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This whole time, I thought Shannon Messenger was over-exaggerating what a crush is really like.

BOY WAS I WRONG!

I've literally turned into Sophie in chapter 23 of Stellarlune:

Me: I think I have met my future husband???!!!

Me: Shut up, i need to focus on homework.

Me two seconds later: Oh, but I can't think of making him my husband yet! I have to work on becoming his friend first!

Me: Stop it, brain! Focus on your homework!!!!

Me five seconds later: I'M GONNA SEE HIM IN 17 HOURS!!!!!

Me: STOP!!!!! HOMEWORK!!!!!!

I Finally Have My First Crush!!! (help me...)

I know most of y'all don't even know me but I gotta vent cuz I have no one I trust to talk to.

For my whole life I thought people were exaggerating their feelings for their crush and that they were weird for obsessing over them.

This would make sense because the only crush I've ever really had was on a celebrity. I thought that was the most you could "love" someone.

But... now I actually have a crush... My first ever crush!! I'm 17 years old, and kinda feel too old to start this crushing thing, but oh my gosh this crush is HUGE. I've never felt like this for anyone ever. Not even my celebrity crush.

He's not that handsome, which is good cuz I never wanted to fall in love with someone solely based on their looks. He's so sweet, and kind, and he shares my passions, but we've barely ever talked.

I really want to be his friend, but it's hard cuz I don't really know how to talk to guys... (I think this is because of the facts that I have a terrible father and both my grandpas passed away and I never had a brother, so I never had a lasting and great male rolemodel in my life, and never had the opportunity to learn how to talk to guys.)

How should I go about trying to be his friend? We have one class together at school, and possibly some extra minutes after class if I'm lucky. I'm kind of shy, and very awkward.

A couple days ago, he asked me my name as we were walking back to our class, and it took a second for me to realize he was talking to me, and I sort of panicked and said my name in a "not interested" voice. He then said "Hi!" and I kind of said "hi" back, but my awkward self refused to actually look him in the face as I talked to him. I think this is the only non-school related interaction we've had and I stress about it all the time.

Even though I'm not well known on here, would anyone be willing to share some advice? How can I be his friend?

(This is my first ever actual crush, and this feeling is REAL and determined to tell me that. I'm weirded out by that cuz I never had a crush so I thought I wouldn't be interested, and kind of promised myself that I'd wait until I'm 18 to date. Now... I want to break that promise, but I'm worried my family is going to make fun of me, and I don't deal with embarrassment well... HELP ME!)

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I Finally Have My First Crush!!! (help me...)

I know most of y'all don't even know me but I gotta vent cuz I have no one I trust to talk to.

For my whole life I thought people were exaggerating their feelings for their crush and that they were weird for obsessing over them.

This would make sense because the only crush I've ever really had was on a celebrity. I thought that was the most you could "love" someone.

But... now I actually have a crush... My first ever crush!! I'm 17 years old, and kinda feel too old to start this crushing thing, but oh my gosh this crush is HUGE. I've never felt like this for anyone ever. Not even my celebrity crush.

He's not that handsome, which is good cuz I never wanted to fall in love with someone solely based on their looks. He's so sweet, and kind, and he shares my passions, but we've barely ever talked.

I really want to be his friend, but it's hard cuz I don't really know how to talk to guys... (I think this is because of the facts that I have a terrible father and both my grandpas passed away and I never had a brother, so I never had a lasting and great male rolemodel in my life, and never had the opportunity to learn how to talk to guys.)

How should I go about trying to be his friend? We have one class together at school, and possibly some extra minutes after class if I'm lucky. I'm kind of shy, and very awkward.

A couple days ago, he asked me my name as we were walking back to our class, and it took a second for me to realize he was talking to me, and I sort of panicked and said my name in a "not interested" voice. He then said "Hi!" and I kind of said "hi" back, but my awkward self refused to actually look him in the face as I talked to him. I think this is the only non-school related interaction we've had and I stress about it all the time.

Even though I'm not well known on here, would anyone be willing to share some advice? How can I be his friend?

(This is my first ever actual crush, and this feeling is REAL and determined to tell me that. I'm weirded out by that cuz I never had a crush so I thought I wouldn't be interested, and kind of promised myself that I'd wait until I'm 18 to date. Now... I want to break that promise, but I'm worried my family is going to make fun of me, and I don't deal with embarrassment well... HELP ME!)

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Putting on a hoodie that just came out of the dryer immediately increases your mental health tenfold.

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Wait, this isn't what a cat looks like?

Hello everyone!

WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS

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I keep going back to this post and I'm learning something new each time.

This time, the phrase "you can't shift If you are too aware of what you are trying to do" really stood out. Definitely going to try to incorporate this into my next try!

I SHIFTED FOR THE FIRST TIME !!!!  (as detailed as a shifting blogger can be but scroll down for the juicy part)

Hi, Hello, my beautiful beautiful readers! It's your favorite blogger Evie again and I don't know where to begin 😭 You've read the title so you know damn well what this post is about, and I am freaking over the moon to say it finally happened!

"So how did you shift?" Is most likely your very first question, and I promise I will answer it, but not without giving you full context on what led up to this magical event (or just scroll down in case only the shifting part concerns you)

so as I mentioned in my last post I had been in this state of not putting any effort into my shifting attempts anymore and basically treating shifting like any other of my manifestations: that it will happen on its own, if I simply want to.

⇣the post in question in case you're interested⇣

"Did it work?", you may be wondering. It did not. It might work for other people, because some points I made in that post still apply to me, but the idea of just counting on it to happen on its own didn't really work in my case. This being said, just because it didn't work for me, doesn't mean it can't work for you, and if you are an advanced manifestor who has complete trust in the law, this mindset might even be yours to apply.

Ever since I posted this, some days went by and my typical shifting-cycle repeated. I didn't shift after being so confident I would, and then the realization hit hard and I became severely demotivated. I even told my shifting bestie I was about to give up and lucky for me she motivated me and gave me back my faith. Speaking of faith: I had been noticing that certain angel numbers kept reoccurring in my life. The numbers being 1237 and 119. These numbers seem random, but 12:37 is the time my niece was born and 11th of September is my birthday. (yes I was born on 9/11, no not in the year that it happened, but two years later which is basically irrelevant information but it's a little fun fact about me.) I always thought the universe was showing me my birthday, up until I googled both of these numbers and realized they both mean something among the lines of "keep faith and trust in the universe". And lucky for you I did.

⇣small fangirl and shout-out-moment ⇣

Then on Monday I had a doctors appointment, and being bored in the waiting room I opened Tumblr. My feed was full of law of assumption content and I actually took the time and read through them all, and I reposted the ones I felt like gave me a lot of insight. Now to the freaking craziest part of all of this. (okay not true but it sure meant the world to me). I wake up in Tuesday and see that THE @astra-nomy reposted my post about the newest shifting tip I had found, and not only that, my comfort-shifter @multiversebaddie not only liked one of my posts, BUT FOLLOWED ME BACK. All in the same night and even right after another. CAN YOU IMAGINE WHAT THAT DID TO ME????? I was like no, nope you guys, I can't not shift if my favourite shifting and loa bloggers fucking found out I existed. (APHRODITE FOLLOWS ME I CANT COMPREHEND THAT). Plus @lavender--fairy commented on the post mentioned earlier, and her post that I reblogged, was the one who actually gave me the key to shifting. Hell yes. I mean I knew what I needed to know from other bloggers anyway, but her post actually brought me back to the correct mindset.

✧THE ACTUAL SHIFTING EXPERIENCE AKA THE REASON YOU ARE READING THIS IN THE FIRST PLACE✧

so now it is Wednesday. I never really talked about what DR I am shifting to, and I mentioned it somewhere on an old ass post but to put it as briefly as I can: my DR contains a certain group of YouTubers, and I am shifting so I can be friends with them. Now they post videos on Wednesdays and due to the time difference I get to watch them at 11:30 pm, so basically right before going to bed. I went and grabbed a quick shower and then I laid in bed and started doing what I was always doing: affirming. But due to me being me this quickly turned into overthinking and overcomplicating EVERYTHING which is why I stopped, went back on TikTok to clear my thoughts a little and then returned to my attempt.

✨ THE METHOD ✨

☞ I laid in a position most comfortable to me and I started imagining myself in my DR making myself ready for bed. In my head I reminded myself of the thing that I was able to remember due to @lavender--fairy 's post: The 4D is the real reality, and the 3D is only the translation of your inner thoughts. meaning: if I can visualize it, I am already IN it.

☞ Along with me imagining my DR-me doing what I did, I always reminded myself (affirming if you will) that if I can imagine it, I am in it. I purposely chose the Visualization of me doing things I was already doing in my CR day-to-day because you can feel the moment so much better and ground yourself in that reality way easier than imagining me climbing a mountain since I never did that.

☞ I was making myself aware over and over again, that the imagination is the real reality and that if I can imagine it, I am in it. For as long as I was trying to fall asleep. I even moved and rearranged my position constantly, imagining that I was my DR-me doing the same thing. I really just emerged myself in that visualization and started feeling what ever I did, because essentially that's how manifestation works. You don't need to worry about the 3D, and you don't have to feel like you're lacking something. You imagined it in the 4D, so you already did it silly!

☞ In combination to that I never forced myself to stay focused on my DR. Because as mentioned in this post below, you are supposed to let you mind do its own thing in a way, because you can't shift If you are too aware of what you are trying to do.

✨ THE MOMENT ✨

I found myself in this weird state between falling asleep and still being conscious enough to see and understand what you are envisioning. So I was technically awake while it happened. I didn't visualize my DR anymore, instead my mind went into a completely different direction and I saw myself buying milk with Harry Styles. No I did not even script him into my DR, this was just my brain doing brain things. Nonetheless I was still affirming that if I can see it, I am in it, and suddenly I felt myself getting pulled. I heard a little whooshing sound and I literally zoomed out of my body. I was standing in a dark corridor and I could see an open door in the distance with a little something happening in the room it was leading to but I was too far away to see what was happening. Suddenly the corridor started spinning and I felt myself getting pulled into a whole different door. I gained consciousness in this unknown room, but I couldn't tell where I was, or what I was seeing, because it was just dark in there and my eyes had no chance of adjusting quickly enough. I panicked and before I could even comprehend it, I knew I set the intention to shift back to my CR. I got pulled back into this mysterious corridor and shoved into another door by some weird energy and I opened my eyes back in the CR. I know it wasn't a dream because this whole zooming out, the mysterious energy sending me from door to door and the random dark room felt way too physical for it to be a dream. I could literally feel myself in this corridor as only a "being" of some sort, but definitely not as a human with a physical form. From the many success stories I have read regarding shifting realities, I have noticed that many shifters do not reach their desired reality on their first try. Almost every shifter that has talked about shifting mentioned that their first shift was weird and to a strange, undefined reality. (@multiversebaddie shifted to a random ass classroom for example)

✨ ADVICE TO TAKE AWAY FROM THIS EXPERIENCE ✨

I believe I shifted when I did, because my mind was in this gloomy state between conscious and unconscious, which ultimately made me believe myself on the spot when I told myself the affirmations I mentioned earlier. I did not doubt them and that's probably why the void state is such a powerful state to be in, because even if I wasn't, I imagine it to be very similar to this.

Another thing, that won't hurt you is educating yourself on the law of assumption. I know it helped me a lot and I believe that people who struggle with shifting, would benefit if they understood the way manifestation worked because ultimately manifestation and shifting is the same thing.

If you read everything from top to bottom: I love you. If you are doubting shifting, your ability to do it, or wether or not it is real: I can guarantee you as a first-person-witness: not only is it real, it's something every single dingus out there can achieve! And if I can help you in any way, shape, or form: don't be afraid to ask.

I send a lot of love and a lot of positive vibes to everyone reading this! I had been waiting to do this post ever since I created my blog and I still can't believe that I finally got to do it 😭

Yours in every reality

Evie <3

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I like birds

what do you guys have as desktop background? I always find the basic ones too boring and the pretty art too distracting

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I can taste this picture and it doesn't taste good.

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I am made of 2% sense of humor, 6% urge to do what's right, 3% compassion, and 89% passion for the things I love/hate.

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Love this!

"Fear not to do good, my sons, for whatsoever ye sow, that shall ye also reap; therefore, if ye sow good ye shall also reap good for your reward.

Therefore, fear not, little flock; do good; let earth and hell combine against you, for if ye are built upon my rock, they cannot prevail.

Behold, I do not condemn you; go your ways and sin no more; perform with soberness the work which I have commanded you.

Look unto me in every thought; doubt not, fear not.

Behold the wounds which pierced my side, and also the prints of the nails in my hands and feet; be faithful, keep my commandments, and ye shall inherit the kingdom of heaven. Amen."

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Light aqua green. 💚🩵

i think it’s really important to know everyone’s favourite colour idk why some people left that in primary school

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Wow... they must not have heard of the Hunger Games series, or Little Women, or Esperenza Rising, or the Secret Garden, or Anne of Green Gables, or Paint the Wind, or A Game of Thrones, etc.

will still NEVER be over the fact that kotlc was rejected by so many publishers solely because sophie is a girl. they were convinced the series would never take off because no one would be interested in reading about a female hero.

and this isn’t speculation - shannon admitted on a tour stop i attended that this specific rejection was said to her face. they blatantly admitted that they would not accept, much less offer, a book deal with shannon because her main character is a woman. a fictional main character being female can determine whether or not you get your book published - and that is crazy.

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Dex isn't here cuz he's working on his gadgets because Shannon hates giving him page time

Keeper of the Lost Cities summed up in one meme

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I did that for a reason. 😅😂

Keeper of the Lost Cities summed up in one meme

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Keeper of the Lost Cities summed up in one meme

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Haven't been on here in a while, and now I have no idea what to post about. Anyone got suggestions?

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Silverflower from RiverClan

Silver tabby she-cat with bright-blue eyes and long, black legs