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The Purpose Is You - Chapter 24 Victor

My head starts throbbing, and I place my hand on it, realizing there's blood seeping from my forehead. The pain sharpens my focus, and I hear a hissing sound coming from the corner of the room. When I look up, both Aidrian and Victor are staring at me like I’m prey, their expressions twisted in different ways.

Aidrian’s eyes are blazing with fury as he shoves Victor against the wall, his hands trembling with barely contained anger. "Just stay the hell away. He’s not your toy. Go play somewhere else."

Victor’s lips curl into a cruel grin, unfazed by the violence, as Aidrian drops him. Aidrian rushes to me, his worry evident despite the tension in his features. He picks me up with a gentleness that contrasts his furious steps, practically dragging me toward the door. I can feel his heart pounding against my chest, his grip tight but protective.

“He’s not worth it, you know that, right?” Aidrian’s voice is thick with anger and something else—fear? Worry? “Every second of the day, he will be vulnerable, and you can’t protect him. There’s evil lurking around every corner…”

His voice cracks slightly, but he quickly regains control, his muscles twitching under the weight of his own internal battle. I can tell he’s fighting the urge to go back and end it with Victor right there, but his priority is me.

Victor’s smile widens, twisted with amusement, as he watches us. “You’re wasting your time, Aidrian. You can’t protect him forever. He’s nothing more than a fragile human.”

Aidrian’s jaw tightens, and he turns to Victor, his eyes narrowing dangerously. “I know. That’s exactly why I don’t need you becoming a problem, too. So stay out of our way.” His voice is low, like a warning, but there’s an edge of desperation beneath the surface. I can feel the tension radiating off him. He’s barely holding it together, and I know it’s not just Victor he’s trying to fight off—it’s his own instincts.

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FIRST KANAPHAN as KANT PATTANAWAT and KHAOTUNG THANAWAT as BISON episode 6 of THE HEART KILLERS

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Hi everyone, this is my story, I’m still in the process of updating certain chapters, but I really want to share this with you guys in hope that you'll have a read and leave me some likes and comments, I would very much appreciate it, if you like BL, vampires and fantasy, this is something for you. 

The Purpose Is You | 18+ - The End Of Me (on Wattpad) https://www.wattpad.com/755470339-the-purpose-is-you-18%2B-the-end-of-me?utm_source=web&utm_medium=tumblr&utm_content=share_reading&wp_uname=UsagiWhiteNight In a world shrouded in darkness, can love be the light that saves a broken soul?" James Denvon's life has been a nightmare. Sold to strangers by his cousin at the age of 13 and subjected to years of cruelty, James has learned to expect nothing but pain from the world. Now, living in a crumbling apartment in a rain-soaked city-where bricks are falling from the walls and hope feels as fleeting as the sunlight-he sees no way out of the endless gloom. Aidrian, a vampire from a family steeped in cruelty and greed, has grown weary of their obsession with wealth and disregard for human life. When Aidrian discovers James, fragile yet fiercely enduring, he vows to protect him, no matter the cost. Aidrian's mansion-painted black but brimming with life-stands in stark contrast to the darkness of James's world. Inside, crimson and gold decor gleam under chandeliers, while the vibrant gardens burst with roses, green mazes, and sunlit gazebos, offering James a glimpse of beauty and peace he's never known. As their bond deepens into a love that defies their pasts, James faces an impossible decision: embrace immortality to escape his pain or remain human and risk losing the fragile beauty of life. But with enemies closing in-from those who once hurt James to those who despise Aidrian's compassion-their love becomes a light fighting to survive in the shadows. The Purpose of You is a hauntingly romantic tale of redemption, healing, and the power of unconditional care. Are you ready to enter this dark and twisted love story where passion burns brighter than the shadows?

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Only Yesterday | おもひでぽろぽろ (1991) dir. Isao Takahata

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"私はあなたが好きです"

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✨Why I Think Bella Swan Is On The Autism Spectrum ✨

In this post I’m going to talk about why I personally believe that Bella Swan is autistic. As an autistic person myself, I really relate to Bella and I see a lot of autistic traits in her.

Disclaimer: This is just a headcanon- I don’t think Stephenie Meyer intentionally wrote Bella as autistic, and she or the movie producers never confirmed it, so I’m not saying to everyone that she is CONFIRMED to be autistic and that every one has to see her that way, I’m just saying that I personally think she is, and there’s nothing wrong with that. Autistic people hardly have any representation in the media, and with the representation that we do have, it is almost always stereotypical, inaccurate and offensive. You do not have to agree with me on this, but just please be respectful in the comments and don’t hate :)

Ok let’s go:

1. She always felt different from everyone/she felt like nobody truly understood her and that she never really understood anyone either: this is what basically all autistic people feel, myself included. Feeling like nobody understands the way your brain works and the way you see the world. (And this is true, because autistic people do see the world differently than non- autistic people and autistic peoples brains are wired differently from non- autistic brains). Bella mentions this multiple times in the books and movies, at one point in the first book in the car with Edward, she tells him that she thinks he can’t read her mind because they’re a probably a glitch in her brain and that it’s not like other people’s. There is also this quote from the 1st chapter of twilight which sums up how she feels: “ Facing my pallid reflection in the mirror, I was forced to admit that I was lying to myself. It wasn’t just physically that I’d never fit in. And if I couldn’t find a niche in a school with three thousand people, what were my chances here? I didn’t relate well to people my age. Maybe the truth was that I didn’t relate well to people, period. Even my mother, who I was closer to than anyone else on the planet, was never in harmony with me, never on exactly the same page. Sometimes I wondered if I was seeing the same things through my eyes that the rest of the world was seeing through theirs. Maybe there was a glitch in my brain”.

2. Her motor skills: She’s constantly tripping over her own feet, has bad balance, doesn’t realize that she’s walking into things, constantly dropping things ect, a common thing for autistic people is to have poor motor skills and find it hard to navigate their body.

Another disclaimer about autism: not ever autistic person is the exact same, every autistic person expresses their autism in a slightly different way, for example, some autistic people are overly sensitive to sound, and some are under-sensitive to it, these are just the specific things I’ve noticed for Bella in this post, it’s not supposed to be a generalization of autism in any way! :)

3. Social disinterest and difficultly: all throughout her childhood and her time in forks, she wasn’t very interested in making friends or hanging out or going to parties, and she found that she could never make friends with someone easily, she just never fully clicked with someone. She did have some very nice friends in forks, however she never related to them too well or was very attached to them.

4. Dresses for comfort and not fashion: Bella typically dresses in what feels most comfortable for her, not what is the most fashionable thing, this is a common thing with autism. A lot of autistic people like myself are quite sensitive to clothing and fabric and will not tolerate uncomfortable clothing.

5. Limited interests/special interests: Bella doesn’t really have many interests, but the ones she does have, she’s very passionate about. A special interest is an autism-specific term used to describe interests and hobbies that autistic people have that are very important to them. They help regulate emotions, calm people down, provide escapism ect. Autistic people can hyper fixate on these interests for hours and hours and not get bored, they can get so engrossed that they forget to do basic tasks to take care of themselves like drinking or going to the bathroom. These interests can last for years, sometimes a lifetime and they are very important to autistics. Bella swans special interests would be reading, wuthering heights, and vampires. Bella says in midnight sun that she has loved reading all her life and it is one of the few things that bring her intense joy. She said she could read for hours at a time and would try to sneak books into her lessons and read any chance she could get. Bella says that her favorite book is wuthering heights and she has read it so many times that it is beaten up beyond repair and the spine is so cracked that the book lays flat. This would clearly be her special interest. Her other special interest is clearly vampires.

6. Burnouts and meltdowns when Edward leaves: when Edward left in new moon, Bella obviously fell into a huge depression, but I also think she fell into an autistic burnout (if you don’t know what that is pls research or ask me cause this post is already too goddamn long). And in eclipse, when Edward leaves to go home in the afternoon or to go hunting, she can barely focus without him and gets very anxious (this is obviously because she loves him and is literally obsessed with him lol, but I also think it could be a meltdown from separation anxiety and also a change in routine (a lot of autistics get very upset when their usual routine is disrupted or changed))

7. Sensitive to sounds: In the book, often Bella cannot concentrate or fall asleep because of little sounds like the rain, sometimes it takes ages for her to sleep because the rain or tapping is too distracting. (This is a common autistic struggle).

8. Stims & facial twitches & stuttering: in the movie, she is constantly stuttering over her words, and her face and body twitches a lot. She also stims a lot in the book by playing with her hair or sleeves or the zip of her jacket, or her hands or edwards hands. She also covers some of her face with her hair, this could be to do with sensory overload, seeing too much in her field of vision may be overwhelming for her, like a lot of autistics.

9. Trouble expressing feelings/ thoughts: bella struggles a lot sometimes with communication and telling people how she feels. You can see this in her relationship with Charlie. They both love eachother very much but they never say it and when they do it comes out very awkward and sometimes they use the wrong words. You can also see this when she is hesitant to tell Edward in eclipse when she doesn’t want him to leave for the fight, it takes her ages to work up to telling someone how she feels. She also tends to be quite private. This is common for some autistics to feel.

10. Sensory experiences: bella loves the sun and heat, she says that she loves feeling the sun seep into her skin- a lot of autistics feel the sensory world very strongly and love certain sensations and detest others. When Bella moves to forks, she hates the sudden change in weather and gets anxious and upset at the feel of the cold, and the rain against her skin. This links back to my other point where I was talking about how autistics fear sudden changes in routine. Bella is very relieved when there’s a sunny day in forks and goes and sits outside, savouring the weather which reminds her of home.

11. Not too concerned with how she looks: obviously not every autistic person is like this, but quite a few autistics don’t really focus on how they look/present and what they wear. They don’t really know about the social norms and what other people wear so they do what they want. This is something I often see in Bella in the books especially.

12. More quiet/ reserved and socially withdrawn and awkward: this is basically self explanatory. Bella is very well known for this. I touch a bit more on this in point 3.

If you made it this far then thank you so much! This took a long ass time to write and I’ve been thinking of making this post for months. There are more things that make me headcanon her as autistic, but these are just from the top of my head. When I re-read the series (for like the 100th time lol) later this year, I’ll annotate the book so that I can update this post in the future with more supporting this).

Again this is just my opinion and my personal headcanon, it is not factual (but I’d obviously want it to be canon) so please no hate :)

If you have any more things to add on then please do!! I’d love to hear your thoughts!

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🐝 🌸 Buzzzzz…

Today is national ‘Don’t Step on a Bee Day’. Good advice all year round, we think. This little bee is buzzing around the cherry blossom on a 19th-century Chinese fan painted by Chen Fen. Chen Fen was a specialist in bird-and-flower painting from Guangzhou, Guangdong province. To see the full fan painting, and to search our Eastern Art collection, just click here.

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👻 HALLOWEEN 2022 👻 day twenty nine • coraline (2009)

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