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She’s gone. The person I loved so much. She was the best. To let her go would be impossible. I loved her in a situation where she had no hope. I gave all my love to her. And maybe god meant it to be this way. For me to get her out of the dark place she was in when we met and then to heal her and then us part ways. The pain doesn’t go away. It never will. I love you. Her soft touch. Her gentle kiss. Her beautiful voice that could calm anyone down. Her soft hair. Her big hugs. Her small hands that would fit perfectly around mine. Her smile that would melt my heart. Her “no bb” that would end any discussion. You’d think I would be mad but it’s impossible to get mad at her once you know her well. Every night it’s the same feeling. Will it ever go away? Probably not. I made a promise to not fail her. To keep us going until marriage and death. After giving up on so many things in my life, She was the one thing that I would not give up on. Now that she’s gone the times we talk feel like I’m talking to a stranger. Someone I trusted with everything now feels so distant. I still trust her because I know she’s not the type of person to let things slip and gossip if it’s serious. I love you. That’s all I could give her. Love. I had nothing else but love and respect. At a time that’s all she wanted from me. Where it went wrong seems so stupid. Maybe she didn’t feel the same way I did. Maybe everyone isn’t like me. Maybe a majority of people can’t feel loved when you are far apart. I can’t blame her. She’s been through hell. And after that hell I understand why she left. But it’s still not clear to me. I don’t understand. Will she ever find someone to love her as much as I do? I doubt it. I won’t stop loving her. I can’t. I made a promise to love her no matter what and I can’t break that. Because the only way to get over things is to get mad. And I can’t get mad at her. I love her to much. She’ll always be my #1. My baby love. My bb.

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Here are some flowers on a tree in my neighborhood. This picture was very good. It had a blurry background and focused on the flowers up front and I don’t even have portrait mode on my phone and it did it by it self which I’m really happy about.

I’m trying to find a use for the “ relief” tool. It’s the one that makes those squiggly lines on the picture. I thought it would work well on water but I think I used to much. I’ll have to keep playing around with it.

Also I’m need more pictures so if you have any send them my way please!

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This picture had some mist and fog by the trees and the watercolor effect worked really well

This watercolor effect works really well with foggy and misty pictures. This one is kinda grainy but still turned out alright

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These two photos are very similar and I don’t know which one I like best. The first one uses watercolors and the second one uses oil paint. The both look very good but I don’t know which one I like better.

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This picture I took and did both watercolor and oil paint with. I don’t know what to think about it. It feels kinda messy in some places but others it’s good. I might try some more like this and see how they turn out. Believe it or not I haven’t had much free time this last week. They final got some sort of online learning working so I guess I’ll have to do that. Good side is normally school would be 8 hours but now it’s only supposed to be 4.

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Nothing much to say tonight. Just making more pictures. I did go(forced by my parents) on a bike ride today but where I live isn’t that scenic and I almost had an asthma attack so that was fun.

This picture I took a long time ago. This is at the lake that is about a mile or so from my house. It was great when I could get out and away from my family. They’re just so annoying sometimes.

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I figured out what style works best with different types of pictures. Using oil paint works best with landscapes like this, ones that don’t show much of the sky and show more terrain and plants and animals. I have a couple other pictures like this one where the sun rays go through the trees.

Pictures like these work well with the watercolor paint. The openness of the sky and ocean really make the watercolor look pop out. There’s more things I want to try with this and experiment with. For now I’ll keep posting two pictures twice a day. Also if you see this post you should check out my other posts. The have equally cool pictures and some even better!

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This picture was to grainy for the watercolor effect to fix it so I went with the oil paint feature. This makes the picture look wavy and kind of smeared. Over all I think when the watercolors can’t save a photo then the oil paint can. You can’t see any if the pixels unless you get really close to it. This one works really well for a wallpaper on your phone.

Here’s my girlfriend again, but today is out 10 month anniversary and I though I would post something about her because she is amazing. I love her so much and she is keeping me happy in these crazy times. I wish I could see her in person today but my family won’t let me go anywhere. I’m so tired of my family and being stuck inside. Anyways I’m going to try to enjoy today as much as I can because today is my day and her day and I don’t care about anyone else.

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I have a lot of pictures and a lot of time so I’m going to start to post twice a day. This picture turned out really well. It’s almost real. I really hate this quarantine and I’m getting sick of being around my family. I wish I could escape for awhile but they won’t let me go anywhere. I wish I could go to some of these places that I have pictures of. They are so beautiful. I just want to get away for awhile.

This picture I tried to go for a more painted look instead of realistic. It turned out really well and I think the pyramid goes well with this style.

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This is another grainy photo but it actually turned out really well. Still to grainy up close when I try it for a wallpaper on my phone. I’ve noticed with some pictures the details just go away and you really can’t make out what the picture is supposed to be. Fortunately most of them can be recognized.

This one is a great wall paper for your phone. The original wasn’t to grainy and the final product turned out great. I really like the water color effect that the BeCasso app gives you. It also lets you edit the saturation and contrast. These two things in my opinion have the biggest effect on the pictures. The saturation gives all the colors more depth and makes them defined. The contrast blends the saturation so that it’s not over saturated.

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This picture wasn’t too grainy when I first had it. After some editing this was the final result. It’s one of my best ones so far and I really like.

This is my beautiful girlfriend next to her plants. I was curious to see if this app would work well with people. I think I worked really well. It brought out the vibrant blue in her eyes even though it made the blue a little darker. She is wonderful and I love her so much. I wish this quarantine would end so I could go to the lake with her and take pictures there.

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This photo was super grainy and you still can kinda see it. I tried to save it by editing but it’s still pretty bad. I have more that I’ll post later that turned out really well.

The view of my room. It’s great I can see the sun set and it’s really pretty when the leaves of our big trees grow and the sun peers through the leaves. It always reminds me of summer and how I would come in late from band practice or hanging out with friends. It brings back good memories. Like my first kiss, rainy nights where I’d stay up just to hear it rain. Waiting to go fishing on a cool day. Taking walks around the lake. I really wish I could get out and see my girlfriend. She’s been keeping me happy this whole time and it’s hard to find happiness and things to keep me occupied.

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A lot of my friends and followers on Instagram wouldn’t care and or make fun of me if I posted these on there. But it really calms me down when I look at nature. I’ve edited these photos to make them look more like paintings or pictures. Hopefully you guys can appreciate my work. This is made with the BeCasso app.