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maybe something with pacbo always drifting towards each other in crowds ? maybe linking pinkies without realising 🥺?
idk how foolish keeps ending up in these stories. i think its cause i miss my old roommate who is a doozer lmao
Foolish tilted his head as he watched Tubbo. He had been called stupid time and time again in his thousands of years on different smp's. It didn't bother him because he knew his strengths. The power of simple observation. It's amazing what people will say in front of you if they truly believe that you're too stupid to understand. The way they act is different due to the fact they truly don't think you will notice.
But Foolish noticed.
People said the eyes were the window to the soul and while Foolish didn't think they were wrong he knew there was a lot more that could be observed in the motions of the hands.
Tubbo's hands were covered in scars but they held Sunny so softly. They reached out for her little hands and held them so gently. It was clear how he felt about her daughter by how he held her hands.
His hands linked subconsciously with Pac's while they walked in crowds together. Foolish knew he was the only one to notice since nobody brought up any fofoca about the two of them. Once he started noticing it, he couldn't stop.
He saw the way their pinkies linked, the way they leaned so close together to whisper their little secrets. Their laughs had started to sound like each other's. Their smiles had started to match.
“You know right?” Foolish asked one day as he sat with Fit watching Tubbo and Pac plan out a booby trap to prank Bad with.
Fit glanced over at him with knowing eyes. “Yes. I know.
Foolish laughed. “Cool, dude. I'd be kinda awkward if you didn't know.”
Fit joined in his laughter. “Yes, it would be.”
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it looks like you're going to sleep-no pressure to answer this anytime soon!
soo.. i've seen marauders stuff floating around for a long time and i've got quite a few friends who love it (both irl and online). i'd love to start getting into the fandom, i absolutely love all the fanwork i've seen! the characters (that i know, at least) are amazing and i'm obsessed with some of the ships i've seen. the issue is that i don't really know where to start. i've heard of all the young dudes (that's the name, right?), but ik that there's a TON of material out there and that it's not based off any one or two specific works.
ik you know a lot about this fandom and i was wondering if you had any recommendations about where to start? no pressure if not, thanks!
hi!
omg i’m honored.
ok, so there is all the young dudes, which is the giant >500k work that i haven’t even finished.
there are a couple REALLY long tragedy jegulus fics out there hat i’m not planning on reading. (Crimson Rivers and Art Heist, Baby!)
i know that @ my-castles-crumbling has a page on their intro post with some other links as well.
@ gardenofrunar has a lot of short fics that are really good, and you can also check out the @wolfstarmicrofic and @jegulus-microfic pages if you want shorter ones.
you can also, and this is what i did, just start dipping your toes in online interactions. that’s what i did, i joined the online fandom without reading any fanfiction (not even atyd for a couple months), and if you just slowly immerse yourself in people’s head canons and jokes, you can easily get a sense of how the fandom has developed the characters.
welcome to the fandom! i know this is long and idk if it was helpful, but feel free to ask me any more questions, and i now there are plenty more people who would also be happy to help!
(anyone else who sees this and has advice, please, share)
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tagged by @berrytart thank u so much bc i have Thoughts & now an excuse to share them lol
last read: severance by ling ma & the new me by halle butler
so i was going to just include severance here but i was rly curious where the new me would go & i literally just finished it & liked it a lot!!!
both books deal with blithe, depressed & passionless protagonists stuck in the never-ending loop of what it means to exist in late stage capitalism which despite all evidence of it in the real world, i apparently also seek out in fiction to reassure me i'm not broken to feel that way too?
severance is amazing & i highly recommend it altho fair bit of content warning for an eerily prescient pandemic plot down to the ghoulish response of governments & businesses. (seriously, it was released in 2018 & if i was ling ma, i'd be buying lottery tickets every single day since march 12 2020). it also does a masterful job of depicting the immigrant experience abroad, especially if you're going thru it alone & without a large support network. the protagonist is also a chinese woman & her relation to her race is also a significant theme that's tied up in the overall arc of the novel, making you realize the title works on several levels: severance from your culture, from your family, from happiness, from humanity. is there nothing capitalism can't take from you?
the new me is a bit more condensed and focused on the inner machinations of a lonely depressed woman who can't seem to hold down a permanent job surrounded by vapid self-interested people & slowly becoming more like them (if not already). it's highly reminiscent of my year of rest and relaxation but i found the descriptors of the banality & pointlessness of office life poignant since it singled out how stupid all of it is. i also appreciated the glimpses of the minds of random side characters who the MC often judges but the author shows us they're as frail & human & pathetically hopeful just like she is, like we all are. while it might not be as layered as severance is, the claustrophobic feeling it gave me & the portrayal of bullshit jobs in late stage capitalism & the way it punishes weakness, vulnerability, and authenticity was painfully familiar. i wish i could give it to my therapist to understand my perspective but she'd probably tell me stop reading shit like this & taking it as truth
currently reading: play it as it lays by joan didion & imagining the balkans by maria todorova
i'm gonna be real with you chief (didion), carrie fisher did this better. this is my first time reading fiction by didion & the year of magical thinking was truly a cathartic read for me but this ain't it. it's a story about a failing actress who's divorcing from this director that made her famous & they have a sick kid & she drinks & hangs out with other rich people & she's not even funny. idk, maybe it's just not resonating with me at this point of my life but i doubt i will be a famous actress at any point & i'm not aiming to be an alcoholic mother so. it's a pity that the things i liked in the year of magical thinking, like the direct prose & complex human relationships, just fall flat here. i guess knowing the things in the year of magical thinking were real made them seem that much more impactful (as much as i hate that). i still have half of it left so i'll finish it but atp i'm not even curious what happens
i just started imagining the balkans so i can't say much abt it except that it's dense and very philosophical which makes sense ig lol. until now she's brought up several arguments i've kind of realized myself but it's nice to have the theory and historical research behind them presented. otherwise, how could i know some random american dude joined one of the sections of the macedonian liberation movement in the 1900s simply because he was bored at home & looking for mystery & intrigue?
To read: miracle in the andes by nando parrado
as a kid my favorite type of story was A Weirdo Stuck In An Inhospitable Environment Survives Against All Odds so this memoir from one of the survivors of the uruguayan air force flight 571 crash whose skull shattered & he still walked an entire mountain & found help is bound to be good
i tag @cuntextual @yugocar @christianbalegf
#i'd say i'm sorry for the long ass post but u guys knew what u were getting into when following#anyways go read severance#lina laments.txt
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@Mariana : There's love out there.
@Me : Wouldn't know.
@Mariana : Thats a lie, You would know more than anyone, its out there
Me :(Sighs with a smirk) yeah; It is out there. Just not for me. In my fantasies the most beautiful woman in the world loves me as much as I love her. But that's was just a dream.
@mariana: (eye rolls) Calm down R.E.M
Me: (Sighs with a big smile) Its a good song tho.
@Mariana : What would you do if all these fantasies come flailing around?
Me: It would probably bring me to my knees.
@Mariana: Dude... now you said to much. But seriously what would you do if for some reason she does end up loving you?
Me: What could I do? Its BILLIE FUCKING EILISH I'd be at her mercy by those hypnotic eyes of hers.
@Mariana: Better wear them sunglasses.
Me:Good idea
@Mariana: Hey
Me: Yeah?
@Mariana : I've been wanting to ask you something
Me: Ask away
@Mariana : If you really love her the way you say you do. Why dont you think about her as much.
Me: Well... I actually do. A wise man once told me: "Hey! You've got to hide your love away."
@Mariana : Really Dude? You're hopeless
Me: WHAT....?😏
@Mariana : (eye rolls) Nvm lets go im getting hungry
Me: (pfft)🤭 You can eat this big ass dick
@Mariana : DONT FUCKING START WITH THAT SHIT!!!
Me: Don't yell at me I have asthma 🥺👉👈
@Mariana : no you fucking don't.
Me: 😮💨 (Sighs)
No, no i don't.
@Mariana : every time i ask you a question. It leads up to another set of unanswered questions. Without having the answer to the first question.
Me: Think about it, "Why dont you think about her as much? "I actually do.' "You have to hide your love away." I hide my love for her. The world will try to take that from me too.
@Mariana : So they weren't successful?
Me: Hmm..🤔Now that that I think about it. Were they successful?
@Mariana : Well idk? Look at your fantasies, you know the answer. What does it look like.
Me: I see us laughing a lot, on the road to new places. Writing and sharing songs and poems with her.
@Mariana : you know her brother writes...
Me. Yeah. He's a musical genius on his own right.
@Mariana : you think so?
Me: know so
@Mariana : (eyerolls) how do you know?
Me: My amazing powers of observation.
You're about to roll your eyes at me
@Mariana : (rolls eyes) stops halfway through
Me: 🤭
@Mariana : asshole, I hate it when you do that.
Me: you know you love it.😇
@Mariana : 😤
Me: (hugs her)
@Mariana : 😑
Me : Back to our convo, if you listen to Billie's songs. It not just one style, Finnias mixes his style with different genres of music.
@Mariana : examples would be nice
Me: Of course, the song Billie Bossa Nova, Finnias sounds like he mixed his style with this 50's/60's contemporary Jazz. Contrast that song with "Your Power" which has this sweet smooth mixture of acoustic style thats sounds amazing. I can already hear 1000's of virtuoso guitar enthusiasts say I can play better than that... Well, I heard someone say this, and I take this as a wise quote now. and it could be fit for anything and everything. "The beauty lays on its simplicity."
@Mariana: damn, who did you quote?
Me: im bad with names. But he has a show called "Meat Eater" ironically hes a he's a hunter.
@Mariana : 😑
Me. Thats why I said ironically. And this one of many things where you can see different sides of me. And its confusing when you know me for this and others know me for that. I been and lived in so many different views of life. And there is no wrong way of seeing life. We all see it differently. And that ok its what keeps life's experiences more unique. Im lucky to be able to see everyones point of view. We all have this gift of life. We all have the right to exist. We do what we do.
@Mariana : why are you like this?
Me: got carried away again didn't I?
@Mariana : most will say yeah. But no, this world doesn't deserve you.
Me: stop you bring tears to my eyes.
@Mariana : listening to you brings tears to mine.
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how strange this month has been
wasn't sure if I was making it out a full month without being shot or sold. Dude, it's been super fucking weird 🙃 all the mind games to attempt to turn me into one of them × the crazies downtown who are always yelling at nothing, or yelling at you but it never really looks like it × easier to abduct like that × but idk. The way this all started has been fucking stupid, and the things I endured to prove myself that I'm not taddling on things that aren't my fucking business 💁🏼♀️ man I tell ya, being white is amazing don't get me wrong! But when you're new and a cutie in the hood, I suppose it looks suspicious.. like I'm a snitch I guess 😑😪😒 boy. I just love the white girl innocent look more than anything, it's a very useful look 💁🏼♀️ useless when no one knows you... ah!!
So yeahh anyways I had a necklace given to me (and I didn't have a phone tracking me around so i wont say where abouts - could be downtown, north, maybe somewhere else idk im not great with directions 😅😆😆) by some black guy I spent some time with listening to 90s and very early 2000s music, chatting & smoking d**g*- with a cute wooden cross - no clue where it had come from but he had just been released from prison mind you, and i knew that. I wear the necklace every day. Not only because he told me to, but because 1 ▪︎ I don't want to lose it 2 ▪︎ it's actually really really super cute and matches my current style at the moment.
Well the other day someone recognized the necklace and said you only get it in prison ~ now I understand 💁🏼♀️ because both of these people are fairly new to freedom in a long long time. Would make sense, i literally seen this dudes flashback as soon as he recognized it. Now I understand why he had told me to never take it off I guess. Well, that's sweet 💕
I'll be sure to present it harder now while I'm downtown. It's such a cute little wooden cross necklace too 🖤 I'll never take it off, even if i move far away 🤍 maybe one day I'll post a photo, but right now at this stage of my life I don't feel like it's a good plan.
But sometimes, I'm glad I've been attracting people like that i guess. When I first walked into his place, I thought I was about to be sold right away tbh the place was in a mess (little did I know he was just moving) but very sketchy looking no doubt, especially after hearing its mainly that race partaking mainly in the abduction of women ~ next thing after being awake for 7 days and going on the most intense run of my life i wind up in some sketchy ass apartment building? I had no doubt in my mind that my free run was up. There was no fucking way that after that intense run that I'd be ready for anything. And honestly it's nothing racist- it would be the same if the tables were turned and it was a group of certain whites 💁🏼♀️ and hey, if they are somehow involved that just means I'm cool shit. But I don't think they're involved at all.
But I am proud that there's some decent people still out there 💝 trying their best to keep you protected in a time of need.
Geez tho! I will never be the same. This city is a total mess. It's rather depressing
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what if we kissed in the locker room and we were both boys...
hbd @a-vvriter-in-the-dark <3
#EVERYONE GO WISH ETHAN A HAPPY BIRTHDAY#my art#mars.arts#doomsday#ethan’s ocs#my ocs#benji rivera#bobby bowen#will#thomas#kevin#i need to give them surnames skldghsdk#gonna ramble abt ethan don't mind me#hbd stinky... smelly.... i love you sm sm sm#fuckin WILD that we've known each other for 5 years this year.....#you're so amazing and idk who i'd be without you dude#you're one of my best friends Ever you are my brother you are my Sweet Cheese#you're also a pain in the ass (affectionate) but i believe that's part of the job description#you are so strong and so smart and i'm so proud of you every day#you create beautiful incredible things and i'm so glad to share worlds with you#any story i make is not the same if you're not in it#i can't wait to see what our worlds look like in 5 years time where we are doing this over and over again#i love you dude#happy birthday!! you deserve the best
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Imagine Ranmaru trying to get Hyuga's sister by arranging a marriage
I mean, this dude already know Hyuga and thought him as an "old friend" and he probably know Y/N too
Rocky is pissed is understanding
But Idk about Hyuga though... I feel like Hyuga would surprised? (But ain't no way he would agree) and Y/N obviously wouldn't agree either. That's gonna make Ranmaru pissed.
Unbeknowst him, he not only messing with Daruma but he is messing with sword too (ง'̀-'́)ง
Platonic!Hyuga x His Older Sister x Rocky x Sword vs Doubt
a/n: okay, I dont even know what i wrote... But here you are jdkdkkf It was a great request, I hope you like it ♥️🥳 More H&L requests !! (Sword gangs, Amamiyas, Oya and Housen High Students and Hope Hill 6)
Sorry for the grammer or spelling mistakes.English is not my main language so...
Thank you and love you 🥰
Warnings: none
"What the fuck are you talking about ?"
Ranmaru smiled as Hyuga's voice echoed in the room.
"Come on, we're old friends. Besides, I've known her for years. If you approve-"
Hyuga frowned, looked at the man across from him and spoke in an angry tone.
“My sister will marry whomever she wants. She is not a commodity for sale. Mind your words Ranmaru, you know how much I respect her. Don't disrespect her!”
Ranmaru raised his hands to defend himself
"I respect her too. That's why I want to marry her. You know she's amazing."
Hyuga rolled his eyes and sighed. He didn't like this situation. It bothered him that he talked about his older sister when the man in front of him was a scumbag selling women.
"She already has a boyfriend. So cut it,Ranmaru."
Ranmaru grinned angrily.
"I don't know what a great woman like her finds in Rocky. Doesn't it bother you that he's with that guy?"
"This is none of your business!"
He looked at the young woman who had entered the room with the voice suddenly interrupting their conversation. Y/n leaned against the wall and glared angrily at the man sitting across from his brother.
"What the fuck is up with me or my boyfriend is none of your business. Now shut the fuck up and leave!"
Ranmaru looked at Hyuga, who looked confused too. His older sister was always kind. But he knew very well that she hated men like Ranmaru. So he silently looked at the two of them. Ranmaru got up and walked towards the door and stood in front of y/n
"I can make you happier than him, y/n, you know."
Y/n grinned and then looked up in disgust.
"I'd rather die than be with you, thank you" Ranmaru grinned and walked out the door angrily.
Y/n stood in front of her brother after he left and looked at him
"I don't like seeing that man here."
Hyuga rolled his eyes
"You know he's our ally."
"Ally? Come on, Hisa! You have the Sword, you don't need it!"
Hyuga rolled his eyes and lay down
"You're not even officially in the gang, so leave that to me."
Y/n looked at him in surprise at what her brother said. Hyuga realized what he was saying and quickly lifted his head and looked at his older sister. He knew what he had said was wrong, so he felt like he was screwing.
"Nee-chan-"
Y/n smiled and nodded
"You're right"
And she walked to the door without saying anything else. It wasn't the first fight between the two siblings. She also knew that her brother was saying it in anger, but she was really hurt. So she quickly walked out the door and left the temple. Hyuga exhaled angrily and lay down on the ground.
***
Some of the Rascals bowed respectfully the moment she entered Heaven's gate, and y/n bowed slightly to them. She tried to smile, but it was a little difficult considering how offended she was.
She walked up the stairs and smiled at Koo, who greeted her.
"Good evening y/n-san! You look beautiful as always."
Y/n smiled sadly and thanked him.
"Is Rocky upstairs?"
Koo nodded his head and she asked again,
"Is he available, do you mind if I come in?"
Koo smiled and bent slightly and pointed to the stairs with his hand.
"We didn't know you were coming, but I'm sure he has always time for you"
Y/n smiled and nodded
"Thank you Koo-san and can I ask you something please?"
"What can I do for you y/n-san?"
"I think I need a drink. A strong one, please."
Koo had noticed the woman's melancholy demeanor all along, smiling and nodding his head.
"I'm sending it right away."
Y/n thanked him again and climbed the stairs. She walked into the private room and greeted the guys at the door and entered.
Although Rocky was surprised to see her, he smiled broadly and stood up.
"What a nice surprise it is!"
Y/n smiled faintly and walked to her waiting lover with open arms. She wrapped her arms around the tall man's waist and hugged him tightly.
Rocky sensed this different mood in her and knew something was wrong. He stroked the young woman's hair with his hand and gestured with his eyes to the men in the room.
"Hey, how was your day? You look tired"
Y/n smiled and nodded
"I'm not really tired-"
"Did something happen ?"
Y/n smiled
"I just wanted to see you."
Rocky smiled and took his girlfriend's hand and led her to the sofa. They sat on the sofa together and hugged.
"Y/n... do you want to tell me what happened or-"
"We had an argument with Hisa."
Rocky nodded silently.
"Again we disagreed on one thing and... you know... he said I'm not officially in the gang" she sighed "Actually he's right. But Daruma is my family and I want to protect them. And I know my brother isn't always thinking about the end. That's why... I don't know, it just hurt me being told like that to my face..."
Rocky nodded his head
"I know he didn't mean it on purpose... we always fight and always say mean things. But I'm still upset."
Rocky smiled and patted the young woman's shoulder.
“I know how much Hyuga loves you. And how much he cares for you."
Y/n nodded and stroked the necklace around her neck.
"I know... you're right... never mind, I just want to hug you and relax a bit. Okay?"
Rocky smiled and rested his lover's head on his chest. He hugged the young woman tightly and started playing with her hair.
He could feel how upset she was. Y/n seemed very strong, but she was a very fragile person. She always thought of others before herself. That's why he knew that at times like this, she would only come to him.
***
Hyuga didn't get much sleep that night. He felt guilty for what he said to his older sister. Actually at that moment, he was angry with Ranmaru and didn't want to act like that.
In the morning, when her sister still did not return, he started to worry.
He called his sister several times, but when she didn't pick up, he texted Rocky. It was early morning, but Rocky opened his eyes at the text message and checked his phone.
Seeing the message from Hyuga, he slowly pulled his arm away from the young woman and answered the message.
Hyuga relaxed and sighed at the incoming message. At least his older sister was safe. He could now sleep peacefully.
***
When Rocky woke up and told y/n that his brother was asking about her and he was worried, y/n didn't want to go any further. She said goodbye to Rocky and left.
Although he wanted to drop her off, she said there was no need and she wanted to go shopping.
***
After buying a few things from a shop in the Sannoh area, y/n left the shop and waited for a taxi. She was also stepping while waiting.
Her eyes widened as she frowned as a black car suddenly stopped in front of her. Although she wanted to escape, everything happened suddenly and the men caught y/n and forced her into the car. Y/n wanted to resist, but stopped struggling with the knife held to her throat and swallowed.
***
Those who saw the incident in the vicinity told the Hodlum Squad about the incident. They handed the necklace found on the ground to their leader, and Cobra's eyes opened wide.
"This necklace... the Daruma symbol... I've seen this necklace before."
Yamato cried out in excitement as he examined the necklace in Cobra's hand.
"Isn't that y/n-san's necklace?"
Cobra looked at his friend in horror. If this necklace belonged to the kidnapped person, it meant Doubt kidnapped Y/n Hyuga.
"Y/n-san... we need to talk to Hyuga and Rocky. Tell Daruma and Rascals that we need to meet immediately."
***
When All Sword met again in the old warehouse, Hyuga sat down in the sofa angrily.
"I said there would be no alliance. Why did you gather us all here at this time of day, Cobra?"
"Do you know where Y/n-san is?" At Cobra's words, Rocky and Hyuga looked at Cobra in surprise. Hyuga spoke angrily.
"What does that mean now? What does it have to do with my sister?"
Rocky also asked curiously.
"What's going on Cobra?"
Cobra took a deep breath and took out a necklace from his pocket. He handed it to Hyuga, and Hyuga looked at the necklace in his hand in surprise.
"A young woman was abducted from an alley in Sannoh 2 hours ago. The people around found this necklace. I saw this necklace before on y/n-san."
Hyuga stood up in fear and stood in front of Cobra. He grabbed the blonde man by the collar and pulled him towards him.
"You're telling me now that Doubt kidnapped my sister?"
Rocky spoke with concern
"Y/n left a few hours ago. She said she was going shopping-"
"You let her go alone?"
Hyuga roared in anger and Rocky responded in kind
"You know your sister doesn't like that kind of thing!"
Hyuga sighed angrily and ran his hand through his hair.
"You should have been protecting her!"
"You shouldn't have disrespected her in the first place!"
Cobra intervened when Hyuga and Rocky faced off
"Cut it out! We know Doubt took her. What I don't understand is that Daruma was on good terms with Doubt?"
Hyuga thought about what had happened when Cobra asked Hyuga. His eyes flashed when he remembered what had happened.
"Son of a bitch!"
He explained when everyone looked at him
"He said he wanted to marry Y/n-"
"What?" Rocky yelled angrily, "And you didn't tell me that?"
Hyuga rolled his eyes "I just thought he was just messing with me. And I'm pretty sure he kidnapped her because of you."
Rocky clenched his jaw as Hyuga gave Rocky a look.
"I'm going to kill that son of a bitch. I don't care what happens. I'll burn the whole Sword if he hurts my sister!"
Everyone in the warehouse flinched when Hyuga shouted in anger. Everyone knew how crazy the Daruma leader was, and he would undoubtedly do as he said.
***
When Y/n opened her eyes again, she was in a warehouse. She was tied to a chair and her whole body ached. The dried blood on her face was making her sick to her stomach.
When someone entered the warehouse again, she lifted her head and looked at the grinning man across from her.
"You turned out to be too resistant. I thought you'd die."
Y/n rolled her eyes and lowered her head. The pain in her body was hurting. Ranmaru angrily approached and raised her head, holding the young woman's hair.
"You would rather die than be with me... do you still agree y/n-chan?"
Y/n smiled and spit in the face of the man across from her.
"I'm more sure now!"
Ranmaru wiped his face and grinned. He punched the young woman hard and y/n fell to the floor with the chair.
"You will beg for death y/n, don't forget those words."
After kicking the young woman for a while, Ranmaru left the warehouse. After writhing on the floor in pain, Y/n looked at the warehouse for a while.
It was dark, but her eyes were getting used to the dark. She didn't know if there was anyone in front of the warehouse, but there was no one inside.
***
Hyuga was terrorizing as all the Sword members scoured the city. He was beating to death anyone he suspected, the peoples cries could be heard in Daruma. A provoked Hyuga was the worst.
Rocky was gathering information on Doubt. But there was no sign of y/n. And these two men were running out of patience.
***
Y/n had rubbed the ropes on the ground for hours. Her hands that were rubbing against the ground with the rope hurt so much that her eyes filled with tears.
But she couldn't give up. On the one hand, she was thinking about what his crazy brother could do.
When the ropes suddenly broke, y/n opened her eyes excitedly. She brought her hands in front of her and reached to her feet and untied the ropes.
She didn't care, even though her body hurt every time she moved, and walked to the back of the warehouse.
Luckily, no one thought she could untie the ropes. There was no one behind the warehouse and it was opening into a wooded area.
She felt that she was approaching the city as the trees dwindled. She knew she looked bloodied and scary, but she didn't care.
She headed for the first settlement she saw in front of her. There were old buildings and ruined houses. She recognized this place at first sight.
It was the Nameless street. As soon as Y/n entered the street, she realized that someone was following her.
Even though she was nervous because she entered the street without permission, she stopped and called out.
"I know you're there. Please tell Smoky. I'm y/n Hyuga!"
When no one showed up, y/n continued walking down the street. She ignored the strange looks of the people around her. She was so weak, hurt and tired.
After a few steps, her knees couldn't carry her and she fell to her knees. She started coughing from walking for a long time and groaned in pain
"Y/n-san!"
The young woman stood up at the familiar voice she heard and turned around. She smiled at the Rude Boys' Leader she saw in front of her and stepped towards him.
"Smoky!"
She staggered a few steps later, and Pi and Takeshi quickly grabbed the young woman and gently placed her on the ground.
"Bring water!"
Smoky crouched down and looked at the young woman with concern.
"Everybody's looking for you. Are you okay?"
Y/n nodded
"They might be chasing after me. Sorry, this was the closest Sword zone."
Smoky shook his head
"You don't have to apologize. We're glad you're okay. We were so worried about you. And don't worry, no one can get you out of here before they pass us."
Y/n smiled and took the water Pi was holding out. As she tried to drink the water with trembling hands, the boys looked pityingly at the young woman's bloody hands.
Takeshi took the water bottle and helped the young woman. Y/n smiled and slowly drank the water.
"Thank you"
Pi smiled and helped the young woman get up. Pi was worried when they saw that she was too tired to stand.
"Y/n-san, I can carry you. You're injured, please don't tire yourself any further."
Y/n reluctantly agreed, and the red-haired youth took the young woman on his back.
"Takeshi, inform all Sword. Inform Daruma first, we need to stop Hyuga as soon as possible."
Takeshi nodded and left the nameless street with a few guys.
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When Y/n opened her eyes, Lala and Pi were patching up her hands. When the young woman turned her head, she met Smoky and Smoky offered a small smile.
"They will notify Hyuga, I think you should go to the hospital."
Y/n nodded
"Thank you for everything."
Smoky smiled "Everyone here respects you. So do I. The kids love you. Everyone will do anything to protect you without a second thought."
Y/n smiled and nodded
"I'm grateful. And well... sorry for my brother's wrath..."
Smoky smiled as Pi and Lala giggled
"Family is everything. I can understand him." Everyone looked at the door with the man who had quickly entered the room at that time. Hyuga stood at the entrance of the room and stared at his older sister for a few seconds.
Y/n smiled and teased
"Do I really look that ugly?"
Although she chuckled, Hyuga quickly came to the bed where the young woman lay and Pi stepped aside.
Hyuga studied her sister for a while. There were wounds and bruises on her face. Moreover, she was covered in blood. Her hands were bandaged. Who knows what wounds he hadn't seen yet.
"I'm fine... it just hurts a little."
Hyuga shook his head.
"I'll take you to the hospital. The guys are waiting outside."
Y/n nodded and smiled.Hyuga lifted the blanket draped over the young woman and gently took her in his arms. As the young woman groaned in pain, Hyuga cursed and apologized.
He then turned to Smoky.
"Thank you. I won't forget it."
Smoky shook his head
"Just calm down a bit and take care of her." Hyuga nodded seriously as Y/n chuckled at what she heard and led the young woman out of the building.
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Hyuga was sitting in the hospital corridor with the twins while the doctors were doing their examinations.
He looked in that direction with the leader who had suddenly entered the corridor. Rocky nervously moved to the seats with Koo and stood in front of Hyuga.
"Is he okay?"
Hyuga nodded his head.
"The doctors say there is nothing life-threatening, but she has fractures in her body. And she has bruises and sores all over her, she'll be in a lot of pain for a while."
Rocky nodded his head as he clenched his fist in anger. He was angry, at himself, at everyone, at everything.
"Did you find anything? Do you know where that motherfucker is?"
Rocky shook his head "We found a clue but he got away"
Hyuga shook his head angrily. "I'm going to kill him with my own hands."
Rocky didn't say anything. He was thinking the same thing, but all he cared about right now was whether his girlfriend was okay.
When the doctor left the room they both stood in front of the doctor "The patient's condition is good. As I said, there is no life-threatening danger, but she has many wounds and fractures. Healing will take time. You can see the patient, but please do not tire."
After they both nodded, Hyuga placed his hand on Rocky's shoulder.
"You go first, I've already seen her."
Rocky nodded and walked in. He smiled when he entered the room and saw y/n fiddling with the bed control. And he caught her attention with a fake cough.
Y/n smiled broadly at the person she saw when she lifted her head.
"Hey, it's been a long time"
Rocky nodded and sat down in the chair next to the bed. The young man's face fell with bruises on her face and bandages on her hands. Y/n sighed after realizing this.
"It's been an adventurous day, huh?"
Rocky rolled his eyes "Are you okay? I'm really asking y/n. He didn't touch you, did he?"
Y/n shook her head when she understood the question and Rocky sighed deeply.
"Does it hurt a lot?"
Y/n smiled and nodded "I don't feel much thanks to the painkillers. But I'm very sleepy."
Rocky shook his head
"I... I should have come with you. I should have guessed this would happen. I'm sorry I couldn't protect you."
Y/n frowned "How would we know? Rocky, it's not your fault. It was my fault-"
Rocky quickly shook his head. "It's my job to protect you y/n!"
Y/n sighed "You're not god, Rocky. You can't always be by my side or protect me. So stop that stupid thought, it wasn't your fault."
Rocky didn't say anything, though he wasn't convinced.
"Where's Hisa? He worries me."
"He's sitting outside."
Y/n nodded "I know he blames himself too and wants to do something stupid. Please stop him Rocky. I'm not strong enough to stop him, but I don't want him to do anything stupid-"
"I know exactly what he wants to do y/n and I can't blame him."
"This won't make me happy. It won't change what happened. I just don't want any more trouble. Please..."
Rocky nodded and smiled. He didn't want to worry the young woman, but he was thinking the same thing.
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hi there!! i've seen some other anons ask u for advice/thoughts so i hope this is ok to ask but feel free to ignore if not/if u dont have the energy lol i'm just Frazzled and looking for insight !!
i'm in a v new relationship, my first ever and i'm 23 so i have gone a VERY long time without experiencing relationship-y things and i have absolutely no idea what i'm doing lol. he is understanding about my inexperience but after our 4th date yesterday i realized he's a lot more... tactile?? and flirty than i was expecting. i am Very easily flustered by all this as u can imagine (being alone and generally non-touchy for 2 decades will do that ig lol) and i genuinely have no idea how to respond/reciprocate?? like it's kind of nice, it's the kind of thing i always dreamed of really! but now that i'm really experiencing it i just feel so awkward and uncomfy and idk how to bring it up without hurting his feelings lol. like, cuddling?? making out??? i don't rly Get It ig, like we would kiss for max like 30 seconds and i'd have to pull back and stop bc it's so overwhelming to me, but he just seems so comfortable and open that i feel bad that i'm not lol. i feel like i wanna become more comfortable with it but i also feel like i need him to take it slower yk??
idk, ig i was just wondering what your thoughts on all this are and whether you had any ideas on how to broach this... i'm clueless lol. (also, sorry for the novel omg)
ok standard disclaimer that im just a little dude (gender neutral) and haven't been in a long term relationship so take what i say w/ a grain of salt - u know ur own situation much better than me!
ftr i think everyone moves at their own pace when it comes to physical affection / flirting and while it's amazing n loads of fun it can also be very stressful and tiring and vulnerable esp. if it's new so you definitely have nothing to feel bad about in terms of not being up for everything yet! it's good you're not feeling pressured into things and that you're giving yourself time to acclimatise.
i also think it's a great idea to communicate this stuff to him. obvs I don't know you or him but it sounds like it's more a question of pacing / taking things slow and I'm sure he'd want you to be comfortable first and foremost, so I would try not to worry about hurting his feelings? from his perspective I feel like if he knows your boundaries he can go about doing things at a speed that's going to be more enjoyable for both of you, and as you get more comfortable you guys will b able to figure out what u like doing together.
basically: bringing this stuff up is definitely scary but it sounds like ur in a relationship with someone who's willing to be understanding and like, once u and ur partner are on the same page abt physical stuff it feels sooo much more amazing even if ur barely 'doing' anything at all
#i hope this is okay i realise on rereading this that#you kinda said 'i wanna tell my partner abt x'#and i kinda said 'yeah you should tell him abt x!'#but i hope that the point i was tryna make came across which is that having these discussions can genuinely be really beneficial for#both parties and that#it sounds like he wld be mature enough to understand that and to modify what he's doing to take it at ur pace and thatl#that'd probably b more fun for both of u#anyway: congrats on the partner he sounds rlly sweet and ur doing great!!! hope this was an ok response im here if u have follow ups or w/#w/e*#flusterasks
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Hawks x Reader: Bad Idea
Another self indulgent Hawks fic that I've literally had in my notes for months. He lives in my head rent free along with my other 22 fake boyfriend's because I'm ✨mentally unstable.✨ It is a song fic tho, Bad Idea ft. Shiloh Dynasty https://youtu.be/kH9hJnT7KkE
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Tw: food, depression, Hawks is honestly just feeling it bro- same dude,
Word count: almost 2k? I think
Requests are open! Honestly I'm probably terrible but the only things I can think to write are those imaginary situations I put myself in
(Y/L/N)- your last name
(Y/N)- your name
Thoughts or emphasized talk are in italics
Also idk why but I imagine he removes his feathers to shower since they probably need different cleaning conditions and also they just seem like a hassle in showers.
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Here he was, the number two prohero. Everyone assumed his life was perfect, anything he wanted served on a gold platter. He felt the guilt creep up into him.
I should be thankful. The thoughts ate away at his mind in the rare seconds he got alone. You shouldn't be so selfish. So annoying. So insufferable.
Takami pushed these thoughts back. "No one needs to know how you think, Keigo." He whispers out to himself in his office.
He scrawled at paper work, trying to not let the self depreciating thoughts feast away on his mind. Unfortunately for him, different thoughts came up.
His best friend, Rumi had this friend. (Y/L/N). Smart, attractive, sometimes a little rough around the edges, but amazing. He found his mind wandering to them all too often.
They were mostly unknown, despite their insanely strong quirk. They preferred to stay out of the lime-light, through that irritable exterior sat overwhelming anxiety and shyness. But they always denied it.
He stopped himself as he realized he's spent 10 minutes only thinking of them, a friend. Yeah right.
He lazily walked out of the office waving to all his employees as he made his way outside. His eyes slowly dragged to the darkly faded blue sky, dusted in clouds. Cold, tired, aching. Just how he felt.
He took a slow brisk flight to his house, feeling the wind bash his face and the air flow through his feathers. He gently placed a foot on the metal railing of his balcony, taking a deep step to the ground and opening the door.
The emptiness rung through his apartment like a blaring siren. You have everything. How can you still want more?
The voices in his head screamed and clawed their way out. You're nobody. No one ever loved you. You're so alone. You're nothing but a tool to the commission. You're actual character is useless.
He shed his coat, boots, and pants. Looking to himself in the mirror as he removed most of his feathers. He looked exhausted as he stumbled into the shower, numbly.
The next ten minutes seemed to elude him when he wondered how much time has gone by of him staring at the shower wall blankly.
He dried off a bit then looked around his kitchen for something to eat. Have I eaten today? The buzz and light of his phone on the counter startled him.
"Hey, Hawks." A single, simple message from (Y/L/N). Okay don't panic.
"What's up?" He replied swiftly.
"I had this feeling something was wrong and wanted to check up on you."
"Why would you think that?" He tried to play it off like it wasn't true without actually lying.
"I'm not sure. Do you maybe wanna join me?" You asked.
"Where?"
"Well, every once in awhile when I need a break I go and stargaze with a night picnic. It helps me relax, and if you think it might help I'd want to. I can tell something's off." You were always so convincing. It felt like you weren't too nosy or snoopy but you understood.
"Text me where to be and when?" He let out a gentle smile at his phone.
"The dollar store on 4th in 10 minutes? So we can choose some snacks together?"
"I'll be there."
Did Takami think any problems where going to be solved with some food in the dark? No. But would he skip the opportunity to be with you, to find out how he really felt when it was just you two? Absolutely not.
He landed down on the broken pavement outside of the old dollar store, scanning around to see you.
"Boo!" A bump from behind had him flinching to see the sound as you stood behind him giggling. "Got ya."
"Very funny (Y/L/N) the most amazing trick yet." He rolled his eyes with a slight smile.
"C'mon let's go grab a bunch of terrible snacks and call it a picnic, bird brain."
You two walked into the store and walked a large circle around it, choosing chips and candy and drinks at your leisure. Once you got to the counter, he fights you to his wallet.
"It's my picnic."
"And I'm the very special guest who was so generously invited. I'm paying." He grins as you pout at him.
Grabbing the bags you placed them in the back seat as you offered passenger side to him.
"I don't like cars."
"Why not?"
"Cramps my wings."
You look at him with the biggest puppy eyes you can manage. "You already agreed to keep me company and pay for the snacks, let me do something for you?"
"Fine, but only cause you're pouting kid."
He gently sits in your passenger seat as you strap yourself in and turn the car on. The car hums and the music playing softly on the radio are the only things heard. The peace feeling too good to break.
Once you pull your car up into the parking lot of a small park and grab your bags, you begin leading him to your usual place.
"Hold these." You hand him the bags as you jump and climb up on top of a big metal container. You peer over the side with big eyes and a smile as you say to him, "now hand me the bags and do what I did!"
He looks at you with a wide smirk before simply flying up to join you. "Or you can do it the cheater's way." You pouted and bumped his shoulder.
"It's not cheating, it's using my resources." He says with a triumphant smirk.
"Your cheating resources." You pull out your gummy candies and started eating as you leaned back till you were laying down.
"Do you like the stars, Hawks?" You say like your sleep talking, staring into the night sky.
"Keigo." He shifts to lay down about a foot away from you. "You can call me, Keigo. And... I don't think I've ever taken time to look at the stars."
"No sneaking out away from parents to sit on vans and stargaze? Or watching the sunrise with a partner while eating fast food?"
"What kinda date is sitting in a car for hours staring at the sky and eating?" He laughs.
"Ah one that never really happened, he just said he would. But never mind that repressed shit." A sad laugh forces itself out as you stare between the stars.
"Was he cute?" He tried to sound funny but it came out more sympathetic.
"Sometimes," you laugh with him. "But he had really nice hands."
"Hands? That's an odd thing to find attractive." He turned his head over to look at you as your eyes seemed to burn holes in the dark milky blue sky.
He continued laughing with you about this guy but couldn't help an overwhelming feeling of jealousy. Who was he? Did he look anything like him? Was this recent?
"Keigo?" A voice snapped at his train or thought, "Yes, (Y/L/N)?" He replied rushed.
"Do you want your mini cookies?" You ask looking to him with the bag.
"Oh, yeah. Thanks." He mentions grabbing the bag from your finger tips.
He ate his cookies and thought as you seemed either lost in your head, or lost in the stars.
Loving you would be selfish. As such a high ranking hero, he's made a target for himself and anyone around him. He's broken down, can't feel. You obviously have other people on your mind. Someone like you wouldn't be single long.
"When did he leave?" He blurts out without thinking. Maybe it's a sore subject-
"Long ago." You look lost, your eyes searching and wandering but never grabbing hold of exactly where you should be. "Why?" Well I guess if I'm gonna start prying might as well go all the way.
"He thought that maybe he could love me. But now that's just ridiculous," you laugh coldly. "Who would love me?"
"Falling in love with you seems like a really bad idea. But not on your part." He whispers into the wind, hoping it'll carry his words away from you.
"What do you mean?" You look completely confused, almost scattered.
"You're quiet, and I'm someone who puts a spotlight on practically anyone around me. You'd constantly be put in danger. Plus I'm arrogant and cocky, nothing at all like you." He acted like he could see the stars as you could. He stared into them finding any way he could to avoid your eyes.
"You could get hurt or I could annoy you." He whispers.
"I had no idea you felt that way, Keigo." You whisper back, shock keeping your voice quiet.
His eyes burned holes into the night sky, he felt he shouldn't look at you. The mental image of you already wouldn't go away.
"You wanna know something, Keigo? I can read people like books, I can read stars like stories, and I can read in-between lines like they were in bold font. But, you always catch me off guard. Reading you is like a mystery novel. Sometimes intense, sometimes peaceful, but always keeping me wondering." You smile into the stars, you can tell he desperately doesn't want to see your eyes. "You're always leaving everyone on the edge of their seat, and when you leave you can't stop thinking of the next time you'll come. What you'll bring."
"I....I don't think I understand (Y/L/N)-" Keigo's soon cut off.
"(Y/N)"
"Well, (Y/N)- I don't think I understand." He tries to sit up and look at you.
"You catch me off guard, something about you speaks to me in ways I know you never actually would. I can see it, the way you stumble or hesitate. I can tell somethings scared you into silence." You've never had much chance to talk about the ways you analyze people, you wanted to tell him how you could tell the way he acted wasn't always good.
"I think you might be reading too much into this, kid." He tries to intervene.
"I get if you don't want to tell me." You stared up at the stars, waiting for him to do the same. "You see there?" You pointed to a star. "That's a constellation."
"They just look like stars." He seemed a bit disappointed that he couldn't see stars the way you did, with such knowledge and wonder in your eyes.
"That's cause they are," you giggled to him, "it's not like I can actually see the pictures either."
"You.. you can't?" He looked to you confused but slightly hopeful, how could they look at them but not see too?
"That's the whole point, Keigo. It's being able to see what's not really there. Sometimes I stare into the sky hoping to see any semblance of hope, but that's not how it is. You have to teach yourself to look at what could be there." He stared to you, a small content smile graced your face. You were beautiful.
"(Y/N)?"
"Yes?"
"Maybe, loving you isn't such a bad idea.." he looked remorseful, staring into the stars. Maybe he could see it too one day.
"What do you mean?" You glace to him.
"You see so much, you can read and see the things I want to see. I want to learn, (Y/N). I want to see how you do."
The smile on your face spread.
"I'd love to show you."
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Thank You and Presents?
Welcome to this semi-chaotic, passive aggressive post. I spent a good hour on this, so you mfs better read.
I've decided to combine these two posts, considering they go hand in hand, so bear with me.
I've been here for a month, and I've made so many new friends, read some amazing fics, and actually made friends with some of my writing inspirations themselves, which I cant even begin to comprehend so I won't try.
I've released four fics, two were shorter, but the ones I'm really proud of- Little Princess and Poison and Petals-i still can't believe I sat my ass down and started writing. This year has been a shit one, but never would I have thought I would start writing fanfiction. Let alone the long ass fics I write please.
So hitting 100 followers is even more of a foreign concept, but thank you so much! I'm bewildered that people actually ready my shit and the fact some want to be tagged in stuff, and the fact it's only been a month? What is reality-
And some of y'all see my shit posts and deal with me- to that I say God bless you and your patience. You have to be some sort of heavenly being amen.
Honestly, some of y'all actually helped me through a lot of shit, and some even encouraged me with my first fic, which was the start of these shenanigans( whether this was a good idea or not, we shall never know)
Basically, thank you so much, it means a lot to me, it really makes my day when I see w new follow, or a reblog, or someone liking my shit posts about simping (I am sorry my dude) .
Now, since the year is ending, thank god, I've decided to give my moots presents, since I've seen a lot of people do this (originality went ✨yeet✨) and it's also like a thank you and appreciation message of sorts. Also because I'm nice.
Let the chaos begin:
@alicanta77 my first moot, and literally one of my biggest inspirations fir writing, she was with me when I was writing Poison and Petals, and encouraged me with everytime I hit a roadblock, or was feeling tired with it. She's such a talented writer, and her series are very well thought out. They deserve so much more love, because the effort, the plot, everything is immaculate, and felix, babe, I love you to death.
@danishmiilk my second moot on this hellhole and I hate you but I love you so I guess pemdas cancels that out. She is an amazing writer, her fics too deserve more attention. I honestly don't know what I would do without this bitch, we run the culture cafe together, and I'm such a dumbass at coding, but she does it(even if she does forget to add the https, but we won't talk about that okay) and she matches my chaotic energy perfectly. She's definitely not annoying (I wrote that with a straight face my dude, be proud), and I would do anything for her so yeah ily bye
@astroboy-lele furOU THE 40 YEAR OLD MAN ON FACEBOOK- I'm sorry, not really, oh well. Another underrated writer, her fics are really good too, and she was the one who encouraged me to start the net, and gave me the idea of a dark cafe aesthetic. She helped me with a lot of shit there too, and is a really good listener.
@orange-nimon-cross I scared as fuck of yunha, but I also love her. Shes honest and blunt af and I love that about her. She always gives me honest, actually helpful feedback a d if probably the first person I'd go to for said feedback. She deserves way more credit for her writing, its amazing, and her poetry? They're beautiful and deep and ineish I could write like that.
@rouiyan MISS REE ANOTHER WRITING INSPO AND A GREAT FRIEND honestly I met her and we just vibed tbh. She too helped me with my first fic by encouraging me, and I love her to death too. Very happy ahes back from hiatus, all my fists of love for you babe!
@yvezs mila I have no fucking clue what your posts mean half the time, but I love you anyways okay, you already know so I'm not gonna bother writing a long ass para, I'll annoy you later
@heartyyjeno ALESHA! honestly, she's so sweet, and her asks literally brighten up my day. Her writing is also amazing and just ugh, I love you and get very happy everytime I see you.
@moonbeamsung HANNAH BBY YOU'RE SO CUTE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH OMG you're the sweetest bean ever and your writing is the bomb.com. I hope we can get closer, because you never fail to make me feel better, or brighten up my day with a message or an ask.
@radiorenjun angie my fellow simp and hard stan letS GO- I know she's not always online, but she's always there when I need to simp, or when I need help with important descisions (what pic I should chose fir my lockcreen, for example) she's always there to simp for ten with me and our convos are questionable (she's seen my dark dark gallery man. If that's not friendship idk what it) . If you do want to summon her though, I suggest typing renjun or ten in a message, all caps.
@channoticedmeuwu kai. *heavy sigh* this bitch is honestly one of the best people, like she deals with ny shit posts, replIES TO THEM and even deals with my excessive simping like damn what angel are you (the fallen one, jK-) she also likes simping with me, even called for help once(it failed, but it's the thought that counts. She even tried helping me when my laptop fucked me over, which, surprise, it still is, but we barely even knew each other at the time?? How amazing is that?? But bitch stay the fuck away from taeyong thanks hyuck is the waiting.
@loonacitys I MET YOU TWO DAYS AGO BUT I ALREADY LOVE YOU WE LIVE I'M THE SAME DAMN CITY BYE OMG and she matches my crack head humour *cough* tHe gRoUp *cough* so yes another amazing hooman bean.
@sweetlyjaem she SIMPED WITH ME AMEN-
@ppangjae literally one of my biggest inspos for writing, I read seven letters and was inspired to pick up little princess again after it was sitting dying in a dark corner of google Docs for three days. Alex is so sweet, she didn't mind my chaotic awkward ass, and dealt with the long ass asks and the dozen of messages I sent her.
@kdongyoung ro is so sweet and chaotic I love it. Her edits are *chefs kiss* and she made my beautiful header which I will flex everytime I get the chance. We've not talked that much, but I still love you okay.
Moots I wanna know better-@jungwooisms @du0tine @moonttaeil @fruityutas @ooyoungs
I LOVE YOU ALL AND THANK YOU BYE
#thank you!#cant believe it tbh#ots only been a month of me being here#so getting this far is like what#anyways i appreciate all of you
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I knew this would happen. I accidently deleted an ask. Thank god I took a screenshot of it before deleting it...🙏🙏🙏
Whoever asked this, I'm praying that they will see this post.
WORD COUNT: 2,824
Vert x Reader x Alternative Vert
You settled in handler corners about a year ago and made friends with the people who work at spectre motors. But, one day you became awestruck for the fact that you saw them coming out of a portal. That's when you knew what they really do. You have been nagging them to bring you with them but Vert refused. The reason why is because he's afraid you might get hurt and also, you tried to ride the saber the other day. But, what happened was you drove it to the maximum speed limit. And you crashed his car on a giant rock. You hit your head on the glass real hard and ever since then, he's been treating you like a kid. So, you kept annoying Vert to the point where he gave up and said yes. But he told you to not walk around the battle zone and instead, stay with Stanford.
You were with them on the training tracks watching the solar eclipse through those special glasses that allows you to look at the sun, until Sage announced through their coms that a stormshock was detected, with a warning. Those solar flares could damage their vehicles. Vert turned to you with a serious expression. "Don't get out of the reverb. If you do, then it'll be the last time I'm taking you to a battlezone". You nodded in agreement. You hopped on the reverb and they all took off.
"Stay double frosty guys. Sage said those solar flares could do nasty stuff to our instruments." Vert warned. "Solar activity peak level coinciding with portal entry" Sage announced through the coms as Stanford kept touching a button on the touch screen of his reverb. "Might explain why my rear axle telemetry a bit dodgy." Stanford said.
"Caution. Battlezone may also be affected."
Everyone got inside the portal and arrived on a planet that looks really fimiliar. Like the ones they show on science fiction movies. "Looks like a standard alien desert to me." Spinner said. "Everybody make some dust. Find me a key!" Vert said as he went to the other direction. "As soon as I find out what's wrong my axle. Catch up with you." Stanford parked his car on an area near a mountain. You got annoyed because you couldn't see the rest of the zone for a bit.
Stanford got out of the reverb with a socket wrench that he carries with him. He crossed your arms as you watched him open the bonet. "First rule of a manual servo repair. Never need one." Stanford started to twist and turn some of the parts with the socket wrench. You grunted in annoyance. "Hey Stan. Can I get out and watch the view. I wanna walk around a bit." You asked. "No. Vert told me to make sure your inside the Reverb at all cost." Stanford replied. Not looking in your direction. "Come on! I don't wanna sit here! I just wanna walk!!!" You whined. But, he just ignored you. You looked outside and sighed. Then you got an idea. "Hey stan. I'll make a promise to you if you let me out." You said. He looked at you, a brow raised. "What promise?" He asked. "If you let me out, I'll tell Grace how amazing you are! I know you like her and I'm sure she'll listen to me. That way, she'll ask you out!" You said, with a big smile. He rubbed his chin and thought about it for a second. A smile formed on his face. "Okay! You can come out!" He said. You felt really happy and when you got out of the reverb, you gave Stanford a big hug. "Thank you!!!" You said, before going to the other side, enjoying the view.
You kept walking around until you saw something coming from the distance. It looked like a gold chariot... And it was coming towards you. You ran to Stanford and hid behind him. He gasped when he saw one of his enemies right in front of him. He dropped his socket wrench as the mutant like creature aimed his crossbow at him.
"Go on then! What are you waiting for fang face?!" Stanford said with pure hate. "Even though you humans want to destroy my world, I cannot attack an unarmed man." Kalus said. Stanford looked at him, confused. "Who are you? And what have you done with Kalus?" Stanford asked. "And you, are not acting like a member of the evil battle force 5!" Kallus exclaimed. "Evil battle force 5?" You whispered. Stanford looked at you, indicating he was confused, just as you.
"Mount your vehicle and let us battle as honour dictates." Kalus said. Stanford took a step back, almost stepping on your feet. "Uhh.... One moment..." He said before he spoke through his com. "Guys! Kalus has me in his crosshairs, but he's being... Honourable. Please advice." "On our way!" Vert replied as he and the others went to where Stanford stood.
You saw the team coming towards them from the distance. The tension was relieved.
"Huh! Typical Battle Force 5. Refusing to choose the Vandal code to settle our differences like gentleman!" Kalus spat.
"A vandal gentleman? Huh! In what world?" Sherman asked. "Maybe in this world. Sage said the battlezone could be affected. Captain Kalus! Wait! Please." Vert stopped the Saber infront of him. You and Stanford quickly got inside the Reverb and he aimed the sonic canons at Kalus. "Captain Kalus!" Vert called as he got out, without bringing his double edged sword. Kalus aimed his crossbow at him. "I'd like to speak with you! I've come unarmed." He walked towards him. "Vert! We've got him surrounded. What are you doing?!" Agura questioned. "Playing a hunch I'm about to wish I never had. Cover me but stay back." Vert said. Kalus got out of his chariot. "What kind of trickery is this?!" He questioned. Vert held out his arm, motioning Stanford to turn off the sonic canons.
"You... Ordered your team to stay back..." Kalus said. "I did. So, where is yours?" Vert asked. "Ugh! You know very well what happened to them!" Kalus said before sniffing Vert's uniform. "Or do you?" Kalus got surprised of the scent Vert had. It wasn't the same scent he was fimiliar with.
"It's not Kalus!" Vert turned around to the team. "Uhh... How many talking lions with crossbows are there riding around in gold chariots?" Agura was confused. Zoom came and stopped the chopper beside the tangler. "Just did a flyby on the battle key!" He said before turning to Vert. Surprised to see Kalus standing next to him. "Whoa! And we're not whipping lion butt why?" "Somehow those solar flares must of connected us to a dimention exactly opposite our own." Sherman explained. You gasped in surprise. "Am I gonna see the opposite version of the team?" You thought. "With good Vandals! (Idk what word he said after that... lol)" Stanford said, confused and surprised at the same time. "So where's the rest of your team?" Vert asked. "My good friends Hatch, Xever and Crocomodo were elimimated... Long ago...." Kalus said sadly. His face drooped down. You looked at him with pity. "By who?" Vert asked. "By.... Them...." Kalus pointed to the distance, as he heard a team of cars racing towards them. The whole team looked at the distance and saw their opposites. "Those look just like our rides!" Sherman exclaimed. "Normally it's between me and that battle force 5. Which exists only to conquer peacefull worlds..." Kalus said.
"Well... Look what we have here?" The alternative vert's voice was heard through the com. You gasped at how his tone was so.... Evil... "They look like us, but they're so... Clean." "Not after I'm done with them." "I wanna smash them. Into teeny tiny bits!" "Wow Sherm! That was nearly a complete sentence!" "Oh, you boys are like soooo immature!" "Shut your traps. First we get the key. Then we play...." A fit of evil laughter sent chills down your spine. Anti-Vert noticed you sitting with Stanford. He looked at you and winked. "Uhhh...." You had no words to say. "Whoa. Doppleganger dudes really got their fight on!" Spinner said. "Can't let 'em get the key. What do you need Zoom?" Vert asked. "Battle key is in the side of a mini mountain. Gonna need Agura!" Zoom replied. "Nothings out of my reach!" Agura said. "Agura go for the key. Everyone else on defense. Let's go!" The team charged towards their opposites. They looked at each other in pure hate. You gripped on your seat because of how fast the Reverb was going.
"Looks like those goodie goodies are gonna get in our way!" Anti-Spinner said. "Split up. Take 'em one on one." Anti-Vert ordered. The Saber's blades collided with each other. Anti-Vert's blade scraped past the Saber. Vert grunted in anger.
Anti-Vert's Saber got near the Reverb and he came to your side of the car. "Hey sexy! He thinks he's better than me. Let me show you what I can do." He said before charging towards Vert's Saber. Vert got really angry when his alternarive self called you "sexy". God, he wanted to punch his anti-self's perfect teeth. "If you are trying to challenge me, you're doing a terrible mistake! I'm gonna kick your butt!" Vert said. "That will be in your dreams. The woman/man is mine!" Anti-Vert said. "No, mine!" Vert muttered. "She/he is mine!"
You were watching the entire thing. Each time Vert gets pushed back by his anti self, Anti-Vert has a grin on his face. He knows you are still watching the fight. But, you suddenly can't see them because the Reverb has gone away from them. "Stanford. Follow the girl/boy and try to wreck their Reverb." Anti-Vert said. "Consider it done!" He said. You saw Anti-Stanford following the Reverb really tightly. "Ohmygosh. Please go faster!" You said. "I am!" Stanford swerved the car left and right. Trying to avoid the sonic attacks. His anti self got to your side and you gasped when he made his car push the Reverb to the side. Both Stanford and his evil self pushed each other back and forth. "Coming here was a bad idea..." You regreted annoying Vert. This is what Vert has been warning you about. Something like this always happen. Suddenly, Anti-Stanford pushed his vehicle too hard on the Reverb. Causing the mirror on your side to break. Shards of glasses fell onto your arm. It's sharp sides grazed your skin. Causing a cut on the thin layer of skin. But enough to bleed. It stinged a little. "We'll get away from.... Me..." Stanford somehow managed to turn the Reverb, making it face his anti self. They both sonic blasted each other. Stanford and his anti self took the hit, causing the Reverb to be pushed back. You hit your head really hard on the back and on the side..... The glass shards cut the side of your cheek. It started to bleed and your head hurts fr om hitting the back too hard. "(Y/N)!!! You're bleeding!!!" Stanford gasped in horror. "I'm... I'm okay... Just go!" You said. The Reverb took off, leaving Anti-Stanford alone. You started to feel nauseous and a splitting headache took place. "I... I don't feel so good..." You said, covering your mouth. Trying not to vomit because of how the Reverb's movement is. "I'll take you somewhere that'll keep you safe!" Stanford said.
Stanford parked the Reverb on a small cave. A cave where it's not clearly seen. Both you and Stanford got out. You sat on the floor, leaning onto the wall, as Stanford inspected your injuries. "I don't have an emergency kit. Sorry about that..." Stanford apologized. "N-no it's okay." You said, as you took out your handkerchief from your pocket. You placed it on your cheek, hoping the bleeding will stop. "I should be the onr who's sorry. I shouldn't have come here." You said sadly. "It's okay (Y/N)." Stanford smiled. "You stay here. The Reverb is already damaged. If you're in it, then it'll cause more injuries to you. Our opposites won't find you." Stanford said as he got inside the Reverb. He disappeared into the distance and you sighed. "I shouldn't have come here..."
Vert and his anti-self kept pushing their vehicles on each other, causing a lot of damage. He chuckled. "You already know that soon, the woman/man that you have brought with you on your mission will be mine! I already know it. You're weak!" He said. "Not gonna happen!" Vert shouted. Then Anti-Vert saw the Reverb coming out from the side of a mountain, but you weren't there with him. "Are you sure Vert?" Anti-Vert asked before violenly pushing Vert's Saber with his blades. Vert's vehicle flipped over and Anti-Vert went to where Stanford came.
You started to feel lightheaded and your head was throbbing and you placed your hand on the back of your head. You felt warm liquid covering your palm. It was blood. You sighed, praying the team will come back to get you. You laid down and curled up like a ball, trying to fall asleep. After a few minutes, you heard a vehicle coming towards you. It sounded like the Saber. You felt relieved for Vert being here and you got up... Only to see his alternative self staring at you. He chuckled. "Are you trying to rest my love?" He asked. "I'm not your love! Leave me alone!" You said, as you stood up. "You don't know what I am capable of. I'm way better than the Vert from your homeworld." He said. "Oh no no no. You are just a freak. I don't like men like you!" You shouted. He looked at you with no emotion. He took a step towards you and you took a step back. "Me? A freak? Ha! You don't know me well dear." Vert said. "And you don't know me as well. I'm capable of fighting you off. I have a black belt in karate!" You exclaimed. Suddenly, Anti-Vert just burst out into laughter. "Do you really expect me to believe that?! You don't look like the type to be violent." He said. "Oh, But I am. Don't mess with me!" You said. He took a step forward and you lunged at him, ready to punch his face. But, he grabbed both of your wrist. "Hm... A black belt in karate, huh?" He said, mockingly. "I-I just went e-easy on you!" You said, as you tried to pull yourself out of his grip. But, he was too strong. "Don't even try. You're weak!" He said. You mentally slapped yourself from doing that stupid move. The amount of energy you took to get out of his grip made you feel as if the world was spinning around you. Your legs became weak and you almost fell down, but Anti-Vert caught you. He grazed his fingers on the cut on your cheek. "Looks like Stanford got a little harsh on you...". "I'm very sorry about that..." He suddenly pinned you against a wall.
He looked at how vulnerable you are. It didn't take long to smash his lips onto yours. You couldn't protest as your body felt like jelly. He stopped kissing you as you bit his tongue harshly. "Gah!" He hissed in pain. You fell down on the floor. "D-don't do i-it a-again...." You spoke. Your voice was weak. The blood from his tongue starts to drip down from his mouth. "I would love my woman/man to be a little more compliant. I don't mind playful biting.... But, not in a way it'll stop someone from kissing you..." He said. "Go... To... Hell!" You spat. He just laughed. "You will be under my control when I take you away from them!" He said, with a wicked smile.
"STAY AWAY FROM HER YOU SACK OF SH*T!!!" Someone shouted from the distance. You both looked at who it was. It was Vert. Your Vert. He ran towards his anti-self and kicked him in the guts. Anti-Vert grunted in pain. "You will seriously gonna regret doing that!" He said. "YOU WILL SERIOUSLY GONNA REGRET TAKING MY WOMAN/MAN AWAY FROM ME!!!!" Vert shouted. Then, both Vert and his alternative self started to have a fist fight. You couldn't move or speak, and you laid down almost unconscious.
Vert somehow beaten his anti-self down. He ran to you and picked you up. "You're bleeding!!!" He gasped as he felt the warm liquid from your head. He ran out of the cave and placed you inside the Reverb. "Get her/him home! Now!" He ordered. Stanford nodded and he took you to the hub. He went back to the Saber and looked at his anti-self. "You and I are gonna have a fight. With our vehicles..." He said.
Part 2 (Coming Soon)
#hot wheels#hot wheels battle force 5#battle force 5#bf5#hwbf5#vert wheeler#agura ibaden#zoom takazeumi#sherman cortez#spinner cortez#stanford isaac rhodes iv#sage#evil vert#vert x reader#(y/n) (l/n)#i accidently deleted the ask
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i have been giggling at "i can't... bear... it" for a solid minute, which is probably longer than it should be? but whatever!! i love puns that was amazing
!!!!! x act lyy. FLIP A COIN. genius. wait wait wait i'm about to do something really dumb ok
*finger guns* heads up,, i have *wiggles eyebrows* Feelings for ya *swaggery grin*
yeah that was. idk. i apologize bestie <3
ay sibling affectionate bullying solidarity!! love that for us. that is fair judgement!! idk what younger me was thinking especially bc i didn't even WATCH the music videos so. yep.
FSJNDLKFHJLWKSDF I DIDNT KNOW WHAT ELSE TO WRITE BUT YEAH, THATS BASICALLY WHAT I'D WANT TO DO WITH MY CLONE. ohhhhh that and the spider man pointing meme because that would be funny too :D
huh. that's actually really smart and useful i wish i had thought of that shdfkljsdf. pranks would be fun!! oooh plus that would be the first time you actually see your own face, and not just a reflection/photo of it!
oooh okay that does sound really nice and organized and aesthetic-y now i'm tempted to try using widgets and whatnot fjsdl. very fair!! that sounds like a lovely day tbh, very vibey in all the right ways. yes!! so true!! other people saying words and things yeehaw <3. but yeah, youtube essays and commentaries are pretty interesting and fun to watch.
hmm maybe skydiving or jumping off the roof of a building. idk, that sounds fun but also maybe a little scary? so take the danger aspect out and i think it would still feel adrenaline-y but also less terrifying yknow. i can! kind of! i mean i had some sort of succulent that i mayormaynot have forgotten to water for months but it's still alive and thriving so that might count for something?? maybe??
i don't have a particular flower that i'd say is my favorite, but there's a flower called the galaxy petunia which is really pretty!! don't know much else about it but it looks cool :D. ooh ig libraries? because there's something about them that feels more fragile and paper-y than a bookstore, although bookstores are also really nice and have a wonderful feel to them.
can you keep plants alive? what's one of your favorite decorations in your room right now? what is something that you keep meaning to do, but always forget about? do you have a preference for what kind of jewelry you wear?
(ps i'm so sorry for replying to this late, but i hope you're doing great!!) - 🌵
SDGHSGSHSDJF HEADS UP I HAVE FEELINGS FOR YA. SWAGGY GRIN. IM LOSING MY SHIT. PLEASE.
oh my god yes YES the spider man pointy thing that would be absolutely incredible holy shit. i would kill for that.
dude dude yes try the widgets and aesthetics even if you don't keep it, it's a super fun procrastination method and just. a vibe.
damn skydiving or jumping off a roof !! really going out there i like that omg . yeah the idea of adrenaline without the danger would be great i think.
LMAO oh my god that's amazing. your succulent has more determination than i ever could so i admire it a lot. does it have a name by any chance ?
YOOOO DUDE galaxy petunias are GORGEOUS i just looked them up !!! omg !! im obsessed.
yes yes ok "more fragile and paper-y" sooo true. i feel like. okay hang on this won't make sense but i have to try. libraries hold years of knowledge they hold the stories of not only the books held in them but also every person who has stepped through the doors. every person who has brushed their fingers across the spine of a book every person who has curled up in a chair in the winter to get out of the cold every person who has gone through book after book every person who has only read a few every child who races through the shelves and excitedly consumes story after story every old person who sits in a circle with their friends to do their monthly book group. libraries hold communities and infinities and stories of the past and the present and the future. bookstores hold books.
anyways. i absolutely cannot keep plants alive. i own one fake plant and it is in a white pot with black spots so i named it moo. hmmm i have these ivy string lights and i haven't put them up yet (well i tried but they kept falling down) but i love them a lot.
there are SO MANY THINGS. ummm. god i dont even know hmmm. i guess ive just been meaning to watch a lot of shows and read a lot of books and write a bunch of fics and it's not that i forget all the time it's just that i. don't do it? even if i want to
hmmm i don't wear that much jewelry but i guess if i did i'd wear rings ?? they're cool :D or necklaces maybe. most likely rings. for fidget.
what's something small you really want to do but haven't been able to for whatever reason? what's something big? do you like it when people ask for your favorite things as icebreakers? like, favorite color/favorite song/favorite ice cream flavor? what was your favorite children's book?
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Happy thanksgiving!!
Thank you to everyone on Tumblr that has made this past few months so amazing for me. This has become my favorite place to escape the world from, and I've learned so many cool things and met so many amazing people that I never would've met.
I wanna give a small shoutout to a few people in particular though...
Thank you @kpopstolemywig, my best friend. We met a few years ago through shadow, and I never thought I would get very close to you. I'm so thankful that we're better friends now. I don't know what I'd do this year if not for you. I was kinda broken when I first went to this school, but now I know I have you to help me when I fall. I can talk to you about anything, and you can talk to me about anything. I know I get easily attached, but you're super nice and cool and I love you so much. Thank you for being my friend, and I hope you have a good thanksgiving. (Also stop breaking, you fragile little shit) I love you, my platonic gay bitch💙💙💙
Thank you @angelicleefelix for making the past two and half months so amazing for me. I love you so much, and thinking of you made my days bearable. I was very happy with you, and talking to you would be the highlight of my days. All good things must come to an end, but I hope that you can sort out things well. I'll always be here for you. Have a good thanksgiving, my angel💗
Thank you @jinglesungie for being a good friend these past few days. You're so relatable and I love it. You sent me amazing fics that I love, thank you. You're also just super nice and exciting to talk to and I love it! I hope that we continue being good friends into the future, you're super awesome!! Happy thanksgiving, my bud I can scream and cry with💚
Thank you @frostythefelix for being such a cool friend. We talked before, and you were so freaking nice to me and I kinda just fell in love help.... But then we started talking the other day, and you're still super cool omg! Happy thanksgiving, my friend💛
Thank you, the anon who was talking to me yesterday and today, idk who you are but you are so cool!! I hope we can continue talking!! Happy thanksgiving, my dear anon💜💜
Thank you @uwustraykids for helping me out the other day, it helped so much. I have yet to finish that project... But I think of you and how kind and helpful you were, and that makes me want to finish it quickly. I'll finish it soon I swear. But thank you for your encouragement and helpfulness. You didn't need to respond, but you did, and what could've been a bad night was more productive than I thought it'd be. Thank you very much, and happy thanksgiving, my encouraging friend. 🖤
Thank you to all of my friends that I've met over the past few months. Without y'all I would be so much worse off. I probably wouldn't see the point in facing every day. Y'all make me so damn happy, and I'm so glad that I met all of y'all. If we don't talk much, I still love you, and I'm sorry. If we talk often, hi I love you. Even if we've never talked, hi I love you, you might not consider us friends but oh well... happy thanksgiving, my Tumblr friends❤
If you don't celebrate thanksgiving, sorry. But I just wanna be thankful for the great things and people in my life. Cuz that's what thanksgiving is about. If you're reading this post, I love you, and thanks for being a part of my life and my Tumblr experience. It means the world to me.
Happy thanksgiving, my dudes!
#thanksgiving#personal#kpopstolemywig#angelicleefelix#(im kinda sad that thats the last time ill ever call you my angel cuz i promised myself this was the last time)#jinglesungie#frostythefelix#anon#uwustraykids#me @ my friends#i love yall
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Hi Fox! Just dropping by to say hi, to let you know I'm still here! |・ω・) <3
How are you doing these days? Also, before anything else, the theme is looking great!💗 I'm glad you found time to decorate it, it's gives off a pleasant vibe! I did checked your pc theme earlier too~ ☺️ Hmm... I don't have much to say at the moment, but have you tried Sumeru already? Do you have any thoughts on it? Personally, it's really a refreshing experience compared to Inazuma with thunderbolts and scary environment~ Port Ormos OST is my favorite !
I wonder if you're interested in pulling for Sumeru characters? (Or interested in leaks) I adore Dehya a lot, she's the Woman however I'll try to sacrifice primos for Kokomi this rerun if 50/50 would be merciful to me~ New academic year has just started last month for me, and I could only hope to be able to get through properly this year without trying to escape anything (:3_ヽ)_ I wish the same for you too, Fox! I can't wait for your efforts to be repaid back to you who always try their best ^_^*
I still remember that I have to let you know once I've written anything but that isn't going to happen right now 😆 I missed talking with you, however I may not be able to talk as much as I did before ( ´^` ) Literally have no battery left😅 Well, maybe talking with you will recharge me maybe 😚 Do you have any tips for constantly doing interactions with battery still recharged? 😆 See you around !
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my live reactions when i saw your ask
i recognized your hello instantly KFNDJBDJS HI 🍰!!! IT'S NICE TO HAVE YOU BACK!! ❤️ please ignore the duplicated paragraph, idk what's going on.
i've been... it's an uphill battle. i don't know if you were around when i took my long break from tumblr? but yeah. but how have you been??? thank you for the compliment on the theme ❤️ it was a scara one up until yesterday on mobile – given your dislike for him, i'd say you have impeccable timing coming back 🤣🤣 the green bg was a great suggestion from your part for the pc theme. i may change the sidebar pic for a xingqiu one on october, but we'll see.
i've been... it's an uphill battle. i don't know if you were around when i took my long break from tumblr? but yeah. but how have you been??? thank you for the compliment on the theme ❤️ it was a scara one up until yesterday on mobile – given your dislike for him, i'd say you have impeccable timing coming back 🤣🤣 the green bg was a great suggestion from your part for the pc theme. i may change the sidebar pic for a xingqiu one on october, but we'll see.
i have!!! man, i love sumeru. liyue feels comforting to me, but sumeru feels like home. maybe it's the rainforest. the ost is amazing, especially at night. i agree with your thoughts about inazuma lol there's less climbing too, and the enemies are fun. i didn't think id have fun fighting fungi or running from the animals, but here i am. i haven't done the entire archon quest yet, though. have you?
i am simping for the entirety of sumeru characters (minus nilou and nahida) (bro, dehya's eyes got me dead). i got kazuha so i'm not guaranteed and i'm really interested in getting tighnari, but i've been scared of losing him to keqing (again). if i do lose, the only other confirmed character i'm gonna go for right now is scara/wanderer in 3.3, and the others i'll try to get on their reruns if i'm still playing. i hope your 50/50 is kind to you!! 🥺 also yes!! i'm interested in leaks if there's any you'd like to talk about? 👀
funny you talk about academics 😅 i had to take a gap semester, so i'll only be back next year, but thank you for your wishes ❤️ i do wish you the best!! but take breaks if you need to!!!!!! how has the new academic year been treating you so far?
dude, writing happens when it happens, so don't worry; i'll be excited to read whatever you write whenever you write it, even if it's five years from now. as for talking and social batteries, i unfortunately can't help you there because i have no clue either 😂😂😂 it's alright if you can't talk as much, or if you take longer to reply and don't write long messages. i rambled a lot on this one because i got excited, but there's no need to reply to everything. i'm just thankful to know you're back.
see you!! 💖
#—new mail !#—the burrow's 🍰#i really have missed you friend#take your time ok? it's nice just knowing you're around (uwu)b#i know tighnari will be added to standard but it's not like you can choose who you're gonna get#me: replies and goes back to sleep#edit because tumblr. why did you duplicate the second paragraph when i replied.
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1st I have to say this b4 I repeat the post from fb. This is a place where I can speak my mind freely without judgement, speak my peace even. Which is exactly what im gonna do so prepare for a read. So think what u want idc, but the last thing I wanna do is tick some1 I know off cause on some level there's a mutual appreciation & respect regardless of my impression. And anyone that reads this isn't obligated to understand my opinion & I dont expect u to. With my brain its my thought process to let information out of my head so I can put things aside, observe & absorb more lol. Writing is another tool or coping mechanism for my anxieties & other psych ailments, treatment for my mental health depends on it & other hobbies in other words, especially during shutdown, something to focus on. Heck even youtube is recommended by my doctor if it keeps me happy lol. But because ill be working again, I may not have time to do alot of things I like sadly..idk i just wouldnt want to be burnt out & focus on more important things. I have a high respect for anyone working around people during this time & it must worrisome for u too, means I have to keep on my toes as well soon..its a scary world out there for an introvert but I was killin it in NY too. It was just a slow steady process with all the limitations & moving my life up there wasn't easy to begin with but I pulled through & did it all...only for it to be taken away.
So, I'm an Irish, German, Canadian,British Mut from tucson. Maternal & paternal immidiate families lineage mixed made me, including my NY blood from my bio dad. The rest is all over Europe but u get the idea. Tucson may be where i was born & my 1st home without a father & raised not knowing (were mardi gras babies btw 😒)
But NY is & will forever be my 2nd home i dont care what any1 says, I felt I belonged there. Its the other half of me quite literally.Theres a memory that's really been bugging me. Last day b4 i left it, a bald eagle flew across my path in the sky no joke going NE & I was departing back to the SW. I chose the eagle years ago cause I identify with it. including the background symbolism in different phases of my life that included them lol, but to actually see one was just amazing.
They symbolize strength+freedom in general despite it standing for the country from sea to shining sea lol. Also Braviary was always in my pokemon team besides pikachu since its gen came out lol. I've always been strong, whether some believe it to be true or not is their problem, only I know the things I've gone through. Point is different ends of the spectrum its always been with me throughout in some way & im glad i got to share it with someone that gave me the freedom I needed.
But yea I experienced what its like to be there & got to know that part of me even if I didn't find him & maybe didnt care...I feel I was meant to be there. I was in touch with my roots, lower Temps & above sea level rather than high temps & below sea level 🤣 I loved everything about my time up there. It'll always be a part of me, & I hope to see it again. But I digress.
But in regards to the relationship itself, emphasizing on what i said b4. Just as it i got "settled" in it was gone & I had no clue what was happening without my knowledge, the whole plan to bring me back, all of it, the whole chain of events that unfolded the way it did starting with leaving a marriage in the 1st place to be with him i mean come on lol. Chasing a dream that didn't play out the way we had hoped. I took leap of faith & I ended up starting over twice in 1 year with no benefit of the doubt. I still have my ny health insurance for the rest of the yr, I have to add it to my list to apply again in az. Ive been wearing the wrong prescription glasses for 6 months under quarantine & they're just now getting to stage 4 of opening lol. Just understand how frustrating that actually is for someone like me & u totally get it 😅 U want to take care of business but sometimes you're limited & gotta work around it. had all that covered there & then was told I settled, wrong thing to say & its no wonder I didn't blow up in his face right there & then 😒. But I have retraint & can control myself. Though it was out of my hands the new relationship didn't have to go sour, been just as long if not more, could've actually thrived given the proper balance with room to grow. Idk, Sometimes I honestly don't think anyone believed in me. I mean I have no debt, no record, no kids, im a clean slate type of girl lol. Yes I did end up feeling unappreciated, underestimated, a bit neglected, insecure about my body, ashamed for being myself, & I shouldn't have to feel that way at all & if that happens there obviously something off. I just didnt know what it is he wanted & needed, i wanted to help & be a good partner to this dude but why is it bad to ask the same in return? I shouldn't have to drastically change myself to fit someones standard i know, but...i needed the old him back, I missed the old us & wanted to get back to that.. Was always so closed off & probably ended up in his own head who knows, maybe there was guilt for some of the things he did & didnt want to hurt me anymore, spare my feelings any more than it did b4 it was too late.idk whatever the excuse i still don't know what triggered it all to fail so easily & i don't think i ever will. But ending up with the conclusion that I was the problem, its narcissistic to even believe that & i won't accept it. Not when he can't confront his own issuse & put blame onto himself too.. it was a low blow & literally felt like my heart was pierced at the sound of it. If im to blame its the other way around as well. My point of view wasn't acknowledged so this is my take & experiences of happened so plz dont hate me for speaking my truth.
But yea I can tell when somethings not right & feel strong empathy for others emotions. I knew something was different, there were signs everywhere since the mistrust started & during the last half of that time with him I questioned everything but sat in my own headspace as well as he did just thinking about it. If anything we failed eachother, the blame is on us both but idk what else i could've done to get through to him. That's the stubbornness, he wouldn't budge. Despite how things went down..Leaves me to think, what was the point of having me there in the 1st place, to not follow through with our shared hopes & dreams but instead spiral into such resentment for me that the interest faded. But at the at the same time...even if it ended early for him, I didn't give up & I fought to keep us okay which it was for the most part. Hindsight is 20/20, it definitely wasn't negative all the time. In fact things were great between us & acted like goofballs together, that right there is a friend despite if the stronger feelings weren't mutual. Nobody with hate in their heart acts like that, he was good, the best, cheered me up when I was down, shared interests & did things for eachother. But that alone makes me question what was truth & what was fiction sometimes ever since the trust between us started to fade. Am I in the right to feel what im feeling right now? Im angry & upset yes very, but the kindness he had throughout..he did care in his own way...which makes things so much harder.
Tripadoodle if some way you're listening, I hope u know now where im coming from. For your own benefit & quest to be a better man like you always wanted...actually try. Head my advice. Making yourself better shouldn't be put on a womans shoulders to do for u without her getting lifted in return...its alot of weight to handle for 1 person to carry lol. Get off your ass & build on yourself, learn from everything that happened & become better for yourself & the sake of others, Because it starts with u. Go to church if possible or watch them, it really does help. Even from across the country I still want u to do just as good & help u as a friend. You promised we could remain friends & im holding my end of the bargain whether u like it or not lol it was your idea during the ride here. All I wanted in the end was to not lose u in my life completely...but i should be patient i know.. Theres more space, im not contacting u directly & respecting that, eventually ill stfu lol but I feel I need this rn. I should hate u,but I cant hate u, I do still care, u had that affect on me so much that I can't really listen to others when they say ur a douchbag lol, u were still my rock the whole time even if u didn't feel the same after a while & u did help me alot as well. I see the good in people & u are good, with well balanced snarkiness & humorous sass to boot. light a fire under ur own ass & ull be okay lol. Never stopped believing in u. Ive seen what you can do, you're very smart & know your sh*t, u will go far lol. And as a friend I'd lend u my strength if I could but the most I can do is pray for things like safety/protection, healing, forgiveness, guidance, etc. Leave it to God if u feel compelled to. Give zanabell a hug for me.
God i talk way too much 😅 No im not doing any of this for attention, I want my voice to be heard as well as a possible learning experience if it had that effect on anyone. The things we learn build character & help us understand a little more about ourselves. Probably shouldn't share cuz its nobody's business, yea ive thought of that too.. But its a blog lol, Tumblr allowed it to be that space, opinions and rants are allowed & encouraged. Nothing wrong with that 🤷♀️ so who gives a crap.
These are pictures of the NY sunrise & AZ sunset. Clouds always get me cuz of the shapes, used to to take pics of them all the time. once saw mario holding a hammer when I was a kid 😂 3rd & 4th pic is a split rainbow, never seen that b4...either someone found the gold or its deciding whether or not to connect. Probably was connected but I missed it lol. But then I looked behind me after the split 1 disappeared & a double rainbow was forming. Nature can be scary but also beautiful
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anways pt 2 whoops:
i'd say maybe english? my teacher's pretty great. old but makes a lot of jokes about being old, and the class is quite entertaining. i,, have no idea. maybe prosthetics, because that's really interesting imo. or mental illnesses because that is also really interesting to learn about. idk i'm very indecisive in case you didn't know that already sdjlfkjs
i've read the catcher in the rye and the odyssey? i think those count right? uhh. catcher in the rye was alright, i thought holden was both relatable and a little whiny but yknow, so are most humans so at least he's being honest and realistic! but definitely not my favorite narrator :/ and the odyssey was also just alright. a little too old, if that makes sense? but i remember finding the representation of women kinda questionable so. oh also!! read romeo and juliet, that was ehh. okay. i think it would have been better to read on my own, and the way that we read it in class felt like the double suicide at the end was kinda foolish,, they knew each other for like twelve days and kissed maybe twice?? (if you couldn't tell based on my many keysmashes and half-finished sentences i'm not being very academically coherent rn, i apologize). probably a pair of olive converses? they were my cousins and tbh i only wore them a couple times bc they're too small but i think they look very swag.
have you read any classic literature, and what did you think of it? what was your favorite computer game as a kid? what hobby class did you take when you were younger that you'd be interested in taking up again (am i making any sense at all? ie cooking class -> now you're more interested in learning). favorite image on your desktop right now? and what does your dream phone case look like? - 🌵
PLEASE i was not aware of that actually </3
ooooh okay english is good. and dude ! prosthetics ?? that's so cool !! and yes ofc mental illnesses are FASCINATING seriously
hm okay i havent read either of those. ive heard very mixed reviews ab catcher in the rye and none good enough to think about reading it. the odyssey is for sure on my list !! oh yeah romeo and juliet is. a thing. yeah at the very least it's sometimes interesting to discuss. sometimes. DUDE olive converses sound SICK. oh my gosh.
I HAVE INDEED. i read pride and prejudice for school and good LORD it was so good. i think . i think it was very refreshing to read classic lit by a woman and honestly jane austen's sarcasm and snarkiness that she brought to the main character's pov was just. amazing. and i love that book a LOT. and there is just a lot of good memories associated with it :)
as a kid uhhh. did i play computer games i cant remember. hmmm. well i know i did hang on. oh dear god i think i played some typing game kinda obsessively but i can't remember what it was called.
oooh hobby class uhhh yeah i think it was a cooking class actually we made pesto pasta and i forgot all about it but i think cooking would be a very good skill to learn again lmao
hmmm. uhhhhhhhhhhh.
him (dilf) (also the shirt is soooo true i want it)
dream phone case is simply clear <3 i have one <3 yes i am a bisexual stereotype what about it huh
what's your favorite image on your desktop right now? would you ever want to be an explorer? opinion on math? what's something you regret spending a lot of time on? what's something you wish you'd devoted more time to? would you want a pet, and what kind of animal?
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