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im horrible

um, I’m literally horrible. I haven't posted in super long bc school is a mess, I’m a mess, and yeah. Sorry

Life update: school, school, school

literally my anxiety has been ridiculous recently. I know stress is causing it to be much worse than usual. I cried 3 times last week over the smallest inconveniences and I feel like I can't breathe. I'm a mess but its fine, because its almost Christmas and then I'm done until January.

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I really wish I was a great writer and could just explain my feelings in these incredibly dynamic ways but instead when someone asks me about my day I just say, “it was alright. you?” I appreciate writing so much as its such a beautiful art form 

 e.s

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Sorry

It’s been a long time since I’ve posted. But here's a life update for my 15 followers (I love all of you btw).

So I had strep all last week and today was my last day on antibiotics which I’m thankful for. But other than that, school has basically been priority. College is literally my whole life at this point because of the amount of work that just keeps piling up. It’s frustrating for me especially because I like to work ahead and be productive with my school work. However, due to the fact that all of my assignments and projects are due at the same time for different classes, it makes it extremely difficult to stay ahead. 

So that’s been my last 2 weeks in a nutshell. Nothing really to post other than that, sorry its super boring but hey, its my blog and I’ll write what I want

e.s

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This is so important. Whenever you’re feeling depressed and like nothing in the world can make you happy, find songs that you love to help get those negative thoughts out and fill your mind with positive ones. Music helps in ways we don't even realize.

7 Feel-Good Songs To Help Your Depress

Depression, especially major depressive disorder, is a serious mental illness. Depression affects how the sufferer sees and interacts with the world around them. One symptom of depression is losing interest in things that were once important. While therapy is the go-to when it comes to treatment for depression, there is now data that suggests music in conjunction with therapy goes farther than therapy alone. This list, from Psych2Go, is a suggestion of songs that those with depression found to be useful for themselves. You may find other songs that work for you.

1. Lean On Me – Ben E. King

Lyrics: “Please swallow your pride

If I have faith you need to borrow

For no one can feel those of your needs

That you won’t let show”

Why this song helps: While the tempo is more melancholy, those that suffer from depression have found a strong link to the lyrics…

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Social Anxiety

Alright, I’m about to go into a very long post about anxiety and my struggle with it. Just know that if you are struggling with something similar, don’t be afraid to talk to people you trust about it. Since writing this post I have opened up to my friends about my anxiety and they have been so loving and supportive of my situation. Just wanted to add in that little edit before you read the main post.

So I’ve always been quite shy and reserved in social situations unless I’m very comfortable around the people I’m with. Essentially meaning if they are very close friends or family then I’m usually a lot more open to conversations. However, since I’ve started college I’ve noticed how I’ve become even more shy and just feel uncomfortable in most social situations. I’m honestly not exactly sure why this is, maybe a new environment with new people? I’m not really sure but anyway, my anxiety levels have increased quite a lot and it makes it much more difficult for me to meet new people or try to branch out like most of my friends are doing. It gets so bad sometimes that I start panicking walking to class because I get so stressed out thinking about how I’m not very familiar with all the people and how I don't want to have to talk to anyone because I’m scared I’ll do or say something really stupid. I also work at a job on campus where I have to interact with people pretty frequently and I get so nervous that someone will ask a question that I won’t know the answer to and there will be no one around to ask or that I’ll tell them something that’s incorrect because I don’t actually know the answer to their question. Small things that are no big deal to anyone else really stress me out and it’s only gotten worse. Thankfully since I’ve started building a routine this past year and getting more familiar with the people and the campus itself, it hasn't been quite as stressful this year. But it’s something that I really struggle with and I just don’t know how to talk about it to anyone. And it is really hard to explain how my anxiety feels to people who have never experienced it before. I feel like a lot of people think that its just being really nervous about something or just not feeling like talking to anyone, when in reality its so much bigger than that. Anxiety presents itself differently to everyone and not everyone is affected by it in the same way. The best way I can explain my anxiety to people is that it feels like my heart is beating so hard its going to jump out of my chest and sometimes it feels like I don't have control of my body. It’s like I’m just stood there not being able to walk, or move; I just freeze. And if you’re reading this and you have a form of anxiety, the way you feel could be similar or could be totally different, anxiety is different to everyone. 

But yeah theres that long spiel about my social anxiety. Sorry that was really long, I don't talk to any of my friends about it that much because I really don't know where to start. But if you read the whole thing, then thanks and if you have any questions or any kind comments feel free to reblog or comment. 

e.s

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This is a beautiful and positive message I think everyone needs to hear. Appreciating yourself is hard and I struggle daily. I am a perfectionist and I struggle with anxiety, so I want everything I do to be perfect and accepted by the people around me. I constantly worry about what others think of me and I think I forget that the most important person who should accept me is me. So appreciate what you do because no one is perfect. 

Love and appreciate yourself before anything else.

e.s

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We just want to be loved. Is that too much to ask for?

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I don't really love summer

So I actually really love winter and I don’t care for summer that much. Don’t get me wrong I like being on break from college and classes and all that but summer isn't my fav. I actually do like to be outside in the sun but summer makes me feel so much more insecure about my body and how I look. Every part of my body feels like it’s on display and makes me feel nervous and anxious that I don't look how I should compared to other girls. Winter is nice because layers and sweaters hide a lot of my body that I’m uncomfortable with. I love the feeling of being cozy and not having to worry that people are thinking about how I’m not skinny enough or that part of my body is not proportionate to the other. And I know I shouldn’t care what others think and all that but its very difficult this day and age with beauty standards and all that mess. So that’s my entry for the day, thanks for reading.

e.s

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Have you ever liked someone but not really liked them? But then get jealous when they don’t show interest in you anymore? This probably means I’m codependent and need to hang on to anyone who has the slightest affection for me even if I don’t like them back

e.s

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Introduction

Hi anyone who is reading this, 

I’ve decided to start this blog on a whim because I’m a college student in a small town with nothing to do this summer besides work. So here we are. I don't exactly know what I’ll be posting about or who will even read this but if you’re reading this, then hi welcome to my blog. I decided to call this blog Thought Bubble because I’m basically going to post whatever I’m thinking about/want to write about. I’m assuming that you want to know a little about me before I let you read whats in my brain. I’m currently 18 (will be 19 in a month) and I live in a small town which will remain anonymous for the time being as some of you could be reading this (unlikely but still not taking a chance). I am female and proud of it so boys, watch out. I guess you could say I’m a creative person as I’m writing a blog and I’m an art student at my college. Specifically graphic design but I’m still not a hundred percent positive about that. I’m an avid reader and total nerd and that’s how I like it. I am also obsessed with coffee (meaning I have between 2-4 cups A DAY). You might think it’s a bit odd for me to have a monochrome black and white theme on such a colorful platform as Tumblr but I really like simplicity so that’s what we’re going with. Well, that’s probably about it for now and seeing as I’m not such an open book person, I’m really interested to see how this blog turns out. 

Hope you all have an amazing day and I hope to write again soon!

e.s