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Oh I miss here..

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My Mid Twenties Dilemma!

New Episode of my Podcast! Go check and listen it. Click here to listen! You can also check the layes episode to other streaming platforms like: Google Podcast, Amazon Podcast etc.

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Akala ko sa sandaling yung…. Ikaw na… mali pala

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#Once Accenture, Always Accenture

#Once Accenture, Always Accenture

How should I start? I don’t know how to begin… but maybe, let’s have a little flashback. *Magic Sound effect to represent passage of time* Perhaps this is one of the saddest entry of my blog….. but also and exciting chapter of my life — as professional in specific. I remembered the time when me and my bestie scavenging around the town of known business places to get a luck and hoping to get a…

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Oh it’s Easter already, what a nice day. And yeah, after almost four years, finally, I am few weeks away for my job resignation. After almost four years of no savings, never invested, finally, I am resigning: for myself, to start over. I know, it will take time again to start but I guess, I have to do this for my own sanity.

To be honest, I am not ready, in fact, beneath I am scared. What if I fail? What if I didn’t get a new job I wanted? Those thoughts but I’m glad I have friends and sister who are just supportive to my next journey but I’ll definitely will not be burden to them. I just need to recover on my years if stress.

Accenture, especially those support team who guide me and help me to build that confidence really pushed me to this. Tho it’s normal to have stress at work, there still portion of that dillema lingers to me that literally draining my energy and passion to work hard. In short, I am no longer inspired and enthusiast in our project.

Despite that, I would say I have a plenty of memories there. Strangers that became my friends then turn strangers again. Those friends that still keepimg intouch to me despite of different teams we had.. it’s not easy to toss out those memories. Its worthy to keep.

But as I grow older, I slowly realize more things. Things that I think will help me to become a better person. These journey may end at some point but fresh start is always be better than nothing.

I will definitely miss saying hi to them at the hallway, eating to the pantries with my firts teammates. I’ll definitely miss Rica, Lolo Mark, Joverlyn, Roms, Ate Lhei, Jayson, Barbs, Cinds, Elaine and of course… him even though things will never be patch up…

I wish them nothing but career growth and thank you for the memories.

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Moving Out From Home

Sometimes we have a house but not a home and sometimes we don’t house but we felt at home As you may know, last month I moved out from our house and to be honest, I am not used to that. I grew up as person that house is my safe haven. I’m a homeboy person, I will not go outside if no one will invite me to come over somewhere or do errands. I spend my teenage years just staying at home — going to…

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May pagod na di madadaan sa pahinga…. Minsan kailangan mag-paubaya… o kaya lumisan.

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How True You Can Earn Money Just Sharing Your Data?

How True You Can Earn Money Just Sharing Your Data?

I’m a pretty sure that you are the one who has the wishful thinking. To earn money with anything but doing just simple thing. We’ll I guess you found a perfect stuff that will answer your needs. Introducing Honeygain! Basically Honeygain according to their FAQ is an app wherein “helps its users make money online by sharing their internet connection.” 10MB shared data is equivalent to 1 Dollar…

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Sometimes peace will never come without doing any sort of sacrifices. You will create some enemies or lose someone you loved, or chance that will result of other to disappoint; but in the end, your peace really matters. It’s never selfish to choose yourself especially on your darkest time.

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Underrated Pangasinan

As the world starting to loosen the restrictions and lockdowns (despite of the threat of new Omicron variant — a name which I don’t know? came from a cartoons) you definitely craving with some adventures outside the four corners of your safe haven. Nonetheless, as the government impose a mass roll-out of vaccine to achieve herd immunity and I bet you already vaccinated because it was one of the…

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My resign era will be at 2022.

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I suddenly heared this echo of past

The fragments of memories suddenly appears in my peripherals

I lost control and felt lucid

Hoping my day will spare with epiphany

Missing you like this unannounced is treachery

Please stay away, I can’t resist

Weird feelings and flashbacks hurts and excite me at one.

A paradox I’m addicted to

Are you too?

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Saturday Musing #1

Hi there! I don’t know… I’m physically exhausted but my mind can’t sleep. It’s saturday yehey! What a day? Isn’t it?

By the way, the time is pretty late now and yet still wide awake and guess who is the person must need to attend later in the weeding this afternoon today? (Spoiler: its me)

I have a lot of things I wanted to say and most of them are not so good news per say.

Remember last time I posted that I will sent out my resignation letter? It didn’t for many reasons:

I don’t have savings

Half of expenses here in house shell out by me

I have a sister in college

And I can’t spend rest of my months empty handed

So yeah, sadly I need to retract my post and still need to work. Sad of being a slave of money, noh? but let’s not focus with that. I may not able to pass my resignation today but maybe someday — However, one of my teammate apparently did sent her resignation letter. She’s currently rendering and sad to know that she decide to part ways. You know, she’s one of my sought colleague. Sometimes I rely on her everytime I need to know something.. and now she chose herself.. her being. Perhaps many of you might wonder if our management is toxic? Fortunately not: but the demand of work is hard. Exhausting… In fact not all jobs is easy in general but sometimes you will ask yourself… Is this still healthy to me? Am I still happy or passionate about this? Those were the times of musing struck on you everytime we felt left out, drained or stress. Anxiety indeed real.

One time my coach was impressed by me. How I am so vocal on my feelings and how my stress manifest yet I still see the bright side of it. She said I have a strong resisliency spirit but the deep down little did she know my soul is hollow…. I’m just keep moving because I had to… I may have a choice to pause or stop but it will just make it worst so I need to continue to move ~~ I may sound seems I’m losing but I have to forward.

One day, I will be okay. I don’t know when it will come but hoping a great life on the coming days to me and I will surrender my fate in destiny because honestly hoping to be something is pretty tiring. I already came to the point that ‘it is, what it is’

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On this day, I decided to resign. I’ll file my resignation letter next week. My decision is final and I’m glad that my family supports me. I need a break from everything and somehow reset my career journey and by doing so I think I have to look for other home. Gusto ko ulet magsimula and starting over again will probably not easy. Not gonna lie this will be my financial downfall. No savings or whatsoever but I have to do this - for my wellbeing — physically and mentally.

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Resign na resign na ako