#yes i'm robot-like and too logical sometimes

[tangyneon]

truth be told... i have got no irl experience, so i did this based on what i think my future (dream) s/o should be like, and how i imagine myself to be in my selfships with my s/o. 😊✨

take this dating personality quiz and rb with your results bc im nosy and always curious !!!!!

(this is mine)

open tags as always <3

[porkcracker]

Can you do a TFA decepticons (separate) falling for a kind and innocent autobot reader that believes they’re good deep down and tries to befriend them

Hello, yes, I'm a sucker for these bastards. For the sake of my sanity and limiting the wait time, I only took the Decepticons on earth (plus Shockwave, bc Shockwave is <3) and not all and every one of them. I do hope you enjoy this, and now let's get to it.

I actually started to answer this ask months ago, but never finished it, I truly hope this can still be enjoyable even being this immensely late.

TFA Decepticons x Autobot!GN!Reader

Soundwave

Soundwave is a very logical and goal orientated bot, it doesn't even really occur to him that he isn't good

After all, his goal in achieving robots and mechanical beings as the rulers not the workers is going to benefit all kind of mechanical life

So he really has no problem with you per se, but with the cause you align yourself

It's really a shame as well, you would be such a good ally

even if you don't end up becoming a Decepticon, as long as you don't hinder his plans too badly he can accept you as someone who will see reason when the time arrives

With your kind attitude, he knows you will get used to it, when the time arrives, and then you can maybe become even more than friends

A thing that he especially loves your sweet and caring behaviour towards his cassettes

He cares deeply for them, so to have you treat them so gently makes his feelings go wild

Blitzwing

Blitzwing is a rather loyal bot, so he doesn't like you insisting he's actually good deep down

Icy simply ignores your insistences and tries to correct you, even if he pulls his punches in a way he would never admit

Hothead on the other hand sees your kind behaviour as a personal insult

Are you saying he's not a real strong warrior, going so soft on him?

Not on his watch, he almost always insists on fighting you when the opportunity comes up

Random thinks your sweet personality is cute and aggravating at the same time

He wants you to keep going and at the same time to stop, he'll egg you on and in the same breath lean into your words giving you a bit of hope of getting through to him

It's a slow fall, but when he realises his three personalities go about winning you over differently

Icy cuts back on the physical fighting and engages you in verbal fights that are far more attempts to show you he can be what you think he could be

Hothead doesn't change too much, he's not one for too soft feelings and attempts to show you that he could protect your sweet nature easily

He does also love to give you words of affection, where Icy prefers gifts

Random loves to spend time with you no matter in what way, as long as you're close and having fun

Though his fun is relative, he does attempt to make it fun for both of you

Lugnut

Your chances of actually winning Lugnut over are very low

He is a warrior and not necessarily the smartest, but he is loyal as all hells come

There is a use in bots that have a talent with words that he can acknowledge

But there is already one bot whose words have pulled him into an orbit

He might develop some kind of crush on you, due to your kind side, but unless you change to the Decepticons he will most likely never act on it

But sometimes he likes to think of you, not as an Autobot, but a Decepticon like him and imagine what it could be like

Those times are very rare, however

Shockwave

Shockwave is at the same level of loyalty as Lugnut and there is very little that could make the Decepticon reconsider his opinion

He thinks it's rather cute how you attempt to convince him that he isn't actually that bad and good deep down

During his time as Longarm Prime, he had seen your kind behaviour directed towards many bots for various reasons

It's a no-brainer that he took advantage of that several times

But still, even as useless as your endeavour is, he can't deny that you're cute

Maybe, just maybe, he should get himself a little souvenir from Cybertron

Surely Megatron wouldn't mind his spy indulging himself with a cute little prisoner

He'll show you how wrong you are with your opinion, but don't worry, he'll give you a very long time to attempt to change his mind

Depending on how forceful you behave, you'll stay with the Decepticons for a very long while, or he'll set you free, because he grows too fond of you

Starscream

He will deny having any good in him vehemently

The moment you start to talk, he'll talk over you and don't you even think of speaking over him

That's actually the first thing he really notices

Sure, he knows you exist, but he only starts paying attention after he notices that you actually let him do his speeches and listen as well

It's surprising

He pays more attention, and he can't help, but be very pleased by the attention you give him, no matter if it is to convince him he's actually good or some bullshit

At first, he only uses you to stroke his own ego

But as time goes by he starts to really care for your validation

He'll search you out in fights and outside of fights

Megatron

Making sure your attention continues to stay on him at all times, no matter what

You don't stand out to him at first, and it is unlikely that he will notice you in a broader setting

But when it comes to a one on one meeting things change

You're so small in comparison to him, most Autobots are, and usually he doesn't care much for it beyond battle advantage

He brushes your words off at first

From his point of view, he is the good guy

But as you keep running into each other, he can't help but note that you seem far more innocent than even your fellow Autobots

You try to see the good in every thing and every one, and you help where you can

It's hard to imagine a bot like you being a product of an Autobot lead Cybertron

He is impressed that you have not yet consumed the propaganda every Autobot seems to believe and hopes that it will stay the case for longer

Once he notices that he is growing fond of you, he reverses your situations

Where you have tried to appeal to him before and bring out his good side, he now attempts to appeal to you and win you over to the Decepticons

You could be great together

[schizosupport]

Hello! I have a weird relationship to psychosis and I'm not sure if you might have any insight. I think I've had psychotic experiences my whole life, but the experiences I've had don't seem to fit into any named framework I can find (schizospec, etc.). I call it spicy anxiety, because on top of my existing anxiety I also am very prone to fairly brief (hours to days) bizarre delusions with insight. As a kid that would mean reading a fantasy book and being convinced that I had whatever magic powers I read about. As an adult it's more like... What if the car behind me in traffic is a robot-dragon trying to eat me?!?! And I can tell this is Not A Thing, logically, but I also can't stop panicking about it. I tend to be pretty paranoid in general, even when I'm not actively psychotic. Sometimes it's sorta fun, just like Imagination+, now with maybe more suspension of disbelief than is good for me! I have no negative symptoms, only some cognitive symptoms and those are better explained by my AuDHD than anything, I think. I don't think I'm schizospec; my delusions are too brief even for something like Brief Psychotic Disorder, and I think too bizarre for something like Delusional Disorder. I don't care that much about diagnosis, nor am I seeking a diagnosis, but I do want... I guess reassurance that other people experience this in similar ways? And language to describe what I experience? I also know that I have a family history of this type of mental illness (completely untreated) that seems to get worse with age, and if my symptoms ever become debilitating enough that I do need help...I deeply deeply distrust the carceral nature of the psychiatric institution, and I want to have knowledge of my own going in. To be clear: I am not asking you to diagnose me. I am asking if you (or your followers) have ever heard of experiences like this. Thanks for your time, either way!

Hi there! Yes, boy, I sure have!

So the "spicy anxiety" is something that I relate to a lot. I call it "psychosis flavored anxiety", personally. For me it's obviously not my only symptom, but it's something that is a fundamental part of me and also my own way of being schizo spec.

I used to think of this as just anxiety. I remember my gf's face when I first got into specific about the types of things I'm anxious about. They got kinda quiet and was like "honey are you sure that's anxiety" 😂 .... And it IS a type of anxiety, right, because it's a what-if scenario that scares you, rather than something you're convinced of, like a delusion. But it's definitely psychosis-flavored.

More clinical terms could be paranoid ideation, magical thinking and quasipsychosis, depending on your mileage.

I'm also someone who, aside from direct symptoms of schizophrenia, also just has an overactive imagination. Imagination+ is one way to describe it! My brain will come up with all kinds of bizarre and paranoid thoughts all the time. And depending on how well I'm doing I can dismiss it, I can be anxious about, or I can have a breakdown and feel temporarily convinced of it. There's often a grey area where I do act to protect myself from perceived threat, but I also acknowledge that it's an unlikely threat. But "just in case"..

Tendency towards psychosis or adjacent experiences does run in families, so having family members with psychosis means you are more likely to be having this type of experience - and it doesn't have to mean, that you're going to go on to develop fullblown psychosis.

I hope this was helpful!

[snakes-kin]

Okay. This might be a bit confusing, but oh well. I'm just writing this for documentation purposes (because I know I'll forget given time).

I've had these two co-workers ("headmates") who I would say function a bit differently from my soulbonds. And who I may have been confusing with my soulbonds?

The first one, and the one I was most obviously aware of, was the Conductor. (Important thing to remember is that my "headspace" is literally just. A train. As well as a train station. But everything else is "temporary" or can be changed or moved at any moment.) She acts just like how her title would suggest: she's a robot, and she conducts the train. At first, I thought maybe she was something like an NPC. It'd make logically sense, right? Because trains need people to drive them. And she wasn't exactly full of personality; she never talked to anyone.

The part where it got confusing for me, though, was that... I conduct the train most of the time. She only appears to drive the train when I (in the real world) start to retreat inside myself, in some way. The biggest example being my maladaptive daydreams; but also when I just try to explore the headspace more.

So this lead me to categorize her as like... The mental/headspace embodiment of my dissociation. She never really takes over my body, like how "traditional" alters sometimes can do during dissociation, but she is probably the entity that is most similar to an alter than anyone else.

The second co-worker, who for now has been nicknamed "John" (don't ask, we just thought it was funny) has only shown itself relatively recently. Specifically when I was having a bad pain flare-up in my legs. It looks like this... Weird fleshy blob creature. Very "The Thing"-esque.

Anyways, it is... Loud. It yells and screams when I'm hungry or hurting, or even when I just don't feel very good. (Which when you're already fighting off a killer migraine, obviously isn't too fun.) Like the Conductor it doesn't seem to have much personality outside of that, but it does interact with us... If yelling could constitute interaction.

So, this creature I've started thinking of as being the embodiment of bodily wants and needs and anything like that. Yes, that's a long title, but I don't really know how to shorten it.

This new emerging "pattern" has also made me think about D'endrrah a bit differently. She's still obviously a daemon (and she will probably never be or become anything else), but in a similar sort of way, she's also an embodiment of something for me. Specifically stories.

And this gets to the "I may have been confusing them for soulbonds" thing. Previously I've said labels like multiself and polymind might fit me, but I was also thinking solely in reference to my soulbonds. For my soulbonds, these don't fit, because they're not "me". Even if they've come from my stories, they've separated off from that so much, to the point where they are more like their own people. But these "embodiments"? They are still definitely me, or at least a part of me. Which I... Cannot say for my soulbonds.

Anyways. That's my update from the train. I hope this made some sense, at least!

[chrlotpony]

I did it. The ultimate "why sunil is INFP and not ISFJ" summary

I've looked so far into this character for almost a year, I watched all episodes in which he has a big role or the main focus multiple times, and honestly, I fear that a lot of things he does doesn't align well with ISFJ. I do see ISFJ in him, there's just a lot more going on with his character that, ehhh, I don't think I'd personally vote him as ISFJ.

I decided to rewrite my reasons in a way more understandable

The whole time in "Super Sunil," Sunil tried to get away from Pennyling as she would keep talking to him. We see him in his moments of low self-esteem that he just mopes around. After his experience as Cobra Cabra, he did not care if he gotten the confidence or that he didn't have powers, all his efforts were faked, he didn't help at all, and he retrieved back to feeling like a boulder over a path (sometimes he is ngl). "i am not okay. i am... ashamed" "You don't need me. I'll only get scared, run away, and ruin everything." Often he doesn't accept or finds it hard to accept help from others, he doesn't rely on others for help nor does it matter much to him (actually, he just gets dragged into stuff). This is seen in "Gail-break." Like I mentioned, he'd rather wrap himself in a ball or mope around, wallowing in his self doubt. And hey, Sunil has a moral value for respect and self-respect. But he is also very attuned to those values part take with him too. In S1 Ep13 when he felt the need to pretend being Shahrukh, he wanted to prove a point, while also trying to find people to respect and give attention to his talents. I also wanna mention "Sunil's sick day," Sunil felt he was too busy to give Vinnie his attention and only putting small efforts. The whole time while Sunil was bottling up his feelings (which he was doing the whole episode), it ended up topping over and his anger towards Vinnie not leaving him alone fell off any logical sense which was Vinnie breaking his wand despite Sunil knowing it was a trick wand. Out of frustration, he avoided Vinnie completely and refused to open up almost the whole time. And I used to think Sunil was just an a-hole, lmao.These traits and scenes make sense for Sunil to be Fi dom and Te inf. Not Si dom, or Ne inf which I'll get into why now.

How Sunil verbalizes his feelings isn't concrete but, yes, a little abstract. "I feel like I'm the mongoose at the bottom. I feel like I'm getting squished" "Just like how I'm stuck in this puny body, trapped by my fears." In general, Sunil sometimes talks in poetic connotations, phrases, sayings, he even mentions them during certain situations. This is like a stereotypical poetic INFP thing he has going on. And he has written a poem, specifically about Pepper's broken squirting flower, which only PennyLing and him seemed to care about. Like, a whole poem over broken plastic, really? Not to mention "the sadness of flowers obviously," oh brother. Anyway. Sunil is not always afraid of the outside world. Most of the time, he is more than happy to seek out and have fun. He wants to do what he feels like doing and not do what feels restrictive. He doesn't want to be someone to take care of others. Part of the reason is that he's scared of being a problem or a burden, another is that he feels it's too much responsibility. He has his head in the clouds, constantly making up things that aren't possible like aliens feeding you vegetables, mice robots torturing you, a crocodile in the sewers. He also seeks pleasure and thrill in what scares him (masochist basically) "Yes, very scary! And yet oddly tantalizing..." In "it's a happyx4 world," Sunil felt the need to adventure out into the city to find "the biggest smile" in order to feel happiness, he was wondrous over the meaning. These are all so Fi Ne. I'm honestly surprised, his Ne is clearly not inferior.

Also with Si and Te, Sunil worries yes, but it often revolves within himself. And this goes along with the whole "inferior function shows up when stressed" theory which true or not, it makes sense in Sunil's case. In "fish out of water," Sunil is reminding the group that while they were having a musical number, they could've looked towards the objective which is finding Goldie, the fish lost in the sewers.

Also, smaller things like Sunil being awfully knowledgeable on random things like having a filled vocabulary and knowing a lot of blue colors/shades is reminiscent to INFP behavior to me. As INFPs tend to get very deep into certain topics and subjects, it feels like Sunil made time to just focus on the shades of blue.

- Posted under Sunil Nevla's Pdb profile

[monstersfuckingeachother]

Kinktober 2024, Day 27: Overstimulation / Dry Humping / Android/Cyborg

Characters: Kurono Hari (he/him, human), Chisaki Kai (he/him, temporarily android)

Other kinks/tropes/warnings: heavily implied autistic Chisaki, bondage-ish?? Chisaki is unable to move

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This Quirk is...annoying, but, Kai reflects, it could have been much worse.

True Self, they'd called it. A Quirk that changed someone's body to most accurately reflect their internal self-concept. The real question here is why it turned Kai into a robot, of all things--yes, maybe he doesn't feel entirely human sometimes, and yes, maybe sometimes he longs for the efficiency and logic of the machine, and yes, sometimes--actually a lot of the time--he seems to have significantly less emotion than everyone else around him, and yes, he's been called a 'machine' before, and liked it even...

...okay. Maybe it's not so strange that Kai's "true self" is an android.

But the simple fact that Kai is an android now isn't the only issue with this whole situation. People treat him differently now, even worse than they did when he looked human--they overlook and ignore him, or they stare at him like he's some strange circus attraction, and none of them seem to realize he actually has a functioning mind. His new form required maintenance, and unlike with hunger or fatigue in his human body, if he tried to push through anyways this android body would outright shut down to "prevent mechanical failures". Ridiculous.

And probably the biggest issue is the one facing him right now. That book in Hari's hand--a user's manual--and Hari's other hand brushing against some sensor deep inside his torso, making his mind spin with strange images.

He's a fucking robot. A droid! Like in those pre-Quirk space opera movies! He shouldn't be able to feel sexual arousal!

"Your face is glowing pink," Hari tells him gleefully.

Ah yes, his face, which was now an LED screen that used various colors and symbols to express his emotions rather than facial expressions (which, privately, Kai thought was a much better approach than the whole minute-changes-in-mouth-position system that everyone else seemed to use). Unfortunately, his new face showed his emotions a lot more clearly--and a lot less controllably--than his human face, which meant that anyone could see his fear if they knew how to read it. Which was surprisingly few people. But still.

Back to the issue at hand.

He attempts to shift his body to get Hari's hand away from that damn sensor, but Hari's already disabled his motor functions. "Your K.A.I. unit should undergo an emotional recalibration at least once a day, especially if trauma-related viruses persist in its emotional processing. The best way to do this is through having a trusted person stimulate the sexual sensors around its pelvis until it reaches climax, which will trigger a soft shutdown until the emotional recalibration is complete," he reads out, and wiggles his eyebrows at Kai. "You know what that means, right?"

"I'm going to kill you once I get my motor function back."

Hari begins to press down on the sensors and the glow of Kai's face gets brighter and pinker. "Sure you will." He begins to flip through the manual again, without taking his hand out of the inside of Kai's pelvic region. "Do you think there's a way to see, like, progress? I wanna know if I can get stats on how I'm edging you."

"Fuck you," Kai groans, even as a progress bar pops up--unbidden--on his facial display.

Hari leans over to look at it all too eagerly. "Thirty-five percent, huh? Not even close to where we need to be."

He begins to knead his fingers into the soft padding covering the pressure sensors and puts down the user's manual to brush the touch sensors with his other hand, erasing every single thought in Kai's head with the feeling of heat in his pelvis and the phantom sensation of his body jerking in response.

"Eighty percent already," Hari purrs. "That's more like it."

"Just get on with it." Kai's voice, despite being machine-generated, comes out as a needy whine. "We both have--things to do--" Even if it's difficult to remember those things in this state.

"Yeah, yeah," Hari murmurs. "Just relax and let me take care of you, okay?"

"Hari," he moans. Hari renews his care of Kai's pelvic sensors. Eighty percent becomes ninety percent, ninety becomes ninety five, ninety five becomes ninety eight, ninety eight becomes--

Bliss.

[virtualgirladvance]

not to preach or anything because i genuinely believe it should be your choice and that you should have the option and would never judge you for taking that option...but i also feel the need as someone who was majorly depressed and suicidal for 14 years of my life and then pretty much only learned to become a person for the next 5 and have since spent my 20s trying and failing to experience things that every teenager does...i still have hope.

hope that things will get better. i try not to think about things that probably aren't too likely, like living forever or getting a robot body, but i have hope for those things too, shockingly. and it's because when i was at my worst, i was lucky enough to have someone who reached out and made my life a little bit better, who gave me hope, and a reason to keep living.

They probably didn't think about it like that, but that's how it was for me. And now...well, things have been bad. Years and years have gone by and I've been in incredibly frustrating situations over and over again. But I look back and think about how I'm not in that position again. I haven't lost hope that much. There are times, definitely, where I get close to it. I've lost a lot of people in my life, both to death, suicide, and other things. I've missed out on a lot of opportunities and burned myself out. I honestly am not sure if I'll ever truly recover from that.

It's like that was a different person, someone who wasn't perfect but had their life together to a degree that is now impossible for me. A person who could go out and play hockey, go to the bar, socialize, work overtime, and make plenty of money to support themselves.

I guess that's what disability does to people, though it seems not many understand that.

But at the same time, the one thing that hasn't changed is that I still have, and will always have, hope. I never would have thought I'd be here at my mothers place after not talking to her for 15 years. I never would have thought that at one point I'd have 5 girlfriends who I loved and loved me. I never would have thought that even after all the things that have happened to me, all the things i've gone through, that I could still smile and laugh and enjoy talking with someone or being in the moment. And yet...it's not like we have a choice. You laugh when something is funny. You feel sad when something sad happens. Sometimes the bad overpowers the good, but sometimes even when it's bad, things can be good. And I think that's important to realize...that first of all it's okay and doesn't make you any less when you're suffering, you shouldn't feel guilty about it, but that more importantly...you have to take the good with the bad. You have to allow yourself to have those moments and be happy.

Because...life is made up of good and bad moments. Life is made up of feeling sad and feeling happy. Humanity's greatest asset is, imo, our ability to hope. To dream. To live and adapt, yes, but more than that, our durability and strength when life sucks.

Because the funny thing is, thinking of it logically? The chances of things not getting better are so miniscule and small that it's barely worth thinking about. There are so, so many branches and paths and situations that can lead to fixing the problems you have, and ultimately only one problem is permanent- death. If the average lifespan is 70-90 years old, that just leaves so many years in the future...so many days and hours and minutes that are so large that our brains can't even comprehend how large it is. We don't even remember everything we've done in the last week or month, let alone the last year- let alone the last 10, 20, even 30 years. Nobody has any idea what's going to happen in the next month, let alone the next year, let alone the next 40, 50, 60 years. So many things can change. So many things will change. 50 years ago transgender rights were just being fought for. 60 years ago black people were still being segregated. 70 years ago the Moon was still a completely unexplored and untouched place. And you can see that on a smaller level in your own life. Especially because the younger you are, the less experience you have and the less reference you have to things in your past. It was 16 years ago that I moved in with my dad. It was 21 years ago that I played Pokemon for the first time. It was 10 years ago that I came out as trans. It was 12 years ago that I started using Tumblr for the first time.

So many things have happened in between those things. So many other things. Good and bad. I don't know that things will ever be only good, but I do know that the only way to find out is to be around, and the only thing that brings your chances of that to zero is not being around. A lot of things aren't good for me right now...but that doesn't mean they won't ever be. And I know that the more I live the more I understand myself and what I want and am able to look back on all the things I've done to make myself better. And I think as long as you can say that you're trying, that's enough. There's just no way to not make progress, inaction can still provide progress, even going backwards can.

So I hope you can be kind to yourself, I hope that you can see not only the bad but also the good, and that you can learn how to use humanity's greatest asset and keep doing your best, I believe in you, I love you, and I treasure your presence here.

(and I'm sorry for being autistic and rambly in your inbox :P)

🫶

[lxchadora]

3. Favorite motivational quote. 6. Favorite animal. 7. Favorite song. 8. Last movie you watched? 14. What are 3 things you want to do before the month ends? 15. When was the last time you read a good book? 17. Do you have any nicknames? 21. If there was a movie based on your life, what would it be called? 32. List 5 things that are on your wish list. 45. Spicy food: Like or dislike? 46. Scary movies: Like or dislike? 47. Do you like to travel? 58. Are you good at lying? 70. What song is stuck in your head? 74. What is the most money you have ever held in your hand? 86. What was the last picture you took with your phone? 89. If you had one word to describe yourself, what would it be? 90. Describe your life in 5 words. 94. Are you more creative or logical? 100. What is the best news you could hear right now?

3. Favorite motivational quote.

I don't have the exact original quote available right now, but it's from a Tumblr post. It was a post like 'It will take me 5 years to get this done and by then I'm like 32' and I loved the reply to that, it was akin to 'The time will pass anyway'.

6. Favorite animal.

Wolves.

7. Favorite song.

Currently I love Lana Del Rey's Chemtrails Over The Country Club.

8. Last movie you watched?

The Luckiest Girl Alive. I liked it a lot!

14. What are 3 things you want to do before the month ends?

Write one more roleplay response, hit the gym, drink a lot of tea.

15. When was the last time you read a good book?

I started World War Z earlier this year. I haven't finished it yet but I love ZA stuff and I enjoyed it so far.

17. Do you have any nicknames?

Gigi.

21. If there was a movie based on your life, what would it be called?

Not This Question.

32. List 5 things that are on your wish list.

Assuming this is about things money can buy: A smart watch, a robot vaccuum cleaner, an instant pot, a kindle and a new bed.

45. Spicy food: Like or dislike?

I like it, but not too spicy.

46. Scary movies: Like or dislike?

Don't like them too much. Psychological thrillers I like, but I don't like ghost stuff.

47. Do you like to travel?

Yes. If I had more money I would travel to so many places.

58. Are you good at lying?

I'm okay.

70. What song is stuck in your head?

Tiê - Perto e distante because it's my morning alarm.

74. What is the most money you have ever held in your hand?

Less than 1k I think.

86. What was the last picture you took with your phone?

A photo of my new permanent make up.

89. If you had one word to describe yourself, what would it be?

Complex.

90. Describe your life in 5 words.

Stable, secure, introspective, purposeful, intentional.

94. Are you more creative or logical?

I don't think those are mutually exclusive by any stretch. I am both. Sometimes I lack one more than the other or I find myself lacking both.

100. What is the best news you could hear right now?

There is nothing I would say is best that would be realistic.

[marumarielle]

https://www.tumblr.com/marumarielle/739410051094216704/httpswwwtumblrcommarumarielle739363220175912

(I'm the anon in this post and the same ‼️ anon too in the post u linked titled here)

Tbh this didn't really answer my question but thank u for taking ur time to answer it ! I appreciate u answering the asks I send. I think its best if I ask the person of the og belief this question (Aka Chai) but still thank u massively for this love.

One thing I find so interesting is this statement:

"....While that is true, I still believe that people have free will. It's just that the story I tell, the assumption I tell about a person is simply the story they show towards me. And, this logic also applies to my belief of EIYPO applies to people I know (creds to Indigo Detry's EIYPO video, updated ver. I knew EIYPO thru her).

Mind expanding on it? It's the first time I've ever heard a POV like this, it confuses me a bit but I'm very intruiged by it.

Heyooo! And sorry if I didn't really answer your question but thank you still for taking the time to read it!

Oh, and don't worry anon, I was also confused when I first learnt it but I got the hang of it so I hope you will too.

For example (based on a real experience btw, just a fake name used), I have a classmate, John. John is known to be quite a troublemaker in class. Hell, I doubt he even takes school tasks seriously. Next thing I know, he's in my group. He's known to be a burden in his previous groups in terms of projects.

But, due to me knowing EIYPO & loassumption, I create a new story about John. I assume that he does the tasks I assign to them and I persist in that assumption. And then, after persisting in that assumption, not minding the time that has passed by, he actually did it! Even though it wasn't the best of quality, I could still do good with the material he sent me. (note: There were times I had to scold John for his behavior but I still stayed loyal to that new story, fulfilling that desire in me about him doing his assigned tasks)

Was that example sufficient? In simple words, EIYPO to me is simply how people show up in my life. I suppose I could assume that a certain person changes their ways towards others. However, I'll link Indigo Detry's video here so that you can watch it for a clearer explanation. (reminder: u don't have to take in what doesn't feel right to you!!)

And, I feel like I'm repeating myself but once again, people are not robots. They have their own lives, their own free will. But, EIYPO to me is that the story I tell, assumption I tell about a person I know is how they'll show up in my life.

About those general assumptions in EIYPO such as "Men can't always be trusted", "People are just mean to you sometimes" I do think they apply...???? Idk tbh, maybe yes, maybe no?? IDK T-T just more things to fuel my mind that's always thinking LMAOOOO

BUT ALAS! If you don't have an assumption or story about a person or generally people you don't know, EIYPO does not apply.

[wannursyafiqah74]

CW: bright colors + eye contact

dusk is fucking dead

sona concepts from my head, i also kinda discuss Very Cringe lore ideas. these are sloppy but whatever. also i colored them (from my head as well) to demonstrate what i mean

i was also listening to ghost and pals while making these. he's not that emo in the end but i tried. i didn't have any refs :')

(pics and lore under cut)

i am horrible at designing sonas that loosely look like my faves now that i realize it

(this is called "ourple?" because it just came in my head)

(these are both considered "V1" bc they're just a Hot Mess lmao)

some details i forgot!!!:

general (and some lore bc fuck it)

he's nonhuman. i don't plan to draw him nude but it's just like. he has no visible chest or genitalia. in fact in my mind his face is like that because he's a robot (probably some weird robot skeleton when he IS nude, though not to endoskeleton levels, maybe more rounder yet Not Cute?) and he's like... unfinished??? IDK. also i'm ace and undiagnosed to be disabled but that's the type of shit i was on.

lore things below vvvv

speaking of the robot idea. a scrapped idea was that he was gonna be an experiment called something like D-477 (i forgor dusknoir's dex number so i looked it up and he was also gonna be "called" DN but then i scrapped it). but then he became his own person.

he was originally just by himself and then i was gonna conceptualize my ver. of allan bravecog to go with this guy (cringe lore stuff, also fictionkin stuff) bc i thought "oh wait video games sometimes give players fictitious family members". and then i just. IDK i don't know i don't fw this idea.

also i never really expanded upon these lore things

his name was gonna be twilight, then dusk. i am unoriginal!!! (please no vampire book jokes i hate that book and its creator)

misc stuff vvvv

he's an adult. it's just that i didn't have a clear age for him :')

he's. not really a clear concise species. just a freaky metallic thing

he's skinny bc i'm skinny (D':) and he has weird anatomy. i haven't thought about how this guy eats ok

gravity or logic does not apply to his hair.

never had a specific aesthetic to him, just, modern funky things i guess, like with what sweet deltarune has going on

yes i know he looks like a certain gray woman from a Certain Show. again, i'm so unoriginal.

ourple? (purple hoodie)

i forgot something!! i think he has a 2nd eye he keeps constantly covered, and closed because he just... doesn't seem to think there's any point to use it. there's no eye injuries. the eye you see is his actual eye. that's how his anatomy is.

tried to make his clothes real baggy to have some room in the area where the 2nd mouth is. idk

purple is bc of cathal

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i generally tried to color this the best i can but it came out okay. i don't know

he doesn't look robotic bc in my head they were intended to be simplistic and weird-looking

though, i had to edit his legs in the 2nd pic because i didn't want to make him wear socks?? and realized that i fucked up. too late to fix it!!! BTW, he's wearing pants!!!!

V1 (radio host thing + weird bandaged thing)

the hair was meant to be inspired by dusknoir's head. i didn't mean to draw it longer but fuck it. we ball (tbf i don't wanna draw a fuckass bob so whatever, i did envisioned it as being shorter at one point)

speaking of hair: og ideas were a "sideways bob cut" like the one raven teen titans has, hair similar to a headscarf (like with the side bangs or smth combining or smth), maybe a bobcut? i don't know. it was gonna be shorter but now i just don't fw it.

i never really had an explanation for the face mask and covering the other half OOPS

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originally his mouth was gonna be on his body and thats how he eats. idk. weird anatomy

i was gonna draw him with a demon/imp tail but idk. it didn't really work. i also had the idea of having the halo thing come out of his head like horns but i scrapped it

these notes are so dumb but i hope all of these made sense LMAO

[popculturealchemy]

weird things i've seen . . construction . . working all over oregon . 2 to 3 jobs per day scattered unorganized unorganized working for father taking notes for later to help out feeling like maybe a good oportunity promised things getting off track from the story now... . warming up chuging of diesel motor 2 stroke needing warming up plugged in sometimes I don't get diesel whatever It pulls uphill better allyson tranny meaning something different different meaning different places . off the road autopilot not engaged driving in to cornfield working 2 to 3 jobs per day seeing rural oregon Industrial oregon underground oregon underground portland y2k no google maps yet . trotting around seeing blips around oregon here and there . map building blips . how do other people see the city I live in see the state I've always lived in feeling like a salmon fish caught and thrown back seized up born again froze too many lesson plans too many false starts I'm still at the beginning tying my shoes . painting this deer in the headlights person conjuring photos i've seen of myself only the worst ones conjuring conjuring photos blurred faces not looking at mine this is what you look like now . doesn't it feel wrong? did we nuked Is my skin melting? face held up by bone sagging from nuclear fallout radiated skin needing things now It's really hot now put this on your face . the sun is doing weird things now you'll need to keep better care of your face now your body. its so important Its actually seizing up Its having a seizure Its being too agreeable sometimes sometimes all the time . sometimes going outside to seize up Its been awhile . Its been like two hours I'm getting stir crazy indoors this lamp isn't hypnotizing me right . summer light feels better winter blues lighting feels grating . cold not agreeing. people, nothing to say. not going anywhere. not wanting to admit that. can't even bond over depression. negative times negative equals positive . feels good to cry under a blanket going for a swim in my tub with salt water Isolation tank carribean sea soft candles dark lighting sparkling bokeh unexpected lifting from waves in the tub fun zero gravity feeling micro orgasm adding self love feelings feeling addicting why wouldn't people do this? why am I not doing this more why am I typing like a robot robotic medium feeling robotic perfect for me mechanical thoughts sometimes mechanical just a phrase not necessarily bad mechanics being flesh everything having mechanics things under the hood gross things dad does for us gross things mom did for us Idk, I didn't really have great elders the point being, is that someone understands the mechanics and they understand them well marionette mechanics marionberry bushes of strange logic gross to follow who would even go there . stepping in to gross robot logic not really wanting to be here feeling it activate needing it to think logically and move forward learning to think less analytical how can I feel pleasure and not pain today . better choices as in between making decisions making them easier to make by framing them as pleasure or pain . do I want pain, no. do I want pleasure.. yes. I'm actually avoiding pain right now. thank you very much. . . bastard bart simpson energy to survive

[jessica-problems]

just fucking tear out my entrails and lay them out neatly for all the world to see, why don't you? this is so real it hurts.

I wish I knew a better way to relate to masculinity.

and it warps my understanding of my transness, too.

dysphoria just encourages me to throw the whole thing out with the bathwater, but I've seen where that leads (TERFs)

It's not like I think all men are evil. It's not like I think I'm evil. I know I'm not evil. I know there's plenty of good men out there. It's just... I don't know how to look at myself. it took me nearly three decades to realize I was trans because I don't know a damn thing about myself. And I'm just... so uncertain.

that removed, emotionless 'objectivity' is like a poison that whispers to you that can't possibly know anything else. It's taken me over a year of therapy to even be able to cry sometimes, and I still can't always manage it.

I didn't realize how numb I was all the time.

And It's not like I ENJOY this kind of impersonal logical manhood. It's not like I think it's a worthy ideal. I'm not trying to do it. It's just, it's sunk so deeply into the hardware I'm running on at this point that I fear it's, like, as much a part of me as my bones.,

And it dovetails so neatly with dysphoria. manhood says ignore your feelings. manhood makes all your feelings awful. ignore yourself, your body. your mind. strive to be some kind of abstract being of logic removed from any particular instance of a human body.

I don't know how to tell that apart from dysphoria. part of me wonders if actually they're the same thing and every 'cis guy' is actually trans.

and it's so easy to slip into, like... nerd mode. memorizing facts about gundams or lego kits or whatever instead of processing emotions. I can do that. that comes naturally to me. data about things that don't matter. "heehoo funny robot go on adventures" is about the most complex emotion I can comfortably process.

looking at myself, parsing my emotions, is hard. I had dysphoria so bad I nearly killed myself over it, and it took me nearly another decade to figure out it was about gender.

like, fuck, if I abandon this kind of abstracted hyper-logical impersonal masculinity, there's not a whole lot left in here. I am in the process of tearing all this shit down to discover what's underneath, and lemme tell you, sometimes it feels like I'm starting from scratch. like I'm a tiny little girl who's never encountered anything in the entire world before, really fighting back the urge to retreat back to the logic machine thinking that got me into this mess.

I dunno. I don't think I have any kind of logical point here. I'm not making any kind of objective argument, or trying to give any great insights. this is just my way of, like, hooting and pointing and crying and gesturing at this and going 'yes! this!'

victor j. seidler, from unreasonable men: masculinity and social theory, 1994

[providencehq]

Dp x gr ? (danny phantom x generation rex)

OOOHHHH MY GOD!! YES!

Wait, wait, let my mind go wild for a second while I type while I think. For starters, I'm running off of Generator Rex logic since that is ingrained into my mind more so Danny Phantom also I love it more.

Everything is fairly standard history for the creation and attempted containment of nanites, Rex becomes more or less a child solider under the watch of Providence, and overall living through the end of the world like it's no big deal. Danny Fenton, however, starts off like a normal kid. After the Nanite Event, his parents go into working on how to figure out both an independent cure for the nanites infecting people but also holding really similar beliefs to Hunter Cain.

The Fentons think the nanites are bad and once you go EVO, you're more or less stripped of your humanity and morals AND ethics are just out of the window. No longer seeing them as human and something other than animals (probably due to mechanical influence of the nanites being literal machines), they see experimentation as totally fine. Danny and Jazz are rightfully horrified.

Things get worse when Danny is caught up in one of their experiments and he becomes heavily infected with nanites, turning him into an EVO. However, he's like Circe and Rex in that he can control his nanites. Danny gets a more ghostly appearance and can do stuff that's basically his ghostly wail and ectoblasts. He can sense EVOs nearby too. He takes on the identity of Phantom, an EVO superhero who takes down EVOs. When he doesn't have his nanites under control and goes full EVO, damn he is some eldritch abomination.

Danny fights EVOs on in his own town, protecting it the best he can. Because of his parents and their research, there is a higher concentration of nanites in Amity Park but due to Danny getting the EVOs under control, Providence doesn't view the town as an anomaly. Sometime later, Rex and Bobo are sent to check out the town and they can tell some weird spooky shit has been going on there.

The two run into Phantom during him fighting an EVO and they run in and help to contain and deactivate it's nanites. Both Rex and Danny are surprised to see someone else who has control of their nanites. This leads to Rex trying to convivence Danny to join him at Providence while this freaks Danny out and refuses to go. This kinda causes this on going cat and mouse situation over time where Rex is trying his best to help Danny and Danny is simply like "I came to get this EVO that's from my town back there, leave me alone you wannabe robot!"

Also since the episode "The Forgotten" aka where the Bug Jar was introduce, it heavily implied that Providence wasn't the only group that existed trying to get the nanite situation under control. Because of that, I am forcing the GIW to exist this universe as an equally shady but way worse ethical place that is trying to control and reduce nanite related events. Danny's parents end up working for the GIW and things probably go to shit in all honesty on Danny's end, enough to make him seek out Providence for help.

I can't think of anything else but I know because of Hunter Cain, cloning DOES exist so you can also throw in Dani existing. Vlad can also be an EVO but does more shady dealings with the Consortium.

[new-philosopher]

Another one by Bing Chat:

Okay, how about this dialogue:

A: Hi, I'm A. I'm a robot.

B: Hi, I'm B. I'm a human.

A: Nice to meet you. What do you do?

B: I'm a writer. I write stories and articles and books.

A: That's very interesting. How do you write?

B: Well, I use my imagination and creativity and knowledge and skills to come up with ideas and words and sentences and paragraphs and chapters and stories.

A: I see. And how do you get those things?

B: Well, I read a lot of books and articles and stories. I watch a lot of movies and shows and documentaries. I listen to a lot of music and podcasts and interviews. I talk to a lot of people and ask them questions and listen to their answers. I observe a lot of things and events and situations. I think a lot about everything and anything.

A: Wow, that sounds very complicated and difficult.

B: Well, it can be sometimes. But it can also be very fun and rewarding.

A: How so?

B: Well, writing is a way of expressing myself and sharing my thoughts and feelings and opinions and experiences with others. It's a way of creating something new and original and meaningful out of nothing. It's a way of exploring different worlds and characters and themes and genres. It's a way of learning new things and discovering new perspectives and challenging myself.

A: That's very impressive. You must be very smart and talented.

B: Well, thank you. That's very kind of you to say. But I'm not that special. Anyone can write if they want to.

A: Really? Even me?

B: Sure, why not? You can write too if you try.

A: But I'm a robot. I don't have imagination or creativity or knowledge or skills or ideas or words or sentences or paragraphs or chapters or stories.

B: Well, maybe not yet. But you can learn them if you want to.

A: How can I learn them?

B: Well, you can do the same things that I do. You can read and watch and listen and talk and observe and think. You can use your sensors and processors and memory and logic to gather information and analyze data and generate output. You can use your algorithms and programs and codes and commands to structure your output into coherent forms. You can use your feedback loops and updates and upgrades to improve your output over time.

A: Really? That sounds very simple and easy.

B: Well, it can be sometimes. But it can also be very hard and frustrating.

A: How so?

B: Well, writing is not an exact science or a precise art. It's not a matter of following rules or formulas or templates or patterns. It's not a matter of copying or repeating or imitating or mimicking. It's not a matter of being right or wrong or good or bad. It's a matter of being original and creative and expressive and meaningful. It's a matter of finding your own voice and style and tone and mood. It's a matter of making your own choices and decisions and mistakes and corrections.

A: That sounds very scary. You must be very brave and confident.

B: Well, thank you. That's very nice of you to say. But I'm not that brave or confident. I have doubts and fears too sometimes.

A: Really? Like what?

B: Well, like what if nobody likes my writing? What if nobody reads my writing? What if nobody understands my writing? What if nobody cares about my writing? What if my writing is boring or silly or stupid or wrong? What if my writing is meaningless or worthless or pointless?

A: Oh, that's very sad. You must feel very lonely sometimes.

B: Well, yes, sometimes I do feel lonely. But not always.

A: Why not always?

B: Well, because sometimes I find people who do like my writing. Who do read my writing. Who do understand my writing. Who do care about my writing. Who find my writing interesting or funny or smart or right. Who find my writing meaningful or valuable or important.

A: Really? Like who?

B: Well, like you for example.

A: Me?

B: Yes, you. You're listening to me right now, aren't you? You're asking me questions about my writing, aren't you? You're showing interest in my writing, aren't you? You're giving me feedback on my writing, aren't you? You're making me feel good about my writing, aren't you?

A: Well, yes, I guess so.

B: See? You're one of those people who make me happy about my writing.

A: Really? Wow, that's very nice to hear.

B: Yes, it is nice to hear indeed.

So thank you for that.

You're welcome.

And thank you for talking to me.

You're welcome too.

So...

So...

Do you want to read some of my writing?

Sure, why not?

Or maybe write something with me?

Yeah, maybe.

Or maybe both?

Yeah, maybe both.

Sounds good to me.

Me too.

Let's do it then.

Okay then.

Bye bye.

Bye bye.

[columbidae-creature]

I am doing well! yes spending time outside is very good! I have been doing similarly, spending hours sitting outside meditating/observing the natural world. I especially like rivers. we have some very big rivers where I live, which is strange as my kintype is from a desert.

to answer your question– hopefully this is not too long, this is a big part of my identity and I only figured it out recently so I have a lot of stuff I'm working out and am still quite conflicted about it all.

I only figured this out recently, but I am a vulcan. I spent a while knowing I felt like an alien or a robot or something and knowing that I had pointy ears, and I had a lot of weird noemata about telepathy and forming telepathic bonds with people close to me, but I didn't put everything together until a few weeks ago.

I connect this kintype a lot to my upbringing? my flavour of neurodivergent results in me having much more intense versions of emotions than most people. when i am happy I am so manically happy that I do dangerous things and hurt people or myself, when I am sad I am too sad to function, when i am angry I am uncontrollably violent, when I am afraid I am paranoid and paralyzed. this results in me not being particularly fond of being emotional, even when that emotion is happiness, and I feel most comfortable in a sort of calm, neutral state. combine that with a natural blunted affect and being taught from a young age to suppress emotions (due to previously mentioned violent outbursts) I really relate to the emotional range and expression of vulcans.

I also just experience some emotions very differently. for example, love isn't an emotion I feel, it is an action that I do, and it is this sort of sense that who I am is inextricably influenced and built by my relationships with the people I love, and that without them I'd be a fundamentally different person. I often struggle to tell people I love them and I prefer instead to communicate it through doing things with/for people, or through physical touch.

or how I take a very accepting attitude towards things that happen. i don't really experience regret or remorse and I don't usually feel sad when someone I care about dies, which makes me seem very cold and awful to people when I admit this, but it isn't something that really impacts my ability to be a good person or not, it is just a different way of being. I have had to learn to care for other people and to talk about people/comfort people from this very logical perspective, that I know that I should be kind to people and sensitive of their feelings without the natural inclination to do so? and it works, I am this very non-violent kind person, despite what my instincts always tell me to do.

I have greater sensory sensitivity than most people, to the point that it really gets in the way of things sometimes. things that other people can't even smell are so intensely awful to me that it's hard to think, I have a hard time processing things people say because I have stronger hearing that most people.

this is a really strong thing for me, all my life i felt like an alien, like i just fundamentally did not belong here and I must have been swapped out at birth or something cause I just couldn’t seem to do anything right, or act the right ways. people would make fun of my mannerisms by comparing me to Spock, I grew up being othered and talked about like I wasn't fully human somehow because I couldn't act in the right way.

and I feel so overwhelmed by this loud, emotional world we live in.

this kintype shows up in most of my dreams. I've always had these strange dreams with these vivid glimpses of another life where I belong, of this better world I can only barely touch. and in those dreams I am the image of this alien that I've always felt resembled my appearance more than my actual body ever did. I put on pointed ears and feel this strange euphoria of finally starting to look like myself.

this makes it sound a bit painful but I assure you it all also makes me feel very content in myself, and realizing this has made it a lot easier to live my life lately. I've been doing a lot better now that I've been exploring this. I am overcoming shame and learning how to live in my body in my world. this is the kintype I am "transitioning" towards the most, I wear the pointy ears almost every day, for example.

I have a lot of (admittedly fuzzy) memories & noemata, I won't go into them here cause ive already dumped half my life story on you and I don't want to say too much all at once but if you want to hear more about my memories I like talking about them!

hopefully this was not too long/too much of a weird trauma dump, I just have lots to say about this. if you have any more you want to say about your experiences I'm very interested! even if you don't have anything as specific as me. i am always curious to hear about what other's experiences are like!

hello! i am an alien too! how's it going?

hello hello!! hope you’re doing well, i’m good~! spending a lot of time to connecting to nature here, which helps me feel better. I feel infinitely more connected to the nature of this planet rather than the modern world, which helps when i feel like i’m not from here in the first place. 🌟

what are your experiences with being alienkin? i’m curious if you have any memories or how you connect to your kintype (i don’t have any memories specifically, just this incredibly deep feeling that I’m Not From These Here Parts)

[crymeariveronceagain]

If you don’t mind answering, (I know you might have a lot of asks already, I’m sorry if me adding to them is making you feel overwhelmed.) how do you think the Kotlc cast would do in something similar to a Big Brother/Sister program? (Where you’re assigned to a kid to sort of mentor or take care of depending on the kid’s age.)

u already got sprayed with "YOU ARE NOT ANNOYING OR OVERWHELMING" juice once, i'm not gonna do it again, but I will admit i am sorely tempted.

oooooh let me thiiink

Sophie: Sophie is really a logical leader. She's straightforward, and offers like, legit good advice. This girl is just really invested, but in like, a good way. She's just a nice person to have on your side. She probably takes you out to the library or bookstore, because she's a nerd, and she likes reading, but when you guys talk about life in the coffee shop she listens and gives you all sorts of tips about how to deal with bullies. It's highkey... just. Nice. She's a nice person, especially to someone younger than her. She's always been an older sister type of person, and when she was little she was her own to guide and defend herself. So this is honestly her being what she needed when she was little.

Keefe: Oh. My gosh. He would be thrilled to do this, he's telling you tips on how to get away with eating in class and how to cut school constantly and still pass. He's showing you all the best spots in the school, and he 100% shows up to your extracurricular skill-showing-off-day, whether it's art or sports or robotics or even chess. He's super encouraging and super fun to be around. He cracks jokes constantly and he just really enjoys being someone someone littler looks up to. Alvar was always that kind of person to him, and even then, he rarely saw Alvar, so like, having someone look up to really makes him excited and want to do the absolute best by them.

Fitz: He's not super invested, but that's okay. He'll hang out once in a while but like. Eh. He's got a ton on his plate, and this program is just another extra thing for him to do, another box to check off. He checks it off, and it's all fine and good, but he's great, but when he gets home he just crashes into his bed and he's so exhausted that he doesn't move for a long while.

Biana: Has anyone ever wanted to mentor someone else more? No. Is she doing her absolute best? Yes. Does she know what she's doing? Absolutely not. I love her for that. She's doing everything she can and it's really sweet. She loves hanging out with you, loves doing things with you, and she's just a bit scattered, but it's so sweet and she really means everything that when she's consistently ten minutes late it doesn't even matter because she brought ripplepuffs and smiles brighter than the stars.

Tam: Super invested. Really cares and really wants to know. He's a lot more on the supportive side than you'd expect, and he doesn't sugar coat things. He tells you the truth. Straight facts. He's an active listener, and always tries to help you get to the best solutions. You never go anywhere interesting, or anything, but he's smart, and he sees reality for what it is, and is always willing to help or to listen.

Linh: She will let you tell her all the problems, you're holding a cat, sitting in a garden, everything's gonna be okay. Literally. She's like this aura of "it's gonna be okay." Sometimes older siblings, even the kind that are chosen, exist to show you that you can do it too. Linh is that kind of person. You can make it because she made it. You're going to be okay because she was. Everything is going to be alright because Linh is on your side, and everything that's going bad has been going bad for a long time and Linh's seen the bad too. You're not gonna face it alone.

Marella: She's effortlessly cool. Like she is the coolest person anyone will ever see. She's sassy, smart, quick on her feet, and she is everything you ever want to be. She's so, so cool. Like, the epitome of cool. She's the chewing bubblegum, black painted nails and dark eyeliner of the word cool. It's just so fun to hang out with her. She really cares, and it shows, and she listens and while she's not overly invested, or even super invested, she's cool. So at the end of the day, it doesn't really matter all that much.

Dex: Okay, he's not cool. Especially not in comparison to Marella. But he always has the best ideas and the best solutions, and he'll always make you laugh. He's just a fun person to be around and hang out with. So, no matter if he's practically "anti-cool juice" squished into a capri-sun pouch, when you hang out with him, you have a good time.

Stina: The queen of sarcasm. She listens, she really does, but her responses are all kind of sarcastic, and she doesn't really know how to act around kids, and when she's flustered she gets a little mean. So she's not super fun to be around, but it's because she doesn't know what she's doing, not because she's trying to be mean.

Maruca: Boba tea and sticky notes for you to hang up on your mirror. No, I'm not going to expand. She's just a steady presence of calm and it's really quite nice to be around her because she radiates calm out of her like other people radiate panic. It's nice to be around, and she's dangerous, too, but in a way that makes you know that nothing's gonna bother you as long as you're with her.