#yeah if you can't tell i really fell into a rabbit hole

[aqours]

In defense of JK Haru Vol 6

i know the plot decisions that emerge in volume 6 of the JK Haru manga (about halfway through the novel) are controversial but i'm gonna go to bat and say i think it. actually really makes sense and if anything i think helps create more context for what this story is supposed to be and fits into its themes very well.

and it isn't like, surprising its controversial: its a huge thing that comes out of NOWHERE on the semi-final volume of the manga/halfway through the book. and the question of "Why would Haru go back to the brothel?" and "Why didn't she just use this early on?" are, imho, actually really valid questions. and the answer is because it wouldn't matter. JK Haru isn't a story about changing the world, it's about the abuse that sex workers face and how Haru exists in that world. nothing really changes in the entire world from beginning to end: and i think that works perfectly, actually.

gonna post more under the readmore both for spoiler consideration and so it's not too long if you don't have the thing that cuts down post automatically! bare in mind i've read the novel and a chunk of JK Haru Summer so there might be spoilers inbound, as well as talking about what vol 7 will probably cover! (and on that note if i'm incorrect about anything from JK Haru Summer let me know, i haven't read all the vignettes yet and i'll edit this post)

nothing really changes in JK Haru's world from beginning to end. hell, the last bonus chapter of the novel is more or less just sharing the setting's mythology and explaining why misogyny is so deeply rooted into its culture: Haru does not change this world, nor could she. it is impossible for one person to have the strength to change such an incredibly rooted misogyny in the world.

Haru has an incredibly godly OP power that is not revealed into halfway through the novel because there is no way to capitalize on it. women are barely allowed to go outside on their own, and her power is one that requires her to -as bluntly as possible- fuck a LOT OF PEOPLE before it can start doing anything useful. and i'll acknowledge this could've been an interesting story in itself: "JK Haru Is A Former Sex Worker In Another World Who Wants To Defeat The Demon King" with chapter 1 being about how she's waited for the better part of 8 months to amass skills before setting off on her adventure: it'd be a dime in a dozen beyond talking about misogyny and having a fem protag for that genre, but i'd like to imagine it's a shiny dime. like, if i had to use a dime for a vending machine and had two dimes, i'd use the other dime first.

but that's not what it it's about.

JK Haru isn't just a scathing criticism of misogyny present in the isekai general, it's a scathing commentary about our real world attitudes. and it IS funny at many times, it is absolutely an erotic work that also wants to sexually entertain its readers if they want it to be a work for such, it is a commentary about what sex workers actually face. we live in a world where prostitution is referred to as the world's oldest profession: and society at large views their lives as worthless. Haru's problems aren't bad because she's a sex worker: it's the rampant misogyny and the treating that the lives of her and her friends are worthless as a result.

Haru at no point really objects to the fact she does this for a living in this odd new world she finds herself in. the most is her shock at the very beginning of "oh, ok wow yeah ok i'm gonna be a sex worker i'm learning how fantasy world contraceptive works-" and it's not this aspect of her life that's nightmarish. the abuse she and her friends have to face because they are women and because they are sex workers is a societal ill. it is made very clear that even if Haru had done this scenario of biding her time before setting out: what would have realistically happened?

if she beat the Demon Lord, if there was even a single man that was a part of her traveling party society would do their damndest to cover up and hide this fact. again, the skeletons of what could still be a fun story, is one that approaches the attitude of one person alone can destroy society's evil. so at the end of the day: those super OP powers end up just becoming a tool for one moment, then it's back to her old life.

because Haru enjoyed her life. she actually notes with hope this is the world she turned 18. this is the world where she graduated from being a JK.

Haru never dislikes being a sex worker because it's sex work: her issues come from misogynistic customers. and she even enjoys it more than once: her relationship with Sumo was something that even if she didn't particularly get a lot of physical pleasure from was something she enjoyed doing. the time with the Bard, while weird, was funny and clearly not something she actually disliked. she's a human being who enjoys sex, and at one point even develops feelings for somebody else and wants to have sex with him.

Haru, Lupe, and Sherasquo's problems are not because of the fact they are sex workers, that they are people who have sex to make a living, as opposed to the misogyny that comes with it, which tragically takes Sherasquo's life. if either her or Lupe had Haru's OP skill? it's likely that beyond the fact Sherasquo survived, they wouldn't have done much for it.

Haru isn't looking to be a hero. she's just trying to live her life as happily and peacefully as she can in the other world. and as we've now stated, Haru does not dislike the fact she is a sex worker and is unashamed that this is her occupation. the treatment she faces, the misogyny, those are the things she hates and harms her and women like her.

and the world keeps revolving. even after Haru finally uses her power to murder an entire squadron of soldiers, nothing changes in that world. Haru goes back to doing the work she is good at and comfortable with because she has found a happiness in her life and does not feel a need to use this power to radically change her life. because the truth is, even if she did, the misogyny is simply so deep-rooted into this world that Haru would probably find herself significantly less happy and much more miserable than doing what she wants to do. that is the choice she ultimately makes, and why a status quo returns: and it's a status quo that is still riddled with pain and suffering, but despite it, Haru managed to find a happiness for herself. and it is not as if she decides to forego all other desires ever: Haru does make a choice she wants to use her skills as an adventurer at the end of things, and even decides she does want a shot at the Demon Lord. she actively tries something new in her life: and ultimately returns to where she was to continue trying to live happily.

nothin really changes all that much in the world of JK Haru. everyone goes through some growth: hell, even Chiba of all people actually manages to become... kind of a decent person by the end of JK Haru Summer? but the world is largely the same. the reality is that sex workers like Haru will continue to face horrific misogyny, and at worst it may result in their murder. Haru is pregnant and ready to raise a baby and might or might not be married to the Demon Lord of her own free will.

so i don't believe Volume 6 doesn't ruin the manga. i don't believe that Volume 6 renders everything pointless. this was never a story of epic fantasy and fighting and how Haru changes the world around her: it's a story about one girl ripped from her home finding her happiness in another world. and she finds this happiness as a sex worker, is not ashamed of that, and has to overcome many trials to be able to truly claim her happiness in her hands. those who describe this as truly bleak misery porn are, simply put, just kind of wrong.

Haru is probably the single most powerful individual in this entire world and rather than using it to change the world with force returns to sex work to continue seeking her happiness, and that's OK. she decides that the usage of these powers cannot bring her to happiness, and that's OK. JK Haru is about the struggle of a young woman that must navigate a violent and misgoynistic world to obtain her happiness while drawing attention to the fact that for many sex workers in the real world, in our earth, this is a reality they have to face, and an adamant message that sex workers are people who are as entitled to their happiness as you, me, and everyone else. the fictional world doesn't change because of one woman's actions just as our real world will not change because of one person's actions, the entire setting isn't radically changed by Haru, and her having her powers even if enough to defeat the Demon Lord would not be able to change the world around her.

so in all?

volume 6 doesn't ruin this story or anything. it just further hammers in what kind of story this truly is, what it's really about, and i think that's... that's OK too.

[the-au-collector]

Fell into a rabbit hole of rewatching Age of Calamity cutscenes (since I don't have the game) and

this game is so needlessly dramatic

"it whaaaat" - Revali

Robbie is an icon and there needs to be more of him

the DLC memory scenes are the best cutscenes in the game

Terrako singing ballad of the goddess 😭😭😭

Baby Zelda is so cute

Terrako is OP

I love how the entire game starts all dramatic and then there's just E G G

Also the opening credits of the game imply that the tapestry is about the Calamity where BOTW Link failed??? Either that or Terrako existed at the same time as the OG Calamity which works for me!

Terrako is the main character prove me wrong

Baby Sidon is too pure for this world

I like how Zelda narrates the game. You could almost see it like she's narrating it to her kids or something and I think that's really cute

Sidon's adult voice actor is so over-the-top lolll

I love Daruk so much

"None of this makes any sense" No Daruk it does not

I love Riju's voice actor

I love how Patricia gets her own name tag too

This game varies between incredibly dark to incredibly funny/corny and I love it

Astor my beloved your laugh is terrifying

Khoga is an icon too "you're my best lackey!!!"

Mipha is so tinyyyy

Urbosa is such a mom I love her so much

Hell yeah Vah Ruta flood Hyrule Field!!!

We need more evil magicians in Legend of Zelda. They're all so iconic

Rhoam is actually pretty likeable at the end of the game ngl

Baby Sidon is so so so tinyyyyyy 😭😭😭😭😭

Yunobo's eyes are so funny

Tulin is a sweetheart and not even Revali can escape his cuteness

Khoga's hair is so hard he can't put the thunder helm on oh oy goddd that's hilarious 😂😂😂

Urbosa, Rhoam, and Zelda's mom had to have been a threesome

I didn't need Khoga to be such a dad but here he is... best dad for the best lackey

Astor has followers??? Like he's a cult leader??? *stores that information away for later* Well to be fair they kinda died in the only scene they were in lol

I can tell Robbie's voice actor had a blast doing this

Also this game lowkey reads like a Kingdom Hearts game lol So much random, corny goodness is here and I love it

[spacedace]

I've been watching Justice League the animated series and I just fell down a rabbit hole with my husband and have to share it/inflict it on everyone else:

Okay, going only off of thr canon in JL:TAS, J'onn J'onzz establishes that Martians CAN'T read each other’s minds when the Justice Lord version of Martian Manhunter shows up.

Which made me think, wait, did the Martians NOT know they were telepathic before that?

Like, yeah the white Martians invaded and it was implied that the green Martians knew at that point that they could read minds and the like, but like...I'm obsessed now with the idea of J'onn J'onzz had no idea that he could read minds until he came to earth and suddenly was in a world were every sentient creature seemed to be screaming all the time even when they weren't actually speaking

Like, part of his learning how to adapt to earth is learning how to use his sudden telephonic abilities. It even works well story telling wise when it comes to the issue of "opps our hero has a power that would make this plot end in a second" thing. Make it something that when he gets too overwhelmed and stressed it starts shorting out, or maybe it's something where it keeps him from sleeping because being relaxed enough to sleep means the mental walls he's managed to build for himself are lowered and all the chatter starts filtering in.

Sleep deprivation is honestly a great tool for writing if you use it right. Need your overpowered hero to be weak enough for this enemy to be a threat? Sleep deprivation. Your smart character to do something a little dumb in a way that isn't annoying to the audience? Sleep deprivation! As long as you make the effects consistent for the character in question it can give you a lot of breathing room for plot lines in a way that won't piss off your readers (so long as you don't over use it at least) while also adding the benefit of mixing in a little angst as your character deals with it.

Just, I really want a story of Martian Manhuntwr having to deal with sudden Mind Reading powers upon coming to Earth and all the interesting consequences and storylines that could come out of that.

[kayssweetdreams]

Prim and Proper Problems Ch 6

Later on in the day. Most of Timeville now knew of the differences the girls had shown and had found them to be...much more unnerving to say the least. Nobody could tell if it was some kind of joke, or the girls really had changed. The kids however knew that something needed to be done to fix the girls...but what that something was they were still trying to figure out.

"We have to do something. If we can't find that school, we can at LEAST try and get them back to normal." Rebecca said "Yeah, but how? It's not like we can telepathically talk to them..." Haoyu said. Those words made Mei get an idea "We might not...but there might be someone who can!" She said.

The kids looked confused until it clicked what Mei was talking about. After a short walk, and a few alleyways later, they found themselves at the threshold of Wonderworld itself. The Balan Theater. Mei gave a knock at the door, waiting to see if the two maestros who ran the theater were inside. "Balan? Lance? Are you in there?" She asked, but there was no response.

The door slowly made its way open, but the kids still didn't see the titular maestros. They slowly made their way inside, the theater feeling much more...still without the sound of music blasting from the theater, or the cheerful rumbling of Balan, excited for a new adventure. "Um...Maybe we should come back later?" Cass asked, hiding herself behind Leo.

Suddenly the doors slammed themselves shut, and a trap door opened up beneath the kids, and they all fell through. The children fell through what felt like a long rabbit hole until the popped out of the other side...and landed at a table? Leo looked confused until he saw the maestros sitting at the other side. Balan gave his usual wide smile Lance gave a small wave.

"Hello children! How are you today? It's nice to see you Leo, Emma, Rebecca, Haoyu, Cass, Trisha Jane and Mei." Balan said, snapping his fingers and making a large tea party appear at the table. "Me and Lance were about to have some Tea. When I felt you entered, and the rest is history." He said. Cass reached for a macaroon while Lance poured everyone a cup of tea.

"Erm. Thanks Lance. You guys did scare us through, with the trap door." Leo said, a faint blush on his cheeks. Balan gave a good natured wave "It's all in good fun! We didn't mean to scare anyone! But there are two of you missing though...Tell me, where are Yuri and Kaylo?" He asked. The kids tensed up. "Um...That's what we actually wanted to talk to you about. There's something wrong with Kaylo and Yuri..." Emma said.

The kids explained the situation to the maestros, while telling them about the strange school, Madame Prim, and the way that the girls looked down on everything that they loved, and kept singing her praises like some kind of goddess. "Kaylo and Yuri had an interest change? Goodness, now that is strange..." Lance said. "And the stranger part is that there isn't ANY information about the school. No Phone numbers, no photos, no graduates, location, faculty. No...anything." Trisha Jane said.

The maestros got worried. "Bring the girls here, we'll see what we can do. I hope that at least one of us can get through." Lance said. The children nodded while Kuro and Shiro came to the Maestros sides. Balan kneeled down to them " Shiro, Kuro, your job is important indeed, The other human inhabitants we need. Go find them each, and bring them here. We'll need all the help we can get I fear." He said.

The Tim and KosoKoso nodded before Lance summoned a dark portal that put them near The Wong mansion. "Lucy Wong's home is close by. Go on now you two, hurry on and fly." He said. the two of them hopped in while the kids left to go and find the girls, hoping that Balan would be able to help reverse what that happened to their friends...

Mei Kuro and Shiro belong to @sundove88

Rebecca belongs to @thehypercutstudios/@thehyperrequiem

Trisha Jane belongs to @lovelyteng

[usernose]

Part 2 of my PZPTH au

The New Art/Science Teacher

OBAKEEEEEEE!!!! (Aka Robert Aken)

Obake(Who isn't dead in my au) came to the PZPTH universe out of spite and wants get his adrenaline back.

Since he can't get back to his original universe, cause people thinks he's dead, so he somehow found a way to get into Penn's universe.

Now in my Au(Family Reunion) he already knows how to goes to different universes because of the time paradox that he founded his brothers, but since I don't have enough time to open up that rabbit hole so I tell you how he gets into the universe.

Now this is where this post comes to play.

Obake went to the Inside Job universe with his device that he made, with some help from some mysterious entities, and ask his daughter figure Reagan to teleport him to some random normal universe because he's wants to feel something again. Reagan was about to question him, but was too tired to deal with it and got the portal for the universe.

So Obake is now in Penn's world and went to find an opening job so he could fit in.

Luckily this is way after the ending of PZPTH season 2, like 2 years, so let say Obake have applied for the job as both the Art Teacher and the science teacher while being in the same class. Now at first the new principal was a bit unsure about it, but Obake convinced them quite enough to give him the job.

It was orientation day, Obake was in his classroom, fixing it up and adding in his own stuff, he saw a small child walking in the halls of the school. His first thought was "Oh boy, someone left their child. Horrible parents they must have." After saying that, he took a moment then went for looking for the child.

He went looking for the child and then seeing them in the auditorium, and saw them flying and playing with the curtains.

Key then saw Obake and hid cause they were scared.

Obake then followed them and calm them down. Saying that he wouldn't take him back to his parents, which Key then replied "What are parents?" In which Obake was shocked to hear.

Obake then explain to them what are parents, and Key replied "I don't think I have parents, but they sound wonderful to be with."

This made Obake really close to adopting them, but decided to just wait for Key to get comfortable with him.

Obake then ask Key what's their name. Key responded with great happiness "Kieran!" Obake looked confused at them, they decided to call him Key to be easy. Key very much like their new nickname.

Obake then lead Key back to his class so he can feed Key food since he thinks that they haven't ate anything at all.

Obake has set up two mini fridges: one for the experiments, the other for food. He got a pack of Japanese Purin Cups in his fridge, took 2 out and placed them on paper plates. Key was very curious and see the progress of how he opens it.

Obake gave them the pudding. Key tasted it and fell in love with the taste and starts eating it more. Obake then gave them his because he wasn't that hungry, as Key eyes gotten starry then and eat the pudding.

Key then said "I wish you were my parents." Which internally made Obake cried. Obake then ask them "Would you like me to be your parent?" In which Key was surprised "You can do that?!"

"Yeah I can. If you don't have any parents, might as well take you in as my own."

"Does that mean I can eat all the pudding I want?

"It can mean you can eat anything. Well somethings"

Key was now semi adopted by Obake.

Now after the orientation, Obake went to an Open Apartment and set up a blow up mattress, pillow and blanket. He then ask Key if he's going to sleep, in which they ask "What's sleep?" "You really did not have parents. Well.... *answers every question they have*"

[monkeyparasite]

Hey my good pal ! It would make me really happy if you made headcannons of the Gorillaz members + Ace about how they would interract with a S/O who's autistic and do stimming a lot, because i'm autistic myself and i do stimming A LOT. If you don't want to do this with all members, i understand, but if you could do it with at least Noodle, 2D and Ace, it would be cool !

Awhh of course! Anything for my buddies! :D

i might actually also need this holy fuck hfgsgsh-

Murdoc

Lightly pokes fun of your hyperfixation(s) unless its something he is also interested in! But will throw hands with anyone else that does that

But after 2D got onto him, explaining why thats EXTREMELY wrong and disrespectful (poking fun of your hyperfixations), he apologized profusely and sobbed into his pillow calling you while also eating it being like "I-Im SZO ZSORreERrYy!!! PLLLalpl3aEAsE DioNt LeBaevebM MeeeeEEee!!! WAHHAAHGAGc YoYOU CaNN TalTALk ABoUT AnYAnYTHING yOUyoU WANT!!!"

Anyways. Isn't all that informed but says he is. He just gets his information from 2D cause he knows he has ADHD(?).

When he first saw you stimming, just went "oh, yeah, thats cute. 2D wtf are they doing? Did i do something wrong?" After having to be explained what stimming is, Murdoc fell down a rabbit hole of stim toys while looking online because 2D suggested to learn more about Autism online

Next thing you know, you meet up with him, and he gives you a stim toy and continues on the meetup or date like its normal. Then its its something that's your hyperfixation(s). Then its both. Then its just himself with a bow on his head

Understands and sympathizes with you when your overwhelmed, offers to take you somewhere else. Does his best to help out, really!

OMNE MORE 4 HIM I SWEAR!! He tried to cosplay Scott Pilgrim but failed horribly, still went to go see you though!

Ace

I have no idea what this man gots going on with him but I know it's something funky, I swear! /post /aff

I also like to imagine when you told him that he was like "Bada-boom-bada-bang baby!" And just had Noodle get him a library book about autism because he is literally banned from his town's library (again)

the next day mfer was telling you facts about Scott Pilgrim to try and swoon you plus buys you merch of it and always does the fuck boy face after he gives you em

Calls your stimming "jazzy". Probably offers you his knife to stim with, just says to be careful because he doesn't want you or it hurt

Will stab anyone that overwhelms you. Idk man he's a lil uh, funky, I think

2D

This man has ADHD, i think(?) idk, but im pretty sure he's neurodivergent! Anyway, because of this, he understands incrediblely well!

Sometimes, when you stim, he joins in. He can't really help it and its not a bad thing either, really! It's just.. whenever he sees someone else stimming or hears a funky noise, he stims (yes, i do this, yes im self-inserting or whatever the word is, and yes i will stop if anyone wants me to!)

He actually enjoys hearing about your hyperfixation(s) too! But, he might space out or dissociate randomly, so just a fair warning, if he doesn't remember some of the details. He is also forgetful on top of that, so you might have to refresh his memory on that stuff

Might also develop the same hyperfixation as you because the way you make it sound so cool and interesting, and correct me if im wrong, but isnt it Scott Pilgrim vs the world? I think he would be way into that ngl, same with Murdoc, maybe?

Gets you matching stim toys because he thinks its cute, but he never uses his unfortunately, mainly because he lost it in one of his pants pockets as well as his leftover lint balls

Tries not to overwhelm you and plan dates that fit your schedule, while he does have a bad habit of wandering off or staying too close to you, at least he occasionally remembers to either: look behind him OR ask you if he needs to move a bit

Russel

Surprisingly is very well informed! Offers to get you stim toys and take you to the movies if they're playing it

Very chill and understanding about it overall tbh, just a thoughtful kind guy!

If you ever need him to, he will lay on you like a weighted blanket

Just smiles at you when you stim and pats you on the head,

Offers to show you cat videos when your overwhelmed that helps him

I cant think of any more headcanons for him, I am so sorry

Noodle

Extremely supportive and interested in your hyperfixation

Understands when you stim and even tries to help you or change things for you incase you need to

Has offered to beat up anyone that makes fun of your stimming, definitely will

Also very supportive! Uplifts you a lot

I also have no ideas for her either, all I know is she is just.. so supportive and protective of you

[miku-meeku]

I came here for the absolutely adorable dol art and then lost my marbles at the Alice in wonderland themed banner at the top ehehehehe I had to drop a message to tell you have great taste have a nice day!! 💕

THANK YOU!!!! IM HAVING SO MUCH FUN AT TUMBLR RN!!!!

THE ALICE IN WONDERLAND BANNER IS MY OC, ELLY!!!! I'D LIKE TO TALK ABOUT MY FAIRYTALE THEMED OCS IN THE FUTURE HERE!!!!

actually i can ramble abt it rn fuck it

this is Miku, this is her in the real world, she's a very happy go lucky young girl, owns a bunch of hairclips, has besties

and this is Elly, this is what happens to Miku when she sleeps, she wakes up in the dreamworld as Elly and her theme is Alice in Wonderland as Alice (duh)

there's also other people with different fairytale themes in their dreamworlds

anws, there's saying in Japan where people have three faces:

The first face is the face you show to the public

The second face is the face you show to friends and family

The third face is the face you never show anyone, your TRUE self

the dreamworld represents people's TRUE self, for Miku, it would have to be that despite her happy exterior, she's actually really lonely (even tho she does have friends with her, she still feels lonely ykno ykno that feeling ykno)

in Elly's dreamland, there's nothing in there, only the sky, grass, and butterflies fluttering around, making her the only resident in her own dreamworld

until suddenly, w0w there's this white rabbit that just appeared out of thin air

and obviously, someone like her who hasn't seen any other living things other than butterflies would follow after it, i mean...there wasn't any rabbits in her dreamworld lel

and the usual alice in wonderland shtick, rabbit fell down hole, she fell down hole

and this white rabbit's name is Tokki

Tokki has the power to teleport from dreamworld to dreamworld because of his pocket watch

now what was he doing in Elly's world?

...that's a good question, I'll think about it

anyways welcome to wonderland, can't say much cuz it's kinda spoilery, you'll have to learn more abt wonderland later when i think abt making a story or more doodles and arts of my ocs heuheuhuehuehuhe

one thing is for sure tho; people residing in wonderland has powers unlike people above in the dreamland (wonderland and dreamland are the same thing btw cuz they're both still dreamworlds)

until then meet my wonderland ocs kyaa, this is Cecile the cheshire cat

gomenasorry i have no colored ones, imagine her in purple and gold

Tokki and Cecile do not like each other

this is caterpillar and hatter (no names yet, im sorry)

these are caterpillar's more recent looks, imagine him in dark blue and white (with some black accents)

this one is caterpillar going insane, he's probably the 2nd maddest one in wonderland (im not gonna elaborate further)

i dont have march hare yet but i do have doodles of dormouse

i imagine her in teal and purple..?

andddd...lastly we have queen of hearts (imagine her in red, gold, and white probably)

and those are just the wonderland ocs, theres many more i have rn BAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAH

oh yeah, in the dreamworld, people got little eye marks on their eyes

theres no explanations, its just their theme and it helps differentiate real world chars from their dreamworld self,,,, probably,,,,

anws i forgot to introduce another important char to Elly

this is Red, his theme is Little Red Riding Hood and he has a little sister named Viola who is quite sick

their dreamworld resides in a tiny little cottage near a snowy forest, rumors says there's a big bad wolf there and is the cause of Viola's illness so Red has been trying to hunt it down to cure Viola for who knows how long

when Elly fell down the rabbit hole, she was transported to Red's dreamworld and they met when Red was sleeping near the forest

but it was like....uhhh....a spot he likes to snooze in when taking breaks from trying to find the wolf, since the forest is always snowing but this spot is filled with greenery instead ykno ykno

anws thats enough of their dreamworld counterparts for now, back to the real world

how they met is rather different in the real world lel

it started with miku's dreamworld self elly wandering in a pitch black area and then suddenly red before she woke up, miku's dreams were always weird so she's like "eh no biggy" and then typical anime when she's going to school "kyaa i bumped into someone- oh my god it's the dude from my dreams"

it was basically love at first sight for her, bonus is he's a blondie too BAHAHHAHAHAH (miku's a romanticist i forgor to put that out)

kakeru just thinks she was just a random strange girl until they met again in classroom, they were classmates and he was like....the new transfer student or smth (otherwise miku would know who he is since 1st year, they're in their 2nd year of school currently)

ight, thats enough of me rambling abt my fairytale dreamland ocs, thank you for listening to my ted talk, have this doodle i did last year november of these two

base by @damso_2018 on twt

oh w0w wait who are these other ocs

uhhh work in progress chart (the pink one w side ponytail's name is nozomi, no name yet for the purple one, also inori and miku are besties, i forgor to put that in oops)

i would ramble more abt my other ocs, but ive hit the 30 image limit already BAHAHHAHAHAHHA

thank you again for reading my insane ramble talk about my ocs if you read all the way down here, i have way too many ocs to talk about and id love to continue rambling about all of them in tumblr where no one will judge me and my stupidity

[tellescope]

When I say that Gallium's body is just a shell to house his soul as a battery for the Clock, I really do mean shell as in 'empty shell'. There's nothing in there. No bones, muscles, organs, anything. This is why if you cut him (or any wound that makes a hole) all you'll see is a dark void with a pale blue light seemingly impossibly far in the distance. That light is his soul.

Despite this oddity of his form the body functions perfectly fine for the most part. He can't eat and drink but that's really the only issue. He can move, talk, hear, etc. just fine.

He is also extremely light because of this. You know how in some anime the protagonist can do those absurd jumps from like, the pavement to the top of an electrical pole in one go, no sweat? Yeah so can Gallium. A child could lift him if they tried. He does weigh something, a gust of wind isn't going to blow him away, but holy hell is he light.

And that pairs very interestingly with another fact about his body: he's basically a shapeshifter. The form you see was chosen by him, manifested by his energy, to blend in among Cirrulean locals. And over the span of Turquoise's life he grew so attached to it (which includes the clothes) that he doesn't change unless he feels he absolutely has to. But the possibility remains; if he wants to he can. Like for his Sonic verse where he takes the form of a mobian rabbit.

And the reason that shapeshifting ability pairs interestingly with his extremely light weight is because it allows for a fun possibility: functional wings.

He's only ever done it a few times when Turquoise was young and reckless and fell from a dock or the airship, but it is possible. His ability to choose and change his presented shell means he can manifest wings, and with just how little he weighs they are actually functional. He can flap them and fly.

He prefers to fly via piloting the airship as that feels far more right to him, but if the circumstances present themselves he may take to the skies on his own. If he makes a winged friend in another world for example, or if someone takes a dive like Turquoise did and he can't get the ship under them.

In those rare times that he does manifest wings they do not look like traditional white angel wings, but rather generic brown bird wings. It's impossible to tell what kind of bird as there's nothing specific about them, just that they're feathered wings in two shades of medium brown.

[tbznewberry]

The Madmen of Wonderland | TBZ [I]

Part I: Meeting an odd pair and attending a strange tea party. 

Genre: Yandere, horror

Warnings: mentions of death, drugs, creepy behaviour, nudity, MC feeling humiliated

Word count: 1.4k

Next

She sits down on a stone and lets out the waterfall that pushes inside of her. Letting it wet her entire face while she drowns herself in self hate and pity. Why did she have to follow that rabbit? Why did she have to be so curious? It never ended well! She had been sitting down in the grass and yawns, resting towards a tree. In her half awoken state, she thought she saw a white rabbit running past her. Normally, she wouldn't give it another thought. There were a lot of normal bunnies here, but this was not a normal bunny. Was he wearing a jacket? Y/N had opened her eyes quickly and seen the bunny stand by the little lake nearby with a golden watch in his hands.

"What?" she said to herself, straightening her back, suddenly wide awake.

The rabbit was indeed wearing a jacket! What was going on? Was she dreaming? Y/N stood up to walk over to him, but the bunny noticed her and starts to run, eyes wide like plates.

"No! Wait, little bunny!" she had begged and runs after him. "Please stay!"

He disappeared into the forest, and Y/N ran after. She'd seen it fall down a little rabbit hole and she sighed, curiosity taking over. The fall hadn't hurt ... she had floated down. 

And now ... she is here. Although she doesn't know what 'here' is. It doesn't look like anything she has ever seen before. Nothing makes sense. Trees have been growing upside down, apples fell upwards ...

"I did not say that! Stop lying!" a voice says rather angrily from inside the forest.

"Yes, you did!" another voice says.

Y/N looks to the side and sees two men walking. Both have the same platinum blond hair. They're quarreling like a wed couple.

"Why is that thing staring at us?" one of them says, noticing the girl.

"I don't know. Probably because you look funny!"

"Excuse me, where am I?" Y/N takes the courage to ask.

"Ah, it talks!" the taller one yelps and hides behind his friend.

"You're here of course!" the one with the smaller lips smile. "Where else would you be?" He points at a tree in the distance. "You're not over there, are you? You're right here. And you're ... I don't know who you are, but I know that I'm Kevin and that this is Jacob. Do you really need to know more than that?"

"I mean ... where? Like ... I'm not at home anymore. What do you call this place?"

"Call it?" Jacob asked as the two men looked at each other, completely dumbfounded. "We just call it-"

"That reminds me!" Kevin says and clasps his hands together. "There was a story about a girl looking just like you-"

"Right! I heard about that!"

"What story?" Y/N asks.

"Or...not a story-story, more of a legend!" Kevin says with a big smile.

"A legend?"

"Of the kings", Jacob continues. "That they're waiting for a lady looking just like you to come to Wonderland so they can kidnap her and find the way out to the real world!"

Y/N feels a shiver run down her spine hearing the word 'Wonderland'. It has a creepy tone to it, something that shouldn't be there...something sinister.

"Wonderland? I-Is that where I am?" Y/N asks.

"Did we say that?" Kevin says, suddenly looking ... scared?

"Yeah ..."

"U-Uh ...", Jacob says, looking at his friend for help. "T-That reminds me of a story-"

"No stories, please ... just help me", Y/N begs. "I want to go home."

This all is making her head spin. It feels like there are spiders crawling all over her skin, but she can't see any when she looks down on her arms.

"But everyone loves stories", Jacob mumbles, giving her a warningful gaze. "I think you'd want to listen."

"I do love stories, but it's not the right time! Please help me to someone that knows where to go!"

"Go to the Hatters! They'll tell you!"

"And where do I go?"

"It doesn't matter where you go, you'll end up there", Kevin says reassuringly. "And tell Haknyeon to quit down on the sugar. It's not good for him!"

"Alright ... I will. Thank you."

"Good luck, whatever-your-name-was!" They both smile before continuing to walk, picking up their quirrell about who had lied and who had not.

Y/N starts to walk down a pink gravel road. She turns around to look at the two men and gulps. Didn't they look awfully like skeletons from this distance...?

She sees a house at the end of the road. It must be that house they talked about, Y/N figures. She makes her way through the small gate and sees a big table out in the yard, filled with cake and teapots. Y/N stops abruptly when she sees the three men around the table, laughing and cheering. Should she really interrupt their sweet little get-together?

"Oh, a guest!" a voice shouts and the man stands up from his seat. "Come! Come!"

"Uh ... I'm sorry for interrupting", Y/N starts. "I just ... I needed some directions and the two men I met told me that you'd help-"

"My oh my, isn't this a human? A real human?" the youngest of them says.

"A human, you say?" the 'leader' of them said and stood up with his hand out to the confused girl. "Come closer, my child. Let me take a look at you."

Y/N walks up to him with unsure eyes. The man feels her face, hair, shoulders and hands.

"You are real", he says and slowly breaks out into a wide smile. "Welcome, welcome! Come sit down!"

She has no choice but follow him. Maybe because he's taken a steady grip on her arm. He pulls her down in the chair beside him.

"You have to try our tea, little human!" the leader says hectically and claps with his hands. "Oh, how rude! We haven't introduced ourselves! I'm Changmin and that's Eric and Haknyeon. And your name is...?"

"Y/N", the now confused girl answers.

"Y/N ... you have to try this tea!"

Haknyeon holds out a cup to her from a little pot none of them are drinking from. She holds the small, blue cup in her hands, contemplating whether to drink this unknown, green liquid or not. It doesn't feel good. Her gut is telling her not to, but how can she decline their hospitality and then be so rude to ask them for directions. She has to drink. After swallowing the entire thing, she turns to Changmin to ask for directions, but everything suddenly feels so...weird? It's tickling and itching in her body and she can't shake it off. The cup in front of her suddenly seems bigger.

"W-What's .... what's going on?" she breathes out. "Why can't ... why can't I breathe?"

Her entire body is sweating and suddenly it doesn't feel like it's fitting her dress. It's getting looser and looser.

"What is it? Are you going mad, little human?" Changmin whispers in her ear, standing behind her with his hands on her shoulders. "Are you going mad? Like us?"

"C-Can't ... can't breathe!"

He laughs and it's not long before the others join in. Humiliating laughs as she feels herself getting dizzier and dizzier. She watches how she sinks down in the dress and suddenly ... is in it?

"Would you look at that, there we have her!" Eric laughs as the three of them peek down into the dress.

She quickly tries to hide her now dollsized small and naked body. The three of them are staring down at her, as if they’re processing what just happened. Changmin grabs her hair and pulls her up, making her dangle in the air.

"So this is the little human the kings want, huh?" he smirks and looks over his shoulder. "Hak, give me a glass."

He gets a tall, see through glass. Changmin turns it around and places Y/N down on the table, trapping her in it. She bangs on the glass, begging to be let out.

"She's kinda cute", Eric says with a smile and taps the glass, making her flinch. "And small."

"What do we do with this now?" Haknyeon asks and takes the dress in his hands.

"Keep it ... and her", Eric says, half smirk on his face. "The kings won't get her, will they?"

"No, she's ours now. She'll fetch us sugar and run around on the table to entertain us", Changmin smiles. "She'll go mad — absolutely bonkers — just like us. Maybe then we'll let her get back to her normal size."

Y/N hides her face in her hands and cries.

[A/N: I hope you liked the first part of my little mini series! Feel free to send in feedback and please make sure you like/reblog, it’d make me happy and help me a lot <3]

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

Hi! Sorry in advance that this is a bit of a long question! I’m fairly new to Larry (I fell down the rabbit hole a few months ago and am now hopelessly invested), but I’ve been reading everything I can to piece the story together myself. A lot of the established Larries I’ve seen have been pretty staunch to their belief that HL have been together beginning to end, but when I listen to the solo albums (Walls especially), I can’t help but feel there is a pretty conspicuous theme of splitting apart

and coming back together again: there’s “should’ve never let you go,” “I cut you off,” “I know you said that you'd give me another chance… mentally you were already out the door,” “I *was* better with you,” and “the day you walked away and took the higher ground,” from Walls, and also lines like “I know that you're tryna be friends” in Fine Line. These lines feel to me like they imply not just a rough patch, but an actual split. Not only that, but there is the video of Harry saying he wrote Two Ghosts “the first time he broke up with me” (unless this has been debunked and I totally missed it?) I’ve read your lyric analyses (which are incredible by the way, and I may have had a small emotional breakdown the other night while reading them — ESNY hits hard), and while it seems like you agree that these lyrics may allude to some kind of break happening, I’m really curious about what might have happened (and when it may have happened, if there was a breakup). To be clear, I firmly believe they are together now and whether or not they broke up doesn’t impact how I feel about them or their relationship, but I really don’t want to be the person that romanticizes their relationship and I *especially* don’t want to be the person that glosses over things just because they are painful or I don’t understand them, and the fact that a breakup really doesn’t fit in the timeline despite the above just keeps nudging me in the brain (hopefully that makes sense?). I’m really sorry if you’ve answered this question before and I didn’t see it or if I’m misinterpreting your analysis!! And thank you for all of the work you've put into your blog!

hello, kind anon! yeah this is one of those subjects that divides the fandom, ig, which is probably why you're having trouble finding answers. some ppl are adamant that they never broke up, others think they were apart for years, and yeah, i mean, we know nothing for sure, so either of those options could be true.

as is very clear from my blog, i love to base a lot of my convictions i have of them on their music. the stuff they themselves have written and put out, which contains so much truth maybe under a few veils of symbolism but we can work through those can't we. to give a quick answer to your question: i really don't have a firm idea of when a split might have happened.

and then i'll let myself loose a little and speculate, based on my obsessive reading of their music, some timelines here and there and my constant mulling over of anything they have ever done. their music, and then especially hs1, tells the story of a deep-rooted relationship suddenly going through changes in a way that has its members lose their footing (to put it super bluntly). my general idea about this is that they started having issues as soon as 1d ended, bc of the abrupt context shift, and them suddenly being forced to find a way through daily life without that dependence on the band's schedule. i don't mean their relationship was held together by the band, but i suspect that at some point they might have feared that. they lost sight of who they were supposed to be and it fucked with their brains. bad.

hs1 definitely mentions distance and separation, "you" being shut off, not calling, etc. so, to set my time frame super wide bc i genuinely don't have an idea, i'd say their main issues were very very active during the writing process of hs1 (which started pretty much after 1d). i do believe that h and l were in contact on and off throughout their break(s), though. their songs mention them taking time apart, and h waiting for l to be open, but there is always that baseline of being in touch, thinking about each other, loving one another okok ella don't get sappy yet save it for the end. and i also believe louis was there in jamaica for a brief period of time, while harry was making hs1. i don't mean everything was fixed by then, but they were def v happy at that point in time.

throughout the years, i think more of these ups and downs have happened, until hs1 finally got its reply in walls. louis took a while - and ofc walls was also written over the course of many years so i'm seeing this time frame very wide too - to come out into the hallway. hs1 has harry realising, slowly, what's wrong, and figuring out he needs to work on himself in order for the relationship to work, just like "you" has to. and he's just also sad about being lonely ofc, waiting for the other to come around. and then in walls, louis tells the story of an internal struggle he had to overcome to finally see what was in front of him, to finally be able to apologize and love properly. fine line, in my mind, fits in after this timeline, especially bc louis has made it clear that so much of walls was written long before its release, and simply bc the storyline makes most sense to me that harry is recounting their life after overcoming those major personal and relationship issues. by this i don't mean all of their problems are solved ofc bc in fine line there's still struggle but it's more on a personal level for harry and yk what i mean.

sooooo what's my conclusion. my view is that they struggled a LOT after 1d until hs1, then struggled some more but started talking, started working shit out properly, and during their semi-simultaneous polishing of fine line and walls, they reached that point where they could convincingly say they made it. fine line is just so full of gleeful, sappy love and walls is full of confidence and faith in their foundation as well as their future. bc hs1 still had that foundation, which we can hear the loudest in sweet creature - meaning they never gave up on each other - but in fine line the ecstasy of that love thriving is sung from the rooftops. and walls tells that entire story, to be honest. the struggle, the tenderness, the limitless dedication.

i hope this is.... somewhat of an okay answer that stills the mill of your mind trying to figure it out. i know this isn't really a straightforward answer, but i don't have one for myself either, and i've found i don't want one either. bc at the end of the day it doesn't matter, yk! they always loved each other, no matter what, and now they made it

[starsxinxthexbluexsky]

My 5 Favorite Moments of GGDD

Like last time, the GGDD moments were difficult to choose, because I like them all. I had to look at some things again. But, finally, I posted it for mistake...😃😃😃😃. The fate wanted me to post this.

This is Fake. My imagination. CPN

5. On BAZAAR interview, first of all I love the fact that they say that they knew each other before on TTXS, but both emphasize that there was no eye contact, nor that they spoke, but that's not what I like, it's just an addition for put us, in context. What I like, is when GG draws DD (I think most of them like it), DD says his eyes aren't that big, but GG says he had heard comments from some friends saying that DD's eyes were tight, so GG drew DD's eyes bigger. Meanwhile, he says that ... DD looks at him with a silly face and smiles, even he places his hand on his chin, looking very focused on what his GG says (it is my impression, it can vary between viewers), GG makes a sign, but DD plays dumb and clears his throat, looking away (more like he's trying not to see his GG).

4. In TTXS, when they were together in the same place for the first time, in 2017. A cute GG, with a pink jacket and accompanied by X-NINE and a DD very cute and surprisingly smiling, imitating everything that his not-yet-GG did, is that DD couldn't take his eyes off from GG, DD moved his hands nervously when he was next to GG, and DD looked at him when GG looked away, but stopped when it was already very obvious (I keep saying it's my perspective, others may think other things). I don't think GG didn't realize it, because I think, when someone looks at another person a lot, that person has to realize it, for me, DD…well, the fool was very obvious. He even showed off his mating dancing (is a joke) just to impress his GG and use his pistol finger to aim at him at the end of the dance (yeah, for me he aimed at GG). DD and his love at first sight…GG couldn't be saved.

3. At Happy Camp. First is the fact that they sat next to each other, moving away if the person on the opposite side got too close, so they were practically on top of each other (I have a meme about that…). When the hosts asked questions, they both started whispering to each other (I won't say anything more about this). Then there's the dance they did, DD was distracted by GG (my mom told me *the boy in the flowered shirt* didn't dance that well, just looking at GG and that was a comment she made when I didn't even believe that they were SZD, still) and then there's that dance move that couples suspiciously do in their wedding photos. Then, DD started pouting, because GG was paying more attention to Daxun. At the Happy Camp hole games. DD allows GG to win, even though DD is competitive by nature and always wants to win (that seemed pretty obvious to me, DD's “double standard” makes an appearance, for his GG). GG gets jealous of Daxun, when he and DD are trapped inside the hole, one on top of the other (his face is scary), but DD doesn't realize at the time (but then cleverly fixes it). Also, when DD gets hurt (although this isn't a good thing) we see GG's real concern, that he is unlike any other. You can see the others concerned, but GG's concern is so legitimate and true that it even hurts me every time I see him again (maybe because he felt guilty that DD hurt himself from the necklace he gave him). The last thing about this, is the fact that they share every little comment, no matter how silly it is, it is so sweet.

2. TTXS 2019, First is the fact that DD invited GG, I think, he could invited someone else. After all, GG was a person, whom DD knew for a short time in 2018, if we put them on the screen, but still DD decided to take it to TTXS, who are a family to him. Then, GG and DD sang their respectively songs "What I Miss" and "If I Were Young", I mean from all the speculation that was made with bombology, DD was supposed to be angry that day (for some reasons), but when they both sing these songs. The way DD sang the song and how sweet GG smile was, DD's voice was so soft and full of soul, so soothing. GG nailed the high notes and turned to DD to meet his eyes while singing. DD was fascinated even though he can't clearly show it. Uff...every time I see them I have to look away, I can't handle that ... both are so...well, that's why I like it so much ... besides, the fact that DD brought his photo album when he was a child and GG wanted to take it (is a joke 😂), he was serious about bringing the album, DD is so silly cute. GG also sings "Love Confession", when he's sitting with the other guests. DD stares at him with sheep's eyes, until GG signals DD for stop to looking at him (with heart eyes), because they are recording them...this man, I can't handle him, neither of them.

1. Interview for "The Paper", DD and GG both have a stuffed animal in their hands (they both look sweet). MC ask them various things (obviously), they both look so comfortable and smiling. MC even ask them if WWX and LWJ's bedtime was the same as them. DD says no, and GG says he's similar, GG says "Sometimes he ... aren't you?" "Sometimes you will stay up later?" (Me: GG, how do you know that? 👀, they are the best friends forever 😂) and DD says yes. Near the end they talked about when they were both filming, that they should record scenes from when WWX and LWJ were young by the day and at night the "after 13/16 years" scenes. The MC asks, what would they think, if a TV show organizes them to go skiing and DD says he can teach to GG and GG laughs saying he's just a beginner (this kills me, they look so wonderfully comfortable) DD looks sweet saying some of ski techniques, while looking at his GG softly, in the end GG says it's okay. Afterwards, the MC asks what they would say to "CQL" fans who say they look the most beautiful after watching all 50 episodes of the drama. GG say a lot of things with a sweet voice and then he is ashamed (it is a sweetheart) and DD wants to laugh at what his GG says, but when it is his turn he says that he will not say anything, GG shows his rabbit teeth ... (Double standard, it seems DD really likes when his GG shows his rabbit teeth to him). And here comes my favorite part. The word is supposed to be deep, but I don't really know what it means, it seems like something important and obviously GG is very surprised that DD said it. Well, they ask you to describe the CQL summer in three words. GG answers right away, burning hot "灼热" (not the literal characters) and DD thinks about it for a moment, quite a bit, compared to how fast GG answered. At the end, DD says true fellings "真情实感" GG looks at him for a moment and lets out a WOW!!! Very tall, covering his mouth, he seemed very surprised. DD seems to realize that it was obvious (it's my imagination), but he says he wants to change the phrase to touching "就 感人" (or something like that) but, GG tells him that they aren't going to edit just because he said that ... I mean, he screwed up 😂😂😂. Simple woman, this is the first place after all.

Bonus

Honorable Mention

Sina Interview in CQL film place. When, GG starts to flatter DD by saying that he danced well in TTXS, but later he realizes that he was not only a good dancer, but also a good actor and when he mentions that LZ doesn't have many lines (mentions LWJ and DD gets angry 😂😂😂), DD makes this face. (Note that DD was happy, as he watched his GG compliment him, until he mentioned LZ)

My 5 Favorite BTS by GGDD

My 5 Favorite GGDD Fake Rumors

[sweetsweetnathan]

Following the Incident with Arenvald in 5.5

Robyn: "How you doin', Alphinaud?"

Alphinaud: "Arenvald is beyond my skill to heal. His wounds are too deep. Using healing magic would risk putting his vital organs back together wrong."

Robyn: "Yeah, but... How are you?"

Alphinaud: "I am unharmed."

Robyn: "Holy fucking shit dude. Okay, let me ask this another way: How do you feel?"

Alphinaud: "I don't understand the question."

Robyn: "Yes you do. I know you do because that's why you're avoiding it... But ya know, I guess it's okay to avoid it. It's a pretty weird question anyways, and there's no guarantee that finding an answer would do anything besides make you feel worse."

Alphinaud: "I... I wish that Arenvald weren't hurt. And I know what Fordola said, but I truly wish we could execute our plans with no one being hurt."

Robyn: "I understand."

Alphinaud: "I don't know what I would do if Arenvald died. When my grandfather died, I knew that he would be remembered. He was a famous intellect, known far and wide for his research.

But if Arenvald were to die... Who would remember him besides me? Who would spare even one thought for an adventurer? And for how long would even I remember him?

It's not just that Arenvald might die. He lies at the edge of the yawning abyss of time. It's the destination of all souls eventually, but there is no company to keep in it. I am afraid for him."

Robyn: "I see."

Alphinaud: "I expressed those fears out of the expectation that you would have some retort to them. Some reason to believe that Arenvald might not be so alone in death. A shred of hope that we might all somehow--"

Robyn: "Alphinaud, if you're looking for hope, then you are talking to the wrong guy. I'm no Warrior of Light. I'm just me."

Alphinaud: "You... How do you deal with it then? How do you deal with the knowledge that you might not be remembered after you die? And that even if you are remembered, that even those who remember you will one day, themselves, die?"

Robyn: "...I thought about this quite recently, actually. When G'raha Tia, Alisae, and I were in Azys Lla. We were searching through records looking for information on tempering when I fell down a particular rabbit hole of Allagan study.

Allagans took scholarly interest in the functions of the body. But their knowledge of living things extended beyond simple anatomy. They discovered that all living things are constructed in accordance to instructions written in their cells' Deoxyribo-nucleic acid.

They called these instructions 'DNA'. All living organisms, with the exception of dragons, have DNA. DNA tells your cells how to construct themselves. When you are wounded, DNA tells the cells how to heal. When you're born, DNA tells your cells how to grow.

The thing is, DNA changes over time. It's very slight, almost imperceptible in most cases. When two people reproduce with children, their DNA mixes, and the result is the best qualities of both mother and father.

DNA also grows more complex with each generation. This means that you can look at the DNA of a child and tell who its parents are. You can also tell who its grandparents are, and its great-grand parents. You could trace that child's DNA back all the way to... Well, the Allagans weren't quite sure how far it went back.

I think they were afraid to look. Suddenly, they had a roadmap of the complete genetic history of mankind. Without even looking for it they realized that their own cells contained the evidence of every adaptation we had ever made, and ever could make. It's a dizzying amount of information. And power.

But do you know what I realized as I read all of this, Alphinaud? They might know every adaptation our cells ever made, but... They didn't know the people. They didn't know the cultures, the customs, the quirks. DNA contains a perfect record of our evolution. But it contains no record of our history.

For just a moment I was puzzled. I really stood there like an idiot and thought, 'If something so powerful as genetics doesn't keep history, then why is there history?'

Then I realized: History is all around us. In Azys Lla. In Ul'dah. In the ground we tread into pathways under our footsteps. We're all moving it. We can't help but move it! Genetics can keep a perfect record, but it can't contain the force of history.

Perhaps Arenvald will die. Perhaps he'll be forgotten. But he moved you. He left his mark. You'll carry that with you, even if you're not conscious of it."

Alphinaud: "His history will live on through me."

Robyn: "Precisely. A living legacy. So don't talk of yawning abysses and inevitable doom. Why must doom be so inevitable, hmm? When the world was grey and lifeless, did life seem so inevitable as doom does to the living?"

Alphinaud: "...Perhaps not."

[thearchivistsmanyeyes]

hi askf;hdf I fell down the TMA rabbit hole, 1st time, just at ep 120, & thing is JON IS MY LOVE, & I dnw be spoiled but of course went through some of your posts and like.. how... likely is it that my baby's gonna.... cant even say it.. DIE. how likely is he gonna die. Cos I can't. Like. I CANNOT deal with this atm. Would u recommend waiting with the listening until I could deal or do u think it'd be safe???? Also do u know how long tma will still be? Id thought it was finished already...

Oh sweetie 🥺 I will be very glad to help, Jon is the love of my life as well 😭😭😭 goddd I love him so much. Lmao so tma is in its fifth season right now, we’re not quite halfway through it I think??? And this is the last season, so it will end around February I’m pretty sure. I would love to tell you that Jon will be okay, but the thing is...he most likely won’t be 😭. First and foremost, tma is a horror & tragedy podcast, and Jonny has been pretty clear that it’s not going to have a happy ending. We don’t know for CERTAIN exactly that Jon will die, so there’s always that hope, but it’s pretty likely tbh? If you look at Jonny Sims’ other works (like the mechanisms) he hasn’t really...EVER...written a happy ending where the main characters live before. He’s more into the tragically beautiful endings I think, like where the main goal is accomplished but to do so the characters have to sacrifice themselves etc etc. or just completely heartbreaking endings. So yeah the fandom is pretty much in agreement that in some form Jon will not survive the end of this podcast which is DEVASTATING but I also trust in Jonny’s writing skills that it will be at least a satisfying ending. Either way I’m 100% certain it will make me sob

So yes, I know this probably wasn’t what you wanted to hear, but it’s sadly true. Honestly tma kind of fucked with my mental state especially in like season 3 bc it was just super depressing so I took a break & came back to it later, that seemed to really help me?? If that sounds like something you want to do it might help. Season 5 is actually not that depressing so far? Like SPOILERS they hehehe sort of ended the world which is Not Great but 1) yay fluffy gays and 2) people are actually getting called out for the shitty ways they’ve treated Jon which is super cathartic for me at least? So that might change eventually but for right now I think you’d be safe to keep listening, at least until this season heats up

This was SUPER LONG omg but I hope this answered your question??? From one Jon Stan to another I am so sorry 😭😭😭😆😆😆

[spaceoceania]

Norray Week

Day 1: [Origins] / AU

Since day one is origins I thought there was nothing better but for me to share how I fell in love with Norray! So here you go :3 Also Tumblr hates me so i think this is barely poping up in the norrayweek tag rippp

[Spoiler warning for anime onlys where you see any text in red!]

It was this scene :

And yeah! Surprisingly enough, it was the anime version! When I first read this in the manga (which was right after finishing episode 11 so you bet I was a crying mess) I was just thinking about how blind I was about them and their friendship and how much i missed norman too but that's besides the point. So when episode 12 aired a week later I was already pretty ahead in the manga so watching that scene again, now animated, was a whole new experience that made me go "wow, I love them."

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And then seeing scenes like these ⬇

MADE ME S O F T as well as they made me love ray so much more because omg he's is so strong and deserves all the freaking love in the world and it also made me realize how much Ray really did and does love and care for Norman (and emma too ofc) so yeah that was more fuel to the fire that made me start shipping them :')

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And despite the anime version of their talk being what blossomed my love for Norray, the manga version of it will forever be 🙌🙏🙌 because it showed us Ray's inner dialogue after his talk with "ghost" Norman

LIKE NORMAN GAVE RAY HOPE

HE GAVE RAY A CHANCE AT LIVING AGAIN

Like tell me this isn't love

[SPOILERS BELOW! This is from like everything up to chapter 162! So omg if you're an anime only please don't read it]

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Then seeing them reunite again and seeing Ray crying for the second time in the whole manga because of Norman and then that whole happy chapter where they were just hanging out with each other that ended with all three of them falling asleep with Norman in the middle?? Like?? AUAISBDSHIANSSHDVS- THAT MAKES ME SO INCREDIBLY SOFT😭💖 And then they got married remember!😂 (click here to see what i mean xD) and now they're back together :') and we got Ray smacking Norman in the head in like chapter 162!😂 So yeah it's just all those little scenes that really hit me and make me go "wow, they love each other" which makes me love them even more cause omg they're so good for each other. They balance each other out is the best way possible and they see each other as equals and ahsauoaagnshs :')

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Then the cherry on top was this ot3 fanfic that i found on ao3 back in summer which just made everything come together. I basically fell in the rabbit hole and read everything I could find in the Norray tag after that😂 And here I am :'3

So in conclusion, it was the anime version of their talk near the cliff that made me fall in love with them :') Like the animation and the voice acting were ✨👌😭

That scene was like the seed to this beautiful flower that blossomed my love for Norray🙏✨

Everything else that took care of said flower is what kept it alive :3

Also known as:

My tears :') - which would be the water cause plants need water. And oof norray can make me really sappy at times, okay? So you bet they have gotten a lot of my tears during these past months! And some of guys can write and draw really well and... I'm kinda a really emotional person😅

All those norray moments that make me feel soft and warm - that would be sunlight! Cause uhh yeah flowers need sun too xD and norray has made me super soft and warm way too many times to count

The norray community - which, uhh, would be carbon dioxide..?? (Idk it made more sense in my head okay xD) That's because you guys are amazing and provide all of us such wonderful content that is so lovely and meaningful <3 <3

Anyways my point is that it's thanks all of that ^ that the flower (aka my love for norray😂) was able to blossom💖

Thank you to everyone who read all of this and I hope we can all enjoy this week! I can't wait to read and see everything you guys created :D I promise that even if I'm late I'll give you all a comment <3

Happy Norrayweek!💙

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For the 28 fic thingy: We accept the love we think we deserve -Robron 😊 this is a very lovely idea, I hope you'll get enough prompts! Can't wait for February 💖🤗

@fell-down-a-rabbit-hole-of-music Hi lovely! thank you so much for this, this has been one of my favs to write! This fic was inspired by the song "Somewhere Only We Know' by Keane, (hints the title) anyway, I hope you enjoy! sorry if there are any mistakes!

Day Ten: Somewhere Only We Know

Aaron was sixteen when he first met Robert, in the middle of the forest, he had to get out of that house away from his mum, her whole lot, it was getting all too much, so he just started walking. It was late or maybe it was too early, he wasn’t sure which but one thing he was sure of it was way too dark for him to be wondering those masses of trees on his own. In a way it was peaceful. His mind seemed to calm being out in the night air, he honestly couldn’t remember the last time he had felt this way, all the anxiety and pain that he held onto 24/7, just seemed to dissipate. Dawn was near, the sky lighting up ever so slightly, that’s when he found it, the spot, a place the trees open to the sky, a calming stream passing by… it almost seemed too good to be true. He found himself sitting on the ground picking rocks at first and chucking them into the running water before eventually just sitting and staring.

“Oh, sorry,” he had heard causing him to jump. He looked over his shoulder to see the tall blonde man “I didn’t think anyone… I didn’t know…” the blonde stammered on.

Aaron pulled on his sleeves wiping the tears from his cheeks.

“Are… are you crying?” He asked concerned.

“No,” Aaron replied defensively with a gulp.

“I can go.”

Aaron didn’t say anything still tugging on his sleeves as he stared off

“Your… your Aaron aren’t you?” He questioned. “You’re Chas’s son, right?” Aaron glanced back, “And if I am?’ He asked finally saying something.

“No, I’m… I wasn’t… I didn’t mean anything by it,” he explained. “You just looked familiar is all and then I remembered,” he explained. ‘Right,” is all Aaron replied.

“Do you mind if I join ya?”

Aaron shrugged, “Do what you want,” he told the blonde. Robert hesitated at first before making his way over to sit next to the teen.

“Name’s Robert, by the way,” the blonde replied.

“Right, I didn’t ask,” Aaron replied.

“Well, I thought it might get awkward, us, sitting here, me knowing who you were,” he explained. ”Beautiful here ain’t it”

“I know why I’m here,” Aaron stated out of the blue. “Question is why are you?” he went on.

“Probably  the same reason you're here," Robert explained

"Doubt it," Aaron muttered.

"I come here all the time," the blonde went on. "Get my best thinking done here."

Aaron scuffed.

"What?" Robert questioned with a smirk. “There’s more to me than my looks you know," he teased.

Aaron laughed.

“So you do know how to smile then?”

“I thought you said you came here to think,” Aaron stated.

“I did kind of,” Robert replied. “Came to say goodbye, really,” he explained.

Aaron frowned, “To a bunch of trees and a creek?” He questioned.

“Used to hike here with my mum all the time before she passed,” he explained. “and seeing as I’m leaving for a while couldn’t go without, well you know.”

“So you’re getting out of this place then?” Aaron asked not sure why he was carrying on a conversation with him.

“Believe me it’s not by choice.”

“Oh.”

“Yeah,” Robert replied before the two fell quiet. “I…. I probably should get going,” Robert stated kind of abruptly.

“You just got here,” Aaron pointed out.

“Yeah, well I’ve got a long drive ahead of me,” he explained making it to his feet. Aaron looked up at the man. “Take care, Aaron.”

Since moving to the village Aaron found himself going back to that creek where he had met Robert. Three years had past and every time he went back to that place a part of him hoped he’d see him again but never did. He didn’t know why he barely knew the man, he had heard stories from Diane and Vic, his step-mum and sister but that was it, but for some reason, he couldn’t get the blonde out of his head. It was midday when he made the hike to the creek, he was having trouble focusing on work, even his uncle could tell, telling him to clear his head before he sacked him.

“What’re the odds,” he heard, turning back to see Robert walking up behind him. He smirked, “You stalking me or something?” Aaron asked.

“If I am I’m a horrible one at best,” Robert replied with a smirk. “Been years hasn’t it?”

“You sitting?” Aaron asked looking back at the man.

“Is that an invite?” He asked making his way over to the other man sitting down next to him.

Aaron laughed, “Vic mentioned you were coming into town for a visit.”

“You know Vic?”

“It’s a small village, Mate, it’s kinda hard not to know everyone,” Aaron explained.

“So you look…. different,” Robert replied.

“What as opposed to the way I did when I was 16?” Aaron questioned. “I’ll take that as a compliment, I guess.”

Robert didn’t say anything.

“You know I can see why you and your mum liked it here some much,” Aaron explained looking up at the trees.

“So you come here a lot then?”

“Anytime my mum or Paddy are doing my head in,” he explained.

“Paddy Kirk?” Robert questioned. “the local Vet?”

“Long story,” Aaron replied.

“I’ve got time,” Robert explained.

“Trust me you don’t want to know.”

“Maybe I do,” he argued. “Plus you’d be doing me a favor,” he explained. “Told Vic and Diane I’d be late, ’traffic’,” he explained.

Aaron hesitated at first staring at the man.

“So who is this Paddy to you and why does he ‘do your head in’?” Robert asked.

“Why do you care?” Aaron asked defensively almost out of instinct.

“The truth?’ He asked.

“No a lie would be preferable,” Aaron replied sarcastically causing Robert to laugh.

“You seem like an interesting bloke, Mr. Livsey,” he explained.

“How?”

“Like you said a small village, plus I talk to Vic and Diane on the phone like twice a month, village gossip tends to pop into the conversation every once and a while,” he explained.

“So what do you know about me?” Aaron asked.

“I know you’re living in the pub with your mum and Vic and Diane now,” he began. “You work for Cain at the garage and you’re apparently dead good at it,” he added.

“Stalker, I told ya,” Aaron replied with a smirk.

Robert laughed, “Guilty I suppose.”

“I heard a lot about you know,” Aaron explained.

“Don’t believe everything-“

“Wouldn’t be sat here if I did,” Aaron explained.

Robert stared at him, “Paddy’s like my Dad,” Aaron explained.

“What?”

“You asked who Paddy was to me, he’s like my Dad,” he explained. “Closest thing to a proper one,” he went on. They sat there for hours talking, it was weird. They didn’t know why they did if they were honest, they were two complete strangers to each other but it felt easy to talk to one another as if they’ve known each other for years. It just felt right. It wasn’t until Aaron got an angry text from Cain that the two decided to go their separate ways.

“I’ll see you at the pub then?” Robert questioned.

“Yeah, I suppose,” Aaron replied.

“Later then.”

“Later.”

The truth though they never did.

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It would be another three years until the two would meet again, Aaron spending a couple of years in France ‘living’ abroad, but he was back now he had done his time in prison and was out. Free. Years of looking over his shoulders, all of that, done. It didn’t seem real.  His head was still banging from the night before from the celebratory drinks, which is why he chose sneaking out of the pub around lunch to avoid his mother. He made his way up the dirt path, regretting the drinks from the night before instantly, when he saw him, black leather jacket, blue jeans… “This is a change,” He called out stopping dead in his tracks. Robert turned with his hands buried in the pockets of the leather jacket, a grin grew on his face at the sight of the other man.

“There he is,” Robert replied. “The free man.”

“So you heard?” He questioned making his way over to the bloke.

“Hard not too,” Robert explained.

“Word around the Village is that you’re moving back,” Aaron remarked.

“Yep,” Robert replied. “My boss bought Home Farm and decided to move his headquarters here,” he explained. “So it looks like we’ll be roommates.”“Lucky us,” Aaron replied shoving his hands into his hoodie pockets. “Good to have you back, I guess.”

“Yeah, you too,” Robert replied. “So… word around the village is that you left to protect Adam,” Robert explained.

“And so what if I did?”

“No, nothing,” Robert explained.

“Adam is a mate.”

“Some mate,” Robert retorted.

“Are you gonna start on me and all?” Aaron questioned. “Because I got enough of it before I went to prison from my mum,” he added.

“Sorry.”

“It’s not like anyone around here really missed me anyways,” Aaron replied sincerely.

“You must not think much of your relationships,” Robert replied. “According to Diane, your Mum’s been going out of her mind with worry ever since you’d gone,”  he explained.

Aaron didn’t say anything.

“You know…we accept the love we think we deserve,” Robert told the younger man.

“Thanks, oh wise one,” Aaron replied.

“I reckon that’s why you run away,” Robert explained. “You don’t think you deserve it,” he went on.

“You don’t know me,” Aaron snapped.

“It’s why I’ve been gone for so long… I didn’t think I deserved to be here with my family,” he explained. “Something my dad said to me years ago… thought I was better off on my own,” he went on.

“Maybe you were,” Aaron argued.

“Where you?” Robert asked. “ ‘living’ abroad, on your own?”

Aaron didn’t say anything.

“Thought not,” Robert replied. “ Looks like new beginnings for the both of us, then,” he added.

“I suppose.”

“Reckon it won’t be too bad though if you’re gonna be around,” Robert stated with a smile.

Aaron smirked.

“You know…. the whole time I was gone…” he began turning to face Aaron. “There were to two things I couldn’t get out of my mind,” he explained meeting eyes with Aaron.

“What’s that?” Aaron questioned almost in a whisper as Robert freed his hands from his pockets.

“This place,” he started. “And you…” he explained, his hands meeting the side of Aaron’s face. Aaron pulled back, “I… I should go,” Aaron muttered pulling out of the older man’s grip. Robert quickly stopping him, grabbing him by the arm pulling him into his embrace, his lips attacking Aaron’s, his hands resting on both sides of Aaron’s face. Aaron melted into the kiss, his hands grasping at the other man’s biceps, digging his nails into the leather.

“Wow,” Aaron muttered after the two slowly broke apart.

“You don’t know how long I’ve waited to do that,” Robert replied his eyes still closed. “Can I buy you a pint?” He asked opening his eyes the two still frozen in place.

“Heads still killin’ me from last night,” Aaron explained.

“In town for lunch then?” Robert suggested. “My car is parked down the way.”

“Could go for a burger,” Aaron simply replied.

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hi! thank you for your answer, I really appreciate it. I can't even tell you the impact the answers you and gina gave me had on me.

It may not seem much but to me someone saying that my struggles matter made me realize that, yeah, things actually happened to me. Im not making up everything I feel bad about.

i saw your message and I instantly wanted to tell you everything! hahaha but really, thank you.

about the journaling advice, I've tried. even on my phone, or computer or whatever, but I'm never able to actually do it. I simply hate everything i write and i can't ever be honest, not even with myself, and i just erase it immediately.

I feel like messages like the one I sent you are different, cause I can't erase it and pretend I didn't send it if I don't like it. (which is something I would have done since I was embarrassed and i felt like you didn't need me to vent like that in your ask box).

and about the dating thing I don't know, i had one bad experience with a boy and just threw the whole idea of dating out the window. I think maybe I'm still too ashamed of my sexuality and identity to put myself out there. I've been thinking for a long time that ill never be able to find someone and now I guess I'm not ready. I don't know, it's still confusing.

once again, you don't have to answer me!! knowing you'll read it's enough!!

💞 -P

Oh good!!! I’m glad you saw it. I wasn’t sure what to tag it so you could find it. 

One thing I’ve learned is that no matter who you are - your thoughts, experiences, and feelings absolutely matter and are so important. Unfortunately, there’s a lot of money being put into messages that try to downplay all of that while simultaneously selling you something to “fix” it so really the only person who can uphold validity and importance is you (and maybe a good therapist). So keep telling yourself your feelings are valid, your experiences have mattered, and that you deserve to get through the other side of all this. 

You’re quite welcome!!

I feel you on that. I suck at journaling. But I do great with creative writing. Sometimes it’s easier to work out my shit through characters who may or may not look like me. Nobody has to see them either and they don’t have to be fleshed out full stories either. Just snippets of - what might this look like? What is something I’m dying to say out loud to someone and what other context could that occur in and then I’ll write that scene in a doc somewhere. It may or may not come to something later. Others like making playlists that say the things they can’t say or found poetry or reading about similar things. There’s not a lot of asexual fanfic out there but there’s some! That might help. I think it’s just really important to find some way to get all the things inside out somehow. It feels like it lessens the power of the thoughts/feelings/anxieties. 

Have you ever heard the expression don’t throw the baby out with the bathwater? Definitely take all the time you need to heal from that experience but don’t let it ruin dating for you forever. Nobody wins in that scenario -- especially not you. But there’s no rush. There’s now a lot of wlw media out there whether you like books, or movies, or musicals or whatever. For me, the emo scene of the early 2000s and then this rabbit hole of one direction I fell in - really helped normalize and validate things I was thinking and feeling and connected me to others who are outside of the normative narriatives. 

Find your people! When you’re up for it - you can go on dating apps and just look for mentors/friends/allies and even use an alias or make another email just for it. 

Also, you may wanna consider challenging “all or nothing” thinking when you can catch it. Nothing is absolute beyond the fact our time in this experience is limited - so we might as well find the joy in it where and when we can, right? 

Best of luck to you and thanks again for reaching out! I’ll be here for whenever you need and cheering you on.