#yes i wanted threads of this but no i didnt want to plot

[secret-smut-sideblog]

Take Me Back To Eden

Shadowheart x F! Tav

18+ thigh riding, fingering (f!), breast worship, light dirty talk, sub/dom, tenderness, implied trauma, porn with plot

Escaping the vampire lord's castle, she made her way to the Selune outpost. Into Shadowheart's waiting arms...

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Part 1

"Wait, he didnt even want to make you a full vampire?" The disgust in her voice dripping.

"Right?!" Tav exclaimed, huffing.

Laying face to face in Shadowheart's bed, safe in the candle kissed dark.

The way to her had been an arduous one. Grabbing a stray cloak from the back of a chair she shrouded herself leaving the beach. Though he must have thought her dead after the fall, she didn't want to risk it. He had spies everywhere, word of her being spotted in the Lower City would not bode well for her chances.

Making her shaky way through the streets to the carriage at the edge of the road. "West, as far as you can take me." Handed the driver a hefty bag of coin.

"Yes saer."

When she finally shambled to the mouth of the road leading to the outpost, Shadowheart was there. Rushing to her and taking her broken body in her arms.

"You're here! Oh Gods you made it!" Both joy and concern pitched through her voice.

Going limp against her arms Tav smiled in disbelief. "I made it..."

"Oh let's get you inside," She hushed, looping an arm under her shoulders. "You'll need to see our healer."

"I thought you were my healer..." She teased, pulled to walk. Leaning her head into Shadowheart's shoulder. Her silver hair tickling her face.

"Oh sure, but Francesca is very powerful. You'll be in good hands Tav, on Selune I swear it."

"Good hands. It's been so long." She laughed shakily.

Now, swaddled in dark Shadowheart rolled her eyes. "Making you, the savior of Baldur's Gate, a spawn. What an asshole..."

Tav laughed. It helped to talk about him like this. Like he was just some shitty ex. Well, he wasn't not that. What a mess.

Heart heavy again, she still missed him. The him before the ascension. Gods she was so in love back then, her whole body soaked with it. He was her everything.

"Do you miss him?" Shadowheart asked gently, seeing the strain on her face.

"All the time." She sighed, Shadowheart's hand threading into hers.

"But he's gone. My love is for a ghost."

"I'm sorry Tav," Pushing her hair behind her ear. Voice so soft, fingers equally so.

"I dont regret it, being with him. Not one bit. If I'd only had more foresight, been more forceful at the ritual..."

"Hey," Shadowheart scooted closer to her. "You cant fault yourself, you were doing what you thought was best. You always wanted us to follow our own paths. Make our own choices."

Eyes full of adoration. "You cant blame yourself for not pushing back against his wishes."

Tav smiled, breathing out a sigh. "Maybe. I hope you're right." She nuzzled into Shadowheart's hand. "You're too good to me."

"I think, after everything," She hushed, pulling closer still. Eyes meeting, pupils wide, face flushed. "You're owed some goodness."

Her warm mouth sliding against her. Tav moaned gently into her. Hand coming to cradle her head. A heat rising in her belly.

It had been so long since she had been touched like this. All soft, exploring. Desired. No force, no possessive pulls, not a piece of claim here in her touch.

She pulled her closer, pressing their bodies together. Shadowheart's legs tangling in hers. Mouths hot and needful. Their breath a lustful miasma around them. Tongues twisting.

Shadowheart's little moans were so sweet. A soft bird call. Tav left her mouth, kissing and biting softly at her neck. Her body arched under her. Hands reaching for her blouse.

"You sure you're not a vampire?" She teased through panting breaths.

Tav laughed, helping Shadowhearts efforts in pulling off her blouse.

"Maybe just for tonight." Tav smiled, leaning back to bare absent fangs.

"Oh! So frightening!" Shadowheart admonished. Leaning up to kiss at her bare torso. Lips velvet against her scarred skin.

Tav moaned into her touch. Hand threading behind her head. A throbbing need between her legs.

When her lips met her erect nipple Tav groaned, eyes pulling closed. "There," She encouraged, trying to not pull her hair. "Right there."

Shadowheart hummed teasingly, looking up at her through her lashes. Tongue sliding slow against her peaks. Hand holding her hip, other pushing up her back to the space between her shoulder blades. Pushing her chest into her mouth.

When she took her fully in and started nibbling and suckling Tav thought she might go blind with lust. Hips already rolling against nothing.

Trembling hands pulling her robe open, the ties coming loose and falling away. Her pale form bare to Tav's eyes. Drinking her in as she worshipped her breasts. And Tav was thirsty, parched. Insatiable.

Gripping her hips she lifted her onto her thigh. Hands pushing her ass into the muscle of her leg.

Shadowheart shivered, hips already seeking. Pulsing down into her thigh. Mouth more vicious, rough, against her swollen tips.

Tav mewled, head thrown back. Hips bucking. Trying to hold her thigh taut for her as she ground down. Leggings already wet under her riding.

Shadowheart's hand pushed into her waistband, lithe fingers searching desperate. Finding her easily, already a hard mound. Rubbing tight perfect circles into her clit.

Tav gripped her ass, gritting her teeth. Pulling her hard into her thigh. Already embarrassingly close. Touch starved. Touch drunk.

Shadowheart switched breasts, her hand taking up the nipple her mouth left. Flicking it and twisting between her fingers. Mouth pulling and slobbering over the new peak obscenely. Hand still below pushing back, teasing at her entrance.

"Gods please," Tav begged, for what she wasnt sure. More, definitely more.

Shadowheart pushed inside her, two fingers hooking. Pulsing roughly.

"You're so wet," She smiled into her chest. Biting at her engorged peak.

Tav moaned in agreement, beyond words. Hips fucking her hand. Panting breaths rising.

"Are you going to come for me?" Shadowheart asked sweetly, hand leaving her chest to take her long braid in her hand, tugging it taut. Tav's head falling back with the pull, exposing her long neck.

"Yes," She panted, Shadowheart's lips coming up to lave long licks up her exposed throat, sending shivers down her spine. Limbs feverish, pelvis trembling. "Dont stop."

Shadowheart's fingers sped up, plunging into her viciously. Palm of her hand meeting her clit in rough pulses.

Tav whimpered out a handful of cries, feeling the cord about to snap. Hips moving of their own accord. Feral.

Her hands tangling in Shadowheart's hair as it hit her. A guttural shriek threatening to spill out she shoved her shirt into her mouth, muffling her cries. Like a thousand arrows striking her pelvis it ripped through her. Hips rising and bucking uncontrollably. Her muffled scream bringing a smile to Shadowheart's flushed, fluid slicked face. Pinching her nipple one more time for her own amusement.

Not far behind her Shadowheart picked up her pace, hips fast and hot. The fabric on her thigh thoroughly soaked through. Her breasts moving in tandem with her desperate riding. Eyes screwing shut. Little pleading mewls. Going rigid, her eyes bursting open. Mouth falling slack into a silent scream. Hands gripping Tav's hips as her body trembled, still grinding sloppily into her hard thigh.

Tav saw stars as the high pulled through her. She hadn't come so hard in a long time. Her body so sensitive to touch.

Taking Shadowheart into her shaking arms, burying her face in her neck. Them staying like that for a moment, holding eachother anchor.

"Gods below," She admonished. Looking wild into Shadowheart's eyes.

"I agree," she said, eyes alight with laughter. "You almost killed me Tav."

"Me?!" She scoffed, cradling her face in her hands. Kissing her swollen mouth softly. "I think I saw the after world for a second there." Pulled back. "I dont know how many more near death experiences I can take."

Shadowheart smiled up at her. "No sea water this time though." Hand cupping over hers on her cheek.

"Did you hear?" A worshipper hushed to her friend, carrying their breakfast together.

"What?"

"That lord! Ancunin I think..."

Tav's hackles bristled.

"He killed his whole staff!"

"No! Surely that cant be true!"

"Apparently one of his consorts ran off and he went into a blind rage! Everyone says it's a vampire den, so I believe it. That he's a vampire himself!"

Tav stood, hands trembling as they wandered away. Whispering amongst themselves.

She knew she was safe here, only a trusted handful knowing her identity. To all others she was just another pilgrimage coming to take up rites.

Still, that wording made her anxious. Ran off. Not dead. She knew the rumor mill was not a trusted source, but it made her stomach turn.

"Everything okay?" Shadowheart came up beside her, hand reassured on her forearm.

"Yeah," Tav sighed, taking the fruit she offered her. Picking up her drink as they started to walk. "Just locals making up stories."

"Oh they're always on about something." Shadowheart agreed, taking a bite of the peach she was carrying. The light dappling her silver hair as they went towards their favorite sitting spot. "Last week they said they saw a bronze dragon in a cave nearby." Shooting her a withering look. "It was an owlbear."

Tav laughed, lifting her drink to her lips. Braid swinging behind her. Their feet hushing through the well trodden undergrowth.

"So I was thinking," Shadowheart started as they sat down. "I know bringing a bunch of people here would call attention. But I want to let everyone know you're safe, that you're here." She mused. "I think we can get away with bringing at least one of our old companions around."

Tav smiled. "Aww I'd love to see everyone, especially Karlach! Oh I miss her. But she's still in Avernus with Wyll right?"

Shadowheart nodded.

"Hmm," Tav thought. "I guess I'm realizing I've been gone so long I dont know whose still around." She laughed sheepishly.

"What about Halsin?" Shadowheart offered, sliding her a knowing look. "He's in the Shadowlands but I know he'd drop anything to come see you."

"Oh please," Shadowheart waved away her aghast look. "I remember how you two looked at eachother. Oh he was smitten with you. A puppy following you around camp." She laughed lightly. "While I greatly enjoy your company I think you need to spread your wings. Gods, Tav you've been stuffed away in a castle for years, have some fun." Cradling her face in her soft hand. "And if you decide you want to come back to me, I'd be delighted to have you."

Tears threatening at the edges of her eyes she smiled at her. "I think you're right." Took a shaky breath out. "It's time to live again."

"Fuck it, send for him."

"That's the spirit." Shadowheart cheered and kissed her softly.

~

Part 3

[detectiveneve]

speaking strictly from a plot & writing perspective here, not a commentary on characters or who or who is not my favorite blorbo (they all are). it's gale time and I wanted to get down everything I thought about this go around with his romance & the writing before it escapes me.

so I once again had a ton of fun of course, the game is still a blast, and several arcs were way more satisfying this time around simply because I ... did not skip the creche, unlike my very first run (I was an idiot) (I didnt think it would be that important) (it really really was). love it 10/10. I cannot WAIT to do my gith run & really focus in on that because the lore there is just, so cool, and that subplot was really rich & rewarding this time around since I had someone who was not orpheus become a mindflayer instead.

as for Gale, Thank Fuck I started before they bugged him up again too much. but let's deep dive into The Material.

shoutout to Tim first of all, he's a legend, dreamboat, superstar. there are so many lines delivered so effortlessly when they would sound ridiculous in anyone else's mouth. he gives gale so much soulful intensity and subtle, nuanced gravitas befitting someone like gale; with enough of Gale's own moments of silliness, cheekiness, wry wit & understated sarcasm, to outright flabbergasted at times, I was Giggling every conversation fr. I'm not usually prone to the "I LOVE YOU" Romances that come earlier rather than later, but ohhhhhhh tim gives each line with all the weight & agony that you can feel inside Gale when it comes (the looming death; not knowing what the end may bring; not wanting to leave any regrets behind) so like. MWAH to him. MWAH MWAH. all the kisses in the world.

okay mandatory compliments to the actor aside. I came out of the whole thing with breadth of new appreciation for Gale as a character in terms of the... concepts, threads, that make him up, and act 2 is where he REALLY shines overall.

I didn't necessarily come away from it with the same... weepy...... done-no-wrong? interpretation of Gale that I've seen floating about. he's lovely. he's intense. he's got soul-crushing devotion on his mind, no doubt. but for every fracture of tenderness, raw sincerity, & off the cuff soliloquy, he's got a lot of interesting flaws/characteristics I'd love to unpick with a fine-toothed comb on some replays or rewatches. Still trying to turn over in my brain exactly what that is, but it's there, and I love it. will say I'm really glad I played it mostly in a vacuum rather than getting too into others' thoughts on him, because What I Had Seen on the Webbed Site had near put me off entire (seeing someone say he's not prideful or pompous at all... when he self-describes as pompous?) -- maybe it's my tendency to focus in on what makes a character tick, when are they sharper, or harder, or meaner, and I enjoy watching that play out a lot, but? yeah. I didn't come away thinking him a super soft mushy mwahmwah -- ROMANTIC, yes, but overall as a character not nearly so lovesick and in desperate need of some protector. in fact when you tell him you don't want to be his crutch, he says as much too -- you've helped him, but you're not the sole focus of his person or the only thing keeping him alive.

there's enough of the humanity in his cheekier moments (stop licking the damn thing!!) and plenty of tear-jerking aside all of that. gale my canon-depressive-episode, mildly suicidal, chronic pained up, still-kind-of-full-of-yourself king. I adore you I love you I cradle you softly in my arms. he charmed me entire! I think that the themes hey were trying to tackle are really interesting and nuanced and I do have some thoughts on the success of the game in actually tackling those, what is there is really wonderful. some gorgeous writing in act 2, especially, and it was sold so well by the voice acting & sincerity in the writing I was just like. PERFECT. 10/10. NEED TO WRITE 98 FLUFF PIECES RN. which does not happen often, to me, as a person.

with. some exceptions, going back to critiquing act 3 as a whole.

act 1 & 2 are both strong, really nice. however this romance definitely needed at least one or two more scenes in act 2 to pad out the space between awkward flirting at the party to "I like it when you're sweaty and bloody-- sorry who said that" to "I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU." -- these scenes should've elaborated on Gale's personal feelings; of mystra, of what's been asked of him, of Tav. they should've set in threads of Gale's anger earlier, rather than the jarring shift from late act 2 "yeah I'll kill myself" to "actually... mystra fucking sucks! lol!" in act 3 at sorcerer sundries. yeah babygirl, mystra DOES fucking suck, wish I could've listened to you as you arrived to these conclusions rather than connecting empty character lines between act 2 and 3. and act 3 desperately needed more space to talk gale in or out of the crown. because by the time we get to the end, if he's really into the crown, he's into it beyond the focus of all else. but in the scenes where you talk him off that particular ledge, it doesn't even take very long to do so, and leaves kind of a weird... gap of intention.

I feel like they wrote themselves into a bit of a corner, honestly. because Gale's personal quest literally cannot be resolved until 5 minutes before the end, any climax wouldn't have much space afterward to pad the aftermath. so the solution to that would've been more character focus scenes, more flavor text depending on how you've influenced gale, something that actually makes the choices feel rewarding -- some hurdles to cross too, checks of some kind. but there really isn't any of that, and so the conflict is almost nonexistent. you squirt gale with a water bottle and he gives up the crown with no real additional dialogue. or you tell him "ma...maybe???" and he's suddenly a power obsessed little freak (complimentary) with no recourse, and in either case, we never got much dialogue to get some insight into his personal thoughts on it. this doesn't make Gale a bad character, but it does leave the narrative to be lacking in some regard.

like, for example. Astarion gets dialogue changes depending on the quest outside of character-specific moments (such as a spawn Astarion changing his dialogue after you help Aylin with Lorroakan), post-quest conversations, PRE-quest conversations with his siblings, moments where he reveals more of what he thinks (such as "You're... you. no one is like that.") etc., Gale gets None of that. the only other characters who really do are Lae'zel and Shadowheart; everyone else is either shafted or resolved in the last few minutes too. I came out of this most satisfied as a player overall with LAE'ZEL'S conclusion (also at the end of the game!!) because we had gotten a few more moments where her focus is obvious and her motivations are clear.

anyways, those are just general writing issues. Act 3 overall is the weakest, most agree, and that's still true here. Sadly it kind of takes some of Gale down with it in this case, because his personal quest is both so removed from the overall plot (despite him being a literal fixture as the only character who knows anything about the crown & was decreed by a literal god to take out the absolute).

however none of this is related to Gale as a guy. as a guy I'm Fucking Obsessed With Him. taking him with me everywhere was so rewarding especially in act 1 / 2. his commentary & insights, when they were there, ranged from funny as fuck to genuinely insightful & interesting for the overall plot. the ideas behind him, the glimpses we get of the life he led before, and the life he wants to lead after with Tav -- or what he alludes to wanting to lead with Tav, thinking that he'll still probably die at the end of this -- are lovely, interesting, TOUCHED MY SPIRIT. he's such a neat version of how to do a character that is as endearing as he can be foot-in-mouth, and as intelligent as he can be a little belligerent. I looooved every moment I could talk with him about magic in act 1, see his passions (beyond mystra), argue with him about how to do something (I'M the magical wonder here actually and I get to make the shadowlantern), all of that really MADE the romance for me in the lulls where his Silence or the gaps in his writing were more clear. 10/10 would kiss that fucking wizard again and cry a little bit thinking about exploding with him aboard a giant alien brain while one of those "ITS YOUUU I LIE WITH" songs plays in the bg

[year2000electronics]

Hi, just being curious, what do you think is the greatest difficulty you’ve faced carrying out the storyline in your ask blogs (aside from potential burnout)?

Is there any time where the asks were not going towards the direction where you’d want them to go, and how did you steer the story back on track?

Do you have any techniques giving out clues or keeping the pace of the ask blog?

[sorry these are a lot. Of questions. It’s just, it’s amazing how you are able to run multiple successful askblogs, and I’m curious how you did it]

OOOH THESE ARE SOME INTERESTING QUESTIONS! really pickin at my old noggin here...

id say probably the most difficult part is like... ok through my tenure ive obviously had some physically taxing moments, moments of people being way too mean, people being way too NICE, people complaining that every single member of a giant ensemble cast doesnt get the exact same amount of screentime etc etc, but id honestly say the hardest part is just. making the medium Work. when i run an ask blog like this, im basically asking people to drive the story forward with no promise of whether their choices even like. Matter. if youre not tethered enough to your asks, it can feel like youre just asking people to put a coin in the slot and letting the story play for another page. you have to play this balancing act of wanting to tell the story you want to tell while also needing peoples' help to get there. thats why an engaging story and endearing characters are so important. i wound up telling people here on my main that y2k would end with a good ending specifically because i got people concerned i genuinely would end it with a Bad End, but still even knowing that people would tune in. so its like. i always have to make sure its Engaging enough. for people to be willing to play this game with me at all. the hardest part of fishing is getting the fish to bite yk.

2. YES ALL THE TIME LOLLLL a lot of the time i will end up either picking an ask from before the topic came up and answer that one, or plant my own decoy ask. basically jingling keys at people HJSSKHASGK. but sometimes even that doesnt work! benrey in y2k has a very touchy complex about his helmet specifically because I DIDNT HAVE SPRITES WITH HIS HAIR. and i thought that his hair was kinda boring compared to what people were probably expecting (its very short and simple i draw his hair like bootleg barney) so i ended up having to answer that little thread by having an explosion and then presenting my own resolution (gordon calm him down :)) i like to think ive gotten better at key jingling though haha. usually the two types of key jingling topics i find work best are either little plot teases or a 'now back to what we were doing' ask, but if you dont want things to advance quite yet, i usually use questions that will elaborate on a character trait or introduce a new character fact

3. dont be me. /j ok actually the thing about this specific medium is like. people will send me asks guessing my twists WAAAAY early on but the thing is i can just. choose not to answer them. hehe. id personally pay attention to how often people are guessing your twists though because like. its BOUND to happen if you lay out clues some people will pick up on them. if theres not a lot of people guessing, then you can lean more into the big sting reveals of like 'NOOOOBODY EXPECTED THIS' but when a lot of people have guessed the twist, i usually make sure to present it in a way that doesnt imply that there was nobody on the right trail or that people got bamboozled. as for the clues themselves. well im about to figure that out myself again! i have some clues i need to lay in bmfe!! dont get discouraged if people pick up on what you thought was really subtle, cos like. literal day 1 of episode 3 someone literally made a powerpoint saying 'LEADING LIGHT IS BACK' and i was like ok i was just on my first crumb DAMN. as for pacing, it doesnt matter if you get the blog done in one month or one year- what does matter is PLANNING. if you know what your goal is, what your landmarks and checkpoints are, youll be able to stagger stuff successfully no matter the length. some of the best-recieved parts of y2kvr were parts i went into the session going 'this is my goal for today' for. the goals dont even have to big, it could even be something as small as like 'get from place a to place b'

SORRY THIS GOT LONG but ty for the question! reflecting on my process is interesting :]

[sentofight]

𝘒𝘕𝘖𝘞𝘐𝘕𝘎  𝘠𝘖𝘜𝘙  𝘗𝘈𝘙𝘛𝘕𝘌𝘙  𝘞𝘌𝘓𝘓  𝘊𝘈𝘕  𝘗𝘖𝘛𝘌𝘕𝘛𝘐𝘈𝘓𝘓𝘠  𝘔𝘈𝘒𝘌  𝘞𝘙𝘐𝘛𝘐𝘕𝘎  𝘛𝘖𝘎𝘌𝘛𝘏𝘌𝘙  𝘈  𝘓𝘖𝘛  𝘌𝘈𝘚𝘐𝘌𝘙.

NAME :  Faty. I go by Fai or Moogle, whichever is cool.

PRONOUNS :  she/her

PREFERENCE  OF  COMMUNICATION :  personally d.iscord because dumblr IM can be pain in the duck but im good if u prefer IMs. im ppl pleaser lmao.

NAME  OF  MUSE(S) : how about i link the roster because...r u sure. tots didnt add new/old/test muses because i can

EXPERIENCE  /  HOW  LONG  (  MONTHS  /  YEARS? ) :  uhh lessee ... i tried dumblr rp right around 2012 but then didnt go well at first but then officially enjoying chaos on 2013 ...AFTER PLAYING TYPE0 FRICK MY LIFE.

BEST  EXPERIENCE : when people enable my chaos. i'd say i have been blessed to have great and fun experiences during my time here. yes it was up and down sometimes but hey loving the care and attention my muses are getting nowadays. thanks everyone. looks respectfully at wars as always, my number one hyper. cheers to all of you really, varus, stacy, alven, kinkoz, bear, bubbles, and all the new peeps! i care for all of you!!!!!!!!!!

RP  PET  PEEVES  /  DEALBREAKERS :  ho boy. only following cool looking graphically blogs not for the actual content, which is cool if thats your thing but don't make fun of people investing in their characters and building hcs. follow for ships and get upset over getting denied. not reading rules. making fun of certain hcs i write or some reservations i have over writing certain things. should i go on ;;;

MUSE  PREFERENCES  FLUFF,   ANGST  OR  SMUT : hello, is this house of angst? yes. I'd like to renew my contract. and sprinkle some fluff. smut is...................eh. like really eh. super exclusive.

PLOTS  OR  MEMES :   hmu with both! i like how some random meme can turn into the next fun thread! we can explore things with different memes and then viola ideas for threads.

LONG  OR  SHORT  REPLIES :   listen. nowadays my brain melts rather quickly so i tend to shorten things but hey.......when this yapper of brain yaps..IT IS A LONG LONG LOOOOOOOOONG REPLY. i like them both yes. but i gotta be honest and say short is to go nowadays. forgive this oldie granny.

BEST TIME TO WRITE :    whenever i get a chance. IRL is hectic nowadays.

ARE  YOU  LIKE  YOUR  MUSE(S) :  high five lissa. that's it. wink wonk.

tagged by: i stole it from explorer weeee

tagging: snag it punks i dare you. it is not m.unday but i dont what i want so you too!

[intothewildsea]

⋆ NAME?: Arlo

⋆ PRONOUNS?: they/them

⋆ MOST ACTIVE MUSE(S)?: Niamh, my muse for all of my muses on my multi (musescafe) varies depending on what my current hyperfixation is RIP

⋆ RP PET PEEVES?: When people post "call outs" where they are lying about other people to stir up drama or try to spread rumors about another person without having evidence to back up their claims.

⋆ EXPERIENCE / HOW MANY YEARS?: a long time, bc I'm old, i started rping on neopets in ye olde days of dial up

⋆ FLUFF, ANGST, OR SMUT?: I enjoy all three! I don't particularly have a favorite. It just depends on what my mood is as to which one I want to write the most at the time.

⋆ LONG OR SHORT REPLIES?: Honestly, I don't mind short replies for some threads, especially ones that just sprout off of little memes. I like medium or long replies more, but sometimes I have trouble getting my brain to cooperate, so sometimes my replies are shorter than I would like.

⋆ PLOTS OR MEMES?: I love plotting, but memes are fun for when I want to just do something little and go more off vibes than trying to make my brain work on a more complicated idea.

⋆ TIME TO WRITE?: the urge to write hits me at all (and usually inopportune) times, but my favorite is to write in the morning with a cup of coffee

I stole this from my beloved @notyetfixed ♡ edit: I DIDNT REALIZE I WAS ACTUALLY TAGGED LOOOL so i did not steal it

[mummer]

went down the rabbit hole of my own ao3 today and decided to reflect upon my works ye mighty and despair as an exercise in self understanding:

it chapter two time travel fic - this one has problems in that i was nineteen and a shut-in at the time and didnt know how real life worked and wasnt funny. but it also has some very good things such as the theme is good. good bev stuff. i was so MAD at this movie lolllz... overly sappy and sentimental.. gets real weird and fantastical for no good reason but i dont mind that. STOP SWEARING SO MUCH.. not "well" written but not poorly written either + has its moments 7.4/10

the fool - unfortunately i will never in my life be able to top this due to it being a product of an early pandemic induced fugue state and i just have to accept that. it fucks so severely hard i't's difficult to comprehend. fully formed like athena. deserves 10 million billion hits. sometimes ill have bad self esteem and then i'll chance back upon this and be like Nvm im a genius...... there are like two bits that could use some revision but honestly thats it. "me being stupid is a foundational literary lens" - i remember saying this at some point. 9.5/10 i was so real for all of this

noli me tangere - i dont like this anymore. it really suffers from following the timeline so closely and retelling a bunch of boring administrative shit and has too many threads. the writing is not very good either frankly apart from the beginning. bland. too long. i had a lot of Ideas but.... 6.1/10

the body is a blade - honestly the thing about this one is that it should be 800x more fucked up and evil about everything. i should have let it be scary and fraught and less overtly romantic. i think i struggle with that in fic tbh i always come at it with too much of a wish fulfillment lens stfu bitch i want them to drink each others blood and throw up everywhere. writing is mostly good though and the structure works even tho there is no plot. 7.8/10

random ass stranger things fic from last year i dont want to talk about - i was having a bad 6 months when i wrote this but you cant tell because it does hold up mostly. i mean it's completely bonkers and has major plot conveniences but it's trying to emulate stranger things so you must allow it. i think the duffers could learn a lot from me personally (insane). dusty my best friend dusty. one thing about me is thtat there's gonna be a damn road trip. the writing? IS GOOD. i love BANTER. will also never get recognition due to rarepair problems.. im used to that. i like that i was basically like And fuck found family too btw. theres nuance in this and hard complicated feelings! neat! why was i doing all that for this? i didnt have to. REAAALLLLY didnt have to. 8/10

[starryemeralds]

HII rwby anon again its been a while sorry dhd ive been on a mission in another world but thats not important right now~

sooo

IVE WATCHED TILL EPISODE 15 !!

IM REALLY ENJOYING IT A LOT, especially with a lot of focus being on vomit boy, i kind of didnt expect that. i LOVE how nora was just. "should i break his legs :D" IN SUCH A FUN AND BUBBLY GIRL VOICE DHDBDBD that was hilarious

AND WHEN PYRRHA TOOK VOMIT BOY ONTO THE ROOF AND HE JUST GOES, "i know im depressed but.. im not THAT depressed" i was DYING of laughter HELPPP JSJSJS

UGH i CANNOT get enough of ruby. shes just like. nope :3 nope : ) nope :] nope :>

UGH its so cute just that little squeakiness in her voice, if that makes sense fhdhd

i am also uh. A LITTLE WORRIED ABOUT WHAT SHE SAID TO VOMIT BOY

"youre not allowed to be a failure.. because youre a leader !"

i very spesifically remember, before getting into the show, seeing gifs and vids you rebloged of ruby having. not the best of times 😭 because she was their leader and didnt feel perfect / as good as she wanted herself to be, if i remember correctly ? so

yeah 😭😭😭

i ship blake and random faunus boy with a monkey tail /hj

penny seems.. weird,, not in a bad way she is just. a weirdo /pos

LMFAO THE HIGH FIVE BETWEEN WEISS AND RUBY, um *its a combat skirt*

ok so. time to bombard you with questions ( sorry )

who are the faunus how many episodes does the first season have who are the white fang and why does weiss call them degenerates, rapscallions, thieves, murderers and scums

IS IS IS. IS BLAKE A FAUNUS OF THE WHITE FANG !?!

thank you 💅

HELLO RWBY ANON!! I HOPE YOUR MISSION IN ANOTHER WORLD IS GOING WELL LMAO

i love how you consistently refer to jaune as vomit boy, it makes me laugh everytime. and nora, my chaotic beloved, do break that guys legs <3

S T O P, THAT ROOFTOP LINE HAD ME FUCKING CACKLING. IN MY RECENT REWATCH IF THE SHOW, I WAS SHOWING IT TO MY FRIENDS AND THEY THOUGHT IT WAS FUNNY TOO

and yes!! ruby’s va is so good, and while she has the squeakiness, you’ll come to see that there’s a lot of emotional range in it 👀

AND YEAH,, RUBY’S JOURNEY AS A LEADER IS A LONG AND COMPLICATED ROAD, BUT MY GOD, THERE IS NOTHING I LOVE MORE THAN STORYLINES LIKE *gestures to v9* THAT (being vague because i don’t wanna spoil you anymore than my blog already has haha)

SUN MY BELOVED!!!! I LOVE HIM SO MUCH; LOYAL TO THE END BUT LACKS ALL BRAIN CELLS. valid to ship them, but their friendship in particular means so much to me and you’ll come to see why a bit later down the road!

AND PENNY MY BELOVED <3333 all i’ll say is that there is something weird with her, and it alludes to the fairy tale she is based on, which i think gets revealed sometime in v2 iirc

AND NOW FOR YOUR QUESTIONS

who are the faunus:

so the faunus are essentially another race in remnant that have physically animalistic features (some might have ears, or tails, etc.)

how many episodes in the first season:

crunchyroll is telling me that the first season has 16 episodes, so you’re right at the finish line!!

who are the white fang:

the white fang has a complicated history, but they are essentially a group of faunus who are fighting for faunus rights and are now known to be an extremist group. (in my personal opinion, i think that rt definitely could’ve handled this plot line a bit better since it is a direct allegory to racism and a lot of black fans have voiced their critiques a lot better than i ever could. there are some threads and video essays by them if that’s something you’d wanna look more into!)

why does weiss call them degenerates, etc?

she’s racist prejudiced towards them based on her upbringing; but she does overcome this fairly quickly SO DONT WORRY.

is blake of the white fang?

she used to be! that mission she was on in the black trailer was actually her with them, but her separating herself from the train was her literally and metaphorically cutting ties with them. she no longer believes in their methods, so she became a huntress to join in the fight for equality in a different way.

I HOPE THAT HELPS CLEAR SOME THINGS UP!

[zeciex]

I just saw the finale I must say:

They are really milking this season, I believe they were supposed to end it with Team Black taking KL and the battle of the Gullet but they made this season just the prep for war when in reality the war started when Aemond killed Lucerys and when the Greens usurped the throne.

They butchered Alicent’s character, I can see that the producers have like some favoritism with Olivia Cooke, because that scene with her swimming was completely useless to the plot. Now they’re trying to make Alicent a victim when she has been PLOTTING since season 1 to install Aegon on the throne because her father literally installed it her mind that Rhaenyra and Daemon where going to kill her sons if they didnt and know she literally sells her sons/otto/criston/gwayne out because she wants to live.

Like Rhaenyra said “Now you want to wash her hands clean for something that you started” 🙄🙄

The only good thing about this is that in season 3 when Team Black takes KL and sees that Aegon is not there anymore is going to make Alicent more stupid and a traitor, like she smuggled him out.

The only good thing of the finale was Daemyra reunion, MY PARENTS ARE BACK BABY!!! And Rhaenyra giving Alicent the roast of the lifetime after Alicent said that she had a lover😂😂 (Hopefully in Vow its Daenera giving her that ROAST) because the way Rhaenyra delivered that line was so Dae coded🥹🥹

Also EWAN MITCHELL’s ACTING!!! Burning Sharp Point while serving face😍 the desperation in Aemond was understandable, imagine your mother feeding in your mind that your family is in danger if Rhaenyra is queen then after she crowns Aegon who never wanted to be king in the first place, goes to the enemy and sells you out because all the sudden youre a pacifist and never wanted a war like M’AM, like I said YOU STARTED THE WAR WHEN YOU USURPED THE RIGHTFULL HEIR!!

I feel like if they wanted to milk this season the finale should have been the ending of episode 7, that would have been better than this ending but now we have to wait 2 years, this is BS. But…. We always have fanfiction. 💜💜

I really don't understand the pacing in this season. Like, A LOT has happened and yet nothing, we're still in the beginning stages of war, it doesn't feel like there has really been any clashes or battles save for Rook's Rest. And it's likely because the characters are pulling the story down with them; Alicent especially since she's the focus of TG despite doing nothing but complain and fret over a war SHE KNEW was going to happen and would cost lives. And Daemon doing practically nothing throughout the season but be haunted was... disappointing, I loved the first two episodes of him going through it, but 8? No. I would have loved more politics, more minor battles, more.... something.

I agree 100% with you on Alicent. She frustrates me so much! And I am NOT going that route. It would have been so much better if she had clung to her faith and accepted that they had to do terrible things to win. But instead she's sitting around complaining, going on a camping trip, and is ready to serve up her sons--yes all of them--for Rhaenyra to kill to keep herself, Helaena, and Jaehaera alive. And she basically makes all she has done to put her son on the throne worth nothing. Her sacrifices worth nothing.

Yeah, hopefully the relationship will be more contentious next season--hopefully we wont get Rhaenyra forgiving her AGAIN.

It's just weak character writing and a weak character arc.

Oh I definitely consider picking apart that conversation and having Daenera and Alicent have it. It was so Daenera coded 100% lol

And Daemyra will be contentious in s2 of this story, but there will always be this underlying thread of love connecting them. The relationship will buckle under the weight of B&C but they need each other--as Daenera and Aemond need each other. Also, Daemon is already at the point of him fighting for Rhaenyra, I'm not going back on that just to follow the show--instead the Harrenhal plot will focus on his guilt, his psychology, and trying to gather allies, failing a few times, but overall being better than what we saw in the show.

Ewan is still one of the best actors! He is given so little and be plays it so well, so nuanced! And he really seems to understand Aemond! The writers need to listen to the actors some more about their characters because the writers seem to miss the point of the characters, mischaracterize them, or just... write completely new characters to what has been established.

Im so mad about the treatment of Aemond and how Alicent has become this... watered down, boring character that would sell out her children for poverty tourism.

The ending of E7 would have fit so well with the ending of a season--and if they didn't end it there, then they should have ended the season with Rhaenyra sitting the throne. Instead, we will likely get a time skip to her sitting the throne in the beginning of next season and then they'll only tell us about what has happened in those days of taking KL instead of showing us.

[sassykinzonline]

sadly it’s the same person still, I have so many questions omg- ok so, if boruto was in your “universe” what would it be like? Would the kids still even be there?

Thoughts on shikamaru?

Another one, so we all should know, soulmates, how did it feel when u got that moon thing on your hand? While Naruto got a circle looking thing that looked like a sun.

if you were to choose, would u rather have 1 day with, young Naruto(before team 7) genin naruto(when team 7 started), shippuden naruto(when the war started) or hokage Naruto?

oh my god this ask actually made me moan in delight (not sexually, like eating a good tomato more like), these are amazing questions.

im going to assume you mean a sequel to shippuden that deals with our adult lives when you say "boruto", im not gonna craft a whole thing im just gonna kind of give you my important points:

the genre isnt baby kiddy shounen. theyre making a show for people who are adults now, the genre needs to be adult political thriller shounen. none of this aliens from space bullshit. this is why i mentioned legend of korra. as much as OG atla fans want to pretend it sucks, LOK is enduring because it understood the assignment of catering to the SAME fanbase but recognizing the CHANGE in demographics. just like ATLA, there are tons of political problems that need to be addressed by the end of "naruto", the answer to them cant be some gen X bullshit "welp what matters is that we know theyre problems~" thats fucking lazy and boring.

this means things like the hyuuga structue, Amegakure, reformation of the mist, reformation of the chunin exams, the "role" of shinobi, war orphans, recognition of past crimes against humanity including the genocide of the uchiha, the fascist nature of things like the ANBU and the political structure of konoha, etc. all these things need to be up for grabs.

in essence, we know that tobirama is responsible for all the infrastructure that makes the shinobi world complete shit. naruto needs to be the antithesis to that if hes to be hokage. i dont think he needs to be hokage to do that, so that can also be a plot point.

in terms of kids, im just gonna let shikatema rock even though i hate it. they can have kids right away if they want, i dont care. i thnk its weird that even though everyone got married at different times, we all ~happened~ to have kids the same year. i think its easier to deal with if some main cast kids are older than others because then you can have teams without building on side characters like moegi that didnt matter before and shouldnt matter now.

the one thing i think should remain the same, is that the driver of the plot should still be the evolution of my relationship with naruto. now that we found each other, how do we really find and achieve peace for ourselves?

thoughts on shikamaru?

i think hes a toxic incel who gets away with being a douchebag because he has a "stoic cool guy" persona. he never evolves on his views of women, he just marries the one woman who he sees as a "not like other girls" girl. hes never punished for his views either. he disrespects his teammate constantly who hes literally useless without. he only props up the guy on his team who is consistently a liability to them (and i mean im friends with choji and i think hes a good ninja but cmon) because hes a guy. i hate him. we are banned from 3 separate bars for fighting. yes the count has gone up. dont ask.

soulmate tats?

the best way i can describe it is.... you know that at base, naruto and i feel "for" each other in a strong way. we feel proud when the other is, sad when the other is, angry when the other is, what have you. thats part of deeply loving someone, but also something special i think we have going on. the tattoos felt like putting glasses on those feelings, or maybe a microscope? or an x-ray? i dont know? but all of a sudden it felt like you could see the red thread of fate itself, where exactly we need to put our feelings to bend reality itself, how our feelings can be used (for each other)...that sort of thing. kind of like unlocking the keys to the universe and learning how to use your muscles to mold the universe at the same time.

if you asking how it physically felt to receive them then no it wasnt like a tattoo, it felt like i guess when you scratch an itch or wake up suddenly after a long deep sleep? something like that? but thats me. im actually not sure if naruto feels differently, you can ask him.

if i could choose?

this question is crazy haha. if you could guarantee it wouldnt change the future and i could just spend the day in like a pocket dimension or something just for the experience....

i think i'd want to spend time with shippuden naruto so i could learn what i missed? thats the only time (i hope) that we would have been separated so.... and i know he would like to hear that everything went well with us. i'd like to see his face as i told him that, i bet hed be like "UGH WHAT THE HELL DO YOU MEAN 😳" heh.

2nd place goes to academy baby naruto because i want to derive energy from his...cute nature.

[scinglives]

You literally only post about wanting the same thing over and over again and it's boring as fuck. Do you ever ask people what they want?

well its the plots i like, and yes i do ask people what they want. if people didnt want things i want to do too then i would have no threads. i like family and baby things, shoot me

[gumitoes]

Jay and Mark (Trolls oc) lore dump!!

Soo since ive gotten into the trolls fandom and made myself a few ocs (jay and mark :3) I HAVE BRAINSTORMED HER LORE‼️‼️

This is what i had in mind, it kinda also involves her ancestors lore and pretty much how like the place that involves jays parents are connected with it as the story progresses

Alternative rock trolls

Yes completely fanmade kiw kiw

Back in trolls world tour, we are introduced to a set of every ancestors of each individual genre that was shown in the movie. Since alternative rock/Indie rock is a kind of sub genre that comes from the rock genre

In short, i have an idea of one of the fellow ancestors from the rock trolls had discovered The sub genre of rock which was the alternative rock sub genre. Founding a new discovery— it felt like a "Eureka" moment HAHAHSA and then that founder of the sub genre showed it to the other rock trolls and some reactions were positive ones

Making them also joined in wanting to expand and explore more onto the sub genre, but some really didnt like the idea of adding an extra genre to their list, let alone a new alternative version of their genre. Like the metaphor of not accepting new things in their circle🧍‍♀️and all this all went down and had resulted an argument of the 2 groups and was soon split into a set of different of troll groups (rock trolls and alt rock trolls). With nowhere to go, the known founder of altrock trolls were leading their new members had unfortunately got themselves into a bergen attack, but luckily all of them avoided getting eaten by a bergen as they are running away and hiding from the bergens. Soon enough they have founded their 1st home a.k.a their first shelter and soon to be called their "home" or "utopia". As time flies, their home is mostly can be considered done as finished??? OH AND I FORGOT TO MENTION, the home of the alttrolls were secluded so they were pretty convinced that theyre save from any bergen attacks near in the future.

Mark and Jay lore starts brrr😼

NOW THIS IS WHERE WE GET TO THE PART OF JAY AND MARKS PARENTS BACKGROUND and them too! :3

Havent really dive into the parents love story but maybe ill make a seperate thread for them(?) Hehe

I just imagine either one of the parents are rock trolls and the other is an altrock troll (enemies to lovers plot giggles)

Mark was their 1st born, and jay was the 2nd

Marcus was their 3rd born and Jill was the youngest out of the 4 (suprise!!! Sibling name reveal, designs probably soon giggles) and happy fam!!

But then again, struggles endure them

Mark had set his mindset of being the eldest, everything is his responsebility, his siblings included, but yet he cared deeply for them including both his parents. And grew a passion to create music, and show it to his people.

On the other hand, Jay was a marks helping hand

And probably the one thats been on marks side when he was at his lowest, and that applies to mark being always on jays side. In her younger days, she questioned herself if she can always rely on her brothers help at that time before marcus and jill was born, mark. She was abit different compare to the jay we know currently, the difference was back then she used to be timid and rather quiet– as she also cant seem to keep up with the other kids in her age, but to jay that wasnt much of her problem anyway because mark has her back. Knowing how 2 siblings go, they bicker, fight at some occasions but still they have eachothers back. Jay also grew an interest in music ever since she had saw a travelling musician that visited her home and asked mark whether she can start learning from him.

As time went by, and jill was still born as an egg

An unfortunate fate has fallen among them, a bergen attack landed on their home (dun dun dun) and resulted permanent fatal damage to the alttrolls utopia. Some ran away to safety, but for some.. got eaten by the bergens

Unfortunately, Jay and Marks parents were victims of the bergen attack. Morelikely to be the ones who lead the other trolls to escape and the one who sacrificed themselves as a way of distraction so the remaining trolls can hopefully be saved. A traumatic part of jays and marks childhood is that their mother had put her trust to both of her proudest eldest siblings to take care of their siblings when theyre gone.

They ran away as the buildings fall apart, watching from afar that their parents figure was slowly fading away from their sight.

"It was a faint memory, but never to be forgotten among the three of us." recalls Mark

As Mark, Jay, Marcus and still in egg jill catch up with the other trolls. For them,it felt like they were going no where. They felt the 4 of them were completely lost without any guardian by their side as they are presumed to be deceased.

Lacked of resources, and the constant pressure for mark as he worries for his siblings survival runs through him at that desperate time. Jay isnt any different from her brother, shes as paranoid as her brother, as she felt like she was drowning from her own breath. Poor marcus had no clue whats going on either while the 2 eldest was in a spiral. Fortunately, luck for them began flowing again as them and the other trolls who survived from the bergen attack found their 2nd home, which is known to be the home that currently mark and the other lives in.

Life for the siblings starts to settle again, as Mark regains his stance and began to start building his passion in music while also can be a piller for mark to gather enough resources for his siblings. On the other hand, Jay was right behind him. Both had recruited a band and started to do mini street shows when they can, and getting alot more recognation as time goes by, and now– Marks band is popularly known in the neighborhood. Especially Mark, now growing a sense of charm and excellent leadership towards his bandmates and others.

Jay on the other hand admitted on how far the progresses has gone for Herself and her siblings, Mark has gotten to prove himself capable to be a pillar and support for their lives aswell as being a guardian for them, Marcus also has gotten abit stable after the incident and Jill hatched out from her egg without her seeing the chaos that had happened back then. Jay thought to herself... what can she rely on herself? She really never thought this question for herself, as she started to feel like shes wandering aimlessly with questioning further with her identity of the responsebilities being the eldest while also what do others think of her presence, what is she to them? She asks herself (falling into impostor syndrome in this stage)

This accured as she starts to notice how she barely becomes anyones attention when shes onstage, meanwhile her other bandmates have received all the cheers from the crowd. Especially Mark, she cant help but recall how the crowd cheered loudly for him as he gave his best. She hates herself for it as she slowly realizes this, hated the fact how she also craved for that attention, and hated the fact she thought herself as her brothers shadow on stage. That led to her being silent about her internal conflicts, but Mark notices this slowly while showing more concern to Jay as her behaviors began to change. She became more quiet than usual. He had enough of seeing jays condition and finally confronts her about it. Jay, letting all her thoughts come out, felt like a weight was lifted from jays shoulders, as she finally have the courage to open up to someone. Mark letting her know that she shouldnt think of changing herself to what people wished her to be, or even doubting your own skills with it. Jay also let Mark know that she lost her joy performing on stage ever since she starts to let her thoughts wonder.. what is it like to be in the outside world?

Back in her younger days, mentioned that she was quite timid and shy at first glance but, she has her dads trait of being quite adventerous, her curiosity is beyond the border if its about her interests of exploring the outside world.

But then again, Jay is basically the 2nd eldest and probably considered to be as 2nd guardian for her other siblings. It was a hard choice for her but Mark shook that off and encoureged her to go with what she had desired in order to find herself there. Mark was a little hesitated at letting go Jay to the outside world but regardless, he can garuntee that the resources that jay and mark have made were enough for their livings in their home, so either way if Jay decided to travel on her own itll be okay, since Mark will be taking care of Marcus and Jill while also having enough funds for resources.

Resolevement, and the start of jays adventure!!

Finally set their decisions, Jay hugged his brothers and sisters and went off to see the whole world for herself aswell as finding joy while she does it.

Leaving behind her Impostor syndrome and becoming herself again, and learning from her past

She can admit that she's pretty independent with herself in terms of reaching her goal (which is exploring and experiencing different types of troll genres and learning from it) and also her choices that she makes along her way.

Though deep down, all the efforts she made till this point on, wouldnt be achieved if there wasnt the support of Mark and her Siblings. She promises to herself that when the time comes as she finally finishes her quest on travelling the whole nation, she can go home while her sibling awaits for her.

Though in her early days of travelling, it was a rough start for her as she stumbled upon problems of her own she she set a few injuries on herself. Soon enough, she really couldnt give two Fs about the pain and go straight to finding a solution to stop the injury to further worsen HABASBSB a few problems such as her vehicle that she comes travel with frequently looses alot of engine oil along the way, sometime making her push her vehicle to the nearest refill station for her vehicle to work again (she orders 1-2 galons of engine oil incase she runs out again in the middle of nowhere 💀)

Her character resolved as she starts travelling, to the jay we know today

She described as having a carefree and chill personality, and gets along with others pretty easily! though she likes to put a little of sarcasm from time to time lol (in certain situations, claims jay). She can be REALLY jokingly sarcastic when Marks around aswell, funnily enough he gets the joke and Mark often puts on his game of also putting sarcasm to his remarks (which doesnt end well, it would become a whole roasting session for them)

Okay thats all i have for now its currently 1am but COUGH im not sleepy yet so too bad🤷‍♀️ happy reading folks

[sincerely-krp]

i have no one else that wont be biased, thats why i'm writing here. i recently joined an au rp and was so excited to plot. theres this one writer that i reached out to bcos they reacted to my plot call. but when we started plotting it was too obvious they didnt read my muse's bio at all and when I genuinely tried to come up with ideas we just kept hitting a wall. is it wrong to just want to stop replying to our thread? (yes i still came up with an idea so we can write t.t) i hate confrontation / oh my god. i had the same experience. which au rp? because if it’s the one i’m at…. i NEED to talk to someone about this. // Not the anon that sent this but I'm also in the situation right now. Some of the writers here are dry af. It's either nightworld or nocturne.

・❥・

[ofcecilia]

@gallagherstart​ OPEN TO:  anyone who makes sense to visit cecilia, please & thank you !

        “ WHAT ARE YOU DOING DOWN HERE ? ”   the presence of the other caledonia agents feels far too close sharing the same cell as her, but cecilia steps closer towards the edge of it, arms folding over her chest.   “ you shouldn’t be here. ”

[mingis-lightbulb]

Perfect For Me

Kim Hongjoong x POC!Reader.

Plot: You knew when you started dating Hongjoong that it wasn’t going to be smooth sailing. But a new wave of hate has you feeling like you don’t deserve him. Joong finds out and makes sure to prove that you are perfect for him.

Warnings/Tags: Angst, hate comments, mentions of self harm, self deprecation, Hongjoong being a supportive boyfriend.

NSFW: Soft dom! Hongjoong, unprotected sex(wrap it before you tap it), mirror sex, oral sex (female recieving), body worship, praise kink, slight dirty talk, aftercare.

Words: 2.8k words

A/N: This may be a little self-indulgent, as a black girl myself, I hate how much hate we get. Especially on tiktok and twitter (anime/kpop). So I wanted to write this to bring comfort to myself and others who may feel this way.

Taglist: @mingissoggywaffles @damissub @yungisstar1117 @beomnoi @justforyookihyun @wooyoungsbae @blessednhighlyfavoured @do-you-actually-care @winterciella @soft-teddybear

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Dating Hongjoong had to be the best thing that happened to you. He’s a caring, loving and doting boyfriend. Finding time between his busy schedule just to make time for you, always making sure you felt love. His group members welcomed you with open arms. You had a family here that cared about you and didn’t judge you for the path you chose in life.

But sadly, dating and being friends with idols comes with its fair share of cons. Jealous stans that wanted to be in your spot. No matter how many times you tried to explain that they were just normal people, not gods who needed to be worshipped. It annoyed and saddened you, they hated you because you cared about Hongjoong, and they couldn’t accept that fact. It got so bad that you had to turn off comments and private your twitter from the hurtful remarks that people left.

-Teez4life: They shouldnt be friend with some like her.

-Tiniminionlover: eww...thats who she is? #saveourcaptain

-Ateezyzzz: She’s not even cute! SHe’s just ugly asf

You could feel yourself cringe at the thought of them. You’re been keeping it a secret from Joong since he was so busy and with the comeback here, you allowed yourself to fall into a deep pit, one that you didnt know how to get out of. What made it so bad is that the comments were getting worse as the guys looked very nice in this comeback (deja vu had you on your KNEES, you made a mental note to ‘talk’ to joongie later). You sigh and walks into the common area, tossing your phone onto the couch hearing a soft “ow” come from the couch. You walk up and gave a sheepish grin. “O-oops sorry hwa, forgot you were napping there.” Seonghwa sat up from his resting spot, you phone in his hand.

Seonghwa was the member you were the closest with, not that you weren’t close to the others. Hwa was always around when you hung out with Hongjoong, Hwa became your best friend quickly, always doing his best to give you advice. He was there to help you when you were down, and help you through mini arguments you had with Joong. He was all around great friend and you wouldn’t know what you would do without him.

“You’re fine (n/n), had a rough day?” He asked. You rolled your eyes and gave him a look that basically said ‘Hell yes.” Seonghwa nods and gives you a reassuring smile. “Well go and get some rest. Joong is in the studio So the room is yours.” You nod and head off to the room, leaving your phone with Seonghwa. He knew your password and you trusted him with your phone fully. So Hwa did what he normally did, scroll through twitter. He saw some meme, some pictures you had posted of Hongjoong and the others, and some adorable animals. He was about to exit out of the app when you got a notification that took him to a thread that made his blood boil.

Hongjoong is Bae

@hongjoongs1bias

-10 reasons why this Bitch should leave out leader alone.

The thread had multiple pictures of you. Many with vulgar words written underneath them trying to say that you weren’t good enough for Hongjoong. They went from judging your hairstyles, that ranged from long beautiful braids (that Joong loved to play in and style) to adorable afro puffs that allowed you to place pins and clips to stylize it. Some even making fun of your accent and the way you spoke, both english and korean. The final straws that broke the camels back were the comments about your skin color and previous scars.

-“Maybe if she commits we’ll get a bomb ass album”

-”Joongie wouldn’t even care lol, she’s wasting her time.”

-”Why did he even choose someone as dark and ugly like her, she looks like an animal.”

-” Great she’s suicidal and she’s a darkie ugly asss bitcdh, talk about a two for one deal.”

Seonghwa felt his heart drop, before you had met them all, you had explained that you had an uphill battle with depression, self harm and many other things. It took you a while for you to open up to them about it. So just to see someone blatantly disrespecting you like this would not fly. And for these people to even dare call themselves ating? It made Seonghwa see red, and he knew Hongjoong would be beyond upset.

He pulled out his phone and quickly dialed Hongjoong. He waited for a bit until he answered. “Hello? What’s up Hwa?” Hongjoong asked, he sounded pretty cheerful and Seonghwa took a deep breath before speaking. “I’m going to send you something, and I think (y/n) may need you.” Seonghwa said quickly, placing your phone down. It went silent for a bit before he could hear his friend getting ready and leaving the studio.

“I’m on my way.”

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You laid in Hongjoong’s bed, tears falling from your eyes. It was just too much to deal with. You knew Hongjoong loved you but there was always this lingering thought that, maybe they were right. Maybe he was just waiting for the right moment to dump you. You were darker than most people with you skin complexion, and your eyes were a deep chocolate brown as well. Your hair was dark and coily, you looked different than all the girls you worked along side. You were plumper than the rest, hell you stood out like a sore thumb whenever you went out with the boys. But that didn’t mean you did not deserve love just like anyone else in the world.

“Why..Why me?..” You cry to no one, gripping a pillow and crying loudly into it. Hongjoong always went out of his ways to show his love for you, but recently you felt like you were a burden to him. You felt like you were holding him back and you did not want to be the reason for some Atiny leaving the fandom. You knew how much he and the boys cared about their fans so you didn’t want to come in between that.

You were crying so much and in your head that you didn’t hear Hongjoong come in. He held a bag full of your favorite snacks and drinks, ready to make you feel better, but his heart broke when he saw you crying. He dropped the bags and rushed over placing a hand on your back, scaring you and quickly making you turn over trying to wipe away your tears. Your face was tear stained, eyes bloodshot and red, you give a have heart smile “H-hey Joongie..I didn’t hear you come in..” Hongjoong pulls you into a tight hug pulling you into his arms as if you were going to disappear if he let go.

“Baby...my baby, why didn’t you tell me?” He asked, his voice sounding pained. You lay your head against his chest, listening to Hongjoong struggle to hold back his tears. He pressed you closer into his chest, allowing his tears to finally fall down his cheeks. “I’m here to protect you, to hold you, to be by your side...and I can’t even do that” He chokes out,tiny sobs leaving his body. You wrap you arms around him tighter, trying to calm him down. The both of you sat there on his bed, holding each other, not wanting to let go. Hongjoong leaned back, wiping his eyes with his hoodie sleeve, seriousness painted across his face. “Seonghwa showed me those..osts..” he started and your heart dropped. You didn’t want him to get involved. Not with this, You could handle this.

You quickly tried to scramble together something.

���I-i thought i could handle it Joong,..”

“Baby! We are in this together! I want to know if something, or someone or anything is hurting you!”

He yelled, his hands moving up to cup your cheeks. You could feel more tears start to well up in your eyes, spilling down your cheeks. Hongjoong wipes your tears, sighing before leaning forward to place a soft kiss upon your lips. “Baby, from now on, please tell me if someone is bothering you. I don’t want you to feel alone.” He mumbles. “Nor do I want you to get yourself back to where you were before you met me.” he says, running his hand along your thigh, caressing it gently. “I’m here for you. You’re my starlight, my life.” He says, a slight blush coming across his cheek. “Someone..I could see myself marrying.” he finished before placing another kiss on your lips, this time more passionate and deep, guiding you back onto the bed.

Hongjoong moved down to your neck, placing butterfly kisses down it, you let out a soft giggle “That tickles Joong..” You say, going to move your hands around his neck, only to have him pin them down, interlacing his fingers with yours.

“Hongjoong! What are you doing!” You squeak out, as Hongjoong moves back up to lean his forehead against yours. “I’m going to make sure you feel loved, I'm going to let you know how much I love you, each and every part of you.” He mumbles. He then moves his hands to fiddle with the bottom of your shirt before looking at you. You give him a small nod allowing him to slowly pull your shirt over your head.

Hongjoong sighed lovingly as he places kisses along your arms, moving up until he reaches your chest agains. He mumbles compliments against your skin until he moved down to take one of your buds into his mouth. He rolls his tongue across it, nibbling on it gently, his eyes flickering up to meet yours. You were letting out soft moans, your face slowly heating up. Hongjoong’s eyes held so many emotions in one, lust, love,want, desire, all wrapped in one just for you. Hongjoong moved from one nipple to the other, making a soft groan as he took it into his mouth, kneading the other bud between his fingers.

“H-hongjoong…” You whimper out, watching as Joong slowly pulled himself away from your breasts with a soft pop. “Hmm? Yes baby?” He hums, laying his head on your chest, waiting for your words. “I-i need you..” You say softly, Making Hongjoong chuckle a bit, moving once again to kiss your plump lips. “Needy aren’t you baby?~” He teased, leaning back to pull down your shorts and panties, laughing a bit at your embarrassed face. “It’s okay (y/n), I’m here, all for you tonight..” He cooed as he slowly spread your legs, getting down on his knees. He pulls you to the end of the bed gently, his face right in front of your wet core.

Hongjoong kissed your inner thighs, trailing down until he reached your region. He did a teasing lick, watching as your body reacted. He smirks before diving in, his tongue exploring your needy cunt. “O-oh fuck joong~” You moaned out, slowly rolling your hips against his mouth. Hongjoong hums in response, raising his thumb to rub your clit teasingly. You gasp, your hands flying to his hair, gripping it tightly as you held his face against your sex. Hongjoong moaned into your cunt, as he moved to sucking and licking your clit earning a sharp cry from you.

“Hongjoong! Baby i-i’m gonna cum!” You whined out. Hongjoong’s eyes looked up at you. They were glossed over with lust and that was enough to send you over the edge, crying out as your orgasm rocks you. Hongjoong his assualt on your sex until he finally oulled away. His face was covered in your slick, he licked his lips with a playful smirk on his face. “You alright baby?” He asked and you nodded quickly. “Joong..please, I really do need you..” You whine out watching as Hongjoong moves to stand up, fumbling with his sweatpants. He dropped them along with his boxes and his hoodie was tossed to the side.

He quickly climbed on top of you, capturing your lips into a deep passionate kiss, soft grunts leaving his body. “God I love you (y/n)..I love you so damned much. He mumbles as he lifts your legs up, aligning himself at your core. “Are you ready?” He asked, earning a slow nod from you. “Mhm..I’m ready Joong..” He chuckles softly before slowly pushing himself into you. Both of you let out soft moans as Hongjoong leaned down to kiss your lips again. Your lips moved in sync as Hongjoong slowly began rolling hips hips. He groans against your lips before moving his head to the crook of your neck “I love everything about you (Y/n).” He starts, placing soft kisses against your neck. “I don’t want anything or anybody but you” He muttered. You moan softly, wrapping your arms around his neck.

His words hit your heart, they were filled with so much love and care, you forgot about all the hate you got and focused on your lover. Hongjoong’s thrust began to pick up, earning louder moans from you. He took his time to make you feel good, so you don’t worry about anything. “I-i love you too,” You managed to get out, moaning at Hongjoong’s harder pace, his grip on your body tightened as if he were to let you go you would be gone for good. “I’m going to marry you. I don’t care what anyone has to say, I don’t want to lose you.” He groans out. Hitting a certain spot that had you seeing stars. “Joong, No what-” “No, I want you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you.” He says placing his forehead against yours.

Hongjoong’s thrusts sped up as he was drinking in your moans and looks. Your mind couldn't even think straight with how good it felt, it was hard to keep focused on Hongjoong, his eyes were filled with so much emotion, soft grunts and groans leaving his lips. “H-hongjoong..I’m getting close!” “M-me too babygirl, me too. Just let it go” He says leaning down to captur your lips again, drinking up all your moans and sweet noises. “God I want to put a baby in you, make you mine, all swollen with my baby.” He moans into your lips. You gasp at his words allowing joong to slip his tongue in your mouth. Your tongues end up fighting for dominance that Hongjoong easily won. His hips moved faster, snapping into your, hitting the right spot that made you cry out as that familiar knot snaps in you. Babbles continue to fall from your lips as Hongjoong sits up gripping your hips and continued pounding into you. “Please let me fill you up baby please, I don’t think i’ll be able to-”

You cut Hongjoong off with a moan of his name. “G-go ahead, fill me up Joongie..” Hongjoong lets out a deep groan as his hips suddenly still, shooting ropes of cum deep into your cunt. You whine at the overstimulation as Hongjoong shushes you, rubbing your cheek. He slowly pulls out of you, groaning at the sight of his cum seeping out of you. He moves to cuddle up beside you, running his hand down your body.

“That..was amazing” You say softly snuggling into Hongjoong. He hums in response, placing a kiss on your cheek. “I hope you know what I meant what I said” He mumbles “I love you, and I want to build a life a life with you. You mean the world to me.” He says softly grabbing your hand and lacing his hand with yours. You blush and look down at your stomach. “Even the baby? If I have one..” Hongjoong chuckles softly. “Oh especially the baby, I would love a baby to come and visit me on tour, and do cute family stuff together with our child.” He sighs happily. “I juts love the thought of starting life with you.”

You feel tears welling up in your eyes and running down your face, pulling Hongjoong closer to you. “Thank you...Thank You Joongie..” “Don’t thank me (y/n), I should be thanking you for being in my life.” Hongjoong places a kiss on your lips. “I’m happy with you in my life and I wouldn’t want anything else.”

“Now come on, let’s take a nap. Then we can go out and spend time together.”

“But-” “Ah, ah, Just relax” He says playfully tickling you making you giggle.

“Okay, Okay...I love you~” You say booping his nose.

“I love you too darling, you mean everything to me..”

“I’m glad you two lovebirds are done because I was coming to tell you I made food.” Seonghwa said leaning against the doorframe. Hongjoong chuckles as he watches you cover yourself up “We’ll be there soon hwa.” “Alright. Rest well then you two.”

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💕for whomever you fancy across ANY of my blogs <3

because possible chemistry (?) r.okurou and miss and one and only mya <3

Have we discussed shipping before?: yes [a little bit] || no

My interest level overall: I’ve wanted this for so long || can’t wait || I think it’ll be fun || kinda feeling it || maybe with a lot of plotting || I need to think about it || not interested, sorry

listen. two unhinged people falling in love with the concept of their madness? yes pwease? tbh even if it didnt turn out to be romantic the fact r.okurou can find someone who would go 'killing is ok if necessary u know' is big points for him. he is a daemon and fighting is all what is left for him, he is not into lectures about life value and all that.

How we should do this: jump right in || slow burn || pre-established || build up to it in a thread || anything goes

preferably we plot and have threads to make sure we are on the same page when it comes to certain ideas. it is better since mya is your oc i dont want to 'assume' things or misunderstand anything.

Dynamics I want to try out with our ship: friends to lovers || rivals to lovers || enemies to lovers || mutual pining || battle couple || childhood friends || high school sweethearts || star crossed lovers || long time lovers || old married couple || newlyweds || sickeningly sweet couple || secret lovers || fake dating/marriage || best friends hiding their feelings || arranged marriage || soulmates || other

rivals or enemies or as i suggested one time she could be his master or whatever. honestly, r.okurou works in any setting as long as it makes sense and i can work with it. tbh any of these above even not in bold could work??? if like we brainstorm ideas together!

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Poll time.

Long ago when the world was new and I was but a wee gamer tyke I played psychonauts. I binged the hell out of it. I did like an overnight bender and blew through the majority of the game. I got to the godzilla parody area and like the audio started hecking up. The dialogue didnt match the mouth movements by like. A Lot.

I didn't think anything of it and kept playing because I figured It was part of the Joke, and for all I know it was part of the spoof. The problem is the audio kept getting worse and worse and worse and then I got to a cutscene and one of the characters opened up their mouth to speak and instead of words the sound emitted was like something out of Event Horizon. The tortured wails of the damned broadcast through busted ass speakers. My ps2 started smoking and the disk died a horrible horrible death.

So my ye olde copy of psychonauts ceased to be and I never finished the game. A while back I got ahold of a free copy of psychonauts via steam, but I have yet to actually play it since I had mostly beaten the game. The amount of work I'd have to do to get back there I was is staggering, and I had seen the vast majority of the plot. Most of the loose plot threads were getting wrapped up nicely. All that was left was to dunk on what I assumed to be the big bad of the game.

Well psychonauts 2 is out. I want to play it but I'm wondering if I otter finally finish P1 first.