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claraoswalds · 3 months

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#mrs flood who are you: time lord edition

#dwedit #doctor who #mrs flood #fifteenth doctor #the master #jacobi!master #tenth doctor #jack harkness #martha jones #twelfth doctor #ninth doctor #*#okay here is my argument: mrs flood IS a time lord but her presence here has nothing to do with the doctor #instead she's here because of ruby. she's seemingly part of/related to the pantheon of discord & we know that ruby is connected to them too #so i think that she was deliberately placed as ruby's neighbor by the pantheon/oldest one/ruby's mom/? in order to watch over her #it also explains why she was there to check on ruby in 1.04. once she realizes she's on the phone w carla she says 'nothing to do with me'#and she leaves. which implies that it COULD have had something to do with her. if it had been something else going on #ANYWAY. to get to the time lordness of it all. rn i personally believe that she's a time lord that's been hiding on earth for 50+ years #bc i don't think she recognized the police box as a tardis initially. that first quote should be taken at face value.#instead picture this: she's watching over ruby as per usual. a police box is there - weird but nbd. then it dematerializes in front of her.#she drops her groceries. she's shocked. she kinda looks scared. if she already knew it was a tardis why would she react like that?#so imo she knows OF tardises. she DIDN'T know the police box was one. and she's worried the time lords have found her hence the fear.#but when nothing happens and nobody comes at her she realizes she's still safe #later when she sees the doctor she realizes the tardis is his/he must be a time lord. he doesn't identify her but that's happened before #so then when she asks him who he is i think what she's actually asking for is his title. WHICH time lord are you.#bc lbr if she knows abt tardises then she knows about time lords and if she knows abt time lords she knows what it means for ruby #to be joining him - and that's why she wishes ruby good luck. meanwhile this is clearly the outcome she WANTS (them to be together)#bc she gets visibly upset when the doctor seems to decide to leave without ruby.#and for once i'm not master clowning bc the list of names the doctor gives out is VERY interesting. some of them we've never heard before:#the bishop; the conquistador; later he adds the pedant and sagi-shi and reiterates the bishop AGAIN. so i wonder if she's the bishop.....

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junewild · 3 months

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Watching Sam & Brennan talk about the beauty of frivolity, of adults playing silly games just as seriously as they fight to survive, and... yeah. There are some things that keep us alive, and there are some things that make life worth living, and I think games are one of those things that fall into both categories. Games make our lives better and they make us better at being alive. I think that's pretty cool.

#k talks #adventure academy #dropout tv #sam reich #brennan lee mulligan #and i say this not in an evopsych way. never. but in a historian looking back at the infinite intricacy of human experience and crying #i know i'm not really saying anything that anarchist philosophers haven't already said but it just hits me every time. it's so good #(& when the lich heard brennan quote graeber we had to pause the video while he had a little philosophical squee)#i feel for brennan not being able to play mafia bc he's too busy hosting it tho. bc. mood #i am rarely allowed to survive a mafia game these last few years #i wish i could invite everyone else who went 'oof. yeah. same' to join my decade-long group of assorted folks #who've been playing increasingly complicated week-long games of mafia over forum & then facebook & now discord for a decade or so #bc oh boy. those games are fun as HELL & we always love new players #especially the kind who will play DEADLY seriously :)

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th3e-m4ng0 · 11 months

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med student megatron....

#wip #totally and directly inspired from echoes of messatine #and from my own experience that one time in highschool #i was battling for my life to not fall asleep in literature class one day. i dont remember closing my eyes but suddenly my head i was on th #table and class was already over. i fell asleep so suddenly lmao it surprised me #ohh another recent one was last year where i fell asleep standing up while on the bus as i gripped the seat in front of me with Strength #i wish i could live off coffee but coffee has never ever worked on me grahhhhhhhhhhh

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chocochiptrip · 8 months

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it's their special day💙❤️

#fire emblem #fire emblem engage #alear #bday dragons :)#IT'S ALREADY ONE YEAR #one year and i still go insane over this game #sommie is there too to wish happy birthday to them <3

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zerguette · 12 days

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"Sing me to sleep

Sing me to sleep

I'm tired and I

I want to go to bed"

He's celebrating his first birthday :D (first time he's going to know what cake tastes like), damn Zar you became really important for me. Silly man that teaches me everyday i shouldn't give up and that i should take care of myself, thank you Zar. I CAN'T BELIEVE MONTHS WENT BY SO FAST....i keep learning a lot from him, he teaches me many things, and he teaches everyone many things,,,

Ocs in the drawing

Zar, Orion (holding cake) and Lucia (winged lady) - me

And now the important fellas

Accordion, Violin, Florence, Aurelia and Aidan :3 - @bluetorchsky

Pike and Argine yipee - @kursed-curtain

Fiver and Villain Jr. (I HAD TO ADD THEM, i think Zar would befriend them aheh) - @hammerhead-art

Bonus:

Tach and Harley took the photo

#first lyrics belong to Asleep - The Smiths #this song represents Zar in a whole x)#i wish i could add more ocs but too shy #maybe next year i'll make a bigger drawing for him #but ough i dont wanna get emotional #my birthday is in 19 days and im already gonna cry over Zar's one naurrr #Zar adores everyone ^^ mostly toppats #he seems like a dangerous guy but he means well #thsc #thsc oc #the henry stickmin collection #SO MANY TO TAG i'll do tomorrow

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feralnumberfive · 15 days

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I let go of TUA S4 as quickly as a 5 year old at their birthday party lets go of their balloon to float into the troposphere

#yeah it still bugs me and makes me frustrated if I think about it but sitting here wallowing in my frustration isn't going to do anything #because the show is over and I can't change it. it deserved way better. so much better. hands down. there's no arguing there whatsoever #yeah they trashed my favorite character and other characters too but it's much better for me to acknowledge it and then just ignore it #for all I care S4 did and didn't happen. I don't know if it's a way to ''cope'' or whatever-#but I'm probably just going to ignore the canon of S4 lol. I already lost most of interest in TUA a year and a half ago so it's-#easier for me to let go #but FUCK steve blackman to the max. the cast deserved so much better and I wish them the best of luck as they continue their careers 🫶#tua s4 #personal

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soullessjack · 5 months

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this isnt rlly a serious post more so than a thought I need to verbalize but like. there’s an INSANE difference between the fandom being like “hey what if jack was actually his age and got to be a little normal” vs y’all treating a grown ass man like he has to cover his ears when someone swears or sleep with a nightlight on because he’s afraid of the dark, and throwing the P word around to anyone who thinks he’s attractive. one of these things is not like the other.

#there’s a layer here about giving jack the childhood he specifically chose not to have #and ignoring his other choices because that’s just. idk a running theme with any character who struggles to have autonomy #but whatever idk #genuinely i think the past year or so that I’ve spent talking about this has burnt me out #either that or I’m just too fixated on VB to really care too much #like obviously I still care about it and wish more was done to help but it’s not really a warpath for me to walk currently #just.#I’m just tired dawg #it’s like talking to a deaf brick wall #please just do some research into infantilization I cannot keep having a one sided conversation with people who don’t care #spn #jack kline #baby jack #spn fandom #fandom critical #fandom ableism #tfw2.0 #not even just ableism it’s the whole mischaracterization woobified bullshit all over again #and the using baby jack as a prop for everyone else but I digress #jack: *chose not to be a child and hates being seen as one and is more than willing to get violent if he thinks he has to*#y’all for some fucking reason: he’s just a widdle baby he can’t handle the scary movie he needs his daddies to take care of him #I’ve already said all these things before #i am tired. so tired

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skunkes · 4 months

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if life is categorized by Before Loss and After Loss then I exist in the before but with a countdown to the after. and the countdown is always always present and debilitating. the loss will be debilitating too but i cant help myself. i will always suffer twice.

#i cant let go of it. i cant even enjoy good moments without thinking about how they'll just be memories one day #how they're already memories since moments pass so fast #everything is I'll Miss This and i already miss it and i cant believe once you're gone you're gone forever #and ill never ever see you again. and your shell is in the ground but where did the rest of you go?#should i look at your body one last time? on one hand itll be the last time i see you.#on the other hand it will be the last time i see you.#and the memory of you will die with me too. as if neither ever existed #it impacts me so much too bc i dont feel close to anybody really...and i dont make friends easily #so whats going to happen when the people who have always been there arent there anymore?#im going to be alone for so much of my life.#i will record your voice so im ready for when i cant hear it from the source while also knowing it wont be enough and one day #ill be wishing it lasted longer. it could be 12 hours long and ill want more.#how do you surpass this? it hasn't even happened. when it happens i don't know what ill do. considering my whole life has been #the timer. the countdown. hours and hours of anticipatory grief #and then ill be next. me. some of all thats left of you. it cant be true.#sorry. this gets worse every single year and its been going insane lately #id surprisingly been managing it well for months somehow ! it wouldnt cross my mind...and now its there again #like it accumulated and its all coming out right now. ive been crying for hrs tonight and last night #one day his things will just be things. things ive made and given him will be in my hands again.#talkys #i want to go hug my dad but then ill just cry over how one day i wont be able to....! how do i store it? how do i save it?#how do i preserve it forever....even as i take my own last breath....#i cant believe im the only one of me. and my dad is the only one of him.#i wouldnt want to be reborn as anyone else. i cant believe one day i wont get to draw or eat or be comfy in bed anymore.#i cant take it !! im so scared. ill be scared until the end. and you wont be there to hold my hand. im going to be alone.#and none of those years of grief and joy and memories will matter.#i wonder if it would help to tell him about this. i need something to hold onto for when it happens. anything. but i also know it'll make i #hurt more; obviously. just another piece of him that'll be gone one day

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icewindandboringhorror · 1 year

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... why he sit like this

#in this position his face is extremely 'cartoon cat' shaped.. like the perfectly round cheeks and little #rounded bump of a snout.. big round eyes. etc. stretched over the arm of a chair like a weirdo #cats #It's still Hot Evil Summer time and I have so much to do so am just aimlessly hopping between various projects but not actually #getting anything done. as usual. Also so so so so tired. I almost fell asleep in the middle of the floor like 3 times today lol #Trying to finish some costume photos and also another poll adventure thing. plus I do really want to do a sculpture sometime #I haven't finished one in a while. Hopefully my tiredness is nothing bad.#Maybe I'm anemic again so that's making me tired. Or maybe it's just a Listless phase. not that I'm ever really THAT productive considering #all of the health problems and etc. always holding me back. but still. I'm not usually 'sleep or just stare at a wall literally all day' ty #e unproductive.. at least not for multiple days in a row so. hmm... Sometimes especially in the summer though I will have periods of time #that are listless like that. I am under low level phyiscal stress for months at a time due to summer heat so I guess it makes sense #that would eventually take a toll. I just have SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO!!!!! AAUUGhhh #I also came up with a new idea for a game that is so so cool and I wish I could make it but I have to finish the other one first lol #which I will NEVER do. if I spend all day just sleepy unfocused barely able to do anything #I also really need to sell some clothes and sculptures because I'll probably have to buy a new computer soon so I need money. (plus still #recovering the costs of having to euthanize my other cat.. wehh) There's nothing clearly wrong with it right now but it's getting gradually #slower and there's more weird glitches happening randomly and idk.. just weird things that make me think 'hmm... bad.. possibly.'#ANYWAY... I just have so much to do that I both REALLY want or need to do - so it's perpetually frustrating that I just can't for whatever #reason like. Time is always mving forward. every day I waste is a wasted day. The year is already almost half over. I havent finished #any of the projects I wanted to .. and there's only more and more things to do each day. It's overwhelming and stinky #and thats not even considering having to do all of my tasks also with the background noise of economic inequality. everything increasingly #going into an even scarier political direction. active climate change crisis. pandemic that still exists and is insane to act otherwise. et #etc. HOW am I supposed to solo make two whole games . write 3 book series. finish sculptures. do costumes. make outfits. game videos. make #stable network of social connections. do my little side crafts. take care of myself and cats. pay rent. manage health issues. keep a routin #.try to make some sort of money. go to doctors appointments. handle regular maintenance like cleaning and cooking and self care #and buying new plates when old ones break or etc. make sure to do other things like backup my computer data regularly. do shopping lists.#take care of plants. pursue like 6 different academic interests. do the other side side projects I have for fun (like music or carving avoc #ado pits). eat in a healthy way thats okay for my Special Health Issue diet. exercise so i don't die early. etc. etc. etc. AND all while it #82F in my apartment all the time and I have tiny income and also need to move to another country/climate somehow??? lol......#ANYWAY.. ..very frustrated today over my chronic Tired Sleepy.. time for Cat Photos - which cure all of life's ailments lol

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hanzajesthanza · 9 months

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the witcher official cookbook is good of course, but i am fully aware of myself that i bought this not for its recipes, but entirely just to read maybe like, a little less than four pages of sapkowski talking about how much he likes making soup

#also to support the legitimacy of witcher because all fantasy medias have not just A Map now but another thing: A Cookbook #there’s also those ‘official guides to the world of…’ but ive found they take the magic away not introduce more #like the recipes look good and everything and i like to cook and bake indeed but i actually just needed to access more soup lore #the fact that he mentioned the beauclair feast was an added surprise and made me smile so much my cheeks hurt #me: ‘i wish someone else besides me would remember beauclair in winter in lady of the lake’ | the actual author: i rember.#calanthe mentioned. beauclair mentioned. fish soup mentioned. thats basically all i want #i already knew that the fish soup was his own recipe because he said it in the f8 key interview like over 20 years ago #but that he bragged about it again was nice #he’s too funny. ‘epicurian physiques’ had me rolling #the elbow-high diaries

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bogkeep · 4 months

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my special skill is that i'm not afraid of emails. in fact i vastly prefer sending emails because i can do it whenever i have time... the alternative is usually making phone calls, and the phone call times are pretty much always work hours at work days, AKA the SAME TIME AS WHEN I'M AT SCHOOL!!!! this really sucks if the only time i have the opportunity to sit down and do Important Paperwork Stuff is the weekend or the evenings!!! Let Me Send A Written Message Please Please Please

#banging my head againt the wall #hi i found out that due to my address being set in sweden i can't Do Things through the norwegian healthcare portal #i can read messages and documents but i can't contact anyone or send in forms. great!!! great!!!!!!! i didn't know this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#it's fine i'll just make the phonecalls but i wish i could get it over with NOW #i already feel bad for not doing any of this stuff in the past two days but ive been so completely depleted #im sure ill manage to solve this in time i just hate having things hanging over me #ALL OF THIS COULDVE BEEN AVOIDED IF IT HADN'T TAKEN THREE FUCKING YEARS TO BE GRANTED HRT #'of course there won't be any problems if you move to sweden :)' They Lied To Me #also this is a vent post please do not give me unsolicited advice thank you

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plzandspanku · 6 months

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I accidentally started only the brave pray for me

#for the longest time I thought I already read this fic #because I got it mixed up with a different fic #and then today I was watching TikTok and I realized this is not what I thought it was #so I pulled it up to read it later and then I got my open tabs mixed up #and now I'm on chapter 4 and I'm very nervous for some reason because I don't really know what it's about #like I know it's semi canon compliant and I know it has a happy ending #but it's extremely long and takes place over the course of like two years #honestly if anyone wants to supply me with a spoiler filled plot synopsis under 300 words I would really appreciate it #the marauders #james potter #regulus black #jegulus #only the brave #starchaser #sunseeker #perry's pontification #plzandspanku wishes this was twitter

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mephydoggo · 5 months

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!!!! Fandom PSA !!!!

CW: gr//ming, racism, p//dophilia, n//crophilia, proship, n//ncon

I only just found out that this guy has a Tumblr, so I'm making this post now to warn you all to BLOCK & BAN HIM. Don't let him into your circles or servers. Do not interact with him; he feeds off the attention like a leech. This guy is one of the most disgusting people I've had to deal with, and he's been trying to come back ever since TWF4 dropped. He's an awful person with awful beliefs and he doesn't care who he's hurting, whether that be a child or his own partner.

You can find a list of all of his known accounts in the linked drive as well as all of the evidence we have.

The above CW should give you a pretty good idea of everything he's done. Please block & ban him wherever you can; I know he's been interacting with more artists and trying to weasel into more communities. I'd be grateful to anyone willing to spread the drive as well. I don't want to have to add another person's story to this drive.

#mephy speaks #the walten files #twf #walten files #psa #if you can get him banned from servers you yourself dont own too thatd be appreciated #would rather he doesnt ever get the chance to resurface again #and of course he targets younger audiences that are more easily manipulated so watch for that #god i wish all this would just be over already #its been definitely over a year by now and it always loops back around

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darcyolsson · 6 months

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my bike broke so i tried to buy a new secondhand one yesterday and the experience was so deranged i'm still thinking about it. when i said no because they were trying to sell me secondhand bikes for 350 euros (ridiculously expensive, some new bikes are cheaper than that) it first took me like 10 minutes of saying no to get rid of the salesman and THEN when i was outside trying to leave another guy who i hadnt even talked to previously came up to me and started to try and convince me too? and when i again just started saying no he started trying to guilttrip me??? it was such a horrible deeply uncomfortable experience literally why did these 2 grown men think cornering me like that was ok or effective

#at one point i literally just didnt know what to do anymore except say 'no thank you' over and over again #at times like this i wish i was a more assertive person i stayed WAY too polite #thepart where the guy found me after i left already is what made me feel worst tbh #just the entire concept of a man 20+ years older than me following me bc he cant take no for an answer.... blegh #personal

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opens-up-4-nobody · 7 months

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#i walked into a situation today where my mom was effectively already dead. effectively bc her body was and is still alive. still breathing #painful groaning purrs. but her mind was gone yesterday. my dad said he showed her a picture of the mountains i took that day and told her #i loved her and she smiled. thats what he said. maybe he was just being nice. or maybe thats the last time she thought of me. i dunno. but #the human body is an incredible thing. shes got a heart still powering a broken body. too full of tumors to function anymore. stomach #streched like a pregnant mother. it happed really fast and now its happening very slow #im somehow probably better off than the rest of them. i only got here for the aftermath of a downslide. my daily life will b least effected #i only really saw her twice a year living so far away and she didnt text much. didnt call often. so life wont change much ill just kno shes #not there. which is sad. but theres nothing to b done abt it. life goes on. it hasnt been all bad tho. its nice to talk to my family abt her #how incredible she was. bc she was. wish her mom wasnt here tho. she doesn't deserve to b here. my mom wouldnt want her here. she didnt want #her here. but anyway. i wish her body would just let her go now. so we can sleep. so this can be over. so she can rest #but even like this shes stubborn and resilient. they say it could go on for days but i hope not. may the universe let her rest shes gotta b #so tired after 10 years of this. but i have no regrets. she knew how i felt abt her. and i dont think she had regrets either. she did so #much up to the very end. went out on a high note without the burdon of knowing it was coming #i dunno. its just such a strange experience to watch the empty shell of your mother sleeping like a gurgling baby #unrelated

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krbk-notebook · 14 days

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hey @real-life-cloud @thatsgaybro @lyricalvicki @tempestaurora @sweetietenya @greyladyblue @moumjn

we‘re either mutuals on my main (@pecuirlig), on here, or you follow this blog — and it looks like we all like krbk ! :‘)

first of all, feel free to decline <3

would anyone be interested in making a little krbk discord group or something? :‘)

as a casual fun hangout spot for people of similar ages (i think we‘re all 20+, most early 20s?), for talking about krbk (& maybe other ships/characters/shows etc too), sharing or talking about fics, or art, or whatever we want :‘)

i know i‘ve wanted to have a space like that for years tbh lol, since i haven‘t had the luck to meet anyone irl who‘s also into fandom or specifically krbk, back when tumblr group chats were a thing they weren’t very lively lol, and the krbk discord groups i‘ve checked out so far haven‘t had active members my own age.

i would be super happy if any of you might be interested too ! :‘) but i will continue to suffer alone lmao if you should not <3 (/lighthearted)

(btw— i‘m super open to other people joining this too, so please do feel invited if you are 20+ and you want something like this too ! i just only @'ed these people because there‘s been Some interaction between us already. not having @'ed you doesn‘t mean you‘re not welcome :‘) !)

#what i yearn for most often in my daily life is people to send drawings to #i‘ve started drawing and i get so happy when something works out imo & i send them to my friends and they‘re nice but they don‘t Get It lol #and although i don‘t know how brave i would be abt those; i‘ve had so many krbk thoughts over the years; like scenarios and aus and whatnot #i yearn to get happy abt them with other people; abt krbk #they bring me so much joy #i want to share it #i understand if you already have ppl for that or just don‘t want to for any other conceivable reasons; that‘d ofc fine #but i thought i‘d ask :‘)#((i would also rather have a group chat type of thing than post on here bc i get rly anxious about the content/audience type of thing; and #i don‘t think i could keep the good relationship i have with making stuff myself if i shared it on a platform. i want a little community;#and whenever i‘ve tried to create one here; it still felt rly distant and kind of lonely for me.#what i wish for is just a chatroom thing whatever where we can talk abt krbk lol; and it‘s comfortable so like hc differences and everythin #gets accepted and it‘s fine to share stuff however unfinished or unpolished or whatever it is and it‘s not about numbers at all #it‘s just a little group being happy about krbk hehe. if that sounds appealing to you; let‘s make one! :‘) ))

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