#yeah idk what this is immm

[tteokdoroki]

tw ! slight age gap, reader is older, cheating, fingering, smut.

hello going on a business trip or to a conference, escaping your mundane life and the marriage that brings you nothing.

you’ve really gone on this trip to get away from your dead bedroom and the spouse that treats you like nothing more than a money maker.

which leads you to having a chance encounter with bakugou at the bar of the hotel your conference is at. you remember him from one of the panels — he’s young for this field of work but incredibly handsome, has brilliant red eyes that draw you in like magnetising poles, he makes you laugh and from your belly too. he’s everything your current spouse is not, there’s a spark inside you that you haven’t felt in years and bakugou knows it too. he makes you feel beautiful and seen and all he’s done is buy you a drink with a sour olive in it.

you find yourself stumbling behind him after one too many drinks, katsuki guiding you back to your hotel room — the good man that he is. you’ve both got panels to attend tomorrow morning at 9am sharp. it wouldn’t be wise to spend the rest of the night basking in booze and one another’s company. but when you get the door, failing to slip your key card into the slot — the blonde’s hand touches yours to help you get it in and all sense of logic is lost.

you no longer feel drained by mundane life waiting for you back home, you no longer think of your boring spouse in currently sleeping in your marital bed where they fail to make you feel loved. from the moment katsuki’s hand had touched yours, all you could feel was electricity, the longing and the wanting you’ve been desperately craving.

his lips drag sweep across your skin in heated motions and they find pleasure spots you’re not sure you even knew existed. bakugou’s fingers map out every inch of your body as though he may never touch you again, they dip past the forbidden band of your a-line skirt and write secret promises of pleasure against your clit because you’re married and the both of you know this is wrong.

one touch turns into another, dull and thick fingers stretch you open and graze your g-spot with an ease your spouse could never find. you e never felt this good, your lashes flutter against katsuki’s neck as he holds you to his chest and finger fucks you to the high heavens…because you’re just a hardworking woman who hasn’t had her pussy ruined in a long time, not like you deserve. he grins when you cream on just two of his fingers, such a good girl, so easy to please.

“such a pretty girl… such a hard worker ‘n no one to take care of you,” the blonde purrs into your ear before pushing you into the plush pillows and blankets below. there’s a gravel in his voice that raises at the heartbeat between your legs, not to mention the perfect view of him loosening his shirt and tie above you. “s’that why you’ve fallen into bed with the youngest guy here. ‘cause i got what it takes t’keep up with ya, yeah? make you feel better than that poor excuse of a fuck you got back home?”

bakugou grins slow and sexy when your hips rise from the bed on instinct at his words and he kisses you just to reward you, a poor touch starved little thing. its hungry and sloppy and messy and somewhere in the mix of his tongue wrapped around yours and your hands in his hair — the blonde has ripped through your stockings and slipped his aching, dripping slick cock past your quivering entrance.

he feels like home inside you, feels you up to the brim and sends your eyes rolling back into the depths of your skull. every stroke is calculated, every piston of katsuki’s meaty girth purposive and intentional — crafted to make you see stars with every jolt of your body up the bed. you can’t go back to regular old life after tonight, you won’t be able to go back to the way things were without picturing bakugou’s tie hanging loosely above you and hearing his deep moans echo throughout your mind.

that night you leave marks on one another that you’ll be hiding for weeks, smiling at when no one is looking, reminiscing the sinful experience shared in this very hotel room. there’s too much passion in the room for this to just remain a one time thing, too much emotion behind the act saliva swept lip lock or love bite left below the line of future clothes to be worn.

you know that you won’t give katsuki up especially when he kisses you as you cum together, thick white seeping between your swollen and ravaged folds.

you’ll do anything to be underneath bakugou like this again, even if it means planning fake business trips every other weekend to get away from your spouse and get fucked to the high heavens by your young hot colleague.

꒰ end. — all rights reserved © tteokdoroki 2024. do not copy, repost, translate, feed into ai & recommend elsewhere.

[bugdogg]

thhinking, thiking, thinkking wippp

i havee an idea but i am unsureeee if i am right aboutt things so like...

im sleepy so i may change my opinions later but immm pretty sure non of them could ever imagine themselves dating another person or beinggg in genuineeee love?? they havent experienced anything that lasted very long... so i assume they have a skewed idea of what love iss, yeah thats what im thinking rn, idk i am confusing myself again teehee

theyre thinkin bout love!

[apush-relevancy]

BBAJ, your thoughts?

Ben walker is so hot I love men

In all seriousness, I love the satirical retelling of Jackson's life. It's not completely accurate, but no musical truly is.

Starting strong with Populism, Yea Yea, it's a banger opening number and I love studying Manifest Destiny so yeah it's great. Populism technically wasn't counted til I think the later 1800s but Jackson would've been a populist if not a Jacksonian Democrat.

I'm Not That Guy--- 10/10 Vocal Stim, just singing "Immm not thattt guyyyyy" over and over because I can

Illness as a Metaphor confused me at first, but you really have to watch it to get the full effect. (I was not expecting the blood, I thought it was just gonna be metaphorical).

I'm So That Guy; I have an intense love for songs which overlap motifs from previous songs. And the beginning to this is actually amazing, especially with the repetition of "kill everyone"

Ten Little Indians, again it doesn't make sense unless you watch it. Some of the rhymes feel forced but it's pretty catchy despite depicting the Trail of Tears.

The Corrupt Bargain is my FAVORITE song from BBAJ!!! I go insane I will listen to this on loop all day every day. All the "do do do do do" and like the quick switches between Quincy Adams, Clay, and Calhoun. Fuck yeah

Rock Star. It's catchy, but the fact that the chorus doesn't rhyme makes me so pissed every time I listen to it. I love the song but I hate it so much yk?

The Great Compromise, I didn't like it much originally but it's definitely grown on me (along with the entire Rachel storyline). Very good if I do say so myself.

Public Life KILLED ME. Literally crying so much. And even before the song, when she's dead and the announcer is just like "haha Jackson won" but she's just dead. Completely took me out.

Crisis Averted is super catchy, idk why, and the storylines that take place between the verses are just hilarious tbh. Would recommend for anyone looking for the funniest song.

The Saddest Song, it isn't the saddest song imo, but it's catchy as fuck and another one I'll put on repeat constantly. Not a fan of the rhymes at the beginning but eh what can you do about it, it was 2010.

Second Nature. That's a song, I guess.

Hunters of Kentucky--- literally a remix of Jackson's campaign song and it's fire. Didn't expect it to have the same melody and verses and everything. And in the live musical, all the funny things that happen during the credits >>>

Also just love how they made Washington gay and Van Buren gayer.

Banger of a musical, Ben Walker is still hot, would recommend 10/10. Helped me in my APUSH class too.

On my phone so I don't have my format to follow but uh 7/10 US History Relevancy, highly unlikely that this ask will be used in a US history class.

[theinconveniencing]

goodnight!!! I feel so weird right now and I am so tired ahahahahah (I’m fine it’s just 4am) 

[smashing-cookies-archives]

Idk if you have been keeping up with the Tower of Sweet Chaos story in Kingdom, but if so, what do you think is going to happen to Pastry Cookie?

HI SORRY IF THIS IS A LATE REPLY I WAS SLEEPING AND ONLY JUST GOT ON TUMBLR LOL

but immm not entirely sure! i do know what happens in it but i'm... not exactly sure what might happen to her?

i am very interested in what could happen though, i am hoping for some dark shit, maybe pastry gets in some sort of immense amount of danger regarding the church thing shes apart of?? (i forgor if it is a church or just a religion thing idk lol)

maybe she gets more interaction with red velvet, lotsa confusing n emotional irrational stuff on her end and red velvet is like "JEEZ CALM DOWN BREATHE FOR A MINUTE" and yeah they bond and (sort of) become some kind of friends at most

she didnt listen to the church or smthin in keeping quiet??

i dunno, theres a lot of possibilities and i need to revisit the story in order to try and think of something exact and proper LOL

[potatotrash0]

Mm..Komaeda orrrrr Zhongli

Immm gonna do both bc I can

Komaeda

Favorite thing: I like. A lot. About him. But I like exploring his worldview, it’s interesting.……

Least favorite: why. Is his hair sooo hard to draw. It’s. What. What. Why is it shaped like that :( also why is his dialogue hard to write smh

Fandom pet peeve: uhhhhh I don’t like it when he’s characterized as. Like. Super submissive. Idk how to put it but it bugs me to see him have no spine whatsoever bc he’s not?? Like that as far as I remember???? Idfk he could be I haven’t watched sdr2 in a long time but it just bothers me to see that. I like sassy Komaeda that might be why……

Zhongli

Favorite thing: I…..think I like just. His energy. He has dad vibes but also he. Seems so calming? Like you could just sit with him and drink some tea and listen to his history lessons for hours. He also seems like he’d give really good hugs. I want him to be my dad is what I’m saying

Least favorite thing: do I even have one. Uh. Idk I don’t see enough stuff of him to make a judgement

Fandom pet peeve: eeehhhhhh yeah I don’t. See enough of him to say much. I could on Venti but not Zhongli

[ihatebnha]

honestly I was looking straight ahead idk what happened

immm gonna go sleep now bye

yeah, you better. BETTER REST YOUR FACE SO IT HEALS PROPERLY!!!

sleep well tho <3

[montagues-starlight]

Tag game!

:0 thanks for the tag @silentlyfangirlingselfshipper !!!

Rules; Once you’ve answered everything, tag 10 bloggers you want to know more about!

Name/Alias: Just Katie! My actual name is Kaitlynn but I prefer Katie, as that’s what I’ve always gone by!

Hair Color: Dark Brown! Like when it’s wet it looks black hfhfhf

Zodiac Sign: Taurus!

Height: 5’5! I’ve been told before that I’m 5’3 or 5’4, but the most I’ve been told is I’m 5’5, so that’s what I go by! My doctors always varied on my height :\

Hobbies: I like drawing, writing, and collecting plushies! Oh and playing video games! One of my favorite things to talk about though is programming!!

Favourite Color(s): Orange!! I’ve always loved that color~

Favorite Books: MayBird and The Everafter has always been a comfort favorite! It actually started my interest in writing (my first writing was a fanfic— you can ask if you’d like but it’s.... hvfjbfh I wrote it in 4th grade I’ll leave it at that—)

Last Song I Listened To: BFF from the Spongebob Musical— it’s been stuck in my head all day

Last Movie Watched: I think the Child’s Play remake?? Yeah I’m pretty sure it was that.

Things I Love: hfhbfhfgh my friends(+) for one and my family as well! Self shipping, my stuffed bunny Jaxa, I don’t wanna ramble but those were the first things that came to mind!

What Brings Me Peace: definitely talking to my friends+ (the plus includes the guy I’m teeeechnically dating- forgot to mention that above). Seeing any butterfly at all, but specifically blue monarchs as they represent my mom (who passed away 4 years ago), my religion, and drawing! Oh and listening to music!

Meaning Behind My URL: nothin much really. I wanted something kinda catchy? Idk something easy to remember. I guess my personality can be “glowing” so that part of my url represents my optimism. Selfships is self explanatory hfhbfhvf

Bonus:

- I’ve had Jaxa since I was 1! I got her at one of those Walmart photo shoot things and I’ve had her ever since!

- While its still just “technically” dating (tho my friends say there’s no technically and we are in fact dating), the relationship I’m in is the first relationship I have ever had.

- HHCHJVFH SPEAKING OF THE RELATIONSHIP THING I ACTUALLY HELD ONTO HIM WHILE GOING THROUGH A HAUNTED HOUSE AND HE ACTUALLY LET ME HOLD ONTO HIM IMMM HNCGJBFH 😳😳😳

- I have literally no clue what my heritage is or my family’s medical history, as I was adopted and my birth mom never knew my birth dad. I could get a dna test but I’ve never gotten around to it.

I’ll tag @two-pairs-of-blue-eyes @bittersweet-n-smilin @rance-rance-revolution @selfshippingalien @dumb-kaiju-in-love @slugs-self-ships @macabre-corvid-grim @makaramiracles @olliesselfshipblog and whoever else wants to do this! If you don’t want to then that’s fine as well ^^

[r3nton]

ALL of them questions

BITCH what the Fuck!!who’s your celebrity crush? mary elizabeth winstead, drew barrymore, cillian murphy, duff mckagan, freddie foxare you single or taken? haha guess :)rant. just do it hhhhh there’s a lot of shit but the lowdown is my gps a bitch and i love my friends a lotdo you think its ok to separate the artist from the art? depending on the art, yeshow many accounts do you have? too manyhow many pairs of shoes do you have? um a few but i wear like 2 of themhow many accounts do you follow? like it’s in the 6000s i thinkfavorite brand of clothing? i like to mostly shop from charity stores. otherwise romwe or boohoo. i dream of shopping at dollskillname a dog uhhhhh… brianwhat unusual talent do you have? i can watch grave of the fireflies without cryingwhat’s the most interesting schools gossip you’ve ever heard? um idk i dont wanna say like any Serious gossip so one time it was rumoured that my maths teacher and english teacher (both married to other people) were going to elopeever prank called a store? nope, is it recommended?what’s your coffee order? quite often I actually get the fruit ice drinks. otherwise it’ll be chai tea / english breakfast (with soya) or an iced coffee if im dieting hahawhat’s a question do you constantly get asked? why r u vegan, what food do you eat, is it hard being vegan, etc if it’s a stranger and they spot me eating. otherwise i probably get asked specifically abt movies or musicif you had to get a tattoo right now, what would you get and where? “man is least himself” from the oscar wilde quote that goes “man is least himself when he talks in his own person, give him a mask and he’ll tell you the truth” & id get it just above my elbow on my arm with the first two words above the second two wordsgoogle the top song from the year you were born (uk charts) who let the dogs out IMMMrant about your favorite musician duff mckagan fucking overcame fucking everything. hes a badass bass player & uhhh dm me if u want his tragic life story n how he inspires me what’s your favorite teacher you’ve ever had? she was called mrs miller and she taught history and she let me draw in felt tips in my workbook. also mr dalton taught me english and when we had classes where we were meant to read he let me write this shit ass book i wrote in 3 notebooks & also he marked my 6 page stories when he only asked us to write 1 page he was a mc legenddescribe your blog in 3-5 words pink bisexual hornywhat’s a conspiracy you believe in? i dont believe in any i dont think so i’m just gonna say marilyn manson got a rib removedif you could see any concert tonight what would you choose? nirvana if i could time travel, morrissey if notif you could break one of your bad habits which would you choose? id probs stop being so lazy & do more exercise & like work out and shitcan you dance? sing? kind of what’s something you can’t stop buying? movies and clothes hahacrowds or small groups? either a massive crowd or like max 2 friends is idealhow long before a trip do you pack? like the day before, panickingwhat celebrity would you rate a PERFECT 10? freddie foxwhat quote or inspirational setting do you think is bs? if u can dream it u can do it. or the ones abt how happiness is a choice if you had to dye your hair an unnatural color right now, what would you choose? pink, like darkish pastelyou can change one thing about your life right now. what are you changing? uhhh i can see my friends who live in other countries as often as i like.how old do you get mistaken for? like 16 phahahawhat do you think about a lot? my weight, my friends, moviesdo you like your hogwarts house or do you wish you were a different one? im slytherin and that’s awesome, obviouslywhat does home mean to you? my sisterwhat do you think you’d be arrested for? bein an annoyin lil bitchhave you ever been called down to the principals office? yeah, in primary school more than oncepost a picture of the outfit you would choose if you could have any outfit you wanted i cant post a picture but ive added a gif of it at the bottom (jennifer’s pink outfit in jennifer’s body)describe your aesthetic uhh depressed and pinkanswer with one of your ‘school memes’ (inside jokes you have with your class/grade) with no explanation fish

[mymagnificentself]

stress

i know its still a good week until school starts again and actually two more days bc im going on a choir trip right after, but im already getting really stressed out about school stuff

i actually don't even know when our exams and all that is going to be, that's how terrified i am of the whole situation bc I've got like no overview on anything of whats going on and bc that's freaking me out even worse instead of like looking things up and getting it out of the way (which lets face it im gonna have to do sooner or later anyways) immm lying awake in bed at 1:52 am being so stressed out that i cant sleep and posting about it

well done mags, well done..

but yeah so i actually dont even know what all else is coming up, meaning what i should prepare for and just

uRGh its really FruStRAtiNG i am so FruSTRAtED with myself because of all this, that i cant get myself to do it and that theres no _easy way around or out of it_

i mean i could always fake my own death and move to.. idk somewhere but that would require just as much if not more effort and planning and just uRGH

i HATE

THIS

i HATE IT

[queens-enigma]

I got tagged by @gracelingdesolate for this cool ask meme~

Nickname: Dusk, Duck, Dicktator

Bias: that’s...a really random question lol people who don’t like Mineta are automatically trustworthy

Blood Type: I dunno I think O

Relationship Status: IMMM A SINGLE LAADDYYY

Birthday: August 11

Zodiac Sign: Leo

Pronouns: she/her 

Hair Length: Short! A little over my shoulders.

Height: 5 feet...

A crush: None!

What do you like about yourself: uMMMMMMMM im...a nice person? 

Right or left handed: Right

List three favorite colors: Sky blue, mint, and light pink

Right now eating: Cookies!

Right now drinking: Lemonade

I’m about to: Do homework

Listening to: Nothing lol

Kids: KIDS ARE GOOD 

Get married: probably not lol

Recent phone call: My mom

Have you ever dated someone twice: Nope

Been cheated on: Nope

Kissed someone and regretted it: please i never kissed a person 

Lost someone special: Yeeaaahhhhh

Been depressed: Used to. But I’m getting better now!

Been drunk and thrown up: g r o s s 

Had glasses or contacts: NOPE LOL

Had sex on a first date: N o 

Broken someone’s heart: Idk maybe?

Turned someone down: Nooo...??

Cried when someone died: Yup c,: 

Fallen for a friend: HAHA YUP

In he last year have you made a new friend: I think so!!

Fallen out of love: Mm. Yeah. It sucks.

Laughed until you cry: Yup, a while back...

Met someone who changed you: OooOOH YEAH

Found out who your true friends were: Yup I think so?

Found out someone was talking about you: nopeee

Lips or eyes: Eyes~

Hugs or kisses: Hugs

Shorter or taller: Taller please it’s impossible to be shorter than me

Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic

Sensitive or loud: Sensitive

Hookup or relationship: Relationship

First best friend: M e g a n..

Surgery: I got a heart surgery when I was five, and I got another surgery on my cheek to remove this...thing. 

Sports: SPORTS ARE FOR THE  W E A K

Do you believe in yourself: S-sometimes? 

Miracles: “Miracles and magic do exist!”

Love at first sight: Haha no. 

Heaven: Maybeeeee? Idkkk? 

Do you have any pets: I WISH

Do you want to change your name: Just my last name please 

What did you do for your last birthday: We went to eat sushi! 

What time did you wake up today: 7:00 AM

What were you doing last night at midnight: Sleeping duh 

Something you can’t wait for: Sonic Forces! 

Last time you saw your mom: A couple hours ago 

What is the one think you wish you could change about your life: My dad my height lol

What’s getting on your nerves: Nothiinnnng? 

im...too lazy to tag people...if you wanna do it go for it lol

[wonrude]

70 questions

tagged by jeonwoooo

1. do you have a good relationship with your parents?

i gues?? it could be better thats for sure

2. who did you last say “i love you” to? one of my friends

3. do you regret anything? not sending a fucking enrollment deposit to spelman too

4. are you insecure? sometimes but not much recently

5. what is your relationship status? avan jogia liked my twt so we basically married right?

6 .how do you want to die? part of me wants it to be something really cool, but also that sounds painful

7. what did you last eat? fruit snacks

8. played any sports? i used to horseback ride

9. do you bite your nails? nope 10. when was your last physical fight? i’ve never fought lmao

11. do you like someone? yeh

12. have you ever stayed up 48 hours? ive done 26 before

13. do you hate anyone at the moment? nope i had started cutting off ppl awhile ago so everyone around me are all cool

14. do you miss someone? yeah

15. have any pets? i have one catfish that survived the apocolypse that my tank experienced

16. how exactly are you feeling at the moment? bored? content?

17. ever made out in the bathroom?

lmao never expeienced that

18. are you scared of spiders?

fucking yes

19. would you go back in time if given the chance? YES

20. last place you made out with someone? THIS IS JUST REALLY MEAN

21. what are your plans for this weekend? work and math placement test

22. do you want kids? how many? 1?

23. do you have piercings? how many?  both lobes and a cartilaege on my right. I want to get a daith or orbital on my left

24. what is/are your best subjects? english

25. do you miss anyone from your past? ye

26. what are you craving rn? wing stop! cheese fries!! DQ blizzard!!! 

27. have you ever broken someones heart?

not that i know of?

28. have you ever been cheated on? cheated on myself with me

29. have you ever made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

s/o? never experienced that emotion

30. whats irritating rn? my brother 

31. does someone love you? i hope tf?

32. what is your favorite color? gold/ red

33. do you have trust issues? no? idk

34. who/what was your last dream about? the last one i remember was wild lmao in summary i was a homewrecker

35. who was the last person you cried in front of? my econ teacher lmao yikes

36. do you give out second chances too easily? nope

37. is it easier to forgive or forget? forget for sure 38. is this year the best year of your life? its better than last year so

39. how old were you when you had your first kiss? ok listen

40. have you ever walked outside completely naked? almost

(yall i stg 41-50 are just gONE IMMM)

51. favorite food? cheese fries

52. do you believe everything happens for a reason? yea?

53. what was the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? went on a target trip with my friends and then we watched youtube at one of their houses

54. is cheating ever okay? if ur in a monogomaus/poly relationship why tf do u need to sneak around and find someone else

55. are you mean? ... sometimes yeah

56. have you ever been in a fist fight? nope

57. do you believe in true love? nah

58. favorite weather? rain STORMS

59. do you like the snow? WTF IS SNOW? Texas only knows hot and Satan’s asshole

60. do you wanna get married? idk i cant grasp/understand the concept of marriage?

61. is it cute when a girl/boy calls you baby? bruh if the right person calls me baby/babygirl its like a switch to make me calm and just 1200000000% more pleasent to be around

62. what makes you happy? direct deposits

65. your bff of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? the only guy that im “cool” with is a lil emotionally draining to be around like that 

66. do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? not really

67. who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? my dad

68. who is the last person you had a deep conversation with? i try to avoid those uhm one of my friends i met thru kpop twt malia

69. do you believe in soulmates? not really

70. is there anyone you’d die for? not at the moment lmao yikes

[survivornavarino]

Episode #9: I’m A Fighter -Jake

*loud screeching noise* AHHHHHHHHHH omfg i cant believe we just did that #beam 4 life ok so like i feel horrible because i love drew but he was trying to make an alliance and it didnt include me and i had to take him out before it was too late because while it wouldnt be me this vote it probably would next time so like sorry drew i love u im sure this doesnt help my case for like why u should b my friend but like i rlly am sorry.  also i feel bad for lying to jake but it just wouldve gotten back to drew and i didnt want to risk that.  im hoping he doesnt hate me too much for blindsiding his ally but like again, they were trying to have a majority alliance that i wasnt a part of and i just didn't want to deal with it tbh.  maybe jake and i are just doomed to eternally be on separate sides in games idk (sad music plays) umm trixie idk we dont really talk we just kind of coexist UM HOLDUP JESUS CHRIST WE JUST FUCKING MERGED WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK WIG ON PLUTO WHAT TO HECK ????? im off to plot heathers demise xoxo gossip beckka

Woot Woot its merge loves. Time to be a complete mess and be first merge boot. Hehehe

I MADE IT, MY SECOND ATHENA GAME AND I MADE IT TO MERGE AGAIN IM INCREDIBLEY HAPPY. Let’s hope I don’t get eighth place again, and if I’m gonna be honest I need Drew gone if I’m gonna win. He’s so fucking good at challenges. So eliminating him would mainly be out of fear.

Remember how I’m a dumbass? Me too ok so Drew was eliminated already.

Excuse me I am stupid and don't get letters are better as numbers... and also reversed. I would like an explanation plzz

words tried in number form and reversed so far that have not worked. Emily-Amanda-Abbey-Francie, Navarino, Survivor, Athena. Im gonna cry I cant find it yet.

Oh yeah tea, I ended up finding a secret advantage called the deja vote which means I can steal someone’s vote from a tribal and re-use it at a later tribal 

This was originally going to me a vlog of me screaming after tribal but I busy last night and fell asleep before doing it so now I'm more calm and just gonna type out. Okay so looking back at my last confessional, bitch I'm boo boo the fool. I seriously thought Eddie and Autumn were being honest with me because I trust(ed) them sooo much, but it turns out they were playing me and orchestrating a Drew blindside behind my back. So before I went out last night, EVERYONE told me they were voting Matt. Then two minutes before the vote, Eddie and Autumn message me like "JAKE! Are you here??? SOMETHING is happening" like bitch shut the fuck up something is not happening don't act like this shit just happened last minute. Then they say "Drew is getting voted out tonight!" So...I went to Drew and told him to play the idol if he had it. Because I didn't want Matt staying if I was voting for him. But Drew said he didn't have an idol, and Eddie found out that I told Drew and told Autumn. So after I got home I messaged the group chat with Eddie and Autumn and told them that I was upset by them lying to me bc I did trust them the most. Then Autumn decided to get ballsy and reply "I don't buy that at all since you told Drew to play his idol, you were more loyal to him than me." GIRL STFU yes the fuck I did tell Drew because you told me TWO MINS BEFORE TRIBAL - MEANING YOU KEPT THE VOTE HIDDEN FROM ME ALL DAY. DON'T SAY IM DISLOYAL WHEN YOU WERE THE BIGGEST MFING SNAKE THIS ROUND! ...Anyways. Autumn then tries to come for me by saying "So tell, what's with this alliance between you, Eddie, Drew, and Trixie." And this is when I got more mad. BC Drew proposed this alliance to me, but it was never made, hell I didn't even tell Trixie about it. And when I told Eddie about it I told him I think we should tell Autumn about the alliance (Since he wanted to as well) So it became clear that Autumn was spreading to rebecka and matt that I was in an actual alliance with them to get them all to turn on us. So um Autumn, I wanted to trust you and go far with you in this game, but you're dead to me in this game now and I want you GONE. Autumn has the most connections here. She has Eddie, Rebecka, Matt, Ben, and I've heard that she has Mitch as well. She is a huge threat and if I can find a way to take her out, I will. But right now I need to focus on surviving. After the vote, Trixie added me to a call with Julia. Julia told us all of the alliances she's in (and she's in a damn lot) and said she basically likes Trixie more so she's working with us. Umm okay that's cool. I hope she's being serious because my life in this game is in Julia's hands now. She has all these connections and I need to get her to gun for someone that isn't me, Trixie, or Shoib. I've decided that my ideal final 3 would be with Trixie and Shoib because I trust them the most now, we've been together since day one, and we're all fans. It would be perfect. Sooo yeah. I also talked to Heather and basically blamed Tyler for all the animosity between us. I am trying to repair relationships and hopefully push the target off my back because I am worried about being targeted for 12th. IDK WHAT ELSE TO DO! I am in SUCH a bad position right now and it's so annoying. At the start of this game I had a lot of allies and the two people who trusted me the most (Tyler and Drew) are gone. But I'm a FIGHTER. I will NOT give up! I was in the minority at merge in crossroads and turned it around and made it to FTC so I just have to keep pushing and hopefully I'll get the same results! Woo wig! This was originally going to me a vlog of me screaming after tribal but I busy last night and fell asleep before doing it so now I'm more calm and just gonna type out.

https://youtu.be/iUDlOxxgtz0 my face in the thumbnail for this video is so funny cause it's when i found out of another to do the idol search. Obviously we know it didn't work adhshjks

I am pumped for this merge, I feel like I am playing a really under the radar game and it will make people come to me and ask me to vote with them if the game does break down into two sides, which I think it will. I trust Julia and Trixie the most right now and Trixie has two FREAKING idols omg. I also trust Mitch and Autumn but they are my secondary alliance which I will fall back on if I lose Trixie and Julia

Ok so no one is really messaging me about the vote, which is scary. I don't want to be first merge boot. The only people who have spoke to me are Matt, which he is confused, and Jake, which says no one really spoke to him about the vote yet. I did hear that people thought Ben and I were close, which like we have voted together, but aren't to close. I know now that Trixie has an idol and someone found the merge idol so FUN. I CAN'T WAIT TO BE FIRST MERGE BOOT.

Me starting a grassroots movement of Ben vs Heather cause I'm not aligned with either? Yep. Me forcing people to show their hands and make choices? Absolutely https://68.media.tumblr.com/41399c7dcc99b69388de05d609f7323c/tumblr_inline_o6ola1oDhw1sso1z7_500.gif Look none of these votes will be easy cause I like everyone and I'm aligned with almost everyone but it's Survivor I ain't scurd. I neeevvveerrr talk to Ben or Heather so I'm just gonna be a swing vote in the mess I created. Also feel free to give me the villain edit that's the one thing I haven't accomplished in Athena, besides winning or beating my placement. If not that's cool too I'll just continue to be my messy antihero self. Ok bye! Time to disappear and let the drama fester while I'm at work

You know what would be great, if more people would know who the vote is gonna be. Won't be surprised if that is me to be quite honest. Right now I hear Ben and if that is the only name I hear, I'll do it.

i never thought i'd say this but I WANNA HEX JULIA THE WITCH. okay not really bc i dont want her to read this and think im actually mad. but im wary of what i say to her now considering she told heather about my idol hehe

The votes for me cuz Beckka is bitter over another game. At least in that game I didn't isolate her. I'm prob just gonna cry in a corner.

This is a mess

this round has been a fucking mess and a half and im too busy rn trying to save my ass to make it all sophisticated i have a lot to say so if i stay ill explain everything later but basically autumn came to me today saying she wants to flip on ben so im trying to rally eddie trixie shoib julia and heather to get 7 on ben but apparently ben is throwing my name out bc he doesnt want to vote heathwr and immm fucking nervous idek if heather will wanna vote ben now if hes trying to save her what if she flips like this is bad help

The first merge vote is stressful as fuck cus there’s 12 people. I’m fine as long as it’s not me.

Don't know what's going on. Voting heather and hoping it works!!!!!

Good god am I glad I'm immune for this bullshit Let's start with merge. Woo merge! The idol system is announced. I actually make progress on the advantage hunt! Then I finish it. And someone already has it. GREAT So then I try the idol hunt and someone ALSO has it! GREATER. So now I have to worry about that shit. So I won immunity somehow because I guess preparing was a good idea since I blew through the second round. I won't be first merge boot in Athena woo!!! But now the vote is fucking crazy. I want to vote out Heather because, as sweet as she is, she's got a lot of ears listening for info for her and it's better to get someone like that out early before it's too late. But people don't want to because they're the ears! Big surprise. People are between Jake and Ben and Heather and honestly? I want to keep Ben around a little more. My plan for now is to not have one big alliance, but rather to be a part of small trio alliances so people can have my back without the worry of a huge alliance fracturing. I just have to keep the trio members safe. My planned trios are as follows: Ben, Mo, myself Shoib, Autumn, myself Rebecka, Julia, myself (WIP) That's 7 people who have my back in varying circumstances, as long as they're being truthful. I've also been alerted to a greater alliance of Matt, Ben, Julia, Mo, and Rebecka. Hopefully this trio plan will help me get in with those people more, and perhaps in the close future I can take out Matt and get rid of that variable.

i made merge!! its lit!! there hasnt been a lot going on so far. nobodys really reached out to me and ive been so busy so im just going with what rebecka wants, which is heather. i’m not sure voting heather is a good move for me, in fact i know its not, but unfortunatelt i dont have the time to make another move and im just tryin to survive

What is going on here on this day? This is a mess and i'm just on the train a long for the ride. I'm hearing Ben, Jake, and Heather, but I wouldn't be surprised if it's me tonight. Like I'm sure they're afraid of Jake having an idol, so why not throw their votes on someone who's irrelevant at the moment and who probably wouldn't see it coming? Anyway, I HIGHLY doubt Ben is leaving tonight, and I don't really believe that the votes are going on Heather or Jake, idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk. I really hope Jake stays, and I really hope Ben goes or I am probably screwed af.

[punky-yet-spunky]

bored once more

Are you “with” the very last person you kissed? no Ever dated/kissed a someone with the name Casey, Tyler, Ryan, Jordan, Colton, Rebecca, Samantha, Lauren, Taylor, or Ashley? nahh Was your last kiss, standing up, sitting down, or lying down? standin' Are you happy with the choices you’ve made? not necessarily happy but i ain't mad Are you excited for anything? to be home and see my boys Do you hate the last person you kissed? my best friend forever You’re stuck in an elevator with one of your worst enemies, what do you do? try to ignore them but if they start something i'll punch a bitch Will this weekend be a good one? probably a little stressful and boring but i might get my nose stabbedd Are you mad at someone right now? probably Do you like to listen to the radio in the car? love it Do you sleep with a fan on? ye my room is steemy How is your hair right now? greasy as usual Have you ever broken up with someone for someone else? yes How many windows are open on your computer? 2 w toooo many tabs How tall are you? 5'6 sometimes Is something bothering you? my thighs r sticky Have you ever taken a shower with anyone before? yep almost every day Have you ever laughed at something that wasn’t meant to be funny? oh yeah constantly Have you ever told someone of the opposite sex “Fuck you”? deffo Do you like to cuddle? when it's not 2 hotttt Have you done anything sneaky lately? immm always sneeakin' Is your hair clean? never Last night, did you go to sleep smiling? i think so Were you happy when you woke up today? no bc my mom was playing bad pop music What are you drinking right now? saliva Do you wear your seatbelt in the car? when i feellll like itt Does someone have feelings for you? idk Have you ever been cheated on? idk Are you hard to please? no not really just play me a funky tune and i'll be a happy boyy What are you craving right now? waterr How are you feeling right now? odd Are you missing anyone/something? usually Relationship to the last person you called? my sister Could you date someone shorter than you? I could but i like dem long boyzz Is there anybody you just wish would fall of the planet? prolly Do you wear glasses? nah contacts Where did you sleep last night? da floorr Do you straighten your hair? nahh What color shirt are you wearing? dirty Do you have a best friend? u bet a fuhking nerddd and bad meme Do you wish you had the chance to go back in time and change something now? yea Who is the last person you got a text from? my mahmm Are you excited for winter? yeah it's 2 fuking hawt When are you at your happiest? when i'm scheming n' memeing w my boyy Is there anything you wish you did today? Why haven’t you done it? shower. no time