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I'm not someone who talks much in general. I'm not shy or anything, I just prefer keeping things for myself, especially if it's my struggles and my worries we're talking about. I have friends and family who care for me but sometimes -even if they ask about it- I can't bring myself to talk about what's on my mind. I have a diary and some people, some friends have read it some time ago. I won't let anyone read it any more. At first this diary I'm keeping was to record my journey as a transgender but now it's become something else. Depression and dysphoria keep fusing in a mess that even I can't describe and I'm the one who wrote it! And it's getting worse every time I write. Honestly it's suffocating. I was taught to stay silent, but this is not my true nature, I've come to be like this because of some little pieces of shit in my childhood. They taught me I was useless, I was stupid, that nobody loved me and they kept lying to me until the day I almost broke down. I thought I was over it, that I was done with that part of my life but here I am all alone in my room crying myself to sleep almost every night tormenting myself with these ghosts from my past while I wish everything to shut down and stay silent... I was a child, I'm an adult now, maybe I should just go to sleep... probably gonna delete this tomorrow, I'm more reasonable in the morning.. good night https://www.instagram.com/p/B-dF3DcJm9k/?igshid=152z0tjaj11cd

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Some more pics✌💙🏵 Read "Blue Lotus, White Lotus" guys! - - #free! #freeiwatobiswimclub #freeanime #freeeternalsummer #nagisahazuki #reiryugazaki #freecosplay #reiryugazakicosplay #nagisahazukicosplay #bluelotuswhitelotus #freesummer #iwatobi #reigisa #freearabian #cosplay #riminicomix #riminicomixcosplay #summer #summercosplay #freeeternalsummer #freeeternalsummercosplay #yaoi #freeyaoi #reigisacosplay (presso RIMINICOMIX) https://www.instagram.com/p/B8mqefliw50/?igshid=17m5chm7pmh51

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Me and @black_tea_and_red_roses cosplaying Nagisa and Rei from "Blue Lotus, White Lotus" a fanfic of Free! Photo by: @photosfromyogurt Edit by: me https://www.instagram.com/p/B8ihj0cKOjY/?igshid=12pj9mfx1chs4

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Some old memories of the cold war. - - #hetalia #hetaliacosplay #cosplay #rusame #hetaliarussia #hetaliaamerica #hetaliaaxispowers #hetalian #hetaliaitaly #novrego #novregocosplay #aph #aphrussia #aphamerica #coldwar #aphcoldwar #hetaliacoldwar #angst #hetaliaangst (presso Parco Esposizioni Novegro) https://www.instagram.com/p/B8cc4E2ohXr/?igshid=1dabc5djun7nr

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I was zapping on tv and found a national geographic broadcast, seems like this episode was about pigs🐷🐷 - - #hetalia #hetaliacosplay #cosplay #rusame #hetaliarussia #hetaliaamerica #hetaliaaxispowers #hetalian #hetaliaitaly #cosplayonice #cosplayonicemilano #funny #stupid #stupidamerica #cool #cute #aph #aphrussia #aphamerica #mcdonalds #salty #fatamerica #americaisfat #burger #mukbang (presso Assago Milanofiori Forum) https://www.instagram.com/p/B8aF5sqqtQZ/?igshid=1boeipi2bdpl1

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I wonder what I was thinking of in the first pic, never mind! Looking at the second one, I bet it was broccoli. I swear😇😇 - - #aph #aphrussia #hetalia #hetalian #hetaliacosplay #cosplay #russiacosplay #hetaliarussia #hetaliarussiacosplay #aphrussiacosplay #sunflower #ivanbraginski #evil #dreaming #cute (presso Parco Esposizioni Novegro) https://www.instagram.com/p/B8Yc5SIqnma/?igshid=ygbzr8dsswt3

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Found some old OLD stuff from my first hetalia day and also first cosplay ever!! I had so much fun that day even tho I was timid af, didn't know anyone and my lenses hurt at the end of the day. I miss those days when I was naive and didn't know what I was doing.. I still am. I found many friends thanks to hetalia, damn I even found a girlfriend and I met her on that day even tho we ended up together many years later... I don't know how to end this... I love myself and my friends, thank you guys, all of You! - - #hetalia #hetaliacosplay #cosplay #hetaliarussia #hetaliaaxispowers #hetalian #hetaliaday #hetaliaitaly #luccacomics #oldmemories #sad #happy #proud # (presso Luccacomix) https://www.instagram.com/p/B8XEDqtKnNz/?igshid=1cf7i0bx5fbhp

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I'm going to space soon! I'm so excited but there's one thing I don't understand... why do I have to be stuck with you?! @black_tea_and_red_roses - - #hetalia #hetaliacosplay #cosplay #rusame #hetaliarussia #hetaliaamerica #hetaliaspace #hetaliaaxispowers #hetalian #hetaliaitaly #novrego #novregocosplay #space #spacefilter #sunflower #cute (presso Parco Esposizioni Novegro) https://www.instagram.com/p/B8W8XylKoOR/?igshid=1jjn2mqd8o899

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Wow so cool! I want to do that too!

Character:Menhera Follow me on IG: _anayami for my other cosplay projects 😊

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Frozen yogurt and shopping it's the best!! https://www.instagram.com/p/BuD3AJ5nlsR/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1ja5qvm3so8gr

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At 20:00 I'll be joining my friend @black_tea_and_red_roses live stream here on Instagram! Come and watch us!!😘 we'll be both drawing (actually I'll start an animation😂) - - #stream #streaming #streaminglive #live #livestream #oc #ocs #animate #originalcharacter #originalcharacters #animation #drawings #draw #cartoon #drawingstyle #disegnare #disegno #animare https://www.instagram.com/p/Bs5pVBdnLqO/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1jckeiyqc4d5p

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At 20:30 live here on Instagram! I'll be making plushes Yay! - - #stream #streaming #streaminglive #live #livestream #plush #plushies #peluche #peluches #oc #ocs #pupazzi #bambole #originalcharacter #originalcharacters https://www.instagram.com/p/BsqbhXnHSHO/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=l20cnrgvzpn4

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Memo for me: "hot chocolate made with soy milk is the best" - - #vegan #veganfood #veganbeverage #soy #soymilk #hotchocolate #chocolate #cioccolatacalda #cioccolata #lattedisoia #vegano https://www.instagram.com/p/Bsgj02nn2CU/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1d1pqcw14qw8s

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Charcoal is hard to eat!😫 - - #charcoal #eat #candy #hardcandy #epifania #befana #witch #sweet https://www.instagram.com/p/BsdbHuQHv7s/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=p4rhk7z5z9ig

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True emo~ #emo #emoboy #emotrans #dark #goth #gothboy #piercing #fakepiercing #glasses #trans #wig #wigs #asexual #cap #parrucca #blackandwhite #ocs #oc #gotico #occhiali (presso Foggia, Italy) https://www.instagram.com/p/BsJRV8TnHZW/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=lllx9vy73tyg

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When you ask yourself: "what's behind those beautiful, sexy hair"... GOOGLY EYES!! - - I DID NOT made the character design, just the plush. @ew.pathy is the original creator - #plush #plushies #plushmaker #plushmaking #ocs #oc #fromafriend #googlyeyes https://www.instagram.com/p/Br_HM4SneA0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1gegwh8refgec

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When they ask you if you have a boyfriend... yes! Definitely!! - - #plush #plushies #mochi #mochihetalia #hetaliamochi #axispowershetalia #givememymellow https://www.instagram.com/p/BraghIOnN2B/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=7e3skc24xmzv