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Hell Ya’ll!

I hope you're doing good! I’m still listening to Mars and yes, this recent Mars album came out in the adult era of my life. The last one came out in my college era lol. that being said here’s some life updates:

- i’m still acting and dancing, ironically enough and yes, I get paid for it. I didn’t really think I’d make it this far, but I did lol

-I’m starting to get pro at pole dance. Yes I’ve been doing pole dance since I was 17 and for some reason, it’s something that’s stuck as a hobby lol. that being said, I did not realize the amount of bruising I would have to go through because I literally bruise like a peach. LIKE I CAN’T EVEN LMAO.

-  this song right here is literally everything this week. Yes, I listen to Mars, but I also listen to other artists.

So those are my updates. like I said I hope you’re having a great day and keep doing what you want to do in your life. Basically I've just grown up a lot and its been good for me even though I'm probably more business like and upfront like people in my family than I’d like to admit lol. I didn’t really think that I would pull this Acting and Dance thing off, but it shocks me every day that I did.



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“find me where the wild things are”

and i never have forgotten I’m a wild and authentic one at heart. even when everyone told me what I’m moving towards was impossible. know that it is. if there’s anything those Letos taught me it’s them.

healing through the arts is a gift. remember that ✨

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just know that good things are on their way creatively. i have some professional projects coming out fairly soon! right now i’ve been modeling and so far it’s been fun!

i’m also getting a certification in personal training that i am excited to share with you soon. it’s part of a much bigger plan i have and i will get to share with y’all soon!

remember to have love for yourself and stay awesome!

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hey y’all!

It’s been awhile. Been getting ready for big things that I’m not ready to tell you about just yet. Just know that they are magical, creative, and exciting. and everything else that you can imagine.

basically y’all will be proud of me. including Jared and Shannon. seriously.

that being said i will tell you three facts that I’ve learned about myself this past year.

1. i like to contort my body. it’s was random. it started in qaurentine and has grown on me since.

2. I love sleep more than i thought. if you know me, you know i love sleep but this is crazy. the amount I’ve been sleeping is nutzo lol. basically it’s how i get answers for very specific questions relating to my life purpsose and what not.

3. i am stronger than i thought. after growing up in CA and going through the awakening I went through in college i thought I was pretty tough. but I realized that I’m tougher than i realized because I can just do really hard ish and decide to take risks. sometimes it freaks me out but i’m learning to do what feel initively right for me and my journey.

P.S. I LOVE THIS COVER and hopefully Jared never finds this on the internets because I’d die. That and I will probably be in rehearsal when I do because, word gets out fast these days lmao.

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sup again

hi ya’ll! i’m here and alive and very very happy! there’s a lot that’s gone on but know that I’m doing well and very grateful for life! 

Thank you guys for following me this long. that’s truly crazy lol

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Sup.

Just wondering how ya’ll are? I’m busy but in the best way possible. I will make sure to post an update with ya’ll soon.

And not Jared’s soon. [No that will never happen]

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8/26/19

I’m sorry I haven't been on here. A lot of things have happened since I last posted. Here are the highlights:

I graduated college (aka I survived. I made it kids. whoo!)

I am doing an internship, something this Taurus was determined to manifest lol

I’m finally doing what I want to do (dance, act, and do that blog thing. Basically start my own business)

Deepened my knowledge on the law of attraction. I know so much now. It’s stupid lol. My family must think I’m nuts. Then again, my family’s from New Mexico. Oh my generation and our starseed things lol.

I’m not going to lie it was hard. There was a point in college where i didn’t know if i wanted to keep doing this. I kept subconsciously comparing myself to my peers and those around me. It sucked. I kept judging myself whenever I messed up. I did a show last year and genuinely thought to myself “this is the last one I’ll do. That’s it.”

Obviously the universe had other plans. It said, no Geneva you’re doing more acting gigs after college. That and getting better at dance and modeling. Like “universe you are testing me in this time. So hard.”

My reaction was slightly reluctant. There was a part of me that wanted to go back to comfort. I wanted to go back to a “normal life.” but i’m a performer. We. do. Not. live. “Normally” (as much as i don’t like saying that). Then I realized there is no normal life than the one I make. I’m also a life path 3 (creative) so I’m kind of supposed to be doing this. I’m also addicted to the adrenaline rush of being a performer.

Even more than that, being an artist. There are days where I think something’s wrong with me. I’m not sure if those Letos went through this as a 22 year old but uh...it’s real. That aside my life is turning out to be pretty unique. I get lonely sometimes because I’ve never met anyone else like me but that’s okay. I’m okay with that

And i’m accepting myself more for it.

Okay have a great day! Stay awesome and love yourself. and listen to musicals. 

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Don’t go changing on me, babe Typical feeling Who ever told you you're not good enough? Just don’t go changing on me, babe Physical healing Why don't we dance away your fear of love? Don’t go changing

“Don’t Go Changing” - Aly and AJ

Besides Mars, Aly and AJ seems to be crack. At least to dance to. Why, I’m so not sure.

 Childhood thing? Maybe. 

Act of self-love and a love for Aly and AJ’s recent EP? Hell yes. 

But ya’ll would’ve figured that out considering I’ve said so much about my theatre and dance thing. It embarrasses me at times but it’s okay. All I can say is that I’m 22 and still evolving.

Any who, I just came on to say hi and I hope ya’ll are doing well. Lots of self-love and positivity. You are awesome, you are enough, and you are important. 

Oh and a life update coming soon. All good things I promise. And not Jared’s soon. Hay dios no.

P.S.  Leo season has me feeling extra and way too ambitious for my own good lol. 

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4/15/19 Hey ya’ll

It’s been a while. Some things have happened. Me writing a play that I still think needs work [the story of my life], dancing my heart out, learning about the universe [Yes I’m one of those people who loves talking about spirituality like it’s my best friend. It’s insanity lol], manifesting my dream life, and still being weird.

Ask my family, they know lol. No seriously ask them.

You know normal things. Oh and vegan cookies. Never forget the vegan cookies (you can always trust us vegan junkies lol).

I  just wanted come on and let you know that I’m still alive, growing, and very much living my last semester of college to the fullest. It’s a sad ending but one that needs to be had. Any who, I’m curious as to what this blog will turn into as I transition into post-college mode. In some ways it’s nerve wracking but exciting. My goal is to keep posting on here as I make my career a reality. Hopefully it’s cool but also kept on the down low.

Also I’m praying that Jared, or anybody in Mars, will never see these posts. Like I said before in previous posts, I would die because they would be reading stuff 18 year old Geneva wrote. Not the Geneva now lol.

Regardless enjoy the photo from 2002 (aka when I was in kindergarten and kept trying different smiles because I thought that was cool lol) I hope ya’ll have a great day/night wherever you are! Stay creative and do you, ya feel?

P.S. i low key wrote this listening to the Spring Awakening soundtrack. My inner theatre kid is beaming. Anybody else a fan?

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dear 2018,

2018 Reflection

2018. man you were growing. and honest. and beautiful in every way ✨

at first you brought me down to my knees. you made me cry (a lot) but you made me realize that i wasn’t alone. that i wasn’t the only person who believed nine impossible things when they woke up. that manifestations and dreams make up my very existence. that i wasn’t the only one with crazy dreams.

you brought me back to a child like person that i didn’t think i’d ever get back. you’ve developed my new love for yoga and spirituality practice. you helped me find an inner peace with a self-sabotaging past with self-mutalating and eating disorders. something i don’t wish on my worst enemy.

you helped me understand what it meant to be here. to sit and hear yourself breathe even though you don’t feel like moving. to tell yourself “it’s okay” and listen to the kinder voices telling you that “you are enough.” cause yes i do have those days lol.

i literally wake up and thank the universe for giving me this life, love, and opportunities. for helping me understand why taking a path less traveled can be a good thing. that the magic my Native American ancestors had is real. [yes i’m a 1/4 Native and whole other bag of ethnicities lol #mixedpeople ]

so thanks 2018 for teaching me how to say #thankunext

i feel changes coming and i can’t wait. i’m graduating, going to new places, and continuing to be my insane self.

K i hope y’all have a great New Year’s Eve. know that you are beautiful, loved, and can do anything you set your mind to. i’m wishing you all a great 2019 with lots of love, positivity, and opportunities ✨

P.S. i posted the same thing on my IG account as well (@marsandfruit). i felt that y’all should hear the same thing cause this is me and this how i felt about 2018 (*cue the nerdy smile*).

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12/15/18

hi ya’ll. it’s been awhile. it honestly feels like the amount of time it took for mars to release America so let me tell you where i’ve been.

my taurus vibes are real as i dream about soulmates, work hard in school, work on internship applications, and continue to be stubborn [oh us tauruses lol]. i’m finding that being alone with my gratitude and creative self is what i needed. i needed to fill my need to create. to write the words that i didn’t think would ever been spoken. to dance out the emotions i need to feel. to just continue being in alignment with my desires (as hippie as that sounds lol). to escape/live with the growing pains that i’ve been having.

but i learned to sit with my emotions. to come to terms with the fact that (1) i was/am growing up and (2) i’m right where i need to be. that there is no rush. i could literally hear my intuition saying “relax. it’s okay. there’s nothing wrong.” i  was trying so hard to control everything. it was making life very difficult to live.

i finally let go when my play was read aloud. it was ten minutes. a form that not only my playwriting professor (but jared might advocate for lol). listening to it was nerve-wracking. i kept telling myself “chirst i’m sassy AF” and “man i need to rewrite that” lol. it was like watching dance videos of me. basically: cringy and very, very exposing. Nevertheless, i learned a lot. i forgot how much i loved to write. for a long time i thought that i wasn’t good enough to write. i went to an academically cutthroat high school and therefore it led me to a limiting belief that i would never be an “adequate writer.” i felt that because i couldn’t write a Standford approved paper, that i was nothing. That sounds sad but so true. And when it came to this class I was like “F it.”

okay scratch that.

i said that “i’m writing what my heart needs to say. The Sun and Her Flowers [by Rupi Kaur] has taken over my soul and i need to express a play with the same messages and themes.” Over the past few years, I’ve learned to listen to my gut. To trust the little voice that gets louder and louder the more I listen to it. and i did. and it turned out to be healing. and honest. and all the emotions that i needed to feel. because it felt like i was suffocating myself down a bottomless pit. i’m unsure if it’s successful (in theatre terms lol) but healing. something that maybe you all can relate to.

in mars fashion this will remain a secret until my gut tells me it’s time to release it. i promise you it will be worth it. for the time being you will continue to hear the insane adventures of a 21 year old lol. hopefully it’s fun for ya’ll.

K  i hope ya’ll have a great day. stay awesome, love yourselves, keep it real, and enjoy yourself. life’s too short to take it too seriously.

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You got flames for wings, and at the Stake is the claim of your wild speech Fake is the flurry try to keep you in a bind Shake shake shake it off like the way the dragon ride Out of your cave you're a beast of another dawn Like a wake on the current that her voice will Carry you for another lifetime Keep your sight set right, leadin with the Sound of the the arrow, fly (and what these words do And what these words do…) Sister sun your ivory tongue is flowin' like the waters run and all my thoughts jump into Feathers abound fall on the page down, feathers abound fall on the pages Sister sun your inner lungs are spinning shapes alive and wove in vision Praying, pray our spirit, turn, our heart's'll become

“Ivory Tongue” by Ayla Nereo

new tumblr post coming out tomorrow. it’s honest and (hopefully) entertaining. 

here’s a song that i keep listening to and might forever dance to. yes i’m a dance fein. it’s my crack lol.

K hope ya’ll are having a great night/day. stay awesome and love yourselves.

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Spend more time with my friends I ain't worried 'bout nothin' Plus, I met someone else We havin' better discussions I know they say I move on too fast But this one gon' last 'Cause her name is Ari And I'm so good with that (So good with that) She taught me love (Love) She taught me patience (Patience) How she handles pain (Pain) That shit's amazing (Yeah, she's amazing) I've loved and I've lost (Yeah, yeah) But that's not what I see (Yeah, yeah) 'Cause look what I've found (Yeah, yeah) Ain't no need for searching, and for that, I say

“thank u, next” - Ariana Grande

felt ya’ll should know where I’ve been. it’s been a time of self-love, gratitude, and discovery. yes i didn’t listen to this song until a month later (classic me lol).

also, happy new moon ya’ll.

i’ll make sure to post next week (aka when my finals are over). there’s so much to share. hope you’re having a great day/night.

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10/27/18

Hey guys. It's been, awhile. A lot has happened.

I submitted my play about a week ago and you know what I learned? How it feels to give yourself to an art form that doesn't have mercy. Well, it has a little but not much lol.

To be honest, I almost didn't submit it because it was that terrifying. Basically, I almost let fear hold me back. Why? This play's apart of me to a certain degree. [And I low key hate to admit that]. It's a result of the healing that I needed to do. Words I couldn't say to people I once knew. Words that I would've said to my younger self. The person who truly needed to hear this.  

Dance does that for me too. It heals me. From things that I don't want to admit to myself or the world. The insane, wild, parts that are outlawed.

I'm not sure if Jared felt the same way but maybe ya'll know where I'm getting at. It’s just a little scary is all. And coming from a private person that’s difficult. 

So yes this is a photo of Jared but this is also another post about my college endeavors. And maybe a manifestation of a "crazy" insane vision I have.

K it's late. And my body is telling me to sleep so I need to listen to that ya feel?

 Stay awesome and love yourselves. In Sierra Boggess's words "You're enough. You are so enough. It's unbelievable how enough you are!"

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It's 2 A.M. in my room Headlights pass the window pane I think of you We're a crooked love In a straight line down Makes you wanna run and hide Then it makes you turn right back around I wish you would come back Wish I'd never hung up the phone like I did I wish you knew that I'd never forget you as long as I'd live

“I Wish You Would” - Taylor Swift

Managed to start dancing to this the other day. Here’s what stuck. Yes I listen to Taylor. It was established when I was 11 (and we’re not going back lol).

Anyways, I promise to post on here this week. I’ve left you hanging for too long. 

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9/17/18

happy monday! i hope ya'll are doing great. guess who knows what play she's writing? this girl! whoop! whoop! now it's a matter of writing this idea longer and longer. i've already got a lot of it written which is pretty cool. although i'm noticing two things: i seem to be a fan of insanity. and characters who like to break the law. and magical realism. lots of magical realism. these are signs that i grew up a little too middle class lol. to put things nicely i've never broken the law (U.S.A.). ever. the closest would be littering and that would be an accident.

but hey i could've been a high-class criminal in another life. i could totally see that happening lol. just sayin'.

now my only request is that Jared please be in a musical. please. i've requested that so many times on this blog. why? this theatre kid needs it lol.

there was no point to this post. well there kind of was. i promise the next one will be meaningful. just have fun with whatever you're doing. the universe will work to make your desires move faster. 

k have a great night/day wherever are. stay present. love yourselves. and live.

and in celebration of the play here’s a song from Pretty Woman The Musical. Yes there’s a musical kids. Get on it lol

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9/10/18

sup, ya'll. this week's been good. i got to read an entire piece of playwriting to my class. in fact we all needed to. that. was. so. fun (with sarcasm intended). i then proceeded to go do yoga as a way to calm myself down. lesson? now i know how every other playwright feels. i left my playwriting class shitless. just sayin'. i forgot how personal it was to write. the same goes for choreographing and devising theatre. sometimes you don't know if it's you or your subconscious speaking or just an insane person. sometimes it's embarrassing, but it's honest. so honest that it hurts your insides with joy or fear.  that's what i'm finding with this project i'm writing. i'm not sure where some of these experiences come from. a past life? i'm not sure. i do know that it is from me and it's me. not mars inspired. me. and i'm okay with that. you feel?

it made me wonder what Beckett thought when he first published his plays. this play isn't too absurdist but there are aspects of it.

i guess i'm here to tell you to make things for you. not anyone else. for a long time, i tried so hard for people to like me. unknowingly doing things for people as opposed to myself. it was ridiculous and a waste of time. now i really don't care. i just do what i want. live the way i want to. Jared would be proud of this crazy 21-year-old who does something that's for "old people." thank god he doesn't know this blog exists. if he did i would die. metaphorically and literally. the amount of musical theatre references i've made on here is embarrassing lol. then again the Beckett and avant-guard references aren't too bad either lol.

as my younger sister would write "kk see you later." stay awesome and love yourselves.

p.s. i low key lost it when i saw this. Jared don't do this to me. please lol. also my younger sister would kill me if she saw that i wrote one of her most common phrases so we're going to pretend that i didn't lol.