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anonymouspuzzler · 1 year
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Haha Whoops Uh Oh! (UPDATED 6/11/23)
so this isn't the type of post I normally like to make, but! uh! hey! I just got ambushed by a HUGE tuition bill I wasn't expecting, and I'm out of options to pay it - they've already applied my scholarship and loans, I'm already working multiple jobs that are basically just barely paying for rent + groceries, and I only have enough on my credit card to pay for One of the three payments they're requiring, which only gets me through till July (with, again, no options that get me that amount of money by that time).
further full disclosure, this bill came at like, the worst possible time - they've given me four days to make at minimum the first payment (which, again, I can only do by maxing out my credit card), and on top of juggling multiple jobs I'm also in the middle of two classes, including one which involves upcoming travel (that is already paid for, thank god). Hence, me Scrambling a li'l bit!!
as such, I've set a new goal on my ko-fi!! it is, of course, HUGE, but genuinely any small amount people are able to contribute goes a huge way to giving me SOME way to pay it off. note that 3-coffee doodle requests are still A Thing, commissions are still a thing (if you have one active I'll be getting to them this & next week), and I'll be streaming wherever I can to pull together money that way - wherever it comes, any support is HUGE and I mean that.
UPDATE 6/11/23: I am updating the original post to remove the ko-fi link and yet you fine folks know: HOLY HECK, y'all managed to get my tuition dealt with. words truly cannot express my gratitude for that - I'm so, so, SO humbled and thankful for everyone who came out to get me out of a really rough situation.
in the slightest, smallest attempt to pay forward the kindness i've been shown, I'm gonna try and use this moment to direct y'alls attention to some other folks I know who could use some kindness! hardly comprehensive, in no particular order, just top-of-my-mind type type beat. (note that these are all folks' twitter handles - some of 'em are on tumblr too, but I figure best to direct you to where I know they are 100%!)
@/Pochiyaki is a friend & artist who's been trying to get out of a bad money situation a while, and could definitely use some love!
@/rudeboimonster is similarly a dear friend who's been struggling to find long-term work and housing, anything you got would help.
Or, considering supporting the work of a creative you love! A few I've been loving lately that I'd recommend:
@/cosmignon (Runaway Draikana webcoming, and other comics and illustration work)
@/SynthCharmVA (voicework & writing/show development)
@/Tonya_Song (music - including vocals, piano and composition - plus education and activism work)
@/jaypg_art (character design, visdev, and illustration)
@/littlegoodfrog (Matchmaker and other comics)
@/winonaparadise (Girls With Horns and other comics/illustration work)
@/derekmballard (comics, including the upcoming Cartoonshow graphic novel)
@/_PartyCoffin_ (Welcome Home, and just about every art form you can conceive of)
and of course, if you're not following & supporting my amazing partner @/hollowtones, who helped me through this tough situation in every possible way - well you ought to be!! a delight and talent in every imaginable way, and I'm only a little biased on that.
and above all else... THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!!!!
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Hello!!!
Welcome back! =D
Part 2
Warning: long, long post (also a part 2 but I think y'all are used to it by now-) 😊😅
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MattMick!! Also, Beer looking between them like that and Q and Toey peeking from behind cracked me up hehe
Also, does that mean Beer is single? Wait, maybe he's aroace. That'd be really cool.
I did see some hints of a throuple of him and MattMick, but I'm happy with either option.
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SO CUTE 🥺🫶🏼
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Poor QToey 😭
Their romantic moment got rained on so hard-
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Exhibit: Here you can see three males from the species Homo sexuals. Two of them are already mated, and the third is in the courting process. We think the other male is interested too.
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Oh- But I thought- oh, this makes sense actually. So the others know. I mean not really surprising when you think about it, to be honest.
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With his unprecedented levels of obliviousness? Yeah, no, I get where you're coming from, Chain.
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That's your biggest concern about getting a penguin?? 😭😭
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Why does Peem look like the exasperated mom friend of the group 😭
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After all the tiny crumbs of the past *checks notes* 8262 eps, this is a lot of progress.
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HANDS. (I will never stop screaming about hands.)
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Cuteee
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Peem, babe, he hardly ever goes to class anyways. He's too busy following you around like a puppy.
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Me, who holds handholding above everything else (yes, even sex): *DEEP BREATHS THROUGH THE NOSE* I'm fine. *SMOKE COMING OUT OF EARS* Totally fine.
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Nothing to say, just a really good shot. (Also, Phuwin's exasperated smile seemed too real and then I learned Pond improvised that scene and yeah, that explains it)
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ChainPun: only two people with matching pillow cases
QToey: missing (me?) [Sorry I couldn't resist 😭]
TanFang: peacefully asleep
PhumPeem: chronic insomnia, aggravated by Tan's snores
Matt: cuddling Mick
Beer: dreaming of him and his friends and their boyfriends all graduating with good grades
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ChainPun. <33
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Let me wrap this moment in my memory forever. (I tried to adjust the lighting a bit but it didn't really work out 😭)
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AJSSHUJKJ!!!!! THEY GIVE ME TWO MAKE OUT SESSIONS WITHIN THE SPAN OF LIKE 4 MINUTES AND EXPECT ME TO BE SANE ABOUT IT???
No.
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Look, we all expected this. I even said on record I wouldn't survive. And all that mental Muay Thai still didn't prepare me for this.
Till now, I have watched 60 BLs, give or take, so I've seen a lot of NC scenes. Compared to some of them, this is very PG-13, but this one really got me, like very few sex scenes have managed to. The intimacy, the palpable love, want. It all came together so beautifully in this scene.
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Them saying 'I love you' during sex is canon! Yay! I knew it in my guts (wrote a fic about it) but feels so good to be right in canon hehe.
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"I love you too, now kiss me again."
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HANDS!!!! (It's canon now, they hold hands during sex, and so I can freely write a fic about it. Not that something not being canon ever stopped me but yeah.)
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Fang: my brother is in safe hands. 😌
Also, love how Peem didn't hesitate to at the chance to kick both brothers and make it a streak 😭👍🏼
Honestly though, this scene shows that Peem is going to go to very long lengths to make sure Phum is okay, even kicking his own brother (which assures me that Peem maybe wouldn't hesitate that much to sucker punch their dad either, which is important information to have for possible future fics.)
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How can one man be so goddamn cute??
The whimpering puppy noises- 😭
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Cakes are so hard to bake, for real. This one is so cute though 😭😭🫶🏼
Puppy Phum- honestly is anyone surprised? No? Thought so.
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This smile-
It holds so much happiness and the brunt of so many years of trauma. It's so beautiful. I'm probably gonna rewatch the heck out of this scene.
I end Part 1 here, Part 2 will be out (hopefully) soon!
If you got this far, thank you so much for reading! 😊 (All mistakes are mine, but in my defense, I literally fell asleep while writing this.)
Here, have a pie (of your favourite flavour) 🥧
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riririnnnn · 8 months
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Alright, I'm here to speak for my husband.
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I'm new in Tumblr, so I don't exactly know what people think about Noa here, but as far as I have seen in other places, people generally say that he is the worst coach in NEL.
WHICH IS NOT TRUE AT ALL!
*screeches and rips out your wig*
Firstly, no coaches forced/pressurised anyone to choose their teams. It was one's own wish to go wherever the heck they want. Further, Ego explained everything about each stratum individually, so one knew what he was going in for.
So in no particular order, let's start.
1. Lavinho
Bro
BRO
You are telling me that this:
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Is a better coach than Noa?
I agree that the whole speech by Lavi was actually fantastic, and further when Bachira told him about his Monster, not so surprisingly, Lavi told him exactly what he needed to hear because dun dun dun! Who chose FC Barcha?
YAS!
Bachira did, so obviously, it was the best for him and he improved.
Schizophrenia meets paranoia.
I mean, if he were to go in Ubers, Snuffy would've destroyed his 'originality'; if he were to go in PxG, he would've been outshined and pushed into being a midfielder, and in BM, he would've been depressed tbh. Manshine City is the only one which I think he could've improved physically.
All in all, my main focus about Lavi in this post is this panel:
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Like, Lavi.
NO!
Guess who called him out for it?
Yes:
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JUST LOOK AT WHAT HE SAID!
THAT'S MY HUSBAND Y'ALL!
I can't add more than 10/10 pictures per post, so I'm not adding it here:
In that same chapter (163) of the above panel, he calls out for Kunigami for the goals he missed, and then later (165) he asks him, "Now that you have seen it live, you think you can copy those movements?" If we consider his stoic personality, then it's his way of teaching.
Further, in chapter 164, when Lavi and Noa were going 1V1, and Isagi decided to jump in to steal the ball, Lavi used the blueberry boy as a way to get past Noa. Of course, Lavi was like, "Oh? Weaklings are just noise." LIKE HONEY STOP HE IS JUST A HIGH SCHOOL-ER!?
But yeah, Noa didn't chase Lavi further, and instead stopped to catch falling Isagi and explained him about the playstyle of Lavi.
BRO WHAT YOU WANT MORE!? HE IS NOT A BAD COACH!
2. Chris Prince
It's surprising, but his speech was hella good during the introduction.
And I don't mind that he strips and endorses stuffs. Like, do what you gotta do to get the bread in this economy. Besides, if I were a man and had a body like his, I'll be showing off too.
What, obviously, I'm going to show is this:
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Like, the scores were 2-2, it was a PEAK moment, and he jumps in to take the spotlight?
Noa rightfully calls him out for it:
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"This isn't your stage, Chris. Back off."
LOUDER FOR THE HATERS!
And you are telling me that Noa is a bad coach, huh?
Chris literally provoked Kaiser, made a near fool out off Yukimiya, and then started a beef with Isagi.
ACT YOUR AGE, CHRIS!
It's like someone throws me and you between Kindergartens, and then I start to write in beautiful cursive to prove that I'm so better than you.
3. Marc Snuffy
It's hypocritical, but the thing I called out Lavinho for, is the same reason why I wouldn't have gone to Ubers if I were a Blue Lock-er: telling the players what to do.
Starting from the start, we can see that Snuffy is one hell of a strategist, and was able to impress everyone.
However, it's been so long since NEL started that we have nearly forgotten that Blue Lock was made for strikers, and everyone selected were the forwards of their team. Like, fym Barou is the best suited to be a striker. Personally, I wouldn't have let it slide and would've started swinging fists.
Also, why are you trauma dumping into a 18 year old you met a few moments ago, just because he refused to play by your sayings.
Imagine someone tells you a story, and you go like, "Why are you telling me some loser's story?" And that someone replies, "Oh, actually, that was my best friend and he killed himself."
Are you getting me?
Further, I think Ubers got the better end of stick because:
Barou Shoei. No explanation needed.
Aryu Jyubei. He was literally the Top 3 during the second selection.
Niko Ikki. Bro is only 15 and hasn't even played for that long and was able to defend against Shidou and has meta vision.
Aiku Oliver. No explanation needed.
Sendou Shuto. Bro was literally the ace of (ex) U-20 team.
Don Lorenzo. Bro stopped Kaiser's impact
At this point, I'm getting my own emotions involved, but I didn't like how he just assigned everyone into positions. It felt like he molded them according to his own wants/needs that is, to win. I mean, he used data of the players to come up with a plan, right? Then why people think Noa is too reliant on numbers?
I'm not saying that Snuffy is a bad coach. Whatever he did, it turned out to work for the best. In fact, kudos for him to help Barou score by pushing Noa aside:
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He is a good man and a good coach. Please don't think I hate Ubers.
4. Julian Loki
We haven't seen much of him, but if Shidou and Rin are in close quarters without trying to bust open eachother's skulls, then I think Loki is good at whatever he is cooking. Further, the fact that he is only 17, makes everything very impressive.
I know that we have already gotten a chapter focused on PxG, but it's not sufficient to precisely say how things got to be the way they are currently.
Also, ngl, I do think that PxG got the better end of the stick too:
Itoshi Rin. No explanation needed.
Shidou Ryusei. No explanation needed.
Tokimitsu Aoshi. He was literally Top 3 during the second selection. Like, even Barou couldn't defend against him (at that time).
Karasu Tabito. Bro is smart.
Tsurugi Zantetsu. Bro is speed.
Charles Chevalier. HE IS 15 AND ALREADY A PLAYMAKER.
Nanase Nijiro. Can't say much, but I think he is good.
The only problems are:
Itoshi Rin
Shidou Ryusei
Lol
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To sum it up, Noa isn't a bad coach.
I do think it was a bit not-so considerate of him to just throw them into those physical tests because THEY ARE JAPANESE, NOA!? THEY CAN'T UNDERSTAND YOU!? If I were to be there, I would've been so lost like, Man, what you even want me to do?
Well, like I said earlier, everyone who chose the Germany stratum knew what they were getting into. Besides, Noa had made it crystal clear from the very start that if you want to play as regulars, prove it through your performance— what more do you want him to do!? Die or something?
Secondly, when Isagi came to his office/workspace whatever that is to ask for advice. He did give him one, in his own way. It was same like Lavi did to Bachi, and Chris did to Nagi, but each of them gave advices that reflected their own personalities.
Also, considering the environment in which he grew, one could expect him to be money hungry you know, yet, he was against of letting Isagi play in the match just because the sponsors wanted, and denied it till he forcefully agreed to let him play in, at least, one match. Even when he was subbing in him, he bluntly said, "It's fan service." This post isn't about Isagi, otherwise I would've mentioned how he proved his worth and THAT'S why Noa continued to let him play.
Further, I don't understand why people forget that in every match, Noa has explained stuffs to Isagi. For example:
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Us Readers, take this as a narration about a character, and forget that in the BLLK universe, Isagi is the listener.
I don't think so that just because someone has an experience of doing something for long period of time, it also mean that they are capable of teaching others the same— Noa, I think, is doing his best; he literally, though for like a minute, let go of his striker position and did what was necessary for Isagi to score (chapter 201).
Just because Noa-Isagi interactions are highlighted more, doesn't mean Noa hasn't helped others too— he was watching over Kiyora and Igaguri practice, remember? Isagi is the protagonist after all, it makes sense for him to have the most spotlight.
To be completely honest, in the end, there is no definitive way of comparing all the coaches, it just boils down to what playstyle you have.
That's it, I guess.
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Noa seems like someone who takes the meaning in the literal sense, like, someone be like, "He is such a Daddy material!" And he'd reply with a straight face, "I don't plan to have kids any time soon, but I appreciate that you think I'm worthy to be a Father." I just know he is dense.
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yutasbimil · 1 year
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jaemin x fem!reader | nct dream ff. [one-shot] !!! also posted on my ao3 acc! { here } tags: fluff, smut cw: nsfw minors dni, crack, bestie-lovers energy, hurt-comfort, established relationship, intoxicated (under the influence of alcohol), kinky, hair pulling, (too many tags orz), playful wrestling, teasing, slight degradation kink, dom-sub dynamic, fingering, expect interrupted/cut-short sex, crying, mating press, breeding kink, dumbification, oral sex, blowjob, deep throat, mouthfuck, shower sex, sofa sex, unprotected sex, FLUFF!!! ! not that comfy w/ 2nd POV, but hope 3rd POV is good for y'all ♡ word count: 6.1k
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Jaemin lies by the bed, patting Y/n’s head to assist her. Though he’s not much assured by the clouded stares she has on him.
“Jaemin-ah…” Y/n had been cooing over the past minute or so… Even with the guy’s tight hold on her arm. It is obvious by that fact that he even let her stay by his bed, he doesn’t want to let go of her yet.
He just quietly removes the half-hanging shoe she left on one of her feet, shaking her hand saying she can do it. Half of the effort that is.
She just groans a protest, letting him off to keep her socks on.
Their position is now switched with her laying on the bed earlier to regain her steps, but currently, Jaemin took the weight so he can better support her, on whatever she means to even do right now. Y/n has a tendency to let her drives take the best of her. Mostly let her instincts take down the likes of Na Jaemin. Most especially when it involves Na Jaemin.
And he’s in it for a ride as long as she’s happy.
Though now, she seems extra giggly and kinda odd how she’s acting right now. He is concerned as well at her drunken state, how quickly she gulped down the soju mix earlier for them to go home early. He at least takes her to his apartment first to sober up, she’s too much tipsy to properly walk home. He’s also confused, it’s been weeks since they have last seen each other, let alone hangout. So, by the call of Mark, telling him to go pick up Y/n by their place by their mini get-together, he had to quickly go run to her.
He didn’t manage to attend said party as he has other matters to finish off. Good thing he’s done for the day. But it looks like he has new tasks to take care of.
Hint: It involves taking care of Y/n L/n.
It’s not like Y/n to act like this though, she isn’t that hammered when he got there. She was fine till she swigs her drink to the last drop. That’s when the obvious marks of alcohol showed through her reddened complexion.
She didn’t need to go that quickly over things.
But this is the thing dealing with Y/n. Though, he is truly a bit annoyed at how adorable she looks even if she’s wobbly and queasy tugging at his shirt, begging to not leave her.
Which is not the usual… He keeps quiet.
Jaemin sighs, keeping his hands and squeezing his fingers by his temples. It’s been weeks before they got to meet each other like this; skin-to-skin. So, heck how is it that he’s left to deal with this firsthand?
He was going to get some water for both of them, but he quickly felt a straining pull by his back.
“Jaemin, ah… stay beside me, please.” 
It isn’t even a question, Y/n rubs her face by the ends of his shirt. It smells like him. She further buries herself by his scent, Jaemin just stays there, crouching a bit to hold her head.
Okay, he’s going on another route then…
“Stop suffocating yourself like that, lay down properly. You’re going to get dizzier on how you’re acting right now.” Jaemin grabs hold of both her shoulders, Y/n took this as another way to reach his hand to kiss him. He quickly deflects it. “No.”
Y/n’s eyebrows quickly furrowed. “Eh? Why not!” She continues to pout her lips out to attempt to kiss him again.
Jaemin wants to continue teasing her though, distancing himself. “No.”
“Come on, Jaemin-ah!” she whines. “Just one!”
Her boyfriend just acts indifferent, shaking his head. He knows how much it pisses her off. Therefore, making her more triggered to pull him down as she attempts to steal a kiss—then another—from him.
He just chides in along his game of depriving her with kisses. “This is your punishment, getting yourself drunk after not giving us time together? This is how you repay your boyfriend, hmm?”
Her skittishness easily painted on her pout, he’s the one who told her earlier to enjoy herself. They had always promoted independence in their relationship, having to have different interests outside together. So what is this behavior, Nana?!
Of course, Jaemin is just being a tease but her drunken mind took it in another way. She lowers her head in disbelief. “I missed you! That’s why I want to give you a kiss!”
Jaemin kept the proximity between them at a limit. “Well, I don’t want to, you reek of alcohol, babe.”
“Jaemin-pabo! You also drank hard alcohol before we headed out.” Y/n protests, FYI his skin is stained with the scent of alcohol more than hers. She attempts to stand up straight (she can’t). “I’ll go home, and you won’t get a kiss from me for another week or two.”
“That’s fine by me, let’s get you sobered up then—”
“No! I was kidding.” Y/n stumbled by the side of the bed, quickly pulling his sleeve as he immediately stood up. He had to stifle back a laugh. She’s almost in tears.
Y/n practically tackles him to pin him down, she’s still stuck in her delusional state to think she’s got the upper hand by being on top of him.
She didn’t.
“Come-on—” she’s struggling to even get an inch close to his face, her lips falling flat by his neck, failing as her lips land then again by his collarbones. “Nope.”
Upon hearing that, she gladly takes the challenge.
But little did he know he was already pinned into her little game, and he was playing into it. Y/n continues to be playful, with her shirt half off her torso— only with her bra on.
He took no mind off it.
“Aha! Gotchu!” Y/n managed to land a kiss just near his lips, and Jaemin couldn’t believe he let his guard down for a moment. Dammit.
Jaemin already knows she's going to glomp at him if he lets her take a kiss. Y/n wouldn’t stop herself and it would lead to another thing. She already got teased when she managed to give him a kiss earlier.
With her hormones extra spiked now, she’s getting sneaky. 
Jaemin just looks at her. “Nu-uh, let’s get you to rest now, Y/n—”
“And you don't like that?”
“It's not that...” Y/n inches closer but Jaemin could only gulp, letting his eyes stray elsewhere.
Man, why does she have to be shirtless?
“I just don't want you to get tired.” He managed to croak out. It only made her smirk.
“Oh? Because you wouldn't be able to control yourself and tire me out?”
Jaemin looks away.
“Hmmm… if you say so.” Y/n just lays down, and he took this chance to make an alarm on his phone. Though he keeps insisting to take her home and does every means of dodging and evasion from her antics to place a kiss his lips on his. She isn’t stopping any soon huh?
Even if he’s grabbing hold of her body, even choking her as he holds her body to his. And she manages to laugh at that?
Jaemin steals a glance at her nibbling by his arm, seeing her smiling from ear to ear.
What the fuck? Why does she look like she’s enjoying it?!
He rolled his body so she could be on top of her, seeing her just staring at him intently, he knows she was about to ask something ridiculous from him. Y/n points to her face, making him purse his lips. Fine.
“Jaemin…”
Jaemin slapped Y/n. But the swift motion sounded a bit louder than expected. Fuck. 
“Ya!” she almost returned the same power of the slap by his shoulder, but they cannot deny the fact there are surprised tears formed by the side of her eyes.
“S-sorry—haha—ha-I didn’t mean to! Pfft.” A laugh slipped off along his amused face, further reddening Y/n’s face. “You told me to add more power into it, babe.”
Both of them are pointing fingers at each other. “But not that hard, dummy!”
It looks like that slapped the drunkenness out of her, seeing her clear death glare thrown his way. He had to hold back a laugh.
“Jaeminnn!” Y/n trajectories her hands to his hair and face, failing to lock her target.
As much as Jaemin is doing good in locking her down, she won, nevertheless. Taking this chance to kiss him full on the lips, spreading a victory smile on her face.
She knows well how he can't resist her.
At that, they hear a faint sound gradually getting louder by the table nearby. The alarm is going off.
And Y/n knows she’s going home as he's preparing to fix himself, but she’s keeping every ounce of her trust that Jaemin’s going to give in, in 3… 2… 1...
Jaemin slides his finger on the alarming phone screen the other way. Fuck it.
“You’re being too pesky.” Jaemin breaks and drowns her in a kiss, pulling her in, much to her satisfaction as he already caves in after avoiding her all evening.
10 minutes.
“Did you just snooze it like schwoop.” Y/n imitated the sound of a swipe. Jaemin just blinks at her seriousness.
“Uh, yes.”
Jaemin’s touches and kisses turn steamy from one push to another. He quickly takes her from behind, but before that, he kisses her by the bare shoulders, and her bra strap already falling to the side, he squeezes her breasts and nipples erect from the act.
He is quick to pull down her pants, met with Y/n’s panties adhering to her skin. Jaemin smirks as he glides a finger by her core, not touching it directly.
“Why is it wet already?” 
Y/n gulped a yelp as he swipes a finger into her drenched core, he adds. “So wet.”
She is already left panting, and the much-accumulated anticipation floods into her system. She wants more of Jaemin.
“Because of y-you of course.” Y/n felt her throat dry, holding back a voice of desperation.
“You bad girl, you got turned on with me manhandling you earlier?—Heck, we were just wrestling earlier.”
“Eh…” She holds back another moan as her legs lock together, filching as he remains by the shallow opening of her feverish core. She felt her voice falter and raspier. Is this the alcohol kicking in?
“I told you so, that's why I'm not letting you have that kiss.” He knows how much she’s going to go weak the moment she gives in to her desires. But he does enjoy seeing her like this.
“But you still want me to…” It is reciprocated by the moment their lips locked in once again, gradually moving from tongue to tongue as they taste each other, making out as he fingers her hard, the squelching sound heightens her hotness more.
“Ahh… hmmm… you make me feel so good–Jaemin… ah.” Jaemin hits a sweet spot in her core, tightening further around his fingers. She stifles back a yelp.
“I’ll make you feel more good,” Jaemin whispers by her ear, and he gladly did so by flipping Y/n over, pressing her gently closer to the bedsheets. His weight is so comfortable, she gladly submits to his warmth.
He can no longer impede himself.
Jaemin takes her in quickly at the back, his erect dick easily slipped on how wet she is. He emits a low groan at how tight and good she feels at every motion he does. In and out, her tongue can hardly stay in her mouth on how she’s pooled by pleasure on what Jaemin is doing.
“You look so stupid now…” Jaemin brings her face into his, mouth clashing into his as he uses his free hand to let her head turn to him. His finger moved to her cheeks before she spreads her mouth for her to suck into his moist fingers. “You look stupidly pretty with my cock ramming into you, you like that?”
“F-fuuu…ack— it feels heaven-lyyy—!" her vowels lengthen a mile more along as he dips his cock into her a grind more, then cutting into A’s on how continuously he’s ramming into her sweet spots. His hips move impatiently on how passionate every push he does.
“Nae pabo-yah. (My stupid.)” He turns her face to kiss her, shutting her up momentarily as she responds with a “Stupid,” back before she spurs another series of mere vowels of pleasure.
“Ack- yes!” As Y/n bounces in his delicious dick, he takes this moment to slap her ass.
He moves to lay her down on the bed, her breast moving aimlessly at every movement he does. Having been bothered by how lonely one of her breasts looks, he finally pulls his bra over to expose both her nipples. He is licking her chest, the gliding of his tongue across her breast but her nipples are borderline infuriating. It's the devil's work.
With a frustrated pull of his hair, Y/n tugs his head in the direction of her nipples. “Jae, you meanie. Here… suck me, please…” She looks down to be met with mischievous eyes, even acting innocent as if he’s not doing anything wrong.
“Since you asked nicely about exactly what you want.” Jaemin takes the honor to put one of her erect nipples on his lips, sucking on each in turn.
Y/n moans, more sensitive to every touch and glide of his fingers and lips on her skin, feeling degrees hotter due to the anticipation intensified for the past hour. Even when the alcohol kicked in earlier, seeing his presence and his default serious demeanor got her worked up. The alcohol is really to blame for the effect, but even sober, she’s down bad in her attraction to Na Jaemin.
Her every moan and plea is proof enough that every inch of her skin wants her man badly. He has his smooth ways and motions with his tongue, and not even a word that slips off his lips can compare to the impact he brings.
Jaemin is keen with details and his memory to take note of what she likes, and how Y/n likes it. A gentle swipe of his tongue to her erect nipples is enough to make her squirm, adding to the movement of his hips. A bite in her nipples also adds a touch of sting and sensation, resulting to hear his name off her lips.
“That’s…ah-s-so good, Jae… please, uhh.” She’s lost of breath, along as Jaemin dives in further into her skin and sinking his dick in the wet of her folds.
She guides his pretty hands in her drenched folds, making him shift to fingering her and doing his magic. Y/n mewls louder at the sensation and combo he’s doing at every curve and plunge of his fingers by her walls and clit. He pushes into her again, making her squeal.
“You really do like feeling good all over huh?” There goes Jaemin’s teasing tone again. He does this as he smirks while licking her boobs. 
Though, even with every ounce of assurance they put into the act up to this point, Y/n felt the need to give back, or it’s another excuse to pursue her desires more and further into being with Jaemin for the night.
Y/n took this chance for revenge, his dick feels so hard and ready to pop as well, and she got an idea. Just when she felt his movements too swift and aimless, she pulls herself up. Much to Jaemin’s disbelief for cutting his flow short. He was too vulnerable to think she can even get away from his grip, but she quickly goes down to suck him.
She didn’t waste a minute as she got her pretty lips around his length. Still as lively as Y/n stimulates from shaft to tip, her other hand lubricating his sacs as well as she sucks downwards. In their many instances of their intimacy, this is the sloppiest blowjob he got from her. And her tipsiness added to the factor of her confidence.
Though he noticed the slight sliver of weakness in the movement she does compare to where she started out strong.
No longer feeling the hotness of her mouth in his erection, Jaemin feels hot liquid dripping on his bare skin.
He blinks… surprised to be met with a tear-stained Y/n, is that why she’s acting strange? 
“Jagiya?” Jaemin taps her shoulder, but she remains buried in his chest before she lets out a cry. “Maybe you’ll get sick of me, eventually, and leave me…Uweeehhh—"
“Aigoo…”
They had a fight before this and the days of not being able to interact as much due to being busy may have added tension between them. They already talked about it thoroughly before but by the looks of Y/n's reaction, her heart still seems to be left with lesions on what happened.
Y/n is still sobbing, he waits till he can comfort her shaking physique. 
“You make up when you can, right?” Jaemin starts, voice thick with worry.
Y/n nods.
“You said you would change, right?”
Y/n does another weak nod. “Y-yeah… but…” She sobs again as a series of memories and emotions flood her mind.
She pauses then looks at him again, vision already blurry. “Do you love me?”
“Of course.” He says with no hesitation, she remains her beady eyes at him.
“Do you still love me even if I argue with you?”
“Yes.”
“Why?! I always end up giving you a hard time— I keep hurting you, oppa!” She normally doesn’t call that at all since they’re kinda the same age. He continues to pat her hair and brush it down.
Just as long as she knows and is aware of her actions, that’s enough. He can even see her efforts to make up. 
“That’s normal, dummy. But you do act out with no reason at times, then projecting it all to me. Of course, I end up having a hard time…”
“Yeah, that’s why I’m sorry. I have no excuse for that.”
Y/n lets go and reveals her snot-covered face, hair tangled due to her creasing her face too much on his shirt. He takes it off for her to wipe her face with it.
Y/n is still wobbly to stand up, getting a towel nearby, and blows her nose with it.
Jaemin stayed laying there with arms open to hug her, Y/n crashed herself to be buried with his warmth, when she started tearing up again.
"What a crybaby you are, tsk, tsk, tsk." Jaemin laughs as he pats her, before guiding her back down again. “Aigoo, just continue—"
He knows that will comfort her, and heck, she cut him short earlier. Talk about getting the taste of his own medicine.
“Jaemin-ah, I’m legit dizzy right now… I can’t,” continue, she didn’t manage to say as she held back a gassy burp. She didn’t feel this earlier at all, as maybe, maybe— he fucked the alcohol out of her. But she feels her soberness leaving her body again, feeling the intoxication fogging her head.
“And whose fault is that? You don't need a full-force bopping,” Jaemin says. 
“Not glock-glock-glock?”
“Just glock… glock.” He adds necessary pauses, emitting a smile from her, the tears on her face no longer out of sadness. "You don't even need to do it, just licking it, you like doing that right?"
She hums, smiling as he knows her too well. “Got it,” she laughs. She feels a ton lighter.
Y/n starts moving close to his dick, slowly hardening again as she licks him. Though, halfway through his shaft, she shakes her head tired. 
"Jaemin-ah, I can’t breathe…"
"Want me to blow it?" he's pointing at her nose, as means of blowing out her snot (ew).
She whines. "Eehhh! No!"
"Aigooo," he just brushes her stray hair again, patting her back quietly.
She had given up altogether, just laying sideways at the top of his leg. Y/n looks up at him.
"Can you assist me downstairs? I'm a bit dizzy. I need to pee."
"A minute more, jagi. I'm a bit dizzy as well…" he admits, it's not usual for him to be easily drunk but Y/n did take note of his quietness. She just nods.
"Okay… that's why I'm asking you if it's fine with you as well."
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"You alright now?" Jaemin gives her water, now more sober having to breathe more loosely. It’s a bit cooler downstairs, maybe lessening with the crampiness of the heated space they built up. They both feel lighter face to face by the kitchen counter.
“Yeah, thank you, Jaem.” She breathes out in relief after gulping down the last of the cold water, relieving her throat.
She looks a bit lighter and herself now, sitting by the couch, he takes the empty glass on the coaster.
"Let's take you home," Jaemin gestures for both of them to stand up, Y/n crosses both her hands in protest. "No…"
The extra vowels coming off her lips added height to the guy's eyebrow raise. "Hmmm?"
"More," she says, this is their code for 'more time with you' and 'let's stay longer'.
Jaemin contemplates along with the sound of the ticking living room clock just across the apartment separating the place. "It’s getting late."
"Can’t I stay the night?"
The delivery of the words isn't anything odd, if anything it's the usual that they do stay together at each other's places for safety. Especially when the subway stations no longer permit them to travel to their homes.
They don't see each other much in person at this time of the day, not even given the chance when the night is young… But in the after-hours of the usual that they have each other close like this, it's one of the firsts.
Along with the irradiation of the connected rooms, there's something about the way the lights of the decorative lamps hit her eyes that illuminates them softly. He's now more aware of how the room is no longer just lit up by the refrigerator light. He's faced with another brightness.
Although the intense flushness of her skin dissipates already, what's left of the blush across her figure emphasizes her beauty more.
Though she had always been pretty in his eyes even as goofy as she gets.
"Can't I stay, Jaemin?" Y/n asks again, and Jaemin needed that tap of consciousness back in his goosebumps. Her hold and soft scent gravitate him back into reality. His Adam's apple bopped as another feeling dissipated in him. The way she looks at him that he can't resist.
He missed her a lot, too.
"Let's wash up then," the male answers, besides heading his way to get her stuff for her side of the bed, Jaemin wants to fix her hair as he knows her un-comfiness despite her vulnerable state. Though either way if she's covered in snot or tangled hair, she's still pretty as hell in his eyes.
He won't say that out loud too much though as he knows she will tease her.
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They somehow end up doing it in the shower, a bit too quickly as they barely touch or lay a finger on each other's bare skins. Sensually if I may add. But the sweet taste of the alcohol barely made Y/n push through her boyfriend's lips, in addition to how good he is at kissing with his supple lips that they ended up making out. Some things just feel so good when not sober. This being one of Y/n's favorite activities with her lover.
The make-out session alone made her soaked, her mind going haywire with her sexual thoughts and fantasies of him. Jaemin starts with him fingering her. And that's when the idea came to mind in the middle of their shower of wanting to try something new.
"Want to move this to the sofa?" Jaemin inquires, he barely gave Y/n a moment to hear her response, and with her slight nod, he confirms she's down for it.
He knows it's more convenient for them and can avoid discomfort, especially with the idea he has in mind.
Good thing they didn’t fully wet their hair as their clothes managed to touch the surface of the floor then after dampening a bit, the couple proceeded to the sofa as said.
Down to her knees, she made herself comfy between his legs. She gripped his lean build, squeezing his thigh a bit as she felt Jaemin let out a groan at the contact of her tongue on his shaft. 
She mostly starts slow, below the head while fiddling with his balls that are overtly coiled with pent-up pleasure. It filched when she licked the back of Jaemin's shaft as she went upwards towards the head, he heaved in a breath as she faced his erect dick.
"Want to try out mouthfuck?" Jaemin asks, they had brought it up the last time though they had tried deep-throating, this would be new.
"I'm feeling better so yeah…" Y/n felt a different sensation in her stomach and its reason is not because of discomfort. She confirmed it was anticipation as she felt herself pool when Jaemin stood up.
"Lay down, babe." He points out as they switched positions, now with Y/n laying on her back, her naked body exposed and displayed intricately for him to admire. He had to hold back a breath, though another twitch let out as he faced his erection near her figure.
She sticks her tongue out. 
"I'll tap you when it gets too much." She sampled tapping the bare part of his thigh, and he then proceeded.
The head entered her mouth, and Jaemin had to control every inch of him not to thrust deep. It felt so moist and so good inside of her, he heaves in a moan as he checks Y/n's state. She circles her tongue in her mouth and attempts to lick around the base and shaft. It felt weak trembling but it barely showed in Jaemin's actions.
He grabs both of her exposed breasts, earning a moan vibrating around his dick as he twists her erect nipples. Both of their bodies surged with focused stimulation, spreading out as they got into each other's warmth. The little head pats from him turned her into putty but served as motivation as she moved more enthusiastically with her next suck, now with hands to assist her in spreading the pleasure of his erection.
He let her get used to it a bit, letting her do her own thing as she motioned in and out with his dick before proceeding for him to be the one to move. She looks like she's enjoying herself, he gave her a moment.
"I'll start moving…" Jaemin gives her a heads up, and he moves slowly, gradually going deeper, he asks in between to check up for her. She gave him thumbs up, she put back her hands around his thigh feeling a thrust at the back of her throat. She almost gagged at the sensation.
"I'll continue." The movements got more consistent and she feels tears streaming at the sides of her forehead to her sideburns.
Jaemin continues to support her head, easing her figure with his hand roaming but it stayed on the bare part in between her chest and stomach. It felt secure.
The sensation around her throat felt full, and she tried to at least add pleasure using her tongue. But her headspace literally felt stuffed with Jaemin. It felt a bit suffocating but damn.
She didn't know she had the kink.
It is a new discovery for both of them while they're exploring and trying new things. 
By the looks of it, Jaemin is also enjoying the new sensation and the tightness felt different with every thrust and vibration of the moans Y/n is emitting.
She is kinda taken aback to be honest that he agreed on trying it out, but Jaemin actually did it and tried it out.
Before fully getting into it, Y/n felt a hand by her shoulder, seeing his soft eyes in the midst of it clouded with lust, patting her to pause. "Hmmm?"
"You can also do it at your own pace, okay?" He assures as he pats her to assure her by taking it slow. She nods bringing back the pacing she is comfortable with, Jaemin lets out a low groan.
"Good girl," he encourages. He also knows she likes hearing things verbally.
Y/n giggles in delight, taking him a bit deeper. Jaemin scrunches her hair in his hands, putting it away from her face.
"Ah… hmmmm… you're doing great, baby." His words left a different twist in her stomach, along with his low voice and moan as if near her face. He continues to let out his sweet groans of pleasure as he thrusts along and continues mouth fucking her.
In between for her to take a bit of her break, she might be feeling a bit numb.
"Don't you want to be a bad girl instead? Smacking you in the ass seems to make you more noisy, right?" At that, Jaemin did the same action, she moans around him sending vibrations. "Just like that, hmm? You like it?"
She’s put in a tight spot, only given a choice to moan in between gagging in her mouth full of his dick.
"Well, if you think about it, aren't you more of a bad girl?” he ponders, though still so into bliss in her warm mouth. “You like getting slapped in the ass."
She pouts, momentarily letting go of his dick in her mouth. "Why am I getting punished? You just said I'm a good girl."
"If you don't want to, then go on and be a good girl for me. Go back there…"
Jaemin proceeds to shove her down back to his crotch.
Got a bit more dominant and aggressive, huh? Y/n breathed out as she felt a bit dizzy, his tall stature making her hazier at his dark eyes, serious in drinking down her presence.
"You're mean, making me cry like this." she breathes out, in tears as she gulps him in again. Jaemin strokes her head softly again, but the lowness of his voice is anything but just teasing, it’s enveloped with dominance.
"Those tears are different, baby." 
She pouts. "Hmph."
He playfully puts his finger directly in front of her throat to measure himself, more on checking where she can go, testing her limits in challenging her gag reflex.
We somehow ended up there, huh? Y/n is lost in her lightheadedness, observing Jaemin as he seems to be enjoying taking the lead between them.
“Jaemin, ah-” she breathes out as he pauses momentarily in mouthfucking her, she feels a notch higher up her lightheadedness as he maintains the movement of his dick in her.
“Yeah? You're doing so good, babe,” he says, keeping an eye on her.
She swallows down her breath, looking for a quick break from him. She heaves in for a moment before she nods, the gawking sounds surround them in tune with Jaemin’s low groans.
“That feels so good, Y/n, you’re doing so good…” he lets out, quivering in pleasure.
He's not the type to be direct with words just for the sake of his expense, so it rouses her up more because she knows he means it every time he conveys his thoughts.
That kick of praise kink made her pool over her own arousal.
It’s not long till he lets out his much-awaited climax, the final thrust of his hips had her choking a bit as most of his seed pours out directly at the back of her throat. Y/n coughs, feeling her throat clogged at the amount of his pleasure. The mix of bitterness and slight saltiness of its thickness pooling over her satisfied needs. But she’s got other needs as well, it activated more desire in her. Y/n is getting greedy.
It is received well by Jaemin’s initial intentions of never wanting to leave her short.
“Wait a sec, babe.” 
After a quick trip to the bathroom to clean himself up, Jaemin immediately went to Y/n and her waiting figure opened arms for him. “C’mere.”
“That got you so wet again, huh, Y/n?” Jaemin checks her with a swipe of his finger, her flushed face as she felt her steaminess answered his query. Her satisfaction with their act earlier recharged her anticipation, and her core soaked again, making it easier for them to slide his erection into her.
“Shit! This felt better than earlier, how- fuckhell.” her spurs of profanity are left drowned out as Jaemin’s hips reach the back, hitting her deepest core. He only manages to respond with consistent huffs as he pounds into her, feeling the squeezing of her walls tightening his length.
Their mixed juices made their sex noisy, adding to the clapping of their skin as sweat builds up the passion they share as they make love further.
Jaemin fucking her and moaning for her turns her on more as he's on the quiet side when making love.
His hot breath and proximity by her ear, are enough to turn her into putty, even so hearing his moans. AAAAAA, she wants to scream into the void. 
Alas, the best that Y/n could do is sing out his name in love on how he stretches her well. His face and presence alone are already a ticket to heaven.
She's about to lose it, the same way he grounds her by pressing his weight on her back on the sofa. Jaemin’s skin felt hot to the touch as bare skin met, the idea turbulating into her as she recognized the position they’ll get into in a second.
Jaemin positioned her legs up near her chest, with her torso elevated making it bare for him to enter in her tight wet pussy.
“Urgh-ah! Ahhh… please, fuck… Jaemin, ah!” Unable to spur out any coherent words, Y/n is left in his power, only with the choice to place her hands where they could reach it– anything– by the bed sheets, to the strands of his hair, that pretty face looking oh so engrossed into her soul.
Man, she really loves Na Jaemin so much.
The mating press really is different in terms of tightness, the sensation even– it can swallow you up over and over into bliss. The clapping of skin near pressed on her pussy along with a bit of her clit and labia, was phenomenal.
Y/n turns louder at every thrust, with Jaemin feeling his hips move more vigorously at the sensitivity of the smooth linear ins and outs of their act. The stickiness of their sweat and skin didn’t even hinder his thighs pressing against hers.
“I-aym… sho… close-hngh.” She’s already sticking her tongue out at the pleasure, unable to maintain the remainder of her sane behavior.
It's just so hot (Jaemin and his thrusts) she could melt. Also, the way he grabs both her arms as her boobs hang freely, not till he uses his free hand to grab it, deliciously adding a twist to her erect nipple as his other stimulates her wet folds.
Their orgasm doubled–tripled after being restrained earlier, stacking up their stimulation into rapture.
Along with her quickly reaching her peak of whiteness, Jaemin also pulls out to pour out his seed, thrusting out the last of his cum, and landing all over her torso. 
It felt scalding to the skin, cooling off a bit as she moved slightly.
Both of them catch their breath, Y/n wraps her arm around his waist as she seeps into his presence, heaving a sigh of relief and safety. Jaemin’s fingers land by the sides of her legs. He circles around her bare skin softly, mellow as his stares as it’s not as dark and lusted over as earlier. It’s now clearer as the stars look back at Y/n’s as they cuddle into each other’s warmth through the night.
If nights can be this good and by the mere presence around each other is this ecstatic, he might not be able to contain himself. At the same time, it’s tame, secure… It felt like home.
He doesn't want to let go of her at all any time soon.
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docholligay · 6 months
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Ahhh do you plan to post your Skinamarink thoughts??? I'm so excited to hear your review!
I thought I posted something about this after I saw it, but I can't find it, so I must not have.
So, Skinamarink is based on the short horror film, Heck, which i saw quite awhile ago and thought was fantastic. It is all atmospheric, it was absolutely never going to be for everyone. It's highly conceptual horror, it's not a jumpscare type thing, nor is it the kind of horror that feels wrapped up neatly with a bow at any point.
I think the strengths of Heck end up being some of the problems of Skinamarink. Which isn't terribly unusual for horror shorts that get pulled out into full length movies. Horror is very very hard to maintain. So, for example one of my favorite horror shorts was Lights Out. It conveys a horrifying idea that also tells you something about real life is like...less than two minutes, and it is so good. When I heard they were making a full length movie of it, I simply said, "No." Still havent' seen it! there's no way you could convince me they pulled it off.
So, a lot of what makes the roughly ten minute Heck, the circling, the dawning realization of what it all means, the puzzlebox that won't be solved, all feels horrifyingly tense and leaves you with a lingering sense of dread. But in Skinamarink, it feels overlong. I LOVE a ponderous horror movie, I am that bitch, but even i was like, 'Okay y'all we gotta move this along somehow" because something that works in the short might not in the long.
I like that it EXISTS, and I really want more of these kinds of risks to be taken with horror, but I think all in all Heck is a better execution of the ideas in the story.
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hotasfahrenheit · 9 months
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So you wanna get into NCT eh?
Let's do this.
NCT - Neo Culture Technology - is naturally an intimidating group to get into - there's twenty members but there have been members added and people have left and there's another group set to debut and there's subgroups and everything seems all over the place all the time, but if you're willing to jump into it all it's so absolutely incredibly worth it and less complicated than it seems at first! Let me walk you through some basics- I'll do more posts to get deeper into each group later, but this will be a primer for getting you started.
Where to start? NCT officially debuted in April 2016 with fifteen members after promoting for a while as trainees and with other trainees (including future members of Red Velvet) under the SM Rookies banner. Part of the original plan for NCT as announced at their debut was to continuously add members with no end in sight, and to expand into a group with members from all over the world who could promote in different areas at the same time. This... didn't really come to fruition ultimately, tho they do have members from seven(ish) countries. (Taiwan is a free country y'all, that makes seven. Macau is a "special administrative region of China", that's the ish.) There will be one more unit added to NCT soon, the final new set of members, but this post is going to proceed with only the current groups and subunits since The Babies (as I like to call them) aren't officially debuted yet and I don't feel like explaining them here since this is already going to be long enough. Either way, NCT's unlimited expansion has officially ended which hopefully removes that bit of intimidation.
Now on to some music!
The first song and MV that NCT released was under the broad NCT U umbrella, and started with The 7th Sense. (Wait what the heck is NCT U, you ask? I'll get there, trust me, keep reading)
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The 7th Sense unit was comprised of Taeyong, Mark, Jaehyun, Doyoung, and Ten, five of the fifteen debut members.
The next day, NCT U released Without You, sung by Doyoung, Taeil, and Jaehyun, so two boys we saw already plus a new one.
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The full list of members (that I and no one else expects you to remember at this point) at debut were Taeil, Taeyong, Johnny, Yuta, Ten, Doyoung, Jaehyun, Winwin, Mark, Haechan, Jaemin, Jeno, Renjun, Chenle, and Jisung.
Since debut, members have been added, growing NCT to 23, and then a few left, dropping it back to 20. In 2018, Kun, Jungwoo and Lucas were added; in 2019, Xiaojun, Hendery, and Yangyang were added; in 2020, Shotaro and Sungchan were added. In 2023, Lucas was removed after being on hiatus for almost two years because of a scandal, and then Shotaro and Sungchan were pulled from NCT and re-debuted in SM's new boy group, RIIZE. (No, we're not going to get into my opinions or emotions about any of this right now, yes, I have a lot of opinions about both things and a lot of emotions about SungTaro. Maybe in a different post if people really wanna know.)
So what do I mean when I call NCT U an umbrella? Is that what the U stands for? No, not really, tho it's a handy way to think of things! U stands for United (or Unlimited, depending on who you ask) and is a flexible title that allows them to release songs using any members of the whole group. This lets them pick from a pool of currently 20 different members with different skills to best fit the concept of a song, and has allowed them to do things like release songs with multiple lead vocalists, songs with a collection of rappers, etc. It's super flexible- some U songs have only two members performing, some have nine, etc. (Once you become familiar with all of the members, the U songs become a lot of fun when it comes to seeing who gets mixed and matched for projects!)
Overall, don't worry too much about NCT U yet. Having the basic knowledge that it could be anyone is really enough to get you going and you can come back to all of the NCT U releases later. NCT has released four albums now as a full group (Empathy, Resonance, Universe, and Golden Age) that have both fixed subunit songs and NCT U songs with mixed members so there's a bunch of fun with all that later once you've gotten more of the basics down.
The key to getting into NCT is splitting it into the sub-units, of which there are currently four, including U.
NCT U - flexible subunit of varying combined members
NCT 127 - 9 member fixed unit, concept being that they're focused on Seoul (127 is the longitude of Seoul)
NCT Dream - 7 member fixed unit, original concept involving the fact that they were the seven youngest members at debut
WayV - 6 member fixed unit, releasing music primarily in Mandarin with a focus on promotion in China
The easiest thing to do if you want to take on learning all 20 members (plus the 3 former members which are at least in past MVs and content so you'll come across them either way) is to pick one of the three fixed units (NCT 127, NCT Dream, or WayV) and learn the members of that group before moving on to the next. NCT 127 and NCT Dream also share two members, which gives you a little leg up when you get to going from one to the other!
I'll make posts getting into each group more in depth soon to talk about members and with my fave songs and recommendations etc, so for each of the fixed units, I'll put in here their debut plus a recent song so you can get a grasp of how each group has grown and changed.
NCT 127 was the first of the subunits to debut, releasing Firetruck in July 2016.
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127 debuted with Taeil, Taeyong, Yuta, Jaehyun, Winwin, Mark and Haechan. The fashion and hair in this MV is uhhhhhh wild? Yeah we'll go with wild.
127 has gone through some lineup changes over the years as they've changed and grown- they added Johnny, Doyoung, and Jungwoo, and then Winwin went on indefinite 127-hiatus when he joined WayV in 2019.
Their most recent release was in October of this year and is so good that it managed to make it into my top 5 songs of this year on Spotify in slightly over a month so uhhhhh yeah here's Fact Check-
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NCT 127 is known for having music that's a little more experimental and sometimes just straight up weird, so you'll see a lot of mixed opinions of them on the internet (I've seen people calling some/all of their songs just noise music) but they're ultimately like most kpop groups and have released stuff in all kinds of styles with different mixed influences, so it's worth listening to at least a few things before forming any kinds of opinions about their music if you don't like the first song or two you hear. I mean. It's worth it EXTRA if you do like thier music obviously. Anyway.
Next up!
NCT Dream debuted not long after NCT 127 in August 2016 as a bunch of ACTUAL BABIES, aged between 14-17 at debut. Yeah that's right, Chenle and Jisung were both 14. They debuted with the now iconic Chewing Gum, that involves some wild hoverboard choreography that isn't shown as much in the MV but was probably more dangerous than a bunch of kids should have been doing on stages all the time (especially one time outdoors in the rain???), but they all survived so I guess it's fine?
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WHAT A BUNCH OF ADORABLE BABIES.
NCT Dream debuted with Mark, Haechan, Renjun, Jeno, Jaemin, Chenle, and Jisung. Yes, Mark and Haechan are also in the NCT 127 list! They are workaholics who can't stop won't stop basically. (Yes, we also all worry about their health. It's A Thing.)
The original concept behind Dream was that it would be the youngest members of NCT, and when members grew old enough they would graduate out, and new younger members of NCT would be added in turn as members were added to NCT. The only element of this that was ever put into practice was graduating out Mark in December 2018 as he was the eldest member; no new members were added however, and eventually the whole plan was scrapped and Mark was re-added to Dream in 2020 (back where he BELONGS) and Dream officially became a fixed unit like 127 and WayV.
The boys are now between the ages of 21-24, and their music has grown a lot as they've grown out of their cute concepts and into more mature looks and sounds. Their most recent release was in July of this year, ISTJ.
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They're still known for having a more youthful, optimistic vibe, and there's something incredibly uplifting and exuberant about them in general at basically all times. These boys have been together for half of their lives at this point and really grown up together and- yeah I have a lot of emotions about Dream that I'll save for later.
Moving on!
WayV time! WayV officially debuted in 2019 with the Mandarin version of Regular.
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(NCT 127 released both Korean and English versions of Regular as well, and they are the last NCT 127 MVs that feature Winwin before he became 127-inactive and became fully active with WayV instead.)
WayV debuted with Winwin, Kun, Ten, Xiaojun, Hendery, Yangyang, and Lucas. Lucas has since been removed from NCT and WayV and the other six members have continued to promote as a six member group.
WayV has hit some snags, especially with things out of their control like the pandemic- they live in Seoul when they're not promoting or touring, and travel into and out of China has been difficult for obvious reasons for the past few years, which has made it harder for them to be pushing into the Chinese music industry when they haven't been able to travel in China as freely as they could have under other circumstances and couldn't do things like concerts or fanmeets. They have started touring and promoting more heavily in Southeast Asia more recently, and some of the members like Winwin and Ten have spent time in China over the past few years working on things like acting in dramas, participating in variety shows, or judging on Chinese dance competition shows as well. Xiaojun is also currently a host on one of the the Korean weekly music shows, SBS's The Show.
WayV's most recent comeback was actually last month but I'm gonna use their comeback from the VERY end of last year (Dec 28) in this post because I'm still obsessed with this song-
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WayV mix a lot of different elements into their music and are the most multilingual of the groups- since they're based in Seoul, they've often performed on the weekly Korean music shows with English versions of their songs, and they have the NCT member who speaks the most languages in Ten, who is Thai, and speaks Thai, Mandarin, Korean, English, and Japanese, as well as multiple members who speak four (Hendery and Xiaojun both speak Cantonese, Mandarin, Korean, and English; Yangyang speaks Mandarin, English, Korean and German). They also have Kun, who is both a licensed airplane pilot and licensed sky diver (who promoted Phantom by skydiving with a banner for it) as well as being a music producer AND the only member of NCT to have a university degree. Basically WayV is a bunch of overachievers who deserve the whole world.
So..... that's all the subunits! I hope this breakdown gave you a place to start with. Feel free to use this as a base to go look up more information about each subunit, or watch the videos I included here and the ones I linked throughout in the text in various places to get started. I will also make some more posts about each subunit to get into more about the members and more songs by each so you can hang out and wait for those too!
Related things to come from this? More NCT posts, possibly more kpop posts in general like this? I've talked to a few people about how to get into NCT in basics, and this post is dedicated to @catatonicrainbow most specifically as being the most recent internet pal to want to get into NCT and being the one who finally got me to make some kind of thing like this. Meanwhile, @poetry-protest-pornography and I have been discussing starting a kpop podcast where I teach her about different groups as my knowledge is vast and deep and has been accumulating in my brain since around 2008 and she's MUCH newer to kpop than me, and I often infodump at her already about various groups. So like. Now that we're both talking about that publicly I guess we really gotta do it. Maybe I'll make companion posts on here to go with the podcast? Or something. We'll see. But there will be more of this stuff coming! So hopefully if you've read this far and enjoyed this content, you'll be excited for more? Whee!
Also like yes obviously I know other people have probably made these kinds of posts and there's videos and podcasts and etc out about this kind of stuff already, but I figure since everyone processes information differently, having multiple sources for this kind of information and different ways it's presented will probably be helpful to SOMEONE so I'm gonna make the content I feel like making either way. :) Cheers!
[So you wanna get into NCT eh? 1 | 2 | 3]
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mrfandomwars · 1 year
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The Hardships Of Being A Mandalorian Jedi: Part Two - The Way Of The Mandalore
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For a recap of why I'm doing this, have a quote directly from my last post: "I'm breaking down how Jedi, if they wanted to be Mando'ade or are mando'ade that were adopted into the Jedi Order (of which then consider something to think about when making ocs like that), would have a hard time with the rules that were put on the concept of 'mandalorian', both in the Six Actions (Resol'nare) from Legends and with the Way Of The Mandalore from (Disney) Canon."
This post is focused on the latter part, on The Way Of The Mandalore of (Disney) Canon, And it will be the last part of my The Hardships Of Being A Mandalorian Jedi meta.
Hopefully it will be shorter than the first part
In comparison with the first part, found Here, this is filled with a lot more uncertainty regarding how easily the Jedi would be able to be a Mando'ade who followed The Way
Now that done, let's gooooooo!
Following Wookiepedia, the main points I could take out were the following:
Wear Helmets at All Times unless you are eating
Protect and take in foundlings until they were either old enough to take the Creed or until they were reunited with their kind
Protect fellow Mandalorians
Sounds easy! That means that it should be easier to follow than the Resol'nare, right? Ehn, not really.
Wear Helmets at All Times unless you are eating
This is the one that the Jedi would have no problem following, heck the Jedi Order probably has accommodations for it.
The only problem I could see coming up is if they had to take off the helmet to protect someone, which is what a Jedi would do.
But we know from The Mandalorian that if it was ever found out, the Jedi would be declared an Apostate
Protect and take in foundlings until they were either old enough to take the Creed or until they were reunited with their kind
Oh this is when things get Tricky because, on one hand, the Jedi would 100% protect children and adopt them into the Order if they were Force Sensitive and if their parents allowed/were orphans/were in a bad situation.
If they weren't Force Sensitive, however...
Being Force Sensitive is a HUGE part of the Jedi culture, they wouldn't be able to adopt non-Force Sensitives, they would have to find someone else to take them in.
Which would definitely be something that the Mandos Would Judge the Jedi hard for, even if it isn't their fault.
Also, if we assume that Grogu being taken to a battle as a baby is Normal, the Jedi not taking any kid they adopted missions would be Also something they would frown upon - because no way will the Jedi take a three year old to a complicated diplomacy mission.
Also tend to count how long some missons can be... Yeah, the Mandos would judge the Jedi Hard
Coupled with 'being unable to take in every child', the Mando's could argue that the Jedi weren't following the Creed and thus Disqualification As A Mandalorian AKA become an Apostate.
Protect fellow Mandalorians
Y'all remember how in my previous post I keep mentioning clauses and all?
Yeah, we need one here. The Jedi would 100% protect fellow Mandalorians...
... As long as that action wouldn't mean more harm to someone else.
THE VERDICT
Out of Three rules (that we know of) of the Creed, we have:
2 that should be easy to follow - but clauses are needed
1 that will probably earn the Jedi Looks - and also they wouldn't be able to follow it completely
So out of all this, we get None that the Jedi will be able to follow at 100%, and I'm betting that the Jedi would have a hard time being accepted as a mando at all and would probably be classified as an Apostate at one point.
So, not good for the mando Jedi.
Personal thoughts: While I can see the Jedi having an easier time with the Way Of The Mandalore, I can also see that it would be Really Hard at times. Also, that this Part was Shorter than I expected.
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dashawns-world · 1 year
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Escaflowne Opening Sequence
Alrighty y'all, I talked about the story, but now I wanna take a look at the opening scene. I'm curious about why I like it so much. It's easy to say, "Because the animation is sick!" 
But I wanna go a little deeper. I’ll be covering the opening sequence. Once again, the link for the movie is here. Shoutout to Neat Flicks on Dailymotion for uploading the movie. I’ll also post the vid link from the Sakugabooru site, which houses a much better quality sequence.
https://www.sakugabooru.com/post/show/170797 - I recommend checking out this site in general if you’re a fan of animation—credit to PurpleGeth for uploading this scene.
So off the jump, this sequence starts at a fair pace. We start on the stars and slowly pan down to a view of some clouds/mountains. BGs can only take you so far, and that pan is like a whopping 25 seconds, so I like that the next shot gives us some movement/animation. The goats were a nice touch because what the heck else would be this high? Birds? Amateur shit! (that I would’ve done) I do like the framing of this scene, though. 
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I highlighted the foreground so that you could see the goats better. You're welcome. Something about the mountain taking up half of the frame, with the goats in the far background, sits well with me. The goat that runs in the foreground helps bridge the next cut, where the same (or possibly new) goat continues moving into the scene. Oh, what does bridge mean? Why is it highlighted? I’m glad I asked. That’s my cute little way of saying the goat’s movement helps the audience connect the dots between this scene and the next. ;) Little decisions like that help me understand we’re still on the mountain. This is a relatively benign example, but pay attention to fight scenes in action movies, and you can see how essential bridges can be. 
Let’s continue! As the camera pans up this mountain, I’m shown a giant dragon skeleton embedded inside of it. This is important for simply one reason. It’s visual storytelling! I know now that dragons (or whatever fantasy creature this could be) exist in this world/movie. It’s tempting to explain a lot when you have a fantasy story, and while the film will eventually tell you about the dragons, it’s not a “wait, there are dragons moment?” Because I saw one myself!
The fact that it’s a skeleton even adds a bit of mystery. Are they extinct? Is it just this one? I imagine one wants their audience to ask questions, so long as they’re asking the right ones and you have the answers. 
Eventually, a large shadow is cast on our mountain, and the next cut reveals a large ship passing by. Nowadays, 3D is far more accessible, and some may argue this isn’t that grand of a reveal. But I like it! The goat and mountain in the foreground give a sense of scale to the whole scene, and it’s a very economical shot choice. I work in TV animation, and shots like this are functional and attainable regarding skill level and time. 
Up until the fight starts, this entire sequence is exceptionally economical. Japan, in my opinion, are masters at the conservation of animation. They save the crazy stuff for the scenes that matter but generally tend to have pleasing compositions to supplement the rest of the show/film. If you’re wondering why they don’t just go wild like that all the time, the most straightforward answer is time. It takes a lot of it to get things looking right, and generally, it’s usually a few artists who have the skill to get it done on time in the first place. (More on that in a second)
So we’re treated to some more shots of the ship. Kudos to the director for even coming up with this many. I find it challenging to do this many non-character scenes in a row. You really have to know what you want your audience to see. Thankfully, they do. We’re treated to this wild tracking shot of something flying through the clouds. I almost called this a POV shot, thinking we were looking through Van’s eyes, but Van is the little speck with wings flying in. 
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So this can’t be his POV. It’s gotta be the camera guy, lol. 
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I talked already about Van’s approach in the previous post, and also, by this point, I hope you’ve watched the sequence. So Van gets on the ship and kills a soldier, yadda yadda. I do wanna take a moment to acknowledge this shot, though.
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I’m partial to all of this. ^^^^
Back to my little review of this sequence, though, I LOVE the music kicking in. Those drums interrupt the dreaminess of it all. The action has begun! There’s a tiny part I’ll point out later. A small aside, this fight sequence was done by the insanely talented Yutaka Nakamura. When I started to learn about the animators I was inspired by, I found out this guy did a LOT of my favorite scenes in anime. He did stuff on Cowboy Bebop, Fullmetal Alchemist, Soul Eater, and my absolute favorite that I will eventually talk about, Sword of the Stranger. He’s still kickin too, doing some incredibly insane stuff for My Hero Academia. The guy’s a legendary animator. You have to be… to pull off the insane scene where Van RUNS INTO THE SHIP’S HULL AND KILLS TWO GUYS. WHY DO THAT UNLESS YOU EAT PENCILS FOR BREAKFAST?? All my artists out there… y’all know. This is insane. If you can’t draw, and everything seems to be the same level of impossibly difficult, lemme tell ya. You gotta be made of sterner stuff than the average artist to pull this scene off well. 
I'm gushing, sorry. And blushing too. I’m not gonna apologize for that, though. Now let me summarize why I like this fight so much and why it’s both a good (and kinda bad) establishing scene for Van. 
So far, his kill count is three dudes. And they’ve been effortless kills, too. Remember that screenshot above where Van is on all fours? (I know, it was so long ago because of my rambling.) Very… animalistic to me. It’s for a reason. Notice how he hasn’t said a word yet. Even after dispatching those two guys, he immediately attacks the next dude. It’s so fast, the other soldiers are telling each other to stay calm when honestly, we’re beyond that now. Like, seriously, Gary? (That’s the guard’s name now.) 
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“I’m getting my shit rocked over here, I can’t stay calm!”
Oh crap, I wanted to talk about this! Van then takes out this dude in the sickest way possible. Seriously, it’s my favorite kill. Van’s positioning, alongside how the artists decide to bridge between these three scenes, gives me the feeling that I was cut. I know that’s dramatic, but what I mean is: the cuts are disorienting. I can’t keep up with them. I replayed it multiple times, and I truly believe this is due to them breaking the 180 rule. For the uninformed, the 180 rule is a film principle. It’s a way to keep characters in a consistent place onscreen so that the audience does NOT get disoriented. Action scenes are usually places where the 180 rule can be broken, but it works here REALLY well here, to me. 
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That guard is history.
God, I said I’d summarize. So Van gets all his kills off and confronts the general. One of the kills is timed to the music that's bumping. Oof, it's SO good. The general is unimpressed, though. Like, was he even listening? He barely reacts to most of his men dying. Either that, or he’s trying not to shit himself. He simply states that he knows who Van is: the dragon he’s heard so much about. (Remember, we saw a dragon skeleton earlier. Not too shabby, eh?) Then we get this shot of Van:
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He looks SO FREAKY! I loooove it. I know I’m thinking an extra layer too deep, but Van’s off-model look really helps me see him through the eyes of the general. Van is a monster in the general’s eyes. And Van’s response to the general after all this is, “I will slay all my enemies.” I love the way this establishes Van as a killer. This is how you establish a powerful and scary character! Despite its coolness, the question must be asked: Does it serve the story? 
Well yeah, of course, but there’s one thing I thought could’ve made it better. Deleting this scene here:
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Hmm.
What’s wrong with this? Well, I think it gives away too much about Van. And not even the correct information, either. His smiling made me think he enjoys doing this. Viewers of the movie, or readers of my long-ass post, know that he does not, in fact, enjoy this. This smug face of his is why I thought of Van as an antagonist at first. It’s badass, tho. I’m ngl. And I mean, come on, would all of the movie’s problems be fixed if they deleted this very short scene? Absolutely, and I’m offended that you’d even ask. Jokes aside, I love this sequence. I wish it added up to a better whole, but it’s not bad on its own. And even after all these years, I still watch it in awe. Anyway, thanks for reading this! Despite my gripes, I still enjoyed my time with this film. I think my next deep dive will be for a game. Keep an eye out for it! 
-Dashawn
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vitaminseetarot · 2 months
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Hey there 🦋
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I've finallyfinally finally reached the end of all the requests for July's game. I'm extremely thankful for your patience in waiting for my response. I had some fun in planning this game out and doing your readings. With that said, however, I just so happened to pick one of the most energetically crazy times to actually start the game, yikes.
The week of doing the game readings was… insane. Not just because of what's happening news-wise, but because too many close call disasters in a very short span of time in my personal sphere. The Mars-Uranus conjunction was no joke! It did a number on me and as a result I had to take some time off to just breathe. My original plan was to have everyone answered within the week, but the wheels on the momentum bus came screeching to a complete halt around the full moon, where I was forced to stop and spend time away from the computer to attend to external matters. From there, I was able to post just a few answers at a time until now. It took me longer than anticipated to finish everyone's readings and I sincerely apologize for all the hang ups.
My goal was to start paid reading immediately after; with Mercury Retrograde coming right up, and with needing to still recover from the past couple weeks, I've decided it may be a better idea to put it off for one more month. My reason for doing this, and why I didn't start earlier this year, is because when I do open up paid services, I want you to get your readings as soon as possible and not have to wait well over a week. Which means I have to be in the right mental health space and life set-up to meet that requirement.
(And as an extra note, I'm only on tumblr and not on other social media platforms, and this is my only account. Please don't get scammed by solicitors pretending to be me!)
I'll be posting a Mercury Rx themed PAC in August because the idea is still sitting fresh in my mind, but I will likely post my menu later after this period transits through. This Elements Game, as fun as it was, ended up exhausting my psychic reserves in a way that the March aura game somehow didn't, and I need to use up the rest of the summer sun to recuperate and regroup. I don't know if I will have another game planned for this year, but if I consider it, I'll keep you updated in advance.
This hasn't been the first time my blog has had to slow to a near halt. I made this account several months before anything could even get posted which was frustrating at first but eventually worked itself out. So far, I've had a great time making these PACs and Game readings for you, but I'm re-realizing that passion alone can't assuage one's health needs. It can't replace food, and sleep, and walks outside, and time for stillness and reflection. And pushing too hard to get everything done actually results in things slowing down too much.
I really hope y'all take care of yourselves this summer. Enjoy what downtime you can get on the weekends, and in your days before the next school semester starts. Don't let the panic of the news completely tune out all the good things this season can offer. Go out and get ice cream with friends. Spend time at the beach. Play a fun new game. And most importantly… Drink your water!! It's very cliche to say but it's literally the biggest message I have for everyone this season, above all. (Dehydration issues are not a joke, ppl, it's scary! 😭)
Drink… and breathe.
Peace ✌🍊
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hedgiwithapen · 4 months
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Answer the Questions and Tag 5 Fanfic Authors
Tagged by @mosylufanfic
1. How did you get into writing fanfiction?
Daydreamed a LOT. hated writing. Made up stories in my brain, mostly about Digimon. then, was Chronically Unsupervised for a summer and found Fanfiction.net and went oh heck, I could do that? I could just. write one down??? people would maybe like it?? and then I Did That. at this point I had, you see, decided I Liked Writing Now. (active choice, the way I recently decided that I Like Celery.)
2. How many fandoms have you written in?
Uhhhh ok so there's Digimon (technically) and Fablehaven (again, only technically.) Big Hero 6 and then Flash, Young Justice, Supergirl, Stargirl, Avatar, the Librarians, Leverage, Blue Beetle(movie) My Adventures with Superman, Superman and Lois, Legends of Tomorrow, pokemon (game--sapphire) and Agents of Shield. And like. my various RPGs. but a lot of those are like.... just a couple dammit hedgi day ficlets so... shrug?
3. How many years have you been writing fanfiction? the first one I ever posted on the internet was in I want to say 2007. but the first one I guess I ever like. actively came up with was a little booklet about an oddish and a jigglypuff escaping team rocket (they were the only pokemon I could draw) and that was back in like. '99. it had aproximately ten words in it so that's more of a fan comic than fanfiction.
4. Do you read or write more fanfiction?
I write more than I read, I think, but I read more than I finish, excuding the month of september. DHD is an outleir adn should not be counted.
5. What is one way you’ve improved as a writer?
I can do action and fight scenes now!!!! Also I think I'm better at dialog. I used to be real bad at both those things.
6. What’s the weirdest topic you researched for a writing project?
hmmmmmmmmm. I mean. I feel like the deep diving into victorian flower language maybe? or like. How Trial By Combat worked in the Age Of Knights? How many calories a kitten with superspeed would need, perhaps. oh wait you know what, it's absolutely more obscure catholic patron saints, which I hardly even used in the fics i was researching them for, but man. did y'all know that St. Jude is also called Thaddeus and that he and St. Bartholomew are co-patron saints of Armenia? there's some kind of Barth Allen and Thaddeus Thawne Joke in there.
7. What’s your favorite type of comment to receive on your work?
I really like the key smashy "how dare you." ones. also a big fan of the ones where people leave their favorite line and a string of emojis. I love anything that lets me guess how emotional a person got.
8. What’s the most fringe trope/topic you write about?
uhhhhh idk. metakitties?
9. What is the hardest type of story for you to write?
Long fics that drastically diverge from canon or are big AUs... I run out of roadmap and then worry no one's really going to care. also, just. ship fic in general. So I do not. or I do so rarely and in smaller sections.
10. What is the easiest type?
present tense introspective fics. those just flow.
11. Where do you do your writing? What platform? When?
I mostly use google docs, and I also do a lot of hand writing in a notebook. usually sitting at my little computer desk on my bed, or in the back hall at work, and typically in the afternoon-evening.
12. What is something you’ve been too nervous/intimidated to write, but would love to write one day?
ehhhhhhhh I'm not really like. intimidated by anything that I'm interested in doing? I'm just lazy. lol.
13. What made you choose your username?
Assigned Hedgehog by cubscouts when I was a counselor at a summer camp. It Stuck.
uhhh I tag @windona @pennflinn @wrencatte @thenarator and @parvumautomaton but no pressure but also anyone else who wants to do this.
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leatherbelt1295 · 1 year
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Your Daily Smile #2617
@ehan281
This should have been posted yesterday, but I didn't really get a chance to. I spent the previous 2.5 days with EHAN irl, and man they were just so wonderful... I'm so grateful we got to hang out again and do more than we did last time. Went during this time for a multitude of reasons since things lined up perfectly, but most importantly it was like a birthday present to him (5/29) and myself (6/3). We haven't seen each other since October 2017, so naturally I really missed him so much. ;w; That's way too long!!
We got to eat yummy food each day, got to meet his adorable doggy Sparky, met his folks, go through a mirror maze, played a laser busting game?, watch him do little runs of SpongeBob Battle for Bikini Bottom, watch the new Spidey on opening night with his brother, and went to a convention together and even cosplayed which was super fun! I went as Peppino Spaghetti from Pizza Tower (so if by chance you were there on Friday and saw Peppino, it might've been me!) and he was an excellent Cameron from Ferris Bueller Day Off. It was cool how often we were recognized, heheh. Really nice to see people's faces light up like that. Of course, we saw a lot of great cosplays too! Here's a few I saw myself that I got pics of, really nice stuff!
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We got to play my favorite beat-em-up The Simpsons by Konami, and I'm glad EHAN and his brother really enjoyed it too! Really cool stuff all around, found plenty of gifts for my folks at home but also a couple things for me. Oh and Petra stuff and even comm'd a Petra for EHAN. :]
I haven't been to a con in 7 years, so being back at such a fun one was something I absolutely needed and appreciate immensely. Good times all around! I'm happy he and his brother enjoyed themselves too.
Here's my loot, though only the Jolteon and black shirt are for me.
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We headed to Red Robin later on, and that was nice too! At least for me and his brother. :)
I went with the intention of recreating a certain Bocchi the Rock comic to EHAN. :))
And it worked. :)))
And the waitress didn't believe him when he said it was my birthday too. :))))
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Ended the night with some 3 player Mario Party 2 on Pirate Land. We lost to the CPU DK because of usually MP shenanigans lol. Still fun!
And followed that up with me and EHAN rewatching Space Patrol Luluco as we do every June 5th, but a little early this time so it could be irl. A wonderful time as it is every year, but made more special being together and having fun irl! I'll be taking about that more on tomorrow's YDS though. :)
Wrapped up the visit with another good breakfast and visiting a lovely park, I really enjoyed that too.
Again, overall, I totally needed this trip and I'm eternally grateful for being able to do so. I really miss him though. ;w;
And I suppose I should mention a bit how my birthday was yesterday aside about half the day being with EHAN. I received gift art from friends through the day, including right at midnight and even today... Y'all really didn't have to... ;; But thank you so much... And to those who I know may read this and wanted to draw me something or whatever the case may be, but couldn't for any reason, just know it's more than okay and the fact that you even thought of me in the first place means a lot to me already. Wishing me hbd means a lot too... 🥺 So thank you guys too!
Even had a big surprise on the flight back home before departure. Someone close to me with connections actually informed the crew on board that it was my birthday, and if they could deliver a message to me for them, which they absolutely did... Even gave me free snacks and water, and invited me to sit in the pilot's seat which was !!!!!?? It was so cool what the heck... I'm grateful for that... 😭
Nice time spent at home with family, always nice to see them. It ain't a birthday without being with em, I'd say. Nice lil gifts too, they shouldn't have... ;; I do wanna show this Hank Hill in particular, gave me a good laugh and I love it, heheh. The Bocchi doodle too!
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But yeah, I just wanted to dedicate this YDS to thanking @ehan281 and his brother for a wonderful time and express my gratitude of a happy birthday too. Hoping the next time we meet won't be so long! ^^
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guardevoir · 1 year
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First big(ish) spinning project!
A couple months ago, I ordered a dark brown braid of Corriedale with my fiber tester box, not knowing what I was going to make of it.
Several months down the line, I now have confidence, motivation, an idea... and a spinning wheel, which means that turning 100g of fiber into yarn is now a couple days' worth of dedicated work instead of a weeks-long mammoth project.
And thusly, I nudged my Crocheting Buddy, who promptly agreed to make me one of her famous shawls if I'd get her the yarn.
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(the wool is a lot more turquoise/teal than the photo shows, but the colors were so bright they blew out my phone camera :') )
~hubris~!
200 grams of Merino, 100 grams of Corriedale, one antique spinning wheel of questionable provenance, one newbie spinner. Let's do this!
I'm shit at making regular posts, but I'm aiming for very frequent updates to keep myself motivated, and heck, maybe some of y'all are going to get a kick out of this as well.
My first step is spinning that 50g of dark brown Merino, then 2x 50g of Corriedale, and then I am going to turn that into 150g of 3-ply dark brown yarn that are going to form the basis of my shawl.
This is where I'm currently at:
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I'm getting the feeling that spinning that stuff in 50g increments is going to involve a lot of playing Bobbin Chicken. Wish me luck!
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yanderefairyangel · 11 months
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Gotta love how according to detractors Engage is simultaneously an insignificant game no one cares about anymore but also holds an iron fist over the fandom to the point where they are supposedly oppressed for not liking it. Which is it? Does no one care about Engage anymore or do people care about Engage so much the fandom oppresses those who dislike it?
Oh really, it's neither.
We keep talking about it. I remember in one of his most recent videos Ghast said "discussion about Engage are at it's lowest" which got a chukkle out of me. Cause like, discussion about Engage are still super active. Like, I recently started on TwittX and today I woke up to 139 followers ! My Engage content got me a lot of new followers and the video I posted about it reached 232 view in less then 2 weeks. The original soundtrack just released and all day it was just Engage fan gushing about it ! We got a lot of Engage unit in Heroes and the manga is soon releasing. Discussion about the game are super active !
But also, the whole oppress makes me laugh cause if anything I saw people getting oppressed for liking it ! Say you like Engage on reddit, you'll get mass downvoted. Don't get me started on ytb. People will try to tell you you have as much IQ as a 3 year old for liking this game because "cringe, bad, chessey" or whatever lol. We are just tired of people who will say "game bad" and then proceeds to admit they skipped the cutscene. I mean...
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I swear to God, that's going from "haha ha, ridiculous " to "ok now y'all are just pathetic". Like someone even tried to tell me that the game was trying to take responsability off Zephia because "it established that Sombron raised Zephia and taugh her many wrong things" (yes, really)
I am getting tired to see people who genuinely believe that Zephia is Veyle's mother, and don't get me started on that one person who managed to believe she was both Veyle AND Alear's mother. And there was that one person who called it a deus ex machina that the Emblem used the miracle to revive Alear because they though it was the same power as the one they bestowed every 1 000 year, never mind that Sigurd literaly explain in chapter 18 that this is a different power. People for some reason keep asking how Alear managed to summon the Emblem back when Sombron "closed the portal" even though both Sombron and Alear says at least 3 times in less the 3 second that Sombron didn't closed it completely !!
Heck, one of those "genius" tried to debunk the response I made to the 2hour long video art becomes obligation and he straight up said that "the story never established Sombron as arrogant"... I kid you not
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Because he completely forgot that Sombron murdered the only person who can summon them and absorbed all their power... even though in chapter 25 Alfred explained that the Emblem lost their millenial power because of Sombron and can't perform the miracle any longer, so no one need them anymore.
They really believe we can take them seriously when they do that ? Of course not, they are just making a mockery of themselves. Nothing more, nothing less. We can accept not liking the game and discussing it, but do they really wanna act like the victim when we are telling them "if you skipped the story, you have no right to criticize the story" ?? Like, imagine if someone took one of Shakespeare book, quickly skirmed through the pages and then said "it's bad"... isn't that ridiculous ?
Their argument was already self contradictory enough, but when you KNOW that there is pretty much everything I said behind said argument and that they still lack the self awarness then you know you are dealing with a bunch of walls. Little sheeps that follow their Shepherds of FEtubers opinion. So now, they want us to believe they are "oppressed by the fandom in liking a game that the fandom decided to hate and that should you like it, you will end up burn at the stake ?" Yeah, sure. Makes total sense.
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But y'all are Mormons tho..like, when people say "Mormon", they understand that to be "member of LDS Church", and a lot of Christians look at yall's theology and see that it is very different than their own, so they identify you as MORMONS not CHRISTIANS. I think it is disingenuous to pretend LDS Church is the same as other Protestant/Non-Catholic Churches, because they simply are not close enough.
I know what you mean, I don’t pretend that we fit in theologically with many other denominations, and I definitely understand it from the perspective of us not aligning perfectly with creeds that many people believe determine what a Christian is. I totally respect that belief and I’m not expecting anyone to bend it for us. But the quote I posted was from a talk about the official name of the church, which is The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, and about the reasons why we’ve been trying to emphasize that name. “Mormon” originated as a derogatory nickname by people who hated the church, and though for a long time the church tried to embrace the nickname, in recent years we’ve been asked to try to drop it because many people don’t even understand what the actual name of the church is and that we believe in Christ. The nickname has led some people to think that we worship Mormon or if they’ve never heard the full name they don’t know that we worship Christ at all. The quote was relating a story from a man who was trying to explain to a friend that his spiritual identity is in Christ alone. Our worship of and focus on Christ is why we consider ourselves Christians and why we ask to not be referred to as Mormons, because it’s often been misleading and doesn’t give credit to Him (and we ask that if there must be a shorthand, which I totally get there needs to be because our name is long as heck, that people use Latter-day Saints). I know that not everyone is going to be willing to call us Christian and I know we don’t fit in with the more mainline denominations, but despite our differences there are more similarities than people think when you get to the heart of it. We base our lives on and worship our Savior and all we ask is that that be acknowledged, because it’s the most important thing, regardless of whether you want to call us outright Christians like we do. That was the main point of the quote, that our devotion to Christ should be what’s focused on, that that may be the unifier between our differences, and that we make a point of not accepting the labels given to us that do not point towards the Savior.
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Shadowy Snippets: In Which Charlie Helps Jacqueline Realize she is the DUMBEST BITCH ALIVE
aka, the moment Jacqueline FINALLY realizes she has a big old crush on Dite 🙃. This one scene has gone through 4 different iterations, and I'm unsure how similar it will be to this most current version in the final draft of Into the Shadows, but figured y'all may enjoy it ;)
It's also a wee bit of an apology for uh. Not having Chapter 5 of Crystal Springs up last week like I had PLANNED! Idk what happened last week? It was BUSY and then EASTER?! HELLO?! I'm getting married in a MONTH. I may explode. Holy hell.
anyway, tldr: got busy last week, felt bad about not posting CS for y'all, decided to share this shadowy snippet as an apology. Will have CS 5 up this week, and maybe even CS 23! We shall see! Enjoy! :3
OH PS: MAJOR SPOILERS FOR INTO THE SHADOWS! If this scene stays, it'd be in like. Chapters 20-30 🙃
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Charlie had never fallen down a giant hole before, nor had he ever planned to. And he certainly hadn't planned on being chased down the hole by a giant boulder. It looked way cooler in Indiana Jones, and also way safer since he. Y'know. Was running on land and not free falling down a GIANT HOLE in an ABANDONED CASTLE.
Thankfully, Charlie had something Indy didn't: an actual Legend.
Jacqueline had managed to turn around in her descent, so she was staring up at the boulder that was fast approaching them. She glanced back down, and stuck her left hand below her and her right hand above them. Both hands turned blue, and suddenly there was a whiteout. Charlie couldn’t see anything, but he could hear a crazy amount of ice cracking all around them. He could feel the cold wind and the pellets of snow hitting his face.
Well, at least when they splattered he'd be too numb to feel pain for long, he thought. That had been nice of her.
But there was no splat.
There was a soft poof, and a Charlie shaped fluffy white cloud of snow shot up around him, drifting in the air before settling on him. Jacqueline superhero landed beside him, a look of concentration so intense on her face that Charlie didn't dare imagine what would happen if he distracted her, but then again, maybe he wouldn't be able to distract her at all. She was in the zone!
The moment she hit the snow pile, her left hand shot forwards, and all of her effort and energy was focused on the icy tornado above them. There was a grating sound, louder than the crackling, and finally a definite, large THUNK.
Jacqueline still focused above them, until Charlie could see a very thick, blue, dome-like ceiling had taken form. Jacqueline brought both her hands down, and hit the floor. Multiple thick columns popped up around them, and a huge one directly in the centre of the surprisingly large space they had landed in.
"Thank the GODDESS the ground was SOLID," Jacqueline said, as the ice chips settled.
"Were you expecting pointy spiky rocks?"
"One hundred percent. How could you not, with the hole and the boulder—"
"And there was a severe lack of snakes," Charlie said.
Jacqueline laughed. "What is this, Indiana Jones?"
"Dude," Charlie said, getting up and shaking the snow off of him. "This was way cooler! Did you see what you just did? That was amazing! Oh my god! The snow!" he said, gesturing to the pile behind him as he shook a clump off of his boot. "And the dome!" he added, gesturing upwards now. "And that two-tone magic there? That's cool as heck," he said, pointing at Jacqueline's still frosty hands. "Do I get some cool two-tone magic too? Is it going to be red and green? I mean, that would check out because Christmas colours but like they're not my favourites—"
"Two-tone what now?" Jacqueline looked down at her hands, and did the last thing Charlie expected her to do.
She shot up, squealed, and started shaking her right hand, as if to fling the dark blue magic off.
"Woah, woah Jacquie! Hey, calm down! You can just poof us out of here, yeah?"
"Yeah, easily, just, give me a second here. Shoo! Be gone! ARGH!" she yelled, shaking her hand until the dark blue finally subsided.
"No two-tone magic for me then?"
Jacqueline sighed, plunked down in the snow, panting. "You better hope not," She said between breaths. "The only reason it's two tone is because half of it isn't my magic. It's Jack's." she ran her hands through her hair and frowned. "And it's getting bad."
Charlie frowned, brushing errant snowflakes off of him. He stepped forwards until he was in front of the sprite, who was still catching her breath. "Must be scary to have that much magic, huh?"
"A little bit, yeah. My roots haven't thawed in weeks, and I have a really nice hair colour."
Charlie laughed.
"No, seriously! Stop laughing! It's dark brown, right? But it also looks black. BUT. Sometimes, when the sun hits the ends juuuust right, it looks reddish. I don't wanna kill my roots, you know?"
Charlie sighed. "I don’t think this is just about your hair, Jacquie."
"It's not. Us Frosts cope with humour as best as we can," Jacqueline said with a soft smile, bringing her knees up to her chest.
"Mind if I join you?"
"Sure, snow's all nice and cold."
Charlie sat beside her, catching his breath. "Coping, huh?"
"Mhmm." Jacqueline replied, running her hands through her hair. "Having two essences is like. It's a LOT. It's hard. Especially when one is double your age. And Legendary. Not that I'm not, but like. It's different."
"No, I get it. Status versus like, title, right?"
"Yeah, exactly," Jacqueline said, sighing and leaning back in the snow. "Anyway. Magical essences are a huge part of a magibean's whole being and identity. And even though Legends and their Legates can literally share their essences with one another, and ours were able to give us theirs to keep safe," she said, summoning the blue magic again, "they aren't ours. And they're kind of squishing us."
"Squishing?"
"Yeah. The longer we hold onto our Legendary counterpart's essences, the more dominant their essence becomes, the less dominant ours is. We're powerful little fucks, but our Legends? Even more so than us. So our essences are slowly getting squashed. It's why Dite's been grumpy lately, for instance."
"You've all been taking on traits from your Legends," Charlie realized.
"Yeah. And for some of us there's a few nasty side effects," Jacqueline said with a sigh, closing her fist and dismissing the dark blue magic. "See: my roots. I freeze dry, right? It keeps the hair out of my face and cuts static down which is great because I get really zappy sometimes! But it never stays for me."
"Why not?"
"I can't permafrost. Mom thinks it's a side effect of global warming. Dad thinks it's heat sprite lineage. But you see these roots? See how they're crispy white? And icy?"
"Yeah."
"I'm not doing that. I'm waking up like this every day! It's not going away," she said pushing herself forward and huffing. "I think that having Jack's essence is freezing me a bit."
"You mean like, freezing you freezing? Like, like your brother was?"
Jacqueline nodded. "I've been feeling a lot angrier lately, and sure, I'm angry sometimes, but levels like this? I haven't seen it since I—" she looked startled; she glanced at Charlie, mouth still open to speak though she was silent. She snapped her jaw shut and hugged her knees, burying her face in them.
"Oh, shit. Hey, Jacqueline, it's okay," Charlie said, throwing his arm around her shoulder and pulling her in for a side hug. Though she kept an iron grip around her legs, she didn't stop Charlie from pulling her in. "You won't freeze. You never have," Charlie said.
"That's the thing, Charlie!" Jacqueline exclaimed, head shooting up. "I keep saying that, and everyone thinks that but it's not—it's not true!"
She inhaled, looking up at the sparkling icy ceiling above them. "Do you know why I managed to fend off the shadows, when they took your Dad, for as long as I did?"
"I assumed it was because you were a badass."
"Awwh, thank you! That's-that's sweet! I am, aren't I?" She said with a smile, holding her head in her hands and staring at her friend.
"I'll say. I saw you kick through that cloud of fear like it was nothing."
"Because it was nothing," she said. Sighing, she let go of her head, hugging her knees once again. "When they descended on me, they showed me my worst fear. It was me. Frozen."
"That's your worst fear?"
"It was. But the thing is, as I stood there and saw myself, you know, cold, no warm flush, angry beyond belief, I realized that I wasn't afraid of myself anymore."
"How come?"
"Because the image it showed me? Was straight out of Frostmas. I had already lived it. And I survived it. I wasn't afraid of frozie Jacqueline anymore. I had been her."
"And then you punched fear right in the face!" Charlie said with a very excitable mimed punch.
Jacqueline laughed, though it sounded watery. "I sure fucking did. And lasted for a bit longer. But then he came."
"The Boogie Man."
"King of Darkness. Erebus," Jacqueline corrected. "And he found my new fear, and. Well. It worked. I couldn't break out of it that time. I don't know what your Dad did, but whatever it was? I think it saved B-Man and I."
Charlie frowned, doing some fast thinking. "Wait. If you lived that fear already, does that mean that you have been frozen?"
"When Jack used the Escape Clause on your Dad, he created an alternate timeline where he was Santa."
"Which would make you Jack Frost."
Jacqueline nodded. "But because of the Legend-Legate connection, I still remembered the proper timeline. And I grew so obsessed with fixing it and proving that Jack wasn't actually supposed to be Santa, that I accidentally froze myself in the process. And when the timeline was fixed, I came back frozen. But not for long. Your sister thawed my brother. And the shock of that, the power of that was so strong that I felt it to, and it thawed me as well."
"Lucy's a powerhouse!"
Jacqueline laughed. "Yes, and I can never thank her enough. I've never told anyone this, Charlie," she said, looking back at him now.
"But you still have your flawless record. The timeline never happened, right? So technically, you never actually froze."
"That's the thing. It never happened. But my brother and I still remember it like it did. And when I came back from that timeline, I came back…frozen," she said, hiding her face once again.
"It's okay. It happens to sprites from time to time, doesn't it?"
"It can," said Jacqueline, lifting her head a bit. "But that's not the point. The point is, here I am, priding myself on being the one existing winter sprite that didn't have a nasty case of hardened heart, ever, at ALL, but that's a LIE, Charlie. I…lied. And I was terrified of what would happen if my friends found out."
"I don't think a single one of your friends wouldn't be supportive," Charlie said.
"I'd like to think that, too! But that what if is really strong, Charles."
He laughed. "I hate that you call me that."
"And I love that you hate it. I live to bother," she said, seriously.
"You know, I got that vibe. I think that's the middle child talking," Charlie said with a grin.
Jacqueline laughed, exhaling. "When Erebus rammed into me, that's what I saw. I saw B-Man and Elle being absolutely disgusted that I had frozen. Elle stopped being friends with me. My family kept me at arms length; the Twins were scared as could be. And DITE! Ugh that one hurt the most, Charlie. She was crying," Jacqueline said, with the saddest face Charlie had ever seen on the sprite. "Because of me. Because I lied to her. That hurt so much."
"Wow, you've really got it bad for her," Charlie said before he could stop himself.
"What? No I don't. What do you mean?"
"What do you mean what do I mean?"
"I've got it bad for her? Are you saying that I have a crush on her?"
"Well, yeah! NO. Wait. Hold on. Don't tell me you didn't know you had a crush on her."
"I don't?" Jacqueline said, doubty.
"Are you sure about that? I mean, you just told me your worst fear, Jacqueline. And in it, the thing that upset you the most was Dite being upset at you. Not your family, not Bernard or Elle, but Dite."
"We're really good friends?"
"Oh my god, this is the best! You really don't think you have a crush on her?"
Jacqueline looked panicked. "No! I just. You know. She's really nice and sweet and funny, and oh my gods she kicks ass, have you seen her in action?"
Charlie shook his head, staring at Jacqueline's roots. The more she talked about Dite, the less…icy they looked. "I can't say that I have," he said, poking Jacqueline's head.
"Hey! What's that all about?" she asked, rubbing her head.
"Check out your hand," Charlie said, as ice chipped off of the sprite's hair.
She gasped, scratching her scalp a bit more. When she opened her palm, ice was sitting in it, melting.
"And that happened when you started talking about Dite."
"No," she said, looking aghast at the ice in her hands.
"Yes," Charlie said, just as aghast.
"This happened? When I talked about Dite?!"
"Yeah!" Charlie said, laughingly. "Just the thought of her alone gets you all slushy," he said, nudging her shoulder.
"AhhhhHHHHH," Jacqueline squealed, her face very, very flushed. "Holy snowballs. I totally have a crush on Dite. Oh my god. Oh no."
"Well THAT'S not what I expected to hear. It's okay, Jacqueline! There are worse people to crush on!"
"No, Charlie, it's not that! She's amazing. It's just. It's embarrassing, now that I'm thinking about it. I think I've had a crush on her for like, three hundred years."
"Three hundred years?!"
"Yes!"
"Three whole CENTURIES!
"YES."
"And you didn't know??"
"No! I didn't! You think we'd be having this conversation now if I had known?!"
"Your Jack is showing."
"Shush," she replied, rubbing her head. "I am the dumbest bitch ALIVE," she finally said, hands up in the air as she groaned and once again fell back into the snowbank. "She's literally Cupid, Charlie! She's probably known the whole time! That's so embarrassing, of all the people to get a crush on—"
"Again, she's not the worst," Charlie said with a smile.
"Absolutely not," Jacqueline shot back fast, with a happy sigh. "I should ask her out. On like, a date."
"I think so too. I mean, thoughts of her are already melting you a little bit. And I think we both know that she would be your number one supporter if you were to freeze."
Jacqueline laughed. "She's everyone's number one supporter. She's nice like that. She's nice to everyone."
"I think she'd understand if you told her you were frozen once. I think everyone would understand, Jacqueline. I mean, you told me, and I'm still here," he said with a shrug.
"Well, yeah, but it's not like you can go anywhere. We're trapped in a hole in the ground."
"Lighten up, would you? I didn't run away immediately, did I? I'm still here for you, Jacqueline. And so is Dite, and Elle and Bernard and your family, I mean, your brother has known the entire time and he certainly hasn't judged you either. He's been there before. I know telling the truth can be scary," Charlie said, getting up and offering her a hand. "But it's not so scary when you're with the people you love. Including the goddess of pleasure," Charlie added, with an eyebrow waggle for good measure.
Jacqueline snorted, grabbing Charlie's hand. "I can't beLIEVE how dense I am," she said, pushing herself up as Charlie pulled.
"Nor can I. I thought you were the Legate with the brain cell!"
"GOD no. What gave you that idea? That's Xander," Jacqueline said, her grip on Charlie's hand tightening. "Thanks for that, Charlie. I really appreciate it."
"Of course! What're friends for? Ready to go?"
"Are you?"
"Whenever you are," he said with a squeeze.
"In that case," Jacqueline replied with an almost feral grin, "Bundle up, bitch! It's about to get chillay."
And with that, the pair disappeared in a flurry of two tone blue sparks and snowflakes.
And not a moment too soon.
Moments after the last spark floated off, there was a large crack, the boulder falling through the hole, getting caught on the icy pillar below it as it capsized.
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abyssalhuntersnerd · 2 years
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Hi Hi, just hopping in again here to tell y'all I'm gonna be starting college again tomorrow and needless to say, I wasn't able to rest at all these holidays nor accomplish anything I really wanted to do for myself during these two weeks. Which sucks because I really wanted to shake off some of this damned rust off my system but alas, exhaustion takes over and all I want to do is rest. Also I wanna vent so have all of this because I talk too much and we all love it:
To be honest I'm really stressed out about it bevsue I really wanted to try and do something for myself again but when your life has just been college for almost 4 months and you haven't been able to be with your family or friends... Yeah. Part of me feels guilty about it but at the same time, I needed to have a life outside of collegue.
But that's where my other dilemma comes in and that's the lack of time for my myself. I think this is also due to the fact that I've never celebrated Christmas before like I did this year and found myself a little overwhelmed at so much love but so little time for myself. Honestly ever since I met my new friends last year, life has been a ruckus in the best way possible. They are wonderful and truly do love me for who I am and accept the mess I am. It's a wonderful feeling to have such beautiful people by my side but it's also made me realize how lonely I truly was and how much time I put into making things for myself, because I had too much of it and had nothing else to do with these feelings. A lot of the negative thoughts or simply any needs I had at the time where put into words and that's how I expressed myself. Take that as you will, lol. But it was the only way to really do something meaningful with these feelings.
The thing is, that's changed now. I have friends to talk to about these things who will listen to me and will literally stop everything they are doing to be my side. And it's been wonderful, it's really helped me talk more about my thoughts because while yes, I've gotten emotional and have written bibles about how I felt at the here, (Just like this one!) the truth of thw matter is that no one really knows what the heck is always going though my head. I'm a really private person actually, even if it doesn't seem like it and never talk about the things that really bother me. But I've been working on expressing my thoughts more and it's been both incredibly terrifying and healing. But the issue with this is that most of my inspiration and creativity is gone not because I don't wanna write, it's because I can talk about things more now and have to sit down and express them through stories that I know only I'll understand. Does this mean I'll stop writing? No, absolutely not. But I think my brain has finally calmed down and has let me rest a little. Before I'd just write stuff in my head all the damn time but now? Not really. I can sit down and just chill without having to get up and start writing because of how much I need to put all my thoughts into words. I just simply don't know when I'll be able to really do that again. I have WIPS that I started months ago but haven't finished because my words simply don't want to flow. I want to rest in a way too. I found a new way to express myself and can juggle between writing and talking.
So is this a goodbye? No, not at all. But ever since Specter's birthday last year I've been also dreading going back to my google documents because damn, Damming The Flood left me dry. Literally. And I'm not ready to go back yet. It's been a long time since then and I hate not being able to post more things let alone even write but I think that it's okay to just breathe and work on things when the time is write. A lot of people always commended me for writing so much in so little time but I always hated it in a way, knowing it would end up like this. But it's okay to take a step back, it's okay to rest. The hardest part is telling yourself that it's okay to do those things.
Does this mean I'm on hiatus for the time being? Yeah. I think I am. But I know I'll be back, I just don't know when. Maybe when I've rested properly and my brain has cleared up. Maybe I'll unexpectedly get inspired tomorrow and write nonstop. I don't know. But I've gotta let myself adjust to all these new changes and learn to write when I am ready. And get used to not writing so much. I can't force creativity. I need to reread SN again because I'm forcing myself to write even though I know I cannot build upon a story without reading that event all over again but not in a rush. I need to rest, to read and to talk.
Believe me. I know I'll be okay. I'll be back at my 100% totally not deranged self when the time is right. But for now, I rest and I will be less active here. Same goes for Twitter and my Discord server, I'm gonna try my best to work on my feelings and create something beautiful with them because let's face it, I'm that kind of bastard who loves writing meaningful stuff with my own feelings into account.
So, I'm gonna try my best to do an even better job in college this semester and rest when I can. Things will happen, but when the time is due. So please wait for me a little longer and I promise, I'll be right here when the time is right. So thank you once again to everyone who supported me last year and who will this year, because I will bring you the best of the best when the time is due. This year will be my 3rd year here and it's not gonna be the last. I'll just try my best to not get stressed about this whole order and work on my feelings. Promise. Love you all. Take lots of care. Sending you all of my love. <3
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