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hotcheetohatredwastaken · 8 months

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what sort of games do you play

Minecraft, R6, Hollow Knight, Titanfall. Played some Slime Rancher and Barotrauma the other day. Still working on beating TOTK but I've already seen playthroughs of the entire thing so XD. Have played BOTW and Link's Awakening, as well as a *little* bit of Wind Waker and Ocarina of Time (as well as one of the Zelda games on the NES? I don't even remember which one it was, it's been so long).

#cheetoanswers #sorry you gave a lot of interesting games #while I am very basic #I mostly play minecraft because I run a server though #still need to get down all the decorations from the main village hub for Christmas #and every time I start to do so I keep finding pumpkins and soul lanters from Halloween #which I spent hours taking down #I think I may just make it into a conglomeration of all of the holidays and never take anything down just for peace of mind Xd #anyways I'm mad about the new update with the mending villager rarity #but that's besides the point #hollow knight slaps

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deus-ex-mona · 1 month

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ngl i thought that zakenna was going to be an mv set some time in idol sengen s1 before the mv dropped. like, her frustrations could’ve been a reference to her post-first concert flop era, her rival mentions could’ve been referring to lxl and/or asuna, and all the underdog mentions could also have been a reference or two to how she was a complete nobody at the start of her career…

and there was also doromizu line no. 1 from the tv arc which sealed the misconcepton deal s o b s

#rewatching zakenna after reading moge’s fanbox post kinda hits different in a sense…#but m a n i do not miss that hour i wasted looking up meanings for doromizu bc that. was. not fun!!!!!!!!!#i just didnt want to make mona say that she was gonna drink mud ok n. o. *no way*#tling idol sengen really does make me have to look up the darndest things…#just the other night i spent an hour looking up a term to describe a group of people who started working at the same job at the same time…#…yeah. well. i eventually settled for the word ‘batch’. i still can’t find a better word for it. but. man. im open to suggestions!!!!!!!!#and there was also the 30 min googling session for ‘unpleasant ways to say goodbye’. ended up down a rabbit hole of the nuances of farewells #the next 2 main chapters of idol sengen dont seem to be too challenging in the idiom department… but man~ last chapter was. just. y e a h #thanks rippei for being the bane of my existence!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#ok i think i need to stop thinking about rippei bc my headache’s kinda comin back u m.#though i think it’s kinda funny in a certain way that i got a mild fever after zakenna dropped yesterday lol #sorry for celebrating mona mv instead of country day yesterday sorry for not lovin’ the ground on which i walk pls take this headache baack—#and y u p headache’s officially back bye y’all i think i need to watch yesterday’s firework vids to try to chase it off byebye

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chiropteracupola · 1 year

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do you ever wonder if your coworkers might be anteaters?

[today's foolery is brought to you, as is often the case, as a collaboration with @dxppercxdxver!]

#em draws stuff #team fortress 2 #tf2 #soldier tf2 #scout tf2 #pyro tf2 #throwing ideas against the wall like cooked pasta with jon is always fun because you never know just what you'll end up with #can range from perfectly reasonable (scout roller derby)#to a little out there (soldier takes dust baths like a chinchilla)#to not really hinged in the slightest (pyro is a human-sized anteater)#wish soldier was not so hard to draw for he is Incredibly fun to put in situations. situations just sprout up around him like mushrooms.#I work very very very hard to make these silly silly silly things #a fun three hours were spent illustrating this while listening to a podcast about things being on fire falling down and exploding #which seems only fitting for these three!

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soni-dragon · 1 month

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Never ever EVER buy household appliances with ai in them. Most ridiculous things I’ve ever encountered

#to be clear i did not buy one but had to use one to do a load of laundry (who needs ai in a laundry machine??) and let me tell you it was #useless.#first the thing apparently ‘senses the dirty ness of your clothes to calculate the wash cycle’ which then would only ever decide to do a #cycle that took 4. freaking. hours. never have i encountered a washer that takes longer than an hour to wash your clothes.#and without the ability to manually say you want it to be a specific time? makes no sense. who has that kind of time in their day.#NEXT we go to dry the clothes and it also wants to run it for an insane amount of time. so we click it anyways (horrible decision)#and think oh we’ll just open it halfway through #well. upon stopping the cycle halfway through the damn thing says that the door is locked because it’s ‘too hot.’#never have i seen something that thinks i’m going to burn myself on my hot clothes. like cmon #also cause opening the door would be a surefire way to cool the clothes down you’d think??#so we try all sorts of troubleshooting things and even unplugging it and it STILL WOULDNT UNLOCK.#the damn thing is still locked btw. dunno if ill ever get those clothes back #so glad this at least isn’t actually a dryer we spent money on and just one that was here while we’re traveling and need to do laundry #but like. cmon #there’s no reason we shouldn’t be able to decide how long to wash our clothes for and instead let a ‘smart’ (hint: it’s not smart) machine #do it for us #(hint part 2: this isn’t just about the clothes)#soni rambles #more like soni RANTS #i was already angry about the idea of ai in appliances but experiencing first hand how bad they are makes me even more angry #and a little scared for the future #now it’s 2am and the laundry is still stuck and im too upset to go to sleep. gah #and i don’t get mad easily.#oh and did i mention that to dry your clothes it wouldn’t let you select a temperature?? that it only said it would sense it itself??#see i like to dry all my clothes on low heat cause ive had a history of them shrinking #so not only are they trapped in the machine but it’s ‘too hot’ because it wouldn’t let us select a lower temperature.#luckily i didn’t put anything in that’s a material that usually shrinks

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frecklystars · 1 month

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;-; I had a nightmare, but in the middle of it, it calmed down for a moment and K was hugging me and rubbing my back. He kept looking down at me with a very gentle expression, checking to see if I’m ok. And then it was a scary dream again but!! that middle part was so tender!!!! 😭😭 i missed him so bad last night, I suppose he felt it and wanted to rescue me from a bad dream, even if just for a second 🥺💛

#i spent 2 hours editing images of him so that makes sense I’d suddenly have a dream abt him #thank god the nightmare wasn’t F/O related whatsoever this time!! just a regular stress dream I already forgot #that was so nice he just ;~; showed up and immediately I felt a sense of relief wash over me #normally when I see any F/Os during a nightmare I get so tense bc usually it gets violent #but when I saw him I just ran into his arms immediately and held on for dear life #i don’t know if I felt safe with him but I felt. like. if he hurt me I would try to take it bc I missed him so bad.#which is an extremely unhealthy mindset. but he didn’t hurt me anyway and maybe that’s why he kept checking on me #he didn’t say a word either. he was so careful with me like I was porcelain. just kept looking down at me with a warm gaze #maybe I should spend 2 hours editing images of F/Os before bed way more often lol #woof #love notes #💕♬♪ ♡ I can't help falling in love with you ☆- ̗̀💛 ̖́-☆#love notes: officer k ♡

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mars-ipan · 1 month

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i do love my family very dearly but the internalized ableism the men in here struggle with is. so much

#marzi speaks #it’s worse with my brother but he’s doing more to actively work on improving that #my dad however has very subtle internalized ableism that i don’t think he recognizes is there #which is. fun #like earlier. either last night or this morning i don’t remember #i was talking to him about how while ideologically i have nothing against accepting needing help and things like that #in practice it’s very challenging to adjust to being disabled even temporarily. and that if i do end up with a diagnosis that’s gonna be #a lot to handle. both mentally and just with the lifestyle changes i’ll have to make #and he makes a bit of a face and goes ‘i wouldn’t quite call you disabled. i’d just say ‘ill’’#and i just sort of look at him. and i blink. and i go ‘i am physically Un-Able to do things i am normally able to do’#‘i can’t walk long distances at all. i can’t sit in chairs for too long without causing pain’#‘i’ve spent the last 24 hours staring longingly at my computer because i want to draw but am currently Not Able To’#he didn’t argue with me but i can tell he was still unnerved by the idea of picturing his daughter as disabled #also like . illness and disability are not mutually exclusive? several disabilities are or involve chronic illness #i shouldn’t be surprised though. i mentioned considering starting lexapro #and he went on his ‘you’re an adult and it’s your choice in the end but i wouldn’t recommend it’ spiel #(he’s anti-psychiatry bc he doesn’t like the idea of breaking the brain down into smth so purely physical)#(and also doesn’t like the idea of someone being dependent on pills their whole life)#(which i’m giving him some slack on rn bc he is a just-got-clean recovering opoid addict. so)#(btw before any of you say SHIT abt my dad he took his pills legally prescribed for chronic pain and did not abuse them)#(and even if he DID that would give nobody a right to make a moral judgement on him. ok cool)#i then reminded him that my mom takes anti-anxiety meds and they really really helped her #and he just goes ‘true.’ and moves on #king u got some shit to unpack #it’s fine if u didn’t want to start antidepressants when it was recommended to you meds aren’t for everyone #but like come on now. u don’t gotta be so fundamentally against it when literally ur own wife who you adore takes psych meds #anywho my mom handled me making the disability comment much better. she was basically just like ‘ur fear is totally understandable’#‘u have a good support system we’ll help you through it’#which. thanks mom 👍 that was very kind of her to say

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peapod20001 · 1 year

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I’m the type that can and will cry if think too hard <3

#random post #me tag ∠( ᐛ 」 ) |/#I’m not an overly emotional person in the stereotypical way. but I do get in my feels when thinking about life and the experience of living #I’m like. constantly explaining things to myself cus there’s never really a time or place to talk about it #also my method of explaining things is very not coherent sometimes. so it takes me a bit to really get my point across in a comprehensible #way. I’m a big thinker. I have many thoughts and ideas a views. a daily thing of mine is noticing problems #and then fixing them in my head with thought out explanations and motives and outcomes #it’s like I’m talking to someone else. much like how I format my text posts. that’s how my inner monologue is #me talking to myself is actually me talking to someone else. someone that isn’t real #anyways it’s a daily occurrence. every day of my life is spent with thoughts similar to those breaking down a movie #lots of thoughts from adhd. compulsive thoughts from ocd. overwhelming thoughts from autism. distressing thoughts from bpd #ya. this isn’t a vent I just need to like. see the thoughts in writing so I can do smth else. like eat this muffin ive been staring at for #over an hour now <3 mmmbfbg yea muffins are hard to eat now cus I had some with mold and food mold especially is a big nono for me #spend like. five minutes examining the damn thing before I even consider taking a bite. I’m very hungry an thirsty </3 #when your mouth is so dry you can taste your own mouth 👍 I’m experiencing #nothing in particular. just experiencing. I wouldn’t have it any other way. I like having an experience and living #drank my tea and I had like. hallucinations of like an alcohol prep pad. I’ve been using those in my ear cus. tmi. had a pimple that’s #causing problems so mom suggested that. it burned! which means it worked so word. I’ve noticed lately that both me AND my family have been #using ‘word’ a lot. dad says we’ve been saying it but no we haven’t. if we had I’d have BEEN saying it. maybe we’ve used it before for a bit #but now it’s back. idk. I’ve said it in class on more than one occasion lmao I don’t look like the type to say smth like that but whatever #it’s like when I used to say bro after every sentence like 10 years ago lol. we’re a family of parrots we repeat eachother a lot #I started saying I love you out of no where and they started doing it too. we whistle at eachother from across the house. sing ear worms #together. quote funny things at every opportunity and drive the joke into the ground. everyone in this house is a different kind of mentally #I’ll and it’s the most beautiful clash of personalities because we’re all so annoying and we love eachother so much and also our #communication is shit because some ppl have hearing loss and another is a short fused child and some are quick to interrupt and some dont #get a word in and some just can’t explain and some can’t understand. we get there eventually at some point. we don’t get the full grasp of #how much we love eachother yet. but we’re gettin there. anyways this went into several different directions but they’re all good ones #I think. if you read all this good on you! this is my brain 24/7/365 haha ok love you

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arcaneyouth · 5 months

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it is So Weird how working on my comic makes me feel like i have more free time. and gives me more free time. logically, working on 3 comic pages a week would mean i have Less Time. but no. despite everything, i'm getting more done and able to use my time better now that i'm working on comic pages again. what the hell is up with that.

#it's probably the structure and routine tbh i've been doing this for 6 years #i feel way less stressed about all the stuff i have to do than the 2 months i wasn't working on the comic #and arguably i have more to do now!!!!!#there's just so many little things that working on my comic helps me with. vital part of my daily and weekly structure #1) gives me a Main Goal to focus on every week and it's a goal that i know is achievable #2) gives me things to do almost every day that i am able to get started on right away and then will have free time later when i'm done #3) on days i'm not working on it i feel more comfortable doing things for fun or completing smaller tasks #4) because it's a weekly schedule i actually know what day it is now. completely lost track of the days before. made me really scared tbh #5) actually allows me to relax. the way i make pages means it's a lil bit mindless half the time. which is nice #i spent most of the last 2 months when i wasn't making comic in bed. because i had nothing else to do #now i am not doing that! because even when i'm not working on pages i have the motivation to do things!#this is an ironic post to make when i've spent like 6-7 hours today just playing fathomverse #but that's the thing!!!! instead of hating myself for doing that i still feel like i can get shit done!#also i already knew all this about making comics and how i function but. man idk how to put this #i spent the last 2 months struggling to do fucking Anything #and it was after i was so sure i could handle taking a break from the comic #and it was after lots of people have told me i need to put the comic down and get a job #or do anything that isn't making a comic #i have been working on the comic again for 9 days. and already everything feels more manageable #i literally Need to have projects like this. if i dont i will lose my mind. nobody tell me i need to do other things with my life ever agai

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kittlyns · 5 months

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I had yet another long, strenuous day yesterday and didn't finish work until super late and then I couldn't fall asleep until well past 2am cuz I was in so much pain from standing literally all day

#what made it worse was the client I spent most of my day with was a brand new client. and she booked super last minute #so I wasnt mentally prepared for doing a 5 hour color. and her natural hair was already pretty light so I had to foil foil foil. go back.#pull out first couple foils. foil foil foil. go back. pull out the next few.#over and over and over.#and her hair was so fucking long. and so fucking thick.#and after the first hour she wouldn't talk. like I like my silence so I don't fight it much #but every now and then I would try to engage with her. I'd say something and she would straight up ignore me. no acknowledgment.#which makes me feel anxious cuz it's like jesus... does she hate me?? did I piss her off somehow?#even when I finished her hair (it looked fucking amazing no lie. one of my best highlights yet.) she had next to no reaction to it #she was like 'it looks fine. I mean good. it's good.' completely deadpan #I laughed it off and was like yeah it's been a long day girl! but it looks amazinggg on you!!#no response. deep inhale. alright.#whatever tho.#when I did finally get off work I stopped @ bojangles cuz I was lightheaded and hadn't eaten since morning #and when I tell you I almost broke down into tears cuz there were so many people crowding the goddamn pickup area.#and so many bizarre conversations going on. genuinely felt like I was in some form of hell #like my feet hurt. my back hurts. I'm tired. I didn't get the validation I like to have over a 5 hour transformative color.#I'm hungry and there are two elderly women blocking the pickup counter. one is hard of hearing so she keeps yelling HUH???#and the other only speaks in soft baby whispers. that goes as well as you can imagine.#there's a man behind me grilling an employee abt whether or not he goes to church. he starts witnessing to him #and the employee says 'I've never thought about it like that before' no less than 4 times.#there's a child in front of me playing tiktoks @ full volume. and this is all happening simultaneously.#I really considered just leaving without my food but I knew I needed to eat and didnt have anything at home so I stuck it out #was it worth it? no. bojangles honestly sucks these days but what's a girl gonna do.#got home and tried to pass out but nope. tossed and turned all night.#put on hot n cold patches to try to soothe the pain a little. didn't work cuz one pain would be eased a bit and another pain would take over #blahhhhhh #and now. I get to do it all over again! yippeeeeeee!!!!!!!!

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thethingything · 6 months

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I'm fatigued, my back hurts, I accidentally spent like 3 hours sat downstairs in a chair that made our back feel worse because our executive dysfunction prevented me getting up and going back upstairs even though I only went down there to get one thing, and now I really need to lay down but if I accidentally fall asleep again I feel like I'll wake up, realise I fell asleep and also that I feel like I wasted a big chunk of the day, and I'll end up feeling even worse again

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #posts made on pain meds #I went downstairs to get food but ended up having to wait longer than anticipated which is whatever #but then that meant I ended up sitting down and once we sit down it's like our brain stops being able to process that we can leave #I'll sit there the whole time going ''I need to get up and go back upstairs. I don't want to be sat here'' and just can't get up #I hate that this happens because while I know our executive dysfunction isn't our fault #and it's the exact same issue that stops us eating or drinking or going to the toilet or whatever when we need to #I still feel like I should be able to just get up and do the thing and just leave if I'm in a situation that I don't want to be in #and it's so hard to get other people to understand that I can't ''just leave'' because my brain just won't let that happen #like I want to but my brain won't register it as an actual thing I can do and it feels more like a weird abstract concept #than a thing I could actually do. it's like my brain can't connect the concept of the action to the act of doing it #and then I get frustrated because why can't I just do the thing that I know I should be able to do #and then I've spent hours not doing anything I meant to and mostly just feel like shit because of it and it keeps happening #and now I need to lay down and I know what's likely to happen if I do that #but I do need to listen to my body especially after getting stuck in a situation that makes our pain and fatigue worse #also we had to take pain meds earlier and that's definitely not helping with us feeling shit emotionally about all this #I hate having to navigate our brain and body just not functioning properly #I feel like we've had so little energy lately and it's reminding me too much of this time last year when we had that blood infection #I'm terrified of that happening again because we almost didn't get treatment because we started to assume it was just our new baseline #hmm apparently within like 5 minutes we've gone from ''ugh I wasted 3 hours'' to almost crying over medical trauma #I probably need to try and do something to calm us down but also I'm too tired to really do anything #which brings me right back to the issue that triggered this whole rant and me getting upset in the first place

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dirtbra1n · 2 years

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I am seriously unbelievably mentally ill LISTEN. LISTEN TO ME it’s the curiosity and will to learn and endearment it’s the way they both take earnest enjoyment in being silly and the way that tashiro always takes masato’s open eyed Moments in stride. it’s the push and pull cat and mouse detective work exercise of one’s mind and gut busting laughter it’s a court jester and his king it’s normal weird guy and weird normal guy and they take turns being one or the other. it’s the fact that tashiro used to be shorter than masato but isn’t anymore. it’s the fact that the next ping pong club president HAD to be tashiro gonzaburou, and the fact that hanzawa masato persistently kept after him over it. it’s tashiro realizing exactly how much his senpai has on his plate and choosing to take on that burden of his own accord. it’s telling hanzawa senpai “Get some rest!” and hanzawa senpai replying, on the floor to tashiro’s left with the peace offering drink in hand, peaceful as we’ve maybe EVER seen him, “Well, I’m resting right now.” like sorry for being so fully insane but. isn’t that just love? hasn’t it kind of always been love?

(weird love.)

(semantics, sure, but you get it.)

#i’m frothing at the mouth. SORRY!!!!#hanzawa to tashiro #so it’s been more than half an hour. which is. to be expected #like I DON’T KNOW i’m going to burst into tears. like suddenly i am going to burst into tears #and the open eyed Moments are SO important to me. for SO MANY REASONS [distantly] FUCK #I’M SO NORMAL. I’M SO NORMAL AND REGULAR [from even farther away] FUCK!!!!!!#i’ve gotta stop seriously. have i ever explained why i call masato masato though #it’s because i’ve spent so much time in his brain and mind and also like. viscera Yeah typical i know #that it’d feel WEIRD if i called him anything different. like he’s part of me now #and also i get enough sibling emotion from thinking about his family that it’d be silly to use the family name hanzawa OKAY ENOUGH #when i start calling tashiro ‘gonzaburou’ one of you will need to take me down. like a boss fight #[swishes my cape and vanishes into the night]#(or river. hauntings [comma] you understand.)#dirtbrain digression

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soft-serve-soymilk · 1 year

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Tried challenging the elite four today… I almost felt like crying 😅

#THIS IS A KID’S GAME #GRANTED I CHOSE AN OLDER ONE IN THE SERIES FOR THE INCREASED DIFFICULTY #But I’m long past the point of realising that was a mistake 😅#IGN Guide be like: Make sure your pokemon are all above level 50!! :D You got this!!!#Me who’s mons average 45 and one that sits at 39: 😦🫡 (rip meringue I can’t bench u now you have no replacement)#Look I LIKE battling in games. Just nowhere in the amounts they want me to #Being able to increase the amount of exp earned is a must 😅. Or at least make the game feasible to beat via attrition warfare #Like that one time I spent 40 minutes taking down Tiamat on my first Zesty playthrough #Or when I first faced kunino-sagiri in P4 as a smol child (Dolphin dw that’s not a spoiler :>) which took an hour #I am determined if the game lets me. But Pokemon doesn’t :(#Can’t item spam bc it goes nowhere if no damage is being dealt #And items don’t come back if you lose so like good luck rebuying all those hyper potions and revives lol #Back to grinding for meeeeeeee #just pav things

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warlordfelwinter · 2 years

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girl you don't have time for him to list all his dark emotions

#fel's ffxiv #endwalker lb #oc: fiver #i spent like 2 hours playing in anamnesis #didn't take any screenshots #and got bored and went back to msq #which is about what i expected from me as a person #i DID make myself laugh bc g'raha's too fucking short for couple poses with fiver #gonna have to make fiver bend down in any i use bc his husband is pocket sized #anyway i love that part of this quest is reassuring hermes that he isn't the only depressed person in the universe

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eisthenameofme · 2 years

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The limitations of having to work with a human body that requires energy are deeply frustrating

#by which i mean that apparently if you work on memorizing pieces #on a new instrument all day #and then try to do the same thing the next day #you will be So Tired #which is annoying because i don't actually like. Want to stop #it was funny though because i kept drinking coffee hoping i just wasn't awake yet and. No.#then i thought i might be getting sick or something #but. also no. I've just spent way too much time learning to play the piano.#irritating.#i have literally had to just like. Stop and go lay down #it probably also doesnt help that i am literally just memorizing songs bit by bit instead of like. using sheet music or any formal training #me: why the fuck am i so tired. this must not have anything at all to do with playing #a new instrument for several hours consecutively. anyway time to keep learning lacrimosa-#i legitimately just forgot that memorization takes processing power lmao #mypost

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regular-lord-reckoner · 2 years

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update on the stone: it’s still kicking around in there apparently :/

i was fine yesterday, didn’t have to take any pain medicine or anything and i was fine when i woke up this morning but around mid afternoon it started up again so that’s...awesome

i kinda had a feeling it wasn’t quite done because it’s been pretty sore back there but today it really kicked into gear again so i am presently guzzling water and hoping for the best

h-happy halloween :’)

#i mean listen #i have the day off tomorrow #i have two 150 mg delta 8 edibles and other wares #my mom needs to take my car to work tomorrow because hers broke down #side note: that's how i spent my day yesterday!!#waiting for them to get towed back from where they broke down #which was over an hour away #and i had to meet them in a creepy closed parking area to take them home #fun stuff but anyway #she's got my car so i'm not going anywhere #so unless i'm having some kind of medical emergency i WILL have a good day tomorrow #and i hope everyone does as well!!

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mainfaggot · 2 years

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I have done nothing all day.

#i spent 4 hours around my family which was very exhausting i wont lie #everyone is home so i decided to stay sitting around during brunch and talked about this and that and had a couple minor arguments too #and then went back to chatting normally but its weird i don't know #i just feel like i dont belong and i feel alone even when im with them #they care about me they do a lot but i feel weird about it i feel like i dont deserve any of it sometimes #i feel like logically they should and need to take care of me but also i feel like from an emotional standpoint #it doesn't make sense that they do so #i have nothing to offer. i will never be as good as my older sister #its like deep down they wish that i would evolve into someone like her so they put all these resources into maintaining my health #i feel so weird #oh also i haven't done any hw today which is so bad bc my two finals that will make or break my gpa are in 3 weeks and my final english #essay is due in 12 days and i haven't started the outline #and like yeah 12 days is a lot but not when i also have to go to classes 4 days a week and do self study sessions for classes on the wkends #and also like other small assignments etc #z.post

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