing to fall back on. granddaddy was extremely religious and generous, i am so incredibly grateful he was involved in my life and there for me. but people from his church said it was a part of god’s plan or that there was a reason he passed when he did and when i was in such a low state at college already.

i moved away to college and the landlord sold my home. i was in an unfamiliar uncomfortable place where the only place i felt fully comfortable was now completely inaccessible. my mom moved in with grandaddy and took care of him before he passed. it was tense. he was kind but old and stubborn and so is everyone else. the drain of taking care of someone can be worth it, but that doesnt mean its not there.

i was, and am, dealing with severe depression surrounded by other gloomy people who didnt make it much better. i never went to class and i had, and have, crushing guilt that i was wasting the time and money of my family.

and then granddaddy went to the hospital. and then he died. and its unfair.

all of it is unfair, and if it was a part of gods plan then hes fucking unfair too.

now, i have not necessarily moved on. my fingers shake still if i think about it too long. i dont even know if im going to post this because of how exposed and raw i feel. but its important to me that somehow in some way this gets expressed and that someone other than myself will read it.

your suffering was unfair, whether it was a lot or a little. the world is unfair. we all know it. i hope you know that you will never be able to look into the eyes of someone who has never known suffering, and i hope you can find some comfort in that connection.

this book is from the point of view from a religious man. it talks a lot about a god i dont believe in. but the way it talks about suffering and how it effects people makes it helpful for me to parse my own feelings and thoughts.

so feel free to replace god with whatever you want, with humanity and spirit and the universe and everything good. here are some quotes, alt text included:

- sometimes i convince myself that what i feel is nothing more than chemicals, that the regret i feel from not driving home the day before and visiting before he passed was just something my mind is doing.

i once stayed up late at grandaddys house after he passed and i was shoved right back into school like my life hadnt just gotten its shit rocked.

my mom was in her room asleep, but i really couldn’t take it anymore. we stayed up late just talking through how we felt after i had cried to her. and to be completely honest, hearing that she had regrets and wished for just a little more time fucking sucked. knowing the people around you are going through it sucks, even if it was to be expected

but we connected over that long early morning. we resolved almost nothing. i felt the same as i did before and granddaddys still dead and buried. but it was easier to go on after that.

another quote, a tldr if you don’t want to read the book but want to understand what he gets at, in the end of it all.

i dont think i can forgive other people for being unfair, not without effort. but i think i can forgive the universe because the unfairness is proof that people have choices. shit happens, you choose what to do after it.

for a lot of people, mourning and religion bring them the strength to move on, as he talks about in the book. things dont get better because of prayer that god will fix everything or the universe will set itself right again or you can escape through fantasy books to another world,

they get better because something gives us strength to get up again and keep moving. to kushner, thats god and people who came together to support him. to me, i dont know yet, i dont know if i’ve really started to pick up my life yet. but i think this book helped me start to see the bigger picture

[itsyourchoicedevotionals]

Too Much Information

“…When the woman saw that the tree was good (suitable, pleasant) for food …to be desired in order to make one wise, she took of its fruit and ate; and she gave some also to her husband, and he ate… …they heard the sound of the Lord God walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and Adam and his wife hid themselves from the presence of the Lord God…” Genesis 3:6, 8AMPC

Our text is the fall of Adam from being the ‘god’ over this earth into slavery to sin, and TMI— Too Much Information. What would life be like, if they’d never discovered evil, and calamity? If the conversation between Eve and the talking snake had never occurred? Had Eve never bitten the fruit and then given it to Adam? Life without evil and calamity is what I’d call very close to, if not heaven on earth.

Sin happened. They fell, taking every generation of mankind down with them until the end of time. God knew sin was going to come, taking over planet earth because He knows everything. Revelation 13:8NLT “…They are the ones whose names were not written in the Book of Life that belongs to the Lamb who was slaughtered before the world was made.” Knowing the end from the beginning, God knew sin was coming; that He had to put His plan into action pre-creation. His plan of redemption included Jesus being born of a virgin, born to die for our sins and be raised from the dead.

Why did Yahweh come looking for Adam and Eve? Was it to spend the evening with them? They’d already sinned and He knew it. He could’ve just written them off and said— ‘experiment failure.’ Yes, Lord God desired the company of these delicate creatures He had created and loved. But I believe his visit went further than a desire to be with them. It was already clear, sin had changed things. God came into the garden that evening to rescue man from an eternity with evil without reprieve. Genesis 3:24AMPC “So [God] drove out the man; and He placed at the east of the Garden of Eden the cherubim and a flaming sword which turned every way, to KEEP and GUARD THE WAY to the TREE OF LIFE” (emphasis mine.)

Imagine with me— because you couldn’t die: —having cancer, suffering, maximum pain desiring for it to go away and it couldn’t or wouldn’t leave you? —being wounded by bullets, in an auto accident, excruciating unending pain? —having people bully you and abuse continuously? —doctors trying experimental surgeries and medications knowing these might hurt you, make you suffer? —whatever unendurable situation you’ve found yourself in would last forever?

No one would be born again because not even Jesus Christ would’ve been able to be crucified for us, proving God’s character is good and loving. He created us because He wanted to have relationships with each of us, to love us, to help and care for us, not send us all to hell.

Forbidden fruit had already given us too much information. LORD God didn’t want us to live in the state of evil forever. Just thinking about the love He showed us amazes me.

Every time satan comes around with His twisted truths about God’s character, we can tell him— ‘No God protected me and cared for me from time’s beginning. He’s the good and loving God who wants us forgiven, healthy and whole.’ Or we can fall for the lies. It’s your choice. You choose.

LET’S PRAY: LORD God we praise You for being the One Who first loved us. Thank You for caring for us. Help us to relate Your character, love, kindness and mercy to others, in the name of Jesus Christ I pray.

by Debbie Veilleux Copyright 2024 You have my permission to relax this devotional for others. Please keep my name with this devotional, as author. Thank you.

[hoshi-y]

How Tsukasa became the Reader's bf please?

A Night To Remember

genre : Fluff

characters : Yugi Tsukasa

TW : None

A/N : HELLO I'm not gonna include Tsukasa's murderous, chaotic, and very loud nature in general, So that way some people wont think that Tsukasa just forced you into the relationship no, we need soft Tsu too 😞

I also name some of my one shots my song titles/chorus 😍

I HOPE YOU ENJOY 💗

New banners people 😱

I was scared that you wouldn't love me back..

Tsukasa was known for his outgoing and very cheerful nature

He wasn't too loud nor too rough on people

Its just, him

He didn't notice you at first cause of how extroverted he is

always having conversations with people left and right

And not to mention he was quite popular

both twins were popular, his older brother was known to be the captain of the soccer team

and he was the captain of the volleyball team

and not just that, he has alot of girls lining up for him

"Yugi-san my best friend said she likes you!!" A group of girls shouted from across the cafeteria as their friend shrunk in her seat

"Oooooo Tsukasa another girl likes you~~~" Fuji coed hold his hands together while making kssing noises

"Can't believe you get more than Amane—" Amane smacked Yamabuki with an empty plastic bottle with an irk on his forehead

"Be quiet."

He didn't mind it

but it did bother him

just cause he has a very outgoing nature doesn't mean he can't like to be alone

he can't get any peace and quiet for once without people popping up out of nowhere and starting a conversation with him

He tries his best to find areas where not alot of people like going in to

And he thought of the library

he walked in, checked in from the front and tried to avoid any group of people possible

But the only available seat was where you were seating

but you had headphones on signaling that you didn't wanna talk to anyone

Even with headphones on, you heard a chair squeak beside you making you look up from your laptop to see a boy with choppy black hair and amber eyes

he froze and suddenly let go of the seat "Oh, sorry I'll go find somewhere else—"

"Ah no, it's alrigth" You point at the seat he took out and went about your business not minding his or whatever he was doing

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"So.. like.. what's your name?" You looked to your side and saw he scooted closer, man he also looked really eager to talk to you

you were never really good with conversations but, you're gonna pray to every god out there that it won't end with an akward silence or this faithful day will you haunt you forever

"uh.. my name is [L/N] [F/N].. whats yours?" This guy infront of you looked a bit shocked, maybe you said something wrong?

"You... don't know who I am?" He pointed at himself making you tilt your head in confusion "No.. I don't know who you are.. I'm sorry if I don't"

"D-DON'T BE" He quickly covered his mouth as few 'shh' and 'be quiet' were heard throughout the library "Sorry, It's just I've been around alot of people already and you.. are kind of the first person to not know who I am.."

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"Is that a bad thing?.." He shook his head excitedly as he extended his hand out to you, you looked at his hand and back at him

"My name is Yugi Tsukasa, I hope we can be friends"

a little backstory on how we met Yugi Tsukasa

after that day, he stuck to you like glue

usually you'd hang out by yourself cause you don't like being in crowds of people

but surprise surprise the once quiet and joyful time being by yourself at lunch

turned into you sitting in a big round table with loads of people

"Guys this is [L/N] [F/N], I met them at the library!!" Tsukasa introduced you to his friends while you gave a small wave

"What were you doing in the library Tsukasa-kun?" a girl with silver to teal hair asked

"Don't ask—"

You were scared that some group of girls will come beat you up cause you were hanging out with one of the prince of the school

anyone and I mean ANYONE would die to be in your position

you mostly didn't utter a word and kept to yourself until you finished your lunch

"Awww [L/N] You're gonna leave already? Stay a little loonggeerrr..." Tsukasa held onto your uniform making this sad puppy eyes at you... well you had to secretly admit he looked kinda cute..

You sighed and sat back down and Tsukasa immediately jumoed back to his cheerful nature, you honestly didn't know why he liked having you around so much

Your once quiet and calm schedule turned into alot of hangouts with him and his friends

mostly him

but you did enjoy them, you didn't have alot of friends back then and you were very thankful he came into your life

and he was also very thankful you came into his

Days turned into weeks and into months

you two went from being strangers to glued-together best friends is that even a thing?

You two were NEVER apart not even once

He loved how much you warmed up to him

those akward single conversations turned into long ones

all that hardwork of him nagging you to talk finally paid off

and he gets to see that beautiful smiling face of yours..

Tsukasa shook his head with a slight blush on his face

'Why am I thinking of [F/N]..'

He got up from his bed and went to the bathroom splashing water on his burning face, He looked at himself on the mirror while his hands gripped onto the sink

His heart was beating fast, he was giving out cold sweat, and not to mention his burning face

this kind of behavior of his started 3 weeks ago when you and him decided to hang out at the cinema and went out for a night walk around the park close to your house

the way your laugh sounds so sweet, your cute smile that he'd give his best jokes just to see it, your beautiful [E/C] eyes that he wants to get lost in, not to mention he wants to hug you so tight that he.. wait a minute.. don't tell me—

"I'm falling for [F/N].." Tsukasa muttered, he slowly walked back to his room, closed the door and laid back down

His heart wont stop beating so fast, he clenched onto his shirt and tried to think of something else

but whenever he tries

his daydreaming always leads him to you

it was monday finally

and Tsukasa was excited that ever making his brother wear sunglasses in the morning because of how bright he is

"geez.. whats gotten you so happy at 5 in the morning.." Amane yawned as he grabbed himself a cup of coffee half awake

Tsukasa didn't walk to school woth his brother

he sped walk to school

it's not like him to be this so excited to go to class

but you made him the reason to always want to wake up happy in the morning

Tsukasa walked into the campus and saw you from afar changing your outdoor shoes, he walked faster and slid beside you to change his shoes too

"Oh, goodmorning Tsu, you look really happy—" That nickname you gave him has him going CRAZY, but he kept it cool and just smiled "Mmmm I don't know!" He changed his shoes and waited for you

"geez how did you change your shoes so quickly—"

He has been acting strange around you the past week

Was he planning ong pranking you?

nah the last time he did that you scarred him for life

But this weird behavior of his was bothering you

and you wanted to ask him about it

But you didn't wanna overstep any boundaries so you waited until the perfect time

You and Tsukasa waited and anticipated for this day to come

It was finally the Tanabata festival, and they made it even better this year than last year

You decided to go their in costume wearing your Kimono/Hakama, fixed your hair, and went off to meet up with Tsukasa at your usual meeting place

Tsukasa was as excited as you were and wore a Hakama, He was sitting down on one of the benches looking at messages on his phone waiting for you

"Tsu! sorry if I took too long it was so hard trying to walk faster with these slippers.." He looked up from his phone upon hearing your voice and almost dropped his phone

You were drop dead GORGEOUS.

Making his heart beat faster than a horse

"So, do I look alright? this is my first time wearing a Kimono/Hakama" You straightened any wrinkles while you waited for Tsukasa's reply

But you were met with silence

"Tsukasa?" He snapped back to reality and had a slight blush on his face, but he was thankful it was kinda dark you wouldn't see his blushing face

"Yeah I'm fine! Let's go I heard the line-up for the Tanuki Stalls are getting long" He held your hand and you two ran

Your heart was beating fast because of running

But his were beating fast because of your intertwined hands.

When you two got there there were alot of people already, and it was just 7pm

I guess they stuck around in the afternoon to get a headstart

You started shaking Tsukasa's arm and pointed to the Tanuki stall

"TSU TSU THE TANUKI STALL DOESN'T HAVE ANY LINES"

Tsukasa finished his in a flash and even offered to do yours

he just wanted more to do lol

You were so focused, you had both your hands on the tanuki scraping the outlines with a serious face

Tsukasa found it cute and secretly took photos of you

"I can hear your camera shuttle Tsukasa turn that off.." You caught him off guard whichhe didn't panick and gave you a closed eye smile

"I'm taking selfies dearest~"

"LIAR, ypur phone has one of those cameras that come up when you take a selfie!"

You two did another run around the festival

trying out games

Tsukasa won you ALOT of prizes by the way

You tried to win him something but you failed miserably

But he said it was alright, he said he wanted to try out something else and he'll win something for him

After all that running around trying out different stall games and collecting tags, you two were really hungry and decided to eat before heading to the bamboo trees to hang your tags and to watch the fireworks

Fireworks scare you a bit cause it was so loud, but you enjoyed in nonetheless

I mean if you did Tsukasa is wide open for business you know what im saying aha

okay I'll stop...

You and Tsukasa finished your food and threw away the boxes in a nearby trash bin

While you were finishing your orange juice, Tsulasa tapped your shoulder and showed you the tags they collected with a big smile

"We collected all of them [F/N]! I really wish my wish could come true" He gave ypu your tags as the two of you start heading towards the bamboo trees to write and hang your tags

they say that when you collect all 10 tags and hang your wish on the bamboo tree, the gods will read it and make it come true.

You two wrote your wishes on a nearby table and once finished you two hung it together

"What did you wish for Tsu" You tried peeking at his tags but he blocked your curious eyes "You can't look or else it won't come true!" He said still blocking the tag from your vision

you sighed maybe your curiosity will come in someday if his wish DID come true "Alright fine, anyways the fireworks are about to start, let's go find a place where it isn't too crowded they always step on my foot.." He nodded enthusiastically, when he went ahead first you turned around and looked at his tagged hung on a bamboo branch

You really did wanna look at what he wished for but you swallowed your curiosity and jogged to catch up with Tsukasa

Tsukasa found a really nice area on a small hill with not to many people around, He brought out a blanket from his bag and set it down patting the empty soace beside him, you sat down and made yourself comfortable and eyed the many people trying to find a place

"They look like ants from here" You said watching everyone trying to find a place to settle before the fireworks come out, Tsukasa chuckled at you "Don't you hate ants [F/N]?" You nodded

"Hey Tsukasa, I have a question.. and I've been curious about it for awhile now" He stopped eating his chocolate bar and gave his full attention to you "What is it?"

"Why did you want me to become your friend? I mean, you're the most popular guy at school, anyone would die to be in my position right now.." Were your curious or just insecure that he can talk casually to people and not you?

"Well.. being popular can be tiring too, always having people by your side left and right, I cant get a break. I never wanted to be popular to begin with, its just ever since I joined the volleyball team and became the captain that's where it all started, alot of them wanted to be my friend but I didn't know if they REALLY wanted to be my friend or just use me for popularity.. " He hugged his knees close to his chest as he rested his chin ontop of knees looking at the sky

"You.. were the very person I met that felt kind of weirded out instead of getting this overly excited face when you saw me sit down at your table, I was also really relieved that you didn't care who I was nor didn't care for my status.. and that's where I knew you wouldn't stab me in the back like anyone else"

He really trusted you, he really did, He told you all his secrets from minor to major to dark cause he knew you wouldn't tell anyone else, He told you about his problems and helped him get over it instead of having dry responses that can't help him recover

Not only that, He entrusted you with his heart and you've taken care of it for all the time he has been with you

and he thinks it finally time, to have this conversation with you

"Tsu look they're putting the timer for the fireworks!" You pointed at one of those big stadium jumbotron with a countdown for 2 minutes

Tsukasa didn't have much time but, these things are slow countdowns right? He has to do it.

"Hey um, [F/N] I have to tell you.. something" For the first time in his life, he has never felt this nervous at all, he was always so confident of things but this? it just went down to negative one

You turn to him with an excited look on your face waiting for the count down "Sure what is it?" He gulped, It's like everything became hot all of a sudden

'You can do this'

Tsukasa can't trust his own mind at the moment when it said 'he can do it'

like what if he messes it up?

"Tsu?" You furrowed your eyesbrows, he was shaking and this is the first time you've seen him this nervous looking "Tsu.. don't force what your gonna tell me.. I can wait you know"

"N-no I want to tell you this now I'm fine" The first time he stuttered

You held his hand reassuring him that you can wait, But this action you just did just made his heart beat 10x faster

He inhaled and exhaled and gave you a more serious look

"[F/N], These past few months with you has been absolutely incredible a-and.." There he goes again, stuttering, His heart was beating faster than ever he might even have a heart attack

He heard you giggle as you held his hands close "You were gonna tell me you like me huh?" He blushed furiously and nodded shyly "how did you find out.."

"Well captain obvious, actions speak louder than words you know, and you have been acting awfully weird these past few weeks.. so I put two and two together.. and led me here.."

He was scared.. Like really scared, it was okay to him that you reject him and go on about your life but what if you reject him AND end your friendship with him cause you thought it was weird?

"The annual fireworks will start in 10 seconds!!" They announced, the crowd went wild and started counting down

10

"If you're thinking that I'll reject you Tsu.. I wont cause.. I also have feelings for you.. And I was as scared as you thinking that you might reject me" You looked at him almost tearing up

"But I guess I was wrong.."

9

Tsukasa pulled you a little closer and held your face in his hands "who won't fall for you?.. You're very cute and your humor..god it makes me crack a smile everyday, not to mention you're so smart and talented in every way.."

Your heart skipped a beat when he inched a biy more closer

8

"There was never a day.. that I wouldn't stop thinking about you, [F/N].. You never failed to make my heart race, your smile, your laugh.. Everything about you.." He held your hands tenderly

"I love you everything about you.."

7

You were tearing up already, no one has ever shown you this much affection to you in a long time, cause ever since you were betrayed in middle school, you never ever tried making friends again

But everything changed when you met him that faithful day

6

Tsukasa gently wiped your tears away "I am very greatful that you came into my life, its like you have permanently changed it.."

"I'm thankful you came into my life aswell Tsu.." You let out a giggle as he placed his forehead on yours

5

Tsukasa chuckled, hearing you laugh because of him made him so happy "Well then, can I court you [F/N]? I know you aren't ready for a relationship—"

4

"Who said I wasn't?.. I'm ready Tsu.." Tsukasa was about to explode, he was so happy right now, words can't really describe on how happy he is

"So.. [F/N], Will you.. be my Girlfriend/Boyfriend?" Your held back tears finally came gushing out, you nodded your head yes over and over again

3

Tsukasa and you stood up with the most biggest smiles on your faces, he held ypu on your waist and lifted you high in the air twirling you around

You giggled as he set you down, he hugged you so tight "I'm so happy.. that you're finally mine.."

2

You wrapped your arms around his neck as he held onto your waist, He glanced down to ypur lips and you already know what he was craving for

"You can go ahead Tsu, What kind of S/O would I be if I didn't let my boyfriend kiss me?" He inched in closer and closer, while you closed your eyes he chuckled "Cute.." He mumbled and sealed the gap between the two of you

1

As soon as your lips crashed into each other, the fireworks shot up in the air as people around cheered at the fireworks, all of them were having the time of their lives

But You and Tsukasa? well, you two had a romantic kiss, under the lights of the fireworks, If a photographer were to shot this beautiful moment you two wouldn't mind

This day was truly a night to remember forever, who knew a simple hangout to the festival would pull both your feelings out for each other

GRRR THE CONFESSION SUCKS I NEED REFERENCE FOR FIREWORK CONFESSIONS

Fun fact : The day I got this request, I was supposed to post it the same day BUT I forgot I suck at making confessions, So I would take some parts oit, replace something, squeeze another sentence here, It's been a week now oml 😞

[docholligay]

Epsiode 10: Taissa (and van)

Hello! This is about up to Episode 10 of Yellowjackets, and ONLY episode 10 of Yellowjackets. I have not seen beyond the first season, at all, and know NOTHING about this show. Please do not spoil it for me.  Things that are spoilery in nature, for me, include: saying things like  “Just wait!!” confirming or denying anything I put forward, outside information about the cast interviews or creator statements, leading questions like “Do you think “blank moment” means anything?” etc. Remember  that Y’ALL HAVE SEEN THE SHOW AND I HAVE NOT. This informs the way you  talk about things relating to the show. Just be really careful is all  I’m asking. Also: If there is LITERALLY any stance I  could take on this show or character that would make you upset, please  just fucking block the tag

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I do think, like Tai, that Van’s little foray into following Lottie’s weird religion is stupid, and I mean that in the kindest possible way, like Tai, I understand t hat she went through something horrifying and is desperately clinging to whatever she can find, and also trying to make herself the wilderness’ favorite (too bad, Lottie is already the wilderness’ favorite). But I’m interested in what this means for Van, and specifically what it means for Van and Taissa because fervent faith can make people do strange things. And Lottie does not have Laura Lee, whose faith was coupled with kindness, something that is not in Lottie. We’ve seen that Lottie can be a meanspirited bitch just like most people, and so if she has this power, and this faith, and if Van is following her so closely, what will she do, and how far can Taissa possibly follow her? 

How can Taissa take Van wanting to fucking pray to Lottie or whatever because the bear came in? How can Taissa take her offering up hearts on an altar? How can she take the way that her girlfriend has now become the kind of person that could very easily be in thrall to every little thing Lottie does--if she survives, i wouldn’t be surprised if she’s still Lottie’s right hand woman--and no longer the girl that Taissa loved? It’s easy to say that her finding religion makes her no differnt, but it does, it absolutely does, and I can’t see Tai ever really getting full bore behind the faith in anything other than a pragmatic way. “Just make it quick, olkay?” oh girl you are about to be in so fucking deep with this. Van is forcing call and response. She’s sacrificing at altars. 

AND THAT’S HOW THE FUCK YOU END UP MURDERING YOUR DOG I knew she did it, i knew it, I am happy to be right, always, but yeah, this is how you get dragged into a cult, is by letting your pussy lead you when your girlfriend has a near death experience and loses her mind. I think I’m supposed to love Van more than I do love Van? Anyway. 

And for me saying all that, and thinking Van is a fucking moron, and I do, even if forest god is real, Van is also right that Tai has no clue what’s going on out here, and is just dealing with it in her own Taissa Turner way. She’s going to reason her way through it, and keep going, and she’s not going to sit around thinking about some weird power that might or might not be out there, and even if it is fuck it. 

I love that Taissa’s arc is her becoming a leader, is her gaining power, and we immediately see that there is something ugly underneath it, there is a raw joy in the having of power, and I love that for her, I cannot wait to see that play out. 

[childofchrist1983]

Thou hast proved mine heart; thou hast visited me in the night; Thou hast tried me, and shalt find nothing; I am purposed that my mouth shall not transgress. Concerning the works of men, by the word of thy lips I have kept me from the paths of the destroyer. - Psalm 17:3-5 KJV

Can you or I confess the same to God as King David had done in this Bible passage? Can God look into the deep recesses of our hearts and say that He is pleased with what He finds? For many of us, myself included, the answer is both "Yes" and "No". Some days, God would find us worthy and other days, not so much!

Even though my words are not violent, I can't always say the same for my thoughts. Most days, my actions are in line with Jesus' law of love and then there are the days when I slip up. There are times when I have not done the things that I might have done. Times I don't take advantage of the opportunities that God sends my way bother me. Someone's name pops into my head and I forget to call them or pray for them depending on what their situation is. A friend calls and I am in the midst of something – maybe as unimportant as watching television, and instead of shutting it off, I only give half an ear to the friend. I don't want God to give me half an ear, so I shouldn't do the same to someone I call a friend. It is often easier to avoid intentional sinning. It's harder to avoid sinning by omission. But, let's look at the intentional sinning...

Are we always honest? Or do we sometimes hedge a little by not telling the whole truth? Is our speech always kind and pure? Or do we sometimes have a foul tongue and also voice our problems with another person a little too often? Unfortunately, it is often our bad habits that trip us up. Sometimes, we are too willing to believe that "if everyone else is doing it, then if must be okay". Well, there are too many people who walk this world and in their sins and not by God and His Holy Word and Spirit. There are too many people who believe that prejudice and immoral behavior is okay. If we want God to try us and find nothing, then we need to reexamine our behavior and fix whatever we find. Although we keep trying to do what God wants us to do, there are always things that we regret and for which we need God to forgive us and strengthen us. No matter what the days may bring us, we thank Father God Almighty and the LORD Jesus Christ for His continuous love, mercy and patience and grace.

Thank God for His strength and guidance when we are faced with sin. Thank Him for His mercy and grace. Through Bible study and prayer, God reveals His wisdom and guides us to see opportunities to grow closer to Him and grow spiritually. He gives us direction to live our lives according to His Holy Word and will. We must make God top priority everyday! May we be motivated to spread God's Holy Word and Gospel Truth to all the Earth, knowing that it is the only hope of all those lost in their sins. Let us not hold out a false hope for men to be saved without the Gospel, but instead, strive to do our part to get the Gospel out to a lost and dying world.

Leaning on Father God Almighty and the LORD Jesus Christ through prayer and His Holy Word and Spirit strengthens us and our knowledge and wisdom about God and His Gospel Truth, exposing these imposters. May God help us to seek and lean on Him daily to gain the strength, wisdom and spiritual discernment needed to expose Satan and his imposters who seek to destroy us and God's ultimate Truth. Everyday, we must remember to share Jesus Christ's Gospel Truth with the world and to thank Father God Almighty and the LORD Jesus Christ for the grace that He poured out for us on the cross at Calvary. He has freed us from the burdens of sin and from the eternal damnation of Hell. In all we say and do, may all praise, honor and glory always be given to Him and His Kingdom of Heaven.

With renewed minds, hearts and wills, let us serve Him humbly and faithfully out of pure love and grateful rejoicing. May He remind us of His presence and to remain at peace, fully knowing that all will be well because He is always with us. Let us seek Father God Almighty and the LORD Jesus Christ today and everyday with all our heart and being, looking for His love, light and will for our lives with each step we take. Let us seek to please Him with our thoughts, words, and deeds and seek to advance His Kingdom of Heaven and His glory with our lives. Let us seek Him from a pure and humble heart, and when we so seek, we believe Him and His promise that we will find. May He help us all to be more sensitive to the teaching ministry of His Holy Word and Spirit, relying on Him and allowing Him to speak to us and guide us every step of our Christian journey.

God gave us the Holy Bible - His living and Holy Word - to let us know of Him and His abiding love and care as well as guide and prepare us for all our lives. May He help us encourage one another as we continue our walk with Him and our duty to Him daily. Thank Father God Almighty and the LORD Jesus Christ for being present for all our new beginnings and all our lives. May He redirect any anxiety we feel as He provides countless opportunities for growth and change. May we humble ourselves before God always, asking Him to forgive our sins and make our hearts and lives anew through His Holy Word and Spirit. May He help us make Him and His Holy Word top priority, so we can grow spiritually and grow in our relationship with Him as we apply it to our daily lives. Thank God that we can focus on Him and everything about Him, for that is what keeps us sane and at peace. May our words and actions always be a reflection of Him and His Holy Word and Spirit and will.

May He help us to always walk in His grace and Holy Spirit, not by our own measure. May He give us the humble humility to know that our freedom and eternal salvation is found only in Him, so that His grace may sustain us, and we may never lose sight of His love and light and mercy. Thank Father God Almighty and the LORD Jesus Christ for calling us to Him and to serve Him. May He equip us to do all that He has called us to do so that as He works through us, He may use us to produce fruit, to reach others, and to encourage all brothers and sisters in Christ. May He work all of these things in us and through us for His Kingdom and His glory. Thank Father God Almighty and the LORD Jesus Christ for all His creation, for His miraculous ways and for everything He does and has done for us! Keep the faith and keep moving forward in your walk with Jesus! He loves us and He knows what is best for us. Seek, follow and trust in Him - Always!

Thank Father God Almighty and the LORD Jesus Christ for His Holy Word and for sending His Holy Spirit so that we might have His grace, not only to awaken us and transform our hearts in our spiritual rebirth and guarantee our eternity with Him, but to also call upon Him whenever we are in need. Thank Father God Almighty and the LORD Jesus Christ for all the reminders of His love and mercy and faithfulness within His Holy Word. He is bigger than any challenge or circumstance in our lives. Knowing this within our minds and our hearts, nothing can deter our faith in Him and His Truth. May we all accept Him and His eternal gift of salvation and ask that He would transform our hearts and lives according to His will and ways. Thank Father God Almighty and the LORD Jesus Christ for His Holy Spirit who saves, seals and leads us. May we always thank Father God Almighty and the LORD Jesus Christ for His almighty power and saving grace. For He is our strength, and He alone is able to save us, forgive our sins and gift us eternal salvation and entry into His Kingdom of Heaven.

May we make sure that we give our hearts and lives to God and take time to seek and praise Him and share His Truth with the world daily. May the LORD our God and Father in Heaven help us to stay diligent and obedient and help us to guard our hearts in Him and His Holy Word daily. May He help us to remain faithful and full of excitement to do our duty to Him and for His glorious return and our reunion in Heaven as well as all that awaits us there. May we never forget to thank the LORD our God and our Creator and Father in Heaven for all this and everything He does and has done for us! May we never forget who He is, nor forget who we are in Christ and that God is always with us! What a mighty God we serve! What a Savior this is! What a wonderful LORD, God, Savior and King we have in Jesus Christ! What a loving Father we have found in Almighty God! What a wonderful God we serve! His will be done!

Thanks and glory be to God! Blessed be the name of the LORD! Hallelujah and Amen!

[frnajdi]

How can I stop sinning? I repent but then I go back to the sin again. I am too ashamed to even make tawba after breaking my repentance every single time. Please give me any advice or any lecture to listen to and pray for me 🙏🏼😔

Salamou alaykum, before continuing, please note that these are just my humble pieces of advice and nothing worthy of mention. To really gain insight and seek help, I’d firstly recommend speaking with a scholar if you have access to one. Secondly, whether or not my advice below is helpful, I would suggest reading this essay by Shaykh Mohammad Ali Shomali:

Additionally, Shaykh has a book called Self Development which includes several essays to the same effect as the one above that should give an even more comprehensive look into the issue of purifying and developing oneself. He has many lectures on the topic as well on youtube, but I haven’t watched them myself to give you a specific link. Forgive me.

You’re in my prayers and your struggle is not yours alone… more common than you think. Even if it isn’t a sin, we all have habits that are disliked by Allah swt. We’re flawed and we’re weak and we’re forgetful but Allah swt is Perfect in His Mercy. We have to turn to Him because He is all we have. Truly and literally, all we have. So put all your hopes in Him. He will fill the gaps caused by our imperfections. It is the precise feeling of that shamefulness that I humbly think causes Allah swt to look at us even more closely and with an even more merciful gaze.

Of course, going back to a sin after having repented for it, especially when it becomes a cycle is disliked by Allah swt. There’s no doubt about that, however that does NOT mean He stops guiding you and helping you. But it’s just that now, what will you do in this position? Will you give up and say it’s of no use? Or will you try again? And when you try again inshallah, what will you do differently to ensure success?

A few practical ideas:

Start each day writing down “ I will not commit the sin of….” Say it out loud as well. Perhaps read a quote or hadith that helps you stay out of trouble. An effective one might be this point by Shaykh Bahjat (ra) when he says, “If we do not stop ourselves from committing sins, we will end up denying, belying, and mocking Divine Signs, or we may reach a point where we will become hopeless of God’s mercy.” (really reflect on these words, subhanallah. Shaykh Bahjat is implying that hopeless in God’s mercy is worse than all the things he mentioned, even worse than the sins themselves.)

Hold yourself accountable if you slip and fall. Pay a penance of some kind. It could be a chore, or a difficult workout, or a promise to fast. Whatever it is, it must be something difficult.

[intimate-reaper]

Devotional commentary and rambling

"Jesus was completely interested in those forgotten, overlooked, oppressed. We can’t escape it. So instead we join it. This means that to Be Human, we put action to our conviction to follow Jesus ... Justice is standing up for someone who cannot stand up for themselves."

I feel forgotten by the other communities I'm a part of.

I feel the urge to apologize for things out of my control. And that's so ironic because I'm not supposed to, right? That goes against bpd, anxious attachment, codependent recovery. The truth is everything - leftism, queer spaces, mental health spaces, whatever - act like they have these values but I'm not included in them for no reason.

When I started seeing "nomaps dni" I understand it more clearly. It doesn't actually matter *what* I do. So why would I try to gain your approval?

I have things I care about. A limited number of attention span units if you will. I mean obviously one of them will be the welfare of minors and youth. Not only because I believe in sublimation but because I was one and we were all. That is the basis for any human rights is how we treat the youngest "beginner" humans. And this is unfortunately the group losing rights, like in the USA where the children's bill of rights isn't even ratified, it's just.. disgusting. And overwhelming for someone who only recently found a house after hotels/being kicked out.

But what's even more overwhelming is that it's the same answer to this question.

"What is one thing that distracts you from the Father?"

Probably the people who tell me that I deserve to kill myself or be institutionalized/imprisoned for life just for existing. No, most of us don't need "intensive" therapy to not be rapists. I simply don't rape people like anybody else?

"It feels like work to read the Bible, pray, worship, or even go to church, so we stop. When we do, we get even more spiritually malnourished. We must choose to invest in our spiritual comeback even when our feelings are screaming for us not to.

We never have to earn God’s love or acceptance with our actions. Anything we do to stay on course spiritually is just to grow closer to Him. To get out of our spiritually dry season, we do the things we’ve done when we were in a healthy season. Because when we do that, we’ll eventually fill back up."

And how I already knew that.

"In your dry season, what role have your feelings had? Have they dictated your faith or were you allowing your faith to govern your feelings?"

I'm just aggressive. I feel too mad at everybody and God to pay attention. I don't feel heard. I want to know that my anger is allowed to be a part of me for the time being. Even if it's temporary. And it should be. But just acknowledge that I'm angry. Please. I am. Say you see me and that I'm angry.

"When you are struggling spiritually, what is the first spiritual practice that you tend to neglect? Commit to God that you will continue to spend time with Him even when you feel He’s far away."

I don't moderate my language anymore. I insult myself and others. I act petty. I cuss a lot.

"Where can you be responsible for showing kindness as an unexpected response?"

I DON'T WANT TO BE KIND TO PEOPLE WHO WANT ME DEAD so CAN I PLEASE compromise with just ignoring them?

Is the unexpected response still being kind to myself?

"Sin’s first fingerprint upon people was shame."

"Fear is the primary motivation that rages and burns in the human heart and is behind many evils that people commit... Many Christians also live in fear that they may do or say something that will offend God. But when we are reconciled to Him, we have a restored relationship with God. Our fear is replaced with confidence in God-given acceptance. We were not created to live in fear."

[cassandralexxx]

...

You know the drill when I have nothing and a cut its going to be my should be diary level rambles that I should probably go to therapy to examine instead of publishing to the internet (ie meant to be ignored)

I don’t know why it is so hard for me to confront the fact that I will never be married in the eyes of my God. like I keep trying to find excuses or work arounds or reasons that that wouldn’t be so. but I am a Lesbian. I can no more be attracted to a man than I can do any number of impossible things. Idk. I was thinking about this because many things but today I was thinking about how I probably should go to confession again soon. Because its been several months and the last priest had mentioned that I should go to confession monthly (still something that is sticking to me). But like in a Catholic confession if you don’t confess to all your sins then your confession is invalid because if you aren’t truly sorry and aren’t truly trying to repair your relationship with God than why are you even doing all of this yknow? So I was thinking about what I would need to include and idk if it would be right for me to mention *drum roll please* that one church group that i haven’t gone to this semester. because I lied about how busy I am to get out of attending. and lying is a sin. but ofc when i go to confession i don’t usually detail scenarios but it wouldn’t be a full confession if i didn’t confess to the gravity of that. but also i think i’m quitting the group in total. so like... even though i am sorry am i truly that sorry if i would do it again for fall? but also! i am genuinely going to be busy this fall. so much to do with extracurriculars, classes, and such. anyways this is so off topic but yeah idk i just thinking about that reminded me to the first time I had come out to someone,, summer after my sophomore year of highschool and it was at confession at a well known catholic summer camp. I say this every time the priest was very kind and whatever but he also told me that I should pray the rosary every day until I stopped being confused. and idk how to take that. idk how to internalize that and accept it. i’ve also mentioned that another priest absolved me of the daily rosary thing but like it is still so ... I often wonder how this one friend of mine would react if i ever talked about my struggle with faith and sexuality. like idk if I mentioned that last spring I signed a lil contract stating that i would not engage in relationships counter to the church in order to be in attendance of a book club for other queer catholics it feels so insane to say to think. and like if we ever think about doing so or do do so tell the leadership of the org. like ikd it distresses me I know her reaction would be akin to wtf yknow. like there is no chance it goes over well. because of that i don’t know why i am so fixated on that then. I have mentioned my lack of joy over my sexulity to my other friends before but not very frequently because it feels so embarassing. like i think last january at my friends bday me mentioning i was gay was brought up because one of my friends would always forget and be like “oooh“ when i was around a guy. but anyways in that moment i said something along the lines of yeah no unfortunately i’m not straight. another time fall 2021 ig was talking to my then roommate and I verbatim said “If I could choose I would be straight“, like that is such cringe loser behavior fr like i only remembered about it because girly pop posted about it on her sc story at the time saying that quote her roommate said what i said which like ugh bad. and like its just so bad memories that i said that out loud. and also just me last year telling a girly ik that i’m not really comfortable with my sexuality and would prefer if she didn’t like broadcast it like it is just idk. its so lame that i can’t get over this. because i never know which side i’m falling to when i say get over this. like some times when i want to get over it i want to turn to God and have Him take away this struggle and then others I’m like my God will love me anyways and even so I don’t want to deny myself forever. i’m a mess. I am constanlty flip flopping between wanting to be true to myself and wanting to push it way down. it was 2021 when i realized that being gay meant that i wouldn’t be married in the eyes of my God. I cried to myself as I lay in bed at night when I realized that. I had known I was gay for like 2 years and it was only then that it truly hit what that meant for my future. I was never the kind of girl who pictured my wedding but now i wonder what it would be like if it ever happened. it would’t be in a church and i’m not out to my dad right now so I wonder if he would walk me down the aisle. i think one good thing is that at least my father has already seen me in a “wedding dress“. (for context my senior year of high school i was a debutante for my city and debutantes wear white dresses and mine was an alterred wedding dress,, like it was gorgeous). anyways the concept of not being married is so sucky, like not being able to be i mean like in the eyes of my God i mean. like i comprehend the vast socioeconomic and legal protections and benefits normal marriage has but like i’m speaking religosity here. and it sucks because i think its right. like i would be kinda like idk if thats right if they did start having gay marriage in the church and isn’t that shitty. like damn. I turned to that one church group and church as strong as i did this past spring because i was hurting. i was hurting so much and i thought only in the prescence of God could I be helped. but now i’m sad for different reasons and idk. every one of these just has me thinking i don;t know i don’t know i don’t know. I used to think about the song “i can only imagine“ rather frequently. like the whole “will i stand in your presence or to my knees will i fall will i sing hallelujah will i be able to speak at all.“ and its like rgis much doubt makes me feel so doubly worried of being worthy to exist in His prescence. anyways this is all so dumb and just rambles from someone who doesn’t know what to do with her life. I make plans and form ideas that are contradictory in the hopes that the right one will rise to the top but that is never what really happens. circling back to marriage though i’m thinking about that one quote from the book from Jae like the i think second book after backwards to oregon and how Luke tells their daughter what it means to be married and what it is to be married even without the legality of it bc lilke the whole she’s a lesbian thing. idk that quote hit. i’ll have to look through the book for it later and post it on my blof lmao. anyways signing off this was a bit incoherent and yet id still say rather telling.

[dailyaudiobible]

02/26/2023 DAB Transcript

Leviticus 19:1-20:21, Mark 8:11-38, Psalms 42:1-11, Proverbs 10:17

Today is the 26th day of February welcome to the Daily Audio Bible I am Brian it is great to be here with you as we greet a brand-new shiny sparkly week. And before this week is out we will…we will greet a brand-new shiny sparkly month. That is where we find ourselves in the year. I can't believe we are already…well…let’s not get ahead of ourselves, but we are about to greet the third month of the year. Didn't we just start this year it feels like? But here we are day by day step-by-step, the next step forward together. And that next step will lead us back into the book of Leviticus. We’ll read from the New International Version this week and today Leviticus chapter 19 verse 1 through 20 verse 21.

Prayer:

Father, we thank You for Your word. We thank You for this brand-new week, all shiny and sparkly and offered to us as a gift to live, have life, and enjoy fellowship with You and one another. We thank You for this week. We ask that You lead us on the steps that we need to take and on the choices that we need to make. And along with the psalmist we pray, as the deer pants for streams of water, our souls pant for You, our souls for You, the living God. It is Your presence that we seek every moment of this week that we might be awake, alert and aware that You are always with us, that You are always leading us, that we just need to pay attention. Ans, so, help us Holy Spirit to slow down and pay attention, to consultant wisdom, to allow Your Holy Spirit to lead us in the way that we should go. Come Holy Spirit into all of this we pray in the name of Jesus. Amen.

Community Prayer and Praise:

Hi, my Daily Audio Bible family this is Work in Progress. I have kind of an urgent prayer request for my daughter. My daughter over the last few years has really struggled with I guess mental illness and it's led to some very dark paths for her including drug addiction, which she's gone through treatment for, but her life has still been a mess and she's destroyed it. And the other day about a week ago we got a call from her, and she had said…she had said that she had been raped. And…and we just got a call from our other daughter who…who said that she has spoke with her sister and she's afraid that she's being trafficked, which is kind of like the thing I was afraid the most would happen. And anyway, we can't reach her, we don't know where she's at and I'm really afraid for her. You know growing up she…she loved God's word. She used to listen to Daily Audio Bible. So, she has God's word in her but she needs help and she needs healing, like real healing. So, if you would please pray for her. Pray for her safety. Pray she's rescued from whatever she's experiencing and also pray for justice for anybody that's hurt her. Thank you, family.

Hello DAB this is Kay from Ohio I want to pray for Kevin who called in I think it was the 16th or 17th of February but he said he was just getting divorced from his wife three weeks ago and he's just worried about his kids, his house, what is he gonna do from here on out. And Kevin I'm speaking from experience, it's hard. It was hard. I didn't know which way to turn. And I knew God, but never did I draw closer than I did at that time at the hardest time of my life. God drew me in, and I had no other choice but to trust Him and to do His holy, divine will. And He showed up. So, remain faithful and know that God has it all in His hands. God bless you.

Hey there dabbalamma family this is Dare Dreamer in Indianapolis just wanted to give you guys a little prayer encouragement. Gonna pray for three people hopefully if I can in my words few. First of all for the son of Tanya who…whose friend Melissa called in from Albertville on the December 5th podcast. Just wanted to lift her friend's son up and for the spouse who left him, just please and blessing over him. As a …yeah…as a  __ he took some hits and deals with mental health problems. And yeah, so many of our veterans have to keep fighting on in that way so it's one of them in prayer. Lord I…actually I just want to also pray for…for Delta Echo Fox…Foxtrot. I can say that…down in Texas for his boss, may his boss find comfort and peace in you, yeah, God. And lastly for our lovely lovely sister Radiant Rachel who is so kind to pray in for us all the time. So, Lord cover all these people. Let them be blessed in You, let them receive You and abide in You and find everything in You that they need. I pray this all in your name. Amen.

Hey this goes out to From Junk to Treasure. This is Micah in Awe in the Kansas City MO area? Sister do you know who you are on the Lord? You're so important to the Lord sister. I've heard you pray for so many. I've heard you bless so many and encourage so many. Satan doesn't like it. He's trying to mess with you. Remember who you are in the Lord and remember that life is full of valleys and mountains, springs, summers, falls, winter. You're in a winter period. You'll come out of it. Things will get better, and I know you know it. I know you believe, and nothing could take that from you. But I am gonna ask, Lord we ask for deliverance Lord. She's looking around, she's looking from which way her help will come. Lord ride into this situation like a mighty warrior. Destroy the enemy with a simple breath and laugh at her enemies Lord. Destroy anything that would cause a decrease of peace and joy in her life Lord. Just bring that peace back. We need our sister strong, blessing, and encouraging others lower like she was, and she still is. But we need her strong and we need her happy for that Lord. She's a strong prayer warrior and You know it Lord. You know her faithfulness in Your kingdom, and we just ask for some peace in her life and deliverance for all the things that are going on. Her family Lord, let her family be blessed because of her, because of her love for You Lord. Let it…let it reach into her grandkid’s lives, her daughter's lives. Just bring about peace in all the different ways. Send the angel armies to guide her family Lord and start bringing them into the truth of who You are, the grandsons, and just bless her Lord in Jesus’ name I pray. Amen.

Junk to Treasure this is God's Life Speaker. I am going to talk, read, and pray through Nehemiah 4. Prayer through hard patches is what I call this chapter. The enemy will taunt us. Pray. The work will be hard and even discouraging. Pray. Verse seven says the breaches began to be closed and it angered the enemy. The enemy will heat up. Pray. Verse nine says but we prayed to our God and because of them we set up a guard against them day and night. Set up a guard and pray. Verse 13 is talking about exposed places to gather and keep your faith. It says then I stationed the men at the lowest parts of the space behind the wall, the exposed places. And I stationed the people and families. We’re your family. With their swords spears and bows. Pray. And in verse 14 it says do not be afraid of them. Remember the Lord who is great and awesome and fight for your brothers and your sons and your daughters and your wives and your houses. Rally up. And verse 20 it says our God will fight for us. God will carry on. All we need to do in verse 21, so we carried on the work with half of them holding spears through the dawn until the stars appear. Heavenly father the DAB family is gathering around from Junk to Treasure. In the name of Jesus, we come at her finances, we come at those relationships, we come at the things that are just knocking her down. Lord we ask in the name of Jesus that you lift her up above these things. Amen.