#im not putting a readmore for Reasons. sorry

[ha-youwish]

This is not a vent post, it’s a book recommendation and self-analysis kinda. Please consider reading this, I won’t blame you if you don’t.

Last year around this time, my granddaddy passed away. Usually, online and in formal spaces I would call him my grandfather, but that’s not what I call him and I will not limit myself for this post.

Last year around this time I was beginning my second semester of college ever. I was not doing so well. My grades were low because my attendance was abysmal and my work outside the class was shit. However the previous semester I had taken a class that I was able to stick around for more than the rest.

This class was studying how different major religions and cultures coped with death and how they thought of the afterlife. I bought the books for that class with financial aid and never read them.

Just now I got done reading one of the books, When Bad Things Happen to Good People by Harold S. Kushner, never read it until I found it sitting around today.

It’s a relatively short book, under 200 pages, about how Kushner deals with the question “Why do bad things happen to good people?” from his place as a rabbi.

Now I don’t have any sort of relationship with god. i’m not strictly atheist or anything but i tend to believe in whatever religion people want me to believe in if they ask me to pray for them or a family member.

when grandaddy died, i had nothing to fall back on. granddaddy was extremely religious and generous, i am so incredibly grateful he was involved in my life and there for me. but people from his church said it was a part of god’s plan or that there was a reason he passed when he did and when i was in such a low state at college already.

i moved away to college and the landlord sold my home. i was in an unfamiliar uncomfortable place where the only place i felt fully comfortable was now completely inaccessible. my mom moved in with grandaddy and took care of him before he passed. it was tense. he was kind but old and stubborn and so is everyone else. the drain of taking care of someone can be worth it, but that doesnt mean its not there.

i was, and am, dealing with severe depression surrounded by other gloomy people who didnt make it much better. i never went to class and i had, and have, crushing guilt that i was wasting the time and money of my family.

and then granddaddy went to the hospital. and then he died. and its unfair.

all of it is unfair, and if it was a part of gods plan then hes fucking unfair too.

now, i have not necessarily moved on. my fingers shake still if i think about it too long. i dont even know if im going to post this because of how exposed and raw i feel. but its important to me that somehow in some way this gets expressed and that someone other than myself will read it.

your suffering was unfair, whether it was a lot or a little. the world is unfair. we all know it. i hope you know that you will never be able to look into the eyes of someone who has never known suffering, and i hope you can find some comfort in that connection.

this book is from the point of view from a religious man. it talks a lot about a god i dont believe in. but the way it talks about suffering and how it effects people makes it helpful for me to parse my own feelings and thoughts.

so feel free to replace god with whatever you want, with humanity and spirit and the universe and everything good. here are some quotes, alt text included:

- sometimes i convince myself that what i feel is nothing more than chemicals, that the regret i feel from not driving home the day before and visiting before he passed was just something my mind is doing.

i once stayed up late at grandaddys house after he passed and i was shoved right back into school like my life hadnt just gotten its shit rocked.

my mom was in her room asleep, but i really couldn’t take it anymore. we stayed up late just talking through how we felt after i had cried to her. and to be completely honest, hearing that she had regrets and wished for just a little more time fucking sucked. knowing the people around you are going through it sucks, even if it was to be expected

but we connected over that long early morning. we resolved almost nothing. i felt the same as i did before and granddaddys still dead and buried. but it was easier to go on after that.

another quote, a tldr if you don’t want to read the book but want to understand what he gets at, in the end of it all.

i dont think i can forgive other people for being unfair, not without effort. but i think i can forgive the universe because the unfairness is proof that people have choices. shit happens, you choose what to do after it.

for a lot of people, mourning and religion bring them the strength to move on, as he talks about in the book. things dont get better because of prayer that god will fix everything or the universe will set itself right again or you can escape through fantasy books to another world,

they get better because something gives us strength to get up again and keep moving. to kushner, thats god and people who came together to support him. to me, i dont know yet, i dont know if i’ve really started to pick up my life yet. but i think this book helped me start to see the bigger picture

[gay--dog]

ive seen the button on the left around a lot on furry websites & i decided to make my own version,, mostly just did it cause i was bored :P

my version is f2u no credit needed (as usual). and i dunno about the original, but considering i dont know; its probably either f2u or no one has ever credited the original for some reason lol

[good-beans]

Well, Milgramblrgram, you have spoken! This is what you wanted, wasn't it?

I've doled out my judgement on Nott, Kyanako, and Waivy! You can rest easy knowing that I took care of everything 😌 And I do believe there was something else that you all voted in favor of, hm...?

You are very welcome, Wardens! I look forward to continuing to be a team 🐺

[menlove]

i saw on some of your posts that you say you aren’t an india truther, out of curiosity what do you think caused john and paul to have a fallout? do you think the resentment was more gradual and happened over 68-69? im sorry if you’ve answered this before but i love hearing about people’s theories of what happened in india and the aftermath.

sorry I totally forgot to answer this but for me.... hm. tossing under a readmore bc it got long oops

I think it was more gradual. like the way they act w each other in the get back sessions & just in general speaks more to something more unspoken happening than some big dramatic break up or rejection, at least to me. esp given how john & yoko lived with paul for a while in the summer of 68 (and talk about the world's worst throuple)

I wouldn't say I don't think Anything happened in india, but imo it seems more like.... I saw someone talking about how up until that point they were all on a lot of drugs & india was them getting off them for a minute & they sort of looked around and went "what the fuck are we doing? do I even know these people?" and that rings the most true to me I think.

some of the bigger reasons I have my doubts abt india being some huge thing where they fucked for the first time and paul rejected john are a) they still got along after that. things were weird but not much weirder than they'd been after brian's death b) paul wrote "i will" in india and I've talked before about how I'm 100% convinced that's about john and to me "will I wait a lonely lifetime, if you want me to I will" doesn't sound like the words of someone about to do any rejecting c) the infamous blowing the mic scene in get back is way too lighthearted and makes paul blush and giggle like they're just referencing fucking as a part of their relationship that happened enough to not be disarming. doesn't seem like john is being bitter or trying to egg him on and paul isn't reacting like someone that got called out for fucking john and then rejecting him. it reads more, to me, like just two lovers slyly joking around about a time they fucked that no one else can know about

which brings me to d) I'm also a "they had a sexual relationship" truther (which would be a whole other essay tbh) and so For Me Personally that just doesn't jive w smth big and dramatic happening in india. I just don't think they ever talked about what the fuck was going on between them, whatever it was, and then the typical band breakdown reasons coincided w a breakdown of their personal relationship as well. like just sort of dying out without much fanfare which can honestly be worse than some big rejection or breakup. and then ofc john goes full in with yoko and paul flounders around trying to settle down with a woman and marry her in such a weirdly frantic way. like that quote where he asks if he was supposed to be a 26 year old queer that never got married....... I would wager, imo, that things breaking down w john & then jane would've lead him to a bit of a Crisis about all that. but he found linda and went all in w her and she wound up pregnant so there you go.

which would lead them to a really weird place by the get back sessions, which I at least feel like is reflected pretty well- this awkward tension, paul's nervous desperation, nostalgia for the old times, lingering sexual tension. but not the attitude like they hated each other yet or had some big breakup or rejection. they're still joking and flirting, it's just awkward. the Big Moment would've been something else after that imo, probably john announcing he wanted a divorce but could've also been something more private that would go a long way to explaining why they were basically not on speaking terms at all by the abbey road sessions

again this is all Purely Speculation. mostly based on my more conflicting view from the fandom at large that they did have a sexual relationship and paul isn't as repressed/clueless as he puts on. so w those Two Beliefs in mind, this is sort of the trajectory that would make the most sense to me!

of course, without those two Core McLennon beliefs of mine I can see why people would point to india as the game changer if they think paul is a repressed bisexual who thinks he's straight while john pined over him. like it would make sense in that scenario if that's where the tension snapped & it was just a mess after that. but I very firmly and adamantly don't believe that so it's just hard for me to see the india theory as anything solid when there's a lot of other explanations for why india was such a shitshow

but all that is just me personally! don't have shit to back it up beyond what I can bring up about the evidence of a sexual relationship and paul being closeted that then lead me to these speculations based on that but yeah lmao

(and fun fact lmao whenever we publish it this is gonna be like half of the story of "i need you" so yall will get to see my fully baked opinion there mixed w just what I think would be fun or angsty dbshsjss)

[ratsplendor]

Begging you to forcefem James wilson (if you want to)

would u believe I already have a running slideshow in my head of scenes for this eventual fic 👀 idk if it really falls under like full-on forcefem or if it's more sissification?

below is a list of some of them. nsfw, so ive put it under a readmore. u get me...

the premise tho. is House very much seeing the Vision + pushing boundaries the way he usually does, + Wilson being reluctantly into it

being handed lip gloss that probably some hooker left at House's by mistake. "just try it i wanna see if you look like a girl sucking my dick, you'll like it"

by some series of events tht i have not fleshed out, he ends up wearing thigh highs and garters to work under his slacks and these r like. nekomimi gf-style socks. im talking the classic pastel e-girl stripes. Chase peeps them ankles and goes "nice socks" cue flusterment

there is a lot of "you do x like a girl" + House calling him a "princess" in a very derogatory way. in public

i have envisioned this scene where everyone is a bit drunk. maybe at a bar somewhere. & House either walks up to random young women or perhaps just straight up...Cameron and goes "don't you think my twink malewife would look so cute in makeup" abd basically leverages Wilson's inability to not let women fawn over him to get that boy in a full face of it (and then go home and rail him by various means. & not let him wash it off, it's all coming off naturally or not at all baby)

painting his nails in his sleep 4 fun & profit :)

this scene may end up being like. a separate fic on its own. but like ok maybe it's fine House wants him to wear the frilly garters 4 sex reasons. but wait oh no isn't the point to take his clothes *off*? why is he putting on more clothes? (stockings underwear h ey hang on a second where did this Dress come from??) sorry can't hear you protesting there loverboy, the corset's too tight i guess :) it's supposed 2 feel like that.

& he's like What are you doing i didn't sign up for this bUT. House is just being so sweet? & House is never sweet but he's clearly having so much fun for whatever fucking reason, and just in general being so goddamn nice and doting on Wilson so. ok. Wilson will let him put on the eyeliner. ...& the bow in his hair. just this once....

"oh nooo i don't want to be a girl i hate when you call me that" oh yeah? then why did you cum the second House called a handjob "rubbing your clit." inquiring minds want 2 know

that's it...the bits & pieces. hope u enjoyed :)

[momo-shut-the-fuck-up]

Hi, sorry if this is random, but I keep seeing your LM posts and your male style characters are so???? pretty???? they literally look perfect! Ive been trying to make a more male style character in LM but i cant for the life of me figure out how to make it not look weird and uncanny. could you tell me your tips and tricks?

Not random dwdw. Isa long post cuz i cant help but yap, i shall put it under readmore. EDIT DID I FORGET THIS POST IN MY DRAFTS. DAMN. soz

I wish i could give u specific tips, but 1. Idk how ur guy looks like so idk how to fix him and 2. i generally try to aim for basic "male" features. Narrower hips and wider shoulders, thicker arms (his wrists are fuckin massive cuz u cant individually adjust the size of the models biceps/forearms, but he looks weird with the thinner arms, so i just live w it... they look worse from other angles just trust me bro)

U prolly already use this but just in case, turn on the 'advanced' thing in the corner, so u can actually do more things. It was life changing when they added it frfr lol

The changes in some sliders are super minute, but if ur like me and love fuckin about w sliders for 7 hrs, it should b fine lol (exclusive lil styling i never posted here just to make the left image smaller, ignore him. Oh actually, it would b good to note that yes hairstyle matters, but makeup too. Lots of eyeliners/eyelashes make ur avatar look much more feminine and weird. I try to go for eyeliners that turn downwards, for example. I have some favorites, I can share em if ur interested)

For the face itself, i made the chin wider (no sharp chins here no siree), mouth and nose as wide as possible (yes thats how wide it goes. I keep tryin to makeit wider u cannot. Sob.) and the eyes

I actually redid him a bit since downloading to my pc, but guess what? I can't save shit on pc version :)) i need to hound customer support about it..

<- og, new ->

Made his eyes a bit smaller and higher up, pupils smaller too, mouth more downturned. One thing i rly wanted to focus on is the 3/4th view cuz he had that weird dip in his cheeks and whenever i took pics it pissed me off... I'm much happier w him on the new ver but i cANT SAVE HIM GRRAHHH anyway this aint even a tip im jus complaining

Other small things that really help, thicker eyebrows, smaller + higher up eyes, thicker neck, longer face. More pronounced browbone as well, within reason. When tryin to make a guy in a game that only rly expects you to make girls u gotta pull out all the stereotypes yk?

It's very much a product of me doing the exact same minute tweaking in my own art, so i have an eye for making it balanced. Don't b scared to use reference if u cant figure it out. Usin asian idols or actors would help, bcs the models in this game are based off beauty standards in asia... u aint ever gonna b able to make a western lookin girl, let alone a guy. (I tried to make my black friend in here..... hella hella hard, only rooooughly resembles her pfft)

Lastly, It took me a long time to actually get to this point. As i said, i keep tweaking him to this day, change things that i didnt notice the first time, or if i changed my mind about others..... play around w stuff.

I would give u my guy to dress up if u want, but i legit think i cant anymore since i moved to pc.... as i said i need to go hound the devs.... but ur free to use him as ref if u want.

(also, add me in game perhaps? I'd love to have more male avatar enjoyers in my friends list lol)

[redadm1ral]

haiiii!! it has been so so so soooooo long since I was in the loop about Moira and Joseph so im sorry to throw you so many questions but I would love to know the answers to 1, 6, 11, 15, 19, 24, and 26 for Farley/Joseph or Farley/Moira, or both if you're up to it, or a mix!

HIIIIIII EMMA HIII ILU I MISSED U...I almost never talk about Joe and Farley on here so I'll focus on them first <3 I will also answer some of these for Moiralock, but Amina sent me an ask with some overlapping numbers, so I will hold off on answering those for now :>

(also I think soooo much Joe lore has changed since last time we talked about him together? I remember he used to be Serkonan and I think older than Farley, but now he's Wei-Ghonian/Tyvian, born in Dunwall, and around the same age. Joseph Woodrow era is over it's Josef Vlasák now wheeee!!!)

let's get into it! gonna put this under a readmore bc it gets LOOOOONG lol buckle up!

Farley/Josef (Joelock)

What are things they both find funny?

Okay right off the top of my head, these men grew up in the armpit of the Old Port District and the Navy is, among other things, brutal and bloody (before we even get into the Insurrection), so they have wicked morbid humor, though Farley's humor is darker than Joe's. Also they're very easily entertained by slapstick humor RIP Joelock y'all would've loved America's Funniest Home Videos.

Also forgive me for I have Master and Commander on the brain but I think Farley is capable of dropping some pun bombs...Farley vc you're completely dished…do you not know that in the service…one must always choose the lesser of two weevils? 🤨 Farley is always deadpan about it too (he is the master of sarcasm and delivering jokes with the straightest face imaginable) and it stresses people out which Joe does find funny as hell. They're both all about clever wordplay, not just puns, but Joe is the master at it out of the two of them (and I think Joe and Moira can go toe to toe).

What is/are their love language(s)?

These men are attached at the hip lmao, quality time FOR SURE. They're a super physical couple too. Joe especially, he's all about casual (and not-so-casual) touch. He likes swinging his legs over Farley's lap if they have the opportunity and when they're in private he likes to be alllll over him. Wrestling is their love language too I fear, those boys love to tussle. Fuck a night out on the town, just give them some good alcohol (or other substances, I'm not picky), a good audiograph to set the mood, and a room alone and they'll wrestle their way through that date straight into bed.

(Okay but they do love a night out on the town though...shore leave before they got married always went crazy. Okay shore leave after marriage goes crazy too but they don't really go to brothels anymore LMAO they're faithful husbands.)

What causes them to fight?

They rarely do because Joe has Yes Man Syndrome and it's terminal. But when they do, it's usually because Joe has an objection to something Farley does or wants to do (usually something he finds immoral or just outright fucking crazy), and Farley doubles down and browbeats Joe into going along with it or staying out of the way.

What are traits they dislike in one another?

Honestly I think Farley views Joe as weak; Joe is more kindhearted, sensitive, and desperately craves the approval for others, to the point where he will find someone to look up to before he acknowledges the potential and strength in himself. He does not have a lot of confidence, though he's very good at pretending otherwise, and this makes him a perpetual follower in Farley's eyes. (And a worse man, but Farley would not voice that thought to Joe.)

Conversely, I think Farley's ruthlessness disturbs Joe at times, and it's part of the reason why he ends up leaving the Navy; it's hard for him to reconcile the two versions of Farley in his head (the childhood friend and lover, and the ruthless and even at times sadistic Naval officer who brings home blood-soaked prize money, some of it of dubious origin). It's not enough to make him leave Farley. Very little is enough to make him leave Farley, actually (which is part of why Farley views him as weak), so he deals with it by shutting his eyes and seeing only the parts of Farley he wants to see.

Ironically I feel like both of these traits are also things they like and envy about one another. Farley sees Joe as weak, but that same sensitivity and kindheartedness that makes him a weak-willed man also makes him incredibly gentle. Joe has a very soothing and easygoing presence. Conversely, Joe sees Farley as someone very strong and reliable, someone who's always willing to get the job done no matter what. Some of his outward confidence is an attempt at emulating what he sees as confidence in Farley.

If they could each write a single line in their marriage vows, what would they be?

Oh God man this one is so unintentionally angsty to me bc they never could in the canon timeline! man fuck 😭 They are a Ride or Die couple so I think their vows would have that kind of vibe, so something like:

J: "My northern star, from the ends of the Earth to the depths of the Void, wherever you go, I will follow."

F: "You are the light of my sun, the blood in my heart, my joy; wherever we go, we'll go together."

What is something they have each had to forgive the other for?

Moira dying fucks Farley up bad enough that he abandons his kids for like, a year (or at least tries to; I'm still on the fence about whether he successfully goes to sea or has his arm twisted into staying home with his family a little longer). This, of course, puts a massive strain on his relationship with his children (a strain his relationship with Matthias never recovers from), and it's Joe who has to stay home and deal with that. He sees how badly it messes up the kids, and while he and Matthias in particular were always close, Farley's negligence drives Matthias to him even more. It puts Joe in the position of having to step up and play second father to his friend's son, to the point where Farley starts to get resentful because he can tell Matthias likes Joe more than he likes his own father.

Joe is…honestly, really disappointed in him. And he's not all that surprised when Matthias and Farley wind up estranged. But he keeps pushing forward with Farley because, well, that's his friend, and sometimes tragedy will tear a family apart. Perhaps that's forgiveness, perhaps that's enablement. I'd say it's both.

Pivoting from estrangement, this is probably super petty in comparison but Farley is noooot happy when Joe decides to leave the Navy. Like wtf man I thought you were ride or die…despite his distaste for it, Joe really did have a lot of potential as an officer, and they make an amazing team. AND they were in it from the beginning, so Farley was expecting them to be in it together until the end. But it's kind of hard to stay angry at a man who just wants to sell candy and chocolate for the sake of seeing people smile, and Joe's trade connections come in handy, so after some time Farley finds it in his heart to forgive ^-^ He should probably do something about his relationship with his son-

What are their favorite parts about physical affection/sex?

I think the big thing for the two of them is, they've known each other for so long that they can slot together very easily. They grew into their sexuality together (they were each other's first experience with someone of the same gender), and a lot of their sexual exploration is done as a couple. They're working on a level of intimacy and mutual understanding that they don't really have with anyone else (except maybe Moira, in Farley's case, but even that's different.)

So they have a very comfortable dynamic. The way they touch each other, the looks they exchange and their body smells and noises and movements all feel like home. And they can be open and adventurous with each other in a way they don't feel they could ever find in another man. Like, if one of them died, the surviving guy would be like that's it. I'm never having another man like this again. It's like how when Moira dies, Farley remains a widower for the rest of his life; no one could be his wife like Moira could, and similarly, no one could be his man like Joe can.

But getting into more specifics. They're both Big, Muscular Men who are also into Big, Muscular Men. They like to roughhouse, especially when they're younger (war wounds that ache deeper every year are not really conducive to Foreplay Wrestler Style), and they love playing with that boundary of physical "violence" (playfighting) and sex. They love straining against each other and measuring each other's strength against their own, the power and solidity in their muscle and the reserves of fat that protect and fuel them. They love biting and being bitten in turn, hands fisting in hair (Joe loooooves when Farley pulls his hair) and lips and hands and thighs taking exactly what they want from each other, and having pleasure taken from them. And while they don't have much of a size difference (Farley at 6'7''/2m, Joe at 6'4''/1.9m, with similar builds), I think they get off on just how big they are and how much weight they're throwing at each other.

Also when they get into kink dynamics, Farley prefers to dom, and he can either be a really mean and degrading dom that will beat the obedience out of Joe, or he can be a more calm and paternalistic dom who guides and coaxes the obedience out of him. (Not a fic with D/s dynamics but if y'all have read The Loyalists Are Not A Cutlery Drawer y'all will know what I mean.) Joe goes crazy for both. And Farley really enjoys seeing how far Joe will go to please him.

Farley/Moira (Moiralock)

What are things they both find funny?

Okay I think Moira is also into morbid humor, but in a different way than Farley and Joe are. I guess to explain it in a weird way, Moira would be fine and enjoy watching slashers and eat-em-ups, but Joe and Farley are the ones outright laughing at them. Most of the time. And like the two of them, Moira loves some good wordplay and is brilliant at it, and she and Farley bounce off each other pretty well comically.

What causes them to fight? + What are traits they dislike in one another?

Rolling these into one because these have significant overlap.

Uuuuusually when they fight, it's over Farley doing some stupid shit. Sometimes he puts his foot in his mouth or acts recklessly in a way that could jeopardize their social standing, and Moira does most of the heavy lifting when it comes to the family's image; she's the one hosting and organizing events and making connections with the wives of the important men Farley wants to rub elbows with! She already has misogynoir and ableism (despite hiding the worst of her disability from the public eye) to contend with in this setting, so her husband making it hard for her by being stubborn and running headlong into shit without thinking is SUPER fucking annoying.

(I'm on the fence about this but I think I've talked about having a scene in Kingsparrow where he gets himself into a duel, and ends up fucking killing the guy. Their reputation does not end up suffering too bad for this—ofc part of the intent of duels is being willing to risk your life, even if the goal is not to kill your opponent—but the whole ordeal takes ~5 years off Moira's life and I'm only halfway joking.)

Farley is of course stubborn as hell and doubles down during these fights. He married Moira because she, for her own drive and ambition, is also more cautious than him and is more inclined to think things through before taking action. He likes this aspect about her, at least normally, but when they're fighting he will absolutely start to view it as anxious hand-wringing or outright nagging. I Know What I'm Doing, Woman type shit. And then she has to remind his stupid ass what he married her for 😭 He does usually come around in the end. Though he's a bit shit at apologies.

Sometimes they will argue (though maybe not fight) over money. Farley and Moira are both pretty good with money, but Moira spends it more easily than Farley, while Farley is more frugal (or I guess stingy XD). This gets on Farley's nerves and he'll fuss at her for it, but she's like AHHH I don't want to hear it. Our finances are fine I budgeted for this. Check the books if you're that concerned. And she Does budget for it and it Is fine but he still grumbles about it. (Yet he loves spoiling his wife with gifts from across the Isles. And those cost money. Curious!)

Also, for as much as she likes Farley's stoicism when it translates positively, sometimes that translates instead into him having the emotional bandwidth of a brick and Moira can't stand that. He does try for Moira's sake, and he can be attentive, but dealing with emotions makes him uncomfortable more than anything and he has the tendency to be dismissive or all stiff-upper-lip when Moira needs him, or when their children need him.

If they could each write a single line in their marriage vows, what would they be?

Ouuhuhhgh my God this Disney ass couple...Okay I actually have trouble coming up with these (some elements of these vows are frankensteined in from other vows I found online RIP) but I think Moira and Farley's may look something liiiiike...

M: "I vow to be your guiding light, your warmth in the darkness, your confidant and your refuge; I vow to be forever loyal, forever loving, and to build our future together; as your friend, your lover, your wife, I vow to be your eternity."

F: "To you I promise my companionship, my protection, my strength and my love; to you, I promise to be always your side in times of need, in joy and in sadness, in sickness and in health; give me your hand, my love, and I will give you the world."

What is something they have each had to forgive the other for?

Okay truth be told I am struggling to answer this question, but on Moira's end…it's not lost on her that the only reason she's in Dunwall to marry Farley in the first place is because of the Insurrection, and the famine that followed. The O'Farrells were one of the many, many families driven out of Morley following the war. She does not let her family stop her from marrying him, and sometimes their objections are silly and outright hypocritical (looking at her father for that one) but she can't argue against all their objections because…yeah. The Empire drove them from their home, and it's the Empire he serves. Do you really wanna marry that man?

From a purely practical standpoint, all their romantic feelings aside, Moira chose to marry Farley because he was a promising young officer who had the achievements to back up his potential, and he had the upward mobility she was looking for. Yeah, he's in the Imperial Navy, and that's what gives him the power in the first place, and the power is what she wants. If you can't beat them, join them.

But that doesn't bring her home back. And sometimes Farley will say something about the unity of the Empire, or something else insensitive or ignorant, usually without meaning to, and Moira will look in his face and see one of the many faces responsible for the destruction of her country, the loss of her home. Sometimes she tells him. Sometimes it's enough for her to say his name or give him a look, and he gets the picture. Sometimes he apologizes. Sometimes she has to argue. Sometimes he comes around. Sometimes they agree to disagree. Or maybe instead he will tell a story from the service, from the days of the war, good or bad, and Moira can't ignore the unspoken reasoning for why Farley was there in the first place. What did it take to preserve the unity of the Empire he loves so dearly?

It's a quiet sort of pain, quiet because Moira buries it, and I think she sees her patience and her willingness to swallow the grief enough seek him out and stay with him as a sort of forgiveness. Or at least, she chooses to see it that way.

[augustheart]

librarians anon reporting for duty🫡 please do share you drawings, i have been furiously scribbling alex drawings and i need to see yours!!! im almost done with s1 and oh boy. i agree, really like ezekiel so far and oh boy what a fun insane little show. also agree, alex mentioned vampires and i hooted and hollered at the simone allusion, cannot wait for more mentions. santa episode crazy. crazy. i found it in my heart to accept bruce "horror icon" campbell as santa so i march on. also i love the insane evil villain and maze (i know the actress from lucifer so she is maze in my mind), truly the campy over the top villain shit that is sooo fun to watch. (also haven't googled anything bc i love to see the crazy things without knowing it's coming so i need to get a vibe check before i run my mouth. jekings and du laq. i watched the eris episode and i was like wait. insanely bitter exes vibes or ????). noah wyle being so employed is tearing the polycule apart indeed but the sheer joy i felt seeing him appear after a few episodes without, truly gave it a sweet taste. character of all time. she is soooo tired and ready to die i love her. i cannot wait for the s4 finale lore drop you alluded to. i am having so much fun it's crazy.

sorry i got so excited answering this ask. i put it under a readmore because i was too hyped.

ezekiel is so awesome. i think we warmed up to him the fastest? i remember we thought it was really funny when he got possessed by the spirit of christmas and then there's more stuff later that cemented him as our favorite guy. we didn't care about cassandra very much, started to enjoy her after all the women in the fairy tale town kept throwing themselves at her, and then she killed that evil kid zero hesitation and we were like okay she's kind of awesome. her first instinct being The Power Of Incredible Violence really endeared her to us and the fact that the show is Aware of how much she pulls women is also charming (haha). i don't know if we ever didn't like eve we just didn't expect to like her. it took us the longest to like jake though. by like a Wide margin. early s2 has an episode with him that made me write 3,700 words (don't read this until you're past 2x03) which definitely put me in the camp of liking him, but he's 100% at his best when he's hanging out with the other two tribrarians (extremely good boost-coined term for their group).

you are experiencing the same thing i experienced because i also avoided spoilers as hard as i possibly could to the point of sending boost to google things so if one of us got spoiled it would be them (which means they did find out what the hell jenkins' deal is before me). jenkins and dulaque are not bitter exes. it is, somehow, more insane than that. and lmao yeah she is also maze from lucifer To Me. i didn't even watch that much of lucifer that's just the way it is. like how whatever his name is will always be sterling from leverage even when he was trying to fuck a horse head in doom patrol.

btw if you liked the transfem energy of the first movie you are going to love the season one finale, and if you think alexandria wants to die now just fucking Wait until you get to season three. levels of suicidality never before seen by mankind. it's awesome genuinely.

the Craziest lore drops* are like. season one finale kind of. early season three. mid season three. end of season three. however. the first episode of season four breaks the craziness scale. it was an insane payoff for us after spending two movies and three seasons asking the same question which you have probably Also asked but i will not name for spoiler reasons. (i know that makes it sound like season two is uninteresting. WRONG season two is awesome they have sherlock/watson/moriarty for Sickos (me) and also leverage actors keep popping out to scare you.)

*there are probably also massive lore drops in the back half of season four but we are only up to episode six in it so no comment on anything after.

here are some of my drawings. Please! show me yours

^ season one, season one again, season two, and season three in that order btw. i may post them again later as well idk. you can tell i like to give alex pins. the one in the fourth drawing is the old multnomah county library logo.

[jascurka]

this is purely out of curiosity and i don't want to send hate your way, but do you ship mob and reigen? and if so, why?

I do, yeah. An ex-friend of mine asked me the exact same question (just more... harshly I think and with what I assumed was prejudice) before they decided to part our ways and I could never properly answer them because I was so stressed by the situation, it was hard to gather my thoughts. So I'll do my best to explain here, hopefully to make myself understood better.

Sorry if this gets lenghty >_< I'll just put a readmore right here.

I think the biggest reason for why I like them is their canon relationship that has been explored in the series already quite thoroughly - that they have changed eachother, helped eachother grow and one wouldn't be the person they are without the other. I think most of us understand the depth of it. Reigen is Mob's teacher and friend, someone like an older brother. There surely is a strong bond between them and they've seen each other at their best and worst and still acknowledged and accepted eachother's flaws. They trust eachother, they would give their life for eachother even (at least Reigen would, he almost did in the finale after all). And I do think that they love eachother but in a way that isn't actually romantic in canon. I'm perfectly capable of realizing that and I value it a lot both in the series and in fanworks (one of my fav works of fanfiction is about exactly that).

It was my curiosity that made me search up a ship fic of them, I was just confused why people ship them in the first place and whether it can be good and I found myself enjoying it a lot (to my surprise). It was set into the future, and dealt with some serious topics like loss and acceptance, it was kind of bittersweet. Then I felt that maybe it was just slightly ooc because all of the serirei fics I was busy reading depicted Reigen slightly different. Nontheless, I had the other ship on my mind then so I never really dived into Mob/Reigen, but it changed my perspective on them a lot.

And at some point into all this I realized, why not? Why can't I haz 2 cookies? (god im sorry that was terrible sfjgsdkj). What I mean is that the buildup canon offers can be taken further - more of their relationship can be explored in terms of new tropes, sometimes romantic too.

On a personal note I'll just add that I'm rather picky about them and tend to stick to fluff, hurt/comfort and slow slow burns. And I like them most post-canon, a few years into the future. It turns out that it all depends on how they're portrayed for me to like them anyways. I talked on here recently about a work that really had it all and portrayed their relationship in a very satisfying and mature way, with all the complicated feelings, it felt very realistic, especially on Reigen's side. So if anyone wants, here's a rec from me again -> in my dreams (I seem to be more honest) on ao3, just because I think it has all that I like about the ship.

I think that this is the whole point of fanworks - to kind of look further and have fun with it, to see "what if?". Even if it's something sort of.. taboo I guess? Because you get to take it apart in a fictional dimension (if that makes sense). And I completely understand if this is something that can ick some people out or that someone doesn't want to ruin their perception of the characters' relationship. That's totally fine by me and I'm not going to force anyone into liking the ship of course. And there are definitely tropes and tags I really don't want to look into - not everything is for me either.

And I think this goes without saying but I'll add it here anyways: what I like to see in fiction doesn't mean I would like or encourage anyone to do the same thing in real life! It's just interesting to explore from a safe distance where no one can get hurt.

[fagcrisis]

sorry what do you mean your mother's coup. elaborate

this ended up being long as hell so readmore time

so i live in this old fucking apartament building right, turns 120 soon, hasnt really been renovated in 50 years. and our apartament has the attic built in, which wasnt a feature originally and the previous tenant did it himself, badly, meaning weve had a hole in our roof for about 5ish years now that we just have not been able to fix. last november we had a pretty big storm that fucked the hole up even worse and our previous solution of just "put a bucket under it and leave the room" has stopped working because too much water was getting in and my sister had to start sleeping in a different room so safe to say, shit state of affairs

my mum got a contractor to come take a look at it and the dude concluded that its dangerous to be left unfixed and hes gonna have to climb in between the attic walls and the roof bc due to the hole theres a shitton of mold that needs to be cleaned out. overall this wouldve cost us 600k forint thats more than my mum makes in 2 months and i had 9-5 at that point but my shit salary was not gonna fix this. so my mum had a breakdown and decided that well sell the apartament and try moving, which sucks bc when we got this place it was still cheap but since then the housing market has gone to shit and we wouldve had to live in a rental we probably wouldnt have been able to afford. but my mum still called an agent to check the house out, and he told us that theres no way were selling it, because of the big fucking hole, the messed up pipes and bc the building isnt insulated (legally cant be bc its a historical monument lmao. europe)

HOWEVER he also said. since this is an apartament building with 12 flats we have a house representative and we pay *google translate help me* common cost every month, to cover repairs on the house, that we shouldnt have to pay for the repairs, the house should. cause. its the whole houses roof not just our apartaments.

my mum went to the house rep (józsi) to ask about this, and he told her that this isnt true and that he wont pay for the repairs. which made my mum mad and she went and found a lawyer who said the house does have to pay for repairs. but józsi was still like i will not.

so my mum talked to all 12 of our neighbouring flats individually and found out that literally everybody has grievances with this dude. there has been an ENTIRE TREE growing on the roof for years now that we havent been able to get cleaned out, the staircase is borderline life threatening to use, we could technically get authorization for insulating the house but the rep needs to apply and józsi hasnt, one of the gates to the yard is like not working, etc

they ended up calling the first house meeting in years (were supposed to have those every month lol) where they ended up voting to have a new rep, and also to fix our roof. which got fixed by the way, and the mold was also cleaned out

BUT the story doesnt end here bc they still need to vote a new rep in. and my mum found this company who represents apartament buildings professionally and sure itd cost us some money but we pay the common cost anyway, and they have contractors they work with so itd be soooo easy to fix shit in the house. but for some reason some people decided they want this dude instead, who owns one of the flats in the building but does not live here, his insane mother does who hates me. and he DOESNT LIVE HERE the entire problem with józsi was, that he was like not helpful in any way and now they want a guy who doesnt even live here??

ANYWAY TODAY THE PLOT FUCKING THICKENED. because. my mum started looking over the houses finances with 2 of our neighbours one of whom is i think a lesbian but im not sure anyways they found out that józsi has been STEALING MONEY. FROM THE COMMON COST. WHICH IS WHY FUCKALL GOT FIXED IN THE HOUSE!!!!

anyway the coup is still ongoing but i hope u enjoyed my mums tale of intrigue. shes having so much fun w this shes having secret meetings with people to talk about this all day

[shadowscommand]

MORE thoughts about STALKER2 AU please. ANYTHING

okayyyy :)c im putting this under a readmore if u saw it wout one sorry. on mobile u can't tell how long things are until u post them ummm

so as mentioned the bale twins would b looking for nikto And zakhaev's whereabouts but theyd for sure start w nikto and theyd have to like.. circle around to the last few places he'd sent information from. and they'd like Fully expect to find just A Corpse but they'd instead find convos zakhaev had about leaving someone to die in the red forest. I think probably also niktos torture would not be like As long and arduous sadly but he still ends up fucked mentally bc of psi shit. its like a point of pride for him on not going back + the Zone just Has him he's found himself as a stalker. i also don't think hed have a super strong drive for Revenge against Zakhaev bc i think everything about the wish granter and c consciousness would Scream trap to nikto. like he'd assume hes a lost cause out in the zone already. believes the zone will take care of him itself. fanatical belief in the zone bc it seems like he was protected by it (left for dead only to wake up alive much later all alone.) his past is gone bc hes a Stalker now hes a loner in the zone and hes like insanely protective of his solitude he does not like being fucked w played w or anything. he especially does not entertain any questions about his past and why he came to the zone. i keep trying to place him in gear and whatnot but i think he might actually be in a modified monolith armor set bc he wants to be Left alone and thats the best way. to get people to think you're monolith.

i think both of the ipsf bale twins would b rly neutral on the zone its just part of the job for them. they might enjoy working w just the two of them but nikto would frustrate bale soo fucking bad esp once they catch up to him. everything he tells them is either a half truth or an outright lie and hed send them to continuous dead ends trying to get them to Leave him alone. the only reason to not kill them is they bring him free shit in exchange for information. nikto cannot turn down new shit (esp w rodion being a rookie straggler following him along. He needs items for his new boytoy.)

rodion can intrude on his solitude bc he listens emphatically to what nikto says. hes rly out of his element in the zone (bc its hostile to him) and nikto knows if he lets him out of his sight hes going to die. and that would be sad. bc he has a nice hole. but as they get more comfortable with each other and in their routines rodions real personality slowly starts to come out and soon he is a hardass loner with a peppy follower who has a walkman and carries books & blankets in his backpack bc he likes frivolous things that he wouldnt have the luxury of if he was walking the zone by himself. even if he starts to get stubborn as he approaches the "ive been here for a few months i know how things work" stage. would piss nikto off so bad but now hes endeared to rodion. he gave him a nice new beautifully repaired mark 1 emr and everything. little bitch.

[poppinlovemp4]

7, 11, 13, 37, 36, 42 and 53!! ^_^

thank you for the ask yaaay it got kinda long so ill put it under a readmore

7. which song/group introduced you to kpop?

omg tbh i've been listening to kpop since i was like... realllyyyy little like since before i can remember i still remember listening to snsd into the new world as like a 5 year old😭 but what converted me into an active #Poster was i think the double hit of exo mama & shinee sherlock in 2012 i was way too young bewitched by exo's d.o. making a tumblr immediately for some reason

11. idols you share the same zodiac sign with?

taemin and i have the same birthday (<- says this biweekly) so theres that! also uhhh taeyong. i think? apink hayoung... snsd seohyun... one of the seventeen guys i used to have beef with him bc his birthday was the day before mine.. heechul. apparently. wow really mixed bag

13. the last photo of an idol you have saved to your camera roll?

i only save gifs but i will be using this frequently

36. name an underrated kpop group!

im too basic sorry i only follow like 3 groups and i dont know any unknown hitmakers... 😭😭😭 i liked pixy before they died badly though

37. name an underrated kpop song!

same issue help. uhhhh cursor by purple kiss maybe ?

42. a fandom name you like?

you could not pay me to care about the boyz but i do think deobi is super cute

53. tell me your unpopular kpop opinion!

damn now that im put on the spot i feel like ive forgotten everything... or like idk what's unpopular. i think it's pretty well-accepted in the #Oomf #Circle that most kpop groups arent all best buddies family forever and i think fans who are invested in that image are kind of like. idk theyre buying what's being sold to them so i can't blame them but it's not something i can put up with for too long😭😭😭. i also think akgaes are a necessary part of the kpop economy and idols dont dislike even the crazy and mean ones as much as people would like to hope

[wishfuldeity]

dissociation blogging again i guessm.

really hate putting this shit on your dashes im just processing it in real time sorry fuck im so sorry this will happen again

genuinely if anyone has experienced anything kind of similar to this please tell me. reply to the post dm me. whatever. anything. im so confused. i wont vent i swear. no pressure at all. if you message me in any way i wont push for questions. i just need to know if its happening to other people

WAITTT STOP NO WHAT THE FUCK NO

I wh. no i was writing a post

about how i for some reason am really like sociable now?? and have started cracking jokes (which i literally never do) and whatever. commenting on how real everything feels, and how i feel "in one"

but i just had the fastest most intense dissociation ever (series of short spacing outs and really loud ear ringing followed by everything feeling gray)

and now im, well yk. dissociated. whole body and mind separate looking through a screen thing

again

someone came into my room and it felt like i was watching a video of someone talking to a camera

as opposed to literally half an hour ago where everything felt unbelievably real and i was talking and there. i was there.

now its me and my body again. just like last night

only this time its 9pm and people are awake

i need to cuddle something

iuh

i keep mmaking noises i wasnt making before it happened

im so fucking confused

i don't know if my mind and body are actually separate mmmy hesrt rate just spiked and its noottt going down im breathing hard i keep spacing out and when i stop i breathe harder

(pre-readmore written now)

it uhh im

this is so weird

before i dissociated was on my chair at my esk writing on my phone. and my room felt real. the stuff happening in the other room felt real and i was comfy just sitting there

but nnow. maybe 20 minutes after. i suddenly cannot be separated from my pplushie and nothing at all feels real and im kinda scared idk what about but im scared

every now and again my hesrt rate goes back up and i breathe faster and i brace for something and i make myself as small as possible and i stop . it happened then. i stopped typing for a period of time. maybe 2 minutes maybe 30 seconds i have no idea.

im terrified and i dont know what ofim breathing so fucking hard why am i

I WAS OKAY LESSS THAN AN HOUR AGO AND THEN I HAD TO GO ANS MAKE EVERYTHING FAKEhhhh

FUCKKkkjj im not oksy. why am i kt okay.whay hsppened. it esd literally not tnsg long ssgo. 30 minutes tops. i was perfectly okay. i was literally happy. i was so content.

but now im scared and im in a ball on my bed wjtb a teddy and covering my head

whyyyyyjnnn

jjbnnnfi migjt nap here. i dont care i know the affini in my head will be disappointed or whatever i literally do not care. ill brush my teeth in the morning. im really tired all of a sudden. probably from the marathon i may as well have just run with my hesrt and breathing doing that

idk if ill stay asleep or not i feel nap tired not night tired idk

sorry fuck sorry I'll go

[dykexenomorph]

Bela Re8, Karlach Bg3, and\or Isobel Bg3 for the ask game!

not upset just wanna complete the set 👍

this got kinda long so im putting it under a readmore LMAO (character asks!!)

BELA DIMITRESCU:

HOW I FEEL ABOUT HER: HOW can i put this. she is everything to me. i think about her daily.shes my right hand arm. MAN. shes my everything. all of this but she doesn't even make the top ten in my list of favorite resi charas LMAO

WHO DO I SHIP WITH HER: well nobody. sorry for being lame it will happen again LMAO

NON ROMANTIC OTPS FOR HER: IM SORRY IM SO LAME I JUST LIKE HER FAMILY DYNAMIC. BELA HAS NO FRIENDS SHES A LOSER WHAT DO U WANT FROM ME MAN

UNPOP OPINION ABOUT HER: i dunno how to put it but i think the way i generally see/interpret her (and the other two sisters) are so blatantly different from what fanon is (or at least what it was BEFORE i gave up on the re8 tag) tht its my most unpop opinion? if tht makes sense idk its late and im tired

SMTH I WISH HAPPENED IN CANON: I SO BADLY WANT MORE CONTEXT FOR THE WAY THE DIMITRESCU'S OPERATED AND TREATED ONE ANOTHER. like YEAH they were killing maids and being generally dykeish and cruel in that castle but how were they sustaining this. what like. day to day things did they do. were the sisters close or did they just see each other as competition or what!!! im so curious about them it hurts AUGH

KARLACH CLIFFGATE:

HOW I FEEL ABOUT HER: AUGAUGATGALHGALJSFSDLAJ !!! hope this helps :D

WHO DO I SHIP WITH HER: my DURGE!!!!!!!!!!! (real answer though is probably minthara or shadowheart. i love the idea of minthara ALSO going back to avernus w karlach and wyll to help her fix her engine :3)

NON ROMANTIC OTPS FOR HER: WYLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they have THE dynamic of all time <3

UNPOP OPINION ABOUT HER: the way people baby her is SO stupid and ridiculous. this is a woman who fought in a demon army for TEN YEARS. she saw what happened when elturel fell and did nothing because she was worried about what it'd mean for herself. YES she is a kind, giving, and heroic person NOW, but she hasn't always been (even if her reasoning is understandable). if i see one more person act like she can't understand or cope with some of the more morally questionable things the party encounters along the campaign im going to lose my mind

SMTH I WISH HAPPENED IN CANON: dunno if this counts but i wish we could do more in terms of touching her (for lack of better way to phrase it) in act 1. like let me be silly and use mage hand to high five (or whatever else) her. let me and wyll dump cold beer in her mouth like some sort of shitty frat party. idk its very silly but i want more goofy interactions w her where tav + the party try to find stupid ways around the engine issue!!!!!

ISOBEL THORM:

HOW I FEEL ABOUT HER: NOBODY LOVES HER MORE THAN I DO AND I MEAN THAT SO GENUINELY. ISOBEL THORM THEY COULD NEVER MAKE ME HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHO DO I SHIP WITH HER: im not answering this. come on now. lets get a grip. (aside from the obvious answer i also like her + dame alyin + shart. tht trio is everything to me <3)

NON ROMANTIC OTPS FOR HER: does jaheira count? they were stuck for SUCH a long time protecting last light together in the shadow curse, they had to have ended up being good friends i think?? i think about it ALL the time

UNPOP OPINION ABOUT HER: its hard to have an unpop opinion when nobody thinks about her character as anything other than an accessory for dame alyin. i will give u an unpop opinion when u can give me literally ANY non-alyin related opinion this fandom has about her LMAO

SMTH I WISH HAPPENED IN CANON: GIVE ME MORE SOLO ISOBEL INTERACTIONS PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD. I WANT COMPANION ISOBEL. I WANT AN ISOBEL-CENTRIC QUEST (NO ACT 2 DOESNT COUNT LEAVE ME BE). WHY DO I ALWAYS LOVE CHARACTERS W THE LEAST AMOUNT OF CONTENT

[crouteann]

im wondering about finns last name fflannidan. ive been pronouncing it "fuh-flan-ih-dan." was it a family name or a chosen one, is there a story?

OKAY ANON IM SORRY FOR HOW LONG THIS TOOK………… putting it under a readmore so i dont clutter up dashes. time to talk about my freakin guys!

Fflannidan is prounounced like “Flanagan” with a D replacing the G— only one F!

Honestly when i made finn in 2017, my first ever dnd character, i think i found that name on some randomizer or something. i thought having finn and both his parents have F as their first and last initial would be fun, and extended it to fallon too when i made him in 2020. felix, their dad, was always heavily irish inspired, and it feels like one of those fantasy “close enough” twists to it. “flanagan” roughly means “blood red” which is interesting :) very interesting indeed

IN UNIVERSE, THOUGH… felix chose that first and last name, he just made em up. finn and fallon never knew their extended human family and never had a reason to question the legitimacy of their family name until the night their dad disappeared and their home burned down. in fact, it will probably take them a little while to find out their last name wasnt felix or faelwyns real family name, when someone else goes digging into their pasts and comes up empty handed.

i think it will be interesting in the comic as the twins are trying to get to the bottom of what happened and they struggle with this idea that the dad they knew their whole lives had this whole dark past felix and their two other parents, gohr and fae, shielded them from with false names and a peaceful existence. who was felix fflannidan before them? why did faelwyn keep secrets and continue not to them the truth even after he disappeared? is it worth lying to the parents they have left and putting themselves in harms way to find the truth? etc etc. i love them.

anyway sorry this is wordy, i love the fflannidans and their silly name. fae took felixs new fake last name too. honestly i think having the whole family have f names is a fun little dad joke on their part, lmfao. why not get silly with your new fake identity (which… becomes the new real you? hmm)

[blankticket]

interest check - giant challenge

this is not a starter call. i'm still working hard on putting this giant challenge together (i plan on submitting everything on 7/14 to hopefully have permission to start on 7/21). @ time of publishing this post, the challenge is not fully written let alone submitted or approved yet. so i'm not sure if this will get approved! but this post is assuming best-case scenario; at the very least, it'll give you ideas of what you're getting into.

ideally, the challenge begins on 7/21 and wraps up before or on 7/28; a week's time total.

please note that the nature of this challenge is serious, intense, and grim. if your muse is involved, they WILL be put into a life-threatening situation! that being said, no pressure to join in (seriously!). castmates will be prioritized, but your muse doesn't need to know vash to get picked. regardless, i can't guarantee everyone's going to get a turn at this challenge thread.

table of contents underneath readmore:

which muses work best with this challenge?

how will this challenge thread work?

how will interested parties be contacted?

content warnings:

hitting like on this post signifies to me that your muse is an interested party to this giant challenge thread.

which muses work best with this challenge?

muses who have heroic tendencies (specifically the self-sacrificing reckless kind), and/or are incredibly unlucky. muses who have ties to the Archimedes Ward. muses you want to put into harm's way; muses you want to get killed.

how will this challenge thread work?

i start the thread with its opening post.

i notify Muse 1 from the interest check that their turn is next. Muse 1 posts a reply, and interaction between Muse 1 and the challenge thread continues until Muse 1's interaction with the thread is resolved.

i notify Muse 2 from the interest check that their turn is next. Muse 2 posts a reply, and interaction between Muse 2 and the challenge thread continues until Muse 2's interaction with the thread is resolved.

so on and so forth, until i finally make the concluding post to close the challenge thread.

as you can see from the ideal structure^, i'm hoping to keep these interactions with interested muses as short as possible. the content of replies themselves don't have to be short, necessarily, but the amount of danger in this challenge necessitates that interactions are kept short. essentially, i won't allow one muse to make any more than 3 replies to the thread.

sorry that i have to keep the reasons hidden/this decision vague! but hopefully you can still at least anticipate/expect that interaction within the thread will be limited.

how will interested parties be contacted?

keep an eye on your tumblr IMs! when i've formulated the challenge enough, and have a grasp on the ideal succession of involved muses for the challenge thread, i'll begin using tumblr IMs to ask you for the best means of contact.

content warnings:

if you are going to engage with this challenge thread, be courteous and tag your posts appropriately. prioritize the emotional safety and health of yourself and of others.

we're adults, we're creative, and we're not getting paid for this. that being said, i still expect good conduct and communication from my rp partners. if you have any issues that arise during the thread, i expect for you to bring it up to me.

overall: the nature of this giant challenge is that of a constantly life-threatening one, affecting the general public populace of the Archimedes Ward.

injury, blood, suffering, death, suicide this can also occur on a mass scale, and it includes children, families, the elderly, etc. everyday people will be put into mortal peril and thus extreme distress.

body horror solely for an entity involved within the challenge, exclusively under my control. body horror will not be induced onto your muse; however, there's a good chance your muse may be physically attacked by this entity.

again, i'm still in the middle of synthesizing these ideas into the challenge, and regardless of how much work i'm putting into this i'm not even sure if this will get approved lol, so things are subject to change.

if you have any questions, message me; send an ask if tumblr IMs are seemingly not functioning with me. can't guarantee i can let you peek behind the curtain too much, but feel free to try asking me whatever you'd like anyway. thank you!