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Its true. You can relive something you forgot. But at what price?

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I forgot i had honey at home so i sweetened my tea with sugar

I wonder if one day i’d forget about you because i have other decent memories to think about

But now i know to use honey, until i forget again

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I’m slowly going blind

And getting more and more afraid

I won’t ever see myself

Like I once did

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The inevitable passing of time

every day goes by

I do nothing to make it better

I thought I could

I thought I could improve this unyielding sense of doom

of the fact that I could die at any moment and I’d have done nothing

I fool myself with inconsistency

every day is not the same

but I do the same different nothing

every passing day

and I see everyone around me do their best

trying to make things happen

while i hesitate going outside

I’m still the same someone

I thought I wasn’t anymore

I thought i forgot

And laughed at while I acknowledged we were the same

10.08.22

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People smelling like morning coffe and fresh laundry, perfume that old friends used to wear and something missing

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Real, its even weirder when you dream about exact scenarios and they happen. I think thats called something different but its what this reminded me of. Some dreams literally do come true and i think thats such a beautiful and mysterious part of life and being human

“It’s the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting.”

— Paulo Coelho

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I cant promise ill treasure our connection if it comes back

So i dont reach out

Thats just one of the excuses i make every time

To avoid getting out of this warm bubble that makes me feel immovable

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I wish this was a dream

I wish i could wake up back in the beginning

But even though i wish for redemption

I would probably make the same mistakes

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I try to stop but i have to remember i cant be entirely rational all the time

I cant address all my thoughts like they’re old acquaintances if I’ve never known them

I wish i could know everything

I wish i could know everything and then wish i knew nothing

I want you to think about and remember me but i also wish you could forget me just so we could meet again

I would love to know what goes through your head to feel the pain of knowing the truth instead of the pain of feeling undeserving of your thoughts

I think that you still think about me but i also think I’m too into myself to assume what anyone is thinking about me

Thinkthinkthink this is all i do

Im drowning in my head and it feels like my mouth is sewn shut but its not

I can think and speak but refuse to

I can also speak and not think because im still the child i once was

I sink into the knowledge that i can do something to change the situation im in but i just dont

Im the biggest hypocrite in the world

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Literally why am like this

I feel like the worlds ending

And one text makes me completely switch up

This is not good for my stress levels 😔

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I think that acting like it didn’t happen makes it worse

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10 posts!

So real for that

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I fell for the tag scheme here. Im really confused about them though. Why is there no tutorial >:(

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I dont feel lonely now, theres just something missing. Theres something i should have cherished that i didnt and now i feel theres a hole where there should have been something.

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The duality i feel in this second is unprecedented. Im in the best and worst state ive ever been in.

I actually feel like im loving life lately

This always happens when i wanna get sad online 😔

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I wish i were made of clay

I wish tears gave me a new shape

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Virginia Woolf, from a letter to Vanessa Bell written c. August 1908