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The full moon lunar eclipse with a dazzling comet passing by demands that I wear my favorite transparent deep blue shirt and a blue goldstone pendant, the carrier of courage, ambition, and positive attitude.

Because tonight I’m starting over. I cut off my past regrets, my delusions and my vices with the power of my own consciousness.

 I look to the horizon with a clear mind.

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I’ve recently learned that it is way more interesting to read tarot for others. You are not so intensely invested, your mental processes are not so clouded by the wants of the ego, that you can see clearer images and feel with the heart. 

This reading was done mid-December for a dear friend with whom I’ve maintained a close relationship for almost 20 years despite having lived on a different continent for the past 10.

My friend is recovering from a painful, unexpected breakup, and is having trouble opening up to the future. I chose to read a spread used for those who are stuck, and could use a colorful advice.

Current state: Seven of Cups, Debauch

You feel deceived, cheated on, or mislead because you gave yourself too easy. Your temporary success  success was a mere delusion. In fact, you deluded yourself, and counted on promises which were not kept.

Let’s take a look at different aspects of your situation.

Family, roots, bloodline: Princess of Cups (reversed)

You feel fragile and vulnerable; possibly not getting the support you need from your family, which increases your tendencies to internalize - escape into yourself and let your imagination without control.

Family suggestion: Six of Swords

Clear your mind, add a bit of a scientific approach (analytical thinking helps navigate the emotions of the cups) and use that imagination to look at the big picture. See the unity/union of people who may not be related to you through blood, but people to whom you can relate. Also, make contact with your idea of "god" or higher power.

Relationships, social connections: Eight of Cups, Indolence

The Debauch of the 7 of cups has reached a tangible disappointment right here, in your relationship realm. You see through the delusion and now you're numb, and stuck. You have trouble finding logic and structure (let alone meaning) in this situation. It is time to abandon the past and even elevate yourself above the stagnating present; open your mind and your eyes to upcoming changes. Stop indulging yourself in self-victimization, but also be careful not to judge yourself (your situation is way too sensitive. DON'T JUDGE! Respect yourself enough to walk away from relationships that no longer serves you, grows you, makes you happy (including your mental/emotional patterns). Pay attention to what you need - you deserve  to receive from others exactly what you are prepared to give to yourself.

Relationship suggestion: Princess of Swords

She is immensely curious, always searching for knowledge and quick understanding. You deserve answers. So make sure you ask questions. Ask the right questions in a kind, loving manner. But be prepared for hard, maybe even unfair answers. I don't mean that's what you will get. Just be prepared.

Love: Art/Temperance (reversed)

A complex object of love has been shattered. Things are falling apart for you; your ability to feel any kind of love is severely damaged, and you’re in  disharmony. However, there is potential for a positive outcome through temperance and discipline. Art is numbered 14, which will be an important connection to the following card.

 Love suggestion:  Death (13) - so, obviously, it would be good to take a step back. Death is the card of rebirth (and of scorpio, who remembers forever and doesn't like to forgive). But you have to forgive, and start over. Try writing about two or three times your life changed so dramatically that it made you become someone else. Remind yourself of that. And burn bridges. Bury all old, and make space for something new. It doesn't have to be love in term of romance, but it's always about your ability to feel it. Death has a direct connection with the Seven cups (your general situation card) through Scorpio, advising you to heal/improve your situation through sobriety and clear mind (with the help of previously mentioned Princess of Cups) - so just take it easy, do a detox (physical, mental...). Death is also related to the Root chakra, namely to its purging function (defecation, detoxication). You have to push it out of your system, even if that means a mechanical purge, in order to start over

Finances and material resources: Nine of disks, Gain

You have the ability to bring luxury and wealth into your world, so be grateful for it. This is the card of material completion and deserved material happiness. It gives you a chance to give back to life, so you can keep the flow coming back in

Financial advice: Ace of Cups

Invest into something new that fills you with love, brings you happiness, and fulfills your emotional needs. Something that clears the waters of the mud (look at the card - there is mud all around the cup). It might be an impulse, or it might be something you've been thinking about, but now is presenting with a new, stronger force. So go for it, unconditionally.

Work, creative drive: Knight of Wands (reversed)

I see limitations to your power. Your leadership (in terms of getting things done) is held back. Maybe its your tendencies to be overtly considerate, or maybe it’s someone else’s despotism or intolerance. Or maybe you're not picking up the clues that are coming from random sources. They may feel too weird to you to take seriously.

Work suggestion: The Sun

This is a beautiful card thet works beautifully with the tied up Knight.

This is your Solar Plexus chakra, your will, your self, your power, your self-esteem. Your Golden Ticket. Put your worries aside, and forget about the limitations. Remember that you are alive! Fuck your failures! Step outside of them. Focus on finding new viewpoints, new solutions, new actions. Be proud of yourself, but don’t forget to honestly praise others. You are alive! So put that to work. Your work, your creativity is now the core of your life. Wear or carry citrine crystals. Do breath exercises for your Solar Plexus chakra. Try to get as much daylight outside as possible. Be an alpha female. Say no to things you don't want, and don't explain yourself. Live your life.

Location, place of main activity: Fortune

You were lucky to find a new place to live. It also might be a place where something fortunate might come to be. You took a risk and it paid off (this might also work in future tense). And since the Wheel of Fortune has a numerological connection to the Sun, it think it might be the place where you can do all those things I said above. Maybe the important work should be done/executed there (work from home, or find some other ways to be productive and creative with the place.) This is a place of fateful nature.

Location suggestion: Aeon/Judgement This card comes right after The Sun. Aeon is the revelation of destiny, so I think it comes together nicely with the Wheel of Fortune, which is also quite the card of destiny. Trust yourself in this moment. Consider the construct of time - liberate yourself from time and exist in each given moment (this is hard and has been turned into a cliche, but be above it). It's important that you free yourself from linearity and chronology. Things happen when the moment asks for it. Go beyond the man-made pattern of thinking, and just rely upon your own experience. 

So to give these abstract words some structure: Meditate. Meditate a lot. Meditate more that you'd like. Smoke some good quality pot, and spend the weekend at home just thinking about abstract ideas, about what time means to you. Write about where your soul was before you were born. Stuff like that. Get philosophical. Get crazy at the Dusek show.

Final Outcome: Five of Disks - Worries

Well, I did what I could so far, but you're not easy. You are afraid.

You need to come to terms with asking for help. Let someone help you

You anxiety, your problem with swallowing food and water, your fear of failure, and of disappointment or loss... Right now you are trapped in a circle of worry, which, nevertheless, you have the power to break. You are powerful through your solid material resources, your creative drive, and the spiritual potential that you've been suppressing for so long. All this reading is directing you toward stepping out of being only a frightened shadow and realizing there is nothing to fear. And it's ok if you want to begin with where your strengths are - home, work, money. You can deal with you life.

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Last Friday when I drew Adjustment in my daily reading, Jupiter entered Libra, and began a year of balancing, harmonizing, and... adjusting.

I personally see Adjustment to be the ruling card of all Swords, and although the Queen would be probably a better match, the King of Swords asked for attention yet again, as he has been presenting every other day in the past few weeks. He asks to enter the year of equilibrium, too. To adjust his leadership, and to transform fearful dominance into caring and inspiring authority.

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Life begins at the end of fear.

So take a lesson from your losses, and be generous to yourself. Give yourself enough space to release your pain and enough time to rekindle with your higher spirit.

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Ask questions, but process the answers with love.

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Sometimes it’s easy to condemn the messenger. Like on this beautiful sunny day on the ocean. The new citrine, that joined my crystal collection two days ago is only beginning to radiate energy into my life, the water is warm and inviting to cleanse my body of recent traumas, and I feel optimistic and ready to rest.

But hey, the cards spit in my face again. Or that’s how they felt in that moment. But what they were trying to warn me about was:

Someone in your life is unreliable, possibly cheating or tricking you. And it’s about to surface.

That is what I understood in hindsight, as only a few hours later, an unreliable person in my life brought conflict right on my doorstep. 

The Prince of Swords is a highly intelligent entity, but sometimes resolves to cheating his way through the world.

And all the Five of Wands advises you to do is meet the conflict with equanimity (and possibly humor).

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This is how the labradorite pendulum works for me:

it picks the cards by circling over them. It answers positively by swinging back and forth when hanging over the card we’re asking. It answers negatively by going side to side.

This time, it circled wildly above the one that turned out to be The Empress - the one that has been following me around in readings in the past few weeks, including the crisis spread, my big birthday reading, chakra balancing and many daily readings.

The Empress is the ever loving mother; forgiving and nurturing. She teaches me to breathe in love and breathe out love. She works well with the gentle rose quartz to balance the heart chakra.

The Prince of Cups is the learning lover - sensitive, open minded, profundly visual and imaginative. That’s how he learns to shape his desires into realities - by SEEING that what he loves and wants and pushing the images out into the universe.

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The full moon weekend was full of drama and contradictions. There were prayers for forgiveness, then the forgiveness came, followed by a huge cathartic emotional release. I saw the medicine horses and cried with them, leaning on their bodies for support and energy balancing. I left feeling cleansed and recharged. All was well.

And then -- this weird unexpected and unnecessary f*** you from the Universe. These cards telling me my efforts are worthless, my chosen path leads nowhere and that I oppress.. oppress what?

I still don’t understand what it is they are trying to convey, but instead of feeling betrayed (even by myself), I’ll just give it some time. 

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There is no way out of Ruin but up. 

It is with gentle Strength and loving kindness that I create my future.

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An older reading outdoors, in the labyrinth where the medicine horses live.

Of course The Knight of Cups had to present himself - my personal ultimate medicine horse whisperer, riding a white (or albino, or cremello) steed that I had met just a few days beforehand, and who opened his heart chakra to me in the Gabriola Island forest.

As we were communicating through images and feelings, a sudden realization to me (The Ace of Swords): Talking to horses os real and and really happening right now.

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Are you really going to let your past dictate your future? 

Or are you willing to learn?

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The Liar’s Spread

Three years ago, I lied and betrayed. And for three years, I denied.

Now, the truth is catching up with me and I’m facing the consequences of losing trust of the most loved person of my love. My soulmate.

For three days now, I am clenching the rose quartz cluster,  the ultimate stone of love he gave me, and silently begging for forgiveness.

The spread I used follow these points:

1. the situation, 2. don’t, 3. do, 4. probable outcome

1. Temperance, originally reversed, quite aptly says, that the things that were coming together are now falling apart.

2. The Knight of Swords advises me to not continue to manipulate, be ruthless or mentally cruel

3. The three of wands want me to be truthful. To myself, and to him, the angry, hurting knight of swords. Tell him all, and act not out of fear, but out my innermost virtue.

4. Only then, the Empress can release her unconditional love and I could reach forgiveness.

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My daily cards, read at night.

Both princesses; one of wands, the other of swords.

One on fire with the bold, dynamic citrine energy, the other searching for answers through the powerful sichuan quartz.

One is fearless and endlessly joyful, the other fiercely inquisitive.

I must admit they did not speak to me that night, but maybe they were too busy talking to and chasing each other.

Two hyperactive fairies.

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Six of Cups (with Orange Calcite)

“Pleasure”

The closest and deepest emotions pour out of the Six of Cups into our consciousness.

With Sun in the 2nd decan of Scorpio, Pleasure draws from our inner emotional sources, turns contrasts into harmony and send our way an energy wave of satisfaction (including physical).

Before today’s reading, I meditated with orange calcite, a crystal which balances the Sacral Chakra, the energy centre of sexuality, sensuality, creativity and basic emotions.

There is a strong connection with Sun In Scorpio, the astrological embodiment of many aspects of the Sacral Chakra. 

To balance the Sacral Chakra: 

dance, paint, take photos, play music, scrapbook etc.

stay near water and/or drink plenty of fluids

practice these asanas: Low Lunge, Bound Angle, Pigeon, Goddess, The Wild Thing

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The Healing Thunder

The first time I read tarot outdoors was also the first time I read it at the stable with the medicine horses. I sat down on the dusty ground, meditated with the deck in my left hand. I heard a thunder nearby, the same moment Spirit, the leader of the heard came out of the barn. He came right to me and stood above me the whole time I was spreading and reading. Then, when done,we stood face to face with the two daily cards on the ground between us. And there was another thunder, this time even closer by.

The cards I picked were the Princess of Disks and the Ten of Cups, and they would follow me around in the future readings.