#why am i doing this to myself... 🤔 for love. of birds..

[partapotso]

Common Eider, for school.

[akira9lives]

It would be interesting to hear everyone's favorite MHA characters in order and why they like them, it would help me with my tier list 🤔 the feedback would seriously make my numbers change...

But, for now, here's my top 5...

1. Hawks

2. Kirishima

3. Kaminari

4. Shinsou

5. Dabi

My rants on each character are below, but please, give me feedback on my decisions and your own! It might make me view the characters differently...

Hawks; Keigo, in reality is a strong individual and I admire him for it. He's confident, and careful- Confidence is something I lack and I find the people who do have the ability to stand up for themselves, make an amazing impression right off the bat and be strong against their opinions are truly amazing. I guess what I see in him is someone I wish I could live to be like..? He fought through so much, from his abuse, to the HPSC, and battle trauma, then he learnt not to look back too far and continue his path with purpose. He also prioritizes peoples safety, over hurting them, even though he did end up killing Twice... But before Twice's death, he kept him out of the line of LITERAL fire!

(PS, I love myself the BBQ bird duo 🤞)

Kirishima; Eijiro is the best wingman I've seen in MHA 🤝 he stands with loyalty beside his friends and always tries to find the good side in people, like with villains and Bakugou! (Even though for most villains, it doesn't really work out..) He sets his mind to things and won't give up on it till accomplished- and in his own words, that's pretty manly! He is strong for the sake of the people he cares for, and even strangers... People know they can trust him because of his pure courage that will keep them safe.

Kaminari; The best friend anyone could ask for 🤚 give it up for my man Denks!! This guy will fight up front for his friends, needed it not, he stands on BUSINESS (even though he may fail at defending you) he deeply cares for those that gain his trust and reciprocate it... Even if it's just a little, that little will end up growing because the guy will keep persevering for the sake of literal LOVE! 😭 He's a good guy to bond with, he, by what we view in the show, is very flexible when it comes to interests... He is friends with EVERYONE! 1-A and some of 1-B... (Even if some *cough* Bakugou *cough* don't want to admit it)

Shinsou; Hitoshi is... So dear to my heart. He was told he couldn't do something. He was told it would be better if he went on to follow a different path. And yet, he decided he would show those people wrong, that he could be someone amazing. He's a determined individual and refuses to give up, waiting patiently for his opportunities and seizing them once they are there. The strength he needed to succeed, he waited till he had it, and then gave it his all once he did. I strongly believe, Aizawa saw his potential and knew that he could lead a secure, promising hero life.

Dabi; Touya was someone I thought really hard about with my placing, I would have him higher if it wasn't for his drive being made up of pure resentment and revenge... But to be honest, he cares for his friends, literally attempting murder for them- (*cough* Twice *cough* Hawks *cough*) in fact, the only time we've seen him somewhat "cry" was for his friends. Ultimately I do relate to him, friends are more important than family to me, but when you deeply think about it, those friends are more like family than anything. When shown affection, he is cold and untrusting, but that's just the careful observing side of him, waiting for the proper information to actually have some interest in someone. I for one, WISH I was that organized and cautious. 🙌

(I am too clumsy and clueless in stressful situations 😤)

[nekohime19]

Part 4 of the MK x oc AITA serie ! The plot thicken and Hua is freaking out fr right now. Those two awkward boy needs a lot of help to reach their happy endings.

Part 1

Hua update 1

Sakurabloom_26 :

Yeah you would be the AH if you threw it away, though I don’t blame you for being angry about that punch that was very rude.

I will say this though if you both were so drunk that all you can clearly remember about the guy is that he’s fluffy, who’s to say Fluffy wasn’t in a worse condition and just reacted poorly when it hit him what happened.

Definitely give the guy a piece of your mind if you see him again, but give him the benefit of the doubt.

Also, you might want to read up more on the city and its residents/visitors, cause orange bird attracted to peaches and moving shadows in a theater, sounds like the work of two demon monkeys I’ve heard like to frequent Megopolis, what’s more I’ve heard they frequent your bosses rival’s noodle shop.

So good luck, both with Fluffy and the demons in your new home.

“Sending virtual hugs”

OP :

Yeah, I didn't think about how alcohol could have messed with our minds. Maybe Fluff didn't remember everything and freaked out?

That's a good idea. I should really search more info about this city 🙃

Thanks!! Love hug

Lagt :

Oh boy wow.

Yeah maybe let's uuhhhh let's not throw away the jacket? Maybe the guy forgot he was having a one night stand and thought he was being kidnapped or something (I mean it's megalopolis you never know) also I am pretty sure that Spider queen gal used to kidnap people to eat, while yeah u said you aren't with her maybe a guy who lives here may have a different reaction if his brain didn't catch up? Or maybe he is just a dick

Don't throw away the jacket, and if he doesn't show up for more then a months just resell it I say

OP :

With how crazy this town is I will not be surprised if daily kidnapping was normal 😅. Yeah, tbh I didn't think of the alcohol, and that maybe Fluff didn't remember everything.

I would feel a bit iffy to be associated with another (evil) spider just bc I'm a spider buuuut in a moment of panic, I guess I can understand the thinking.

Good idea! I'll wait to see if he comes back but after one month or so I'll see what I'll do with the jacket.

Thank you all for the kind advices, it helped me clear my head a bit. So here is an update, if you're still interested in this messy story 😅.

After cooling down, I decided that throwing away the jacket would be kind of an AH move. Especially since I don't know why Fluff punched me. I'm hoping it's not cause he hates me 🙃. So I just put the jacket down and went into my bathroom to check myself in the mirror. Nothing was broken (lucky me 😭) but I had a nasty bruise on my nose. 

Well… at least this is giving me a “don't mess with me” look, ig. I'm trying to stay positive 😅. 

Fluff can really pack a mean punch though. People were right when they said appearances were deceiving. Who knew a cute fluffy monkey could break your face this easily ☠️? This is a deceiving world. I'm saying this but I'm kinda deceiving too, ig. People see a scary spider so they assume I’m a scary guy, and here I am afraid of dolls and butterflies 😭. Don't judge me.

I applied some balm and went with my day. My boss asked about my bruise but I just told him it was an accident. Kinda embarrassing to admit I was punched by my one-night stand ☠️.

After that the week was strangely eventless. No weird peach-pie stealing birds or villains attacks. Tbh I was a bit bored 😅. I noticed that Fluff's jacket had some loose ends and I had nothing to do, so I thought, why not fix it? I'm good at sewing. And I like it. So I fixed it a bit. If he doesn't come back for it I might keep it tbh 🤔. The jacket is cool. A bit too big for me cause Fluff is bigger, but it's comfy. 

Well Fluff came back at the end of the week.

I was still a bit angry, the bruise on my nose was aching, BUT I wanted to hear his side. 

Conversation went like that :

Me : What do you want? 

Fluff : I'm, huh, sorry. For the punch. Truth is… I-I have arachnophobia and it was a gut reaction, really. I'm sorry.

This… this made me feel so bad ☠️. Like, “oh no I messed up” moment. I won't lie it stings a bit when people have arachnophobia, cause well I didn't do anything to them and yet they're still scared of me, but I have phobias of my own (butterflies be watching me ☠️) so I understand the feeling.. 

I felt so bad. I was panicking inside! Rest of the convo went like that :

Me : Oh Gods I-I, huh, I didn't force myself on you, did I? 

Fluff : No, no, no, no. I, huh I was drunk and it was dark, I didn't probably see you. N-not saying that you're not attractive or whatever, cause you're fine, mighty fine, super fine, but, huh, I-I spiders are… well…I'm not saying spiders are bad… Or that you're bad cause you're a spider… I just… I… 

That was… half-flattering, half-endearing, cause Fluff was trying so hard right now. He didn't need to though. I get how phobias can be. Then I worried that maybe talking to me was making him uncomfortable too 😭. Maybe I should cut the convo short? I'm so bad at social interactions please help me, 😬. Then I remembered the jacket. 

Me: Yeah, yeah, huh… wanna come inside? Wait no… you're probably not comfortable with that. Just, wait here. 

I went back in a hurry and handed him his jacket in a bag.

Fluff : Thanks man. 

Me : Yeah, no problem. 

This was so AWKWARD. We just stood in silence, staring at each other ☠️☠️. I mean he's not bad to look at but it's so awkward. What am I supposed to do? I don't want to scare him more than necessary 😭. I just froze. Like “I'm the air” type of freeze. Sometimes I do that when I'm panicking. 

Fluff eventually left and I breathed a sigh of relief. It's a bummer that we can't be friends but I don't wanna impose, especially if he's scared of me. He assured me he was willing when we did it, but I still feel so bad… I mean, he didn't seem to hate it when we did it, but still… 🙃 

Things alcohol makes people do. I should quit drinking too much at parties 😭. 

I guessed I'll never see him again… Oh boy how wrong I was ☠️. My boss's rival ordered noodles one day, and I'm usually more of a waiter than a delivery guy but it was a slow day and the usual noodle delivery guy wasn't there so I took the order. I hoped the delivery would be okay, it's kinda like walking in enemy territory, you know? It's a real noodle war. 

I didn't expect to see Fluff at my boss's rival shop! Plus he looked chummy with the chef. ☠️, it was really awkward. I don't know how people deal with embarrassing situations but, in my case, I just PANIC! So I left the noodles and ran away. 

I hope Fluff isn't thinking that I'm stalking him or whatever? 😭. I swear this is a coincidence. I don't want to stress out the guy. What if he thinks I'm a weirdo? Gods, I wanna dig a hole and hide myself there 😬. What if I see him again? What if he freaks out if I say hello cause I'm a spider? I have no idea what to do. 

I mean Megapolis is not a small city but I feel like we're bound to cross paths eventually. Should I just avoid him? Ignore him? Makes me feel a bit bad but I'm so worried talking to him would just worsen everything 😭. 

So I was freaking out for a few days already, and right as I was deciding that maybe I should just ignore Fluff for both our sakes, the peach-pie stealing bird appeared again. But this time the bird stayed instead of flying away with its stolen slice of peach-pie. 

This gave me goosebumps. 

Tbh I didn’t have time to do a quick internet search about Megapolis local resident 🙃. 

So I stared at the bird, the bird stared at me, we had this weird showdown, strangely I didn't wanna lose to the bird, like I'm not gonna avert my eyes in shame! You're the one who stole my pie you thief bird! 😠. No way the bird is gonna make me feel guilty! I'm the victim here. 

I will not be gaslighted by a bird. 

I was really close to give up and give the bird the rest of the pie. I'm weak 😭. But the bird looked like it really wanted it, and it's a bit flattering now that I think about it?

But before I could give up my pie, the bird transformed.

You hear me, it TRANSFORMED! 

A golden monkey was now on my windowsill. 

Wtf

WTF?? ☠️

… Did they put drugs in the local market peaches or something? 

We're gonna call the golden monkey Thief, cause that's what he is! This peach-pie thief! He looks a bit familiar though… Maybe I saw him somewhere before?

Thief : So you're the guy my successor is seeing, mm?

He looked so damn smug. And who is his successor? The only other monkey I knew is Fluff? I don't really like to lump people together cause they're the same species… But was Thief talking about Fluff? I need context 😭. 

Thief : Well, why don't you come to (“famous place”, I don't wanna out the guy) while I train my successor? You two could chat. And maybe it would motivate him!

Thief looked really proud of himself, like this was the best idea ever. 

Thief : Yep, come this Saturday afternoon. And bring a peach pie!! I swear your pies are to kill for, kiddo. 

Thief then hopped off the window and disappeared on a freaking flying cloud… ☠️

I was stunned. 

But then I thought about what just happened… 

I swear I sweatdropped ☠️

To be short, I realized Thief was a very, very, very, very famous guy. Like a legendary hero type of famous. 

I'm still not sure if Fluff is Thief's successor or not… if he is, me showing up to their training session would just freak him out, right? I don't wanna make him uncomfortable. 

I'm panicking 😭

At the same time, am I even allowed to decline Thief's invitation? What do you do when a legendary person just invites you to their place??? I don't even have Fluff number to talk about that… 

HELP! 

[mymelodyisme]

Hey I'm back home, work was nice and good and mostly silent which is a good thing. Also sorry but I don't feel comfortable telling what I do for work just yet. Sorry for your experience with the doll and forest Incident heheh thou I am honored to be the first one you tell this to.

But back to...what you said hon I do face what I did and be honest with myself, i almost always am. I am very direct and honest with myself when it comes to my screw ups and how to not do it again or to better myself....I'm not nice to myself either. Like I said I hate myself alot for my mistakes in the past and present and why I did them, I'm not going to lie to you and say some of them was little silly mistakes and I'm just being a bully. Alot of them are justified for me to be ashamed of and to ridicule myself for...and others well...yea I am just being a bully to myself for. But as I said I try my best to be better and not ignore the problem, a best friend of mine said the first step of healing and getting better is the acknowledgment that you got a problem in the first place so I take that and try going from there, small step after small step at a time. The dreams I can't really help they're dreams its gonna happen so eh I ain't bothered by them that much.

....i will say thou...I do need to be more kind to myself sometimes, it's hard to do but I do need to be. I don't know this counts as me being nice to myself or not but one of the things I really like to do is to listen to ambience videos, I like them quite a bit cause to me their soothing and also I got a nice imagination so I sometimes picture myself in that area.

As for the forest thing I mostly meant you being the witch like you said you wanted to be and me being the beast I wanna be. Speaking of when I mean beast I mean big and scary, something that could be a cryptid/mythology monster. Predator teeth, antlers/horns, claws, big fur, etc etc. I find it more fitting for myself that way...also I love the imagery of me looking like that but still being cuddled and held. Witch caressing the beast head as he it lay its horned head on her chest while in the middle of the forest. The sounds of birds chirping and leaves falling in the background, and the stream going down next to us. I think I would love that so much...

-❄️☕️

Welcome back 🥳 first, you don’t owe me anything about yourself just because I don’t stop talking as an over sharer. I just like to ask because I like people! Second, I lead a mostly boring life but I do have some stories 😭 obviously. It just takes a little thing to knock them back into my memory. Especially if it’ll relate to your own struggles.

I agree with your friend 🥺 all you can do is move forward with the acknowledgment that you’ve done something wrong. Living with the consequences instead of letting them just drag you down. I’m proud of your for trying!! Though I don’t agree with the idea of thinking you deserve to be ridiculed 😭 shame okay I get it but being ridiculed sounds like you don’t think you ever deserve to be seen as a person who makes mistakes and that’s a lil sad. And being nice to ourselves is one of the hardest things we can do too! So try to stop using that on yourself!!

🤔 I don’t think I can just do ambience myself. I like Words i like chatter. I grew up in a family of 6 so there’s always a voice in the background. Sometimes pure silence is nice but I thrive in noise. 🥰 I’m glad you’re able to picture yourself in the area I wish I could do that. My imagination is more towards creativity than visual placement. Isn’t that fun, the way people can utilize the same mechanic and get different results.

I forgot I said I wanted to be a witch 😫 when I was little I made potions out of my own hair and soaps in our bathroom. ANYWAYS I’m sorry this took so long to answer !! I drew you a picture ♥️🩷 I hope you enjoy your little beast form based on just what I could come up with :D

[dreamcrow]

20 questions

i was tagged by several people (thank you @niemalsetwas, @babblish, and @creativenicocorner), who in doing so have conveniently eliminated many of the people i would have thought to tag myself, haha. let's see... @falling-hand-in-unlovable-hand, @eri-223, @sidhewrites, if you like? plus anyone else who would like to steal.

1.) how many works do you have on ao3?

41 posted; 0 drafts.

2.) what's your total ao3 word count?

189,246. (?!)

3.) what fandoms do you write for?

oh, ask not for whom the hyperfixation tolls. (toa, obviously.) i do have a few fics i've deleted, though, in fandoms i don't currently have any fics for. maybe i should republish them on anon? 🤔

4.) what are your top 5 fics by kudos?

in my sleep i dreamed of waking

all that dazzling dawn has put asunder

it's a lovely day in stricklake month

misc. trollhunters prompts

sophisticated/manipulated

oh...they're (almost) all str/icklake, lol. and so old! is it strange that i feel so disaffected by this? well, probably not. a good lesson in kudos being merely a measurement of "how many times people pushed the kudos button," i suppose.

5.) do you respond to comments? why or why not?

i try to! part of my general attitude of "fandom is a conversation." i worry i don't always have all the spoons to make my replies what i feel they "should" be, but i do always want to convey my gratitude for people taking the time to leave a comment at all.

6.) what's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

oh, that's easy: notstantinoplefic! unfortunately it's not yet approached something even remotely publishable, so that probably means very little. ¯\_( ᐛ )_/¯

other than that...probably the first or second parts of minor arcana. probably the first, more than the second. skrael's chapter ends on something awful but he's about to enjoy a good bit of (however fleeting) catharis; bellroc however doesn't get any closure for what happens in their chapter until they meet nari, a couple centuries later.

7.) what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

...do i have a fic that doesn't have an ultimately happy ending? 😂 oh, i am too soft. even the horrible vicious ancient wizard gods tend to go out with full stomachs, warm beds, and someone on their side.

8.) do you get hate on fics?

i'll not lie: i have glimpsed the occasional drama from over my meticulously-curated rose hedge. but most of it seems to be from children, and for all my various weaknesses, i think i can survive being vagueblogged by people who aren't old enough to vote. if not: my anon is on ╮ (. ❛ ᴗ ❛.) ╭

9.) do you write smut? if so, what kind?

i am ATTEMPTING. most of the smut i've ever read has left me generally ??? baffled, glazing over, skipping through (without animus) to the next part. again, this is not the fault of the author; it's true even of things i can tell objectively are well-written, titillating, otherwise universally acclaimed. but i enjoy thinking about character exercises, and i am not completely untemptable, so this year i've been trying to make some progress on my longtime agenda of "get the horrible bird wizard railed."

...none of which is terribly apparent given that none of it is published, ofc! but. hopefully. that may change in the not-too-distant future.

10.) do you write crossovers? what's the craziest one you've written?

tbh i am very picky about crossovers. but i must admit... skraelroc necro/cav au... a man is Considering

11.) have you ever had a fic stolen?

i've had people repost my art, which (as someone who does not think of himself as an even remotely skilled artist) was very surprising. but never fic.

12.) have you ever had a fic translated?

none that i know of.

13.) have you ever co-written a fic before?

the closest i've ever come is probably blue wizard boyfriends, which is inspired by some rp shenanigans between a friend and me. but even so, my take on douxie in that series has diverged quite a bit from hers! so it doesn't really feel like "cowriting."

14.) what's your all-time favorite ship?

as your #1 friendly neighborhood degenerate not-even-actually-incest pornographer, i simply must say: nothing quite hits like a ship you literally invented

15.) what's a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

to be completely honest, i do still feel the occasional pang of nostalgia for my gr/avity f/4lls fic. i had a lot of world built for it, a whole sequence/interaction arc for the characters (and not just the couple). unfortunately, even this many years later—even if i never got directly harassed—the nastiness of that fandom has still left a very strong impression on me. it was the first time i think i ever saw a/ntis in action, and i don't think i have any desire to pick that story up again.

16.) what are your writing strengths?

...worldbuilding? present tense, apparently. 😂 i've also been told i have a knack for—ah, how did he put it. understated emotional closeup shots? i think of such kind comments often, haha.

17.) what are your writing weaknesses?

discipline. not using too many semicolons. recently: not using paired adjectives. mainstream fanon. not going back over published work and finding a billion small things to fix (though i'm getting better at this).

18.) thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

...mainly: "you're lucky i didn't make myself learn actual ancient egyptian for all those dumb little skraelroc shmoop fics i keep setting in ancient egypt"

otherwise? i err on the side of under-doing it, but i love doing this. i love seeing this in fic, even if it's not a language i know. it's like a little easter egg!!

19.) first fandom you wrote for?

a very old anime fandom which i will not be revealing on main. probably twenty years ago, at this point. almost certainly on ff.net.

20.) favorite fic you've ever written?

oh, i'm not sorry. i am thinking of minor arcana so often these days, but i really am pretty proud of it. even now, more than a year later! once i have the time to go through and fine-tune everything, i'm going to bind it. it's a very weird fic, probably, but one that is nevertheless (or perhaps because of this?) very dear to my heart.

[cmkren]

“You say I want to be Your Girlfriend! It wasn’t really in my plans…”

— girlfriend; Hemlocke Springs

;Usagi Yuzuha x Fem! Reader hcs

Usagi relationship headcanons where you two are both silly and goofy— that’s it, that’s the post. Basically how you two get together! Romance blossoming in the Borderlands, what a strange turn of events…

a/n; i am coping rn cause i have a maths chapter test in like 9 hours and i am not prepared im so bad at math. Anyways this is just gonna be some fluff. ♥️♥️♥️ very messy post because im super tired tho,,,

So… who’d be the first one to confess? 🤔

Read to find out !! 😋

Jk its kinda both of you but mainly Usagi

You two would probably meet early on, maybe in the tag game where the two of you catch each other’s eye and agree to travel together <3

You’d be there by Usagi’s side as you both live day by day, and when you find the sweaty lookin’ guy from the Tag game lying on the ground all depressed you two kind of take him in

Like

You two mama birds just kinda adopt the guy

Usagi ends up taking care of most of the hunting while you do mostly everything else

You’re the one who tries to force feed Arisu even when he refused it

Usagi kept you from choking the poor guy.

Y’all are basically tied at the hip tho

Which also soon includes Arisu

(But you n Usagi are closer shh dont tell him that)

Things pretty much stay the same between you two until y’all arrive at The Beach (cue thunder strike)

With this whole sort of place that seems like it was capable of running actual electricity and shit you wanted to do smth special!!

“Do you think we can use their kitchen?!”

“Y/N we’re literally duct taped to chairs right now.”

“She’s got a point though Usagi— I’m kinda craving like… cookies.”

That was the small talk the three of you had before the whole dramatic intro of the Beach and its top goobers

After that whole shenanigan, you and Usagi insist on sharing the same room

It was just a lot more comfortable for the two of you

This place gave you the creeps ngl

That meant a lot of late night talks

Well, as many as y’all got before shit hit the fan again

You two always talked about what you’d do when you finally get to leave. Visit each other every day, maybe even get a place together? Usagi couldn’t bare to live in her old place ever since her father disappeared

You knew everything about that as well

Just from the few months you two shared together, you guys knew a lot about each other

You even promised her that you’d help her get back into climbing

Maybe indoor climbing first for you though

The more you two spent time with one another though, the more the two of you caught yourself… lingering

Whether it be longing looks or touches, it’d always be done subconsciously and end up with someone a little flustered

Arisu caught on though and asked wtf was going on

You, of course, blew him off

After the hearts game though, you two immediately ran for each other

Both battered and bruised, you clung to her as she scanned you over for anything that might have been fatal

Usagi cries out in relief to see that you’re okay

“Where were you? Where were you? What would I do with myself if I lost you too? What would I do? I can’t lose a person I love—”

That made you sit up.

“You— you love me?”

Usagi couldn’t help but let out a choked smile to see that incredulous expression on your face

Well she can’t really deny it, can she?

You could only hug her tighter with tears welling in your eyes, the pain of everyone that’d been slaughtered would only remain in all of you forever but maybe the seeds of healing had already been planted for you two as you pressed a kiss against her cheek

You two were peas in a pod.

You protected those you loved, worked together to achieve your goals

And when Usagi struggled to understand why going back to the real world would be any better than the world they were forced to fight to live in, you couldn’t understand

But you tried to

The strong woman you’d grown so used to seeing so level headed hid in your arms as she held back tears

Listening to every pained doubt, choked out words

You were there for her

And no doubt, she’d hold you taut against her whenever you needed it too.

You helped Usagi get over her doubts and fears of returning to the living world, ensuring her that she wouldn’t be alone in dealing with her troubles

And that— not if— but when you two return, you’ll celebrate like you’ve never before

[williamtshakespears]

For the misc ask meme (if you don't mind, that is!):

❣️ - What are their love languages?

🌙 - What’s their sleep schedule like?

🗣️ - How do they handle public speaking?

💓 - What are some signs they’ve fallen for someone? How do they show their affection?

🌱 - Do they have a green thumb or are they a plant killer?

🧳 - What countries have they been to?

🤔 - What’s something they’ll never understand?

🎨 - What’s their favorite color?

☂️ - How do they feel about rain?

🖌️ - Do they have any hobbies?

🍳 - How well can they cook?

🍪 - How well can they bake?

💘 - What do they find attractive about their partner(s)?

💝 - What gestures do they really appreciate? How do you get on their good side?

☕ - Coffee or tea?

💬 - What are some filler/buffer words they use? (Like, um, etc.)

🏳️‍🌈 - What do they identify as? What are their pronouns?

🧑‍🤝‍🧑 - Do they have any siblings?

🥰 - What pet names do their partner(s) use for them? How flustered do they get by them?

I'm going to run out of questions to answer at this rate... Very well.

❣️ - What are their love languages?

Acts of service, I have discovered, is my primary love language. It is appreciated, if someone I am close to helps me out with even small things.

🌙 - What’s their sleep schedule like?

What is sleep? I jest, of course, but well... I have been known to, once or twice, randomly pass out because I haven't gotten sleep in a long time...

🗣️ - How do they handle public speaking?

I handle it quite well. When I was a lawyer, that was half of my job, so I have zero qualms on speaking to any size audience.

💓 - What are some signs they’ve fallen for someone? How do they show their affection?

Well... I do occasionally have my eyes stay on the person I like, perhaps longer than is necessary... I very rarely blush, but it is possible. I would like to spend time with the person I have affections for, and if I really like them, I will introduce them to my pigeons.

🌱 - Do they have a green thumb or are they a plant killer?

I wouldn't say I'm a plant killer, but I also don't actively seek out plants to take care of. If someone gives me a plant, I will do my best to look after it.

🧳 - What countries have they been to?

I have been to France, England, and Germany, and I am completely open to going to other countries as well.

🤔 - What’s something they’ll never understand?

... I don't believe I will ever understand why my parents couldn't accept me as I am... Nor would I understand how anyone could be so demented enough to assault and kill other people for their own amusement... I will never understand why grim reapers are being punished after already suffering through so much...

🎨 - What’s their favorite color?

I actually do rather like green, or a pale blue.

☂️ - How do they feel about rain?

I don't like that I have to work around it for my glasses, since constantly drying and cleaning them can be rather irritating. And I don't like storms because one almost killed my birds. Other than that, I do actually enjoy the sound of rain, and lightning is fascinating as it is dangerous.

🖌️ - Do they have any hobbies?

I can play the violin. I haven't done it in some time, but I would like to pick it up again. I do also enjoy a game of football (soccer) when I am able to play.

🍳 - How well can they cook?

I can cook perfectly fine, but I am nowhere near being a professional chef or anything. I can get by in the kitchen, but I know there are many who are better than I am in that regard.

🍪 - How well can they bake?

I don't often bake, for myself or otherwise. If the inclination hits me, I can get through something relatively simple, but I very rarely take the time to properly bake anything, so I can, but I don't.

💘 - What do they find attractive about their partner(s)?

Physical attributes all depend on the person, of course. As for personality... I do like someone who has a brighter outlook on life. Someone who can smile a lot, or who has a sense of humor. A smile or laugh from my partner can honestly brighten my entire day.

💝 - What gestures do they really appreciate? How do you get on their good side?

As a coworker, I appreciate the job being done with no fuss. I would love for that to happen at least one day... As a friend or perhaps a partner, I appreciate either some assistance with my work, or something being done at home so I don't have to worry about it after work (like having dinner prepared), and generally knowing that they understand I am very busy and treasure any moment I can spend with them, even if work cuts into that...

☕ - Coffee or tea?

Coffee in the morning, tea the rest of the day. If I had to choose one, tea.

💬 - What are some filler/buffer words they use? (Like, um, etc.)

Well...

🏳️‍🌈 - What do they identify as? What are their pronouns?

He/him, and I am bisexual.

🧑‍🤝‍🧑 - Do they have any siblings?

If I do have any siblings, I never met them. It's possible my parents tried to have another child after I got away from them, but I never kept up with them, so I have no idea.

🥰 - What pet names do their partner(s) use for them? How flustered do they get by them?

((As I play William, he has had at least five partners (not all at the same time, of course), so I will answer this with the pet names those partners have given him.))

Love, sweetheart, dove, babe, sexy~

Love, sweetheart, dove, and babe got him flustered the first few times he heard them, but he eventually got used to them. He still feels pleasantly warm when he hears them though. And sexy always gets him flustered. :D

[mtnkat3]

8.47pm

Sigh.. what a day.. all I can think about.. all that has given me any peace & smiles today.. an old truck bench seat & slidin into my loves .. sides.. just listening to music together & enjoying us. Also was thinking about my writings. It helped.

Basically.. I was on the phone, not able to get all my morning meds. Again. Wh not leaving me alone. Kept harassing me with msgnr. Food. Over & over. So missed getting to endo bloodwork before satellite lab closed. So I have to drive twice the distance, into busier area because his stomach was more important. I've been pretty mad today. I was able to sit for a bit at 5pm & just rock & do my senses. I think got ½~1hr rest of my eyes. But my dang neck. Don't think I'd call these power naps. Sigh. My guts have been rumbling because of that, & the issues with ins/cobra. So.. I have been barely holding on today. Begging God to end my soul's torture. All I know.. I'm tired. Of fighting against my health to get away from a monster that just sees me as a housekeeper. [Use a nicer word there.🤨] But I won't give up getting away from him. Ever. He can fight to keep his version of free labor. But he has until 11.15.22. Or go to jail. Knowing him, he'll try & wait to 5pm that day. But I will have my freedom from his tyranny. And pray to get my life back on track by doing so. And getting my health back. I am so tired of not being able to enjoy fresh food that I nurtured & helped grow. I so enjoy watching the tomatoes budding still! Oh! & my mandevilla still has buds coming in! I've got them all on a cart & roll them into the garage. Sigh. More tasks. Get my outdoor cats beds fixed to keep them snug & warm in the garage at night.

Anyways.. that's today.. Gonna try & get to bed earlier tonight. Hope that means before midnight! Lol! But thinking about my soul's mates .. & writings.. & whatever the truths of the whys actually are. .. just.. love me... for me.. please...??? As I love you.. no expectations. Just.. I wanna build .. with my soul's mates.. whatever makes us happy. Whatever God wants us to do. Yes, I have goals, aspirations, dreams. But without my soul's mates .. they are not the same. Just as going to the movies or travelling alone.. not having .. you .. to share it with.. just isn't the same. Yes, I can build my cabins & businesses & dreams alone. But .. just.. sad. I can fulfill some of the goals God has given me. But without my helpmate.. loses its meaning.. Life's rather gray without my soul's loves .. oh how I miss you.. it rips at me daily.

I'm so angry with myself for not forcing this hell ended in 2013. I keep reminding myself.. God has His Reasons, & lessons I needed to learn. And yeah, I've grown a lot since then. Heck, I started this last successful 🙏atty 10/19. He fought & has delayed since agreement 4.14.22. Anyways.. I refuse to die here! Or listen to a tone deaf jerk mutilate magic man/heart🎶 while I drive back here tonight! Thought my ears were gonna start bleeding!🙄🤦‍♀️🤷‍♀️ Deep breath. Time to find new laptop & trailers need. Gotta spend money I shouldn't have to. Gr. But watching mysteries of the abandoned reminds me.. can't take it with me. And this will help me get away from someone that need tie a honey around its neck & see if bears will eat it! Or would bears cringe at swipe those claws across & leave it for only jackals & carrion birds.. 🤔 naughty cheeky wicked kat grin. Ok.. research time. As I think about the future.. As I think about.. everything. As I miss.. you. Whoever the heck you are! Wherever the flippin .. gr! You are! Sigh. I love you. God.. help me.. please...???

I will never give up. I stand on my cliffside as I work. As I await. Even if its Forever.

~True love never dies & true love always waits.~

Your humbled bowed warrior queen daughter.

Patience daughter. Yes Father.

~Tijgeress kat Phoenix. 🌺

👩🤓⚓🙏🙇‍♀️☔💡🌂🔗⛓🧰⚙⚒🛠⚔⚖🗽🦅🐯🐾🐐🦉🐢🐛🦋🌱🌺🌹����🌷🌳🧶🧵 🥧🍁🧣🥾🥤🍋🥮🍯🍼☕🍫🍎🍑🍒 ⌚🚀⚡🌠🗝🔱⚜🐻🦌💝🧩♠️♾🎯🧭🕯🎶💋

Th.10.20.2022 9.58pm est. Ibs sucks.😳🙈

[iheartchv]

Greetings wonderful creator, if you have time, can I get a tmnt matchup, please?

I'm a female, 5'2 of height (thin), glasses, cooper skinned, with short dark brown hair, mainly introverted. I don't use make up and jewelry makes me feel uncomfortable. My favorite colors are red, purple and green.

I adore windy autumn days and listen to a lot of pop and folk music (especially if it has flutes or violins). I love birds, the forest, board games, and I'm pretty curious about antique cultures an spiritual things. I like to think there is more in the origin of objects and people than what we can see...

I also appreciate silence and the space to do my stuff.

On first sight I look serious... maybe stoic, but if I feel comfortable enough then I'm pretty expressive and really passionate about my interests, like art (I love drawing), books, theater and animated films. I could spend hours talking about character development, the performance in a musical, rambling about old mysteries or dancing and singing —knowing well I'm not the best at it, which makes me worry constantly about tiring or upsetting people—. That's why even if I get attached really fast, I ironically stay apart. Doesn't meaning I stop caring, i really do, even if they have hurt me. I would die for someone I appreciate, I can assure that.

I usually enjoy having a low profile (no parties), but secretly love the attention. It's a guilty pleasure, just like puns. I sometimes despised myself for liking it... honestly, I just want people to recognize my efforts. However, I don't really take the leadership of anything unless I'm the last option. My family and friends say I inspire confidence in others, giving wise answers to problems and bringing reflexive thoughts into the matter. Though, i love helping, but sometimes it turns exhausting to guide someone. I consider myself patient, is only that I turn short tempered when people don't work nor think about what they say or do, like they actually were looking for problems.

On the bad traits I could say I'm a huge coward. I learn about the world but I fear it and their people. Example: One of my greatest fears is the ocean, though I'm a big fan of pirates.

I tend to be stressed when it comes to my responsibilities. It turn into my way of being an adult, 'cause if I don't stress about it I probably will forget it, and that's bad! Also, I do wish I could say I am tidy, but my room is more of an "order in the chaos" thing.

I'm quite selfish and territorial over my stuff and personal projects and, for the cherry on top, I'm really special with food. There're certain kinds of flavors I can't stand, and for god sake, it includes pizza so... that doesn't give me a lot of friends.

I write a lot, sorry for that. I hope this is enough information. Thank you by the way uwu

Sure thing😄💕 (sorry for the long wait)

🤔its a tie between Leo or Donnie, but I'd pair you with... Donatello💜

Donnie would fall for you

It took a bit of time, but once you both got to be comfortable around each other

There wasn't nothing going to tear you apart

You two were best friends

Eventually he wanted to be more than just friends with you

He felt like no one would be able to understand you better than himself

That's why when he got the courage to ask you out, he felt his heart soar in the skies of love

Donnie loves to share his passions, and likes when you talk about yours

He can talk to you for hours about his interests, too, as long as you are willing to listen

He too secretly craves attention

And he feels like he gets that from you, so he tries to give it back

Donnie loves you, for who you are

From your gorgeous eyes, to your beautiful mind, he finds you perfect

Yes, you might have some bad traits but that doesn't stop him from loving you

He may say there's no such thing ever as perfection, but he's changed his mind💜

He's so sweet to you💖💖💖💖

Sweet like honey🍯

He'll treat you like a queen

And you can count on him to be loyal to you, and be there for you

"I'll be here, if you ever need me, my love"

"I'll never stop loving you, turtle dove"

🐢💜💕👧

Hope it's alright and get who you wanted😆😅

[myfalsedevotion]

hi there vicky 💙 can i just ask about every single one of those wips? ok no im gonna stay focused and only choose a few i think we might have not talked about already 🤭

ok how about: kokology sequel, backseat serenade cash, lest & vroomvroom5

(i am really holding myself from not requesting every single one of those ahhhhhhh)

ok love u <3

I think we haven't talked about any of these (that's surprising hahahah) so I'm gonna give you a bit of context (more than I did over whatsapp) and a couple of sneak peeks 🤭

Here we go!

Kokology sequel:

When I wrote Kokology, fresh out of finishing athob, I always intended to write a sequel because everyone's situation at the end of that (sans Cashton finally figuring their shit out and getting together) was quite bleak. So I always intended to have a follow up fic a few years down the line from the timeline where the first fic takes place, and using another one of the games of self-discovery from that book (by Tadahiko Nagao and Isamu Saito).

Here's an extract from some dialogue (hopefully I will get down to finishing this one, because it's mostly finished and just sitting there):

"Oh god, not again, Mike." Calum groaned as he saw his friend coming back with that white book under his arm. "What? It's fun. You admitted it was fun when we played the Blue bird one." "Yeah, but I aced that one when I said golden." Calum sighed as Ashton chuckled quietly from the kitchen, making something warm spread through his chest at the sound. He'd never get tired of hearing that sound, would he? "Only time these games have made me feel well about myself." Calum mumbled, staring at his lap and resisting the urge to look back up to Ashton because he knew what he would find in his eyes. "And who's to tell you this one won't make you feel good about yourself again?" Michael insisted, waving the book in Calum's face and actually looking excited about it, which made Calum feel his resolve crumbling. Three years out of uni and actually working on a clinic and Michael still had the energy to use them as guinea pigs in his free time. At least since he and Luke moved into their own place Calum had had some time without having to be psychoanalysed every couple of weeks. "What's this one about?" Michael grinned at him, picking up a notebook from his backpack and shoving it towards Calum's chest, "Stars."

Backseat Serenade Cash

This one's quite straightforward hahahah It was perhaps the first idea I ever had for a 5sos fic (more or less at the same time as the 5 year fic, back in 2017), and it was heavily inspired by the All Time Low song.

Here's an excerpt:

"I was serious before." Ashton tried to make it seem like he hadn't heard what Calum said, like he was already asleep. Calum didn't buy it. "I know you are awake, Ash." He pressed. "And what do you want me to say?" Ashton sighed, sitting up and looking everywhere but Calum. "Okay? Let's fuck the best friendship I've ever had just because I haven't been with anyone in a while and I need a warm body? The key word being exactly that, 'fuck the friendship'."

Lest

Maya, you know why this is called the way it's called 🙈. You'll know exactly what it's referring to hahahhaha

I have it written like a small A+B character prompt (and I do actually have dialogue written for it, but it's too spoiler-y), and I just don't know which characters would be fitting for it in a 5sos setting. But I think I may have an idea 🤔 Here's an excerpt

See, they had been pitted against each other since they were little kids. Before they even could say hello to each other, before A could even ask curiously about how many Gym medals B had in his Pokémon Sapphire game after that competition while he looked at him from across the room and watched him giggling with his best friend, before they even had a chance at being kids, they were already pitted against each other by everyone surrounding them. So A stayed away. They were supposed to hate each other, so he did just that.

vroomvroom5

And I think I mentioned this to you as in, I couldn't see a way for this to work in that setting, but yeah. I've fallen for it, and now I have a vaguely plotted one-shot with Calum being an F1 driver and Ashton being his trainer... 😅 Idk how you will take that hahahhah

[pertinax--loculos]

In light of your response to inkovert, I now need to know your answer for Killer Clown, haha. Also: Haunted House, Disguise, and Demon? :O

Hello! Thanks for the questions, I am on a roll with actually responding to these today. :D So!

Killer Clown - Fave character name you’ve come up with?

Oh wow, you're really gonna do this to me, huh? Let me think...

Man, yeah, nah, I'm coming up empty. 😅 I think I'd have to go with Dash -- which, yes, is still a nickname, but I enjoy the fact that in every iteration of the character it's always a nickname for the first name Chase, and there's just something I like about the name (probably that it belongs to my pet character ahahaha ANYWAY). Beyond that... Duke, maybe? Though once again that's a nickname involved in a Big Reveal (likely why I like it. Are we seeing a theme, here?). So... 🤔

Gahhhh this is hard. 😠 I'm gonna stick with my instinctual answer and say Dash. ^_^

Haunted House - Anything you have wanted to write but have been too scared to try?

Not... really? I don't think? Generally if I wanna write something, I just write it. I'm not one of those people who has Grand Ideas that I don't think I'll be able to execute; I've been blessed with something I call amodesty (y'know, like people can be amoral? I'm amodest. Also known as insufferably obnoxious 😅) whereby I just decide I have the ability to do whatever I want and then I do. Is it always fantastic? Absolutely fucking not. But then those projects just get shelved and I move on to the next one, so I don't end up any worse off than before.

Yup, mulling it over, the only things I don't write are things I don't like, not things I'm necessarily intimidated by. I genuinely can't even really fathom this question in a real sense; like, scared of what? Backlash? Don't post it. That it won't be good enough? Who the fuck knows until you try? That you don't have the skill? You don't fucking start writing something, you're never gonna improve and you're never gonna get the skill.

It's like, when I was looking into getting a parrot, this idea of a 'practice parrot' popped up -- a bird with a shorter lifespan that you could use to ease you into parrot ownership. A lot of people hated the idea, because they were like, 'you're only buying that bird in order to eventually get rid of it and get the bird you really love. So why not start with the bird you really love?' Obviously with pet ownership it's a lot more complex BUT the point stands in this context. If you have an idea that you love, that is your baby, but you put it to the side to write something in order to be good enough to write the Project You Are In Love With, are you ever gonna be truly passionate about that 'practice story'? And if you are, if you do get truly invested in it, then maybe that Project you love wasn't all that special in the first place, y'know?

I'm getting off track and I don't know if I'm making myself clear.

HOLY CRAP I JUST THOUGHT OF THE ANSWER TO THIS QUESTION: short stories.

I talk way too damned much. Never thought I'd be able to pull them off (but also never really felt the desire to; I don't read them, much, either). Maybe something I'll add to my goals list for next year, to at least attempt to write one. 🤔

...I imagine this was a lot more than you bargained for when you innocently sent me this ask. I considered deleting the entire rant then decided against it. Pockets unfiltered, ladles and gentlespoons.

Moving on!

Disguise -  Do you have a method for getting characters to sound/feel in character?

Thanks for pointing out that I don't actually have a method for this, damn. ;P

Actually I like your answer. Can I say your answer? I'm gonna say your answer. 😆

Okay, in all seriousness, this is something I'm working on. I'm quite partial to using metaphors etc that that character would use, noticing things that they would notice given their backstory and whatnot; Latrell, for instance, compares almost everything to the ocean, because that's one of his foundations, his safe place, his first love. That seems to be working at large, but I still struggle with making actual sentence structure etc distinct between characters. But it's something I'm aware of, at least! And actively working on!

As far as feeling in character, I am no joke very similar to you, and it's primarily about backstory. I plan by hand, and generally start off just writing a stream-of-consciousness that develops as I go along. Backstory emerges as I do this, and that informs the choices the characters make throughout the story, and I think that works to keep them behaving and therefore appearing 'in character', as it were. ^_^

Demon - which one of your oc’s would be the surprise villain in a horror movie?

Oh, easy. For ATN -- Nox. Though in a really sorta introspective 'intellectual' psychological horror sorta thing I could see Latrell working quite well as a twist villain, because he believes he's always doing the right thing and all that; I can see the movie being presented from his perspective, and everything's mostly okay with just threads of unsettling things that make you almost question reality, and then BAM twist at the end where something shifts and you see it all through a different lens and turns out that, I dunno, soylent green is people kinda thing. The arrests he's been making are actually murders? The monsters he's been fighting are actually just people trying to help him? Something like that.

Yes, yes, I like that. Let's go with Latrell, then. :D

[fuzzyhorsesharkparty]

Are you gonna leave when I want you close maybe God doesn’t want me to feel anything I’m suppose to throw everything away I feel safe I try I have the need to be alone don’t want to talk text communicate it’s hard for me too tired and hurt trying to get away I will yell at you if I feel comfortable but don’t want to fight wanna be close no fighting don’t want to feel bored is this all there is? I know it isn’t trying to care everyone without … 🤔dont remember 😡…. You made my heart break you made my heart ache I know I might not be ready but I feel like I am but not ready for pain let me sleep over don’t want to meet your fam I’m sorry do they like me? I want to meet them no I don’t it’s gonna change how I feel I won’t tell anyone how I feel about you please don’t leave me lonely and leave me for someone else that’s just gonna make it worse don’t wanna tell my parents or fam not cuz I don’t care it’s just I don’t want to change my feelings don’t change that but I change my mind then maybe i told myself I would wait till marriage but I don’t want to but then I want to wait again but I don’t know you choose let me feel you dont want to not be able to not breathe again or have the same problems I won’t be able to be away from you don’t want the muscle relaxer experience again but it’s best everything’s too fast won’t tell my mom I’m leaving to hard to talk about how do I leave I walked to your high school bare foot wishing you would be there thought it would be cute don’t wanna get caught only you and me hard to adapt gonna be mad angry being alone in basement with you caress watch movie but it’s hard to watch more then one cuz I get tired trying to concentrate insecurities when im with you I hate porno pisses me off only movies thoughts of you too scared to get hickey or giving you one kiss me how you feel so I know how you are feeling bird kiss lol or French sucking short long too scared to kiss you funny song in the beginning don’t know what to talk about need tissues getto too cute haha 😩 my man fight for me I don’t want to have to go through it again don’t want to be separated I don’t want to smoke notebook don’t want to wait I’m sorry God you told me the greatest commandment is loving someone I’m trying don’t want to be in pain I know you told me to wait I just love the thought black dress white dress ???? I feel heavy in white but I want to wear it for that day if that ever happens if you ever ask me I don’t want to wait I’m sorry I want something different don’t want to feel that being bored is all there is don’t want to be pain don’t want to lose you I have a lot of problems that I know and don’t know too scared of your head being a jungle not really just the head part don’t want to hurt you or me or is not be together need space I miss you why do I feel like this I don’t even remember and really want to know what you said about sanders lol what were you doing don’t want you to lose your teeth no smoking marks want to know what it looks like from up there my eyes hurt make me happy don’t let me down mysterious pictures with you I’m not really comfortable naked but hopefully you can make me forget but maybe I shouldnt I don’t know I wanna feel what you feel your bones 😩😍 gross no but I don’t want to go through it again I need control of my feelings do I ? Fuzzy blankets please let me sleep over hang out it was hard for a long time to be able to stay home cuz I was bored and didn’t know what to do I feel like I’m gonna hurt my mom If i leave without saying anything but I have to it’s ok I have to go if your fam lets me …. In your room I can’t I’m tired I don’t want to have to go through the same thing again kiss me everywhere I need time but I want it now I need rest but if God knows i don’t have to go through the same thing again then I want it now push me on the bed then be gentle then be rough Say you want me and if it does happen and I do get preggers then I want to wait till the bump gets big enough to make it noticeable and maybe even if I can wait then wait till I’m due so my water break while