#you don't GET it it fucking haunts me

[featherymainffins]

4 years ago I heard a song on the radio while working my shift at KFC and it has haunted me ever since and Google thinks the song isn't real and Reddit thinks the song isn't real. This is my existential nightmare.

[clownowo]

been replaying the Portal series I think this is where its heading

[cloysterbell]

Pete, I need you to stay here.

[lightbulb-warning]

shit man he's downright POSTITNOTE'D

[transmechanicus]

Really fucked up that two ppl can care about each other and make their best efforts to communicate and still end up hurting each other so badly they cannot stand to be in the same room.

[heartoferebor]

Very important Namor gifs, for your consideration

[vaguely-concerned]

it really is hilarious how little objective quality has to do with how much I'll love an RPG. larian makes games that are objectively very good, but don't really resonate with me personally when I play them, for whatever reason. bioware makes games of wildly erratic levels of quality that cause my soul to vibrate at pitches heard only by dolphins and god.

[sapphicautistic]

my partner's family is 100% how i'm going to get covid

[of-nyon]

girl help someone made a post explaining why they don't like one of my faves and I'm being so brave about it

[xulips]

Your art looks like it tastes like whipped cream…

I love the way you draw an and mizuki!! Together they are unstoppable

THANK YOU SM!! i love to draw zuki's an an's shenanigans... they wreck havoc together

[pa-pa-plasma]

genuinely not kidding when I say that Tears of the Kingdom is not only a bad Zelda game, it's just a bad game in general. it's inaccessible to casual gamers who previously could play Zelda games because of their structure. there is virtually no plot, & what little plot there is sucks ass, is predictable in a bad way, & doesn't make any fucking sense, with the absolute lack of emotional reactions from the characters making it all the worse. the references are only there to distract from the absolute nothingness, despite a main timeline Zelda title being the perfect game to have them as a type of storytelling (what happened to Skyloft??). the sky islands are just rocks with nothing on them except fruit, or maybe a chest if you're lucky. the underground is a walking in the dark simulator. the overworld is the exact same shit as in Breath of the Wild & I already explored that twice so why do it again. the caves are pointless. they didn't add much to the game besides that (the shrines & towers are just reskinned, do not fool yourself) & what they did add is just more sidequests to fill the gaps between the bits of non-existent plot. the dungeons suck. the boss battles are okay which is just sad for a Zelda game. it's just a $90 DLC & if that doesn't explain why I'm so mad about this idk what the fuck will. maybe the fact that this "new formula" is a severe step down from the old one, where you had an actual full fucking puzzle game to play with an actual fucking characters & a story that wasn't just more MCU "cameo! reference!!" bullshit

[heartshattering]

5 AM

Just me and my overactive mind facing the nighttime again 🙃

[ghost-proofbaby]

i want you to know that i keep getting this biker couple's tik toks on my fyp and every time i see one i melt into the floor because its so 24 hours eddie and reader AND I MISS 24 HOURS EDDIE SO BAD AND I ESPECIALLY MISS WHEN THEY WATCHED HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON

STOP DON'T MAKE ME THINK ABOUT THEM WHEN I'M TRYING TO WRITE FOR MAROON DON'T DO THIS TO ME DON'T-

[tennessoui]

For the ask game, 5, 18, and 30??

(from this ask game)

ahh thank you for sending these in!!

5. first sentence of the fifth paragraph of an unpublished WIP

ok so i have 7 tabs open and all of them are either new chapters or unpublished wips but here is the first sentence of the first tab - and a second sentence for a little bit more context lol:

'Watto has wings, a set that isn’t much to look at but that he’s rather proud of showing off anyway. And because Watto has wings, little Ani cannot, lest he grow up and get ideas.'

(that's wing fic au which i have been meaning to finish and post for forever)

18. If you keep them, share a deleted sentence or paragraph from a published fic

ok so i don't keep my deleted sentences or paragraphs - they are gone with the wind as soon as i don't like them lol BUT i can definitely talk about one of my first draft ideas for a fic that i didn't end up writing which i've definitely talked about before. in foolproof foolhardy, when i started writing what would become the last 2 chapters and the final arc of the story, i was totally sold on the idea that when they're in the ship on the way to their mission they would end up fucking ('to get it out of their system') as a one-time thing and afterwards they can just pretend they don't care about each other at all and the sex would be very angry and bitter except for the moments where they couldn't help but betray their real feelings (aka master skywalker caresses obi-wan's face, obi-wan kisses his pulse, etc etc)

and then during the mission the prince of the planet would be interested in obi-wan in a way that would prove to be Perilous (because obi-wan tries to pretend he can just go back to having fun and sleeping around and so he courts the prince's attention, but it turns out that actually he doesn't want to do that anymore because now he knows how anakin would hold him)

and anakin would do something very dramatic like start a full on war with the planet and or threaten assassination of the prince because hes a jealous lil guy and will use obi-wan's discomfort as cover for his actions without examining the root of the emotions which is in fact love (but twisted)

and then they fuck AGAIN and finally actually talk it all out (but it was already such a long story and that whole mission arc seemed needlessly dramatic when tensions were already high, so they just talked it out the first time they fucked on the ship, which i'm happy with)

30. share a fic you’re especially proud of

ooo interesting question! i definitely feel various amounts of proud of all my fics because of who i was and what i was trying out when i was writing each of them, but i think i'm especially proud of let my love be the knife that implicates me aka the rots compliant fic where obi-wan raises luke on tatooine alone and does as good of a job as he knows how. i just really like the concept of it - where obi-wan deals with his grief by talking about the agony and joy of loving anakin, luke's father, while also still so fresh off of mustafar and the fall of the Jedi, knowing he can only talk about this now because when luke is old enough to remember he shouldn't bear the weight of his secrets....only for luke to remember not the words themselves (about the empire, about sidious, about anakin's betrayal) but the emotion behind them, which was almost always love.

it's a sad fic but it's not so sad that i think it's unreadable and i really am so proud of a lot of the phrases and the pacing of it! mostly because i almost always avoid anything even resembling 'canon compliant' and so this was a really big moment for me lol

[codexbrainhasbrokenfree]

Yay that's a great question and observation @samuraiondo-mace-1177 !

The way Y7 talks about the legally gray areas of society is very interesting to associate with the theme of light and shadow, symbolizing the duality between the two worlds (that i talked about in this other post)

(this ended up being STUPIDLY VERY long because i want to be sure i get my point across without risking being misinterpreted. talking about politics is hard)

It is explicitly stated in-game but i'm going to repeat it here for context : the gray zones are literally a "place" in between the worlds represented by light and shadow, "technically illegal but society looks the other way because it's traditional". In the game, those zones are depicted as the last thing preventing "people who have fallen through society's net" to be lost in the shadows. The gray zones in Ijincho, as well as the artificial stalemate between the Ijin Three, were purposefully created by Ogikubo in order to create "a safe heaven" for those people.

So the gray zones in this game aren't just the LITERAL "in-between" light and shadow, they are also something that the main characters try to protect because they see the world as more than "black and white" : a criminal isn't always a bad person, and someone who is well adjusted to society isn't always a good person - individual success, socio-economic situation and ability to conform aren't factors to determine the morality of anyone, WHICH means that "the people living in the shadows of society" deserve as much consideration as anyone else (hence the quest to maintain Ijincho's mostly safe and stable gray zones). Viewing the world like this with more moral complexity, accepting that things can be "morally gray", allow for a better conception of how the world actually works, and helps finding actual solutions to improve society, rather than ending up simplifying the societal problematics sociaty faces like Bleach Japan does.

Bleach Japan confronts this ideology by stating that (paraphrasing) "it is the criminals' fault for relying in the gray zones for so long", basically attributing the responsability of their situation to THEM, despite the fact we clearly see in the rest of the game (or in the rest of the RGG franchise as a whole) that living in the gray zones, living a life of crime, is NEVER a choice anyone makes. And by blaming the people in need of help for their own situations, they are justifying their dehumanisation and the violence inflicted on them.

and more specifically, Ryo Aoki explicitly call the people living in the gray zones "trash", and has no problem ordering for their mass deportation out of the country where they will all probably die without any support network to rely on.

Bleach Japan wants to oversimplify the moral complexity in the problematics they claim to be solving, they want to erase the very notion of "morally gray", so that they can oppress people without having to think too hard about their actions. And this is represented more literally in the game through their fight to bleach all of the gray zones white, literally erasing the one thing that most efficiently demonstrates the existence of a morally gray area in the debate they want to have.

Bleach Japan's political agenda would benefit from an entirely "black and white" world, without any nuance to be had. This is also represented in their logo, which is entirely black and white.

So yeah, by bleaching the gray zones white, Bleach Japan is forcing the people who lived in the gray zones to now live in the shadows, and this includes Ichiban.

But i also think it goes a deep further than that. Bleaching the gray zones white (or simply treating the gray zones like a threat to society like we see Bleach Japan do) results in forcing a dichotomy in society between white/the good guys (light) and black/the bad guys (shadow), without anything in between. And sure, this leads people like Ichiban to be considered as a "bad guy", even though we know he's the exact opposite, but I'd say it also works the other way around.

We know Aoki's motives are mainly ideological and political, but maybe his quest to snuff out any moral complexity could be also motivated by his necessity to be perceived as the "good guy" of the story. Clearly, Aoki is not a good guy, and I would even argue he BARELY qualifies as "morally gray"..... even though the game takes a lot of time to also explain the "hows" and "whys" of Aoki's situation, a lot of them being out of his control (it's implied through dialogues and parallels with Y1 that he didn't CHOOSE to change his name and identity to get his surgery, for example), drawing a parallel between his situation and the situations of the people living in the gray zones who also didn't get to choose their fates.

(This is something very delicate to talk about because I'm pretty sure the game itself leaves the question kinda open-ended, with Ichiban during the finale directly pointing out how it DOESN'T MAKE SENSE for Aoki to have ended up as the person he is, so on one hand we literally have the main character, someone who as the player we're supposed to believe, stating that NOTHING in Aoki's life or situation should have led him to become as irredeemable as he is, but on the other hand we have all of his backstory about internalized ableism and identity dissociation and masking and suicide etc... so i think even Y7 itself is confused as to wether or not Aoki is to blame for everything he's done, or if the problem is more systemic and doesn't stop at Aoki.)

SO FOR THE SAKE OF ARGUMENT, let's listen to the game and conceive Aoki as a morally gray character : if he wanted to erase the very notion of morally gray, to impose a black and white dichotomy on society, maybe it was as an effort to consider himself as being the light. Maybe he had some awareness of how much of an hypocrite he was, and believed erasing the gray zone, erasing the concept of "morally gray", would by default propel him into the light!

So ONCE AGAIN, MAYBE one of Aoki's actions was subconsciously motivated by self-preservation before any other political convicitons or what-not

And yeah, lastly, I'd like to come back to chat you said about Ichiban calling Aoki and himself "light and shadow", even though morally speaking, it should be the other way around.

I think it's fascinating to see Ichiban calling himself "the shadow". We know that when he says "light and shadow", he uses it as a metaphor for everything we talked about ; he says Aoki is "the light" because he "always had everything he didn't have" (socio-economic/family situation), and is pointing out how, as "the light", he should have become a good person (association of "light/shadow" with "white/black" morality). So basically, Ichiban is calling himself the bad guy here! Or at least (and most probably), the guy who SHOULD HAVE become the bad guy according to his social background and everything else defining him as someone living in the gray zones. Which is crazy coming from Ichiban, the man who called himself a Hero!

I have a lot of thoughts on this specific exchange, but this post is already way too long as it is so I'm going to shut up until I feel like writing 10 new pages on that dialogue (the ones i already wrote are outdated, I found new stuff to be crazy about in that dialogue yayy)

[beanswithbones]

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