haikaveh... save me haikaveh...
i KNOW it's been talked about to death but. the haikaveh research project. it literally haunts my mind. i cannot get over the implications. alhaitham going through his school life as someone that most people dont even really know about because he keeps to himself and doesn't socialize, with kaveh being the one exception to that, finding his way into his life as his Best Friend, and then leading to alhaithams one and only time he participated in a research topic. his bio says he only ever did ONE joint project!!! one!!! the one with kaveh his best friend and i think also his only friend at the time!!!! and then it ended in not only the project falling apart but also alhaithams only friendship. kavehs best friendship. they were each others closest person. they had no family around - alhaithams parents having died when he was young and his grandmother dying before he joined the akademiya, and kaveh's dad dying when he was young and his mom having moved to fontaine. like even if you dont look at it through a romantic lens it's still undeniable how important they were [and are] to each other..........
i'm getting off track but my point is very specifically for alhaitham, the one time he got close to someone, made a friend, even agreed to join one(1) group project ever, it ended in disaster. it led him into a fight so bad that his one and only friend said he regretted that friendship!!!! it was so bad alhaitham left the project and he and kaveh didnt speak for ages until they just happened to run into each other again at the tavern!!!!! like obviously it has to be incredibly awful for both of them but i just think how this probably had alhaitham in the cynical mindset that friendships and collaborations like that might just never work out for him because the one time he let someone into his life, it blew up on him and he was all alone again. even though alhaitham never seems to care much if people dont like him, that clearly cant still apply to someone he was exceptionally close to. like if he didnt care he woudlnt have been the one to take his name off the project and mutually not speak to kaveh...... kavehs words are the ones that hit the most significantly to alhaitham.......... kaveh is said/implied to have had at least some other friends while at school / people knew who he was, but not so much alhaitham. people didnt know him and the ones that did just knew he didnt socialize/he was not easy to get along with. he only had kaveh and then, for a while, he lost him too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Just want to ask how art thou? Anything interesting happen recently, went to a park? Ate something good? Defeated an eldrich abomination? Ya know stuff a bit out of your lane
Honestly I'm as deep as a puddle and I'm about as interesting as a stick in the woods. I'm fun to hang out with, I think, but like.... Not a lot goes on personally.
My comfort language isn't food, either, so I have little desire to eat extravagantly or even try new things - it's all cardboard to me atm anyway. It's also too expensive. I need for little, so it's not a sorrow to me.
If I was a spice, I'd be oatmeal with raisins and nuts.
so yeah, nah, not a lot happens. Haha..!
But I am doing okay! :D Can't do more than your best with what the day has given ya, eh? ;D Gotta stay optimistic and resourceful, y'know! The responsible thing is to try to not make a bad situation worse, in my opinion...! Haha! The situationTM being, like, mental health stuff. Ya gotta put effort into self-love.
... Says I, who compared myself to a puddle and oatmeal.....
BUT AT LEAST I AM SOMEWHAT SELF-AWARE.
Alright I'm more like.... Canned tuna with yogurt, fries with dip on the side, kinda guy.
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