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it's his night

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TW for miscarriage, teen pregnancy, and ableism

it’s not something i’ve talked about before, but i had an almost full-term pregnancy at 16. the reason i bring this up is that the reason i almost got an abortion (like i changed my mind on the steps of the clinic), was not how incredibly poor the situation was, but because of my autism. the situation to begin with was horrible, i was living with my abusive parents, and the father was also abusive. but i’ve wanted to be a mom for the longest time. the only reason i considered terminating my pregnancy was the fact that the amount of sensory and processing issues i have would’ve made it incredibly hard to parent. there were no resources for parents with autism, and i think i also struggled with my own internalized ableism. most people, including myself at the time in some aspects, see autistic people as unable to be full human beings and people who can and still experience many joys of the different life paths the universe throws them into. my now ex-best friend’s mother, however, told me she was autistic. i sort of guessed, but the fact that she was an amazing mother sort of shot that down. but she was honestly the reason i kept my baby. i ended up dropping out of high school and getting my GED. i moved out at 17, and for several months, this incredible woman let me stay with her while helping me get a job and find a living situation. most people, however, aren’t as lucky. unfortunately, i ended up miscarrying at 8 months, and it was was one of the hardest moments of my life. however, it did help me realize that as an autistic person, there are still so many experiences that i can have, regardless of what society had led me to believe. i also think about how many undiagnosed parents there are out there, and that further shows that there are plenty of autistic people that can be parents with the right supports.

y'know, i'd like to maybe be a dad someday, but my extreme noise sensitivity and sensory issues surrounding stickiness and gooeyness would probably make it impossible. like kids deserve to be loud and messy and i have no idea how i could navigate parenting with my sensory issues and still let my kids act like kids.

and i can't do research about it because i'm 1000% sure if i look up "parenting while autistic" "autistic raising kids" "autistic parenting advice" ALL i'm going to get is (probably bad and wrong) advice for neurotypicals on how to raise autistic kids because nobody seems to think adults can be autistic and we might want kids of our own

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me ranting about how autistic aimee gibbs is

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fighting the urge to skip my classes and relapse in the bathroom

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I’ve said it a lot. And I will say it again.

Kyle Spencer deserved better.

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@theconcealedweapon

Life in an Autism World

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*faints in republican*

you have to roleplay your url every time you open tumblr how screwed are you

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Lord knows I need it😭😭

reblog the money pigeon for a financially stable future

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it would’ve been kinda nice to have gotten some heads-up from the universe before i was born.

like damn? the universe could’ve been like “just so you know, you’ll be living in this world as a mentally ill, disabled, broke, queer, woman of color. you sure you wanna do this?”

for legal reasons, the answer is yes. side note: how the fuck are young autistic people supposed to live and function on their own? like i can barely drink anything, but i’m supposed to be supporting a whole human being??

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How you doing twin? Have you been taking care of yourself? Eating and drinking water (shhhhh don’t ask me if I’m doing that this ain’t about me)

Cuz this gonna be me if you’re not

I’m having an über autism moment, but other than that I’m fine. How are you?

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having the urge to reread a percabeth fanfic that i read in sixth grade

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I’m about to call everyone out.

Are you really a brat or have you never had a safe place so say no, and still be loved?

Do you hate yourself because you’re a bad person or have you absorbed your mothers insecurities because she leaned on you for emotional support?

And are you really a switch or are you such a bottom that you would do anything to please someone?

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9 year old me on pro-ana tumblr🫣

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Oh my fucking god me too

Us

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Me because we’re soulmates because we both have BPD and from the US.

I’m also an autistic metalhead🤫

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mommy issues be wildin’

👯‍♂️🪩🥳