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wonder if trans people advocating for a bloody revolution weigh in the fact that you will have absolutely 0 access to consistent hormones.
#in spite of how you might feel- we got it pretty easy rn. even if you cant medically access hormones- its a lot easier to get them from#*other sources*. during a bloody revolution? yeah. good fucking luck even prioritizing that for an inch.#you'll be too concerned about keeping your arms attached.#even if you have a moment to catch your breath you'll probably be too busy doing exactly that- catching your breath.#you will have little to likely NO contact to anyone who can consistently provide you with hormones.#your phones connection will be shut off. you likely wont even be allowed into a place to charge it for shit.#and if it breaks entirely? welp. good luck out there bud. but this is what you advocated for.#bc for some reason you decided it would be better to cook while your house was on fire instead of putting THE GODDAMN#FUCKING FIRE OUT FIRST.#this isnt my little pony. this isnt steven universe. theres no amount of friendship that will save you.#theres no happy ending where the Bad Guys Realize They're Being Bad And Feel Bad About It. no. they shoot you in the fucking face#without a fucking second to consider.
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just for fun this time during 'sea of blood' I counted out all the venatori corpses I think we can be pretty sure were lucanis' handiwork before we show up (not including the ones he kills in his initial cutscene, and with an assumption that he's been at work mainly up and down in the areas we move through until we find him, not behind the locked door -- I think that's mostly the work of rampaging undead and other venatori-hoisted-by-their-own-petard suchlikes). can thus happily inform you lucanis has killed at least 32 venatori before rook and company get there. at least one of them he's impaled on their own weird crystal spike things the venatori mages cast as an AOE attack and that they're trying to keep him contained with when we find him. so he's clearly been keeping busy lol. that's my boy dispensing poetic justice and claiming some enrichment in his enclosure while he's at it good for him!
#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#lucanis dellamorte#I think he's been scouting around found what's techincally the way out realized he can't leave without his blood#and been shepherded/cornered in the room where you find him. or just as likely he lured them in there to take them all out at once#and also he's not a mage. how the fuck is he going to actually get the door out open and then not just drown if he does#even though he found it. lucanis dellamorte's very bad no good extremely awful horrible day (300+ day streak)#CAN the non-mage venatori get in and out of here without a mage to take them. many questions#him coincidentally escaping right now seems to be down to everything falling the fuck apart down there after zara officially voided#whatever OSHA regulations they ever had and the fallout of solas' ritual made magic run wild across the continent#it's interesting to note that the ossuary we see in this is actually pretty much emptied -- she's already retrieved#what she considered her successes. there used to be way more experiments down here until like a week before this#it's just lucanis and the other rejects left lmao#I do like (well. like is probably the wrong word) to imagine that lucanis has spent a sisyphean year of nearly escaping in there#he's killed a guard gotten to look around for intel for five seconds and been thrown back into his cell multiple times before#this time he's just got chaos and rook (basically synonymous terms right lol) on his side#also to all the 'why is he in his full armor and already with a neat beard' complaints -- because this is a video game#and getting a whole new model for him done for all of 45 mins of content max would not be a wise or fruitful use of resources#hope that helps!#if we're going to go watsonian about it he must have been wearing something when he got there and he probably had luggage#so idk he found those in a store room or something b/c callivan... not the brighest bulb in the lamp store clearly
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i fucking hate winter i want to [remembers threatening suicide just harms my loved ones] take down a deer with my bare hands and rip its throat out with my teeth
#when the cycle goes angry-depressed-angry-depressed and theyre two sides of the same coin#the deer is me and i would cry over its dead body the second the anger left me#i wanted to go to bed EARLY tonight#god it's so fucking over#i wish there was therapy where you could say you wanted to kill yourself without being admitted/prevented from going to study abroad#im just so ANGRY for no reason and then im so fucking sad.#and i cant actually talk to friends about it because idk i just cant#boohoo it;s cold out so now im considering killing myself after we graduate but i realize i could never do that to my family#so now im just kinda sitting here miserable with no way out
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the criticisms yall throw at jinmao would be treated as "hot" and "they're sooo in love" if they were a gay ship regardless of if they acted exactly the same as maomao and jinshi do or not
#im fucking tired of yall#i don't think some of yall understand what's going on here#i knew jinshi haters would have a field day w the new episode lmfao looks like i was right#if they were a gay ship you would be eating this shit up dont fucking lie to yourselves#have u realized that maybe u can criticize the frog scene — bc no i was not comfortable w that turning out that way either — WITHOUT#demonizing jinshi. have u considered that for a second. have u?#im so fucking tired of people and ive been here barely a month.#claiming feminism and u think maomao is a poor helpless creature and jinshi is the spawn of the devil#mari rambles#knh#jinmao#rant#will delete later
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In my opinion, the reason the reunion scene was skipped was because the author couldn’t figure out a way to write it non-romantically and gave up after a while
honestly. i kinda agree with you nonnie.
it just. the set up to the scene is sooooo romantic. you have lloyd being absolutely devastated at the thought he's not going to see any of his loved ones ever again and that he's been dropped back into his terrible life, to the place he admitted he'd rather die than go back to,,, and then someone knocks at the door and when he opens it this is the sight that greets him:

his best friend, the person he's closest to, the one he's spent years with, the one he promised a peaceful life at his side, the one he wanted to grow old with, the one he sacrificed everything for, the one he effectively gave his life to save, the one he thought he'd never see again, standing at his door, having crossed literal dimensional barriers to get to him, a soft and teary smile on his face as he tells him "i missed you"
like. c'mon.
i'm all for platonic interpretations, i'm aroace, i love me a good best friendship as much as the next guy, but,,,, isn't this,,, like,,, really fucking romantic??? extremely so??? am i??? reading too much into it?? because it feels really, really romantic to me.
and like you say. where do you go from there. what response could lloyd give that doesn't involve throwing himself at javier and clinging to him with all of his strength. what conversation could these two have that doesn't involve them seeing how truly devoted they are to each other. what resolution does their arc together have that isn't them spending the rest of their lives together, at each other's side, like they so dearly wanted to.
but. alas. that wasn't the story bk moon wanted to tell. and that's very much his right. i just think that if he didn't want me to assume there's no in-character and narratively satisfying version of that conversation that doesn't end with them kissing he should've at least tried to give us something. and not completely skipped it lol
but that's just my opinion too :]
#hey i got an ask#Anonymous#tged#the greatest estate developer#tged spoilers#lloyd frontera#javier asrahan#llojavi#ch 401#and like. god. this really was his favorite scene to write uh.#i just. i don't get it. what was going through his head. what was he thinking. what was the point of all of This.#i just need ten minutes locked in a room with him. preferably with a translator but i am willing to compromise. just gimme ten minutes.#i can make him spill the soup i know this#fuck if i think too long about how this is the. second last chapter we get. before we officially end the novel with the two of them sharing#a relieved smile at the fact they can finally live their lives together without worries. i do go a little crazy.#this would probably be a hot take if there were enough opinions about tged for it to be considered spicy in the first place. but. i don't#love the extra chapters. the one with javier making a wish to a shooting star is acceptable tho it does create more questions than answers.#but the others are. meh. i would've much preferred if tged had ended in ch 401 with an open ending. maybe ch 402 if only because i did want#to see lloyd interact with arcos and marbella as suho. but there would be no last minute shoehorned wedding in my ideal ending.#i just!! i don't like forced romance!!!! i don't like compulsory amato/heteronormativity!!!!!!#i want my fictional relationships to have proper build up and chemistry and to be narratively satisfying!!!!!!! fuck!!!!!!!#i'm good. i'm okay. this is fine. we're all fine.#anyway. yeah
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i remember both emery and i were annoyed at this episode (hz060) when we first watched it and i think that was because we were getting sick of the lack of emotional depth roy had at that point, so it just felt like a bit of a kick in the teeth that when he did get a focused episode it wasn't really anything special and just more of the same we'd seen in anipoke hundreds of times before.
and this was before we got any details about the episode with roy's backstory that was literally right around the corner from airing (it became a running joke between the two of us that whenever we complained about something in horizons the show would immediately remedy it in some way because it happened multiple times lol) so it was just really frustrating to us. but now that the backstory episode exists and we know the details this episode feels a lot better on a rewatch. still nothing special or crazy but now that we know why singing is so important to roy it makes sense why losing his singing buddy would be a big blow from his perspective.
#bwark#hz lb#emery we should do that bit again#i am SICK of cap being considered roy's pokemon now. at the very least it should be under the care of both liko and roy in friede's absence#ugh another episode without liko getting a mega 🙄#uhhhh. honestly there isn't that much to complain about mega voltage so far lol i feel like that second one will happen eventually#edit: no full version of get back yet? come the fuck on already
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Started watching the Bayverse movies with my besties and... Are we just too gay for these movies??? Admittedly we only finished the first two and got through a quarter of the third, but the second one was such a drag to sit through at times and it probably doesn't help that we do NOT care about Sam that much. I hope that there is a character arc for him in the rest of the third movie. Because so far he has not been fun to watch in that one. He just comes off as a slight manchild to me, like... I can see why he would be frustrated with where he is in life but the way he acts with others and lashes out does not help him in the slightest. I do have to admit though that seeing him go to Cybertronian Heaven in the second movie was the funniest part for me and my besties lol.
I'll just hope that the other guy in the next movies will be at least a bit more interesting. Doesn't even have to be a good guy, just an interesting guy for me lol
#rintalks#text#transformers#transformers bayverse#A lesbian demigirl a she/they lesbian and a nonbianry bisexual watch Bayverse with alcohol- You'll never guess what happens next#Adding a Drinking Game to your (attempted) movie marathon can increase the fun for the whole group lol#But only when everyone knows how to drink responsibly and does not peer pressure of course#I feel like they made Sam too much of an Everyman that he basically had nothing as a person himself#He is literally a middle-class white teenage boy who is not too smart nor too sporty a bit awkward but says witty lines and-#It feels like so much to just say nothing#No real soft and or hard skills to speak of for this dude#Nothing about him as a person was what was needed in the two movies either#It was so circumstancial#If he wasn't related to his captain/explorer grandfather and had his glasses then he never would've been sucked into the conflict#if he didn't touch the shard in the second movie then he wouldn't have been an accidental cybertronian usb stick#I do admit that the movie wouldn't have come to it's conclusion without his involvement and the knowledge he sucked up but everything else-#It wasn't exactly HIS knowledge and he wasn't the guy who had all the breakthroughs or epiphanies.#Also. Him going to cybertronian heaven lol. All these soldiers also gave their lives to protect Optimus where do they go? Lmao#I feel like Mikaela would've been a better protagonist but considering that it was the 2000s and she was a girl in a “”boy franchise“”-#fat fucking chance man ToT#The way she was driving in reverse while having Bumblebee in the back shoot at Decepticons was som genuinely cool shit ngl#And she only got the car bc she knew how to unlock and jumpstart it!!! Queen shit!!!#I'm so far not a fan of how weirdly enabling Carly is of Sams more immature tendencies but I won't give up hope and just watch!#Maybe they'll break up bc they see they're not good for each other or maybe the trauma will change them and draw them closer to each other#there are many ways to go with both of these characters and their relationship#Am I having too much hope? Probably but I don't want to be too cynical about things lol#makes life a bit more fun that way too#Funnily enough the only characters me and my besties found ourselves slightly attached to were the idiot twins in the second movie#and the little monstertruck guy voiced by Tom Kenny at times. Not in all his scenes but you know. A win is a win.#And of course Bumblebee except for that scene where he pissed on that dude in the first movie that was not it
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swinging a bat at a hornets net to some degree but. im gonna be honest as much as martha wasn't written as well as she could've been nor the doctor in her season, alot of the reasons people have for considering her story/treatment problematic like. have narrative purpose? and aren't just baseless mistreatment? like yeah the doctor absolutely did not value her as much as he should've and did lead her on to some extent, but i dont think that's painted as a good or ok thing; it was the result of him still mourning his previous companion. again, which is not a justification and that's not the point; it was selfish and cruel of him to try and replace his previous companion with a new one while obviously not viewing her the same as his old one. I think it is unfortunate and overall a bad choice to have made her the first black female companion considering this narrative going on throughout the season, but I also don't think it was more than that– a bad, less-than-thoughtful choice. her narrative throughout her time on the show was about her realizing her own worth Despite the doctor and the way he, intentionally or not, belittled her, and in the end she doesn't leave feeling heartbroken and aimless, she leaves with more drive than ever to put herself first and do what's best for her and be the awesome talented person she is without a man who doesn't value her hindering her. and i think that's genuinely a good, interesting narrative to have for a female companion- it genuinely breaks the mold and asserts that his "companions" are their own people with agency who aren't solely bound to him or reliant on him. it'd be one thing if she never realized/acknowledged the way he treated her, but she did!!! and thus in the end she thanked him for the memories and the incredible things he'd shown her, and left on her own terms. instead of staying and hoping he'd change, instead of dying or experiencing some other permanent tragedy like many if not most companions, instead of settling for less and being submissive and agreeable. she walked an apocalyptic earth and saved the world ON HER OWN (utopia) and came out of it like hey? you know what? i'm pretty fucking capable without you, and I deserve more than to be someone's second best. i dont think that this was an oppressive storyline for her at all– it would be if her story's end was different, and if there wasn't intention to her strife, but her story wrapped up, I think, in a pretty well-done empowering place. not to mention her role in torchwood where she further demonstrates her ability to be a cool interesting and capable character apart from the doctor. but yeah. sorry idk i had to get this out of my system. do not ask me about the new season I know nearly nothing about it and I'm only talking about tennant era dw right now thank you
#kibumblabs#SORRY#long post#I wanna tag this for organizational purposes but. that would be dangerous.#anyway I think she had a stronger and more satisfying story overall than donna#who was a super super strong character with super good chemistry but her eventual arc just never landed with me#I think maybe partially because I liked how down to earth human she was and then they made her. yknow not totally human with a lot more#large scale cosmic significance#anywayyy#I also think Martha’s dynamic with the doctor made more sense overall and had more of a narrative destination to it than amy#who’s romantic tension always felt super weird to me considering the childhood aspect to their relationship and uhhh yeah#Martha’s dynamic wasn’t wholesome wasn’t functional but felt organic and made sense. like there’s a very clear reason WHY he’s like that and#that reason never feels Right or Justified.#oh shit I just passed a huge fucking crime scene on the bus#ok one last note. i wanna double down on it (the doctor treating everyone as a second#class citizen to rose once he loses her) being framed in an intentionally bad light using the additional contributions of Jack#ESPECIALLY if you’ve watched torchwood but even if you haven’t. her and jack are in very similar situations with the doctor and that is#brought up outright and is a big part of their bond being what it is. and!!! they end the season on the same sort of note- finding self#worth outside the doctor and prioritizing the people who Really need and care about them (Martha’s family. Jack’s team.)#that’s a big part of what the season leads up to and it wouldn’t be possible without the doctor being written as emotionally#neglectful For A Reason#and all of it works pretty well to set up for the next companion who is Strictly not a romantic interest and that’s the only reason they#Work.#gdhgshdhdhh sorry I just. I don’t like seeing Martha’s season summed up to just. ‘she was mistreated!’#like yes she was. characters do not solely experience Good Pleasant Relationships and do in fact have challenges to overcome#which. importantly. she does very much overcome
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2023 reads / storygraph
Moonlight Love and Witchcraft
urban fantasy slice of life
romance between a vampire musician, their werewolf bartender girlfriend, and a young witch who shows up in town with her sister while on the run from their witch community
very little plot, she/they nonbinary MC, ace MC, bi MC
#Moonlight Love and Witchcraft#aroaessidhe 2023 reads#Well. first up this is so fucking long.#I was mostly enjoying it but by the second half my patience was wearing thin.#Like it very much says on the tin that this is 0 plot just cute romance but it’s so repetitive?#There’s a few interesting background plot threads at times but it basically just turns into cuddling and going on dates and cuddling a…#LOVE a 200yo beefy butch ace werewolf swordswoman who’s a big softie.#Logan I’m mostly neutral about they’re interesting enough up until the point she starts getting interested in Nemo…..#who. she’s 24 but reads more like a 15yo than the actual 15yo lmao.#I feel like there is a way to write a bubbly hyper character without them being so insufferably juvenile? tried my hardest but yeah nah#I simply just do not buy either of the others having romantic feelings about her lmao. and considering that's 90% of the plot....#anyway I have a few more paragraphs of thoughts that are at the storygraph link above#I did only read this because it had an ace character & kinda expected it was gonna be something like this. glad the ace character was the#only character I liked I guess#sapphic books#asexual books
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#theo's thoughts#Love it when school district just decides things without considering anyone who will then be impacted by the decision#Hate that my second thought upon processing the news was that I shouldn't have expected anything better bc it's this one district#Fucked up that this is how it is
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i cope great as the only woman in combat sports classes and there are never any problems
#there are actually always problems.#random guy showed up with his wife today#never spoken to either of them before#would have been fine to pair up with the wife#but i'd joined another guy#then guy with wife walks over to the coach#points at me without even looking at me#says “she'd be better off with my missus”#coach agreed also without even looking at me#i don't mind working with her at all and it would have been fine had i chosen that#or if i'd been asked directly#but this man who i'd never spoken to before decides to point at me and say where he thinks i'm better off#from the bottom of my heart fuck you#i didn't do anything because what am i going to say to a guy like that#who already doesn't consider it worth his time to LOOK ME IN THE EYE#his wife was lovely and i was happy to pair with her for her first session#but no i am not better off with her#people (men) assume i know nothing about the sport#i once had a guy lecture me on how to teep on his second week#it's fine for the most part but these little things add up#and makes me wonder if it's worth sticking with a sport that gets me this kind of treatment no matter where i go#or how old i am#or how i act or how good i get#''' she'd be better off ''' my foot would be better off in your nuts
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Kai Leng talks a lot of shit for someone who needs an entire gunship to win a fight
#“you're too weak” girl. the gunship.#he's so god damn annoying#like not in the “oh he's a good antagonist” way he's just annoying#like. he got his ass kicked by dying Thane and failed his mission. failed his mission again when it came to killing shepard.#and somehow hes arrogant enough to think he won the fight when let be real he'd be fucked without the gunship#considering he was asking for it to cover his ass every five seconds#can I kill him. please can I kill him
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i fear the 'surely someone's gonna save me' in sunshine baby has an incredible chokehold on me
#this Can't be the energy going into 2025 sighs#sabs speaks#lowkey had like four different meltdowns today over plans being changed and its like. can we be normal#and then my brain had the audacity to be like ur lying.#like girl what the fuck?? in what world are we doing this for fun#and then do u guys know the horror story of like vampire slumbering just have my headphones on genuinely vampire like and out of NOWHERE my#sister is just above me like Hi.#can u fix this dress for me#like in what world do u wake me up like that girl#i fixed the dress but still like. let me live#times like these im considering dropping out truly having that moment over u need to chill out before the stress kills you before the thing#that's supposed to has a chance#if this all seems disconjointed its because it is and is not hope this helps <3#i also want nothing more than to write about my blorbos but i saw people being wrong about them and now im like shit. maybe im wrong about#them#so i cant do it without feeling insane for that reason and for the second reason that i have other obligations#i think it should be illegal for education to give u things to do over the holidays they dont understand how much guilt i will feel not#getting things done and instead feeling horrific and not resting#i also think learning too much about my health has caused me to spiral a lot like the dr's being so chill about it whilst im in debilitatin#pain is not good for me actually. and has triggered the disability grief all over again#having my pmdd and my menstruation at the same time genuinely i felt like female hysteria and im scared for the next one#its a wonder i did Not do It#a little morbid i guess but i have Morbid hormone disorder shrugs#anyways. 2025 be better i hope#so scared to pull my cards for the year#less actually scared and more like. i dont knowww how much i have it in me to be brave anymore#congrats if u made it this far but mostly sorry to my scorpio rising
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being a hater of most of the most popular ships in this fanbase has got me feeling like christ on the fucking cross sometimes ill tell you that much
#xivposting#i try not to get annoyed bc usually its strangers who would be baffled if i just snapped for what appears to be no reason#but you have to understand from my pov i am constantly inundated w this on the tl against my will#AND it ends up in my mentions without prompting#the first part i can handle by blocking or muting and i try to mitigate the second half by limiting my notifs only to mutuals#but shit slips thru and bsky doesnt have a mutuals only notif system so like oh my god you fucking people#has anyone ever considered i dont mention a wolship despite ample opportunity because i dont like it#complaining here idgaf
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Immensely disappointed to find there are no wangxian podfics at 20+ hours. What am I supposed to do, record one mysel— *forcefully dragged away*
#i would but that sort of defeats the purpose which is me listening to fic i havent read before at work to keep myself alive despite it all#MASSIVE FUCKING SHOUTOUT TO PODFICCERS BTW I WOULD NOT SURVIVE WORK WITHOUT U#no i wont listen to an actual audiobook who do you think i am#i said that but ive started considering that this would be how i read warrior cats again for the first time in like 8 years lmao#anyway. ive reached the last 10 chapters of my one 50 chapter podfic so ive returned to ao3 to stockpile some more longer ones#i ran out of sv ones already so here's to hoping i get a massive haul out of mdzs#so far ive got more than i did for sb already so WE DOIN GOOD#jay yells#i didnt realize how quickly I'd get through this fic tho like goddamn#i think it's only been abt a month?? yikes#man. i really shouldve just made a second post for half these tags sjxkdk#but im not going to#woe. adhd brain be upon ye
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