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tributes-vamps-and-ginnyweasley · 11 months

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I'd like to propose a new term for "I'm a little depressed right now". It's fine. It's informative. It's adequate.

But it lacks that something *extra* that could help.

Anyways, I propose "the rats in my brain are feeling unwell. They are taking their sick days."

It's fresh. New. Interesting. *extra*. Spices it up a bit.

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cascadiiing · 1 year

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Bloodlust, or something like that

(Quinn Redacted Audio)

#redacted audio quinn #i havent drawn in a while so heres This #not sure how i feel about it but i babygirlified quinn and thats an achievement in itself amiright #dear god someone invite him to the smash tourney hes just an innocent little guy and hes done nothing wrong ever and hes So Lonely #i described his vibes as a greasy lil rat boy to my dad and he said so rhats why he looks like you?-#-which is to say this piece singlehandedly tore my family apart at the seams forever #art #my art #digital art #drawing #bluesart #sketch #fanart #fan art #redacted asmr #redacted shaw pack #redacted vampires #redacted quinn #vampire

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turtlecleric · 5 months

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#(huge relieved sigh)#I'm emotional over the little community that I get to participate in here #been on Tumblr over 10 years #been in multiple fandoms that I've made content for #and this is the first time I've experienced this level of interaction and community #first time I've had mutuals and had that actually mean something #I'm still terrified of unknowingly doing something rude or wrong or annoying (which is why I struggle so much to tag people) but #idk I'm starting to feel braver #I'm actually getting emotional thinking about it #sorry I'm just #maybe rereading symphony and noticing how lonely Violist-chan is has got me focused on how lonely I am too #and yeah it's not like I'm anyone's actual friend on here but just being able to interact and participate and be welcomed is...#idk #there's this gnawing ache in my chest all the time but this little community brings me sparks of joy that I haven't felt in a long time #sorry ignore me I'm just #i don't know #I'm trying to express my gratitude but I'm not doing a very good job #if anyone actually reads this just know I'm trying to say thank you for being nice and for letting me be feral over turtles with you #and i hope you're all having a good day

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obeymeow · 1 year

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nightbringer lesson 14 FUCKED ME UP in several ways but primarily I've spent the last 48 hours making myself sad over the solomon backstory we got. specifically I have, for no reason, latched onto that one chapter in the Kids event where baby solomon cried because he felt so guilty over being responsible for that spell. and that just feels a touch more depressing in context

#nightbringer spoilers #obey me on side #went back and unlocked the event again because i could not get this out of my brain i know it's probably not that deep #but it is that deep TO ME. okay #baby solomon has been on my brain since thirteen told that story so that's probably why it's sticking in my brain so hard but whatever #in case anyone was wondering the other things to make me sad are:#he has such a deeply excessive amount of lights in his room in purgatory hall there are SEVERAL chandeliers and lamps #there's a good handful in his room in cocytus hall too (his horror dg showed it) if a more normal amount #but that with the 'dim and gloomy' detail. ☹️#i've also always thought that solomon's loneliness wasn't all about the immortal angst but like.#having it confirmed that he's had reason to be lonely since he was a child- before he was old enough to know he was using magic-#totally crushed me girl why can't I be wrong #had emotions about lesson 14 in general but solomon backstory steals the show every time for me so i haven't gotten around to the rest #i'm enjoying the nightbringer story so much (not talking about the game design. that's a different thing entirely) but man #the pacing is WILD it feels like every lesson could be a whole lesson block at the least. it's giving me a lot of room to speculate #which I always love! but i do wish they would slow down a little and expand on some of these concepts they're bringing up #because the basic idea of the game alone is REALLY INTRIGUING and it'd be a shame if they raced back to the present imo #what was i even talking about. sorry my brain fast forwards as soon as i get into the tags there is not one sequitur to be seen #so curious about solomon's friend now too. like my guess is it's going to be lilith (and hopefully not in a popular fan theory kind of way)#because it's more than a little suspicious that they expanded on lilith's views on humans the way they did #in a way that SO PERFECTLY lines up with the expansion on solomon's views on humans #WHICH I HAVEN'T TALKED ABOUT YET BY THE WAY BUT LIKE. HE IS SO RIGHT AND REAL FOR THAT #it's beyond stressful to me that I think solomon is completely justified in his views and being completely reasonable about it #but that it would also mean war between the worlds presumably while the brothers are still recovering from THEIRS #you cannot give me that choice man. not even sure that the human world would be ABLE to win that fight if we're being real #solomon's 72 pacts are a lot yes but he's still only one guy who is NOT on good terms with the sorcerer's society #and mc is powerful but so so inexperienced. and that's IF they choose to side with the human world which #really i don't think the canon mc is likely to do. but anyway i guess solomon's friend could also be adam maybe?#that could be wishful thinking because i like adam though. even if his hair SUUUCKS #deeply offended by everyone thinking solomon got the fucked up hair when all signs point to adam be NICE TO HIM he's ugly already

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userjiminie · 7 months

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can y’all believe we got jimin and taemin being besties on main in 2023

#i still cant believe yesterday wasnt a fever dream #i keep rewatching and devouring that suchwita episode like i havent had a meal in months #y’all dont UNDERSTAND #twomin #‘ah i was feeling a bit lonely :/‘ ‘WHY DIDNT U CALL ME?’#all the little ways in which they know and are familiar with each other #the fondness in their eyes looking at each other #the easiness the little touches PLEASE THIS IS MY ROMAN EMPIRE #jimin is so PAINFULLY polite and self-aware #so it’s really really easy to see when he’s familiar and comfortable being around someone else #it’s such a rare occurance to see him all comfortable with people from outside of bangtan to be completely honest #but with taemin he is HE IS 😭

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temeraire · 7 months

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i need something niceys im having such a bummer time rn

#bummer tags incoming -> sorry for getting my gross sad all over you if you read them #my mums pretty sick with two things rn and my dad is.. my dad. my grandmas in hospital again and her memory is getting confused #im lonely and i have like one friend irl and i just want a hug and im so conscious of how naive and childish all my problems are #and then some people in online games are mean to me and its just the little thing that tips me over the edge and makes me cry a bit #so i feel really stupid even More now bc thats such a . babyish thing to do :( im so embarrassed by how easy it is to hurt my feelings #or make me upset or angry or sad when i should get over it. i should have thicker skin but i dont im just Really Bummed Out Right Now Pals #monologues #i always seem to nosedive my mental health around this time which. (a) sucks bc october is when my birthday is so thats a BAD present #and (b) seasonal depression is meant to happen when youre going into WINTER not when when you go into SUMMER. why this happen 2 me :(#im just a little guy :(

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dutybcrne · 2 months

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Kaveh definitely wants at least one child of his own. Partially to continue his family line, partially bc he himself loves the idea of having a family of his own. He would however like to move out of Alhaitham’s place before he even dares consider getting a partner to begin with. And the longer he stays there, the more stress he feels thinking about it. He even has sketched out nursery ideas and plans on how to raise them all set to go, if only he'd get out of debt fast enough-

Furina also really wants to have a child of her own. She adores seeing the families around Fontaine, and has dreamed a great deal what parenthood would be like. Nothing brings her joy than when children about Fontaine invite her to join in on the little games they are playing, leaving her giddy and smiling bright as sunshine on her way home. Of course she knows that to be a parent, she really has to get her shit together. One can't just rear a child on macaroni and residual payments, after all.

#hc; kaveh #//Mans is stressing #//He’s like ‘I’m damn near pushing 30; I should have my life together by now aaAAAA’#//Do like the idea of Haitham & Kaveh coparenting though #//Them raising a kid together; be it romantically/qp involved or just like #//Some Full House situation type beat lol #//Haitham does like helping kiddos learn after all. And it would make SO much a lot easier for Kav #//Kaveh would preferably want an even number of kids if he has a partner; so they don't ever feel lonely #//If it's just him & his kiddo; then yeah; he's a little more fine w only one. But he really wants them to have someone to fall back on jic #hc; furina #//She's had thoughts of having children of her own for damn near 500 years #//Which she knew would be Impossible; her role came first and foremost #//But now that she's free from that obligation; the thoughts came welling back up #//It's not entirely why she wants to stand on her own right and get better at so many things; but it is part of it #//She'd love the idea of having her own little family at last #//Though her Salon Solitaire buddies will have to do djbhgjfd #//She doesn't actually know how many she wants tho; maybe one if she's single; but whatever her partner is down for; she would be too #//She would be such a doting mom hjcbffg #//She genuinely wouldn't even mind not having a partner if it came down to it. She will most certainly be able to handle a kiddo on her own #//She thinks that; yet she also most certainly get overwhelmed Real quick at first #//Esp since she'd be such a sympathetic crier when it comes to her babu. & bc she already feels the urge to cry when frustrated #//But she would try her best #//Would absolutely consult with The Gals each and every time she needs anything #//Deffo would be the type to get matching outfits for her and her kid jffghh

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lonely-dog-song · 2 months

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(PFQ COMPLAINT) i have nearly enough gold poke to exchange to zophan to buy an entire year's worth of hypermode but no one wants my Fffffreucking gold so i can't actually use it. explodes one million times

#MY FUCKING GOLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why #i can't use it on anythingggggg i want because i either need credits or zophan. & no one wants to exchange currencies with me #ok well that's a lie i have exchanged some currency with various people but precisely speaking no one wants to give me zophan.#for the currencies that is #and actually people really want 2 give me their gold which is fair because i wanted some for a nebulous and distant goal #BUT I CHANGED MY MIND I NEED THAT OTHER STUFF NEOW #wwwwwwww #this game is making me feel a little crazy at the moment #& i was like. ok i will step away once i get this sorted.#but right now? i want to Complain #lonely dog speaks #ok im done #no i'm not what is this game economy that gold is worth so much but trying to ffind people who want it is so hard 😭#ok now im done. phew

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yrbutchgf · 1 year

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sigh. 2 for 2 on guy friends im faggy over saying shit like "you deserve x" "you deserve y" dumb fuck. you do it then. if it's so fucking desirable

#personal #to be fair i did screw myself out of one of them by being skiddish but the other one. he's just not abt me LOL #idk why im in a mood about this rn i guess im just feeling a little lonely lately #and really in the mood for some faggydykeish activity with a guy which. as much as both of them would claim more guys would be into #than i would think - let me tell you. it is rough out here. at least when you're someone like me who seemingly only gets into dudes who are #NOT into you. at least in that way #WHATEVER i want to make out with him about it but i MISSED MY SHOT!!!!!!!!#ok anyway. -_-#d slur cw #f slur cw

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pepprs · 1 year

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actually no yeah bc some random person just liked a vent post i made abt this but months ago which is weird serendipity so. i will say that part of the problem is i feel like nothing that is happening to me is actually real and it is INTENSELY disorienting and lonely especially when i am physically alone. hm

#like i do think perhaps i have become a working woman. and i do not know why that is so deeply profoundly lonely to me but it is 💖 and also #i do not feel real and liek every day is the same and i do not experience my existence as having impacts and i have little to no emotional o #object permanence and forget that i am a good person who is loved. so i guess i just feel stuck and abandoned and lonely but like for the #STUPIDEST dumbest smallest reasons and im getting destructive abt it while im around other ppl which is ummmm. bad!#purrs #there’s more to it ofc. but i will not elaborate. im trying to be normal ♥️#ask to tag

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the-kipsabian · 1 year

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im gonna complain sorry i need to get this out of my brain since ive been thinking about it recently. leaving it in the tags so you can ignore it or whatever

#i just. feel like im missing out on everything recently #everyone else is having fun with each other and their friends and im just. here for no reason #timezones fuck me over so intensely on like a daily basis and its so fucking sad like #the society is demanding me to be a responsible human being which means sleeping - and while i do that everyone else has fun #yall get to watch things together. yall get to chat about things together. yall get to do shit in real time #like im not blaming anyone for having fun good for you im glad youre enjoying yourselves and everything!!#but also i just. feel left out. and its very stupid but im stupid and so is having to sleep and i never get to do anything fun cause of it #i never get to watch stuff live. i never get to participate in anything. and when i maybe do its an anxiety situation so i have to pass #i think thats why wrestling is rn a very sore spot for me. i havent really watched anything in a while cause i feel so left out #like im always behind. and i know it shouldnt matter but when i see everyone interacting with live blogs and such and i know i cant do that #and theres no point doing that afterwards #and the only things i can reasonably live blog are things that nobody else watches or cares about and im just #mostly anyways i only put my time and effort into something that only i care about #and im not gonna lie it kinda hurts. like ofc i cant ask anyone else to care but i just feel so fucking lonely sometimes #sorry im just. not in a good spot. honestly i probably never will be cause none of this is going to change cause i cant change it #and i cant and wont ask anyone to change it cause thats not good or fair or anything to anyone #i shouldnt even post this this is so stupid and im such a stupid little baby but im just...#im so fucking lonely sometimes and i see everyone else being able to do things and have fun and enjoy themselves. without me #im so lonely and im so jealous and it just fucking sucks okay #im gonna go now. im sorry #night is an absolute mess on main

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martyrbat · 1 year

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ghosts – batman confidential #41

[ID: eight year old Bruce Wayne kneeling disconsolately on the ground between his parents corpses after they were murdered in front of him. His face is mostly concealed by shadow, blocking his eyes and lower face as he hauntedly stares ahead. END ID]

#hey do you ever think about bruce's childhood and feel your chest hurt #like.... i know its a running schtick and joke about his parents and all but also. he was eight years old.#he still had baby teeth. he was still a child. he was a child that was shown repetitively to not have many friends and his parents be his #whole world. he was a lonely little boy who just wanted to see a movie with his best friends and actually spend time with his parents #instead he just ended up being even more lonely than he ever was before.#this is why bruce as batman is the way he is. yeah he didnt know in that moment he was going to eventually be a masked hero #but batman will forever be made by a child kneeling on the pavement and having his whole world destroyed in front of him and then deciding #in that moment of ultimate heartbreak that he doesnt want anyone to ever hurt like how he is #which yadda yadda we all know this already but just. sometimes it just hits really hard #just....#sorry about the trauma king but i love u :(((#c: batman confidential | i: 41 #crypt's panels #bruce wayne #baby brucie #martha wayne #thomas wayne

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jadeddays · 4 months

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i really cant have proper friends at this point because i just get annoyed and i am fully aware that they aren't doing anything wrong or bad but its like. Why do we have to talk everyday? why do you have to ask 20 questions, im tired, theres nothing new going on, lets just chill and leave it at that. how come i can read everyone elses mood but no one can read mine when i need a break

#i feel like im an old dog and everyone else is a puppy #also i dont particularly get lonely often and im pretty content on my own #which is my biggest downfall bc im okay for much longer than anyone else and other people dont like that a lot #like where are the actual loners bro everyone claims theyre a loner but like no you arent lmaooo #and thats okay but i dont have the social battery for all that anymore #i need to meet someone who is fine with a meet and chill once or twice a month vibe #i really found the one person wh i could talk to a lot and not tire out and then they ended up treating me like shit and ever since its #just. i dont even know #im just not sure anymore #i was fine as a little girl but once i hit 14 it all went away and i still dont know why im like this

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bhalspawn · 8 months

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im so worried about. roan. i know theyre literally my character but im worried

#feeding my dogs thinking about how they feel after breaking away from bhaal #empty furious lonely devastated ecstatic. afraid numb sheer relief. it goes back and forth #going from relieved to be free to enraged at bhaal for everything to desperately wanting to return to him and then hating themself for it #i think they try to find information about their foster parents. some kind of desperate hope that the memory of killing them is just #a result of their brain being excavated by orin #who i think they cared for! in their way! by the time of the absolute plot there's barely anything left that hasn't been honed by bhaal into #an implement of destruction #but orin is family; her blood is diluted but they still share it. roan sees the way she plays with her bodies as selfishness #also that seems to be the way sarevok sees it and that's the vibe i get from the book/letter durge writes her #which is interesting that she kept it #anyway. roan kills her because they have to but even doing that feels familiar to them. some distant thought in the back of their mind #that says they always knew it would end this way. and some part of them berating orin for not killing them #thinking that this is what they meant; if she had just listened even a little bit she couldve been bhaal's chosen #but she chose personal glory and satisfaction over bhaal and that's why she failed #and i wonder just how much durge changes afterwards. how much of their thoughts still revolve around murder #like. habitually. ofc it obviously varies for everyone but

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sexybabystevie · 2 years

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how you know things are bad - i deeply miss dean winchester

#this is your warning these tags are personal and highly bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#em speaks #spn #no but like he GETS it. he's literally objectively the most fucked up guy ever and he GETS it #he has no self worth and does everything for everyone else and cares way too much about things to the point that he makes poor choices #and he's lonely and he would do anything for the ones he loves and all he wants is peace!!#he's angry and he's passively suicidal - like its the only and most obvious answer to anything - and he had to do terrible things just to #take care of sam when he was only a child!!!!!#god. just god #sorry to everyone here these are the unfortunate reasons why i relate to this man #just a big tbh i attached onto him so quickly because he made very concerning suicidal remarks in s4 and i nearly sobbed because i didnt #know it was capable for me to feel seen by someone who didnt even exist but at least it was someone???#im pathetic i know #and im rambling i know #but i watched that scene and i got it. and i was in the most shitty mental place ever (which i am. again) and ofc thats why i wanna rewatch #so maybe i pathetically feel a little less alone #:")#anyway this was way too personal and if i can remember then im deleting this later. im sorry if you had to see this #tw mentally ill #tw suicide #tw vent

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dutybcrne · 8 months

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I like to think Furina was human prior to becoming Archon, send post

#hc; furina #//No I will not elaborate #//...#//Ok maybe a lil bit; what if Egeria gave her favorite little opera singer the Gnosis to safeguard before heading to Khaenri'ah #//Bc Furina loved the nation as much as she did; even had her own ideas on how to maintain the nation's strengths #//The Oratrice was Furina's idea of how to preserve Egeria's strength should the goddess fall in the Cataclysm; hence her leaving the gnosi #//In my mind until said otherwise; the Oratrice contains the Gnosis; as Furina does no feel worthy enough to hold it #//It is better used in tandem to Neuvi's strengths; and help run the nation as Egeria would have wanted; she thinks #//Which deffo led Furi to have a massive breakdown after Childe's imprisonment; bc she couldn't comprehend why it would fail #//when it had her Archon's gnosis. And the fact that it DID meant her efforts were flawed and truly Failed her people #//Furi doesn't fault the Oceanids for abandoning Fontaine and her when she ascended to archonhood #//With how much she herself loved Egeria; she would too #//she misses being human so much. But on the bright side; being an Archon means she can better HELP others #//To help her people; to help Neuvillette #//Hell; bc of her functional immortality; she can always be there to stand by him; give him a friend so he'll never be lonely #//That's why she holds onto her role so much; in spite of how hard it gets #//And she will Never step down nor surrender it; not until her dying breath #//Or...a Certain situation calls for it. In which case; she will gladly give it all up

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