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yea, sure, hearbreak is horrible, but have you ever been told you're toxic because you trusted someone enough to tell them about your suicide moods?
#Like i trust you and i want you to hear me#And they are now afraid of leaving bc what if you kys bc of them????#you were the person i trusted the most and i was the person toxic to you#Opposite variant of “sure se× is great but babe you ever...”#I hate this too much#Now im being toxic just bc i was told you about my problems#How am i supposed to be happy here?!#Poem#heartbreak#⋆✴︎˚。⋆traumatised⋆✴︎˚。⋆#writing#Deepcleaning your soul#yea heartbreak is horrible but...#yea sex is great but... polar opposite
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Hello! As a thorough enjoyer of Overly Sarcastic Productions and also a rabid fan of The Dragon Prince… was there anything that you did like about S7 or thought was especially well done? Obviously it’s not everyone’s cup of tea and there were certainly parts of the show that were disappointing, but I’m curious to see what you might have enjoyed. (If there’s not anything that’s fine too!)
I think the premise of Aaravos's zombie army, "any soul that died with unfinished business is fair game," was a brilliant way to constantly gutpunch the audience with surprise heartbreaking cameos from tragically dead loved ones. I was not expecting Zombie Avizandum, but it made perfect sense - he died in terror for his wife and son, desperately reaching for them! Of COURSE he got to be a rage zombie! Sir Sparklepuff, Betrayed Revenant? Poetic justice. It's just a shame Viren wasn't there to see it.
Ezran having complicated feelings about the guy who killed his dad? Good! Let the paragon process messy feelings like grief and rage! Even if I thought the execution was made awkward by looping it into the Magic Nuclear Deterrant arc, I thought letting Ezran confront Runaan directly in the end was excellent and well-earned.
Runaan's arc going from accepting his death to tearfully embracing his life? Excellent! Runaan immediately being ride or die for his daughter's cringefail human boyfriend? Hell yea! Runaan taking continuous L's all season? Honestly kind of hilarious jfc let my man live
Prince Karim is another very interesting villain whose death I think is cool but whose absence from the story I think will broadly strip it of much-needed depth. Karim thinking he's so profoundly important to the story, clearly convinced he's the tragically betrayed rightful heir, utterly nonplussed when reality fails to cooperate with his vision - fascinatingly narcissistic in the most classical sense. He's infatuated with his own story to the point that he doesn't realize he's not even a player.
Every time Aaravos does one of his Count of Monte Cristo style monologues where he reveals horrible secrets to an old enemy he's about to kill it's extremely fun and rad
Rayla being forced to confront the nameless cannon-fodder moonshadow elf assassins who died offscreen back in season 1 was a nice way to narratively reaffirm how difficult, painful and courageous it was for her to make the call to spare the princes and save the Dragon Prince. It cost real lives, and she's deeply regretful of that, but not of the choice she made which ultimately united the kingdoms and ended the war. Also I feel like Rayla didn't get much else to do this season so it was nice to let her actually confront some emotional stakes.
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can i just say… i’ve been fighting demons to not send this ask since part 4 first dropped…. but SCREW IT! im not usually the overly angsty (no, worse.. SINISTER) type but halfway thru that part something snapped and this little voice in my head whispered to me………..,..,.,, “what if taehyun actually asked mc out and took her virginity before gyu” HAHAHAHAHA… unless? 😏 nono im joking… right….. 👁️
– ♐️ stellium anon (ps: i was also the one that sent the ask about gyu being a horrible friend before reading.. yea,,that was me…. look at me now, openly plotting on his heartbreak LOL)
LMAOOOO ILY 😭 see i love when people stoop down to my level and match my evilness cause that idea is so delicious. ack to see gyu just lose it and be consumedddd by jealousy and insecurity and neediness, whole time he can’t even do anything cause mc and taehyun are official or whatever now 🙄 like at what point does he break and just start begging to fuck her, he’s like “one more chance plz plz PLZ you’ll never want to look at taehyun again i swear i can convince you” and mc’s like “omg get up whyd u come to my place for this”. BRING BACK CRYING AND BEGGING FOR PUSSY!!!!
(also i’m crying at this character development, real asf 😭 like matter of fact, let’s see how much worse he can get *lip bite*)
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2, 10, 22 and 24 for the ask game! Hope you're having a good day 💙
elloo thank youu i hope you're having a good day too 🐍
2. What was it that drew you to Good Omens, and what was it that sucked you into the fandom?
*breaks down sobbing lungs burning chest contracting heaving shuddering gasping for breath mascara running down my cheeks snot dripping from my nose* ahem sorry needed a little moment of drama it's all cool now dw about me im absolutely hella gucci never been better 😎 anyway where were we oh yea
when i was a teen i used to sort of like this one author but i can't remember the name for some reason, i just kinda remember picking up literally every single thing of his i could get my hands on, i mean, super casually, i wasn't obsessed or anything. and so i saw his name on the title, saw it had a demon and an angel and something about Armageddon and then i blinked and had somehow consumed the whole thing.
then flash forward to 2019, i see ohh they made a series of that one book i kinda sorta very casually liked a normal amount. and then i shrugged and never watched it bc they didn't look the way they had looked in my head and i had a Very Serious Issue w that apparently. then last year i got covid and i was really bored and i didn't know what to watch and i came across that one show tumblr was losing their minds about for some reason, so i went ugh fine i'll watch it. and then i relived the worst heartbreak of my whole life through a much more brutal dramatization and i was left in pieces, clutching my chest, crying on the floor, begging the universe for mercy. so naturally, like a very normal person, i went, "damn i need to watch this whole thing again 10 thousand more times until i memorize the dialogue word for word" and came on tumblr to scream into the void about it. and so here i am, continuing the lovely tradition of breaking hearts with unhinged poems and occasionally making memes friends will later find reposted on pinterest and instagram 🤡
10. What traits do you share with Crowley?
Yes well first the dumbassery and the unfortunate habit of shooting myself in the foot, le dépression, constantly in alert mode, cant for the life of me ever sit like a normal person, sunglasses out in public always bc my vampire ass is allergic to light, clothing only exists in black, antes muerto que sencillo ✨ (sooner dead than a simple hoe) flash bastard, blasting Queen, horrible plant dad, former raging alcoholic, Aziraphalesexual, drama queen, in fucking pieces 🪦
22. Bildad The Shuhite: hot or not?
look i can see the appeal, but personally i wouldn't fuck him
24. Who would you choose to run off to Centauri with?
you guys keep asking me this as if i even know other people lmao anyway. my answer is still: a copy of The Awakening by Kate Chopin. iykyk 🖤 if not and you wish to find out, get tissues
thanks for the asksss! this was fun to write lmao
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It basically comes with the territory in fandom that if you love a character you want to see them suffer. I can't explain it. Well in a way I see why cus then you get to see their significant other's reaction and see how much love there is. So, yea I want to see Tommy have a horrible injury(not fatal) and Buck's reaction. Just need him to wrap Tommy up all cozy like and be really soft with him. In one of their places with dim lights and heartbreaking background music. I'm having a moment
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TW: violent image at the end :) Still actively upset Karlach doesn't get to one-on-one murder Gortash in a cool epic cinematic.
Shadowheart has 3 moments of this, with Aylin, her parents and then Viconia (who doesn't die in the fight JUST so she can talk to SH). Oh, there's fucking Shar too, so 4. Laezel has her moment with Vlaakith. Astarion has the epic master awesome scene with Cazador. If you approach the Wyrm's fortress where fucking Gortash is by the bridge, MIZORA shows up to remind you to take Wyll with you. (No, not Karlach, but Wyll). Cause his dad is there.
Yea, sure, but you know who's there too? Fucking Gortash.
And the game doesn't railroad you into taking Karlach with you there like it does SH all the fucking time. I've seen so many playthroughs where people don't even realize they could've taken Karlach so she could have her closure - her quests are so badly implemented. Anyway. I'd like to hope someday we'll somehow get an epic revenge kill scene with Karlach and Gortash (like Astarion gets with Cazador), THEN the abso-fucking-lutely devastating breakdown Karlach has afterwards. A horrible gory rage filled kill followed by the most heartbreaking breakdown in the game - I'd piss myself.
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Also, my dream of how Karlach should finish Gortash: the Death Proof epic stomp. It's beautiful.
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we could've been us
yea 'i forgive you' is sad and all boohoo but honestly this line needs to be talked about more man
'we could've been us' hurts me so badly and deeply i dont know if i'll ever recover/gen
it reflects all the possibilities that didnt happen. how everything couldve been different. how this couldve not been how they ended. how this couldve not been their end.
it shows the regret on both crowley's face as he says it. aziraphale's reaction just the same. the way they had thousands of years, millions of chances and infinite possibilities and yet, this is how it turned out.
its heartbreaking that they now have to exist knowing what couldve happened, what couldve turned out to be, what they couldve been.
how they couldve been them.
the way its 'we couldve been us' instead of 'we wouldve been us' or anything else adds more to the heartbreak because he knew. crowley knew. he knew they had the chance, he knew it couldve been better, he knew this couldve not been the way things ended, he knew they had the chance and lost it.
and that hurts me so deeply.
centuries of pinning, waiting and figuring things out only for it to end the way it did is horrible and makes me ugly sob
#aziraphale#crowley#go2#good omens#ineffable divorce#ineffable husbands#idk how to tag this#david and michael#david tennant#michael sheen#sobbing#im cryin#weeping#im unwell#screaming#help#send help#gomens#aziracrow#aziraphale x crowley#good omens 2
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Ranking all the murder drones episodes so far because I can
#6: Pilot (ep.1)

The pilot has to be my least favorite episode of the whole series. Lot's of the jokes didn't really land with me. This is also the episode that Introduced me to murder drones so the classic MD critisism kept nagging me in the back of my mind: "Does this series want me to take it seriously or just turn off my brain and laugh. Do I care that these murder robots are murdering everyone or should I not give a crap" and to an extant this episode specifical still triggers those thoughts. I guess this episode did a bad job balancing the funny and the spoopy with each other.
#5: cabin fever (ep.4)

This episode also suffers from "Does this series want to take it seriously or not" Syndrome, but it's a little bit better because the humor was better. This is also the episode that threw me for a loop and really confused me. I mean, most MD episodes confuse me if I don't get a little help but if it wasn't for MD analyses/theory videos I would have stayed completely clueless. The bad pacing doesn't help either. That being said I do appreciate this episode for really showing these characters having character development. N stands up for himself more, V is shown to be more then cold murder machine, and Uzi is allowed to be more vulnerable. Plus I LOVE the scene where Uzi and N are falling from the sky and N is comforting Uzi. It doesn't matter how you view them, friends, siblings, lovers, that's darn cute! One thing that I'm kind of disappointed about is how V and Izzy's relationship didn't develop much after this episode. I really think it it would be cute if the popular WD diva that is Izzy softens that cold heart of V's and shows her ✨the magic of friendship✨or whatever but, alas, it was not meant to be.
#4: The Promening (ep.3)
Unlike most of these episodes, I don't really have much to say about The promening. To be honest it's on the same level as heartbeat but I just put it lower because I think because we get more info on Doll (And we get cool action scenes). This episode is also nice to look back on because this is the episode that made me a NUzi shipper.
#3: Heartbreak (ep.2)

Man these thumbnail captures are in horrible quality. Episode 2 is pretty good. I liked the scenes where the projections actually dupes the audience, like the murder scene one where everyone and everything was fake except that one girl or the one with N, those still gives me chills and was the first scene in the series that me do it. I mean, jeez, after that I have constant paranoia and worry if everything around me is fake. Also Thad was there so that's nice, kind of wish we had seen more of him after this but he plays a really small role after this episode. Also is it just me or do Uzi and N show know signs that they like their "crushes" after episode 1, like, they act completely normal in front of them and act as if they never had crushes on them in the first place, which kinda makes me feel like it was more so puppy love then anything tbh. I also found Doll to be very interesting in this episode and I wanted to know more about her. Which is great because the next episode dives into her a little bit more. But yea this is only above "The Promening" because I would rather watch this episode just a little bit more.
#2: Home (ep.5)

Definently one of the best murder drones episodes to date. I mean, we get to learn more of the disassembly drones past and more about cyn. Lil butler N is driving me crazy to this day tho, HE'S TOO CUTE! I'm also not the biggest eNVy fan but you have to admit their interactions in this episode were cute. Oh yea, Tessa was cool too. She really loves her drones more then anything (Even if she still sees them as below her in some ways). Also NUzi scenes are in here, even if their one sided, and it makes me scream everytime. Definently a banger of an episode.
#1: Dead End (Ep. 6)

These past two episodes have been absolute bangers, but this one hits like a truck! And no, I'm not saying that just because it's the newest episode, IT'S ACTUALLY SO GOOD! Cyn is taking over Uzi, undenounced to poor ol Uzi. Now N has to make a decision, take Tessa's advice and kill Uzi to save the universe or leave Uzi be and have the possibility of the universe. This shouldn't really be that difficult but once he realizes what he will have to do and as Uzi is hugging him tightly he realizes how much he loves uzi. She was the first person to believe in him. The first person to treat him as an equal. the first person to teach him to stick up for himself. He can't just throw her away now, not after all she's done for him. I really like V's character development in this series. She wen't from a heartless phyco to someone who actually cares for Uzi and N and would do what's best for the both of them, even if it means sacrificing herself. And the song at the end was so beautiful, man this series has an AMAZING SCORE!
Alright so that's my ranking for now, bye!
#murder drones#murder drones v#v murder drones#n murder drones#md n#murder drones uzi#serial designation n#ranking#I saw that someone else posted a simular idea before I could release this post.#I hope you don't think that I'm copying you#i've been thinking about this for a while#I'm just slow and procrastinate a lot#great minds think alike#i guess
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Prompt #30: Sensory Problems
3,296 P. D.
Please note this is the numbered prompt i pulled from a chest irl. This isn't in any sequence of prompts. I am pulling them at random. That is all.
Details on the prompt (and the Silenced species) is at the end of the story.
"... is he okay?" Itia speaks with concern
"... no clue. He has been staring at his food for a long time now..." Truth replies to her...
I continue to stare at the plate of chicken nuggets resting in front of me... they aren't crispy enough.
"Are you okay, Enzó?"
I shake my head no. Its not crispy enough.
"... you know you can speak right now, right? I'm negating your abilities..."
I muster up the courage, and manage to say, "... its not crispy enough..."
"Not crispy enough?" Itia turns her head in confusion, "I never remember you being picky over things like this..."
"... I tried, I really did... but its not... crispy enough... it feels... horrible in my mouth..." I feel like I'm about to cry. Why did my nuggets have to be ruined like this?
"How did this start?" Truth asks questions like these often. Not because he wants me to answer it, but because he will immediately know the answer.
"I was-... I was in my ship- going through the dark nebula- when everything started to feel weird-"
"... You were cursed." And there it is! The bad news I didn't want!
"Cursed?!" Itia jumps out of her seat, "Cursed with what?!"
"Cursed with... sensory issues?"
Itia and I give Truth a look of confusion.
"Who would do this to my nugs..."
He replies with a mixture of confidence, and anger, "Covenant... you cleansed a large portion of his territory, so he got mad and cursed you..."
"Seems petty to me..." She sits down once again, composing herself.
I look back down at my plate of chicken nuggets... which I don't like anymore due to some horrific curse, "my nugs..." spoken in defeat.
Truth picks up the plate and starts to walk off with it, talking in a caring tone, "I'll get you crispier nuggets, okay?"
I nod to him silently, mourning the loss of my nuggets. But that's not all that has changed.
Paper is more crinkly, the sound makes me shiver. My favorite shirt feels like a blanket of knives now. And everything is so loud and bright, its like standing in front of the sun!
That's an over-exaggeration, but you get my point. Everything is different, and not in the good way.
Itia thinks for several long moments before she turns toward me. I look at her, still sad about the nugs.
She pulls a bag out of her pocket and opens it up. Its a bag of gummy bears. I stare at the gelatinous consumable mini-bears, terrified of the thought they are unsafe as well.
"... Do you want to try some?" she holds the bag out toward me, I can tell she is as nervous about this as I am.
I stare at the bag some more, before nodding slowly. She pours a few into my hands...
I stare once more... The gummy bears could either be the bane of my existence, or safe. I am hoping they are safe, as I have several dozen bags at home.
I pop them into my mouth and chew...
The texture is odd. I don't like the fact it sticks to my teeth, its uncomfortable. The flavor is fine, but the gumminess of it is just... wrong; its like eating pre-chewed jello.
I stop. I feel like I'm about to throw up. My body is physically preventing me from swallowing, risking regurgitation. I grab a nearby napkin and spit it out, shaking my head no in the process.
"Oh... why was that not good?"
"... Too squishy." This one was especially heartbreaking for me... you cant make gummy bears crispy, that's impossible.
I take a drink of water to wash down the texture, as Truth walks back to the table. Resting the new plate of chicken nuggets down in front of me, "I made them more crispy. Want to give it a try?"
I feel like some animal... Like... yea, I understand they are trying to be nice to me. But it feels like they are being insincere. Or like I'm a child that needs to be cared for, like I cant do anything on my own...
"You feel like a zoo animal..." I hate it when he looks into me like that...
"... Yea..." I carefully pick up one of the nuggets and bite into it with a satisfying crunch. They are safe now.
"We just want to help you get used to this... The curse is pretty powerful, and will take me a while to get rid of... Especially given the fact Covenant is stronger than me."
"But your stronger than him... How does that make sense?" I eat another nug, I like the crunch it gives.
"That's a confusing topic... Power wise, because he was made before me, he is stronger. But because I know effectively everything, I am smarter... and therefore can out-wit him."
"So then why don't you out-wit him to remove the curse?" Itia might be onto something, but I think the Gods are smarter than that...
"Not sure... if and when he figures it out, he will just add the curse again."
Ryos walks into the room, inserting himself into the conversation, "Then put a protection spell on him or something."
"Wont work either, he can still override my abilities if he focuses on it enough... sometimes."
I look up at her in confusion, "Sometimes?"
"Yea... Its a complicated subject."
Ryos sits down next to me and pats my head. It makes me flinch, i wasn't expecting it. He notices and stops, frowning slightly, "Well, we need to figure something out. The kid can't live like this forever!"
"I'm sure we will figure something out... yea..."
I finish the last nug on my plate. They were good.
With realization, I notice I wont be able to eat Mac and Cheese anymore. Once again, my life is crumbling apart. Why did food have to be the changing factor? I love food!
"And now he is sad again... Look at what you did!"
"I didn't know, I'm sorry!" She seems genuinely worried about me... They all do.
"No... just... mac and cheese..." for some reason, even the thought of it is gross now...
"Mac and cheese?" shes confused.
"Yea, given the foods he likes and dislikes so far, he probably will dislike mac and cheese as well..."
"... Life isn't worth living anymore, food is dead, existence has no meaning."
"And now he is having an existential crisis over food, fun."
Truth walks away in silence. Itia notices and queries, "Where are you going, sir?"
"To kill a God. I cant sit by and watch my child be in pain like this."
Am i really about to start a Divine war over a stupid curse? "Please don't..."
Truth had already walked through a now-existing door, focused on his mission, "I won't be long, don't worry..." The door shuts behind him, and vanishes shortly after.
All i can do now... Is wait.
"... My gummy bears are dead..."
... Realization hits me, "MY FLUFFY BLANKETS, NO!!!"
"Oh god..." Ryos is regretting coming inside right about now.
Prompt Details
“someone unknowingly pissed a Deity off, and is cursed to have sensory issues. They must now deal with the consequences.”
Requirements:
Random Deity: Covenant (God of Corruption, Greed, The Wicked, and Forbidden Knowledge)
Random Character: Enzó (A Silenced [detailed below])
Word Count 1,000: Exceeded. 1,176 words total
Silenced
The silenced are a species created by Truth. They have the appearance of some wolf-dragon hybrid. With the main (very visible) difference being how their body is made.
The body of a silenced is made up of some thick paint-like material. Their chests are normally black in color, while everything else is an odd color-changing material. This "paint" often drips off of their body and onto the floor, though when this happens it will vanish shortly after due to evaporation.
The Silenced have a very powerful ability. Every word they speak comes true. The reason they are called the Silenced, is because they choose to be silent, not because they have to be silent.
Because of how strong it is, they choose to be responsible about their power.
Their blood can be used to coat audio-producing objects, to imbue them with the same power as their voice. Though these objects are usually only ever able to be used once before being destroyed.
The paint-like material can be used to cover walls and other surfaces. The properties of the paint while on a given surface is controlled by the Silenced. They can use it as a makeshift portal from one blotch of paint to another, or just paint with it on that wall... and make it permanent.
The silenced often have a "Voice" following them, which is anther entity made by Truth.
The voice's whole entire purpose is to follow the Silenced as a form of angelic bodyguard. The Voice is psychically connected to the silenced, and therefore often speaks on their behalf.
#lore#lore drop#oc lore#singural hyperion#story#lore dump#dnd#short story#dnd homebrew#fantasy#xenofiction
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i know some of you might not understand concert etiquette in latam but it is INSANE. and im not saying this in any condescending way because i myself have been traumatized in pit just bc i wanted to reach barricade. and its like. getting in line at 6am, no bathroom break bc you cant risk losing your seat, no food no water bc your soooo close to everyone else you can barely move. and thats all even before the show starts.
for the eras tour buenos aires we didnt want to risk having a bad experience, this was like my first BIG concert after covid and also both my gf and i are really prone to getting anxiety attacks whenever its too crowded so we went straight to the bleachers that are like. included in pit (? idk how else to explain it bc it was new to me too ive never been to a stadium that has that but yea. it was definitely thee best decision we could've taken bc we had an amazing time and most importantly. we weren't suffocating lol. but i had lots of friends in pit who tried for barricade and were like fighting for their lives. one of my friends literally had a panic attack bc she couldn't breathe and the guards had to take her in the middle of like fearless era and she ended up in the back but still had a much better time there than other people who fought tooth and nail for barricade. and thank god my gf convinced me to get to the bleachers instead bc if something had happened to her or if we had had to separate for safety reasons i think i wouldve gotten a panic attack just from losing her in that sea of people :(
what happened last night was horrible and heartbreaking. i know todays gonna be even hotter so please if any of my mutuals and followers will be attending please please let me know youre okay and you got home safe!!! it is literally the experience of a lifetime so please prioritize you safety bc otherwise you wont be able to truly enjoy it the way it should be!!!!!
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Sara hid behind a large oak tree, peeking out to survey the premises. Before she could get a good look, she heard a small voice shout ‘Look out!!’
A sudden blast of cold air whipped near her head, along with the ‘splat’ of a decent sized snowball crashing against her beanie. She heard Pam giggle and turned around.
The other woman dropped her hands when Sara met her gaze and tried to feign an innocent expression. Sara smirked, walking over.
“That was a cheap shot!” Sara laughed, her breath turning to mist. She brushed the bits of snow out of her hair. Pam walked towards her and chuckled, Cece following close behind.
The girls of the family had decided to get in a good snowball fight before holiday shopping later that day. Jim was inside tucking Phillip in for a quick nap.
“I was totally in a compromised position!” Sara proclaimed as Pam grabbed her hands.
“All is fair in love and snowball fights!” Pam laughed. She suddenly looked down and grimaced “You’re not wearing any gloves!”
“Oh, yea, my old pair was super hole-filled. Haven’t had time to replace them.” she blushed slightly.
This was their first December together since The Breakup. Last Christmas season had been a disaster, that was filled with way too many impulsive decisions, including but not limited to flirting with one of her bosses at the time and a heartbreak that had lasted over a year.
She didn’t like to talk about it a lot, but certain items or features (like her old gloves and bottle blonde hair) reminded her of those horrible months. Wondering if she’d ever be able to tell Pam how she felt. Wondering if she’d ever have a family that loved her, like Pam had with Jim.
A sudden caress to her face startled Sara from her thoughts.
“You okay in there, space cadet?” Pam had a mildly worried expression. Sara blinked, composing her own expression. “Yea…just reminiscing.” she chuckled slightly.
Cece grabbed her cold fingers, gingerly, and in that simple gesture her worries floated away.
Sure, their family wasn’t exactly conventional. But it was her family. She was with the woman she loved, who had a husband understanding and openminded enough to accept that sometimes someone is in love with more than one person. And he was willing to include her in their family. She sometimes felt like she’d hit the jackpot.
“Well, we should probably head inside.” Sara smiled widely. She scooped Cece into her arm, grabbing Pam’s hand with the other. Snowflakes scurried over and Sara closed her eyes, enjoying the moment for a few seconds.
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Mammon x GN reader (FOCUSED ON MAMMON)
Hurt/No comfort
Pronouns used: They/Them
Word count: 3711
Also posted on ao3 (same user!!)
(different ending / happy ending)
HELP ME CAN I MAKE THE TEXT YELLOW?
The greed for love
It was always so easy to win as the Avatar of Greed, his eyes shined when his eyes glanced at his prize, grimm. The demon across him shook in wrath as he realized his loss his forehead glossy from sweat, the demon pointed a finger at Mammon angerly before making the worst mistake of his life.
"You so cheated, you're nothing but a scumbag, yea right you had the perfect cards?! You're a disguisting pig, looking so smug with that smirk on your face!"
Mammon's smirk widened, he haven't felt this rush of greed in months it gave him power to feel greed around him, laughter spread through the room while the white haired demon got ulp. Gentle tapping against the floor was heard as he walked to the raging demon, Mammon just smiled before putting his hand on the demon's shoulder.
"I think you have other things to worry about... Like, how you need to pay off your dept to Diavolo, no?" Mammon wasn't usually one to care about depts, his included of course, but he adored the look of the realization on the poor's demon face, the way the squirm in discomfort. Of course Mammon wasn't a sadist, far from it. But after being accused so rudely by a peasant? He should have some fun?"
The demon's breath hitched when Mammon whispered his secret into his ear, quickly gathering his items before running off in fear. The avatar of Greed placed a hand on his hip before a human entered the casino, the human looked so rich, a gold belt hugged their waist as they walked towards the demon with pride, their golden necklace with a ruby clicked with every step they took. Mammon stopped breathing for a moment, his heart thumped loudly in his chest when they locked eye contact with him. The demon's figure shook with excitement when they challenged him, they looked fun.
The time slowed down while they were with him, the air around the demon was warmer and happier. With every coin he threw on the table, his smile widened, his pearly white teeth showing with happiness, why was he feeling this way? His heart was thumping so loudly, so deafening yet his ears couldn't help but listen to the words Y/N said, with every detail. He remembers how their hair swished with every laugh their lips let escape. He felt like a loser, knowing he's losing but the feeling was oh so good, it was such a rush to his veins, the way Y/N's eyes shined in the casino's colorful lights looking down on him. Shivers danced on his skin while he melted under their gaze.
"One last round? C'mon, are you scared ya scared you're gonna loose now?" Despite his confident tone, he was the one that was nervous, no one ever beat him this easily. He shamefully admitted it to himself, he was captivated by them, their aura was so addicting to him, he was greedy and needed them. His breath shook as he got rejected, he looked like a kicked puppy but the human left carelessly. Droplets of sweat covered his forehead as he unbuttoned his shirt, the demon tried his best to forget the rush he felt once he was with them, it was like a cup of coffee to a sleepless person, the adrenaline was pumping everything in him, his eyes shined while he replayed Y/N's beauty in his head, over and over again like a movie, he felt addicted.
The greedy demon dizzily walked back to his house, the heartbreak hitting him like a headache, he hated them and how quickly and easily they beat him, the Avatar of Greed. He wanted to tear the smug smirk off of their beautiful face, tear their life apart but they were like a drug, so toxic and horrible but oh, such an wonderful drug. Mammon's heart felt like it was being clawed at, the strings tied to it pulling so roughly and painfully, he wanted them desperately. His eyelids felt heavy in addition to his body feeling fuzzy and numb, the world of resting welcomed him as he fell asleep, dreaming of his gambling rival.
"Mammon, you have the softest hair in all of Devildom, I swear.." A majestic laughter followed as the demon felt fingers stroke his pale hair, he shot his ocean eyes open and looked at the figure above him, it was them! His eyes widened when he quickly sat up, turning to Y/n he yelled
"Why are you here, hu...human?!"
They just smiled at him, the most beautiful smile Mammon has seen, they reminded him of a higher being, so angelic and gorgeous, their skin as smooth as silk against his.
"What do you mean by that, darling? We live together." Y/n chuckled at his shocked face, crawling closer and closer as their faces almost touched. Mammon felt Y/n's breaths on his lips, like a wind breeze gracing his skin, sending shivers down his body. The demon shook under Y/n, his eyes were full of love as they lock contact with his eyes, they made him feel like putty in their hands. Mammon wanted to hate this feeling, but his heart was beating so loudly and quickly to say he hated it.
He hated how pathetic he felt under them, he hates how weak a mere human like them could make the Avatar of Greed feel. He raised his hands to cup the beauty in front of him, his eyes closing as he spoke, his heart beating faster and faster.
"Can...c-can I kiss you..? Please.."
He pleaded with his voice, opening his blue eyes to see Y/n, smiling at him and nodding. He wished this could last an eternity, their lips that once smirked at his loss locked with his own, he felt lovesick and he wanted more, their bodies fit so perfectly against one another, he felt breathless as he felt
Y/n's thighs against his hips, his body was shaking under their grasp. A whimper left his lips once the kiss ended, he felt electric with love. He wanted to stay with them forever.
"MAMMOOOONNNN!!!"
His body stood up on reflex because of the sound. Mammon's eyes widened as he realized it just a dream. A sigh left his lips as tears fell, why was he so heartbroken? It's just a human, an unimportant human who took his money... only that... Nonetheless he sobbed, the kiss felt so surreal, their voice was stuck in his head, the way they called him 'darling' repeated on loop in his lovesick head.
Agressive knocking was heard by the door, ah Lucifer.
"Mammon, get up we have to eat breakfast, Beel is going to--"
Lucifer's eyes widened once he entered, why was he crying?
Did something happen?! Was he at fault?
Lucifer quick walked to Mammon, his usually pride filled face had sadness and guilt written all over it. Mammon's eyes met Lucifer's as he got up, his body was stiff and tense, the black eyebags under his eyes stole the beauty his ocean deep blue eyes have, he looked like a broken doll. Lucifer's mouth agape as he searched for words, should he try to comfort him? Lucifer is terrible at comforting people, especially Mammon.
After a long silence, Lucifer spoke
"I don't know why were you so distressed, if you want to... talk about it.. I'm here waiting for you.."
Lucifer wanted to cringe at his own words but he knew that Mammon needed it, no unknown reasons yes, but he was still his older brother. Mammon glared at him before shaking his head, obviously not wanting any company, Lucifer reminded him that he still needs to eat and go to R.A.D.
"I'm not hungry."
All of his brothers noticed a change in his behavior, some changes were positive but a lot of them were negative. Mammon was breaking more and more every day, he could just.. fall apart.
Asmodeus invited him to go to a spa day, just them two.
' His self care was becoming horrible..! His beauty would break if he didn't atleast shower! '
Asmo would whine and complain to Lucifer, telling him to do something.
Lucifer refused.
Beelzbub felt guilty for eating his food, so he invited him to go out to eat.
'I haven't seem him eat in a few days, I'm worried.. '
Beelzbub begged Lucifer to talk to him as his older brother.
Lucifer refused.
Satan saw how he was doing even worse in school which was a shocker to Satan, he offered to study and tutor him
'Lucifer, you should care about how he's doing in school, why do you refuse everything we tell you to do?!'
Lucifer didn't know what was going on with Mammon, and he wasn't sure why he wasn't letting anyone help him, Lucifer's heart was being clawed at as his eyes focused on Mammon, only Mammon. As his brothers saw Mammon, his eyes that once had emotion bursting from them were dull and blank, his smile that was once wide was replaced with a frown, his face was dead.
Mammon hated this feeling, he felt numb and horrible when he tried to do the things he usually did, his thoughts were blank and only surrounded around Y/N, he wanted to forget about them, he is supposed to hate them, but his body feels at peace when he dreams, the numbness of the pain once he enters his dream land. Mammon always loved the way Y/N's hand touched his, their soft skin gracing his own, the wonderful smell of their hair when he hugged them. His heart raced when he saw them smile, a smile he would pay a thousand grimm to see over and over again.
Every day the demon visited casinos, bars, anything to see them again, to hear their voice again, to see how their smile turned into a smirk while he panicked over losing, oh how he wanted to lose again, only to them. He sat up from his bed which he hasn't left for days, feeling too tired and horrible to do so, a sigh left his lips before he grabbed his phone, the shining light almost blinding his eyes as he looked at his screen. A text from an unknown number slid across his screen; "Eh... I didn't give my number to anyone... was it Asmo? Whatever, I'mma check it.."
When his finger touched the text, his eyes widened as he began to read the following texts.
"Hey, you're Mammon, no? The Avatar of greed that I beat the other week or so? It might be shocking how I got your number, it shocked me too... Your brother, Lucifer apparently hated to see you so depressed so he literally hunted me down and gave me your number. So... you miss losing to me?"
His heart raced before he shook his head, 'Was this real?! Would Lucifer ever do that for him? How did he find out who to contact?! Why would they contact me?' Thoughts ran fast through his head while he stared at the bright screen, his skin shivered once he saw the text bubble appear.
Sweat laced his forehead as drops fell from his body, his body temperature rising higher and higher, he felt like he was on drugs, his head was spinning as a smile wrapped itself around his lips, fingers typed at the speed of light, his head fuzzy while looking for a reply.
As the two talked, he felt normal, he was full of energy and happiness. Laughter, smiles and love enveloped his thoughts as he stared at his screen as he awaited the human's reply.
The dark night sky and the stars was quickly replaced with loud speech of demons, birds and other species. Mammon's alarm went off, signaling it was time for him to get up and get ready. He wanted school to pass as fast as possible, awaiting to meet with Y/N again, as he walked to the living room to greet his brothers he was greeted back with worrying glances and relieving sighs, none the less the group of brothers ate together, an awkward and long stares as forks scraped the plates, no one wanted to speak around Mammon, they didn't want to say something wrong.
The school day passed quickly as Mammon's focus shifted from the lecture to his phone, the bell ringing catching him off guard every time it rung out it's sounds. As demons ran throughout the halls. Mammon's legs sped themselves up as he walked to the exit of the school, his eyes glancing to and back from his phone looking at the time. While people stared at him, stared at how happy and excited he was, he couldn't care less, he never cares but especially not now, his brain was fuzzy with love and adoration as he walked with his phone in hand, eyes blistfully glued to his screen.
His skin felt electric as shivers danced on his skin, he felt goosebumps across his body as he walked, speeding up faster and faster as his heart raced. He felt the same rush and adrenaline he once felt while he played with the human.
A gasp was stuck in his throat as he looked at the beauty in front of him, the cold wind swayed Mammon's heart, a heart that longed for the sweet songs of their voice, the soft touch of their skin against his own, the affirming and adoring look in their eyes once they look at him, once they looked at eachother. The human turned around, their cold and sadistic eyes locked contact with his love-filled ones.
"Hello, Mammon. We meet again, sure it was a set-up, but who cares? You know my name, but I'll introduce myself yet again. I'm the one and only Y/n L/n. I beat demons in anything for fun."
The human explained what the lovesick demon already knew, yet he still listened like it was a lecture from Lucifer, yet his heart beat at the sound of their majestic voice. The two walked together, the sun said it's last goodbye while the sky was painted pink, lavender and yellow. The demon kept talking, his brain on autopilot as the human just listened, Mammon could explore from excitement at any moment, the way Y/n's eyes shifted with curiosity and even adoration glowing in their eyes made Mammon dizzy.
The watch on Mammon's wrist ticked, yet the time felt like it slown, every moment repeated on a loop in his mind. They looked at eachother at times, their hands touched other times. Nonetheless Mammon felt euphoric being with them, all his pains and worries melted away, his heart burned with love for Y/n, the same way his cheeks burned around them, his face was glowing bright pink when Y/n's soft hands brushed against his own.
"Mammon, Mammon!!!"
Y/n called out for him, pulling his collar while dragging him. Mammon's eyes laid at a new restaurant
"You wanna go there, human? It's actually a new restaurant that opened up, Beel said the foods there is really good!" His lips were wrapped in a smile as his eyes shined with pride, 'Is this going to be their first date?!'
Y/n looked at him blankly as their eyes rolled at his comments;
"Of course I wanna go there, it's a brand new restaurant! I've never been to a restaurant while in Devildom.."
A frown plastered itself on Y/n's face before they begged Mammon to bring them. Mammon's heart couldn't take their puppy eyes, of course he'd take them but now his head is so fuzzy and dizzy after seeing Y/n smile with nothing but joy and Innocence in their eyes.
The two ate and talked the afternoon away, alcohol tasted sweet and sour on Mammon's tongue as he watched Y/n's lips, he wondered what would their lips taste like? Would they be the sweetness that they hold in their smile, or the thrilling sourness in their smirk?
Mammon fantasized about them, their lips, how it would feel against his own, how soft they are, but a single night doesn't last forever.
As the stars in the dark night sky shined, the pair said their goodbyes for the night. The walk back home the air felt tense and cold, the stars fell with tears that sparkled as they fell, Mammon felt the rush of seeing Y/n again leave his body, like the pain coming back after the comfort of painkillers.
"How can the Avatar of Greed be so obsessed with you?! Especially after he lost to you! He should loathe you!"
Y/n's friend whisper screamed at them. As a response Y/n rolled their eyes before talking.
"You act like I'm not the most attractive human in Devildom.... Plus, people chase what they can't get, no? It's the fun of it."
Their words rolled off their tongue so easily as they spat blatant toxicity, their eyes closed when their friend complaining about why Mammon loves them.
As the clocked ticked, morning greeted the blooming flowers that danced along with the flowing wind, another day has started for the citizens of Devildom. The brothers woke up one by one, as the family walked to R.A.D for an early meeting, Mammon had his focus on his phone unusually of him.
As the unnecessary talking and blabbing rung out in the room, Mammon was zoning out, his eyes closed with the image of Y/N, their eyes shined like the brightest stars in the sky, their eyes were focused on him then, in his own little world, they loved him and he loved them.
Diavolo spoke out, a little too loudly and cheerfully unfortunately for Mammon; "We plan to welcome more h
human exchange students, since the program so far is going well. Simeon and Lucifer will also decide on which angels to invite!"
Mammon's attention was peaked once he heard the news, but the classic demon rolled his eyes "Why would we invite more humans? They're not going to stay in my room then!" Mammon complained, but deep down his hope for Y/N to be the chosen student shined brightly.
After the meeting ended, shortly after Mammon ran to Lucifer.
"Lucifer!!!!" Mammon yelled for his attention, his brother sharply turning around with a blank stare.
"No, I will not let you 'borrow' my credit card."
Mammon only shook his head frantically at his accurate accusation before continuing;
"N-no! It's not that Lucifer! I... want Y/N to join the... uhm... exchange student program..."
Lucifer laughed dryly before a puzzeled expression was plastered on his face.
"You're serious? The student is chosen at random."
"Please."
Glossy tears revealed at his ocean blue eyes, his voice was weak and pathetic while he pleaded for an answer. Lucifer couldn't help but accept his pleads, his prideful heart hated to see his little brother sad, so heartbroken.
Even after the acceptance, days, even weeks passed without a single message from Y/N, they joined the program, but they were nowhere to be seen, until the last day of school before winter break.
It was colder then usually, Mammon's tan skin was shivering while walking home from school, his mind still tampered with the images of Y/N, his heart wouldn't, couldn't move on, even if he so desperately tried to. His heart that once beat for the sound of their voice, was quiet. He felt lifeless with the cold air that entered his lungs.
"Didn't miss me too much, did ya?"
Huh?
No he must be dreaming.
Could it be them?
No, they weren't here for months.
But the demon still turned around, his skin hot with his heart thumping with hope.
His figure turned around, quicker than light as he looked into their eyes, the eyes that he longed for, the eyes that made his own shine in the night.
His ocean eyes widened as their laughter that he once loved rang in his ears, why were they laughing so.... evily....? Lack of a better word for it.
"It's so... honestly pathetic to see the avatar of greed so excited to see a human like me."
The silence was so loud in Mammon's ears, was he really that pathetic?
"You lost to me countless times, both in cards, both in love huh?" Their voice had a different feel to it, it felt mocking.
Why did he think Y/N loved him? The only thing they did was play a game with him, actually multiple games. Yet why did it feel so heartbreaking, his body shivered in shame as his eyes looked down at the ground.
"Not too long ago, ya sounded friendly.."
His voice was low and soft, as if he's trying to not scare the human.
"You're stupider than your brothers take you for if you think I loved you.."
They lips curled up in a cocky smile, the smile he yearned to see, but not like this.
"Why would a human like me love a dangerous demon like you? Hah!!-"
Stop..
"This was entraining!! I'll be taking my leave now. Farewell, loverboy~"
His eyes continued staring at the ground as he heard their shoes click as they walked away.
Even after every little word that came out of their mouth, his heart couldn't help but pound for them. His eyes couldn't help but try to find them every second of the day.
Even though they hated him, his mind was clouded by them, not leaving for a second.
"I wish I never left their mind."
He sighed softly as his cheeks felt wet suddenly, he hadn't noticed he was crying.
"If only we met differently."
As the tears fell from his eyes, he couldn't help but smile.
"Maybe if I wasn't so greedy for ya, and your love..."
The Devildom sky shined unusually bright that night, perhaps the tears that fell from the demon's eyes were represented in the beautiful stars, maybe his sorrow and heartbreak was represented in the cold windy air.
Greed can be a horrible thing, especially a greed, and a longing for love

LOLOL I WROTE THIS IN LIKE SEPTEMBER 2022
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OH GOD.
Day 10, BACKSTORY.
Shits about to get fucked, but not too fucked. But just incase, prepare yourself

•When Gollie was barely 1 year old, her house ended up burning down. With her family inside. And uh- she became an orphan :(
•The orphanage she went to SUCKED. Mostly everyone was mean, nobody wanted to adopt him, and he also got humiliated on live television in an ad for adoption (they were giving reasons on why not to adopt the poor fella)
•His uncle saw this, went “FUCK YOU”, and practically stole the little bugger! And they went to her uncle’s work, which was a big lab!
•Between ages 6-13, his life was PERFECT. She got to hang out with other experiments (his uncle took perfect care of them, didn’t harm them, made sure to be careful, etc etc), helped her uncle around, and basically had a pretty decent child hood! Until…
•SOME FUCK FACE SHOWS UP. Dr Fritzifer FIZZLEBEAN. (THATS RIGHT, GOLLIE GOT BEEF WITH FLOOFTY’S DAD). He ruined EVERYTHING. And soon enough, replaced gollie’s uncle! (Didn’t fire him, but demoted him).
•within a range of 6-7 years, Gollie went through 4 experiments. The first one (most painful) gave him an extra set of arms. The second one changed the color of his blood, AND his nose! The third one (least painful) melted AND reformed her eye with some weird ass pattern + color, and the 4th one… he’s actually not sure what happened. But it still sucked.
•after years of dr fizzlebean’s shit, way too many risks, and having his foot torn off by a CHEDDABOARDLE REX, he had ENOUGH. At age 20, She organized a break out with all the experiments + their uncle, and striked!
•The breakout went… horrible. The building burnt down/collapsed, and out of 4000 people total? Only 5 survived, including him, 3 experiments, and Fritzifer. (YEA HER UNCLE DIES)
•In order to avoid being found out by citizens, Gollie and the 3 experiments get some disguises, and form a band/performing squad! It works! They get famous, people LOVE them, and all is well! .. until-
•Gollie gets targeted by a creep, who at first, isn’t too bad, but the situation worsens when he insults her in front of everyone, takes pictures of them without consent, and even goes as far as attempting to kill her! He gets arrested tho, so yippie!
•After the close experience with the creep, Gollie makes a heartbreaking but necessary choice. She leaves the band, causing the remaining members to break away, and the band gets forgotten in history..
•now in her mid/late 40s, Gollie is now looking for inspiration to write a uniting song, that will show people that being harmlessly different is okay! They’re having trouble tho, so I wonder what they’ll do! Who knows…
Link to the prompts is here!
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Plssss grace us with your post-race thoughts!!! I wanna wrap yuki charles and lando up, their races were horrible 🥺🥺 very happy for the merc boys tho- what a drive!!
tbf imo it was a boring race, i had a dinner party so was only able to watch it after (luckily without it being spoiled) but i literally skimmed through so much of it, i’m pretty sure i watched it in like less than an hour.
always happy for a Max win, but i’m much more happy when he’s able to show his craft rather than him getting absolutely zero screen time bc he’s 7 minutes ahead in his rocket, has literally no battles bc even with his pitstops he remained P1, even when he was getting a black & white flag for track limits they didn’t even show him 😭
merc getting a well deserved p2/p3, even though i am sad merc finding pace seems to equal ferarri losing it. i was mainly rooting for Carlos this race so yea big disappointment there.
also was really hoping for a closer battle between Checo & George those last 15 laps because Checo was lapping 1.5 seconds faster those opening laps on the soft and then just… stopped? disappointing. not that i didn’t want George P3, i was just finally hoping for some excitement lol.
lando having that contact with lewis (?) in the first 0.8 seconds literally almost made me turn it off.
and yuki getting that penalty is ridiculous to me, at least from what i’ve seen during the race (i haven’t looked at any close ups or tech talks or whatever) so yea big sad for that too. also real heartbreak seeing those pictures of him tucked away and upset.
#a race to never be looked at again#even though i am proud of max’s masterclass#way to go baby#that radio made me chuckle#‘yeah yeah’
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the entirety of lisa frankenstein hurts so bad on an emotional level because. lisa is suffering sm because of how she's treated by her family. how she's seen by everyone she knows. like yea she's murdering people but?? in a way she's protecting herself and the creature, and getting revenge on those who've treated her so so shittily. y'know. it sucks that it escalated to that point (thanks to a certain weeweeless undead guy but. she was gonna get sent away what did you want him to do 🙄🙄 he's already dead anyways what r they gonna do. lock up a zombie 🙄🙄🙄 /silly) and it all feels super heartbreaking to me. all of it. but the final scene with them in the bench together, her not dead and the creature being able to speak again, reading poetry to her, her being free from her past life surrounded by people who were so horrible to her and now being able to forever be with the person who listened to, cared for, and loved her??? that one scene keeps replaying in my brain and WWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
#➳ the fool speaks#like obviously taff still loved her and cared for her. i feel incredibly bad for her too. that shit would be so traumatizing 😭#but lisaaaaa... lisaaaa.......... i love her i love her so much it makes me feel sick. or maybethats the jet lag but either way AUDHAHSHAGA
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He stayed home from work yesterday, claiming not feeling well which was allegedly from overdosing on vitamins.
The whole thing seemed off. The day before he asked me several times to confirm what time I’d be working the next day and claimed he just couldn’t remember.. yea ok buddy. Then as he’s getting ready oh boo hoo he doesn’t feel well and has to stay home. I leave my car and take his truck so he can maybe squeeze in some driving time with our daughter who has not had enough practice.. but he was unable to do that.
Today he texts me at work about some guy named Tommy who he aupppsedly told me about, well his sister is a nurse and she said exactly what I said about why he didn’t feel well the day before and now he feels better hearing it from her. Some random stranger who just ‘happened to be driving by’ while he told his sad tale of not feeling well to some other random stranger who happens to live where he works.
I was not amused, and I’m not buying it either.
My day at work was horrible.. and I’m still carrying around the awfulness from the weekend.. getting locked out in the rain, yelled at for who knows what. Desperately trying to have a real conversation without him telling me I’m starting an argument or ‘you don’t know how to talk to people’ ‘I’ve been talking you for 20 years that you’re always the problem’. Anyhow, I’m extremely on edge and so very sad I’ve been crying involuntarily even at work.
I guess when I got home, after crying all the way - he could see that I was upset and says ‘what’s the problem NOW?’ And my response was wrong and he keeps telling me I’m mad at him.. which I did not say. Though I am mad that he was apparently unaware that our son had come home because he was ‘out in the garage and didn’t see him’ . This makes no sense to me and he got mad at that too but legit wtf were you doing that you didn’t notice your son came home? And the son inquestion seemed angry with his father.. maybe he saw him with someone else.
Also, someone reported my instagram and got it suspended? I don’t really use instagram much, I post things I make, my cats and funny video game glitches - my last post was over a month ago. I can only imagine someone my husband has gotten involved with is fucking with me.. so I mention this to him and he’s all.. that’s weird I would t know anything.. even tho he’s on that site regularly chatting with people.
So he just went off to bed completely ignoring me and as soon as he goes in there he gets a chat message from instagram. I got up to go talk to him and he’s fumbling with his phone. He states only that I am mad at him and that is why he’s not talking to me.. even tho I stated again that I wasn’t mad. He started to go onto his bullshit ‘now your gonna keep me up and Im the most important person on earth and blah blah. And I said ‘oh right, and walked out of the room and closed the door’. I’m sure he just went back to whoever he was talking to. I guess I’ve been discarded again.
I wish this didn’t hurt so much.
I wish I could get out of this.
I don’t want to live this fake life anymore.
But like why? Why couldn’t I just have my stupid instagram.. he claimed he didn’t even know I had an instagram account, but he was friends with me on it. He never even acknowledged me on there. I know it’s stupid but somehow that alone is so fuxking damaging so fuxkibg heartbreaking and I just want to know why I couldn’t just have it. I never violated anything on instagram. Why isn’t there a way out of this.. I can’t keep living with this I can’t. I don’t want to live in this world anymore. Please just let me go. Please can I just go . Please.
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