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i guess i'll just post about my disorder in more of a blog format. i don't want to spam my main with this, bcos i am mutuals with ppl that i know irl

I think i will change the blog a little. I wanted to make a lot of informational posts that would require a lot of reaserch but I just don't have the space for this right now

I want to either do it well or not at all

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my tics started getting a lot better. less things trigger them. i could not be happier, like my body just feels so calm :3

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I think i will change the blog a little. I wanted to make a lot of informational posts that would require a lot of reaserch but I just don't have the space for this right now

I want to either do it well or not at all

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Actually that no punctuation plot hole ooc wattpad fanfic written by that 12 year old will ALWAYS be better than character ai. And I love that 12 year old btw

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People with psychotic disorders are neurodivergent too.

People with personality disorders are neurodivergent too.

People with substance abuse disorders are neurodivergent too.

People with tic disorders are neurodivergent too.

People with bipolar disorder are neurodivergent too.

People with dissociative disorders are neurodivergent too.

Neurodivergence isn’t just ADHD, autism, anxiety, and depression. (Plus those last two also get left out sometimes!) Neurodivergence is anything that affects your brain.

“Neurodivergent people hate loud noises” is actually just as valid as a statement as “neurodivergent people have delusions,” “neurodivergent people have tics,” or even “neurodivergent people have low empathy.”

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like it's such an intresting topic I feel like fanfiction allows us to explore our tic disorders more freely. like with lighter forms of tics, or less specified conditions (although the most popular tag for tic related stuff is still TS). and on the other hand one of the most popular characters is ticcy tobby lol

ive been intensely thinking of writing an academic paper about tic representation in fanfiction.......

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ive been intensely thinking of writing an academic paper about tic representation in fanfiction.......

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Ways Difficulty Sensing Our Body in Space Show up?

Neurodivergent Lou

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PLEASE

please stop associating the term neurodivergent with JUST autism and adhd. like please. there are so many ways to be neurodivergent and it’s not fair to assume that it’s just about autism adhd.

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guy desperately wishing he wasn’t experiencing Symptoms: maybe i’m just faking Symptoms for attention

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the most ironic thing is tho

if I want anyone to see my post I also need to tag TS sometimes. I only do it if I feel like my post mentions /is related to TS in a significant way, but still. feels bad man

a huge pet peeve of mine is ppl tagging everything tic related as tourettes.

or "tourettes and tic disorders".

what do you mean AND? TS *is* a tic disorder. tic disorder is an umbrella term. if you are not talking specifically about TS (and most ppl aren't, you may think you are, but you probably aren't) you can just say tic disorder.

when will ppl learn

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a huge pet peeve of mine is ppl tagging everything tic related as tourettes.

or "tourettes and tic disorders".

what do you mean AND? TS *is* a tic disorder. tic disorder is an umbrella term. if you are not talking specifically about TS (and most ppl aren't, you may think you are, but you probably aren't) you can just say tic disorder.

when will ppl learn

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getting diagnosed with a tic disorder

I just wanted to try out talking about that experience. maybe someone will relate, or find it useful.

i don't really remember how my tics started. i have a tendency of not acknowledging my feelings and brushing things off. i have always been a little jumpy, so I just blamed my weird shrugs and other weird unwanted movements on being easily scared.

they got really bad after my 18th birthday. and soon i asked my parents to see a neurologist.

before that we had conversations about me seeing a specialist, but i didn't want to hear about it. i wanted to pretend that everything was normal.

i went to the neurologist privately. which means that i didn't have to wait too long for the visit but I had to pay for it. my school needed a confirmation that i do have that disorder for my final exams.

i was very stressed, but the doctor was super nice. i had prepared a whole document in which i described all my symptoms, with dates if i could remember them, what my tics feel like, what makes them worse, what makes them better, family history of tics, or similar conditions, etc.

she was really nice and understanding. i don't remember the specific questions that she asked, but something about what is distracting/difficult about them. stuff like that.

she asked me to close my eyes and touch my nose, or left ear, stuff like that. also she had a little stick (like the ones doctor use to look into someones throat) and she would lead it from my fingertips up to my shoulders. she also checked my knee jerk reaction.

over all it was more of a chat, than an actual physical test.

she gave me a prescription for a brain scan (magnetic resonance, which i couldn't do due to having braces, and we switched to an MRI with contrast) - nothing wrong with it, thank fuck. and she prescribed me medication. i fucking hated those meds. they were Awful.

I never got a diagnosis from her. She gave me meds, and reassurance that this is probably psychological, which was enough at the time. Even tho she was a really good neurologist, tics were not her speciality, so i tried another guy.

AND BOY O BOY

he was supposed to be the lead specialist on tic disorders in my country. and maybe he was.

i spend 4h traveling from my city to the capital, just so i could see him.

i knew that he would probably asked my father my childhood, so i was prepared that my dad would be present for a while during the visit. but no, the doctor ever asked him to go out of the room, after the conversation about my childhood ended (it was brief, i had no symptoms in childhood). the doctor would ask my dad about other stuff as well, stuff i could have easily have talked about myself.

and then he asked me about my self harm, and depression, and suicidal thoughts (with my father still present in the room). i answered truthfully, even tho I REALLY wanted to lie. i came out of that visit with my F95.9 diagnosis, and a bunch of other diagnosis like anxiety and stuff. and a prescription for anti-anxiety drugs that i never bought.

i am not sure if the F95.9 is my disorder, but it does fit my symptoms somewhat, so that's why i use it. it's definitely not TS, and at this point idc anymore. the guy saw me one time, and with my dad present, so the diagnosis is very questionable imo, but hey. whatever.

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different kinds of tics

Tics can divided into few categories: simple/complex and motor/vocal.

Motor tics are movements. Examples: blinking, shoulder shrugging, making faces or gestures, etc.

Vocal tics are sounds. Examples: meowing, barking, saying words or sentences, whistling, etc.

sometimes it can be hard to differentiate between them. I have a tic in which i click my tongue. It is a movement, but there is also a sound to it. I'm not sure whether it's the movement or the sound that makes the pre-tic tension go away.

Complex tics involve a lot of different muscles. They can appear as something done intentionally, but they are never intentional. Examples: saying words or frazes, making gestures, jumping, grimacing, etc

Simple tics are quick, and, well, simple. Examples: winking of an eye, tensing of a specific muscle, sniffing, simple "woo", or a similar sound, etc

Different types of tics can feel very different. They may alleviate the pre-tic tension in different ways. For example i need to hear the whistle in order for the tension to disappear, but I don't need to hear my meowing for the tension to go away.

I may not even notice some of my simple motor tics. but sometimes there is a big cumulation of them and it's awful. Some of the more complex ones feel like i'm being controlled by some alien life force or sth. And some of my complex tics are chill, and idc. It really depends on the day, on what I'm doing and what my tics are at the moment.

bibliography

NHS

A handy table

MedicalNewsToday

the last two paragraphs are based purely on my own experiences. Other people with tics will probably experience things differently.

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stuff that i will want to talk about soon

tic disorders other than tourettes

my diagnosis with tic disorder, and why it sucked ass (i was a child when i was diagnosed with specific learning disabilities, i don'r remember much, bu if you are intrested i can talk about that anyway)

how i even developed tics (ft. theories from my therapists)

different types of tics

questions you should ask yourself when writing a character who tics

what to think about when putting your character who tics into situations

savoir vivre when dealing with people who have specific learning disability (mainly dysgraphia)

how other characters may react to your character who tics/has specific learning disabilities

dyslexia and percy jakcson, and why I am not the biggest of of that specific example

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who am I? and why do i want to do this?

I am a 20y queer guy diagnosed with an unspecified tic disorder, dyslexia, dysgraphia, dysortographia, and with undiagnosed sensory issues (possibly autism, but i am not going to start diagnostic process for that now, so we will never know for sure).

i am not a medical professional, i am not a professional sensitivity/beta reader, i am not a professional researcher. Everything i do here is out of pure passion. I am not your end all be all. Asking me doesn't mean that you did enough research. I am your helper and consultant, not an oracle.

i am a hobbyist writer and a passionate reader, and i love to see myself in the stories that i read.

i love fantasy and i recently started getting into horror as well, but since i was a child i would read literally any genre.

i find great comfort in reading about characters who are similar to me, but finding stories like that (which are not for literal children, or are about literal children) is very difficult

that's why i want to encourage writers to write more characters with tics/specific learning disabilities! And i want to make writing them easier for you

(i also want free short stories and free attention from you, that's all, bye)

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rules and regulations

(sound scary but they really aren't)

if you want to know who i am and why do i want to do this check this post [link]

ASKS

i will not answer if i feel like your question is rude, or you are fake-claimy.

I will avoid answering asks about Tourettes Syndrome, as i do not have it

as simple as that. I *want* to receive asks and make writing characters who are like me easier for you!

i want to consult on your character ideas/character designs(?)/story arc ideas, etc

i want to talk about my daily life with a mild form of tic disorder

my struggle with accepting them

how i use accommodations (for specific learning disabilities and sensory issues)

how others react

intimate relationships and tics

my opinions on popular shows depicting characters with my disorders

and i am curious to see what people without tics/specific learning disabilities/sensory issues want to know <3 [heart emoji]

2. BETA READING/SENSITIVITY READING

Yes, i will do it for free. Hopefully the exchange will go like this: i receive a free short story with rep of my disorder to read and you will receive free advice on how to make it better.

i will not spell check your work for obvious reasons, but

i WILL tell you whether your character is realistic, and whether you did a good job avoiding overused or harmful tropes, when it comes to tics/dyslexia/dysgraphia (also i can consult on Polish characters lol, it's always fun to read about Polish people, but i will give my answer on @eye-devourer in order to leave this blog more focused).

you can send me an ask with a paragraph of your work you want me to comment on. It will help if you add what things you want me to focus on.

if you want me to read a longer text (up to 3 pages) DM me. I can't promise anything, but i will see what i can do. We'll figure something out.

3. REQUESTS or suggestions

very much welcomed.

I feel more comfortable talking about my experiences, thoughts, and opinions, but if you want me to dig a little into the research/medical side of things i'd be more than happy to provide. Just remember that i am not a specialist myself.

4. SPELLING MISTAKES

i will make them. often.

be kind about it. i use a spellchecker, but sometimes i will misspell a word in such a way that even the spellchecker won't be able to help. I also struggle with homophones (whether/weather; flower/flour).

if you feel the need to notify me do it in notes of the post. Provide the correct spelling, so i can copy paste it in (i often literally will not be able to spot the difference between my spelling and yours, so copy paste is the only reliable option).

english is my second language. just remember that, when reading my posts