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soul-spoken · 5 months

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Romanticizing things subconsciously while otherwise being terrified and angry, disgusted and withdrawn.

It's so strange.

It's like part of me is still there, while the rest can see the reality of the situation. Like part of me is stuck, frozen in that frame of time like a picture.

I hate that

#hands and lips. teeth into skin. cold metal tracing shapes.#whispers and quiet words all burned. how can my mind even begin to feel something light and airy about those things #its like i can still feel everything. physically and emotionally.#i want to live fully in reality. destroy the picture #why cant i manage that #i hate it

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gunsatthaphan · 1 month

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"is something wrong?"

#this love doesn't have long beans #love no long beans #love no long beans ep7 #methasjj #jj x methas #methas x jj #benzgarfield #thai bl #bl drama #my boy jj really said sit down ill be careful and then proceeds to put some kama sutra moves on him #i cant #but also its almost the finale why are they not in love yet 😩#im upset #i want to talk to the manager #but also methas is WHIPPED like my goodness #i understand him #i feel the same way jkdhfgd

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ash-and-starlight · 15 days

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yet another traumatic experience! at the hair salon

#jeeessssuuuss fucking christttttt #why cant hairdressers STYLE HAAIRRR #ITS THEIR GD JOOOBBB #doing my gay little walk of shame back home looking like coconut head from ned declassified whatever #and he had the GALL to look so proud of himself too #there’s notHING TO SLAY GURRL ABOUT!!#ugh pray that i manage to fix it with them Hot Irons #and if not well. hehe.#welcome back ringo starr!!#send post

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sad-trash-hobo · 1 month

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You know what. I get why Anakin went to the darkside. You're gonna show me the Phantom Menace and hear Qui Gon tell Anakins mother that he isn't there to free the slaves, just pick up her son on a whim. And then to have him go and return Jabbas son, JABBAS SON, back to him? After he was owned by Gardulla? And no one says that that was inappropriate to have him do. And then in the Zygeria arc for Anakin to be upset about slavers, as he should, and Obi Wan tell Ahsoka that Anakin and his mother were sold into slavery so it's a touchy subject for him. He wasn't even sold into slavery. He was born into it! And this was Obi Wan, Anakins supposed brother? Shocking that Anakin would feel so betrayed and undervalued that he would go to the dark side. Anakin shouldn't have ever been a jedi. He should've been in therapy on Naboo with his wife. I love you Obi Wan, but you really did fail and I also hate you, in this essay I will-

#look. i love obi wan as much as the next person. but the very real impatience and hate i feel for his indifference i swearrr #that man is exasperating and i have no patience for him #you knew anakin was a slave and you still insisted on him calling you master #you knew he was a slave and youre mad that he cant manage his emotions #you knew he was a slave and you dont understand why hes so angry #anakin didnt need you to be his master. he needed you to have a backbone within the jedi order and defend him and help him #ill actually never forgive him #anakin skywalker #obi wan kenobi #star wars #star wars the clone wars #'anakin calm yourself' obi wan what if you shut the fuck up #you knew he was a slave. made him become a jedi. and then made him a war general #you cant be a good jedi and a good general

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melooooo17 · 1 month

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@openphrase123 your fanfic(s but i mainly made art of the mira and siffrin one because i cant remember words for the life of me for i do not speak french) IS???? ? SO GOOD. SO GOOD IM FOAMING AT THE MOUTH finally something to look forward to in the week fr

Mild spoilers for it ig!! But nothing too explicitly groundbreaking i dont think it'll kill your mom to look at these without having read the ff first

Don't mind the shit quality i??? I drew all these so fast theyre kinda shit and i have yet to fully acclamate isat to my artstyle so it's mid

Teehee me when i make shitty rushed fanart to show my appreciation that i cannot put into words for my faovorite games and also authors

peep the rant in the tags

#isat #isat fanart #isat siffrin #isat mirabelle #god ive been obsessing over isat lately #its terrible how ive been feeding into it #ffs of it be having me giggling running around because siffrin is healing #not in this particular one though #at least not at the part thats written rn #i do love seeing them suffer in equal parts #siffrin my scrimblo i will microwave you #a mosquito is in my room as im typing this girl gtfo #slight spoilers for this fanfic i suppose #okay so THE FANFIC BROO that part where sif lets mira pick his name?! makes me think that sponsors always pick the names #hence why sif never got a new name and spica feels outdated #also i love LOVE seeing mirabelle get better and better at yk... remembering #needing sif to reintroduce themselves every time is such a creative way to do like a pseudo timeloop #everything was so neat #upset that i cant do them justice in drawinng though i have very little experience drawing black hairstyles #or like being around black people with such hairstyles which is a shame!! i would wanna get a better look at the texture and the variation #BACK TO THE FF i literally read this to my older brother out loud (thank god i managed to pester him to play Isat)#and my throat got so raw from speaking that i had to stop but then itd get to another cool detail and i HAD to tell him #so my throat pain? your fault not mine nuh uh not the lack of self control #case in point thanks a bunch for writing!! i wanna get as good at that as you at some point

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mipexch · 11 months

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there's something so beautiful about rain world's art style that i can't properly put into words

#ignore the v1 mod haha #same with saints little shirt #REGARDLESS. ahhh. i understand why rain world is so loved #this game made me feel So much because of everything #the art?? the way they present things?? the Music. oh my g #i cant really go into depth without going on a long spiel about presentation within games but know rain world is very very good. it is hard #-but it is worth the struggle to experience something so genuinely beautiful #i wanted to include the echo in the undergrowth here but none of the screenshots i got were very nice looking or fit well with the rest #but i still wanted to mention it because it is so important to me #'this moment right here! it is where we are meant to be.' you are so right brother......#ive got a lot on my plate and as much as i want to draw for rain world the most i can manage is silly stuff. consider this a stand in for-#-seriousness

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foryoupeko · 9 months

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WIP of the Birthday Boy's part for my Peace Sign MV

and Nagito is there for good luck!

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somberdespair · 1 year

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im obsessed with this design i just had to draw it

design by @yerichonnn on twitter

#warframe #ordis #cephalon ordis #wf ordis #when will ordis get an actual body #if loid can have one why cant he #please DE im begging #hope i managed to capture the original design #while still doing it in my style #i really tried

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3-aem · 3 months

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out celebrating with coworkers but its just me sitting silently shoving wings and tater tots into my mouth in between drinks while i get asked for the 50th time what my 4th of july plans are (idk think about gj i guess)

#i have low alcohol tolerance i must Eat #me at work: i cant get the work out today #my manager at sync meeting: her ft will be out tmrw #me: wtf 🥹#i used to have high alcohol tolerance #literally untouchable #now i have none less than 0 truly a pathetic amount will do me in #i wasnt feeling the convo at all tho #but i was feeling the spicy wings….#i miss my cat #this morning he was like why r u depressed again #and i was like please leave me alone and kicked him off the bed and i feel bad about that

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couchsterfield · 6 months

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bateman: Hey lets get sushi later

Luis: I FUCKING HATE JAPANESE PEOPLE!!!!!

bateman: ..😨

#Why did luis even say that 😭#if you manage to freak out PATRICK BATEMAN you need to reflect on yourself bro 😭#i cant stop laughing at batemans reaction #american psycho #couch ramblings

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nyatbinary-81 · 4 months

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@vulpixisananimal sifstem art jumpscare!! more specifically i got bored and decided to mess around with sif and mal's outfits.

#my art #this is how I think theyd present themselves either in person or in headspace. the slouchers <3 #sifs outfit is simple; the boots i always give them (but with star laces for funsies); loose sweater; simple pants #the pants are Meant to be jeans but isat doesnt Specifically Have Jeans so. theyre just Pants.#the sweater is slightly looser bc sif doesnt seem like a Form Fitting Clothes kinda guy to me but hes Trying to be more open #on particularly good days theyll roll the sleeves up or wear a sleeveless one methinks #even if everyone Knows abt the self-harm scars its hard to Look at them.#i also associate them being more open with them not wearing an eyepatch. esp bc hes the only one of the three to go without it #for mal (or 'ami' as i like to call it) i wanted smth reminiscent of a mourning outfit bc mal du pays means homesickness #and i picked 'ami' as a nickname bc ami means friend :] at least according to my basic translator. i dont speak french <3 #ami's outfit being dark is also reminiscent of the inversion thing its got going on in canon.#ik the veil is starred in the original but i think ami would want the fewest reminders of home. on account of The Issues #(actually if i can come back to sifs laces sif also has issues with reminders of it bc of the memory loss but the shoelaces are His Choice—#—which gives them a form of control over it and they can keep it subtle or undo it if he wants. which makes it easier)#anyway. i put amis hair in an updo and smoothed the hat bc i think ami wants to be Unremarkable. Unknown. so it keeps its silhouette Simple #(it still keeps the pins. theres smth comforting abt them. they shine like stars and theyre not stars and theyre not Home. but theyre You.)#and i kept the long hair i gave loop. dont ask me why its so long when the canon hair is short. maybe their hair kept growing over the loop #OH and i drew ami in a side profile bc Silhouette and also bc i think itd make an effort to keep people away from its blind spot #andddd i think thats about it? plus i actually managed to keep this one within a reasonable timeframe.#if their hair changes lengths/the proportions change between drawings. no they dont 💛 peace and love and body craft #OH AND YOU FINALLY GET TO SEE WHAT I MEAN ABT SIFS BOOTS BC THESE ARE THE BOOTS I GAVE THEM ON MY REGULAR DESIGN ARENT THEY NEAT #i did actually try to give sif a different font but nothing Works for them like the pixel font. i cant explain it.#i think 'ami' would be a nickname that mira gives it. bc. shes Fantasy French. and its a sort of 'youre more than your yearning/loss' thing #me every time i think abt sifstem: yeah they just rotate in my head. nothing major #me every time i talk abt sifstem: oh hey im almost at tag limit again #au Good what can i say

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moeblob · 5 months

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You know, when I kept getting asked "so you didn't ever have severe pains before now?" in the hospital and I kept replying "I have a high pain tolerance" I meant it. However, there is only so much pain my tiny 4'9" body can hold... (aka I am sweating and in agony bc I'm getting told to use LESS severe pain meds so I don't rely on them too much and it is AWFUL)

#moe talks a lot #i was shaking earlier and despite the fact i sound like im gonna cry #and the fact that my mom can pick out im about to cry from pain bc im trying to take less pain meds #LIKE MY MOM IS INSTRUCTING ME TO DO #shes like well why arent you taking any pain meds #BECAUSE THERE ARE TWO AVAILABLE OPTIONS AND ON A SIX HOUR TIMER #i cant take both at once or else what happens to me if i hurt before the six hours is up #i have to manage them in a way that allows me to benefit from both and being told im doing it wrong #after being told well its your fault it got so bad because you never complained about pain before #YEAH NO JOKE? REALLY? I NEVER DID? because everyone acts like im too young to feel that kinda pain #oh youre hurting? just wait until youre older #and its currently agony to breathe again but that i guess is also my fault bc im trying to use pain meds #holy moly i just want to not get dizzy standing up cause wow dang #sure would be nice if the multiple incisions in my stomach didnt THROB every time i sneezed or coughed or cleared my throat #but since i didnt use much pain meds before because i would be mocked for being too much of a baby its like #welp damn now i could really use some and im being called out for being too reliant #anyway time to sleep more because that means im not noticing my pain #im literally smaller than most children and so i do understand my body size makes people worried about the medication intake #but can i please just go a day without being asked how much im taking or when i last took it or if im gonna cry #anyway sorry for the excessive rant today never really had surgery or anything so this is brand spankin new suffering

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ganondoodle · 9 months

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i know i have talked about this many times in detail by now, but the whole "shiekah tech just vanished" totk interview reveal will grind my gears anytime i think about the franchise for i dont know how much time to come

its such a lie to your face i just cant help but feel insulted, bc no, its NOT all gone and vanished, you kept the few parts convenient to keep and got rid of all that could have even vaguely distracted from the new shiny sonau stuff, at least be honest and just say you didnt think about it needing any sort of reason, say you dont care, say there were writing or staffing troubles, say you had other priorities, say you didnt think people cared about continuity (lol) even between two games taking place in the same world no 10 years apart, say you just wanted to generate money but even more, idk, id much rather have them be honest about it than lie like that bc this way it makes it feel like they think im stupid, like id just gobble up and be happy with anything they say to get me to shut up and keep spending money

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#ganondoodles talks #zelda #totk #ganondoodles rants #not really a rant tbh #but man #i just keep coming back to this point #bc its just ... so insulting #and you cant argue either that he meant the old shiekah stuff vanished while newly built stuff was still there #bc the old og guardian on the hateno institute is still there #the teleport pad as well #both of which WERE old #but then the telescope is gone and the furnace and the upgrade stone thingy- isnt even the easter egg prototype titan model gone too??#and the big furnace and the lanterns are all gone #and it all had to stay for a while after botws end bc we still see it and purah also had enough time to manage to get herself aged up again #and the whole it vanshied bc it knew the calamtiy was gone interview part makes it even worse #bc the SOURCE OF IT IS STILL THERE #AND WHY DIDNT IT VANISH A HUNDRED YEARS AGO THEN #THEY WON THAT TIME TOO #and that everyone that was in any way interested in shiekah tech just doesnt care anymore #again i dont think even the words shiekah tech are said a single time #aside from MAYBE the school thing about the calamity #which is another can of worms tbh #and no vah ruta stopping to work isnt the same as vanishing #i always figured it was bc the spirits of the pilots were now all fully gone and without a pilot as its power source yeah it might stop #bc that makes SENSE #i want to know so badly why this all turned out like this #they have talked about struggles during development before so why not here #is there somethign they try to cover up or did they ACTUALLY think this was good #bc i cant believe that

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sophfandoms53 · 1 month

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Nah i just remembered how fast everyone fell off the wall last night and how the comp was probably at most 45 minutes again

Why does production hate this endurance comp so much in recent years??? Like goddamn, the wall comp is usually the most anticipated one every year and yet they do everything they can to make sure they don’t pass an hour ever AND WE DIDNT EVEN GET TO SEE WHO WON IT ON THE FEEDS THIS YEAR