#-but it is worth the struggle to experience something so genuinely beautiful

[mipexch]

there's something so beautiful about rain world's art style that i can't properly put into words

[sykestarot]

what's holding you back? how should you move forward?

1-2-3 (left to right)

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Hi guys I felt this was the message that needed be heard this week and some of it got very specific. Lmk what you think! Thanks for stopping by ily!!

Pile 1

“it consumes my mind, it consumes my soul, it wants my life, it wants complete control” (8 of cups (rx); 8 of wands (rx; The Emperor; The Hermit; king of wands; The Star) This pile might struggle with mental health issues, such as depression or anxiety. When channeling your energy pile one I had a heavy chest and a hard time breathing. You could be pushing yourself too hard and not taking a break. Or avoiding taking a break because then you’ll see how much pain you’re in. Either way I feel very heavy energies with you. I see you feel stagnant in your life, but this is because you refuse to make changes because you feel comfortable in the routine or cycle you’re in. I’m also seeing for some of you, that you went through something hard recently and you’re keeping yourself hidden due to fears of it happening again. This situation led you to forget how much power you hold and how truly beautiful you are. I think you might expect life to happen for you, even though you’re not really leaving your house. Sometimes we have to make things happen for ourselves, although I do understand not wanting to because of the fear of the unknown. The advice that the cards give you is to remember how you sparkle. I feel like your current energy is the song I channeled but the energy you need to embody is bejeweled by Taylor Swift lol. Two very different energies. Spirit is telling you to lean on them and let go of the past, because holding onto that is only going to make your journey to the top slower. I’m also not sure if this situation involved a betrayal but spirit is also letting you know that two people’s perspectives that may differ on the same situation can both be true at the same time. I also see in this advice that this is a journey you have to go on alone. I understand how daunting this may feel but I promise you have the strength and the resilience to get through this. I keep hearing “I wish you could see the way you shine”. Signs: August; the number 8; 8 mile; Eminem?; blue sapphire; stardust the movie; Aquarius; girl in red?; insomnia; overthinking; stripped socks; dark room lit up by tv; “remember who you are” - lion king

Pile 2

"Je te laisserai des mots" (2 of swords (rx); 3 of swords; The High Priestess; The Empress (rx); Justice (rx); 8 of wands (rx)) Hi Pile 2! I feel like for you guys you recently went through a breakup, possibly with your first love, or someone you thought was your forever. Maybe you guys were on and off for a while and you really believe this person will come back. I see that in terms of what’s holding you back is that you don’t believe that you can live without this person and that’s not true. I see that you would’ve given this person the world. I hear that quote where one person says “you were a wonderful experience” and then the other person says, “you, you were everything.” And I feel like you’re the one saying that the other person was everything. Perhaps you're an artist and this person was your  muse and without them you feel like you can’t make your art anymore. I genuinely feel empty channeling your energy. I see that what’s holding you back is the idea that this person was the only reason you were successful, which couldn’t be further from the truth pile 2. You are worth so much more than what you create. I also feel that you only value yourself by how much you create or do and that you punish yourself for not meeting a certain quota. But because of the loss you’re going through right now you’re not meeting quotas because you’re hurt not because you are an unproductive being. If you leave this reading with one thing I hope that it is that you are worth so much more than just what you create. As far as advice goes for you I see that you need to place trust in the mysteries of life. Most times you don’t know what life has in store for you even if you think you do. Place trust in your heart and your gut feelings. Rest when you feel you need to and create when you feel the need to. I also see that your inner monologue could be hurting you, the pessimism in your mind could be keeping you in a cycle of self hatred and unproductivity and they're working hand in hand to keep you stagnant. Try to think more positively and be gentler with yourself and you’ll see progress almost immediately. I’m also seeing that when you step back and see the bigger picture you’ll find that everything happens for a reason, and almost every ending leads to a new beginning. I believe in you pile 2 you can do it!! Signs: 222’; piano; marble; fine arts; french?; museums; pine scent; guitar; the color blue; long distance; wishing on stars; turn back time; Romeo and Juliet; “it’s better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all” ; paintings; indie

Pile 3

“keeping me from who I need to be, distracting me from what I need to do” Pile 3 I feel like for you what’s holding you back is your inability to admit that you are wrong about something. For you I see you continuing to try to do something that isn’t working and probably hasn’t worked for you either ever or for a long time. I see that for you your destiny holds much more than what you are doing. I see that you are going down a path that is filled with obstacles and you believe that it’s because it’ll give you a better success story when these obstacles are not even obstacles there more like road blocks. I see this pile is more of a career pile. I also feel like I can hear you while reading this immediately going, “pfft this isn’t for me”. If you thought this at all then this pile is exactly for you. I don’t know if someone told you that you wouldn’t make it in the line of work you’re in but I do see that you took that and made it the fire that lit you up. For most of you though this is a job that you can make it in but it won’t fulfill you in the way you think it will because at the end of the day I believe you don’t actually enjoy this job. SO if you feel like your life is stagnant or staying in the same place it’s because this career isn’t meant for you. I feel like you also know what career is meant for you and you’re being super stubborn. I also feel like when you talk to people you’re close to about your job issues they immediately bring up your other option of what you could be doing. Like if you’re a lawyer and it’s draining you and you tell your friend and they immediately go “oh what about the art you used to make you know you were great at that!” I also feel that this irritates you lol. I feel like you know and are aware of it at the very least. The universe has been sending you signs about this for what I believe could be years. But you do what you feel is right for you. As far as advice goes for you pile three I see it’s time to heal. Perhaps the reason you're staying in this job is because you feel the need to get recognition to stick it to the person who told you you couldn’t. That’s not necessarily the healthiest behavior for ourselves. I also see that you need to start thinking of laying something solid down for the rest of your life, so maybe this job is also not letting you provide for yourself or others and on top of all of that you don’t enjoy it? I think spirit wants you to think in long term goals and does this job or cycle let you pursue those? Spirit would also like you to know that you aren’t alone. I really heavily feel that given the opportunity your friends would love to support you in any endeavor and are probably rooting for you to leave this situation. So go ahead and reach out when you’re ready to leave!! Many people love you and only want the best for you, remember that. :)  Signs: October 6th; October; June; pumpkins; hammers; carpentry; wood?; post malone; trinkets; working with hands; toxic positivity; hard helmets; hammers; beer; heinekens

[doumadono]

can I have a emergency request please?

can u make headcanons for hawks and gojo having a overweight reader and she insecure about it

(i get made fun of for my weight alot and it ended up making me have a toxic relationship with food)

i don't know if this counts as a emergency request so please ignore if it doesn't and sorry for bothering you

A/N: it pains me to know that people can be hurtful, especially when it comes to something as personal as our bodies. I want you to know that you're not alone in this struggle. I understand the impact of weight-related bullying, as I went through a similar experience a few years ago when I was critically overweighted. It's crucial to remember that your worth is not determined by your weight, and you deserve to be treated with kindness and respect. Developing a healthy relationship with food can be a journey, but I believe in your strength to overcome these challenges. If you ever need someone to talk to or share your experiences with, I'm here for you

EMERGENCY REQS MASTERLIST

Hawks

Despite societal expectations, Hawks is attracted to confidence, and he finds your self-assurance endearing.

Hawks is never shy about expressing his admiration. He showers you with genuine compliments regularly, making sure you know how beautiful he finds you.

"Hey, gorgeous, those curves of yours drive me wild. Wouldn't change a thing about you."

Whenever you express insecurity, Hawks is quick to respond with comforting words.

"You're perfect the way you are. I'm not with you because of some ideal image; I'm with you because I love you."

Hawks loves taking you shopping for clothes, picking out outfits that highlight your best features. "Let's find something that makes those curves pop, babe!"

Hawks is physically affectionate, hugging you from behind or placing sweet kisses on your forehead.

"Your weight doesn't define you. It's your heart, your mind – that's what matters most to me."

Hawks initiates heart-to-heart talks, reassuring you of his love and acceptance. "You're the only one for me. Don't let anyone nor anything make you feel less."

Hawks follows body positivity influencers on social media with you, creating a positive and uplifting environment. "Look at these amazing people celebrating their bodies. You're part of this beautiful spectrum, too."

Gojo

Gojo has a nonchalant attitude towards societal beauty standards. Your weight doesn't bother him in the slightest.

"Who cares about people's opinion? You're beautiful, and that's all that matters."

Gojo might engage in playful banter to lighten the mood when you're feeling insecure.

"Come on, don't let a few numbers on a scale mess with your head. You're perfect for me."

He doesn't hesitate to affirm your worth and beauty when needed.

"You're not defined by your size, sweetpie. You're defined by your strength, your kindness, and the incredible person you are."

If you decide to embark on a fitness journey, Gojo is your biggest cheerleader. "You're doing this for yourself, not because of anyone else's expectations. I'm here to support you, not to change you."

Sex with Gojo is filled with tenderness and genuine passion. "Your body is a masterpiece, and I'm lucky to have it all to myself, babygirl."

Expect movie nights with Gojo involve watching films that celebrate diverse bodies and love stories, reinforcing the idea that love isn't confined to societal expectations. "See, love comes in all shapes and sizes, just like us."

[httpstes]

﹥*:ꔫ:*+ﾟ Observations of the 22 degree in astrology 🫂 ﹥*:ꔫ:*+ﾟ

The 22 degree is Capricorn ruled and so as such, will give Capricorn like traits to whatever planet it has grasp on. The 22 degree is known as the "kill or be killed" or "assassin" degree. Normally when I hear about this degree it’s most of the time negative, which in a way, is understandable. However having this degree in your chart shouldn’t make you scared that bad things will happen to you. The 22 degree can manifest really positively in a persons life but it can cause some hardships as well. All in all, this post isn’t meant to scare anyone who have these placements.

Warning: mentions of religious trauma, abuse, addiction.

I’ve noticed people with this placement, myself included, tend to be very restless.

There is a constant need to complete or finish something, but we don’t know what it is.

Many people in my life who have this degree in personal planets, especially on their sun, north node and ascendant, tend to have no idea what they want to do with their life.

They have a strong knowing that they have a mission or purpose in this lifetime but have no idea what this mission/purpose is.

People with the 22 degree on their sun go through either many ego deaths that help them overcome subconscious blocks that stood in their way, or have one long drawn out ego death that can last several years. This obviously can be seen as a bad thing, but the journey is worth while, and in the long run it is beneficial.

Venus in 22 degree may possibly experience a lot of abuse and misuse of power within relationships, physically and mentally.

Neptune in 22 degree may struggle with addictions and in worst cases can lead to life long damages to the mental and physical health.

Having Neptune in this degree also can tell you that you may struggle with maladaptive daydreaming and find it hard to break free from delusions and fantasies you have created within your head. This would be amplified if Neptune is in the third house or is in conjunction to Mercury.

Ascendant in the 22 degree may feel at times they want someone to control and fix their life for the better. These individuals may feel very tired from constantly being in control (in unhealthy circumstances they can be super controlling of everything in their life, sometimes the people as well) and turn to others to help let them rest.

Asc in 22 degree may funnily enough also have a saviour complex, esp if asc is in virgo/pisces. They could easily help others take control of their own lives and could be seen as the "stable” friend that is always there for everyone. Deep down they just want to be taken care of.

If the Asc is in contact with venus or has major aspects to planets in the second or 7th house, these individuals could rely on relationships to feel wanted.

What Asc and honestly Venus in 22 degree need to learn is that they are doing fine on their own, and while it is definitely more than okay to ask for help, they can learn the importance of being independent and standing up for oneself.

Uranus in 22 degree can result in someone who is unpredictable and could have constant change happening to them. The worst case I’ve seen where this degree has fully taken a hold of someone is in Andrew Tates chart 😭 Bro has a sagittarius sun conjunct uranus, both of which are in the 22 degree. Ofc if you have these placements it doesn’t mean your like him, it all depends on how you choose to let these placements manifest.

Venus/Asc in 22 degree may have low self esteem and don’t regard themselves as attractive . These natives are genuinely beautiful but they just can’t see it for themselves and tend to pick themselves apart ( this is esp true if venus or ascendant is in contact with neptune)

Moon at 22 degree may have issues expressing their more emotional and or feminine side. Depending on aspects, the sign, and where the Moon is placed in the chart, this could be due to childhood and environmental problems, where you may have not been able to freely express your emotions.

Similarly, Mercury at the 22 degree can indicate struggling with freely expressing your opinions and thoughts.

^This also goes for people who’s 3rd/9th house are at the 22 degree.

In terms of health, the 22 degree could show us where on the body we could experience pain.

For example a person with mercury at the 22 degree could have lung problems, Jupiter at the 22 degree could indicate dealing with kidney problems or pain in the thighs.

Moon at 22 degree could indicate having issues with the mother, same goes with sun (father) at 22 degrees.

Having sun or moon at the 22 degree could also mean that your mother or father exudes Capricorn like traits. They could be hardworking and focused on their career while providing for the family.

Mercury at the 22 degree could indicate having a speech impediment when younger or rather being scared to speak because of the way their voice sounds.

Mercury at the 22 degree can achieve a lot through their voice once they overcome self limiting beliefs that had to do with their voice/education. These people can make great singers, reporters, writers, literally anything speech related.

Saturn at the 22 degree could indicate having strong and life changing karma in this life time.

Saturn at 22 degree could also mean struggling to stick to a routine and finds it hard to do things long term, (relationships, career ect)

Ascendant at the 22 degree indicates having a sophisticated look and having good facial structure. Props to the cap degree ig

Mars at the 22 degree, esp if in contact with the ascendant, could mean you have a striking appearance. One that grabs peoples attention.

Mars at the 22 degree could also indicate being overly competitive.

Jupiter at the 22 degree can indicate a person who has had bad experiences with religion and or spiritual practises.

Jupiter at the 22 degree can also indicate a person who struggles to get back up after dealing with setbacks in their love life/career/academics/money ect. This is because Jupiter rules faith and wisdom and with the 22 degree here, it can make one easily spiral into their failures.

However through these setbacks that a individual with jupiter at the 22 degree can experience. They grow stronger and wiser, and eventually after dealing with these failures, nothing can really stop them.

Lilith at the 22 degree may find it hard to express themselves. Some individuals with this placement could be repulsed by provocative and sexual things but deep down, they just don’t know how to express that side of them. The other half with this placement could be actively seeking how to express their inner dark feminine but find it hard to connect with it.

Chiron at the 22 degree can indicate experiencing something traumatic and life changing . Whatever was experienced, individuals with this placement turn their trauma into something they can help prevent and heal others with.

Individuals with Uranus at the 22 degree could experience many troubles and go through bad things online.

Having a house at the 22 degree gives insight into where in life you may have a figurative death/problems.

First house: Dealing with insecurities about physical appearance, not knowing or understanding your place in the world, confused about identity

Second house: Issues with finances and money, over spending, could have a deep rooted fear of living in poverty and not having much money, this could be a wound one carries because of financial struggles when they were younger, self-esteem issues

Third house: arguments and fights could break out easily between siblings , disharmony between neighbours, disturbances in neighbourhood, school probably wasn’t something you looked forward to lol, educational problems, not thinking your smart enough, communication problems

Fourth house: Problems in the house hold, death of a family member when very young, scared of starting a family or raising children, disharmony between family members, home may have not been a safe/warm place for these individuals.

Fifth house: struggles relating to expressing oneself creatively, may find it hard to do or be involved in things that require creativity, issues with fertility and childbirth, may like to play things safe and not risk anything, short term relationships/crushes had some negative attribute to it, struggles with artistic/creative endeavours.

Sixth house: problems with coworkers, struggling to stick to a routine, not knowing what career you want to pursue, bad experiences at work, can indicate being either super focused on health due to paranoia or negligent of one’s health.

Seventh house: toxic relationships, karmic debts within relationships, not wanting to marry, troubles with business endeavours, could attract toxic people.

Eighth house: issues related to sex, scared of sexual related things, could have experienced gone to funerals a lot, near death experiences, troubles related to witchcraft and spirituality, superstitious.

Ninth house: religious trauma, constantly trying to find something to believe in, or could want nothing to do with religion, could experience troubles over seas.

Tenth house: death in career, fear of being viewed badly by public opinion, struggling with fitting into society’s standards, could have a very beneficial career that puts you into the public eye, problems with authority figures and the father can arise.

Eleventh house: not fitting in friend groups, could indicate having toxic and bad friendships, people with the 22 degree here may feel their manifestations and wishes will never come in.

Twelfth house: Having subconscious feelings of doubt and worry that set you back a lot, death related dreams, could dream a lot about death and or fighting for your life, could have a lot of people praying upon your downfall from the shadows bc they’re "hidden enemies"

Thankyou for reading

[funky-astrologer]

Astrology Moments in Time : Leo Venus Transit 💋

*Based on Tropical/Western astrology

This week Venus enters Leo. This is a time for us to shine, be proud of ourselves, of what and who we love and experience some lightheartedness. Venus, Mars and Lilith are ALL in Leo! EXPRESS yourself. This energy is so sexy (for lack of a better word) because there’s an abundance of confident energy. So flaunt your stuff and be open about what makes you shine. Allow yourself the permission to be the version of you that you’ve been longing for. It girl mentality only. 💋❤️‍🔥🌹

💋Leo in the 1st house - Try a new style. Put energy, love, and creativity into your appearance. Is there a style of makeup you’ve been wanting to try? Don’t be afraid to make a move, a gesture toward something you want. Whether it’s something simple or something big. You are taking it all on with confidence. You are shining during this transit. Connect with the world around you. Show up as your best self and see what happens.

💋Leo in the 2nd house - Acknowledge where you may be falling short. Your self-worth is important and radiates into every bit of your life. Spend time pampering yourself, know that you are a wonderful being and act like you are. Self-care time is key. Treat yourself like royalty. Assess the things you value and seek to improve the things that aren’t aligning with those values.

💋Leo in the 3rd house - “Winning friends and influencing people.” Reach out to friends and/or people close to you. Strike up a conversation, be open minded and try to learn something new about your environment. Spend a day exploring. Allow yourself to be inspired by what you see around you. Be mindful of how you are using your voice and expressing yourself. Try to speak from different perspectives and parts of your body. Speak with your heart, or with your belly, with your creative, sacral center, etc. You will learn where your true power lies and how you might be able to better use and express it.

💋Leo in the 4th house - Beautify your home. Spend time in your place of comfort and happiness wherever that may be. Try new recipes. Delight in old memories, but do not reconnect with people who dim your shine. Call up a family member, tell them you love them. Remember that your self-worth is only determined by you. Look for beauty in the familiar, mundane aspects of your life. Create a stronger bond with yourself by expressing only that which most aligns with your heart.

💋Leo in the 5th house - Creativity! Pour into your hobbies, interests and things you genuinely enjoy, whatever that may be. Joy is the goal here, do the things that make you happy and light you up. Allow yourself to SHINE. You are recognizing your natural strengths and talents. Romance may be easier with this transit and delighting in the best that life has to offer. Immerse yourself in life’s experiences deeply and fully! This transit reminds me of the song “Summertime in Paris.”

💋Leo in the 6th house - Stay active and engaged. Self-improvement doesn’t have to be hard but is a focus. You are taking charge will be happier if you follow your ‘gut’ and instincts. Express gratitude. Encourage others who could be struggling. Be open to being a source of guidance. But still put yourself first! You are experiencing lots of fresh energy toward the end of this transit. Out with the old, in with the new.

💋Leo in the 7th house - Love and connection. Life through rose colored lenses. Improving relationships. Manifesting better relationships. Build understanding and harmony with others. You are shining in terms of connecting with others, and a relationship offer may manifest. Try spending time with yourself to understand what you desire in someone else.

💋Leo in the 8th house - Intimacy & securing bonds. Feeling connected to your true self. Authenticity. Trusting the process. Tap into your inner 'femme fatale’ and work with the energy to manifest your truest desires. Nobody can stop you from realizing your worth. Self-worth is getting a major boost for sure. Seek to improve finances and don’t be afraid to ask for help, you will surely receive it.

💋Leo in the 9th house - There is beauty all around you. The world is opening up for you like a blooming flower. You are starting to glow with new confidence and self-assurance. Trust in yourself and your instincts. Life is becoming more exciting, and you are feeling more enthusiastic. This could be a time to rediscover your path as well. Don’t rush the process though. You can only climb mount Everest one step at a time.

💋Leo in the 10th house - Feeling like becoming a new person. A rebrand on the horizon. You are letting go of the person you used to be and seeing a new image emerge. You are challenging your limiting beliefs about your abilities. A time to see what you are really capable of. You will gain respect by being yourself and having confidence in your skills. Reputation will receive a boost if you allow it.

💋Leo in the 11th house - Friendships and social groups are more prominent and you are the main influence. Main character energy. A time to lead with character and confidence. Your main support could be friends and you may be feeling happiest around them.

💋Leo in 12th house - Ideas and insights are coming to you as epiphanies almost. Spend time bringing forth these ideas in a very real way. Do something small each day. Pour little bits of creativity into the most mundane tasks. Romanticize your life in the best way possible! Your inner magic is getting a boost here and you can surrender to it with confidence.

I hope you enjoyed reading this post! Stay positive. Happy strawberry moon🌕🍓

[awoogayanderes]

A KISS TO REMEMBER

➪ request : “Hi!! Can I request HCs of sharing a first kiss with Muichiro and Mitsuri from kny? I am obsessed with the latest season! Have you seen it already?”

➪ other notes : yes i’ve seen it ! it was genuinely amazing, i’m so happy they did it justice because it was as beautiful from the manga, i can’t wait for next season, i also haven’t written for kny in such a long time omg, non edited

Muichiro Tokito :

- you’d definitely have to play a big role in his life, struggling with his memory issues

- that is until he regains his memory after his encounter with gyokko ( and the tanjiro effect, yes it’s real. )

- so when you visit him in the hospital, you didn’t have much hope of him actually remembering you, getting used to his coldness

- “y/n ?” muichiro calls out for you, his eyes bright, full of life, something you hadn’t seen anytime before

- after he gets discharged, he’s more lively around you, remembering everytime you put up with him even when he was stubborn

- your first kiss happens when you’re both sitting on a log in a field of flowers

- it comes out of nowhere, not calculated on either party, you just lean in and it happens like most first kisses as a teenager

- it’s soft, despite his lips being slightly chapped, but the kiss is also light, you can almost not feel it at all

- when you pull away, you just blankly stare at each other as his face is coated in red

- “is this what people call dating,” muichiro asks, still slightly confused on the term shinobu had explained to him earlier

- that’s the only reason why he got the guts to do it, knowing that it could ruin your friendship

- 8/10 overall experience, despite so much frustration, in the end it was worth the wait

Mitsuri Kanroji :

- she’s literally my favorite character and hashira in demon slayer, she’s my wife fr

- i think she starts to develop genuine feelings when you show her kindness and patience, not judging her for the amount she eats or her body

- this starts out in a restaurant as you lovingly watch mitsuri eat joyously, a light pink already coating her cheeks

- “do you want anymore y/n ?” mitsuri asks, holding out her chopsticks in case she needed to feed you some of her food

- once she’s done, you both chat of whatever comes to mind, a tradition you both have established to spend more time together

- you both don’t realize when you’re getting closer, just wanting more of each other without actually saying it out loud

- there’s a pause of silence until mitsuri closes her eyes and envelops you into a kiss

- her kiss is passionate but also soft, lips gracefully but carefully glazing over yours, it’s not messy, rather delicate

- as you both pull away, you notice her face has become crimson red rather than its usual pink

- “i apologize if i startled you but you’re just so kind and lovely with me,” mitsuri sputters out nervously making you smile with love

- she’s literally been debating doing this for months on end, it wasn’t just a spur of a moment, she’s wanted this for so long

- 10/10 overall experience, she’s literally full of love, any rating lower would be criminal

[genericpuff]

LR is really, really good but I just wanted to say something- this is probably more about the readers than LR itself, but when it's said that LR is so much better than LO artistically (which it is!!), like say in terms of writing, pacing, and art - I think it's also not an apples to apples comparison, since LR has LO to draw inspiration from and a lot of external reactions to LO to learn from for what to do and not to, while LO is both time-constrained and (when it started out), didn't have much basis to compare to.

(The SA plotline is one example.. many criticize RS and say she shouldn't have written it in the first place but that's the thing - she actually didn't know. While I agree it's really shitty and RS has definitely ignored a lot of criticism she should take into consideration, the conclusion that she shouldn't have written it in the first place wasn't something that she knew about until after fans pointed it out. She definitely is mishandling it now, but I think writing that in at the start was born out of actual ignorance - different from her problems now, since she's now actively ignoring and shutting down the feedback she does need to get better. This blowing up educated a lot of people- probably not you specifically- and opened up a lot of dialogue for things that Rachel likely didn't have access to at the start of LO. and has no excuse for now.)

Anyway, yeah - Love Lore Rekindled, thank you for creating it! Genuinely, I do - this ask isn't meant to be a bad thing against you at all, nor do you need to reply to it.

Not a bad thing in the slightest, I honestly agree with you! The reality is that LR wouldn't exist without LO, so to try and compare them feels kind of like... it defeats the point?

Like obviously Rekindled was made with similar intentions, I'm not gonna sit here and pretend like Rekindled wasn't made out of spite over what could have been, but at the heart of it all, it doesn't exist to 'flex' on LO, really it's just to help recapture that joy and beauty that the original comic had that I fell in love with in the first place. It's only because I loved the original concept and foundation of LO so much that it exists. That's also why I call it an "AU" of sorts, as a sort of "alternate reality where LO didn't turn out the way it did" experiment lmao Mostly by maintaining the consistency in the original art style and paying off those earlier plot threads that didn't payoff the way we were anticipating or were dropped entirely. Sure, it's trying (and in some ways succeeding) to be "better" than LO, but that definition of "better" and how it's applied was what we were hoping to get out of LO in the first place.

So yeah, when people say "the art/writing is so much better than LO's!" part of me tries to take it as the compliment it's undoubtedly intended to be, but also I'm like "ack, that's not the point!! the art still doesn't look exactly like LO, I'm failing!!" LMAO I suppose that's part of the magic, but it doesn't fully align with my original goals or intentions. That's the struggle of art stylization, you can try and mimic another person's work as much as you want, but you can never mimic the them that's in their work, just like how you can't remove the you that's in yours. I want to be at peace with my own work and what I put into it, so I try not to compare them too much and just treat them as their own unique separate things (even if one of them is directly trying to resemble the other). It's okay that Rekindled doesn't look or read exactly the same as LO, but in saying that it's 'better' defeats the point of why Rekindled exists in the first place and diminishes LO's part in the process. LO has to exist - all of its best and worst parts - for Rekindled to exist, so putting LO down just to raise LR up... isn't that kind of what we criticize all the time within the comic, how it can't seem to hold up its best parts without putting down others? Why can't they both have their own things worth appreciating on their own exclusive of one another?

This is also why I generally ask people to not share Rekindled with the general Lore Olympus hashtags or post about it in the fan groups (and why I don't mirror it on Webtoons) because I just like... don't want it to come across as some "booo you like LO??? go read this instead!" type deal. I want people to be able to enjoy Rekindled as its own standalone story as an extension of LO, in the form of what could have been. There's a very thin line in the sand between Rekindled being just what it is and it being used against the fans as if it's a crime for them to still genuinely enjoy LO. I can't enjoy LO in good faith anymore, but that doesn't mean I make Rekindled for the sake of ruining that good faith in others. I was a fan too, once upon a time, so Rekindled is just as much for the fans as it is for the people like me who started off loving this comic just to be disappointed in the end and yearning for the "what if" that could have been.

And yeah, it's absolutely an advantage that I have in my court that I have the knowledge of knowing what LO started as and where it went wrong to work off of, an advantage that Rachel didn't have. It's like when I look back on my original pages in Time Gate: Reaper and think "man, I wish I had known xyz when I made these so they could be better!" but if I hadn't made them like that the first time, I wouldn't be able to reflect on them now knowing I've improved. In that same regard, Lore Olympus had to run so that Lore Rekindled could crawl. And I'm forever thankful to LO - and Rachel - for giving us something we could all connect over to such an extensive degree that Rekindled could exist at all.

[liyuee-qixing]

“A new Way of Experiment”

You're the Assistant (+pet) of Lord Dottore,He decided that he wanted to have some fun with you by experimenting on your "cat"

Idk NSFW, Humiliation kink, degrading kini,praise kink,vibrator, fingering,creampie, breeding,Lactation,idk you name it I decided to be kinky.

F Reader

THE CONCEPT MSDE BY THIS @dottores-assistant BTW GO FOLLOW THEM

I throw up 4 times this morning,I don't feel too good

I don't really do nsfw so I really try my best here 😭

Maybe you have made a bad decision,well working with him as his personal assistant was bad decision of course,he has such a crazy experiment going, everytime he has found a new information he tell it to you, every single one. But out of all the experiment he has do. This one was the worst one

His head was between your thighs,your panties and skirt was long gone,his tongue was inside your pussy. When he said he wanted to experiment on your cat,you genuinely think he want to experiment on your pet cat. But you tripped over your naivety and allowed him

"Stop Squirming,ugh,you're making the process longer" he protested as he pull out his tongue,leaving you clench around nothing,he stood up and grabbed something from his counter

It look like.. a vibrator?

"Lord h-harbinger? Mmph!" Before you could could asked him what is it and what he's going to do with it,he already put it in full speed,it felt wrong, yet it felt so good. You chase after your orgasm,Having someone as important as Dottore to watch you,with him degrading you ruthless and the vibrator on full speed.. tears then start streaming down your flushed cheeks

"look at you,face all ruined and hair all messy,are you sure you're not a liyue whore?" Dottore degrade as he bite down to your nipples,it was all red and swollen by now,you swear by Celestia milk just come out of it. Seeing that Dottore bite down to your nipple even harder than before Licking them all clean

Noticing you nearing your orgasms,he decided to be a little bitch right now,he gave you a grin hinting he is planning ons something

"you cum when I say you can cum" Dottore glared at you,you just whimper a little no

"lord harbinger I can't hold it anymore!" You manage to spit it out,but it was cutten by a spank on your pussy,your pussy quickly become red ish by the slaps and thrusting

"too bad" he gave you another spank on your pussy,you only managed to moan and moan even more.

"now onto third phase, fingering"he licked his own lips as he write something down on his white board before his finger entered your wet pussy. The oozing slick helped him to smoothly get in. Thrusting deep and deeper

"My lord,haa.. too much"you stutter,his pace was quick and his stretch was delightful, it's been three rounds and his pace didn't slow down even a bit

"you could handle it, can't you? Pretty girl"his pace is now even rougher with another finger joining in.

"haaa.. too rough! Too rough!"you shouted,he only grin at you. That devilish grin was painted on his face since the beginning

"what that? Another finger?"he said as he slide other finger in. Other beautiful moans come out of your mouth,do you even worth the title his assistant right now?. You're more like a pet

His free hand moved to your neck and choked you, stopping your airways causing you to be lightheaded in split a second, your moans are muffled as he wanted them to be,he wanted you to struggle catching your breathe.

"now to fourth phase,the main event of the night" he free his hard cock and line it up to your cunt,he was going slow and careful at first, letting you to adjust to his size. He was huge so it'll take you some times to adjust,however,Dottore is not a patient person. So as soon as your expression has calmed a bit,he start thrusting with his full length

"my lord! N-not too fast,ah!"you screamed,Dottore didn't give you that much responses. He only chuckled and bit down to your nipples. One of them in his mouth and the other one was in his hand. Stimulating it

"Scream my name,drop that title"he commanded. He slurred,the sensation drive you insane,you never has been touched before so this is your first time.

"Dottore,haa...! I'm cumming!" You gave up to his touch, letting him to do anything he please with your body

"then cum,cum all around my cock, Darling"he whispered as traces all around your body,his touch was smooth and annoyingly careful.

"ah, you're going to be a Great mother of my children,aren't you? I'm going to mark you mine,I always jerk off to the thought of you"he whispered,the thought of it haunted you. The mystery of your missing panties and bra come to the end,it starting to make more sense now

"all phases is final. You May rest now- ah. You fall to the unconscious already."he laughed at the tired figure of you. Cum dripping to your thighs

This is cringe.

But I'm free,so whatever

Anyways,You should follow my Wattpad.

[red-dipped-feathers]

Moon of the Crusted Snow

(picture taken by me)

I am starting off the year with this amazing book written by an indigenous author. Not gonna lie, what attracted me to this book was the beautiful book cover and title with its wintery desolated landscape and mysterious name. Usually, the apocalypse or post-apocalypse genre isn’t something I would read but I was very interested in seeing this genre being explored from an indigenous perspective and boy was I not disappointed! This book was captivating from start to end and it’s definitely going in my recommendations. So here is my review of it. Hope you like it and that I convince you to give this book a shot 😊

Title: Moon of The Crusted Snow

Author: Waubgeshig Rice

Genre: Novel, Apocalypse, post-apocalypse

Publication Date: 2 Octobre 2018

Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐

Introduction:

In Waubgeshig Rice's "Moon of the Crusted Snow," the tranquil existence of a remote Anishinaabe community in Northern Ontario is shattered by an unexplained societal collapse. As winter blankets the land, the novel explores the community's struggle for survival amid diminishing resources and isolation. Rice skillfully blends traditional Anishinaabe storytelling with a stark portrayal of the post-apocalyptic landscape, offering a poignant reflection on culture, community, and the resilience of the human spirit against an unforgiving backdrop of crusted snow and encroaching darkness.

Plot:

The overarching plot of the narrative proves to be a compelling and intriguing aspect of "Moon of the Crusted Snow." Waubgeshig Rice skillfully introduces a palpable sense of anxiety that permeates the characters' experiences as they grapple with the impending end of the world, all while remaining oblivious to its occurrence. Although the story begins at a deliberate pace, it progressively gains momentum, ensuring a smooth and well-paced development without feeling rushed.

What sets Rice's storytelling apart is his ability to sustain a high level of suspense throughout, even when readers are privy to the impending apocalypse. The narrative skillfully keeps readers on the edge of their seats, evoking a genuine sense of unease for the characters and their uncertain fate. Remarkably, despite the limited action, the storyline remains engaging, avoiding any dull or stagnant moments. The brevity of the chapters contributes to the overall dynamism, allowing the narrative to maintain its momentum and ensuring that the reader remains captivated by the unfolding events.

Plot rating : 4/5

Characters:

The narrative predominantly unfolds through the lens of the central character, Evan, serving as the focal point through which the actions of the other characters come into view. While it's worth noting that the book doesn't delve into extensive character development, I find it to be fitting for the genre. In the context of this apocalyptic tale, the emphasis on character evolution might be secondary.

Evan, as the protagonist, provides readers with a vivid portrayal of life in a secluded community during the apocalypse. The narrative encapsulates the prevalent mistrust and paranoia that takes root within the community, creating a palpable atmosphere of impending doom. This thematic focus, coupled with Evan's perspective, adds a layer of intensity to the storyline, making it a captivating read.

Notably, the narrative occasionally shifts its lens to Nicole, Evan's wife, offering a valuable alternative perspective. This additional point of view provides a nuanced exploration of the unfolding events, enriching the reader's understanding of the characters and the dire situation they find themselves in.

Character rating : 3.25/5

Themes and Messages:

"Moon of the Crusted Snow" by Waubgeshig Rice delves into the themes of survival, resilience, and cultural identity within an Anishinaabe community facing an apocalyptic scenario. The narrative underscores the importance of preserving traditional knowledge, emphasizes community bonds, and explores the fear of the unknown. The novel subtly addresses the impact of modernity on indigenous communities and reflects on power dynamics within the community during times of crisis. Against a backdrop of a harsh winter landscape, the story intertwines environmental resonance with human experiences, prompting reflection on the interconnectedness between nature and humanity. Overall, Rice weaves a compelling narrative that goes beyond the typical post-apocalyptic tale, inviting readers to ponder cultural preservation, collective strength, and the profound effects of societal collapse on a community deeply rooted in its traditions.

Theme rating : 5/5

Strengths:

Brings a different perspective to the end of the world

Well written story line

High level of suspense, you can feel your anxiety building with each chapter

Weaknesses:

Does start off at a slow pace

Not a lot of action (personally, I don’t feel it was needed for this story but I know some of you might find the story a bit lacking or even boring)

So here you go, the first review of the year and the first review on this blog! let me know if you liked it and if it made you want to read the book.

Also, if you already read this book let me know if you enjoyed it and if you agree or disagree with my review 😊

See you next time !

Red dipped feathers

P.S. I’m def going to read the second book to this story called “Moon of the Turning Leaves”, so make sure to stick around for that review!

[xoxoemynn]

I'm glad you feel at least a teensy bit better after sleeping. I feel pretty out of it. I've had a few weeks of ups and downs that have left me pretty exhausted before this news.

I hope you don't mind me leaving a message here. I've never been part of the fandom community, just outside of it, so I'm not even really feeling the 'at least we still have each other' sentiment. Ofmd helped me revive my creativity after years of not creating anything when I used to do so much. I'm still slower at it than I used to be, but it's a start. It's something.

Ofmd gave me the strength to come out at work, to be myself in most parts of my life rather than just carefully cultivated moments. I've found strength I never knew I had. Ffs I'm doing diversity training information stuff now??

I feels good. Feels great. And I really don't think it was a long shot to think that a successful, critically acclaimed show would get rescued. (I did wonder if making it very clear how valuable it was made HBO have an insane asking price but I hope not)

And I know s2 ended neatly (thank god) but I was so on board with Jenkins' view of "the will-they-won't-they is the least interesting part of a romance". Because you never see the payoff! It's just oh they're together now, the end, and you don't get to experience the characters as a couple. The story was the development of Ed and Stede's relationship, and a 3rd part would have given us the full scope of that.. *sigh

Idk I guess I'm just at a bit of a loss. Feeling empty. I was already struggling posting my work, or thinking how to adjust how I do it, because I don't feel its good enough for this fandom (which in my very limited experience feels very clique-y? If you're not in with the cool kids then no one cares and I'm too old for this!) It's all a bit "what's the point" I guess. I expect it'll pass but aaa, man. Y’know. Rant over, thanks for reading ^^'

The deepest of sighs, the tightest of hugs.

I feel you. Starting work today with swollen eyes and a tired heart. It sucks. This all just really sucks. And yes, I'm so grateful we got the show at all, I'm so grateful for the cast/crew, I'm so grateful for this fandom and the friends I made along the way. But this show, that did EVERYTHING RIGHT, ended before its time. And there's no getting around that just really, really sucks.

You're right, I don't think it was ridiculous to believe our renewal efforts might be successful. Because it SHOULD have been! It was a beautiful show with a passionate fan base that was also viewed very favorably by critics. In any sane world, OFMD's renewal would have been a given. And it's not silly or stupid to hope for good things to happen in a world where so often good things don't. The solution to the world being a shit show isn't to just bow our heads and accept it. It's to keep hope alive because yes, it might turn out different this time! Beautiful things deserve to be cherished, and that's what we did and will continue to do with OFMD. OFMD wasn't canceled due to a lack of love. It was corporate greed, pure and simple, and unfortunately that's a really difficult evil to fight against. But we still gave it our all, and people and the industry took note. That's no small feat.

And the show did so much for all of us! I'm so happy it gave you the strength to come out at work and live more in your authentic self. That's huge! That's the power of good art. And that's something studio heads can never take into account while they plug figures into their calculators and huff and puff about the numbers not being there.

I do hope you'll post your work, and share whatever you feel comfortable sharing. We really are of all skill levels here, and I've found genuine love of the show/its characters > the most technically well-written fic on the planet. I do hear what you say about it feeling cliquey, but for what it's worth, I also think it's very welcoming to newcomers? I realize that sounds like a contradiction. But I do think people have just kind of naturally formed little social circles of their friends and it can feel hard to break into, especially if you're an introvert like me. But I think if you start just getting in people's inboxes or reblogging with tags that show your personality/opinions/whatever, you'll start naturally forming those groups on your own. I'd also really recommend the OFMD Fic Club server if you're trying to get the courage to start posting your own work. It's a really supportive community there of people who've been posting for decades, as well as those who are just beginning to plan their very first fic.

Anyway, this is getting long and rambling so I'll end it here, but please know I'm sending you SO much love. It sucks right now but we'll get through it. And my DMs are open if you ever just want to chat. 💕

[dropout-if]

How closely is their opinion of their own beauty (or lack thereof) linked to their confidence? Do they see themselves as more or less worthy of love or sex based on how attractive they feel? - AII R0s pIs!

Unpacking Statler's baggage 🏃‍♀️

From this ask game!

Confident and Positive. J feels great about their appearance, and that confidence extends to all areas of their life. They feel deserving of love and are comfortable pursuing romantic or sexual relationships.

J is confidence incarnate lol. This confidence is a set of J's perception of their beauty, achievements, capabilities, and how well they meet their goals. J knows they are attractive and are realistic enough about it—as in… you're not going to see them being modest or humble lol.

That being said, when it comes to seeing themselves as worthy of love or sex, J ties their self-worth more to their accomplishments, how they're perceived by their neighbors/friends/family (social status) and how their perceive themself as a capable individual. While appearance plays a role, it might not be the sole determinant of J's sense of worthiness in romantic or sexual contexts.

Embraces Imperfections. Uma has flaws, but they make them who they are, and that's okay. Their self-assuredness comes from embracing their uniqueness. They believe that genuine connection comes from accepting oneself fully, regardless of perceived attractiveness.

Uma is insecure but their attractiveness and body are something they have come to accept and embrace. So no, their perception of beauty is unrelated to their confidence. Uma's self-esteem can be influenced by how well they feel they conform to their personal ideals of beauty and aesthetics. They're comfortable in their skin as long as they're staying true to themself.

In terms of seeing themselves as worthy of love or sex, an Uma's self-perception of attractiveness can play a role, but it's not the only factor.

It's very spoilery to delve on their insecurities so I'll leave it at that lol

Insecure and Self-Doubting. Statler doesn't think they're attractive at all, and it affects how they interact with others. They struggle with self-esteem and often doubt their capabilities, and may feel unworthy of love or intimacy. Statler fears rejection due to their perceived unattractiveness.

Statler's opinion of their own beauty does have a significant impact on their confidence and self-esteem. The thing is— they're not confident at all. Statler's really attuned to the people surrounding them, and this sensitivity extends to how they view themselves. Though people tend to compliment them, Statler doesn't really tend to believe them. Their negative self-perception is deeply rooted now, and they tend to doubt themself.

When it comes to viewing themself as worthy of love or sex, Statler's lack of confidence definitely affects their relationships. Getting close to them is hard, as their insecurities are their own burden to carry.

Confident, but With Moments of Doubt. Wanda generally feels attractive, but sometimes she has her off days. Her confidence fluctuates but is generally positive. Wanda may doubt her attractiveness temporarily but not to an extreme extent.

Wanda's opinion of her own beauty is often closely linked to her confidence and self-esteem. She places some degree of importance on how she presents herself to the world, and she wants to feel good about her appearance. Consequently, feeling good contributes greatly to her overall self-assurance.

In terms of seeing themselves as worthy of love or sex, Wanda's self-perception often plays a role. She wants to feel beautiful and for her partners to find her attractive.

However, Wanda has a strong desire for fun, adventure, and enjoyment of life. She values experiences and living in the moment, and this can extend to her romantic and sexual relationships.

Growing into Self-Confidence. Kai used to be uncertain, but over time, they've grown more confident. Their self-assuredness has evolved through experiences, and they believe in their worthiness as they've become more comfortable in their skin.

Kai's hard to explain because they have different ideas and approaches depending on many factors. Overall, their perception of their own beauty is not as closely tied to their confidence and self-esteem. Being attractive was simply something Kai didn't think or care about. It's true that they really struggled with insecurities in the past, but it was something they accepted and never tried to change.

That being said, Kai's glow-up was majorly a matter of confidence. Their self-assurance is the reason people tend to find them really attractive. Kai is aware of this. They're very realistic about their looks, their flaws, and the good parts about them.

When it comes to love or sex, Kai just really wants someone they can have a good time with. Their looks have never been that relevant.

Focused on Inner Qualities. Physical appearance isn't everything; his personality defines him better. Travis derives confidence from his intelligence and talents. He considers his inner qualities as the basis for worthiness and prioritizes emotional connection in relationships.

Travis' opinion of his own beauty is less influential on their confidence and self-esteem. He struggled with his own views on his body but has since become much more comfortable, especially given how he looks nowadays after his transition ^^.

While Travis has a sense of how he looks—and he really likes how he looks—his confidence is typically more tied to the fact that he values logical reasoning and evaluates himself based on his accomplishments and expertise rather than his attractiveness.

When it comes to seeing himself as worthy of love or sex, Travis' self-perception of attractiveness might not play a significant role. Instead, he is more likely to focus on forming connections.

[haydenigmatic]

This might be too spoilerly so feel free to ignore!

But what are the Ros thoughts when they first start realizing their falling for the mc?

HANNIEL:

As Hanniel first starts realizing his growing feelings for the MC, a whirlwind of emotions overtakes him. His strong sense of justice and honour clashes with the societal constraints that separate their stations. Hanniel wrestles with his own self-worth as a bastard, questioning whether he is deserving of love from someone as noble and esteemed as the MC. He experiences a mix of joy and trepidation, longing to pursue his feelings while also fearing the potential consequences and obstacles that lie ahead. "The grand irony of love is that it compels us to fall for the very person we were never meant to, shattering the illusions of rationality and embracing the unpredictable beauty of the human heart."

DAMON:

As Damon begins to realize his growing feelings for the MC, his initial reaction is a mix of surprise, intrigue, and a hint of self-doubt. The realization challenges his self-assured nature, causing a flurry of thoughts and emotions. "Love was never meant to be easy, but damn if it doesn't make me feel alive. S/he has woven her/his way into the depths of my heart, turning my world upside down in the most captivating way. I never saw it coming, but now that I have, I won't let go."

DORIA/N:

As Doria/n starts realizing their growing feelings for the MC, a whirlwind of emotions and contradictions consumes their mind. Their initial instinct is to resist and deny these unexpected emotions, given their guarded nature and the stark differences in their backgrounds. The clash between their cynical outlook and the warmth that blossoms within them creates inner turmoil. Doria/n finds themselves grappling with the notion that they are falling for someone who they never expected or believed they deserved. In a moment of introspection, they might reflect, "The bittersweet reality of love lies in the inevitability that, in due time, something will stumble on its delicate path."

AURELIA/N:

As Aurelia/n first starts to realize their growing feelings for the MC, a whirlwind of emotions floods their heart and mind. Their rational and guarded nature battles with the undeniable pull of attraction and affection. Amidst the tumultuous internal struggle, a soft vulnerability emerges, and Aurelia/n begins to contemplate the depth of their connection. In a quiet moment of self-reflection, Aurelia/n's thoughts crystallize into a profound realization: "We never get enough of falling in love and believing in love. And perhaps, just perhaps, I am ready to take that leap once more."

VERENA:

As Verena first starts to realize her growing feelings for the MC, a mix of intrigue, vulnerability, and apprehension consumes her. Her calculated and strategic nature clashes with the newfound emotions, creating a whirlwind of thoughts. She battles with her own self-doubt and fears of being unworthy of genuine love, aware of her reputation and the complexities of their respective positions. Deep down, she harbours a glimmer of hope that the MC's feelings are genuine, but she remains guarded, knowing the potential consequences. With a tinge of self-deprecating humour, Verena's inner thoughts echo, "Like a siren's song that leads astray, my love bears the mark of deception. I beseech you, heed the warning and spare yourself the heartache that lies in its wake."

JASIRA:

She wasn't exactly sure when it happened. Or even when it started. All she knew for sure was that right here and now, she was falling hard, defying the expectations of her role as a lady and succumbing to the pull of her heart. Jasira's strong-willed nature clashed with the tender emotions that now consumed her. She couldn't help but be captivated by MC, their presence stirring a longing she had never experienced before. In that moment, she realized the depth of her feelings, and though uncertain of the outcome, she couldn't deny the hope that blossomed within her. 'Love knows no boundaries,' she whispered to herself, daring to embrace the vulnerability that came with her newfound affection.

SORIN:

As Sorin first starts realizing her feelings for the MC, a whirlwind of emotions engulfs her. Conflicting thoughts race through her mind, a tempest of vulnerability and fear. The stark contrast between their backgrounds intensifies her inner turmoil, as she grapples with the notion of falling for a royal while being a mere peasant and a former concubine. In the depth of her heart, she recognizes the undeniable pull of love, but the sharp edge of uncertainty lingers. With a blend of trepidation and raw honesty, Sorin's thoughts echo, "Love is a double-edged blade, both captivating and terrifying, slicing through the barriers of social status and revealing the profound depth of our connection. Will I find the strength to navigate this treacherous path and surrender to the intoxicating vulnerability of love?"

NESRIN:

As Nesrin begins to realize her growing feelings for the MC, a mixture of excitement, apprehension, and vulnerability swirls within her calculating mind. Caught off guard by the unexpected emotions that have taken hold, she grapples with the conflict between her initial intentions and the depths of her affection. In her introspective moments, Nesrin's thoughts echo a profound recognition of the MC's impact on her: "I never anticipated this... these feelings that defy my plans. I like you more than I should, and it both intrigues and frightens me. If only I could allow myself to like you even more." With her strategic mindset now entwined with matters of the heart, Nesrin faces a new challenge – navigating the uncharted territory of love while guarding the fragile secret she keeps.

ODETTE:

As Odette begins to realize her deepening feelings for the MC, her compassionate and idealistic nature comes to the forefront. The revelation is both exhilarating and overwhelming for her, and she finds herself embracing the depth of her emotions with a sense of wonder. In those quiet moments of reflection, Odette's thoughts about her growing love for the MC are filled with a profound sense of awe and longing. She realizes that her connection with the MC extends far beyond friendship, and she embraces the realization that she has been in love with them since childhood. With a heartfelt sincerity, she finds herself whispering the words, "In the melodies that escape my lips, a hidden confession lies. My songs dance with the echoes of your name, silently whispering that every note, every word, is an ode to the profound impact you have on my soul." -Then proceeds to write on her "journal".

Alright that was quite an ask I must say it's just a tad spoilery, revealing some stuff but nah, you wouldn't know.

[suzie-guru]

Heey Suzie, im a big fan of your writing! Including “Between the Shadow and the Soul” , which is easily my favorite fanfic lately, and I wanted to ask you if you are still going to continue it because I, and many other people, love it very dearly, and it would be a shame for a master piece to go unfinished. Please think about continuing it for you fans. Love you 🥰

This is an incredibly old ask and I’m relatively sure you’re into other fandoms and things now. First, thank you for the love and the kind words. However, I wanted to answer this because of something specific in this message:  “Please think about continuing it for you fans.”

I’ve been thinking about some things that I need to get off my chest here, the reason why I’ve been away from Tumblr and, honestly, why I will continue to be pretty minimal in my activity on the site. 

First and foremost, there’s something I should state - almost everyone in my family, including myself, is in a service career. Nurses, teaching, the clergy…those professions are very normal to go into in our family. And it’s also very much the norm in our family to put others before ourselves, to help whenever we can. I’m not saying this to brag, it’s a fact. And it’s also a fact that we are so ingrained to perform services for others above anything else that we often neglect our own personal needs and health and self care. 

One of my biggest struggles is being a people pleaser and needing validation from others. Unfortunately both of these traits have led me down some very detrimental paths, and I turned to very unhealthy coping mechanisms to deal with it. I’ve grown enough and have learned enough to understand that self care is just as important as service, that setting boundaries isn’t selfish, and that one can be compassionate without letting themselves be consumed in the process. 

How does this relate to this ask, to me not being on Tumblr? 

Tumblr was where I got almost all of my social interactions, the one place I could cut loose with other people. I had genuine friendships on here, very close relationships. The Strange Magic Fandom experience was a heady, loving and beautiful one, and it was a huge part of my life, as were the people I met through it. It was my everything, even through the longest, darkest depressive period I’ve ever had. 

Time went on, as it does, and people came in and out of the fandom, but I had my close friends and all was good. Until I noticed after a few weeks that they weren’t interacting with my personal posts like they used to. They weren’t as constant as they had been. 

I felt left behind, rejected, overlooked. I was asking myself, what I had done? Did I fail them in some way? What way? Was it the fact I wasn’t creating content? Did they finally realize I wasn’t worth their time? 

I was deep in an anxiety spiral, and my self loathing was in full force. Each time I went on Tumblr and saw these people interacting and posting with others but not me, it hissed at me that was reminded how I was no longer important, how I would always be left behind unless I was putting others first, “you can only use the depression period as an excuse for so long…” 

For my mental and emotional health, I stepped away from Tumblr. I spent the next few months reading and working out and drawing and hiking and working and living my life. Those months turned into years. And I didn’t feel the need to come back, dive in as deeply as I had. The hurt had caused the departure, but now I recognized something else. 

I was making Tumblr my haven of validation. My whole self worth was tied to it. And when I didn’t create fanfics or update them, I thought I was failing my friends, exposing myself as a subpar artist, a bad person. 

When I wasn’t. And I’m not. 

My stories are deeply personal, and I pour myself into them. And that takes time. And I have a life to lead along with all that.

The saying “write for yourself” is an odd one - I believe it and I don’t. Creators need feedback, interactions with what they create. It helps their process and inspires them. When I read a book or go see a movie, I’m inspired by it. Creativity fuels creativity. 

Fanfiction has a blessing and the bane of being able to directly communicate with the author. The comments of those who read my fanfics are deeply deeply deeply treasured by me. I can’t even begin to say how much they mean to me. 

My stories are personal but I share them because I want to. People see themselves echoed in stories, and that’s why they matter. I want to share my stories because I want to give others the same experiences I’ve had reading stories. 

So I do write for people in that I share my stories. But I also write for myself. I write because the words won’t leave me, because the scenes keep playing in my head, because I want to chase after all the questions. I write to get the damn thing out of my head and onto the page so I finally have space in my skull. I write to satisfy my soul, hungry hungry hungry thing that it is. 

But I have learned a hard lesson, and I know myself better now then I did when I started posting fanfiction. And while I’m absolutely certain it was not intended in such a way, “continuing it for you fans” is something I will not set store in because I’ve been down that path. I don’t like what it did to me, what I did to myself.

I plan to continue my stories. But I will no longer apologize for taking my time with them because it is just that: mine. 

[bpdohwhatajoy]

If you need a sign that it gets better here it is.

I sincerely mean this. You have to understand where I’m coming from. I’m mentally ill and traumatized and I’ve been like this for most of my life. So much of my life has been bad day after bad day. When people would tell me shit got better I’d get mad. I would get mad over the word happy because I thought the capacity to be happy had been removed from my brain. I didn’t think it was possible. I genuinely thought I would never get better and I believed it to my core. If you put a gun to my head and said to believe it I would’ve gotten shot that’s how intent I was on this. But if it could happen to me it can absolutely happen to you and it’s never too late for things to get better.

This doesn’t mean things will never be sucky. Of course they will. That’s life. But fuck. I used to have mental breakdowns constantly. I would be in abusive relationships that tore me apart. I lived in so much fear. I was so sick with anxiety. I would tolerate mistreatment from partners and friends and even people I hardly knew. I’d people please to no end. I’d overextend and be everyone’s therapist meanwhile I was drowning with no one to help me. I couldn’t set a single boundary without immediately feeling immense guilt and retracting whatever it was. I let everyone’s opinions on me inform me on who I was. I couldn’t cut anyone off or leave. I’d tolerate so so so much discomfort for the prospect of “love” that was actually abuse. I let things destroy me. I put myself last just like my abusers did. I didn’t stand up for myself. I’d ruminate on my past constantly. I couldn’t let anything go. I read old messages from shitty people like it was my morning news. I was so incredibly hopeless and alone. In all honesty I thought my last abusive relationship would be the end of me. I didn’t think I would survive it or the aftermath when that hit.

But it snapped something in me. That and being played by someone I trusted who betrayed me and took advantage of me. After that I vowed to never again tolerate the shit I had in the past. I gradually started to learn and apply shit I hadn’t ever before. I started to stand up for myself. I started to learn how to stop overextending as much. I started to protect my peace. I started to spend time on myself rather than shitty temporary fucking awful waste of time people. I started to trust my own intuition over what my abusers tried to convince me of. I learned how to cut people off, something that for most of my life I couldn’t fathom. I started to let people have their own opinions on me and not let it ruin my day. So what if someone thinks I’m rude? So what if someone doesn’t like me? I may be more alone than I have been in years but it feels much less lonely than having a bunch of shitty people in my life who are toxic and not genuine.

I’m okay being alone if it means I have my peace, something I used to be terrified of. I’d tolerate mistreatment if it meant I wouldn’t be alone. I smile and laugh easier than I used to. I have fun. I experience joy. I see beauty in the little things like the night sky and the moon or the waves of the ocean or the feeling of fresh air on my skin. I put myself out there more and people actually like me for who I am. I don’t mask nearly as much as I used to. I embrace my interests and parts of me I used to adamantly suppress. I don’t need anyone to make me whole. I’m whole on my own. I don’t think pretending to be something I’m not so people like me is worth it anymore. I don’t let little things destroy and completely color my day anymore. I don’t constantly read old messages anymore. I actually deleted a bunch of old shit from my camera roll for the first time ever days ago.

Like I said I’m not perfect. I still have bad days. My esteem has a ways to go. I still feel dissatisfied with my life at points. My mental illnesses and trauma still act up. I struggle. But my god. My growth is genuinely incredible when I sit back and look at the big picture which I guess I haven’t really done before now. I’m excited to see what progress I make even further as I continue to grow. I’m so different than I used to be and I suppose that’s part of why I’ve lost so many people. They can’t handle me actually setting boundaries and standing up for myself. They banked on my tolerance that’s no more. You will lose (toxic) people when you start becoming healthy which is something no one told me. But it’s so worth it. It’s so worth it.

I’ve made it through so much horrific shit. So many close calls where I nearly took my life or contemplated it. Yet I got through it all and not only that but I changed for the better. I lived to see it get better. If you’re struggling to find a reason to stick around, live for the possibility that things can get better. If they can get better for me, they absolutely can for you. Live for the possibility of joy, ease, beauty, and a life you like.

I made a post on here that blew up awhile ago that said that I wished I killed myself at 15. I disagree with that sentiment. I would’ve missed out on so much growth. I would’ve died without seeing it get better. I wouldn’t have accomplished so much. I wouldn’t have made so much progress. I’m glad I didn’t die at 15. I’m glad I saw things out and I’m on the other side of that despair with a smile.

[mochiwrites]

hello hello hello! I just finished binging amor lunae and amor solis and I thought I'd pop in to do a quick rant about it because I loved every bit of it so much!!

first of all, im a sucker for god aus. as a guy whose childhood was filled with nothing but Percy Jackson Percy Jackson Percy Jackson, god aus are an absolute weak spot for me. I love them so dearly, and yours was incredible.

beyond that though, I specifically LOVE the trope of the sun and the moon falling in love!! ive not actually seen anything where it actually happens (your fic was the first) but ive always been in love with the concept and your execution of it was absolutely stunning. proteus as the moon and solara as the sun worked so perfectly!

oh gosh I had so much more to say but ive lost my train of thought.

I rarely cry when I read or watch things. I don't know what it is, but I struggle with really feeling what the characters feel, and I could count the number of times a piece of media has made me cry on a hand and a half, but I was on the brink of tears practically the entire time I was reading. I don't know what it was particularly, but something about your writing style made it feel like I was transported to that world. I could feel the majesty of the heavens and the aching of both proteus and solara (and medea, im so sorry buddy) and the overwhelming love they had for one another. their willingness to give up everything just to be with one another was suffocating in the best way possible.

a lot of the time with those types of emotions, I find it unrealistic. I find it too overbearing for me to be able to actually immerse myself in them, but something about your writing made it so easy for me to understand. I felt everything they felt. I understood. of course solara would choose death over forgetting proteus. of course mumbo would give up his celestial status to be with grian. it was meant to be. they were meant to be. the stars and moon and sun all aligned in the precise way they did and the universe was created all for them to be able to love one another and it was perfect.

your playlist!! gods, your playlist was perfect. I love it when fic writers have their own playlists for their fits because it makes the experience so much better, and yours did not disappoint!! I put it on shuffle while I read. "From me, the moon" started playing when mumbo met grian for the first time in amor solis and the lyrics paired with the scene made me cry. nothing could've prepared me for how much aching I'd feel while reading it. 1,672 years and 20,064 months and 610,711 days of loss and longing and I felt it and it hurt but everything fell into place for that one moment and it was worth it.

oh gosh I could keep going forever but this got way too long. I just adore this fic with all my heart and my soul and my being. I feel like it's genuinely done something to me. it feels like something's shifted in the way I see the world, and maybe that's a dramatic thing to feel about a piece of writing about some block people falling in love, but I don't care. im in shambles. I dont know if I'll ever be whole again. im grian, having everything I could possibly want, but knowing something's inexplicably out of place. there's something wrong and no way to know what.

im not the biggest fan of scarian (im much more a grumbo guy), but I may just read your scarian stuff purely because it's your work.

thank you for writing. thank you for sharing. you have a gift, and it is beautiful. never stop creating.

hi I’m ??? sobbing at you ??? so loud ???? 🥹💕 this was such a lovely lil treat to wake up uwahhh.

ueueue thank you sm !!!! this was my first “big” au for this fandom, and seeing the reception of it is so,,, 🥺 it makes me incredibly happy <33

I love the trope of the sun and moon falling in love so much. I think it came from the whole “character who’s the embodiment of the sun is shipped with character who’s the embodiment of the moon” concept, and grumbo fits that Very well.

but I??? 🥹 that’s such a huge compliment I’m so. uwahhh 🥹💕 I’m really glad that my writing made you feel all that <33 it’s always my goal to pull people into the worlds that I create and bring some kind of immersive feeling through my words. so knowing I managed to make you feel all that and it felt realistic is really !!!!!!!

and the playlist !!!! augh !!!! that’s the very first thing that I made for this au. it existed before amor lunae did. fun fact, I put the songs in a vague chronological order, going from when proteus and solara met, to when solara dies. I’ve written most of that au with that playlist going, and omg I could Not imagine reading those fics with the playlist going… you’re the bravest omg.

I love making playlists for my fics though :D every major au that I have has a playlist for it hehe

but 🥹💕 this au definitely holds a very special place in my heart. it’s a work that’s really important and very personal to me. I’m really happy that you enjoyed it <333

though !!!! if you don’t mind a little plug and a recommendation of my other works… I currently have an on going mumscarian au called songbird’s blood. it’s on my ao3 as a series called “night life” if you enjoyed the grumbo in amor lunae and solis, I think you’ll like the grumbo in night life too :D it’s a biiiig fantasy au where mumbo is a vampire and grian is a human who just happens upon his manor. grian is the first human to break through mumbo’s walls and befriend him. they’re very soft <33

thank you for stopping by and leaving this in my inbox 🥹💕 it was really nice to read through and made me really happy. if you read anything else of mine, I hope you enjoy !!! and please feel free to drop by again <33

[eurydicees]

If you don't mind me asking, can I ask your top favorite fics that you've written (feel free how much that you want to list)? Why they're special to you? Is there a specific inspiration when you wrote them?

Thanks if you want to answer.....

yes you can absolutely ask!!! apologies for taking so long to answer!

i honestly am really proud of most of my fics, so it was unexpectedly hard to choose my top ones. but here r my top fics of mine, in order of oldest to newest:

a reflection on being empty, being whole, & being in love (tamakyo)

this was written at a time when i was in particular struggling w my own racial identity, and being able to sort through it via tamaki was super cathartic. i'm really proud of the writing overall, but i'm also just really proud of myself for beginning to put all of my emotions re: race and sexuality into words. it's also part 2 of the first ouran fics i wrote, and the response i got was so overwhelmingly kind that i just had to keep writing for them :)

the path to gold is paves with the bones of the monsters that came before us (sakuatsu, iwaoi)

aaa i love this one. i'm genuinely so proud of it. it was one of those fics that just kinda comes to you and that you have to get out immediately or you'll die. i spent a few days nonstop working on this instead of answering work emails (rip) but 100% worth it. i'm really proud of the character arcs in this story, and, with it being so much about passion and burnout and dreaming, it also just means a lot to me personally.

sutures (iwaoi)

i love the structure of this one, both writing-wise, character-wise, and plot-wise. it's hard to talk about this one, but i think about it sometimes. this was written when i realized i needed a fic like it, and i'm really proud of it.

fragments of moments in which you love him (tamakyo)

another tamakyo one, but a little more experimental. i'm really proud of the way i shaped this narrative, and the way i played with form and structure to do it. i totally forget what the inspiration to write it was, but i'm happy i did.

lifespan of the sparrow, caged versus free (iwaoi)

this one is among the least popular on the list, which like. that's fair. it's tagged with animal death and no one wants to read that. 100% understood. that being said, i'm really proud of this. it was one of the several fics that was entirely handwritten and then typed up later. this one in particular went through a LOT of editing, which isn't something i usually do, so that was an interesting process, but i'm really satisfied with the way it turned out. it's not as personal to me as some of the others on the list, but i do think it's some of the best writing and narratives i've done.

the man who moved oceans to find home and the one who swallowed his raw heart whole (iwaoi)

this one took me more than a year to write, and you can tell lol. it went through so much care and love from the moment i wrote the first scene to the moment it was published. this took everything in me to write, and it kinda got away from me in terms of length, but i'm so proud of what it became. i think it's some of the best character and relationship development/work i've done, and i just think everyone should read it. i'm just so genuinely happy with where this went.

a brief and unofficial history of the stars (tamakyo)

another one completely handwritten! hehe. anyways i really love this one. i'm proud of how beautiful the language became and all the metaphors and i'm really really satisfied with it. i'm also really excited by kyoya's character in this, because so much of it is about him as a person as opposed to him as someone in love with tamaki, which is often what he becomes in my fics. so i'm really proud of that.

to find something holy in the horror of your body (iwaoi)

this one is really personal to my life and experience and gender. everything i feel about gender is so deeply superimposed into this fic that sometimes i think about it and think i just wrote about my experience and called it iwaizumi's life. which is not 100% true, i do think i did well in staying with his character rather than it being a self-insert, but still a lot of this is about what i feel. so this one is incredibly personal. i'm also really excited by the structure of this one; this is a premise i've been playing with for a while, but this is the first way i've figured out how to write it down that works. it's one of two (2) fics that i've ever shown irl people, so that just further confirms how proud i am of it (the other one was the first tamakyo fic on this list lol).

ty for asking! this was such a fun list to make <3