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I would like the world to know that Q-Force is actually good AND I AM A STAT SIMP NOW

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Chest dysphoria TW

General tibby talk TW Also this is sort of a super messy post because it's basically ongoing dialog from my brain, so be warned, difficult reading ahead. If anyone's willing to talk about it, I'd appreciate it if some folks told me their experiences with chest dysphoria, especially non binary folks, because this is just getting more and more confusing for me to navigate. So I have sort of a weird relationship with my uhhh... boob orbs??? (there is really no way to talk about boobs without sounding 12) sometimes I appreciate how they look in certain outfits because cleavage is a LOOK, but... most of the time I sort of avoid them , for as long as I can remember my brain has just tried to avoid thinking about them, like it's trying to block them out. For a long time I just thought this was because I was insecure about them, but I think I've really come to terms with them, I'm pretty much fine with how they look, like as far as boobs go, but that avoidant feeling mixed with disgust is *still* there. Part of me thinks it's because I associate them with disease on myself, like they've bred paranoia in me for forever, but that also sort of seems like that's not it...? Like, even just the idea of someone touching them makes me feel sort of nauseous, and my brain just constantly avoids them, could paranoia really cause that???? I guess it could. The other option is just straight chest dysphoria, I've wanted a flat chest for a long time, but sometimes I don't...? So the idea of getting top surgery is terrifying, because I might regret it???? But also I'm not entirely sure I don't just want to keep them because I feel like I'm expected to have them and I've used them as a source of validation for a long time (I am aware that's messed up, I know) and I wouldn't have that anymore if I were flat... But if I were flat I'd get to be flat, and I'd get to wear the clothes I want to the way I want to and I' be able to go SHIRTLESS!!! That sounds wildly amazing (Mind you I think everyone should be able to be shirtless but the idea of my boobs seeing the light of day makes me want to vomit) I really hope I come to a solid decision one day one way or the other, although I'm not going to lie, I secretly hope I make the decision to get top surgery, which uh... maybe that says something in itself, but I'm unsure.

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Today I am dedicating Katy Perry's Hot and Cold to my gender identity which literally REFUSES to stay consistent, that bitch.

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Sometimes I think about this friend I had in high school who constantly flirted with me and tried to kiss me every time I saw her, and I just... didn't think anything about it? She was bi, I knew she was bi and I just thought "We're such good gal pals :)" as she would hang around my neck and beg me to kiss her. What.

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This year I finally started presenting butch/masc/andro like I've always wanted, but it's still pretty new for me So every time someone tells me they like butch folks now I still get super bashful and shy It's so embarrassing, HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO ACT COOL WITH MY TOMATO FACE IN MY HANDS

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Being genderfluid is such a wild ride sometimes, like on Tuesday I'll be like "Hey being a lady isn't so bad, I can live like this" and then on Wednesday I'll be screaming about wanting to be on testosterone

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When I was a teen I was really obsessed with emotionally unavailable butch girls.

Now I am the emotionally unavailable butch girl.

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I love and by love I mean hate when people tell me and other people that being non-binary is just a new trend, especially during quarantine, because:

1: Non-binary folks have always existed 2: I think that no one can ever know another persons gender without asking them, you have literally no idea what is going on inside someone else 3: Even if a person ends up being cis I think it's good for all people to explore their identities no matter where they end up, you're allowed to identify as different things throughout your life, it's okay, you're okay, you can do that! 4: A lot of us have been questioning our gender identities for a *long* time before quarantine, quarantine has just given us the time to be more introspective and comfortable with ourselves. I literally started questioning my identity 7 years ago, and even before that I had lots of questionable gender feels, I just didn't know what they were. Being completely isolated from other people made me finally drop the expectations people have of me, especially the gender ones, so I was finally able to fully come out to myself and people around me (although that's still a slow process) it is by no means anything new for me, I've just been given the space to think. Also if it is new for someone, that's okay!!! Quarantine has been the first time for many people that they've been able to truly be introspective and removed from others expectations, it's okay if this is all new for you, don't let anyone invalidate you, not even yourself, you are learning about yourself, no matter where you end up, it's okay!

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Me: Can't believe I've tricked myself into thinking I'm non-binary wow I'm such a liar, this is some borderline skillful shit Also me: *gets noticeably irritated every time someone compares me to female actresses or tells me I look feminine* Also me: *becomes noticeably pleased whenever someone compares me to a male actor or implies I'm masculine*

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Sometimes I think about this guy I knew in middle/high school who all the girls liked, who I thought I also liked, who turned out to be transphobic. I realized recently the reason I thought I liked him was because of gender envy. I'm pretty sure he actually did have an on again off again crush on me though, which is just hilariously tragic for him. I hope he educated himself and changed because his brother did, his brother was a cool guy, much cooler than him, though I don't think he thought so. S, I assure you that you have always been more interesting and lovable than your asshole brother.

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Soooo I owe $1,275.00 in rent because my shitty old apartment complex never sent my check from my security deposit and now I'm fucked. I'm an Anishinaabe transman that's been trying to get by, and my roommate just lost her job too and now we're double fucked.

Please help us!!! 🙏

My Venmo is @Shakkai-Moon

If you wanna message me about other forms of donations I'm down with that too- Anything helps for real!

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Thank you Dana Terrace

5 years ago I started watching these charity live streams Alex Hirsch and co were doing at the time, I remember Alex introduced Dana as his girlfriend (as well as Gravity Falls team alumni) and I just instantly loved her, I looked up her work and found these videos of her sketchbooks from college, followed all her socials and really started looking up to her as an artist, soon after that she announced that she was working on her own show on Disney and I was *so excited* for her and also so excited to see her show... And here we are, 5 years later, we're on season 2 of The Owl House and not only is it an amazing show writing and story wise but it's also making queer history, this show is going to stick with me forever, as I'm sure it will for many people especially queer youth, and I am so so happy about that, I am so happy they are getting what past generations of queer kids did not, this kind of stuff may seem small to some, but representation changes the world, it changes it for the better. Thank you Dana Terrace for being such a big inspiration to me for many years, and thank you for changing the world for queer children, you are doing such important work and you've created such an amazing piece of art, thank you. Also, thank you to everyone who is working on TOH behind the scenes and making it come to life, you guys are total badasses!!!!!

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Meet Maya, an orphaned 24 year old trans woman in Yemen. She has been held in prison for multiple charges for being trans/being a "man that dresses like a woman", and for being gay.

She has been brutally beaten and sexually assaulted/raped by both prisoners and security guards. Her adoptive family abandoned her because of her gender identity and the charges against her. When she was released to go home her family beat her up. They broke her nose. They told her she deserved to die.

She ran away to another city to live with a friend temporarily. She's attempted suicide multiple times.

I got in contact with her recently after retweeting her story. She said she managed to afford an apartment with just a few retweets of her GoFundMe. All she needs is a little more money to move out of Yemen. Her goal is £12,000 and she's currently at £8,192.

"I hope that you look into my case and help me to get out of Yemen to a country that saves my right and dignity as a transgender woman."

She has stated that she is not the only trans person in Yemen to undergo torture like that. Trans people have no rights or protections in Yemen.

Please, if you have the means, even donating the minimum £5 can help immensely toward the effort to save her. If not, a simple reblog as well as boosting this on twitter and other social media sites would help greatly.

#savemaya

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Am I the only one that feels really irritated at things being labeled "wlw and nblw" that only include afab non binary folk?

Like what is that??? Amab non binary people exist, they are non binary. Afab non binary people aren't just a newfangled type of woman, they are non binary. I feel like we really shouldn't have to talk about our agabs so much because it's putting us back into a binary, but y'all keep acting like only afab people can be non binary or that they aren't non binary at all and you're just humoring them, I am tired of it.

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This has really been my experience as well, it's sort of wild to me how much my presentation has changed the way I see myself. Like it makes sense, but sometimes I still can't get over how differently I saw myself even just a year ago. Can you believe I didn't identify as hot a year ago? How tragic, truly unbelievable.