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I took a horribly long break, but i'm back!

Day 4- Your greatest fears about weight loss...

My greatest fear about weight loss isn't the extra skin, or permanent stretch marks and cellulite. I'm not scared of the stares or the "eat a burger!" comments. I desire these things, (well except for the extra skin.) My greatest fear is the change. For all of my life I've been overweight. I've never had a healthy or underweight BMI. Going from barely being able to move without having an asthma attack was terrifying, but as I lost the weight that fear went away. Now I fear that one day, I'll be in the same predicament, but on the opposite end of the spectrum. And the reason I fear this is because, I want to be that small. I wanna be sick, but I don't want the fat memories coming back, or worse, the weight to come back. Keeping up with this "sickly underweight" dream is so fucking difficult. Sometimes I just want a chocolate or fries, and I say fuck it or yolo and binge. But afterwards the regret hits me hard and suddenly im back in middle school, trying to play in gym with my friends but almost passing out because I cant catch my breath. Or even when I dont binge, but I look in the mirror and think about the fact that I couldve lost the weight, and people couldve been shocked at my "dramatic change" from 200 lbs to 100 lbs so quickly. But then I remember where I am, how I haven't lost the weight, and am down again. Sometimes I even relapse and s3lf h4rm again just because I don't wanna lose this mindset i had when i was younger, when i would go to school with cuts up my legs but hide them underneath my preppy attitude.

Ana fucking sucks

And so does change

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They don’t like me because I’m fat.

They don’t talk to me because I’m fat.

They don’t include me because I’m fat.

They are disgusted with me because I’m fat.

They lie to me because I’m fat.

Because I’m fat.

Because I’m fat.

BECAUSE I’M FAT.

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2024 is my year

- I will be skinny

- I will have control

- I will be beautiful

- I will reach my ugw

- I will have everything I want

🩷🩷🩷

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Some quotes to live by…

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❗️🔮reblog this miraculous pumpkin and you will be granted with their grace to lose 15-20 lbs till halloween🔮❗️

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Me @ myself anytime I open my mouth:

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guys tumblr isn’t letting me post skinny thighs 😭

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Im traveling today, so i haven't eaten much. what I did eat was unhealthy ash tho

breakfast- iced coffee, 260, 2 dunkin donuts, 520

780 kcals

im gunna try to fast till tmr morning, but ill edit if i give up lol.

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having an ed is so financially responsible

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*ੈ✩‧₊˚ *✩‧₊˚

do it, because seeing the number on the scale going up hurts more than starving yourself.

*ੈ✩‧₊˚ *✩‧₊˚

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:/

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day 1- CW: 150 GW: 110

day 2- 5'3" (160 cm) I like being short because it makes me feel small, but im also really wide, so i wish I had a longer torso.

day 3-

Thigh gap 😍😍

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I went to see Coraline in theatre today, so I did eat a large portion of popcorn :( Its hard to restrict when im so involved in something..

Breakfast- Cold Brew w/ flavoring, 215

Lunch- Whopper, 677, popcorn, 240

Dinner- 0

Total- 1132

Totally going to restrict tomorrow :((

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Things to do if you feel like binging/ breaking a fast

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Download Roblox and play scary games.

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Buy Bloxburg (Roblox) and build yourself a hot girl house (Pinterest for inspo)

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗Go on a walk

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Find a job (If you don’t already have one)

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Organize your room

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Deep clean your room

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Go to Walmart and walk around the room decor/ self care stuff.

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Go on Pinterest and find outfits you’ll wear when you reach your GW

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Separate the outfit you saved into seasons

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Do your makeup

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Stalk old friends

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Buy decorations for your car (if you have one)

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Scroll on Temu

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Sleep

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Try painting some watercolor flowers

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Go to the book store and buy sad books

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Do school work (if you’re in school)

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Try a new language on Duolingo

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Buy an agenda and fill it out

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Curl/ Straighten your hair

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Take an “everything shower”

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Use whitening strips (they’re disgusting and will distract you from eating)

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Brush your teeth

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Shave and moisturize every once of your body

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Do yoga

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Do a Chloe Ting workout

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Do an online quiz

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Write in a journal

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Listen to music on fill blast

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Sell clothes that are too big for you (congrats!)

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Delete old apps and pictures, and decorate your widgets

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Look up new mealspo

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Start a youtube channel to document how far you’ve gotten

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Bake pastries for your elderly neighbors

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Do a puzzle

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Do your laundry

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Remake your bed

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Study

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Create a budget plan to buy everything you’ve ever wanted

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Garden

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Binge watch your favorite crime show (Criminal Minds is a good one)

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Have sex (consensual and safe ofc)

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Make a bucket list of places you’ll go once ur skinny

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Paint your nails

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Take a bath

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Go to the park

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Draw

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Go to the mall by yourself and look mysterious

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Write letters to friends you haven’t talked to in a while

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Self care!

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Make a playlist for each season

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Make a birthday wishlist

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Tiktok

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exercise self control. prove to yourself that you are better than what others think of you.

become perfect, have complete control, and have your dream body.

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SUMMER IS ALREADY HERE AND I HAVEN’T LOST ANY WEIGHT.

i had a mental breakdown after losing someone close to me, and I haven’t been able to get back on track since.

It’s been 2 months, and I think it’s time to gain some self control. I want to look good in my banquet dress (around September) and i’m definitely not pulling anyone looking like this…

anyways… here’s some pics <3