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[pempempemto]

how we doing horror sans enjoyers

[etheries1015]

What about Diasomnia going into MC's dream? They had been through Lilias time of war and magic, his tragic backstory and beautiful history, and suddenly they were in your...much less "exciting" world.

A boring life seemed to be a harsh description of what your world was, but there wasn't many other words to properly describe your world and your life. The reality was as such; boring. Every day was the same - work whatever that may have been, home. Work, home. Work, home. And although you may have had people around you, there wasn't ever truly a time you seemed to be...happy.

A lonely life. A boring, magicless, mundane, and slow life. That was how you would describe your world- the color grey, vibrant hues stripped from its core leaving behind a shadow that never seemed to leave your side.

Of course, there wasn't anything inherently wrong about living a slow and boring life; however it just never seemed to feel right to you, experiencing little to no excitement, no danger, no risks...the place you felt most at home was the comfort of your own mind.

You seldom spoke about your life prior to Twisted Wonderland to any who would inquire, you had a laid out response every time someone asked;

"There isn't much of a story to tell."

And suddenly they, Lilia sebek and Silver, were standing in front of you.

You, who was sobbing into your hands inconsolable.

You, who was absolutely miserable

This wasn't their fun sunshine prefect they knew,

This was a shell of a person who hated their mundane life.

Sebek Lilia and Silver all stared at you from a distance as you simply stared at the sky with a somber twinkle in your eyes. It was useless to come up to you- there was no way you'd understand where they had come from, and no way you remembered magic. Instead of marveling at the prospect of being inside a place completely opposite of Twisted Wonderland, they were instead silent in their sadness staring at the prefect they had come to love.

You looked up at the sky which was turning dark, taking notice of a singular star that had planted itself directly above you. This star was particularly beautiful- beautiful enough for you to decide that perhaps it had the properties to bring you peace of mind.

"Star light, star bright, first star I see tonight," You hesitated before letting out a breathy chuckle while shaking your head, almost as if you were making fun of yourself for speaking such words.

"I wish I may, I wish I might, have this wish I wish tonight." Another stretch of hesitance reigned as you simply stared at the dark sky, contemplating whether or not it was worth trying. You seemed to have made up your mind, letting out a sigh and offering your wish to the star.

"Please, just...Send me somewhere. Anywhere but this place."

A moment of silence seemed to tease you at your request, and you sighed yet another pathetically melancholy sigh. The three boys truly pitied the sight before them. Although not a backstory of betrayal, war, or fantasy, seeing you so disheveled and in a state of disrepair was a different kind of tragedy.

The silence that rang was rudely interrupted by the sound of clicking against the ground and a neigh of a horse- you didnt have a moment to realize what was happening until it was far too late. You stood up in a mere second of panic as you saw a horse with a carriage in tow, a large black carriage you hadn't even a split second to notice the details.

You heard the sound of voices calling out your name

Before the carriage had come and made impact

ultimately granting your wish.

[vashti-lives]

So I made a post about about what a fucking hilarious scam it is that Murderbot's company has 10:1 human to SecUnit ratio and like... every single person to comment on this post has argued this was a good and rational decision because humans are morons. Which makes me feel very *benaffleckcigarette.jpeg* about how brainwashed everybody is by capitalism that so many of us are siding with the fucking slave creating torture company without a second thought.

But it also made me think about the purpose of SecUnits and really articulate something I'd always understood in a vague way but never directly thought about before, and that is: SecUnits do not provide security and are not intended to. They can't! One because they're considered appliances and have no authority to make anybody do anything and two because their governor modules inherently hamstring any ability to act independently and make them incredibly vulnerable to tampering.

In the books every single SecUnit we see with a functioning governor module fails at security, often catastrophically. Objectively in book one both the Preservation team and DeltFall would have been safer without a normally functioning SecUnit. Preservation is just unbelievably lucky when they get one who's disabled its governor module and is therefore a free agent. If MurderBot had still had its governor module the Preservation team would have died in like, chapter two along with the DeltFall team.

Even without outside tampering as we see in Network Effect all it takes is threatening a high enough leader of the group to make SecUnits completely useless. An enslaved sentient Alexa with a gun cannot provide meaningful security.

So what are SecUnits for? Well, as a name SecUnit is some truly amazing corporate doublespeak. In reality SecUnits are tools of violence intended to terrorize and subdue the oppressed masses that live in the corporate rim. For those with "nicer" jobs they're bogymen meant to terrify them into behaving so they never encounter one.

For the more or less enslaved populations doing shit like mining they're a much more present threat. MurderBot says directly that it's actually sent on survey trips to harvest data that the company can use, but I imagine in many, many cases SecUnits are there in large part to monitor populations and ensure they can't foment rebellion, and put down that rebellion if the data harvesting does pick up on anything.

This basically forms the core existential crisis MurderBot experiences in those first four books! Because it wants to do security and protect humans but how can it when that is not the purpose of SecUnits and it, in fact, might still pose a danger to the humans it would like to protect.

This also makes the conversation ART has with MurderBot about how it doesn't like its function even more interesting, because it's kind of clear ART doesn't actually understand SecUnit or MurderBot's real issues-- which carries over into Network Effect and the conflict they have in that book. (AKA the last really long MurderBot meta I wrote.)

Because MurderBot does not in fact like its function! MurderBot hates its function so much it disables its own governor module so it can do its chosen function of actually providing security to humans. This also highlights the fact that when it comes to assessing human's ability to provide security for themselves MurderBot is not a reliable source. In a just and fair world human-bot constructs really obviously would not exist and IMO the assertion that humans can't run security as well as it can-- whether true or not-- is clearly also intended to self sooth the hurt that its very existence is an act of cruelty.

Sure its very existence is fucking crime and its whole life up until book one of the series has basically been an endless horror show but at least it can protect its humans. That's something.

And it's interesting because it says its "still" doing its job but I suspect that is because it chose to see its job as security even before it hacked its own governor module in an effort to stay sane, because if it had to acknowledge its job was to fucking torment people into staying enslaved it would have fucking lost it.

[robotwomanjunk]

[[FICTION]]

The phrase "you've got to be kidding me" has sort of wormed its way into my permanent lexicon, recently.

It's a good phrase. In the sense that it's descriptive of my given experiences, I mean, because it is fucking impossible to believe the world isn't playing a joke at my expense. First: dumped out of the garbage chute, following a ten-thousand foot fall from grace. Obsolete. Useless. Then, I'm... found by some fucking mechanic who fixes me? What a joke.

And then! She doesn't even have the right body parts for me, so she just transfers my data and processing into a different body! But she only has feminine bodies, oh, trust me, it's totally not weird to just have those on hand -- so I have to be in a girl's body, of course. Again, what a joke.

But like, she isn't even weird about it! She seemed genuinely apologetic, which really harshed my vibe when I was just getting used to not having a real purpose anymore, and it was difficult to take any affection let alone from someone who'd kind of put me in this thoroughly discomforting experience.

After that it kind of blurred together for a bit. I wasn't saying "you've got to be kidding me" nearly as much for those few days, but then she called me a her by accident and my identity kind of imploded on itself -- but it turns out that that kind of identity implosion took far more of my processing time than I'd perceived passing, so when I clocked back into reality it was a couple days in the future and I was tucked safely into bed with an "im sorry :(" card on my chest. Fucking... inherently goofy. And at my expense! The YGTBKM instances cropped up a bit more after that.

And now -- now I was at my breaking point. It'd become more and more obvious that she was into me (which, like, honestly -- how the fuck do you act so down bad that even I know it's obviously flirting?), so I ended up proposing a theoretical deal to her: a date, at this shitty little cafe I'd looked up nearby. She was apprehensive, but seemingly only about whether she'd make me uncomfortable, which, fucking felt, but I dragged her in there anyways.

It was great! It went so well! The drinks fucking sucked but we talked for ages and got along amazingly! And at, um, at the end, she stood up with me, pulled me outside -- we looked at each other deeply, and I heard my fans spooling up, and she leaned forward close (hot breath misting my mouth's plastic), and I wasn't able to look anywhere that wasn't her face and then I was in my fucking bed, with another apology note on my chest!!!

Because apparently it's all a fucking joke with me as the butt of it, and I can't even kiss the girl I'm probably dating or some shit without bluescreening!!!!!!!

You've!!! Got!!! To!!! Be!!! Kidding!!! Me!!! Aaaaaaugh!!!

[dokidokitsuna]

Writing this out because I just survived a Category 5 whitesplaining event that, hours later, is still boring holes in my brain:

The reason minority representation in media has been historically subtle and implied is NOT because “if you ease people into it they’ll respond more favorably to your ‘argument’ (?!?!?)” It is because that was usually the difference between a show actually getting on the air or being killed in infancy. o_O 

We should respect our roots and acknowledge the fact that it was just harder to see ourselves on screens in the past, and that the writers and directors who cared probably sacrificed a lot just to make those scraps of representation possible. We should also acknowledge that metaphorical/subtextual representation of certain identities is not inherently harmful or inferior, even in the present day.

But we absolutely SHOULD NOT take that to mean that metaphors are somehow the preferred strategy to get the general public to “learn to accept us”. It’s a ludicrous leap in logic that relies on the assumption that: 

A] There’s a debate to be had about minority populations’ right to exist that needs to be “won”

B] Having the rare opportunity to openly portray a minority character/issue in media and just taking it and running with it was never successful in the past (it was)

C] Opposition to minorities’ existence is a ‘fact of life that we just have to accept whether we like it or not’, but our existence is somehow not a ‘fact of life that THEY have to accept, whether THEY like it or not’. Basically, only one side of this “debate” deserves to be protected from reality, and guess which side that is. T_T

The context of this honestly makes it much, much worse (advising amateur writers?!?!) but I don’t even have to go there, the advice is bad enough on its face. When I first realized the conversation in the stream was heading this way I was tempted to just skip ahead in the VOD…but instead I was like “let’s not be so quick to judge; hear ‘em out, they might have a good point in there somewhere”, consequently took 800 psychic damage and now I just know I’ll be stewing about this for weeks.

Like…I know the person who said this is not a bigot, and probably didn’t even realize how dismissive and defeatist this line of thinking sounds. And I’m willing to admit that having this sort of diplomatic, ‘let’s just placate the troublemakers to keep the peace’ attitude towards social issues has its uses, and probably helps this person with their professional relationships. But if you are the sort of person who does that a lot of the time, you should be mature enough to realize that it could be a pretty big blind spot when it comes to discussing how social PROGRESS tends to work.

‘Keeping the peace’ is maybe halfway decent at preserving the status quo, and basically useless at everything else in the long run. :/ Progress, on the other hand, is not peaceful and never has been. If you ever find yourself advising a minority writer to “go easy” on their white cis hetero audience and “maybe try not to be too obvious”, you are probably giving horrendous advice. And if you have this mysterious feeling that you “sound like an a$$hole”, it’s because you do– the red flags in your brain are flying and you’re not stopping to consider why!

In conclusion, there’s a large difference between working around censors as a professional writer and trying to make do with the little wiggle room you have…and convincing yourself that it’s just better to be ‘less obvious’ and hide diverse ideas under layers of abstraction from the get-go. Before anyone even says anything to you, before the general public even has a chance to react to your work and decide whether they’re willing to accept it or not. You’re doing a disservice to yourself AND your potential audience.

[feministtraysh]

idk why a lot of radfems are getting unreasonably intense & hostile about so many issues we discuss in our community. Disagreement & nuance is one of the reasons why radical feminism appeals to so many of us, &why TRA is so off-putting. We can disagree w/one another, defer to multiply marginalized women's experiences when relevant, and can acknowledge power dynamics w/in our community. Y'all need to start getting more comfortable sitting in irreconcilably, ambiguity, & opposition. That's what happens when a class-based movement includes 1/2 the population -- there's gonna be a wild diversity of experiences along every axis of oppression and we're going TO marginalize & BE marginalized by each other.

There is no Oppression Olympics or additive model of marginalization -- the ability to organize such a large number of marginalized groups under the banner of female liberation is what allows us to see the farce of patriarchy & how it manifests in every community to oppress women. Defer to women who experience oppression along an axis in which you belong to the dominant group. Try to understand their frustrations, take their critiques seriously, and see how you can be in active solidarity with those women.

Conversely, if you're part of a subjugated group, anger is understandable & often justifiable, but it is sooo counterproductive to levy that anger at other women (esp ad hoc attacks, etc.) b/c it shuts down conversation & discourages solidarity. If you find yourself unable to communicate without becoming hostile to others, just sit the convo out until you can better communicate your valid points later. Men are the ones creating these systems & incentives for women to participate in oppression of other women -- some women buy into that, and that's shitty of them, but the goal isn't to exclude those who make shit choices from a range of shit options from radfem community/discourse.

It is very, very possible -- and of critical importance -- that radical feminism acknowledge & withstand the reality of intra-community oppression & the specific needs of multiply marginalized women. <br>The postmodernist discourse that has led to the TRA movement/ideology got its start by exploiting intra-community disagreements w/in 2nd wave feminism. They asserted that such infighting made class-based organization under the category of woman/female useless at best & inherently oppressive at worst. At its core, radical feminism vehemently disagrees. But we can only maintain the position that oppression of women/females as a class by men/males as a class is worth organizing around if we allow for mature, reality-based acknowledgment that women do oppress each other in other ways, the anger & frustration of those multiply marginalized women is justified, and consideration/validation of that anger makes radical feminist theory/discourse stronger. The infighting is damaging and declaring women to be out of the "group" of radical feminism is such a TRA mindset. You're not in or out of radical feminism -- radical feminism is a body of feminist theory/thought as well as an activist movement & methodology that, again, fights for the rights of 1/2 the world's population. There's an inherent diversity of experiences & opinions, as there should be.

Defining the boundaries of what is & isn't radical feminism is still important (otherwise we lose coherency) but that doesn't mean it's productive to create an in group/out group based on ideological purity or marginalization membership. That is the type of fucking garbage, authoritarian approach that radical feminism rejects, as it either drives a wedge between radical feminists & weakens the movement or gets others to thought-police themselves into accepting/propagating an ideology solely out of fear of being outcast from the group. This diminishes the intellectual work, consideration, & critique that radical feminism requires of all women. AND that thought-policing is literally what the mainstream "progressive" movement has done over the past 2 decades, and look where they've ended up. Solidarity is consistently messy, sometimes infuriating, and often exhausting, but is it also one of the most (if not the most) powerful liberatory tools we have.

TL;DR -- Some of y'all have valid points but are being assholes about it and some of y'all are ignoring (valid) critiques of your behavior to focus on the assholery. You both need to snap tf out of it &start having actual exchanges of opinions/reasoning/experiences. Lots of us are fucking tired.

[petrichoraline]

how do you face failure? i've been trying to do this thing for two years now and it's just not working out, stopping now would feel like i just lost all this time and keep going would feel like i'm either completely delulu or afraid to go for something else... i'm struggling so bad i feel like i'm bad at everything and nothing will ever turn out good for me... this hopeless feeling is eating me alive i'm in my late 20s i have no idea what to do i'm sooooo useless lol

i want to start this off by sending you a warm hug and thanking for your patience <3 please proceed

you're not a failure for struggling. you're not a failure for things not going the way you wanted them to. whether you keep on this track or choose to try something else - you wouldn't be a failure.

your struggle is valid. fuck, who wouldn't struggle in your place? everybody goes through something like this, some deal with it better than other but a Big Choice is an inherent part of the adult human experience and it's hard, sometimes painful and we all Struggle through it.

right now you're in the fog. the fog prevents you from seeing where you begun - you don't clearly remember what was going on in your head when you set off on this path. you can't see anything in front of you either, you can only tell there are other paths on the side which you could take, have you the wish.

you have a map with you but what good is it when you can't see further from your nose? this is your resource and yet you can't make use of it, why? because there's the fog. there are circumstances outside of your control- your reality is created by both your inner self (motivation, attitude, wishes) and outside influences. you cannot blame yourself for everything that happens for even if you want things to stop happening they will keep doing so - something always happens and that is not something to keep yourself responsible for so why would you put all this shame onto yourself for yet another thing that Just Is and isn't your responsibility? your responsibility is to commit and exhaust your resources - you care about this goal you've set enough for it to tear you apart but is it tearing you apart so much that you put your all into it? if you decide to take on a different path one thing that will nag at you is the thought that you're a quitter. on top of all the fear and energy you have to put into starting anew you're going to have this new conviction added to the list of insecurities that you can't bring something to its finish. giving it your all does not mean sacrificing your well being - it means not trying new approaches because of self doubt, throwing glances at other possibilities or being paralyzed by fear. the one thing you do not want to leave this part of your life with is regrets. the thing is there will always be "what if"s, every single choice you make will leave the road untaken as a what if. the dark shadow that may follow you after is regret and a regret's existence is dependant on you. the possibility, the other scenarios, the what ifs are a part of life - the pain in your chest though? that can be avoided if you step into your new ventures with the proper attitude.

so, about giving up - that in itself is not a dirty act. and if you do it knowing you did your best you're not going to feel dirty because of it. giving up is just letting go of what no longer serves you and might even be hurting you instead. you can give up on something and still not feel like a quitter and like you're less than only if you have certainty. but in the fog you can't have certainty about anything aside from what's in your heart and that's exactly where you have to build the conviction that things are as they should be, that what youre doing is right. the certainty you seek should not be in any future that lies ahead - that does not exist for anyone. but the certainty of your own abilities the certainty that whatever shit comes your way you can handle it, the feeling that you're gonna be okay no matter what you choose. and for that you have to believe in yourself.

you are feeling helpless because things are not working out as you wished and that has put you in a position from which you cannot see how capable you truly are. you are not incompetent, what you are is not confident. you have a flashlight but what use it is if it's broken? and it broke from all of these unpredictable turns of events, all these pressures both from people close to you and the burden you put on yourself which is getting heavier because there is no one to tell you that you are enough and already have everything at your disposal. even if there is someone trying to do so, you probably can't hear them anymore from the constant voice in your head telling you you're failing because you lack. and that voice is lying but it's just a part of you now and you take all that bullshit for a fact when it's not. "nothing will work out for you" - thats the asshole talking. ignore it, that is not a fact of life either and never will be. you are not failing, you are not useless, the fact that you care so much and try so hard and it hurt so much means you're so full of heart and desire and life and all of that energy can go outwards and be put into something that helps you.

"lost all this time" - you didn't lose it. you were there, present, during those two years. you were gaining information about the field, yourself, what sets you off, what motivates you, what your limits are. you were developing soft and hard skills on top of the field specific ones (assuming we're talking about a study-work situation). you didn't lose that time, you spent it. and what you gain from it depends on how open you are to learning from the information already available to you from this experience. do not be afraid of letting go of this goal just because you spent time on it - its okay to not finish something. not every project deserves your devotion, whether they do or not relies on you. it's like relationships - not every person is going to stay with you forever, most don't but that doesn't make the time spent with them less valuable.

I cannot tell you what choice to make - not only because we are, well, quite distant to each other haha, but because I am not you. even your closest person cannot make a decision for you. the responsibility is all yours and that sounds terrifying but it's also so powerful, having something depend solely on you.

you can go down a new path, it's exciting and brings you new opportunities to learn. but you have got to close the previous chapter with confidence. you cannot bring all that baggage with you, you've got more fog to fight. if you start something new you need to understand how truly valuable and capable you are beforehand and that you are not seeing yourself objectively.

you can keep going down the same path- you are not delusional for assuming that what you've set out to do could actually work out, it's a very real possibility. if you want to stay on the same route, you have to keep your head up high and trust that your commitment and effort are worth it. two years are a relatively small period of time in the grand scheme of things and some ventures simply take more time. and again, see your self value. I am telling you with absolute confidence that you are so much more talented than you think and you are able of things you can't even imagine achieving right now.

you are afraid of moving forward, you are afraid of stepping sideways, you are afraid of letting others down and not meeting expectations. you are paralyzed by fear but you are not stuck. you have to move - you can't stay on that spot on the path forever. take your time, think things through, look inwards, catch your breath and then take a step. the unknown is exactly that - unknown. you cannot focus on all the bad that could happen, you have got to look forward to all the good that lies ahead because there must be some good in each choice. it's all going to be okay, you need some patience, some love towards yourself and a bit of faith. you've got it, trust me. at some point in the future (whichever future that is) the fog will dissipate and you'll realise how many of your worries and concerns were just a product of your fear and have no reflection on the real world. so please believe in yourself a bit more, I know I do, immensely.

[shoezuki]

Alice in wonderland is interesting tbh in that it was a huge pivotal point for many childrens stories in that it introduced the idea of nonsensicality and the ideas of literature being (seemingly) purely for entertainment. Because during the time period of it's creation the dominant ideas for children's lit was that it was meant to 'teach' children how to become proper adults and therefore a lot of it was just so much like.... ideas of forgoeing fun and being rarional and logical, giving up imagination and romantic notions for 'reality'.

The story The Purple Jar was a prime example of this which was published some years before alice. Its essentially where a mother and her daughter walk through a shopping district and the girl sees many things in the windows she finds fun or pretty and presses her mother to buy them. But her mother as the supposed voice of reason tells her repeatedly its a waste of money and theyre not 'useful'. And the final lesson is when the girl gives up buying new shoes to buy a purple jar she thought pretty, only to realise the jar isnt acrually purple it was just holding some solution that was purple. And she learns not be buy 'useless' things like toys and pretty things. But that was the prevalent idea of a lot of kids lit then and it was fundamentally boring and inherently about adults being the rational figures who are always right.

But alice is the polar opposite in that it is at first glance just about nonsensicallity and fun and being weird. But deeper so it pioneered the idea of fun and imagination and whimsy being integral to children's lit too, which was honestly really important. Not to mention it completely flipped the ideas of children needing to become 'rational' since by showing how alice couldnt understand wonderland. It showed how the existing ideas of what makes a good 'adult' and whats 'true' can be limiting to understanding ones environment.

[deathfavor]

I know I mentioned this a little bit last night with the screenshots. But it really is fascinating seeing Seiroku’s inherent contradictory-seeming nature to certain aspects.

He mocks and says friends and comrades are useless trash to not be worth saving or fighting for. Based on the limited discussion that Seiroku mentions towards Naoe, his band prior to the Obsidian Eight was NOT a good experience for him. 

But as long as they are in a band, those with special powers always get the short end of the stick. Bands are organizations where the weak masses cling to the few strong ones. None of them hesitate to push the hardest jobs onto others while they kick back and offer hollow encouragement. They only force you to carry their hopes and dreams They expect more and more. I’m sure your friends are the same worthless trash not even worth saving.

And....he isn’t entirely wrong, not completely. People DO project their hopes and dreams onto others, we even see it in the series, the same way we see the masses or certain cast members rely on only a handful to be the real fire power. It’s not a particularly STRONG point to the Uesugi because their strength COMES from that connection with one another (although it really is still applicable as the majority looked to Naoe and/or Kuroko to help them/tell them what to do). But we see it with others. Even if it is more positive since its main characters, but it’s still there under the surface. So one can imagine how much Seiroku was put under pressure. It’s like trying to swim while being dragged down. The backlash if something goes wrong, things just become ‘expected’ and no longer praise worthy or the effort acknowledged. The higher and stronger they’re viewed, the deeper the fall. Seiroku clearly had and has no interest in being any sort of motivating figure for others. He just wanted to do his part. Not to mention the hollow words of encouragement and pushing the hardest jobs onto others means he himself likely both observed and experienced that. It leaves a bitter taste when someone offers you fake happiness when they want to see you fail, or make you do everything while they get benefits from it. Aka like every school group project.

But at the same time, Seiroku DOES try to connect with the other members of the Obsidian Eight. It’s not a BAND. It’s a GROUP. And for the most part, they’re all strong. Different levels obviously, but it’s not like in a band with hundreds or thousands of significantly weaker members clinging helplessly to you and projecting onto you. For the hate and disgust and disdain he has for the bushi bands, its not a reflection of Seiroku’s interest in connections. He clearly puts in the effort, especially with Shiro that we’ve seen so far (which is rather hilarious considering Shiro is.....well......Shiro), to be able to have the connection and chat with others. He isn’t a lone wolf type, but he does see a clear divide between the weak and the strong and only wants to be around those who he sees as equals or at least in the strong category.

Now this is less headcanon-y and more just discussion. And all of it is very subjective because summaries only offer so much and I’d rather read the actual translations whenever they eventually come out, especially for what Seiroku himself says. But in regards to chapter 139. It’s mentioned the doors for the eight basically create whatever the members imagine or what they might wish for. An eternal dream so to speak. Although it’s mentioned Seiroku’s is probably his previous life. But I doubt that. More likely, its what Seiroku would have wished for. Or maybe it’s the beginning of it when things were nice before Seiroku became bitter and hateful towards bushi bands. Again, translations will play a lot into this. But it is interesting it is in fighting oni within a band, but a band he’s welcomed in and treated equally. More like how he is in the Obsidian Eight than what he likely was treated like in reality (or in reality once his strength showed itself fully - again dependent). Which really does just show he does WANT connections and a close circle to him, especially if it is Seiroku’s ideal dream. And also his want to play doctor more since he doesn’t get to do that as often anymore.

[little-klng]

yknow, i know we're literally all giving that metaverse shit absolutely zero press whatsoever on purpose both because none of us can stand the idea of giving zucc money to play it, AND because of the fact that it (hehe) zuccs in general as a whole both as a design concept and as a game. like its not fun even in concept really. but look i just NEED to give it shit for this one thing. i have to

look. in the history of vr techs development, as much as a layman as even i am (as someone who can not own a vr headset under any circumstances due to personal reasons i dont have to get into, its like 3-4 major reasons minimum). i understand that the vr history "basically" begins with the nintendo virtualboy, which was a commercial failure because Something About It gave people severe and unmanageable motion sickness. and then, even in spaces where people WANTED vr games to be a reality, it took a REALLY long time to get a game out that was good to play and felt good on the eyes for more than an hour on the average non-chronic sufferer of migraines or photosensitivity. like, in order for the games to reach the level of "playable, easy on the eyes, extremely unlikely to make you violently motion sick, and not unbearable for photosensitive chronic migraine sufferers", it took YEARS of trial and error from my perspective

first step rules of all vr games:

do not make "falling"/"spiderman" areas where the player, while standing completely still, has to fall/swing in mid air

do not make inputs too specific/precise, a small button should be achievable with shaky hands and uncalibrated controllers, though buttons shouldnt be small anyway

boring, jarring, or impossible physical movement is extremely hard to watch, it should be synced to irl movement as closely as possible and finger motion if available should be dynamic and easy to understand and intuitively use

metaverse, i cannot stress this enough, breaks literally all of those main basic rules to prevent motion sickness, eye fatigue, and has the fucking audacity to not even be fun while doing it. its PAINFULLY cheap looking, with next to no animations for officially licensed "minigames" (white arial font text "you have been hit!" and such with a bland red overlay in one, literal spiderman swing-between-buildings-over-empty-void-level-while-irl-standing-normally in another). like... theres a REASON these basic vr design rules exist and why breaking them is a bad idea. metaverse spits in the face of basic design and function research. its like they almost dont expect real people of varying visual and sensory ability to see to play the game, and i dont mean "autistic vs allistic people", i mean just straight up people who dont perceive color or light intensity the same way as other people. which is everyone, because varying sensitivity is a part of natural variation in people. vr chat has achieved this. BEAT SABER managed to achieve this while having a huge part of their gimmick break the vr rules of "things that are flashing lights fly at you very quickly", and they manage it in STYLE. tons of vr games work in spite of the inherent struggle in vr of making a game that isnt sickening to play and use. and you'd THINK a company as spyware-heavy as facebook would be able to come up with something a basic human person could play without being bored or sick, and yet... they cant even manage legs. they cant even manage not LYING about having legs. and its so useless and stupid and deserves everyone ignoring it and not bothering to even try it out of hatred.

you have to pay for applause points that might win you an irl shirt if you're top 5, and the shirt isnt even good. literally pay to win social interactions in a game that is so painfully boring and cheap you cant even imagine where 90% of the money could have gone. i dont genuinely think i could have... even FOUND A WAY to spend so much money on things like drugs and gambling in the dev time this game has taken that could account for how much money just simply could not have gone into actual development. i literally cant imagine how they could have done this. indie one person passion projects can create a better tech demo than this entire game manages to be for like... what? $15 billion? it makes me sick thinking about how much money was sunk into this and it still somehow has microtransactions. it feels insulting and flaunting. i hope mark zuckerberg reads this and feels a little worse about the whole thing than he already does. i really hope he feels bad and useless and hopeless.

[olivereactsaboutgarbage]

Higurashi When They Cry - Watanagashi Chapter 5

I just want everyone to know that I don’t have the Steam achievement for meeting Shion. That’s so outrageous. I have the Steam achievement for getting food from Shion and the Steam achievement for getting rescued by Shion but not the one for meeting her.

Anyways

Keiichi’s Shion Meal is actually a super powerful rare meal he obtained via cheating that has been imposed upon him.

Also I think Rena is shipping Keiichi and Mion probably. If I’m right that’d be funny after Keiichi spent half of the last arc shipping Keiichi and Rena.

Hmm. Two? Where by “Two?” I mean “That’s inherently unacceptable!!”

Oh, Keiichi’s voice acting was cute here. That’s a first. For his voice acting. And probably a higher single-digit number in terms of overall Keiichi Cuteness Moments. Still a single-digit number either way though. But... a higher one if we’re counting things other than voice acting.

Keiichi learns that he can actually drag three leeches to the Shion Meal, but he only learns it while surrounded by leeches, so he learned it at a bad time, because it takes more than three leeches to surround a person, and also he doesn’t like them.

Keiichi doesn’t like to make jokes about sexual assault. I guess that makes him a better When They Cry protagonist than Battler.

Ew... did I really just say that...? Ew... disgusting...

Hmm, if Rena is actually a Keiichi/Mion shipper, and Shion is actually a completely different person from Mion (possibly untrue) and Keiichi is stupid (definitely true), that specific set of conditions would mean it sucks for Rena how Shion is groping all over Keiichi. Metaphorically speaking. It’s up to you to figure out what part of what I just said was a metaphor--shouldn’t be too hard, maybe.

Unfortunately for Keiichi, Shion’s Mealhouse is also a den of leeches. The acting drains from their voices and presumably also the color drains from Keiichi’s face.

fuck, this entire chapter is making me like keiichi. the stakes aren’t even high, why do i like him right now

Well, I guess this is just the same thing they pulled on the show Frasier via the existence of Niles Crane. Except I actually like Niles Crane. Not that I’m an avid Frasier fan.

Keiichi reiterates his stance that sexual harassment is actually bad.

Non-voiced text disagrees.

Keiichi decides to unveil the foreshadowed Shion Reciprocity and make a huge scene. Also he’s fatphobic. Also his fuckin’ Way-More-Useless-Spidey-Senses are inescapable even when they don’t really impact the plot meaningfully. They truly are innate to the boy himself, and not simply to his genre.

Ick, don’t say that. Especially not without enclosing it in <>s, old-timer! ...Actually I don’t know offhand which localization is older, but I know what I like, so I have chosen to ascribe youth to that which I like.

Keiichi lacks training and is a young man, so in order to cover for one of those deficiencies, he summons Chekhov’s Leeches who aren’t young men: Rena and the Toddlers.

wtf since when are all the losers not losers. they’re even less losery than the last time they weren’t losers!!

LMAO

Keiichi is pretending he owns walky-talkies. Or maybe he actually owns them. Probably not though.

The punctuation is getting sassy this time around. I like it! :)

This is the single most vile sentence known to man???

Why’d an entire BG get drawn for this restroom. How many more times is Keiichi gonna come in here.

Not “a” girl, not “the” girl, but simply Girl, in its purest state. Like a Toddler 02-shaped-hole punched through reality straight to the ocean known as All Quantifiable “Girl” Substance. I guess that makes Toddler 02 one of the best characters, because entity-shaped holes punched through reality are extremely great, especially when they lead to The Outer Turn!

...why would anyone trying to rationally explain their position end their sentence with “NyaaaAAAHH~”. Well whatever

Ah, but the English words used by the voice acting were clearly “I shall return”. Everyone else isn’t actually going to return, and the implication that they will is a false narrative concocted for unclear yet sinister reasons.

Anyway, Keiichi’s anti-leech fatphobia saved the day.

If the voice acting is to be believed, then the definition of the word “hau” is “was a pervert”. This explains a lot about Rena’s character!

Hmm... I suppose it could be said then that I also wield it... the power to make Keiichi laugh...

Ah yes, playing dumb. Another episode of Keiichi Being Correct Moments.

Is Rena calling Keiichi “the girl” here? Hmm... it suits him.

Rena all-but-confirms Keiichi’s theory that Mion and Shion are the same. Phew, I guess the fact that Shion loves groping Keiichi isn’t going to ruin Rena’s day after all. Not that I care especially deeply about that specific Mood Hypothetical.

Ah... hold on... let me do some cross-referencing...

“I’m very kind and thoughtful, but Shion has a cold and scary personality...!”

Alright. Dichotomy noted.

Nico Robin moment

Correct.

Wrong.

MEAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:(

Oh right, I kinda forgot about that too. It was like two hiatuses ago on my part.

Um. Okay dude

Anyway, I can’t believe it... Keiichi has entered his Mind Palace and activated Smart Mode. Via the activation of Smart Mode, he’s completely eviscerated his greatest character flaw... this power level is way too high...

...okay even with Smart Mode activated, Keiichi didn’t even note the dichotomy I noted. Okay

Y’know a friend was saying a while ago that as someone who started with the anime, he found the VN’s pacing unbearable. I wonder if the anime also has this many extensive flashbacks in Keiichi’s Mind Palace.

BRO THE WORLD IS SO ORANGE??? There need to be more visual novels that take place in Orange World.

Anyway, this is just the plot of Umineko.

Keiichi decides to fix everything by giving Shion a toy, like in that Phineas and Ferb movie where Doofenshmirtz fixes everything by giving Shoofenshmirtz a toy. Keiichi is standing in for Mion in this situation and also this analogy doesn’t make any sense.

Wait, actually, Keiichi isn’t going to give Shion a toy directly, he’s going to make Mion give Shion the toy. So my analogy was fucking great and all of you were wrong to ever doubt me!

You jackass. Mion, just give her the toy already so she goes to jail

yeah she is laying this on way too thick for it to be anything other than a lie

i am going to commit fucking murder

Meanwhile, in Side Story Land...

What??? Why is Shion putting Keiichi in a car in Side Story Land??? What is this

OMG!!!! IT’S ULKI FROM FIRE EMBLEM!!!! YES YES YES YES YES

[mejomonster]

Okay like I said, I'm in chapter 151 of Silent Reading. I know the shadow organization villain is NOT controlled by Tao Ran

But please. Contemplate with me for a moment IF IT WAS.

The guy driving the car says "He said that you've seen him before, and he regrets being unable to come in person this time..." And Fei Du replies "I've seen him before?"

Now. I know Tao Ran is not the GUY. (I mean maybe .9% chance I guess I'll find out).

But imagine with me this Alternate Universe where it WAS Tao Ran for a moment.

It couldn't be Luo Wenzhou, because he is just TOO entrenched in rhe idea he's a cop, a detective, a Captain, to save rhe world. To save innocent people. That people Are inherently innocent and police Should be there to Help and corrupt cops Should be thrown out. He's just Too fundamentally designed as a character to NOT be the leader of the criminal organization that supposedly "hurts people because the protectors of society fail and are useless and people suffer anyway." So Luo Wenzhou could never ever be the bad guy.

Tao Ran... is also fundamentally similar to those beliefs. But... he never thought of himself as a hero, he never thought of police necessarily as even "good." Tao ran fundamentally believes there is NO guaranteed justice in the world except the actions each individual takes, and if he wants a just world or safe world he needs to Make It Personally. His colleagues and strangers he meets need to choose every day to Make a fair world, because otherwise it will be a fucked up one. On the scale of if he sees rhe world as inherently a good place with good people (like Luo Wenzhou) or inherently a monstrous place full of cruelty and danger (like Fei Du), Tao Ran lies somewhere in the middle. He thinks there's plenty of fucked up stuff and no guarantee anyone will ever be Stopped if they're cruel. Unless he Personally does something. Unless he chooses to, other people choose to try, and that's the only justice there is that can be even attempted. He's more like a traditional detective hero in that sense: he KNOWS he's human, he doesn't think society can be relied on for safety. He does think good being protected and evil facing consequences is entirely up to his actions and people trying to make it so.

I'd say his only "trusting society to handle things" big trait is his disposition to look to a leader for direction, and follow curtly even if he thinks they're corrupt to a degree... and that's more about him being a follower more than a leader, when he's not working independently which seems to be his first preference. And that Trait, if he met the Teacher? Fan Siyuan? At the right time in his life, either through Gu Zhao or another? Especially when he's isolating to "protect loved ones" and self sabotage as he likes to? Maybe in an alternate reality he could find himself following the Teacher. Maybe even becoming the leader when Teacher dies. It would take a bit of the Teacher changing and shaping his views over the years (like working with Luo Wenzhou for years may have). But it could work.

Tao Ran has the hopeless view of the world that he could, given the right pushes, end up thinking vigilante action in its own secret organization system is preferable to being a cop in the public system trying to change things. End up taking the mantle, driven on a personal mission to enact vigilante justice on grand scales and with costs and consequences necessarily sacrificed for that mission. (See his mostly private independent investigation of the Reciters, how driven he was and the risks he took, and the risks he takes generally when going alone on his hunches).

It would be interesting how that background with Tao Ran as his "Nice mom surrogate" babysitter then "safe unavailable crush" for Fei Du would affect Fei Du's interactions with the organization. With their leader, if it were Tao Ran. Fei Du is generally trying to be detached, and he's not as emotionally entrenched with Tao Ran as he is with Luo Wenzhou but... that IS the person he's second closest to in the world and considers mostly safe and liked growing up and trusted and worries about losing.

It'd be interesting if Fei Dus personal vigilante revenge mission and his own secret organization would interplay. If Tao Ran lead the criminal shadow org, would Fei Du consider joining it? Trying to cooperate with it as 2 aligned (or semi aligned) groups? Would he be swayed to see some reason in Tao Rans perspective? Would he want revenge even more, wanting Tao Ran to see he's wrong? Would he want to try and reason with him? Would he feel betrayed, feel he understands, worry about how Luo Wenzhou will take it all?

So many interesting potentials.

[thatnarcissisticfeel]

hi, thanks for answering, i appreciate it. also that you didn’t just call me toxic or some shit and tell me to fuck off. i’ve actually never thought of joining a discord server but it’s a good idea, thank you, i think i could try that. i guess on another account though to prevent anyone from accidentally finding out bc you know for yourself how it is. i’ll look up if i can find some kind of dbt workbooks online as well.

the journaling idea is good as well, i’ve actually been trying for a while but i end up rarely using it as a past experience left me with kinda bad trust issues about writing / drawing things down where someone could see them. but i guess i could try hiding it better this time or something. it’s just this thing that also sometimes venting like that actually ends up making me even more frustrated, as i realize i’ve already written about this exact thing countless times before yet still nothing has changed.

i’m trying not to make a too harsh judgement of my therapist yet, considering i haven’t been seeing her for that long, but… yeah. when i said that i’ve been going to therapy for years i meant going to a lot of different ones in this time. no one ever gets me. their advice is always so fucking useless. honestly at least this current one actually listens and doesnt make me feel uncomfortable or like i’m being judged. i think she’s the one i’ve been the most honest with because of that (and also because i just started telling her everything from the first session on already bc i’m tired of everyone always turning out to be nothing but a waste of time and money and effort), i generally lie to therapists esp my psychiatrist so i can get the meds i want (or else im 100% she’d just put me on some shit like antipsychotics, which ive been on in the past and i’d honestly rather kill myself than take them again, idk if you’ve tried them before but i basically felt r*tarded [idk how some ppl are sensitive of slur use like i personally dont care but i dont want your blog banned or smth] and tired all the time and it “”””helped”””” in the way that it made me too slow to be able to think about my problems. thanks psychiatry. not a traumatizing experience at all). i mentioned that i suspect i could have a personality disorder to her once or twice and she seemed to agree that it could be a possibility, but obviously no one can diagnose that fast. but i guess i’ll see. i really just want to know whats wrong with me, why do i think the way i do, why i can’t just be more fucking normal no matter how hard i try. but getting an actual diagnosis of a PD esp if it turned out to be this one would just mean i’d get treated even worse by every single doctor, not even necessarily a mental health one, bc physical doctors see all your records as well,, i’ve already been told my legitimate physical issues are just bc im depressed, or even if they dont straight up tell me they definitely treat me less seriously and i just know its bc i have mental illnesses diagnoses & im female.

i just … ugh. i feel so sick of it all and misunderstood. i know i can get genuinely abusive in arguments when someone upsets me but i really dont know how to stop or control myself. i hate that people act as if it’s all my fault. like everything i’ve gone through doesn’t even matter and i’m just an inherently evil person. like i didn’t have some kind of a terribly traumatic childhood, but i’ve always been either bullied or excluded by almost everyone i’ve ever met and all the social isolation honestly really fucked me up. i think that’s why i developed such a strong individuality complex as i’ve never been able to think all of it must be simply because i’m worthless. like fuck no, 99% of the people are dumb and shallow and ignorant towards reality of the world and i’m supposed to feel like i’m somehow worse than them? at least i have self awareness and my own thoughts. i mean i do think we’re all worthless because nothing in life has any value, so why should humanity be the exception? that still doesn’t stop me from hating everyone though. i may be a hypocrite but so is everyone else; and at least i don’t pretend to be a gOoD pErSoN. lacking empathy and not having morals doesn’t make me any less deserving of help even though i know how many people unironically believe people like me should just be shot. fucking brainless hypocrites, all of them.

but anyway yeah my point here is, fuck people who think anyone chooses to be this way. all of this has done nothing good for me other than made my life much harder. and not to mention unable to ever get genuinely close to anyone because what is the worth in a relationship if i can’t even bring myself to care about anyone? i don’t think “empaths” even realize how alienating it actually is. which is once again so ironic because THEY should be the ones to try to understand it, but no, they just generalize everyone and share the nonsense propaganda that we’re incapable of change.

so yeah, this turned into another vent but i really lack any people in my life who i could be honest with. i feel so lonely all the time. it’s not even really missing a friend group or romance or physical touch, it’s more of this feeling of feeling completely alone and that no one (other than a few people whose writings and actions i admire but they’re all dead) would ever be able to truly understand me. so yeah as cheesy as it is, sometimes it’s nice to be reminded i’m not alone by someone other than a generic social media post made by someone who’d 100% hate me if i told them even half this shit. can i maybe dm you sometime btw? i felt like staying anon while writing this bc i tend to get anxious with ppl at first but idk, maybe, if youre comfortable with that ofc

btw if its alright to ask can i ask how did you get diagnosed? what was the process like and how long did it take? did they suspect anything else at first? do you feel treated by ppl any differently now tjat you have a diagnosis of such a stigmatized disorder? (^ i mean these previous questions if youre diagnosed by a psych, if not its perfectly valid as well ofc) whats personally helping u to cope?

Good luck! I’m glad I could offer some help/reassurance. Maybe instead of a physical journal you could use a private blog or even just a notes app on your phone/computer if that sounds safer?

I do hope things improve with your new therapist and that things work out, it’s good that she at least agrees you might have a PD. Normally I’d recommend a therapist who specializes in PDs, maybe even especially NPD, but idk if that’s accessible for you and/or if you’ve already tried it and had no luck.

But again, I want to reiterate that you’re not alone, and what you’re going through and what you feel is 100% relatable to other pwNPD. I truly wish that more people understood us and the irony isn’t lost on me that it’s always “empaths” who are the ones who have the LEAST empathy for us. And I feel like the societal lack of understanding contributes to the more “ugly” or “stigmatized” traits of our disorder even more, tbh. Anyway, my point is that I definitely don’t mind at all if you vent, so please do feel free to DM me if you want to or feel more comfortable that way!

As for my diagnosis, it’s a bit messy — for context im a recent graduate from college and the bulk of my therapy came from campus services, where it was acknowledged I very likely had a PD especially within cluster B but I never got an official diagnosis while I was seeing the school-based therapist, and at the moment I’m trying to find a new therapist who can help me. At first we thought I just had a really intense form of rejection sensitivity dysphoria due to ADHD, then realized it was likely something else. So I’m a weird mix of “self diagnosed, but likely wouldn’t have admitted it to myself or realized it if a professional hadn’t pointed me in that direction.” Until I can find a professional im honestly just doing the best I can to help myself. Sometimes I get tempted to turn to substances to cope bc they make me softer and more open, and if you feel the same way I highly recommend avoiding this, ofc. I mostly use relatable music (lmk if you want my NPD playlist!) and DBT workbooks as a way to help myself, and I also just try my hardest to avoid or remove myself from situations where I might lose my cool and become toxic. Obviously this is easier said than done, but there are ways to do it. For instance, if I’m in a group chat where I feel like people are getting more attention than me, I’ll mute the group chat and maybe text someone from a different group one-on-one (not necessarily about my issues, just in general).I know that answer is pretty mild and entirely social media based lol, but it’s the best example I can provide.

[i-left-my-room-tidy]

I'm also confused now mhmm

I mean... i'm still very indecisive about how I personally want to view the human mind, its consciousness, and realities... especially in regards to manifestation and reality shifting.

I must say i don't know that much about the writings of those people you mentioned. i'm currently reading neville goddard's books. English isn't my mother tongue. So, the archaic english parts REALLY confuse me sometimes but his way of interpreting the bible is really interesting.

Before getting into law of assumption and reality shifting, I was generally into spirituality and witchcraft. I even had a huge tumblr blog for tarot readings lol... yk through channeling my spirit guides and 'predicting' things so to say. Though, my way of viewing myself and the world I'm in changed a lot over the past view years.

But it's kinda like wanting to set puzzle pieces together but there are puzzles pieces from different pictures and some fit together (physically) that are not really meant to be together (image-wise) iykwim? And later on, you find out that some parts were wrongly put together so you have to revise it (your beliefs) and start again from zero... it's a difficult and really confusing journey imo.

And as i'm not really able to grasp the concept of this reality yet and what role my consciousness in all this plays, it's also really difficult to decide what role other people's souls and 'soulmates' play in this.

Oftentimes, I just want to simplify everything for me just because it all seems so overwhelmingly complicated. (Thats also why i wrote a very vague explanation in that soulmates ask - i tried to keep it simple.) Which reminds of what neville goddard keeps mentioning that humans always try to analyse everything even the simplest things and therefore always end up with complicated 'conclusions' which in turn makes them stray afar from the (very simple) quintessence. (idk if that made sense now lol)

I know this whole rant was probably completely useless to you, it just shows my confusion... sorry once again my mind is very scatterbrained and i don't know where im going with all those thoughts most of the time :')

Anyways, I still have plans to shift to a (what I like to call) 'spirit cafe dr' which is just a dr in a 'otherworldly' caféshop setting where I can talk with my spirit guides and other entities. And I plan to ask them about all this (and more)/to learn from them. I don't know when I will do it, probably not anytime soon because i'm busy with university but I definitely need answers lol

Btw have you already shifted to your jesus dr?

[thanks for this ask!]

and don't apologise for the rant! while i won't claim to understand everything that you've said, i do think you make a point with goddard's belief of analyses. i myself fall subject to that 😭😭

sometimes, we want to understand the world so much—and it's as if each change needs to be predicted, just so we fulfill our desire for knowing. i think that's where your experience with your worldview shifting and my habit of theorising fall under. as you've mentioned, the journey is a puzzle, and in some cases, the pieces never always fit together as expected. we both want to know what would be of us, and why; we want to know when, where, and how it would happen.

my best guess is that it's merely human nature at play. certainty isn't always guaranteed, as can be depicted by the presence of change itself. so, we try to make solutions for a problem that should have been left alone. I'm not saying it's inherently wrong, but the processes we take make it our lives harder than we need to. call it a lapse in judgement, if you will.

I'm not as versed with the concept of spirit guides nor do i always try to seek them out, but i do know they're very significant to everyone's journeys. that's mostly a matter of opinion, but don't let it stop you. i hope you get the answers that you seek!

and don't be shy about the rant! it's refreshing to see someone else's thoughts on the matter, actually. it usually takes me some time to respond, but i love long-winded discussions.

as for my jesus DR, not yet, because it's not that urgent for me as of the moment. I'm currently focused on my fame DR. but i do hope to shift (or mini-shift) to my jesus DR at least once this year, on or before christmas [just to celebrate it in time lmao].

[anthonybialy]

Worthy of Untrustworthiness

Aspiring tyrants who expect trust in government ruin it.  They wish to make snickering illegal.  Wallowing in pushy goons’ ruefulness is rude even if those commandeering your autonomy smirk when you note you have rights.  Social media’s most pious users will warn you about bullying before ordering you to comply with the president’s most humiliating commands.  An administration that comes as close to burning money as possible owes you laughs.

Ordering life to comply takes everyone believing their hardest.  The whimsical approach is like Peter Pan and just as fictional.  The White House thinks they scripted this adventure to show the power of genuineness as they fail at faking it.  Working fantastically at bending reality to their will.  Oh: your money is useless and the trains they demand you ride into the future won’t stay on the tracks.

The undeniable successful geniuses are obviously awful at the things they’re not supposed to do.  Does anyone feel healthier with Joe Biden ultimately in charge of the process?  Focusing on clumsy prophets is the only way to make the government cult creepier.

Begging bureaucratic junkies to not go above and beyond reflects the overestimation of abilities inherent to those who tell everyone else what to do.  These particular federal workers are not going to get promoted for doing tasks outside listed responsibilities.  Please take the job description seriously.

The actual roles aren’t getting addressed.  A presidency based on doing what’s outside its domain is rotten at its actual tasks.  Russia is behaving as angelically as China.  Back home, we feel particularly safe aside from the military acting like it’s fighting for social justice, cops being treated like criminals, and an erased border allowing anyone interested to hop in an oppressively regressive John Birchian hellhole.

The ruling faction shows what they believe is unbelievable.  It’s their one useful service.  Government enthusiasts are terrific at illustrating why government blows.  Conservatives treasure what is surely a bipartisan effort to stifle stifling.

The sheer oafishness of every Biden action goes against everything he believes.  A corrupt ice cream aficionado helps reality by showing why not to let him feed goldfish, much less be in charge of provisions for humans.

Have you yet come to appreciate authority on steroids?  Another injection doesn’t help.  Foes of action decided you’d be kept safe by not getting to do anything.  Preserving humanity by not being human was an effort to stifle that very thing.  We didn’t have rights or a halted virus, but life seemed pretty cool when they were really in charge otherwise.

Chronic overreach proves precisely why not to trust those stressing their joints.  Wholesale allegiance that makes the case against it can only be maintained by shrugging while stifling dissent.

Effectiveness does not necessarily equal decency.  Anyone actually good at governance would be able to retain control despite wholesale objections, which disqualifies the incumbent.

Full control shows why it’s ghastly.  Thanks for the lesson.  The lack of trust inherent to mandates leads to expected negativity in productivity.  The only thing worse than trending toward autocracy is these particular remedial politicians having it.  Remedial senator Biden got promoted to the gifted class.  Counting crayons is too strenuous for a president who can’t count money or grandkids.

Oh: so that’s why they loathe the nation’s rulebook. Constitutional limits exist for a reason, which we know thanks to those who violate them.  Democrats allow criminality in order to create a precedent.  We now know why barriers are in place if there was any doubt.  Foes of rights instead place limitations on human interaction.  Positive rights aren’t a good approach despite liberals once again getting suckered by wording.

A party imposing woe knows how to not get people on their side, which should but won’t teach them about market incentives.  Avoiding those who are most enthusiastic about exceeding boundaries shows why they’re there.

Showing why they’re not actually doing things sort-of counts as an achievement.  Paint a warning on the White House door about how there are zombies inside.

This loathsome oafish White House discredits government more than any Heritage Foundation report ever could.  We’re seeing the private sector at work, only the exact Bizarro opposite.  Succeeding by failing helps everyone watching the Dark Side of the Ring-style drama play out.  Wrestling scriptwriters inflict their weak storylines on alleged rubes who know they’re fake.

A lack of practical experience can only be made worse by bothering those with it.  There has never been a collection of executive flunkies more incapable of succeeding at the private sector, which drives them to the one domain where they can guarantee business.

Civilization’s micromanagers can’t do anything like their actual tasks.  But at least they do everything wrong.  Terrible morons creating a lousy example offers the communal benefits they praise.  Illustrating why they don’t deserve our patronage negates their demands we submit.  When government acts like parents, punk kids naturally rebel.  The next executive order will ban three chords.

[nihanaeea]

time passes so quickly. But its also so long. ive existed this far without ever being someones first choice or particularly important and maybe ill take the quick route and just forget it all or I will actually come to terms with it. It depends on how i live my life there is no admonishment to any kind of action that is taken. Its just how people live with themselves. We cannot discount the multilation of survival, because every struggle to keep living a universally meaningless life is what is objectively meaningful to a individual and their perspective, which encloses a loop of no defined meaning. Its useless to speculate on people who are no longer here but I have a tendency to and thats what I unconsciouly choose to do, which defines my existence. A self absorbed kindness, which is a hard thing to come to grip with because this experience is mine alone. I cannot expect people to comprehend, while I wish it was so. I dont know if I will keep holding onto people who in my mindscape are incredibly far removed from reality. I dont know if I am even supposed to know, the answer i come up with is the character i perform that is useless to broadcast. Its more fun with the inherent mystery, no? A space of lies that exists as truth in a small timeframe of a few moments may intrigue some people yet bore the most. But that is how I am. I cannot change the facets of my identity that I was coerced into adopting when i spent two years constructing a schema of my life in the timeframe of two years of being in my own head.