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poem: our love is tainted by a broken star

darling, my love you've made your choice and I, mine

your captivating eyes, your delicate frame, your affectionate smile.

years broken down in seconds you tell me our time is passed that maybe we are destined for others, need to stop being together. but i can't agree with you, sweetheart though we seldom argued, i hope that we both tried, equally

i know, as your eye catches mine, your face forms in a pool of tears, that your mind is caught in turmoil. why, does life become so cruel what we could've had just why can't we last?

in another world we'd settle down spend a lifetime or two united

what i'd do, to spend but a few fleeting, last moments with you hold your hand, feel your touch i ache for your gaze on my skin to prove that you're real and with me

our fate has been dictated but our history is ill-fated and we stay star-crossed lovers until the days that we die

the term "star-crossed lovers" has lost its meaning and significance through overuse in wrong situations over the years. these lovers can love each other, so dearly you'd think they'll last and stick together, but are doomed to fall apart, and end in tragedy.

it is a cruel and twisted fate, but from the famous to the unknown, anyone can be met with this level of romantic tragedy. we want them to stay together, and anyone can see how well they work together, or how much they mean to each other, but they can't be together, and they tear each other down into parts that remain unrecognisable and broken.

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poem: dreamless nights without love

why can't i love in the same ways as you do a close friendship always seems to have a bad and conflicted end

im met with a fleeting feeling is this how you feel too? or am i just mistaken and conflicted by stories from you

we are told what it feels to love butterflies and sleepless nights but what if someone doesn’t feel that? don’t see another in that different light?

roses and chocolates don’t mean much sure, they smell and taste nice but the gesture to me is meaningless lost in metaphors and in translation

and i do feel other emotions i keep my best friends close to me my platonic feelings grow big and strong my love is different but the same

but we are strong we are valid our opinions matter and count too we are human we are aro or ace defining our identities on our own

note: being a-spec in an allonormative is truly difficult. it’s so easy to just assume everyone is one sexuality, or even everyone feels both romantically or sexually towards others in the same way. steps forward are being made, but they’re not strides, and are met with tonnes of opposition and conflict on the way. the most we can do is fight where we can, make a stance when it’s important and carry on living our lives like we always have, whether that’s loud and proud, closeted or out. so, here’s to all aroace-specs out there, no matter what age or gender you are 💚💜

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poem: love letter to monte carlo, monaco

The heart of the racing world, Monaco A place truly like no other The marks engraved into its skin As the water glistens in the harbour

Scattered pebbles moved by legends The stars of the world in their times Some of them would reach greatness While others were left on the sidelines

History is engraved in the asphalt Burnt deep in the veins underneath Among the chaos and noise above A beating heart lies beneath

A track known for its complexity Crashes that are a horror to the eyes The sun looks down from above them And stares at their engine’s cries

So, come with me to Monte Carlo And look to the sky at night The same one they looked at decades ago And held hope towards a future that’s bright

i fell in love with f1 back in 2022, by now over a year ago. some people that i knew were watching one of the races at an event i was at, so when i found the monaco gp on the tv, i started watching it. since then, ive been to silverstone on 2023, and that truly was a dream. after that, i also went to the 2023 london e-prix, and i also loved that so much, even if i didnt manage to get onto the autograph session.

now, im dedicating my entire future to motorsports, its my future career, my everything. sure, being neurodiverse and queer is this sport will be dangerous, but im making it my life's mission to be that motivation and inspiration in someones else life, to help them achieve their fullest potential.

if i didnt have that kind of character for me, ill be that person for someone else

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haiku: to dissolve this form is a dream

i hate this body mortal flesh i want to rip away from my bones

oh, the joys of being gnc/under the trans umbrella. one minute you love your body, then boom gender dysphoria.

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poem: yet i still miss you

Why does it have to be so hard To let go of the ones you love Who you fit together with like a glove

Oh, the joy and fear of emptiness Left by a rough, jagged scar But you’re never far from my radar

Tear and split my heart into two And leave it in front of me on the ground So much for someone so profound

There is no me without you Our souls flow and intertwine They’ve fused together in time

I will miss you forever until The last stars flicker and die Till the universe says goodbye

it is interesting to see the breakdown of a relationship between two people who were originally so close to each other. seeing it through a screen, when truthfully so little is known about what goes on once the cameras are turned off. that’s why it is impossible to assume what situations others are going though in their lives: that person you just walked could be a student working on their phd, someone who just got promoted to their dream position or a struggling mother of 3, barely able to put together and keep the remnants of her disjointed family. you can’t judge people based on a few loose facts that you know about them, and people keep things about them private for a reason, so there’s no need to interfere with that, and just let them be

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introduction

helloooo! my name is mick, im 18 and i use they/them pronouns. im also aroace 💜💚

i will hopefully be posting poetry on her; as a bilingual from birth slowly turning into a multilingual, i surprisingly still struggle to put my thoughts into words, but that’s what happens when you grow up with a speech impediment and suspected audhd, i guess?

this tumblr account will hopefully be a testament to my life and all that i have gone through, especially everything that has happened just as i become an adult, so thank you for reading and enjoying these small excerpts as much as i did writing them

i hope that i can find some people, even if its just one person, who can appreciate and relate to my work

feel free to also ask me about anything, i'll try to answer most questions <3