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god says gay rights

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ugh thinking sad camchase thoughts (chase being so happy when they get married and within a year he's convinced himself she never loved him) again

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Being in the House fandom is crazy because nothing and everything is forgivable. House and Wilson can get away with anything but Cuddy and Cameron get away with nothing.

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um. excuse me

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clocked

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“you don’t need your pain to be a good doctor.” “i’m not interested in good.” “you’re afraid to be happy.” “why do you care if i’m happy?” “... you’re afraid of change. the one thing you have is your intellect; you think if that’s compromised, you have nothing. just take it. don’t do this.” “it’s already done. this is the only me you get.”

oh my GOD this scene in the softer side absolutely wrecks me every time. becausr it’s not just about house choosing pain over peace — it’s about identity. house isn’t just addicted to vicodin, he’s addicted to himself. to the version of himself that he believes is brilliant because he’s miserable, sharp because he’s suffering.

the methadone takes away the pain but also dulls the edge he clings to — his ability to diagnose, to be “house.” so when he makes a mistake while on it, even a small one, it confirms his worst fear: that happiness equals mediocrity.

and cuddy sees that. she calls him out. not with anger, but with concern.

“you don’t need your pain to be a good doctor.”

she’s begging him to believe that he can have both. that his brilliance isn’t conditional on his misery. but he can’t (... or won’t)

“i’m not interested in good.”

for him, “good” is lesser. safe. forgettable. he doesn’t want to be good. he wants to be right, remarkable, undeniable. even if it destroys him.

and then: “this is the only me you get.”

he’s not just resigning himself to his pain — he’s warning her. “this is who i am. i won’t change.”

and it’s devastatinh, because it’s not just about the drugs or the diagnosis — it’s about how deeply he fears becoming someone else. he’d rather hurt than risk being less.

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THIS CONVERSATION BETWEEN CAMERON AND WILSON IN 2X06 IS MAKING ME INSANE RN. CONFLATING WORSHIP WITH LOVING THE IMPERFECT WHILE ALSO CONFESSING YOUR CHEATING TENDENCIES. HOLY FUCKKCKCK

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what if i end it all

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GOD.

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not to be a nerd but it’s so crazy how he (Bernini) really did that from cold hard stone……. truly a spectacle, truly breathtaking, an honor to behold

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list of chase's political/social opinions:

fat people are gross/lazy

death penalty is bad

murder is wrong, soldiers do not get a pass

if society promotes teenagers as sex objects, it's not wrong to talk about them as such

not a huge fan of illegal immigration because it took him so long to get a green card, but also not a fan of the right-wing politician they're treating who has those views, so ???

if a closeted gay man wants to stay in a miserable marriage, what's the problem

"if you're a burden on others you should kill yourself" which is super ablest, but he also makes it very, very clear he's talking about his abusive mother and how he wishes she had died quickly instead of him being forced to care for her and his sister when he was still a child! like, it's a fucked up thing to say, but in the conversation it's more specific than generalized, you know?

euthanasia is fine

list of foreman's political/social opinions:

poor people are scammers/lazy/take advantage of the system

poor people are drug addicts

he makes several republican-leaning jokes circa 2004 - he makes a john kerry joke at cameron in one episode and a france joke in another; these were both common right-ish wing jokes of the time

what i am saying is he is such a classic small r republican. pull yourself up by your bootstraps etc etc.

death penalty is fine

racism is bad

euthanasia is wrong

being gay is fine, not using protection and getting HIV is kind of your own fault tho

list of cameron's political/social opinions:

she personally "could never" get an abortion, but we don't know if she is pro-life in general or it's just a personal thing of hers.

"no one" wants an autistic/disabled child. there's also several examples of her trying to white knight house, drugging or lying to (fat, disabled) patients "for their own good", she's lowkey a bit ableist!

death penalty is wrong.

euthanasia is wrong (although she might come around).

killing evil people is okay; killing for the "greater good" is fine (i don't actually think this is hypocritical related to the above bullet points! she differentiates between societal good and personal evil.)

cheating -- whether an affair or to get ahead -- is always wrong

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oh my goddd can we PLEASE retire the whole “chase kissed a nine year old” thing. we GET IT

it was a weird scene. it was a bad decision. no one is out here saying it was fine or normal or cute. but acting like chase is a pedo because of that one moment is such an obnoxiously bad-faith take.

the kid was dying (or thought she was iirc), and she asked him for a kiss because she wanted to feel like she’d had a first kiss before she died. he didn’t kiss her out of attraction. he wasn’t even thinking. it was a badly written moment designed for maximum discomfort and shock because that’s literally what house md does

can we like. stop pretending this is some proof he’s irredeemable or something. there are so many worse things done by characters in this show and y’all fixate on this like it’s the smoking gun...

stop flattening characters into one bad take. it’s lazy. it’s boring.

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Wilson having a relationship with his patient, Grace, in House vs. God is So Much. With his patient with terminal cancer. His whole life has been about getting into relationships that are doomed to end, where he helps and "fixes" people until he burns himself out, and he ends up suffering again and again.

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hi i consider you to be the ultimate authority on turning shakespeare characters into lesbians, so do you have any thoughts on wlw macbeth and lady macbeth (so far my only thought is, "that would be hot. and tragic")

the macbeths are in the same category as benedick and beatrice for me, that is, the "these characters being a man and a woman is very integral to their story, their development, and the way they interact with one another but also i want them to be lesbians soooooo fucking bad" category. which. well. there's the answer i guess KDHFKNSDFKNDSFNS. i'm not sure i have a proper intelligent answer here, because a LOT of things about the dynamic are less thematically rich if macbeth is a woman, but, like. maybe i want him to be a woman. what then. maybe i think it would be sexy for a woman to be the best warrior in scotland. maybe i think it would be interesting for the macbeths to do a murder to become dual queens. maybe i think the implication that the macbeths have lost a child hits in a different way if it's seen as something preventing them from being/having a "proper" family. maybe i think about two women who love each other so much and so fiercely that they would do anything to be together, and the tragedy that comes with the two of them then disintegrating so far from each other that they both die alone. maybe i think they're hot,

also i know i'm the guy who butches people but in my heart of hearts the lesbian macbeths are femme4femme. except lady macbeth is femme like a femme fatale in red velvet with sharp eyeliner and macbeth is femme like that picture of the muppet in a sweater

also ALSO. this makes macbeth and lady m vs macduff and malcolm wlw/mlm hostility, which compels me

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ok wait now that i’ve rambled about both house and wilson it only feels right to say that cuddy is def getting her turn too. she is just as complex and fucked up and layered as the rest of them and i have so many thoughts

but.i’m holding off until i finish my season 5 rewatch........ hashtaf soon tho soon. probably

i feel like i need to say this cuz ever since people started (rightfully) realizing that wilson is actually just as emotionally manipulative and messed up as house, i’ve seen a weird wave of “house deserves better” takes like. you guys. they are both disasters. they are mutual wrecks. they deserve each other (and maybe also a psych ward stay)

house isn’t some poor misunderstood genius being dragged down by his toxic friend. house is a grown man with abandonment issues the size of god, chronic pain he refuses to manage responsibly, and a compulsive need to blow up every good thing in his life before it can leave him first. he is not okay. he is not better than wilson!! he is just LOUDER about being fucked up !!!

like. yes. house is brutally honest and emotionally stunted and painfully smart. he’s a bastard and he knows it. but he weaponizes that self-awareness. he uses it as a shield — like, “yeah, i’m a terrible person so you can’t hurt me by pointing it out.” but he cares. so much. all the time. and he hates that he does. so he builds a whole personality around pretending not to

house is constantly poking at people’s trauma and vulnerabilities like it’s a science experiment — not because he’s evil, but because he genuinely does not know how else to relate. he’s terrified of intimacy. intimacy means exposure, exposure means rejection. so instead he picks at people until they push him away. it’s safer that way. it’s controlled

... but he wants people to stay. that’s the worst part. he wants so badly to be loved and chosen and understood and he’s absolutely incapable of asking for it in a non destructive way. so he tests people. constantly (it does not work lol)

AND LIKE let’s talk about the pills. because yeah! obviously! house is addicted. but the way he treats his own pain — physical and emotional — is so self-punishing it hurts to watch. he doesn’t just want relief, he wants punishment. he doesn’t believe he deserves to feel better. he thinks suffering is what makes him sharp, what keeps him useful, what keeps people from getting too close

he’s miserable and mean and brilliant and lonely and he turns all of it into a performance. he turns his trauma into a weapon and his brilliance into a cage and he pretends he likes it in there

also — and i cannot stress this enough — he needs wilson just as much as wilson needs him. that relationship is codependent. it is toxic. it is real. wilson makes house feel human. house makes wilson feel important. they cling to each other because no one else would put up with either of them for more than five minutes. it’s not healthy. yet it’s true

but. yeah. house pushes everyone away. he ruins every relationship he touches. he mocks vulnerability and ridicules emotion because those things terrify him. he solves medical mysteries like they’re puzzles he can win at — cuz diseases don’t leave you. they don’t get tired of you. they don’t betray you. they’re consistent. they make sense. unlike people. unlike his parents. unlike stacy. unlike wilson sometimes

and when people do try to care about him — cuddy, cameron, stacy, wilson, even random patients — he doesn’t know what to do with it. he wants it. but he’ll destroy it just to prove it was never real. because if he believes it was real and then it leaves he’ll actually fall apart. and he knows it

tl;dr: house is a brilliant, emotionally self-sabotaging, pain-riddled, intimacy-phobic disaster who uses cruelty and honesty to protect himself from the fact that he’s deeply lonely and thinks he’s unlovable. he doesn’t trust love. he trusts pain. and that’s why he’s a mess. wilson lies to himself and others; house tells the truth like it’s a knife. they are the same breed of broken. one just hides it behind a smile. the other behind a snarl. equal levels of unwell !!

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something i love about lisa edelstein's acting is her voice. the way that she chooses just the right moment to let her voice get soft or shaky or loud or sharp. and it always sounds so natural. so well timed.

the difference in tone and volume when she's ranting at house vs talking to wilson vs calming a patient. the difference between her with wilson in finding judas vs her with house in words and deeds.

cuddy is a character that keeps so much about herself guarded. tries to keep her emotions inside (to... various degrees of success lol). but her voice (and her microexpressions!) oftentimes say it all. i looooove it.