#woke up at 4am and they were already fighting

[astralaces]

one thing about my parents is they're gunna fight

[stcrgazings]

Why won’t you love me | (c.l)

you can read part two here

note: sooo, why won’t you love me was the one you guys asked the most so i didn’t post it sooner because i was in the middle of finals but, here it is i really liked how it turned out, hope y’all enjoy! (The 1 series it’s next) let me know if you want to know more about it because I am suuuper excited.

pairing: charles leclerc x female reader

summary: after a very crappy week you and Charles reach breaking point, and you don’t know if you’ll be able to get back after this.

warning: angst, cursing, screaming, fighting, dick and douchebag charles, angst, small mention of panic attack.

word count: 2.3K

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On the first day that Charles arrive from the Hungarian Grand Prix to your apartment for the start of summer break, you waited up, it was Monday at about 4am when the door opened showing you tired boyfriend entering the place, he said hi to you, gave you a small peck on the lips and then he entered his simulator room locking the door behind him without saying another word.

You felt your stomach sink at your boyfriends attitude towards you but you tried not to give it so much though knowing that he was probably upset about the result of the race and didn’t want to take out his anger on you.

So you went to sleep on an empty bed, like you were already used to.

On Tuesday you woke up and the place beside you was already empty, Charles already locked up in his simulator room, so you went out to have breakfast with your friends and then to the gym, and then back to your place, and on the way there you got Charles his favorite pasta on his favorite restaurant, it was kinda pricey but you didn’t mind, just wanting to make him feel better.

You took a shower when you arrived living the pasta for him to grab at the kitchen counter, but when you got out you found him eating a box of Chinese food, him saying he “didn’t really feel like pasta today”. You smiled at him and shrugged it off, clearly annoyed that you got him this 200$ euro pasta that he always liked, and he didn’t even said thank you, nor ate it, but you ignore it as he once again locked himself in his simulator without another word, when you went to sleep that day he was still up playing, so you fell asleep alone again, your boyfriend a few meters from you but feeling further away even more than when on race weekends.

On Wednesday you check that everything was ready for your trip to Italy, checking the romantic reservation you made a few weeks ago in a fancy hotel with a romantic set up to try and surprise Charles, but when he got to the apartment after his afternoon training session a confused look showed up on his face as he watch you pack your suitcase in the living room while drinking a glass of wine.

“What?” You asked with a perky smile as you folded one of your swimsuits, he smiled back at you. “I don’t know, which one to take, black or red” you asked holding the two bikinis over your head for him to see.

He smiled as he approached you. “Red, obviously”

So you nodded as you folded the swimsuit into the bag.

“Baby…” Charles whispered as he sat next to you, pushing the suitcase away, making you turn around to face him, your cheeks and nose redden because of the wine, now the confused look on your face as you crunched your nose.

“I canceled the trip to Italy, I just want to stay home for the summer break” you felt your heart shatter in your chest as the words hit you like a brick, he cancelled the trip, without consulting it with you, because he just didn’t feel like it, and you wanted to say a lot of things in that moment, but nothing came out as you simply nodded tears almost forming in your eyes. “It’s okay”

“Thank you baby, I knew you would understand” he thanked as he lifted himself of the ground before kissing your shoulder and make his way back to his simulator room.

And you accept it, because he was tired and just wanted to be home, even though you had planned your outfits for the trip and the romantic surprise for him for weeks.

So you downed the remaining of your glass of wine as you toss the new lingerie you got for him back to your room and out of the suitcase.

Thursday was no different you woke up and he was gone, and went to sleep with him still up, alone again.

By Friday you make your famous caramel brownies, Charles’ favorites, you only made them for special occasions like his birthday or Christmas with his mom, but you wanted to see if maybe with these Charles would give you a little bit of his attention, so you put your prettiest red lingerie with a robe on top and as he got out of the room he asked. “What it’s that’s smell? It’s great”

“I made brownies baby” you said taking one to your mouth as the robe partially opened showing the lingerie you had bought a few weeks ago meant for the Italy trip.

“Oh, I’ll try them later baby, I’ll go have some lunch with the boys, love you” he said as he grab the car keys of his Ferrari and closed the apartment door behind him, not even glancing at you.

So you basically shoved the brownie up your throat as you kick the lingerie off you and got yourselves in some sweats and Charles’ hoodie as you drank wine and fell asleep on the couch.

Saturday was the breaking point.

You got up and went out with one of your best friends Kelly Picket and her beautiful kid, Penelope, you actually had a great time, and when you got home you put your pajamas and throw yourself in the living room as you played yours and Charles favorite movie, Love Rosie.

Mid-movie Charles got out of his room, took some popcorn of your lap and then tried to walk to the kitchen for some water but you didn’t let him as you grabbed his arm and pulled him basically on top of you.

“Watch the movie with me” you asked of him, as your lips were centimeters away from each other, and he smile and for a moment you heart flusters as you thought that maybe he was going to say yes.

“I don’t really feel like it” was the only thing he said as he freed himself from your grasp and walked to the kitchen.

“Pleaaaase” you begged, pushed even but you just wanted some time with him, to hug him, to feel like he was actually there with you and not the shadow that only comes out of the room to eat.

“No, plus we’ve already seen that movie a thousand times”

“Then we’ll watch another movie, please Charles” you pouted and making him turn around annoyance now clearly on his face.

“I already said no, why you gotta be so needy annoying all the time, god” he spat as he closed the door of the refrigerator and walked back again to the simulator room.

But when those words left his mouth you felt everything that you had swallowed the entirety of the week he’d been at home explode like a bottle of champagne and the first thing you thought was;

oh my god, I am going to kill him.

“Excuse me?” You asked trying to understand if you just heard those words correctly as you stood up angrily from the couch throwing the pillow on top of you away as you walked to his simulator room, he stopped as he heard you, standing in the door of it.

“You heard me, why can’t you just understand that I need some alone time? I’m not in the mood right now”

“Why can’t I understand?” You asked almost in disbelief as he looked you dead in the eye and nodded, fucking nodded. “You’ve been a whole dick to me the entirety of the week you’ve been here and I’m not being understanding enough”

“What? When have I been a dick to you? Are you craz—“

“When have I not been understanding enough Charles?!” You asked in frustration as tears began forming of your eyes.

“When?! Maybe I haven’t been understanding enough with the fact that you haven’t looked at me, or touch me or kissed me or fucked me in the whole week you’ve been here? Oh no wait, you actually haven’t fucked me since you arrived from the French Grand Prix about two weeks ago when you took me on the counter to let go of your frustrations and then left to your simulators room which is something you now tend to do very often” you laughed sourly, as he looked at you like you’d gone nuts.

“What-? Why are you so fucking angry at me I didn’t really mea-“ Charles tried to approach you as he walked towards you, rolling his eyes as he tried to wrap his arm around your waist.

But the thing is, saying you were angry was the understatement of the century and Charles didn’t know that as a surprise expression and maybe even a little hurt showed up on his face as you push him away.

“Or maybe I wasn’t understanding enough when you cancelled our trip to Italy, something you knew I was excited for, just because you didn’t fucking feel like it”

“I didn’t wanted to go!” Now he was getting angry too as he raised his voice with that joke of an excuse.

“Just like you didn’t want the fucking 200€ pasta I got you on Tuesday? Because you didn’t feel like pasta? Or just like you didn’t wanted the fucking brownies that i made you when you didn’t even register me as you went to have lunch with your boys or to watch the stupid movie you love with me? Just because you don’t feel like it or just don’t fucking want to.”

“I never asked you to do any of those stupid things, don’t put that on me” he said and you nodded a cynical smile plastering on your face as you walked away from him.

“I’ve taken all the shit you’ve thrown at me these past week, and I am being needy and annoying?” You asked, clearly upset as angry tears streamed down your face.

“Yes, it’s like you can’t simply understand that I don’t want any of those things, I just want to be left alone”

“Why don’t you try and understand for a chance, because I try every fucking time to love you and it’s like you don’t let me”

“Why are you being like this? Just let it go”

You stared at him, feeling your heart shatter on your chest as a single tear slipped through your cheek, making a small part of Charles shrink as he watched the mess he made upon you.

“Baby…” you whispered, as you tried to approach him again, your hand going to his face as your fingers grasped his cheek. “I know you feel disappointed, and upset and hopeless and I know it sucks”

Charles took you’re hand out of his face, as he took a step back.

“Stop it I’m fine”

“Really?” You asked sarcastically, as he rolled his eyes once again.

“Yep, just leave me alone, you can’t be acting so annoying and immature just because i didn’t took you to the stupid trip to Italy”

“You what Charles?” He stared at you, clearly not wanting to hear you anymore, but you kept talking, exhausted from just take it all in and repressing your feelings. “I know you don’t like ultimatums, I don’t either but you either get fucking shit together or I’ll leave because it seems like you don’t even want me here anymore”

“Then leave” was all that he said, not a glimpse of feeling or regret or anything on his face. “Maybe you’re right and I don’t really need you anymore”

You nodded, trying to kept the tears to continue to run down your cheeks. “Maybe you don’t even love me anymore and we don’t even know what we’re doing here”

“Maybe” was all that he said, wanting for you to do something, but you were never one to beg for someone to love you, or something and even though you loved Charles with every beat of your heart you were tired so you just walked away even when you didn’t really wanted to but If you leaving was something that Charles really wanted you weren’t going to change his mind.

“So that’s exactly what I’ll do, I’ll leave so you can’t continue to self pity yourself and push everyone away” you sobbed as you grabbed the keys to your car but before you left but turned around one last time, as he watched you leave not even looking sorry or hurt. “The only thing I can’t really understand it’s why don’t you love me, but I guess that’s on you and not really me” you spat as you slammed the apartment door behind you.

By the time you got to the elevator you completely broke down, tears streaming down your face as you sobbed uncontrollably, and pressed on your chest as you felt like your heart was about to come out of your chest and the air on your lungs was missing, you just wanted to get out of there, far away from Charles and the apartment you had spent this last week so miserably.

You closed your eyes shut as you pressed your back against the wall of the elevator in a failed attempt to steady your breathing knowing the feeling that was coming all too well.

So you grabbed your phone and started dialing the number of your best friend and as his voice ringed in your ears, you felt a little relief as you spoke.

“Daniel? Ca-Can you come and pick me up” you sobbed in the phone.

“What? What happened?” The worry was clear on the Australian’s voice as the sound of clattering and keys was made in the other side of the line.

“Char— Charles and I had a fig— please” was the only sentence you could form as a door slammed on his side.

“I’m on my way” he said as he hung up, and you started sobbing again in the elevator floor.

The words still repeating in the back of your mind as you felt your entire word crash beneath you.

Why?

Why?

Why?

Why? Why? Why?

Why won’t you love me?

[pizzaboerr]

From nothing to something.

(Sanji x reader, part 3)

part 1 , part 2

Summary: Ready for the big adventure, Nami and you decided to run a few more errands, asking Nami if she could teach you hor to fight and defend yourself. Little did you know, it wasn’t her that was gonna teach you how to do so.

Word count: 2,5K words.

Content warnings: Mostly fluff, mentions of fighting (practice)

Authors note: The support I got on the last few parts have been amazing, I can’t thank you all enough! Let me know what you think and what you want to see next! Also I have a question. Do you want me to continue this story without uploading other one shots or stories, or make one shots (about other characters maybe?) while still writing this story?

P.S.: Sorry if there are sentences that are grammatically incorrect, English isn’t my first language, so my apologies in advance.

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The first night on the ship was a long one to say the least. It took you longer than usual to fall asleep. You’ve never been on a ship before and even though it was still at the dock, the waves kept you awake. It was around 4AM before you drifted off to sleep.

The voice of Nami woke you up. “Good morning sunshine, ready for the big adventure?” She asked while she was already getting ready. “What’s the time?” You asked sleepily while sitting up. She smiled. “It’s 8AM, I need to run a few more errands, want to join me?” She looked at you while she smiled slightly. “Sure, let me get ready, I’ll be ready in 10 minutes?” It sounded more like a question but Nami nodded. “I’ll ask Sanji to prepare some sandwiches that we can take with us.” You smiled back at her. “Thanks Nami, I’ll be right behind you.”

You stood up from your bed, grabbed an oversized sweater and a skinny jeans and got dressed. You quickly combed your hair, put on your glasses and looked into the mirror you had in your shared room. “This will do for today.” You smiled into the mirror before sighing and leaving your room.

You passed the kitchen and went straight to the deck, seeing Nami lean on one of the polls that held up the mast. She smiled and jumped off the ship onto the dock. You followed her lead, tripping and falling. “Totally my intention.” You laughed while you got up and dusted off your pants. “Very smooth y/n, I’m impressed. Can you teach me that someday?” Nami was laughing loudly. You laughed and nodded. “Of course, if you teach me how to fight.” Nami nodded and started walking. “That’s a deal.”

You went to a few shops, gathering the last things you all needed for your big adventure. After dropping everything off at the ship, Nami and you decided to walk around the town for a bit, one final time.

You smiled at everyone you saw and showed Nami everything that meant something to you. She followed you quietly and looked around. “You ready to leave Loguetown?” She asked while you were about to point at your old house. You turned around with tears in your eyes. “Yeah, definitely. It’s just.-” You looked down as one tear escaped your eyes and landed on the ground. “-I-I’m nervous. This is the first time I’ll be leaving this place, the place I have all of my memories and grew up in.” You smiled sadly.

Nami wasn’t the hugging type, but seeing that you had the same feelings as she once had, she stepped forward and pulled you into a tight hug. You smiled into the hug and took a deep breath. Nami let you go after a minute or two and you looked at her. “Thank you Nami, you are amazing.”

You grabbed her hand and walked away, this time for real. You looked back at your house and waved, as if your house would wave back. Nami just laughed as she noticed you weren’t gonna let go of her hand any time soon.

When you arrived back at the ship, you were still holding Nami’s hand. Zoro and Usopp looked at each, very confused of the situation. You and Nami smiled, she let go of your hand as she let you go onto the ship first. “Thank you.” You laughed towards Nami, while you gave her a hand to help her up. She nodded and as she walked by, as to say thank you back. She winked at Zoro and Usopp, creating more confusion.

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“Zoro, Nami, Usopp, you know what to do!” Luffy yelled excitedly as he sat down on top of the giant sheep head they had on the ship, meanwhile you were at the back of the ship, looking at Loguetown. “Y/N!” You heard someone yell. You saw your boss standing at the dock. “Good luck and save travels. Keep in touch please?” He yelled. You smiled and before you knew it, you were crying. You blew him a kiss and waved until you didn’t see him anymore.

You were still crying as Loguetown disappeared from your vision. You hadn’t noticed that Sanji was standing a few feet away from you. You smiled and wiped away your tears. You turned around and got startled by Sanji. He chuckled and sheepishly waved. “Hi, I- uh didn’t mean to scare you. Just checking up on you.” He smiled soflty.

You nodded. “I’m okay, thank you Sanji.” You said as you walked past him. ‘If he could ignore you, you could try to do the same, at least for a little while.’ You thought to yourself.

Sanji stood there speechless. He looked at the ocean for a second before lighting a cigarette and taking a big hit, trying to process what just happened.

You walked towards Nami who was busy studying the maps. “This doesn’t make sense.” She mumbled looking up from the maps as you just stood there, trying not to interrupt her. “Need help?” You asked while you took a step closer to look at the maps she had placed on a barrel in front of her. “Yes please.” She smiled.

“See, from what I’m seeing here it isn’t possible to go this way, even though it’s the only way.” She pointed at the map. “Yes but it’s true. I read it somewhere, let me get the book. I’ll be right back.” You said as you hurried into your room. You grabbed a few books and started to browse through them. “Here it is.” You mumbled to yourself as you closed the book and made your way back to Nami.

You made your way back and opened the book next to Nami. “It says here, that it is a mountain of some sorts. There is one way up there and it is very much possible. The only thing we have to look out for, are the stone pillars. If you crash into them, the ship will be destroyed.” You closed your book and looked back at Nami, who looked relieved. “That makes sense. Thank you.” You smiled. “Great, now the reason I came here; When are you gonna teach me how to fight and defend myself?” You looked at her as she stayed silent for a few seconds.

“Well I talked to the boys over there-“ She said while she pointed at Zoro and Sanji who were, at this point basically fighting. “And they are willing to teach you. Well Zoro can teach you how to defend yourself, and Sanji can teach you how to fight.” You looked back at Nami, completely in shock. “You did what?!” You yelled, causing the boys to stop fighting and to turn around.

Nami looked at you and laughed. “They are great fighters, better than I am, so you should be thanking me y/n.” She said winking at you. You dramatically placed a hand on your forehead and sighed. “Nami I thought we were friends!” This caused her to laugh. She pushed you into the direction of Sanji and Zoro and smiled. “You’ll be alright. Tell me everything tonight.” You gave her a nasty glare and with that you made your way to them.

“Hi.” You said towards Zoro and Sanji, once you stood in front of them. “I heard Nami asked you both if you could maybe teach me how to fight and defend myself, so here I am. Sorry that Nami asked you, I would’ve done so myself if-“ Zoro interrupted you by chuckling. “You don’t have to be nervous waiter. Sanji is going to teach you the basics about fighting and he’s going to see what your specialties are, when you know the basics, I’ll take it from there, maybe teach you some sword fighting as well.” Zoro said nonchalantly while completely ingnoring Sanji.

You smiled and thanked Zoro as he walked away. You looked back at Sanji who just stood there, smiling. “Lets start tonight, after dinner.” Sanji suggested while looking at you for any hint of comformation. You smiled slightly. “Great.”

Sanji smiled and threw his cigarette away. He was almost at the door of the kitchen when he turned around. “Put on some warm but comfortable clothes Mademoiselle, I’ll take care of the rest.” With that he disappeared into the kitchen.

You looked back at Nami who was smiling and holding up both of her thumbs. “Seems like you got a date y/n.” She said teasingly. You rolled your eyes and walked towards your shared room. “Sure Nami, keep dreaming.” You said back. Luffy sho was still sitting on the sheeps head turned around. “Y/n got a date? With who?” He asked to Nami who just laughed.

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You were mentally preparing yourself for tonight. You already gotten ready; Now wearing some jogging pants, a croptop and over that, a hoodie. You put your hair in a ponytail and kept your glasses on for now. You were in the hammock, trying to relax a bit. You closed your eyes and accidentally fell asleep

You woke up an hour later, looking at the clock. 5:47PM. You sighed and got out of the hammock. You put your shoes back on and headed into the kitchen. Nami, Luffy and Sanji were there. You smiled and took a seat next to Luffy.

Luffy was extra smiley and jumpy around you. You ignored it while you got a drink. “So y/n. You got a date?” Luffy asked while you took a sip of the drink, startling you while you spit out your drink. You glared at Nami sho was crying of laughter. “N-no? Did Nami tell you that?” You asked confused, trying to figure out how he could’ve heard something like that.

Sanji who was getting the plates ready, smiled to himself. Luffy laughed. “That doesn’t matter, Just tell me who the lucky one is!” He yelled. Zoro and Usopp entered the kitchen, after hearing Luffy yell. “Great.” You mumbled to yourself as you took a seat next to Luffy again. “It isn’t a date Luffy. Just quit it already.” You almost pleaded, now slightly blushing. Luffy quickly dropped the subject as Sanji handed everyone their plate. You silently thanked him and he winked at you, causing you to look at your food immediately, ignoring his gaze.

Everyone was talking and enjoying dinner. You kept silent for most of the conversations, only awnsering when someone asked you something. Usopp told insane stories, occasionally causing everyone to roll their eyes but you were mesmerized by everything he told the group. Sanji was looking at you from the other side of the table. Every once in a while you caught him staring and quickly looking away but you didn’t think much of it.

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You stayed in the kitchen, helping Sanji clean. The faster Sanji learned you the basics, the quicker it would be done. Sanji grabbed a few water bottles and a some towels and looked at you. “Are you ready mademoiselle?” He slowly asked you. You smiled. “As ready as I can be.” Was all that you could say.

“Okay so first of all, is that I’m going to find out what your specialties are and what you are most comfortable with. We will work from there. If there is anything that you’re not comfortable with or if I’m ever huring you, you have to tell me. Okay love?” He said while guiding you towards the upper deck, placing everything down. You noticed that he tried to avoid your gaze. You stayed silent and once again nodded. “You have to use your words darling.” Sanji said turning around and now standing a few feet away from you.

“I-I understand.” You shakily said. Sanji smiled. “Good. Okay so to determine what you already know, I want you to attack me, as if we were fighting. Show me what you got sweetheart.” He said grinning. You sighed and took of your glasses. “Okay, just know, I never fought anyone.” You sheepishly said, placing your glasses down on one of the towels.

You charged towards him, before trying to punch him. When he blocked you, you immediately kicked him, causing him to lose his balance. You smiled and continued. It got heated in a matter of seconds, before he grabbed your arm and tripping you. You almost hit the deck as he pulled you back up, into his arms. “That was pretty impressive darling.” He panted as he let you go.

After a few hours teaching you how to perfect your punch and kick, you sat down and took off your hoodie, leaving you in your crop-top and jogging pants. You drank some water and stood up again. Sanji took off his coat and tie and also drank some water.

“Ready to try again? You’re getting better each time love.” Sanji smiled. “You must have a great teacher.” He cockily added while wiggling his eyebrows. You laughed and nodded. “Zoro is great indeed. I’ll make sure to tell him that you said that Sanji.” Sanji sighed and looked at you, somewhat defeated.

Once again you lost the ‘fight’. Even though you were sad about constantly losing, you learned a few new tricks and started to get your kicks and punches under control. One time you got close to winning, but nevertheless you still lost.

“Mademoiselle, as much as I enjoy this, I think we should call it a night.” Sanji said sitting down. You sat next to him, slightly leaning against him and nodded, while breathing heavily. “Yeah you’re absolutely right. I’m really tired.” You breathed out.

Sanji unbuttoned his top three buttons, and wiped his face with a towel. “Tomorrow same time?” He asked you while looking at you again. You looked at his, now exposed chest for a second and nodded. “Sounds good to me.” He chuckled. “Eyes up here love.” He teased.

You looked back up into his beautiful ocean eyes and blushed heavily. Lucky for you it was getting darker by the minute so hopefully he didn’t notice. “I could say the same thing to you Sanji, you’ve been eyeing my chest ever since I took off my hoodie.” It was now Sanji’s turn to blush. He looked away and laughed. “What can I say, you’re beautiful. It would be a shame if I didn’t look.” He said smiling.

You felt your heart beat faster and decided to leave before you could embarrass yourself. “Thank you for tonight Sanji.” You got up and grabbed your hoodie. He followed your lead and grabbed the empty water bottels and towels. He quickly grabbed your hand and kissed it. “Sweet dreams my love.”

You smiled at him and a yawn escaped your mouth. “Goodnight Sanji, sweet dreams.” You walked back to your room, seeing Nami wide awake in her bed. “Tell me everything.” You laughed and got ready for bed, while explaining every single detail.

[lcvesjj]

sharing the bed - Jennifer Jareau x Fem!Reader

Pairing : Jennifer Jareau x fem!Reader

Prompt : “move, you're taking up the whole freaking bed.” & “you’re freezing.”

Summary : a funny moment ensues while sharing a bed with JJ while on a case. 

Warnings : I don’t think there are any? 

A/n : this probably won’t make any sense since I wrote this while half asleep so sorry if it’s not the best 😭

Everyone was exhausted after finishing the case in Alaska and all you wanted was to go home and sleep. But there was a huge snowstorm which meant the plane couldn’t start or get in the air since it would be too dangerous.

Which only left everyone with one choice. Staying in Alaska till the storm is gone. Luckily there was a small motel close to the precinct, which meant you could all get some well deserved rest.

Walking into the motel you sighed softly, all you wanted was a hot shower and some sleep. Sitting down on the couches placed in the small reception place you look around at the magazines left on the coffee table. 

Watching Hotch walk back up to where you all were seated you smiled, being glad to finally rest. But today luck wasn’t on your side. It turns out they didn’t have enough rooms which meant you had to share a room.

“Me and Dave will share a room, Reid you’re with Morgan. And Y/l/n you’re with JJ. Everyone get some rest, take a shower and we will meet here in the morning.” Hotch said, handing out the keys to everyone. “C’mon Y/n let’s go.” JJ said getting up and nudging your shoulder softly. With a small groan you got up and followed her to your room. 

“Can I shower first?” JJ asked, opening the door with her key. “Yes of course.” You nodded

“Is it okay if we share a bed? Since that sofa doesn’t look comfortable.” She laughed softly looking at you with a small smile. “I don’t mind at all. I’m just so tired.” 

You took off your go bag and placed it on the left side of the bed near the window, since JJ already put her bag on the right side. After hearing the bathroom door click shut. You softly laid down on the bed groaning after hearing your back crack.

After JJ was done you quickly took a shower and got into the bed. “Goodnight Y/n/n.” She said, pulling the covers closer to her chin. “Goodnight Jayje.” You mumbled back before getting up and heading towards the shower.

A few hours later you woke up since it was freezing and JJ was taking up most of the bed. Shaking her shoulder you said “move, you're taking up the whole freaking bed.” “Huh” JJ woke up and looked over to you. “What’s wrong? What time is it?” She asked sleepily, sitting up on the bed. “You’re taking up the entire bed and I’m freezing. That’s what’s wrong and it’s just past 4am.” You replied. 

JJ laughed quietly at your words. “Try to maybe lay down and get some sleep.” JJ said, trying to get comfortable on the hard and uncomfortable bed. She reached over and touched your arm. “You’re freezing.” JJ exclaimed, looking over to you in concern. “C’mon I know how to stay warm.” She said, softly pulling you into her arms. Tiredly you simply let her since you didn’t have the energy to fight her now. “Now we can both stay warm.” She mumbled into your hair. “Thank you. I love you Jayje.” You whispered quietly. “Of course. Now sleep Y/n/n. You’ll need it for tomorrow. I love you too.” JJ said while gently playing with your hair. And before you knew it, you were asleep in JJ’s arms. JJ also fell asleep soon after you, she was also exhausted.

[floshav]

yearning for you pt.2

pairings: regulus black x fem!reader

read pt 1 here

warnings: bullying, mean draco, Regulus in the lightning era, sorta modern au cuz of phones, crying, fighting, Reader getting belittled, Snape showing a lil more emotion than he ever would, slight Self harm towards reader.

word count: 2k +

Y/n just can't seem to make anything any better.

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School was most definitely a bitch again. At least that was the excuse that kept her going for the whole week.

Constant late night calls with regulus finding comfort in his liquid smooth voice. Constant glares shot back and forth at the dining hall where they both sat at different tables so close yet so far. The tension between the two that had been created in less than 10 days was concerning. Even when they've never really hung out together in real life after the incident a week ago.

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"Hey drangea.." Regulus said voice raspy on call

It was around 4AM and the two had been chatting away for the last 4 hours when y/n decided she couldn't sleep.

"Hmm, yea?" Y/n said sleepily as she shifted in her sheets

"I think you most definitely can fall asleep now." He chuckled showing his irregular 2 front teeth which y/n loved so much.

"Yea...But question is... do i want to?" y/n yawned clearly tired

"You do. Speaking of which, i have a question.." Regulus hesitantly inquired eyes now wider than before

"Hm T'is the matter?"

"Would you like to sit with me at breakfast tomorrow?"Regulus started off slow knowing she hated the prospect of an activity which could dart eyes all over her.

"L-like together face to face in the great hall?"

"Yea drangea, what else would i be referring to." Regulus barked out a laugh at her stupidness

"Y-yea! totally should i come to you or-?"

"Nah, i'll come to you."

All the sleep had dissipated from her face. Y/n was scared. She knew draco and heather would be near where she usually sat and she couldn't bare the idea of Draco seeing someone else with her for some reason. Not to mention the fact that Daria had moved on so suavely to a new group of friends. So why was she enclosing herself into this chamber of miserable torture. She was allowed to experience nice things, and regulus being her friend was definitely something she wanted people to know about.

"okay! perfect. See you tomorrow?" Regulus cheered with a goofy smile on his face

"Yea. See you reggie." Y/n breathed with a small smile feeling a mixture of excitement and nervousness bloom in her chest. Okay maybe not a mixture but impurities of excitement and 99% nervousness.

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The covered sun had awoken y/n from her not so deep slumber. It was a gloomy day and y/n felt a pit of joy grow within her. These semi rainy days were definitely her favourite in the uk, though it was everyday usually, as of lately the sun had been a little too bright for her liking so today was going to be perfect. So she thought to herself quietly.

She woke up, her groggy mind fogged with the thought of having to sit with Regulus during breakfast which was in.... of course, 20 minutes. She swore she never woke up this late, why today out of all days universe?

After putting on her best smelling perfume which was of a scent called "lions domain" ( she still has no idea why it's called that ) she felt.... not so confident as ever like the perfume had advertised to make people feel.

What bullshit marketing y/n thought to herself before pacing her way down the spiral staircase.

She got used to the physical loneliness, especially since Daria had been her only friend in hogwarts ever since they were 11. It shattered her already broken heart into more minuscule pieces knowing Daria moved on so easily and yet she couldn't. What was wrong with her?

She tried to not think much of it as time grew shorter with each longing step she strode.

There he was, gorgeous black waves framing his defined cheekbones. His pretty eyes locked on whatever he was currently picking at. The one loose strand of hair effortlessly dangling on the crease of his eyebrow. The sight alone made y/n's heart jump like a mad man. But of course, the feeling she was feeling wasn't only because of regulus' killer looks, but because Draco and Heather were seemingly whispering whatever the hell to each-other whilst staring back at Regulus occasionally.

It's not like Regulus and y/n had been so close to a point where if anyone did anything to piss the other off, they'd probably be sorry. Yet, why was y/n feeling a growth of anger and destruction bloom in her chest? Draco who once looked like a fallen angel in her eyes, suddenly grew to look like satans spawn.

Just as y/n hopes to slither in without anyone noticing, Regulus caught guard of her and shouted a quick greeting.

Ugh. Reggie why. Why!!

"Y/n! Finally. Merlin what took you so long."

Why was he in this god awful cheery mood? She thought to herself

They were definitely complete opposites. As her favourite muggle artist once said, he was sunshine she was midnight rain.

"What? you took hormone pills or something this morning? What's got you so cheery"

"n'thin was just looking forward to seeing you" Regulus said with a twinge of sadness in his tone covered by a honey warm smile

"I was looking forward to seeing you too Reggie." Y/n sensed the signals she was sending him, and tried to tone down her bitch-e-ness

"It's great to finally see your face, not so....."

"...Pixelated?" y/n laughed before eyeing the food regulus had been mindlessly pushing around

"Hey eat your toast, you're gonna need it to fuel your talkative vocal cords." Y/n smiled whilst lightly rolling her eyes

"Yea, yea i will mom" regulus deadpanned with a fake smile

"Oi, what're you doing hanging out with a freak?"

Here it was. Just as everything was going fine, something, just something had to go south.

"What'd you say ferret?" Y/n barked back sick and tired of his bullshit

"The hell you call me?"

"Ferret. Ferret, ferret, ferret" y/n repeated just to spite him

"Y/n he's not worth it, c'mon." Regulus said now standing up.

Merlin. He was definitely a good few inches taller than draco, making the situation look even worst for the blonde boy.

The attention turned towards Regulus hot and boiling.

"You're not worth it, considering even your brother left you. What a shame." Draco yapped whilst chuckling at his own stupidity

"Alright that's about where I draw the line."

Were regulus' final words before shoving Draco clamouring into a table, metal spoons and goblets splashing aimlessly.

"Regulus, he's not worth it!" this time it was her warning him (ironically).

"The fuck?" Regulus panted as Draco attempted to shove him back. pathetically

"You would never live up to be as brave as your brother anyway." shove "He'll always be the better one for moving away from your god awful house"

"Don't you dare talk about Sirius!" The subject was clearly sensitive to Regulus as he punched Draco in the face almost missing by a beat.

By now a scene had formed around the trio, all chanting 'fight fight fight!' As Regulus continued to beat the already bloodied Draco. Let's be honest, Draco was all talk no game. So he definitely didn't have the upper hand here.

"What's the commotion?" The voice of a stern and deep yet unbothered professor slurred

By now professor snape had seen his two dearest slytherin boys getting all bloodied and bruised up like little children fighting over who played with what toy. (Except even children were more civilised than whatever this is.)

"Draco! Regulus!" He sternly yelled. The amount of anger flooding his tone was surprising to say the least.

"Or should i say little boys!" He yelled even fiercer

"This behaviour... is the type of a muggles school!" The crowd gasped

The crowd went silent, eyes darting from one another, waiting for the next ripple to send the stream into action. But there was a familiar face that sent y/n's mind into anything but silence. Daria. Oh how she missed Daria.

"N-no! It was y/n. She provoked them." The silence had to be diminished by a voice dripping in fake innocence. Heather.

"Oh really..."

"Y/n is this-"

Y/n was tired.

"No. No it really wasn't. C'mon professor, you really believe this yellow haired dog?"

"The hell you call me freak?" Heather yelled before stomping over, but was quickly stopped by Regulus' lean strong arm.

"Don't you fucking move a step towards her."

"Language!" Snape yelled even more furious than the last two times.

"Y/n, This is no way to go about school! Yes we are all tired and sick of life sometimes, you're not any different. So stop being the provoker of all these.... these horrible things!" Snape took his last breath before grabbing the arms of the two boys whilst stomping off into an unbeknownst direction.

Stupid bitch. y/n blamed herself whilst clutching her fists until a tiny pop of blood started to work its way out, slowly making its way to the ground as gravity does.

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Even though worried to the worst sickness there was on planet earth, she sat there. All alone with the breeze tangled up in her hair. It was the same spot she'd stumbled across Regulus in. The same dim dark rooftop looking off into oblivion. You could imagine it was merlin's hell type of cold, yet she still sat there, wondering why everything she was involved with always had to link back to something bad.

Eveytime something good happened, it was evident something bad was going to eventually follow. Just like rain. One could love it, yet it was evident sunlight was bound to appear again.

Sigh

She thought back to earlier today, how she remembered seeing Daria's face in the crowd. Her face disgusted and frightened, as if it wasn't her best friend facing the girl who took away her once man. She grimaced at the thought of Daria. It brought back too much pain remembering how the old Daria would stand up for her.

Creak

Y/n whipped her head around to be faced with a tired yet worried Regulus. There was 'wizards' brand plaster littered all over his face. His nose, his eyebrows, his lips. Was it wrong for her to think that he looked really good right now?

"Regulus." Y/n sighed before helping herself up

They both stood there in silence, not the comfortable type but the type where there was something, just something lingering in the air.

"Y/n.." He said with a small soft smile played on his lips, before that soft smile turned into a small fit of laughter. Not the mocking kind, but the kind that spoke did that really just happen?

Y/n quickly joined in before running into Regulus' embrace. The thought had grazed her mind a couple times, what it'd feel like to be held by him, to be touched by him.... to be loved by him.

It felt weird at first, i mean they've only known each-other for a week or so, yet the feeling was comfortable way faster than it would be with anyone else.

"Drangea... H-hey look at me." Regulus whispered eyes glossy as if he just cried a river of sorrow.

"Yes? Did we finally get justice? Did draco finally get, anything? Just anything to punish him?" Y/n said with pleading eyes, searching his as if they had an answer

"No. I-i." Regulus sighed

"I got suspended for a month." He finally let out

At this point they weren't in a hug anymore, but they were inches away from eachother... inches, yet it felt like miles.

"What?!"

"Yea. Cruel huh? This school."

"Now this school is actually being a bitch!"

He chuckled

"It always has been. Can you imagine? The first time we properly try to hang out and all this shit happens."

"Y-yea." She looked down

"I-i'm sorry. i'm- i'm just like this bad luck charm y'know? every time i'm involved with something, it always goes south" Y/n said with tears starting to fog up her vision. She tried to hide it, but she miserably failed.

"Hey! No. Don't you ever fucking say that. Merlin y/n. You are not a bad luck charm." He sighed a long sad sigh, wishing she knew her own worth.

"It's okay. I-i gotta go." Y/n sniffled before running out the door Regulus had just entered in a frenzied rush.

"W-Wha-" Regulus tried to say before dropping it knowing she wouldn't be here to hear it.

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Ohohoho.... cliff hanger lol only because if i write anymore, i'm gonna end up with like 5k words 😭 I promise to post pt.3 this week though! Thank u to the two that requested a part 2 love u💓 hahah

[aramatientediada]

So, I started to use antidepressants

Since depression is the main topic in this site I decided to share my experience here.

My psychologist said to me see a psychiatrist or general physician for medicine prescription. In the public health system we have to talk with the general doc to get a specialist anyway.

I asked for psychiatrist and the doc offered an agreement, he'd give me a medicine and if it don't work in 15 days then he'll refer me to the psychiatrist.

He didn't give any detail about the medicine, besides to take it once a day.

I meet with the psychologist that day. She reacted to the fact that the doc prescribed a whole pill instead half and she make it very clear I have to take it in the morning and only in the morning because it gives me "disposition".

I took it 6 am and then read leaflet (I know I know but I tent to trust the doctors). So, NOBODY WAS GOING TO TELL ME I CAN'T DRIVE OR OPERATE HEAVY MACHINES WHILE USING THAT? I mean, I don't drive, but I have license so... I might.(!)(?)

Don't you hate it when you take a medicine for a thing and the side effects include that thing? I had this experience with others medicines before, but at least with the allergy one it made sense.

Somewhere between 8 and 10 am I started to VERY SLEEPY. Where was my desired disposition? I also felt other foreseen symptoms, like much mental blurriness and a bit of nausea in certain moments.

High, I was high but without the "good part" of feeling high we get with alcohol. Only the bad part.

This all got some better in the evening, but before the nigh I was very sleepy again. Probably something to do with I woke up before 4am?

Now is the next day. I hold my sleepiness and only went to bed around 9 or 10 pm but wake up by myself before 6. Which now that I look at it was a very good sleep time.

I wake up with residual sleep, but with a bit of "disposition" . Still a bit of that "bad high" feeling and The Confusion™.

Disobeying medical orders I took only half pill today, now lets see how the day goes.

At this moment you must be asking "But what about the intended effect? What about what really matters? Does it work".

Yes... and maybe.

I don't know how far it's actually working or is the placebo effect. I was actually feeling a lil better since my psych said to me ask for medicine. And a lot better having the prescription in hands. It's what Lori Gottlieb mentioned in "Maybe You Should Talk to Someone", the hope for a "cure" that makes us fell better for itself. (Hope actually has great medicinal power according science)

I can say that while physically I'm feeling a lil trash, emotionally I'm... perfectly normal!

Which is a humongous upgrade!

Not more that psychological enormous pain, that despair, that dread of living. Even though all the things in my life that make me fell worthless, in danger, without future, hopeless, powerless are still there!

Now those thing are just bothersome things that exist, but no more thing that make me want to cease exist every time I think about 'em.

I feel as wanting to unalive yourself is not a feeling, neither a desire or any natural part of the brain but a malfunction! Ok ok, we know the depression itself is already a malfunction, but I'm talking about the will to end yourself.

I'm not feeling a super love for live, that sweet feeling of wanting to live, but neither to stop living. And I don't feel that only the feelings and rationalization that give me suicidal intention were vanished, because they weren't (completely), but the intention itself is unable to exist.

Bad though are just bad toughs and nothing else, not triggers.

Is this how normal people feel? Is this how the people who never want to end themselves feel even when everything is terrible in their lives? Is this how they can fight back?

What a delicious feeling, I wish I could have it without the sleepy and nausea.

[rose-pearls]

Hiii! I have more thoughts about Kazansky- Mitchell so buckle in..

1) she is definitely Ice’s female mini, even facial expressions it’s insane. Maverick has seen them having silent conversations in the living room.

2) I feel like little kazanksy-Mitchell was the perfect student, good grades, perfect attendance. Growing up with two days was different, Y/n didn’t care because she loved them no matter what(I’m thinking she’s 11-13 in this part). So some kid is being homophobic, Bradley tells him to knock it off. Of course the kid laughs and keeps on.

So little K-M finally has enough and beats this kid up and I feel like she has blind anger. It’s at school so kids are cheering and laughing because the school bully is getting his ass kicked by little miss perfect. Of course Bradley sees teachers and tried to get her off of the bully but she accidentally head butts him. Eventually the football coach gets Y/n off, drags her to the principal and her fathers are called. Maverick is in shock that his little princess is even the office, he thought the call was over Bradley. To his shock Y/n is sitting outside the office with a busted lip and tear stained cheeks. She knew Ice would be furious she got into trouble for fighting. Maverick was the only one that could get there to her. After the principal talks to Mav. Maverick takes y/n with him leaving Bradley at school for the day. She thinks he’s gonna be mad and yell at her. But he takes her for ice cream and finds out why she fought. He is honored that his 11 year old daughter defended his and Ice’s relationship but they were in the military they had heard some shitty stuff they just ignored it.

3) I feel Ice reads when he’s not working, every night he has his glasses on with Maverick or Y/n perched on the side of the chair. Y/n used to crawl into Ice’s lap and let him read a f-18 manual to her. Maverick took a picture of them cuddled up reading. He keeps it in his wallet

4) despite Maverick not being Y/n’s bio dad, he loves her like she is own which she is legally. Y/n was ices mini me so she would shake her head at Maverick when he did something stupid. But she remembers when he she crawled into his bed one night after a thunderstorm. Y/n was about 6, Ice was on leave, it was a bad storm. After thunder woke her out of her sleep she grabbed her stuffed dragon, Ser Lance a lot and tapped Mav’s face. Mav woke up seeing the tiny blond at his side of the bed trying not to cry. Soon Y/n was holding on to Mav’s neck and not Ser lance. Maverick woke up soon as the clock hit 4am the navy had altered his natural alarm clock. He was so happy Y/n wanted him to comfort her last night, he knew it was probably hard having two dads that were always gone.

4) Bradley and Y/n are extremely close and have been siblings forever it seems like. I’m time jumping a little, they’re at Top Gun and Hangman is being Hangman. Y/n didn’t like him the day she met him up probably because they both wanted to be on top. She gives him hell after he is snotty to Bradley, he has asked her out so many times already. Deep down Hangman knows Y/n would kill him in heartbeat. Bradley is protective of her she is like a sister to him, his best friend. He always knew about her boyfriends before she brought them home. Always blurted out she was seeing someone.

I can’t wait for more baby Icemav content from you 🩷🩷

Omg you don't know how happy your message made me, it made my entire week!!!

I love every single thought you have written about the little family and if you don't mind I will absolutely use it in the story!! If you have anymore thoughts please tell them they are so incredible and I love reading them <33

It's funny because I had planned to make story line with Hangman and her but it wasn't the one you talked about at first but I could integrate it. It would make sense with her sibling relation with Bradley! But more on Hangman's story later...

And there will definitely be more baby Iceman content and the backstory of how little y/n came into their lives!

Once again thank you for the message I think I read it ten times and couldn't stop smiling at the thoughts you had written!

[nataliesnews]

Marla, Chana Stein's daughter in law, said that with the winter coming, the displaced people, some of whom who left in the clothes they were wearing, needed warm coats.  I put a notice on the whatsapp of Nofim  and less than 24 hours later this is the picture you are seeing.

The PDFs I am sending you all show how quickly and surely Israel is falling into line with countries like Russia, Korea, China......need I go on. The Ben Gvirs and their like are trying to shut the mouths of Israelis. Twice already Jews and Arabs have not been allowed to meet. All this is what is now scaring me internally more than what is happening on the West Bank. It is exactly what I wrote months ago I thought would happen.

Last night also there was a memorial service for the fallen and also for our kidnapped people. The service took place at Kikar Paris which is directly below the King's hotel. The balcony was crowded with a religious crowd and I was disgusted to see that they brought out a loudspeaker and started to play David King of Israel. etc. so as to drown the service out. Two of us went and complained to the soldiers and it was then stopped. Maybe amongst them are those who serve in the army and who work but I doubt it if they have so little respect for those who fell and will fall defending them and for those mourning for those who have been kidnapped. 

At Irit and Yaakov he said to me in a joke that maybe for this period I should try eating only kosher ....I said that I had tried religion and had not got very far. He said , "But you have lived till 84"....I said that was the problem. 

This is the evidence of a Zaka worker. If you want to donate I strongly suggest them. They have had the most terrible of jobs, worse even than when buses exploded and I think that they will need much treatment afterwards.

 I think of the survivors and can only hope that, as they somehow recovered, that the families of those killed and the hostages  will somehow be able to do the same. But last night at the UN demonstration , as the names were read out, I felt such grief and then suddenly I had no feeling in me. It was as if I was emptied of feeling. 

Arab ZAKA worker: 'I had no idea where to start'; Oct. 7 massacre an affront to Islam

-And this is an affront to Judaism as I think it should be and not the first time it has happened. According to the very religious even if you fight for Israel or live in Israel and you are killed, you will pollute the Juden rein cemeteries. And these laws are made to please those who do not serve in the army and who happily take the money of secular citizens. 

This evening with the families at the Knesset one of the speakers whose name unfortunately I do no remember and I apologise, said something which should be put on a banner.

Netanyahu's brother, Yonnie, died to save the hostages at Entebbe.

Benjamin Netanyahu is willing to let the let the hostages die to save himself.

Hell is too good for him. Dante's Inferno would not find a low enough place for him. I wrote this on facebook and then was scared I would be arrested and at 4am  I woke up and thought I should change it.  To think that I ,in a democratic country should be scared. But you can see from the PDFs why.  Someone asked me yesterday if I were prepared to die for Israel. I always thought I was but now I ask myself if I leave behind me an Israel which is nationalistic and religious is that what my life was about. Is that what I gave up my family for?  I did not  think this at the time but now in the era of the rabid settlers and I know that they are in the minority, of Netanyahu and his crazy family, Ben Gvir and crazy rabbis, I think of it often. 

I am sending you a link which you should only read if you are prepared to be horrified. Viewer discretion is advised. If you want to see other links......, October 7 Haaretz" . But this one is really bad. So be warned. I again say we made a mistake not showing the full video which people saw. 

I woke up at four in spite of taking pills. I had zigzagging for my eyes which happens when I am under stress. I went for acupuncture and for the first time could not fall  asleep. I hope that I sleep tonight as tomorrow I am going to the funeral of a woman who was first thought to have been kidnapped and then it turned out that her body was so badly    burnt that she had to be identified by DNA. I know, that is the same as has been happening in Israel.  Many Moslems have said that Hamas is not the Moslem way and I understand. The way of the  extreme settlers is not the way of true Judaism.  I often asked myself before if I would die for a nationalistic religious Israel. I can only pray that  if Israel does not survive, the Jews of the diaspora will. To build an Israel that I wish today I could believe in.  A friend today said you should think of good things.....and I cannot think of anything good. 

The world today is criticizing us.....I think of other  countries who have never been through what Jews over the centuries have been through and what we are going through again. I wonder if one day those countries will fall under the hands of Hamas and  will remember these days and realise that they too were blind. Today they see Gaza and I can grieve too for the people living there ....or not living .....but first let us have our people back. Then I can grieve for others. 

Preview YouTube video GRAPHIC: Israeli Paramedic's shocking account of October 7 Hamas attacks (Watch)

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[ddonovanrp]

Sitting around the clubhouse the mood was dark. A whole day had gone to shit first thing this morning. Starting with the phone call that woke Damian up at 4am and ended with the fight that just took place. Outside of Tyler's tattoo shop a small group from an MC the next county over had decided to attempt their hand at the big games. Between Damian, Tyler, Issac and a few more of the club's hang-arounds the men were shown how the real clubs handle business. Now sitting at the bar in the lobby of the clubhouse Damian sighed, his bloody hands going to wipe down his face, tension tightening the features of the man. "This is fucking insane. What makes them think they could even begin to hold a candle to us? I think it was a set up. They were being used as dummies or something..they've always been a small group, keeping to themselves. Someone had to convinve them they could be more." he told the group of men sitting around the tables. "I don't know, D. Maybe they just thought it was time they joined the big leagues?" A face from the side replied. "Nah..I agree with Donovan. There had to be more to the story we don't know." "All I know is I'm over this shit already. Let's hope that was the last of it and they don't try that stunt again." Damian said. "In the meantime..it's 130 in the morning and I'm fucking exhausted. I'm going home." he said as he stood up and took a few steps towards the door. "Don't get too drunk guys." he teased as he exited the building and lit a cigarette as he made his way to his bike before finally heading home. ________________________________ ->1.18.2018

[kevinsteen]

WHEN DID YOU GO TO BED? you were up so late :((

also i just woke up from the most insane dream ever… it was the royal rumble and there was a bunch of ppl already in the ring and it was time for sami to come out and when he did he was walking down the ramp with kevin and they both gave knowing glances at each other and sami had the same look as he did back in his nxt days. ALSO the rock came out as #30 and ran after roman and they both ended up fighting, i don’t rlly remember much else in the dream lmaoo

oh.. hehe...... i went to bed at 4am :') i woke up at a normal time but i didn't get out of bed until 4pm hehe.

your dream sounds very fun lmao. i like that even in the dreamverse we cannot escape the rock maybe making an appearance at the rumble..............

my dream.. well. i dreamt about piss.

[frogsister87]

The last person you kissed treat you right?

Honestly, I barely know him lol

Would you be shocked if the last person you had feelings for texted you?

Yes

Is this upcoming year going to be a good one for you?

We can always hope

What if you had a baby with the last person you texted?

That would not be good

Who knows your biggest secrets?

Me

Do you care if people hate you for no reason?

Nah

Are you in a good mood?

Eh, I’m coming down from a good mood

Does it bother you when people respond with one word texts?

Depends on what we’re talking about I suppose

Are you starting to realize anything?

I think so

Did you have braces?

Yes

Have you ever ran from your own parents?

In a way, yes

Are you afraid of clowns?

Not anymore

Is there someone you are dying to see?

No

Do you have any hickeys on you?

I don’t think so

Are you currently looking forward to anything?

Not really

Is your hair long enough to put in a ponytail?

Kind of

Is love worth fighting for?

I don’t know anymore

Is there anyone you wish you could be spending time with right now?

Yes

Will this Friday be a good one?

Probably not

Could you picture yourself getting married and having kids?

Not really

What is your current mood?

Content

Did the last person you kissed name start with a J, C, B, I, R, S, Q, L or A?

Nope

Who last poked you on Facebook?

Wow, I have no idea

Is it harder to be rejected or to reject someone else?

I don’t know they’re both pretty hard

What did you fall asleep thinking about last night?

A lot of stuff

Who is someone who puts up with you no matter what?

My family

Last person to call you?

My grandma

Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”?

No

Do you like to take walks?

Sure

Were you happy when you woke up today?

Yeah but I was very tired

When was the last time you cried?

Christmas Day I think

Can you honestly say you’re okay right now?

I guess

What are you planning on doing after this?

Maybe eat

Do you crack your knuckles?

Yeah

Will tomorrow be better than today?

No

Is there a girl you would do anything for?

Yeah

Is there a boy you would do anything for?

Yes

Who IMed you on facebook last?

Tiffy

What were you doing at 4am?

Sleeping

Have you ever liked someone who treated you badly?

Yep

Are you a jealous person?

Yes

Hate the last person you kissed?

Nah he’s alright

Are you someone who hates to read?

No

When was the last time you went in the car past midnight?

I don’t know actually

What was the last thing you ate?

Angel food cake

Who was the last person to text you?

My grandma

How is your hair?

Thin

Could things possibly get any better?

Yes very much so

What color shirt are you wearing?

Red

How important are looks to you?

In a partner, pretty important I guess

Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?

I felt like it

Is your hair longer than your shoulders?

No

The shirt you’re wearing, does anyone else have it?

Probably somewhere

What was the last movie you watched?

Encanto

Did you straighten your hair this morning?

Nope

Who would you like your next “fling” to be with?

That is a very interesting question

Is any part of your body sore?

My head

Do you like the rain?

No

When you cry, do your eyes change colors?

No

Were your last two kisses with the same person?

Nope

Will you be in a relationship in the next couple months?

Probably not

Do you have trust issues?

Not really

Have you been kissed by someone with the name starting with J, B, C, or S?

Not b

Do you have alcohol in your house?

Yeah

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?

Yep

Have you ever woken up next to someone and were freaked out?

No

You’re locked in a room with the person you last kissed, any problems?

No that would be fun

Would you ever get a tattoo?

I have several already so sure

Could you see yourself dropping out of high school?

I made it through high school

Have you ever kissed someone who smokes?

Yes

What are you listening to at this moment in time?

I’m not sure what this song is called

How are you wearing your hair?

Down

If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?

Heck yes

Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?

Yes

Did you ever kiss someone with a tattoo?

Yes

When is the last time you were at a beach?

June

Think back to October, were you with someone?

Nope

[brownyy]

CNF PERFORMANCE TASK

Travelogue: Hector A. Badol 12-GAS

Place: Maasim, Sarangani Province

Event: Bike²

A morning full of regrets and Suffering the story of the boy who choose to woke up early to ride instead of sleeping until 6am. It all started in s simple “Tara asa mn ta?” And a simple planning we planned to travel to Maasim, saraggani province. I woke up early in the morning 3am turn on the heater to drink some milo (to became a champion in here heart charot) we planned last night that we will have a long ride and 7 of us agreed but when we meet up only 3 showed up.

3:30am I’m preparing to go to our meet up place I told my dad that I’m going to Tupi for a Morning exercise but he doesn’t know that I’m going to maasim. 4am in the morning I arrived at our meet up place a moment ago my friends arrived and I was in total shock that only three of us will ride this morning instead of 7 and then we prepare and finally we started our hellish adventure.

We’re riding in the cold breeze of the wind along with the lights beside the road it was a total perfection at first, able to feel the cold while chatting with your friends, 10 minutes later we arrived at the round ball of General Santos city and we continue riding straight until the you see the traffic lights and we take a right turn and continued straight until you arrived at the Arc of Sarangani. Just continue riding straight until you past the Pacquiao beach and Susan Beach then you’ll see a Large object above the road and beside the road is a beautiful sea side to take a rest.

A lovely breeze and smell of the ocean a beautiful scenery you will See and as you continue to ride you will arrived at a slope and you’ll see a signage that tells “Check your Brakes” and just continue straight until you arrived at maasim then take a left turn and take a rest at their municipal park. We feel exhausted and Tired as the sun continue to rise and we take a 1hour brake and eat out breakfast at 8am at the morning we ate to our full and take pictures. You can see their beautiful municipality and you can take pictures everywhere the Sky’s are blue and the road is good a little bit of bumps the three’s are big and beautiful the breeze of the wind is cold the scenery is beautiful you’ll past beaches and many sea sides many rock formations but the disadvantages of riding a bike is you’ll get tired but everything will pay off when you see the beauty of nature.

And when we finished eating we take a rest and talk about our plan for our phase and strategy to make sure we will go home alive. The sun is starting to hurt so we need to put our arm sleeves and continue to ride and fight a strong tail wind and a steep road were phasing about 10-13kph the sun is Burning our skin and we’re out of water luckily there’s a nearby store and we refill our water bottles and continue to ride and then we arrived at the arc of saraggani and we take a brake and we bought some fish ball to reduce our hunger and then we continue time check about 11am in the morning the heat of the sun is extreme due to climate change there’s no wind blowing you can only feel the heat of the sun then we arrived at the round ball of Gensan and take a brake and continue to ride after a 30min break it’s already 12noon and I’m already in the verge of death I only have 30pesos to spend on my lunch and we still have 17km to ride.

And finally I arrived at my home at 1pm and take a rest and make a flashback on my hottest travel of my life but it’s all worth it because I saw different scenery and the feeling of satisfaction, overall that was my last ride on my bike because school year is about to start I will rate it 11/10 on the cold wind then the burning sun and the beautiful places and new experience another prove that everything is possible if you have dedication and you love what ur doing my favorite experience of my life and the most amazing I’ve ever felt in my life was riding a bike talking with friends and discover new things and and new adventure so that’s all for my travelogue thank you

[jjuzoir]

Blue Hour | Sanzu Haruchiyo

synopsis: It’s at 4AM that Sanzu suddenly realizes how much you mean to him.

word count: 1676

event: #𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐘 𝐁𝐈𝐑𝐓𝐇𝐃𝐀𝐘 𝟐 𝐌𝐄⁉

a/n: sanzu has been sober for almost a year now, possible OOC (i can’t write mean men, i’m sorry (TT)) also he might be a bit OOC but personally… there’s also allusions to alcoholism and him thinking about relapsing into alcohol, also! he’s unhealthy dependent on you (i kinda want to write a second part where he learns to not rely on you for his self worth). it’s definitely something new for me – idk if i’m the happiest ever with this but… it’s been 3 days w/ no update and it’s ~ s t r e s s i n g ~

Sanzu Haruchiyo had little to no fears – at least, that’s what he liked to believe, and he did so for many years.

But then you came into his life and became someone precious to him, and what was he supposed to do the more you cemented yourself deeper in his heart? The more time you two spent together, the more he fell deeper in love with you, the more Sanzu couldn’t imagine a life without you. And just like that, the once fearless gang member now had something that made his blood run cold:

Losing you.

Unlike Mikey, you weren’t used to gang fights – you weren’t weak, he knew that (and he’d spent countless hours teaching you how to defend yourself in case of any emergency), but what if someone pulled a knife? What if it was a three against one situation? What if they ambushed you? Gangs didn’t always fight fairly, there was a high chance you’d get hurt. And no matter how many times you assured him you’d learnt the best ways to take of yourself, that you began carrying the pepper spray and army knife he’d gifted you, he could never bring himself to stray too far from you. You were far too precious to him and he hated how much he’d grown dependent on you – you had him completely wrapped around your finger and you didn’t even seem to notice or misuse the power that brought.

Behind the stone cold mask he’d wear lay an ever flowing fountain of love and adoration for you, even if it didn’t seem like it from the outside looking in, Sanzu had sworn to protect and love you as long as you’d allow him to.

There was already the risk of you getting hurt because of his line of work, he was a gang member and you were a civilian – you had a part time job and went to school meanwhile he was out there getting into fights and threatening people with knifes, you had never been in a brawl before (he’d have a heart attack if he ever heard you had been in one). And, as if all that wasn’t enough – as if the possibility of you dying because of him – there’s always the risks of normal relationships; like the chance you’d break it off, get tired of him and the danger he brought into your life.

And in a sick way, one that disgusted him very much, he thinks that’d be worse than you dying – because it’d mean that he wasn’t enough for you, it meant that you had finally realized you deserved better and that he couldn’t give you the life you deserved – instead, he could only assure you an uncertain future by his side. You’d done so much for him, helped him get clean, helped regain some semblance of confidence and love for himself, in many ways: you’d helped build him back up.

He was selfish, he felt as if he truly didn’t deserve you, you were kind and warm – like the sun, you’d become essential in his life, and still he tried so desperately to keep you by his side, unwilling to share the warmth you radiated.

And so he’d always do his best to be around you trying to make sure you were safe, because god forbid anything happen to you because he wasn’t there.

With all of that in mind, it’s no surprise Sanzu woke up in a cold sweat the moment he dreamed of you not only leaving him for a no name, a faceless figure that seemed to encapsulate everything he couldn’t give you but that you’d deserved, but dying too, making him watch helplessly as your life slipped through his fingers leaving him broken once again.

As if one of his worst fears wasn’t enough, his brain decided to torture him and make him feel as if the world was ending in front of him. The months of bottled up feelings of uncertainty and fear caught up to him, ambushing him as he stood helpless.

His sight was hazy but he didn’t care as he stumbled out of bed, his steps unsteady as he tried to calm himself – if he wasn't so drunk on the thought of you being hurt he would have made a beeline to a whiskey bottle and drowned himself in it. Instead, he made his way to his closet, pulled out the first jacket he saw and bolted to find his bike to check up on you. He knew it was unreasonable, it was four in the morning and you were asleep – plus, there’s no way you’d ever leave him, neither in life nor death, you’d said as much so many times in an attempt to calm his fears but it never seemed to calm him down for long because “what if”’s were making him doubt your words.

But what if he went over and found another body in your bed? What if someone broke into your house and all he found was your body in your bed? And what if it was an “all of the above” scenario? What was he supposed to do then, live life without you? The thought made him feel sick, he felt sick – maybe he was sick.

Sanzu was at your house in record time and he didn’t waste a minute using the spare keys you had given him and running to your room to check up on you, his hands trembled – he doesn’t remember ever being so scared in life; not when he was in the dock with Mucho, not when he found out Toman would disband, not when he witnessed Mikey ruin himself and succumb to whatever the hell was going on in his head, never in his life – a pathetic excuse of a life – had he ever been so scared and he wanted to laugh that it was because of a nightmare but he couldn’t bring himself to find it funny.

His eyes scan your house and he finds nothing amiss, it looks the same and it smells the same, it feels the same but why isn’t it enough to make him feel sane?

He tries his best to not make a sound, something he’s usually very good at, but tonight he wasn’t able to suppress the relieved gasp that left his mouth when he caught sight of your sleeping body. It’s as he’s watching your chest rise and fall that he begins to realize how desperate he’d been, running from one corner of Tokyo to the other to check up on you based on a stupid nightmare… He shakes his head, combing his fingers through his hair before taking off his jacket and making his way next to you in bed.

Why should it matter – why should he matter? You’re safe, you’re there and you’re safe and you’re alive and he sees you sleeping in his shirt and you’re alive and you’re still his; he’s still yours.

“Hmm, Haru?” You woke up, voice groggy from sleep, “What are you… doing?”

“…”

“Why are you even here?” A yawn interrupts your sentence, “It’s like… three in the morning…?”

“Shh, it’s… it’s nothing, I… just go to sleep, I’ll tell you in the morning.” He assured you, a layer of guilt in his tone – he didn’t mean to wake you up but, what if…

“Come on, Haru,” you nudge, sitting up from your sleeping position, resting your your weight against your forearms – the moonlight that seeped through the windows tinted the room in blue, painting your features in cold tones but your eyes (which were puffy from having just woken up, a sight that had him unconsciously softening his gaze) held warmth –, “if you came here from your place… it can’t possibly be nothing.”

A pin could have been dropped and it would’ve echoed through the walls like a scream, he counts ten heartbeats before he speaks again.

“Do you love me?” He asked, his eyes held a vulnerability that normally wasn’t there – if ever, and you’re left moment speechless from both his words and tone.

“Of course I do,” you reach out a hesitant hand to caress the face of your lover, “Why would you ever think otherwise?”

“So, you’d never… leave me?” His hand now rested on top of your own, his eyes closed as if he was trying to commit to memory your presence – your love – by touch alone; just in case.

“No, baby,” you smile sadly, “I’d never leave you, I love you too much.”

He didn’t answer, crystal blue eyes shut tight as a single tear slipped from under them, “Thank god” – you think you hear him mumble.

Calloused hands reach up and pull you down, tucking your head under Sanzu’s chin as he now holds you close; you feel him tremble slightly as your arms slowly wrap around your boyfriend. You don’t bring it up, he normally wasn’t this vulnerable and if he didn’t want you to see him like this yet, then you’d wait; instead, you’d hold him close, hoping that maybe if you did, he’d realize how much he meant to you too. You so desperately wanted to ask what was going on, wonder why the normally composed man in front of you seemed to be crumbling in your arms.

“I love you so much.” The silence is broken by three simple words.

“And I love you.”

If you were the sun then he’d be the moon, only able to shine with you by his side, like the moon depends on the sun; Sanzu Haruchiyo depends on you – you were one of the few things in his life that made him feel alive and safe–, he notes, and he doesn’t mind – he can’t bring himself to mind, not when it was under this blue hour that he realized, he didn’t mind being afraid if it meant he could love you.

[sw1mmingfoolz]

[3:48am] - johnny suh

requested? Y/N

genre: what a surprise it's pure fluff :)

content warnings: reader has a nightmare but it's not more than a mention

wc: 850

a/n: sleep attack turned into a 2 hour nap and i had some weird ass dreams (i discord VCed bang chan at one point tho which was cool lol) and then i woke up and realised haven't yet written very much for nct yet and i haven't written anything for my boo thang john-ah so. here you all go lol i'm sorry if it sucks and i used like every synonym going for sleepiness i have just woken up :') feedback is always extremely appreciated and all that stuff! wishing you all beautiful dreams for the rest of time 💞💞 dedicating this to u @suhnshinehaos cuz you're my partner in johnny brainrot agskdhdj 😤💕

The dial tone lasted a surprisingly short time, your boyfriend's face appearing before you as smushed into the pillow as your own. You simultaneously giggled a little at the sight of each other, the tension in your shoulders already beginning to lift as you looked at him through sleep laden eyes. Johnny blinked at you blearily, soft smile unable to fight itself from his lips as he looked at you. He didn't think he'd ever stop finding you the cutest being in the entire universe.

"Is everything okay, baby?" he asked, voice groggy and throat scratchy from the lack of use. He'd seemingly been deep asleep and you suddenly felt guilty, knowing that wasn't something he got a lot of, especially on tour.

"Sorry for waking you," you responded, dodging his question, to which he instantly shushed you.

"Hey, it's okay, you must've had a reason, right? And I'm always happy to get to see my love." Your heart felt like it was melting at his words, drowsiness lowering his inhibitions. Not that it needed to; dating Johnny was a pretty good way to feel completely adored 24/7.

"I had a nightmare and wanted to make sure you were okay," you admitted in a small voice, happy the dark was concealing the reddening of your cheeks as you felt them heat up. You suddenly felt ridiculous, but if he also thought so, he'd never show it.

He turned to his other side with a grunt, camera taking a moment to adjust, and when his eyes flickered to the top left corner of his screen you realised you hadn't checked the time either, desperate to see your boyfriend's ridiculously (and, in your opinion, unfairly) beautiful face. It was just after 4am, and knowing it wouldn't be long until the managers and early bird members started waking the others up made another wave of guilt wash over you. He seemed to notice, eyes as soft as ever even as he looked at you through a vaguely blurry screen, reassuring you again that you can always call him when you need to.

"I wish I could just pull you onto my chest,'' he hummed, still fighting off the brunt of his slumber. "Stroke that pretty hair, have you listen to my heartbeat,"

"It literally always works," you murmured, never having wanted to cuddle up to him more. He grinned at the thought himself, excited over the fact it wouldn't be too much longer until he was able to do that again.

"Do you wanna talk about it?" he offered, a large hand coming to run itself through soft hair.

"It's all pretty hazy, just the usual stuff where you're walking away and I'm all stuck and you're like 'I don't like you anymore' and whatever." You blurted it all out at once, your own voice heavy and deep, and he closed his eyes for a second before looking directly into the camera with a smirk.

"Am I still hot when I'm 'all hazy'?" he asked with a fake coyness that made you roll your eyes and snort.

"Always, baby," you laughed, indulging him just a little. It wasn't like he needed it, he knew he was stunningly attractive. Moreover, he knew you found him stunningly attractive, which was a lot more important to him. He grinned, satisfied with your answer.

"As you can tell, I'm not going anywhere," he all but whispered, words only just picking up on the microphone. He paused for a second before opening his mouth again with a small chuckle. "Well, I might be in a different city right now, but you know what I mean. You'll have to try way harder if you wanna get rid of me. My heart is yours." You wondered if he'd say something so ridiculously cheesy to you if he weren't still fighting a gradual losing battle with his own dreams, nose scrunching as he cringed a little at his words. You quickly decided he would, for as much as he'd fold inwards at himself afterwards, Johnny was quite the master of incredibly greasy lines that managed to keep your heart aflutter when you so much as looked at him.

"My heart is yours too," you returned gently, feeling it steady when you mentioned it. Your breathing had returned back to normal as he'd spoken, feeling soft and cosy under the ever warming lamp that was his love, a perpetual fuzzy blanket like one right out of the dryer ready to soothe any emotion that might weigh down on your shoulders. You found your eyes beginning to droop again as his fully closed.

"I love you, Yn. I'm glad you called," he managed to mumble in slurred speech before he lost the grasp he'd been fighting to keep so valiantly, and you hoped he heard you respond before he fell asleep fully.

"I love you too, Johnny, thank you." You purposefully didn't hang up, leaving the sound of his soft breathing through the microphone swirling comfortingly in your ears as you too gave into the somnolence and descended into way sweeter dreams.

[l-r-christian]

A continuation of this so enjoy because I thought of adding more to this little series.

Title: The noble stag's daughter: the thunder monster

Pairing: Elijah Mikaelson x Daughter!Reader

Warnings: fluff, cute daddy daughter things

Elijah was glad that his little girl was getting along with Hayley and Davina who was helping the little witch control her magic. Many things Elijah was ready for, Klaus going to slaughter a coven witches for trying to take youngest Mikaelsons, Rebekah nearly killing half of Marcel's vampires because just one accidentally hit Y/N, the wolves showering his babygirl with hand made gifts. Yes many things but what he wasn't ready for was Y/N being scared out of her mind.

"Alright babygirl ready for bed?" Elijah asked asked as Y/N smiled brightly running to her bed already dressed and hugging a stuff wolf close she got from Jackson.

"Yes daddy. So is wolfie." She chirped happily as Elijah smiled making sure her windows were locked as rain poured outside.

"You had a big day today. How was it?" Elijah asked as he checked for monsters as Y/N smiled.

"Jackson took me and Hayley swimming, uncle Nik and I was looking at paints for Hope's room when she gets to come home." Y/N tells her father pausing feeling sad and Elijah picked up on it right away.

"What's wrong babygirl?"

"I miss Hope. When can she come home?" Y/N asked looking at her father as he knelt by the bed. It didn't surprise Elijah that his daughter already was attached to Hope since she was mostly around Hayley during the pregnancy.

"Soon. But for now we got to make it safe for her. Goodnight my little witch."

"Okay daddy. Night night daddy love you." Y/N smiled letting Elijah tucked her in and kissed her forehead then wolfie's when she made him.

"I love you more." Elijah said softly staying a few moments to run his fingers though her hair until she fell asleep. Elijah got ready bed and saw a flash of lightning and thought nothing of it as he got in bed and went to sleep. It wasn't until 4am he was woke by something barreled into his chest.

"Y/N? What are you d......" Elijah was cut off by a loud boom of thunder and his baby squeaking in fear shaking like a leaf. Elijah realized she was scared of the thunder while he knew she had no problem with storms but New Orleans's storms was a different ball game as they were louder and scarier.

"Th....thunder.....monster...daddy." Y/N said her voice was shaky as it broke Elijah's heart and got her under his blanket. Elijah wrapped his arms around her thinking of how he could calm her and idea popped in his head just there was another clap of thunder.

"Shhhh baby, the thunder monster can't get you." Elijah siad softly seeing her peek her head out from under the blanket.

"It can't?"

"No. Come here babygirl." Elijah said gently taking her into his arms moving from the bed to a chair by the window.

"See the flashes of light?" Elijah asked softly getting a shaky nod from his daughter as a roll of thunder followed after a flash of lightning.

"That is the God Thor fighting the thunder monster as the monster used to scare aunt Beka." Elijah tells Y/N rubbing her back feeling her relax a bit.

"Really?"

"Yes so I asked Thor to protect her but the God promised to protect anyone from the thunder monster." Elijah said softly as the girl relaxed even more looking out the window see the lighting light up the sky as there was a clap of thunder. Elijah smiled as Y/N layed her head on his shoulder while she was still scared she felt safer.

"Can I stay with you daddy?"

"Of course my sweet girl." Elijah said standing going back to bed. Y/N happily layed on her father making him chuckle kissing her head and placed a hand on her back to sure she wouldn't fall off.

"Night night daddy."

"Night night babygirl. Now get some sleep." Elijah said softly running his fingers though her curls making Y/N fall asleep.

"Elijah! Have you seen.....Y/N..." Klaus let his words die as that morning his was going to take his niece out for doughnuts but found her bed empty. Elijah woke seeing Klaus standing in his doorway while Y/N's cute little snores filled the air as she snuggled closer to her father.

"Goodmorning Niklaus, there was a storm last night." Elijah muttered voice heavy with sleep as Klaus frowned stepping into the bedroom. Y/N woke yawning rubbing her eyes getting their attention.

"Morning little witch." Klaus said softly getting a sleepy smile from his niece and Elijah let Klaus take the girl to get her breakfast. After that night when ever there was a thunder storm Y/N would go find Elijah getting him to sit with her to watch Thor fight the thunder monster.

[natsukitakama]

Being in relationship with Gojo Satoru would include

Author note : got nothing to say about it. I’m his personal hoe even though I’m aware about what Gege-sama said. Let’s say I can’t be saved. It’s too late for that LMAO. Anyway let me know if you enjoy this ♡ (also I changed my head canon’s page setting how does it looks ?) 

Warning : slight nsfw / me simping over a man that would definetly not give me time / also I didn’t catch up with the manga (Japan’s scan cause we’re kinda late in France) 

Update : I didn’t say it obviously I do not own that gif credit to the owner(s) 🙏🏻

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a lot of work. 

As Gege said themselves they didn’t see Gojo being faithful or interest on a relationship (still hurt btw) 

But why ?

If we look carefully we can see that his relationship with every superior are pretty densed : he is absolutely against his own cast and I won’t be surprised that he is pretty distant with his family and the member of his clan. Which mean basically they’re not so much people who are closed to him 

He didn’t allow them to be close 

Again since he tends to be pretty narcissistic and is not afraid to threat everyone that might be against him cursed or not. 

So let’s say he got couple of ennemies. 

Then I remembered his first interaction (or at least of the first he got) with Yuta. We all remember what happened to that girl he was so deeply in love, remember what Gojo said ? He actually said that in his opinion love might be the worst cursed or something like that. Meaning he is aware about how dangerous love can be. 

So here’s the thing it’s not like he is not faithful (even though he is into one night stand) but he can’t allow himself to fall himself nor will he let someone falls for him. Because they will became an easy target, they will become his worst weakness. 

Especially since he is super busy it would mean that he couldn’t be with you whenever he wants to.  

So that would explain why he is not really into relationship cause he knows it would be dangerous for him. 

Also I don’t believe he was raised with love, I’m pretty sure he wasn’t closed or never seen any act of love so he is pretty cold about it cause he is used to. 

In addition his personnality is ... well he is piece of works. So it’s not that easy to fall in love with him (I mean deeply in love not just being attracted to his physics) and it’s difficult to make him falls in love too. (It would be for another headcanon) 

But now let’s pretend you went through his childish nature and he let you get to know him and boom you’re started a relationship with him 

He is clingy asf you know that 99% of the time he is walking not giving a single shit about people think about him. That man is so confident he knows no one would dare criticize him for being a clingy or boyfriends and if they do it He would claim that they are just jealous of him. 

Even if he is super chill about everything he would never broke any of your boundary. So if you’re comfortable with him hugging you in public or giving you a deep kiss that’s fine he will keep it for later. 

But that won’t stop that little shit for teasing you. Oh no. It’s even worst if you are shy, oh god he would do anything just to see your cheeks getting red. He just loves it. It’s addictive. 

Cause let’s be real, if he actually started a relationship with you was because he was way too addicted. Your relationship probably started with some one night stand that wasn’t just one but sssh. Then you started to hang out together not dating calling that a date because you guys didn’t want to put a name on it. Then both of you started to be territorial and get upset when one of you flirted with another. It last until You and Gojo couldn’t just sleep or think without being close together. 

He is like a sweet drug you know ? Once you got a bite you can’t just stop. Same way for him as soon as you got him, you won’t be able a le to keep away. 

That also explain why he is clingy he just has to touch you, simple touch deep touch intimate touch he doesn’t care all he needs was you close to him. 

When you guys became serious (put a name on it cause you were already a couple but whatever) the man became even more noisy if that’s even possible. 

He praises you a lot not matter what job you have what passion you’re followed anything. You’re just the best S/O of the entire world. 

Also he show off a lot cause everyone thought Nanami would the first to be in a relationship with a S/O  but he failed 

And oh boy does Gojo loves that. 

He can’t help but remind EVERYONE (including his students of those coming from kyoto) that he is dating you

« Aaah can’t wait to be home I bet Y/N would make those delicious cookies of them. It’s so good to go home to find your beloved. Oh yeah you can’t know that you don’t have a S/O so sad »

You little shit 

As I previously said he tends to not be around that much because of his jobs, but that’s okay he would make it up one way or another. 

I know some people believes that he will take his S/O to the greatest restaurant, or into those luxurious places. It’s true sometimes he just find you to have a good quality time but he also wants to spoil you so it’s good way to do it. 

But most of the time I think he might be into those private date when you’re into a little cafe or having a picnic. Again I don’t think he had the chance to enjoy those private moment with his family when you’re just enjoying the people you loved in the simple way. And he just loves seeing you cook for him it stroke his ego and melt his heart. 

I heard somewhere that he might be touch starved and I agree with that postulate. I do believe he wasn’t raised with love and tenderness so that would explain why he could be so touchy-feely with people and so that’s explain why he is clingy. 

He is definetly into carrying and simple person, he is just a giant baby he loves being taken care of he wants to have your attention 24/7, that’s just who he is. When i said simple,it’s more like not superficial cause he won’t tolerate that he hates when people has the audacity to lie in front of his face or believes they can manipulate him. 

A lot of people tends to think he is stupid or easily to use because of his childish behavior and he hates that. He has a huge ego. 

So he won’t like it if you’re trying to get something from him. If you want to say something just say it. 

Even if he is huge tease he would never judge you or make fun of you (not in a mean way) so he expects you to be blunt about your feelings. If you think he is an idiot for always keeping everything for himself tell him. 

If his S/O is a civilian he might not talk about the jujutsu world at first but then when he realized he was bound to them. Like he couldn’t breath without you he would tell you the truth. 

He kiss a lot. I’m not making the rules he just kiss very easily and each of them have a meaning. Cheeks kiss is to ask you something like buying an ice cream when it’s 4AM (use it with his best puppies eyes cause the fucker knows his effects on you). Nose kiss are like morning kiss, he tends to do it a lot after sex too it’s just another way for him to say I love you but in a cute way. Head kiss is to reassure you that everything would be fine, it’s also his way to comfort you when you’re sad it’s always followed by an « everything would be fine » or « I’m here now it’s okay ». Kiss on your lips could be a way to tempt you for sex who goes along with a bite of your lips of a stroke of your hair, but his kiss on your lips could also be his way to remind you how much he loves and how much he miss you. 

But no worry he is not afraid to tell you he loves you, but he just kept those works for special moment. 

He hugs a lot. From behind when you’re cooking for him, cuddle you while watching a movie or put you against his chest so you would climb around his body like a koala 

Nest your face against his neck and he would melt right now. The feeling of your breath against his skin damn he got shivers all the time 

Time to time don’t forget to stroke his ego like cuddling him and tell him how good you feel like you feel safe. He needs time to time (also even if he might tease you a little bit, do that and you’ll get extra kiss and cuddle time)

Also he can’t say no to you. Puppy eyes are useless just took his hand and ask him slowly to do something and he would do it. 

The problem is you can’t say no to him too. Cause 1) he is super convincing when he wants to 2) because he knows you can’t say no to his pretty face especially his eyes 3) and if you’re fighting his attraction over you he would use puppy eyes on you. So either way he got what he wants. 

You guys definetly got some « sweet » dates at 4 AM : like he just woke up because he dreamt about those delicious mocchi he tastes when he first met Itadori and now all he could think about was those mocchi. So he got you at 4AM to buy and share some mocchi together. Even though you hated being woke up like this you couldn’t help but enjoy the fact that he woke you up so you could share a meal together 

It comes from nowhere but you guys have sex a lot. He is horny it’s written on his face I can’t change that. He is intoxicated he can’t help it but need to feel you clinching around his dick, bitting your lips and scratching his back as he thrust into your core. 

He daydreams a lot and 99% it’s not pure at all

He sext you a lot even during a meeting, he just took his phone and text you about how boring the meeting is and how he wish he could just ravage you in front of them so they would shut up for once. 

He is pretty open about everything when it came to sex it’s not like you can break him or anything but he loves it every time you came to him asking for something you might want to try but be afraid he won’t be agree or might hurt him.

It’s so cute that you thought you could hurt him physically 

Somehow he managed you to have sex in his office which you were kinda up to it but he also convinced you to do it on a car as soon as ljichi left for a call. He can’t help it you were just so cute so tempting looking like this by his side and well he is into semi-public sex he just don’t give up a fuck LMAO who’s gonna say yell at him anyway ? He is THE Gojo Satoru. 

Not sure if I said it before but he won’t mind dating a simple human, he is just so bitter about everything his world is a mess so it’s fine that he can’t be normal, just man hanging around the personne he loves without thinking about his position about his clan, the cursed. Just couple of hours during his day where is just your boyfriend, he cherish that. 

It doesn’t mean he won’t date an exorcist, but it might be even more difficult since he can’t help but wondering if you’re actually into him (which is hard considering his antics) or if you’re into his position. But if you managed to show him that you actually didn’t care about the whole clan, position and everything yeah he would be into you. It would be more simple cause he can be with you 24/7 or at least as much as possible, and protect you even though you don’t actually need someone to take care of you. He just has to do it. 

He spoils a lot, remember how easily he would book a restaurant for his students ? Same things it’s even worse cause sometimes during a mission he walked around a new street and it’s like « damn that’s look yummy » and after being sure nothing could harm you (especially if you’re allergic of If you a vegan or veggies) he would book a reservation and then took you on a date. 

He does that a lot, since he can’t manage to have quality time as much as he wanted he just does things like that so you can share a meal together and also because he can tease you during the whole night then teleport both of you into his house for « sport » activity. 

Also he tends to buy some many things, like he could walked in Tokyo and see a grandma selling some candle he would buy it just because it seemed aesthetic for him, and now everytime he saw something that reminds him of you he buys it. So you guys got plenty of things that you can’t throw away since Gojo linked them with a memory of you. 

Speaking of things who belongs to you, he wears your clothes and you wears his, remember how easily he wore Nobara’s skirt he is pretty skinny he can wear anything and won’t bother asking you first. Just get used to it cause he doesn’t plan on giving up. 

I do believe that a relationship with you force him to be more « mature » or at least not always acting like a child. But let’s be real he would still act like a baby you sign for this. 

In the end it’s an healthy relationship even though he tends to be flirty sometimes, he would be careful if he noticed that you’re not comfortable, or he would make sure to reminds you that he is actually in love with you, he won’t go anywhere. No matter if you’re an exorcist or not, you would still be afraid that one day he won’t comeback, so he makes sure to spoil you, love you to erase that fear. He is the strongest and doesn’t plan on leaving you soon.