#why do i make myself and the characters suffer

[fallingyams]

Just had some thoughts on a sherliam post-fall role reversal AU

Didn't Sherlock cradle William's head as they fell from the bridge?

So imagine that because of this, Sherlock ends up taking the brunt of the fall instead of William.

William wakes up first. Sherlock does not.

William wakes up half blind in an unfamiliar room, with the unmoving body of Sherlock in an adjacent bed. He's disoriented and panicked and the only thing that stops him from full-blown hysteria is Billy, who assures him that Sherlock is alive, just unconscious.

He spends the next few weeks attempting to take care of Sherlock and nursing him back to health, even though the other doesn't wake. William's no stranger to this, he had helped to raise Louis, after all. (He tries to ignore the fact that his heart clenches at the reminder of the brother he left behind, whom he might never see again.)

However, most of that time ends up being spent relearning how to do basic tasks with his sight halved. Figuring out how to navigate around his blind spot so that he stops clumsily knocking things over on his left.

After the third time he's upended the basin of water he prepared to wash Sherlock with, William has quite had enough of it all. He despises himself, really, because he can't seem to do anything right.

Feelings of helplessness and anger creep up on him in the silence of the night, without a teasing jibe or an overexcited comment or even just the call of "Liam!" to break it.

But most of all, there is guilt and despair. There was one man who had believed in him throughout all of this. One detective who understood him down to his very core. One friend who had reached his hand out and offered forgiveness where he deserved none.

One Sherlock whom he had almost doomed with his selfishness.

His fascination with the other man’s brilliance had made William drag Sherlock into his damned role in their plan.

He had pulled and teased and tugged, leading this merry chase until Sherlock had followed him to the end. And now, the detective was paying penance for William's actions.

Collapsing into a chair next to the still-unconscious detective, William lets out a cry of bone-deep sorrow.

Sherlock had told him to repent; told him to atone for his sins with the rest of his life.

But how could William bring himself to do that, if the only person who mattered might never wake up again?

What use was living the rest of his life, if Sherlock wouldn't be there to live it with?

Tears slowly trickle down from a single scarlet eye as William bows his head and begs any divine power there is for a miracle.

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Just as William is about to be consumed by his despairing thoughts, however, a finger twitches and a rasping voice whispers,

"Oi, why are ya crying, Liam?"

(Okay I need to get rid of the angst hi here's a bonus happy end so I can sleep peacefully it's like 2am)

[thatoneluckybee]

sue miley darling WHY is your design so COMPLICATED

[jinxed-ninjago]

I love it when I say "Harumi was never evil but her actions were" then get people accusing me of saying Harumi's actions are excusable because it reminds me of this twitter meme

"I don't think Harumi is evil but I'm also not gonna defend her actions because her actions are absolutely evil" "So you think Harumi's actions are excusable?" no i think she's a deeply traumatized person who lashed out violently because her adopted parents neglected her and she basically blamed lloyd for having ever been neglected in the first place which made her lash out violently even more

[triglycercule]

i am severely upset at the sexyman polls for this year. yeah its absolutely because im biased and not a single one of the mtt won. but killer vs error is still going on you say!!! NO,,,,, killer's lost,,,,, its 70 error 30 killerISH so yeah,,,,, none of the mtt MADE!!!! IT!!!! and with the boom in killer content these past few months i wasSO FUCKING SURE that he'd like AT LEAST get higher up. nope. because of ERROR. listen i like him. he was my og bias when i first joined this fandom. i was an error fanatic. but bro,,,,, bro,,,,,,,,, killer,,,,, lost,,,,,, AND FUCKING HORROR AND DUST LOST TOO!!!! LIKE WHAY. WHAT. PUTTING HORROT AGAINST ERROR AND DUST AGAINST CROSS!!!! THEYRE LITERALLY BOTH THE TWO GUYS THAT (1/2 of them) WON LAAT YEAR!!!! OF COURSE THEYRE GONNA BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF THE MTT!!!!! this is very upseting im really sad imMAD. but no point in being a sore loser.... mtt won in my HEART 🧡

dust laughing at both horror and killer for getting the shit beaten out of them by error and then they bring up the fact that he lost to CROSS. this is the second time someone in the mtt lost to cross (theyre all making out in the loser's room) (mtt poly real btw)

[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

any chance we'll get an update to the first step of kintsugi soon?

To be entirely honest I have no idea.

It’s not abandoned, to be clear, and it’s going to be finished. I just haven’t cared all that much about marvel in a hot minute, and writings like pulling fingernails when I’m not interested in the material. I’ve also noticed that it tends to make for some of my more poorly written chapters.

That being said, hyperfixation happens on the turn of a dime for me. It could be a week; it could be a month. I don’t really know. It will come though! I really love kintsugi and have no intentions of abandoning it.

[maddy-ferguson]

season 4 is not a good season to be a steve fan it actually made me like him less

[tattersailspacedragon]

Hi!

We are in the finish line with this... I think

[undermostcorgi]

the media which consumes your entire soul at age 12 will forever be a part of you. this is an unavoidable consequence of living and you have to accept this fact. no matter how old you get, no matter how long it has been since you last saw its smug face peeking out from the bushes as it follows you, no matter if you think you have outrun it for good and that you're finally finally safe and you hardly even remember it exists anymore and your brain knows a few brief moments of true peace, it WILL catch up to you in your moment of weakness. and listen you don't want to hear this but sometimes this is necessary for your mental health. you will on instinct want to reject it and run away again but sometimes. sometimes you just need to watch that old show or listen to that silly song or read that weird book again as an adult and it will hurt you a little bit in various little ways but it will also heal you a little bit. you can call it nostalgia you can call it connecting with your inner child or whatever you want but just listen to me it WILL HAPPEN TO YOU TOO AT SOME POINT AND YOU HAVE TO BE PREPARED FOR THIS (i am forcibly dragged off the stage by security)

[feelo-fick]

thinking about. a Character's ocs. this is getting really meta

[pepprs]

STILL wide awake! i did not put down my phone! and now im hungry. so i will not be sleeping tonight ♥️

[icharchivist]

i mean i get why it sucks but i've been having an existential crisis that keeps me up at night for most of my life too and i'm not producing people expressly to abuse them and use them as tools about it. Astrals are just on something else i guess

i'd say it's a question of scale in general, as in an existential crisis coming so deeply from a whole different life in your head would fuck someone up much more. but anyway i keep saying Lucilius' way to treat other is bad, in those same posts in fact, just that his issues with depersonalization/derealization are also extremely compelling and actually make me feel bad for him. Those two feelings can coexist, and i don't mean that you have to be nicer to him or anything. i'm just saying he's still an interesting character.

[honeysuckle-fic-creator]

So, honest question

Please understand I mean this as politely as possible (I admit I can be something of a Takahashi apologist at times), but

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK IS GOING TO HAPPEN IN THE NEXT 4 EPISODES THAT’S GOING TO WRAP UP THE PLOT IN A CONCISE AND SATISFYING MANNER????!!!!

[lieutenant-amuel]

The worst thing about writing a multi-chapter fic is knowing how to write the next-next chapter, some random chapter in the middle, even knowing how you’re gonna finish the whole piece but barely having ideas for the chapter you need to write at the moment.

[lord-squiggletits]

Like I'm not one of those story "critics" who will nitpick the smallest inconsistency and call it a plot hole that ruins the whole story. I'm okay with inconsistencies and even the occasional plot hole if it ends up producing a story that's interesting, gripping, and brings up interesting things.

The problem is that suspension of disbelief only stretches so far. And secondly, stuff like character drama and themes are only as strong as the plot that supports them. If the plot is full of contrivances, plot holes, and really stupid things that make it feel like the author is just forcing something to happen to move the story along, then the themes and character drama become much less convincing.

[lelianaslefthand]

liking characters that have some of the most annoying fans in the entire universe is so hard im so fucking brave

[sethdomain]

i somethime forhtot hoe sexfist this countray is lol