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Progress has been made! I've written like 600 words and imagined a whole new book scenario in my head that has nothing to do with my main WIP

Struggling

Me: I am going to open my docs and open my WIP and continue writing from where I left off Also Me: I am going to open every doc I have with my writing and look at the kind of Writer I was years ago and be appalled by the complete and utter chaos I wrote and judge myself immensely and spiral instead of continuing my WIP

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Struggling

Me: I am going to open my docs and open my WIP and continue writing from where I left off Also Me: I am going to open every doc I have with my writing and look at the kind of Writer I was years ago and be appalled by the complete and utter chaos I wrote and judge myself immensely and spiral instead of continuing my WIP

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I'm Baaaaaaaack

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah Hi, I am back. Maybe officially back in a writing mood. In other words, if you're new here, I will write for about a month straight because I feel inspired and then go into a three to six-month hibernation like a f***ing bear.

Anyways I love getting inspired by other stories that I love to go and complete mine. I go to write now, bye! (The poor grammar is intentional, let me exist lol)

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This has made my day and I am still watching the live and I keep getting misty eyed at parts cuz this show has just been so important to me and is one of the main reasons why I want to tell my stories

this made my day

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reblog to give the pervious person a nice rock

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Taylor Swift and My Book

so in the new album of Taylor Swift, there is a song called "Cassandra" and I absolutely love the song for multiple reasons. I love the tie-ins to mythology but also because my MC's love interest's name is Cassandra and with the song and mythology I now want to take this character down a certain route for the second book. If you know the myth or have listened to the song you can kind of see where I would go. With this new development I now really want to keep going with my writing but I have an important decision to make with the formatting of my second book and what I choose there could determine how many books the series is in total and how they continue. What are everyone's thoughts on a shift of character perspective between books? I am thinking that the second book switches to love interest and will likely be just in her perspective and would make her just as much of a main character as the one in the first book. I know a lot of people are iffy on this so please give your two cents but also be kind.

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'nother funny thing about progress. I still haven't finished this first draft but am at over 97K words now and am doing a writing session now so let's see how the progress goes today

Realization

So 5 months ago I restarted my WIP because I didn't like the beginning that I originally wrote when I was 17 years old (I'm 22 now for reference) and I named the document "Tainted (Alternative Beginning) because back then I thought I was only going to rewrite part of the beginning and then pick up where I had left off a few years ago in the story.

Fast forward to now, I have 95k words written in this document and am about to finish the draft in a few days and I find it ironic that I was just going to write a few thousand words to fix something I didn't like and now I have an entire story written from it. Progress is funny and finicky like that and really amusing when you look at it in hindsight.

Has anyone else had realizations about their stories after you've written chunks of it?

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You get a Boop, and you and you! You all get BOOPS!

beloved mutual doesn't have boop button 19 dead 76 injured

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hang on lemme

lemme just-

*hits you with my paws hits you with my paws hits you with my paws hits you with my paws hits you with my paws hits you with my paws hits y-*

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The Best or What You Consider the Best

Post any part of your WIP that you think is some of the best quality of your writing. Put what you would consider your 'Mona Lisa' in your post. Provide context for your story or don't. I'll start: “Haven’t you been talking about everything being fair since the day we met? Do you really want to start your time at the Rebellion with cheating?” “Technically I started my time with the Rebellion by being an idiot and I am pretty sure I insulted some Rebels that day too.” “Standing up for me was you being an idiot, was it?”  Before I jump to apologize to her for insinuating that that was the case I see the glint in her eyes and know that she means no ill will towards me and so I decide to keep the mood up. “Well, actually I was talking about interrupting several times during conversations, I was not a part of, with my thinking out loud.” “Was it thinking out loud or accidentally saying the things you were thinking?” “I don’t know what you are talking about. I do everything on purpose, didn’t you know?” There is a pause before she answers. Almost like she is debating whether or not to continue engaging in the banter or to do something else? “Like pretending you didn’t know what you were doing yesterday?” So she went with doing ‘something else.' “I thought it would be for the best. I had received enough negative attention from everyone else these last few days and I didn’t want to make it look like- I don’t know.  I just didn’t want to stand out any more than I already have. I also was kind of put off from being in Carol or James’ group, I have had barely any interactions with them. I also thought one hundred percent that Carol found me annoying and wouldn’t want anything to do with me.” “You were hoping to be put on either mine or Mal’s group.” “If I am being honest with you, I was hoping to be put on Mal’s group and I swear it has nothing to do with-” “With my father, I know.” “It was just less attention if I was put on Mal’s group and I feel like he would better understand my whole mess of a person that I am.” “That might be true, especially the mess part.” “Just when I think you are starting to like me, you just have to go and gut out the hope.” “You’ll get used to me as I will get used to you. Now, I do believe training begins in fifteen minutes, which means for Carol’s group it will be starting in the next five. I suggest you hurry back to camp, quickly.” “The sun’s not even out yet. Training is starting so soon?” “Yes, now go.”

I am tagging: @theeccentricraven, @steh-lar-uh-nuhs, @unmellowyellowfellow @amandacanwrite

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Take Two: Scene Concept

Scene concept for my two main love interest characters in my WIP.

Context of Characters: Both characters at this point have strong feelings for one another if not in love with each other already. Character A is afraid because she has never been in a relationship before, she hasn't even ever been kissed. There is also the factor that her enemies would harm the woman she is interested in and it's a terrifying concept to put Character B in that position.

Character B has past relationship traumas and doesn't want to let herself fall for Character A, especially not in the middle of the war they are fighting. This causes her heart and brain to be in their own little war.

Scene:

Character A and B are getting ready on opposite sides of a door for a party that they have to infiltrate to get some information that will be vital to the war.

Character B: "Are you almost done getting ready for the party? We are going to be late at this point."

Character A:"Wasn't the whole point of this mission showing up late so we could capture our target off guard with our presence?"

Character B (clearly becoming irritated with Character A): We need to be late and not arrive after the party has ended.

Character A: "I- oh, sorry. I am just having some problems with my outfit. I should just be another few minutes and we can go."

Character B knows Character A better than that. It will be far longer than a few minutes if she doesn't intervene in some way.

Character B: "Do you need help with the dress?"

After some time passes without a response Character B calls out Character A's name.

Character A: "It's not that kind of problem with the dress. I'll be fine I just need to put on my heels and then I'll be ready."

Character B notices that Character A is doing a terrible job at deflecting.

Character B: "Is it alright if I come in?"

Character A: "I guess."

With the sound of the door unlocking, Character B opens the door to find something that she didn't expect. Character A was looking at herself in the mirror on the opposite side of the room, fidgeting with her golden and ruby dress. Seeing her fidgeting with the dress is not what she didn't expect, what she didn't expect to see was that with the open back design of the dress, she saw a back riddled with scars.

She knew Character A had scars on her back but she never laid eyes on them, Character A usually walked around with long-sleeved shirts or jackets and now. Now she is in a backless dress that shows off much more than just her scars. She has found Character A beautiful since the day they met, but she has never seen her like this and the only thing she can think is,

Character B: “Wow”

The second she said that she felt her body coil back in embarrassment. She didn't mean to say that, not that she didn't mean it, but that one word can be taken out of context and the last thing she wants is for that to happen.

Character A: "Yeah... I have a lot of scars. Sorry."

Just as she expected, it was taken out of context. Character B takes notice that Character A's eyes are closed as she is still facing the mirror. She knows that she has to tread lightly here, to not say the wrong thing.

She takes the last few steps to where Character A is standing. She is right beside her, close enough that the other woman can most definitely feel her presence but not so close that she is invading her personal space.

Character B: "Why are you apologizing for your scars?"

Another pause occurs before Character A responds.

Character A: "Habit, I guess? Sorry."

Character B: "Don't apologize for something that is a part of you. Your scars aren't what make you, you."

Character A: "I know that, but when I look at them that knowledge escapes me."

Character B takes a chance with something and moves in front of Character A slightly guiding her hand to her companion's face grazing the scar on her chin. She lifts Character A's head up slightly so that when her companion opens her eyes they will lock with her own.

Character B: "So don't look at them. Look at me instead."

Character A with her eyes still closed: "I don't want to."

Character B: "Why not?"

Character A: "I don't want to see the look on your face."

Character B: "And what look would that be?"

Character A: "Pity."

Character B: "Do you trust me?"

Character A: " What kind of question is that? Of course, I do."

Character B (as softly as she can): "Then open your eyes."

Character A does as she is asked and is not met with pity at all. She looks at Character B's eyes and almost gets lost in them. All she sees is adoration. Without hesitation, she takes a step forward and gives the other woman one of the biggest hugs she could.

The hug is reciprocated immediately and with just as much love and pressure behind it. They didn't know it but they both needed that hug. Once they separate, Character A takes a few steps back to properly take in what her travel companion fully looks like in her party outfit. She wishes that the look Character B was wearing would make her speechless but instead...

Character A: "You're terrifyingly beautiful."

A few moments pass before Character A realizes what she said.

Character A: "Wait, terrifying is the wrong word to use. I don't find you scary, I find you beautiful. I don't know why I said terrifying. Well actually I do, but that's not important. It is and I shouldn't undermine my emotions but, you know what. I am going to stop talking and just end this now before I keep going. Just forget I said anything, please."

Character B has known Character A for a few years now and has been rejecting the feelings she has for her for the last year. She knows Character A well enough to know just exactly what she meant by her first comment. Character A is afraid of her emotions, afraid of what may come from them. Emotions are a hard and difficult thing to wrap one's head around and in the midst of a war, it makes the difficulty tenfold. They are both lucky they have even gotten as far as they have.

Character B knows that this is a conversation neither of them are ready to have. Not yet, soon though. She begins walking to the door wondering if she should say anything or just leave in silence, but then she remembered something.

Someone once told her that when it comes to quiet moments of war where you can even look at someone the way they just finished looking at each other if something can be said, then say it. If you are in a war for the Gods' sakes and you don't know if you will be able to say anything later on because of the battles you will endure than say something. Say anything. So that's what Character B does as she walks through the doorway.

Character B: Take the time you need but I just want to say something before we move on from this. Something I think you need to hear as much as I need to say it. Is that fine?

She waits for Character A to give a small nod and look up at her.

With a sly smile, Character B says what needs to be said/heard.

"I find you terrifyingly beautiful too."

Character B turns as she states this knowing the message is well received and closes the door behind her.

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i just put Taylor Swift's Era's Tour and I think I am going to write while I have this playing in the background, Wish me luck

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I just wrote out a whole ass scene here on Tumblr as like a scene concept that I would want my two main love interests in my WIP to have and the second I pressed post it disappeared into the void. It was adorable and color-coded and now it's gone. I want to rewrite it but also I am sleep deprived and fear I put all my energy into writing it and don't wish to do it again. UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGHHHHHH

Any ways how has everyone else been? I haven't been here in a while

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I'm sick... Should I write my story and see what nonsense I can come up with or should I just sleep?

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I’m sorry if i seem weird it's because I literally am

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I Did a Thing

So lately I have been doing my normal online remote job and that's good lol, but I also decided to start a Twitch Channel where I play Nintendo Switch Games (mainly Fortnite). I have done a few streams here and there this last week and a half and I am really enjoying myself.

Anyway, I am trying to get it out to people that I am doing this, so I would appreciate a follow but in no way is it expected. Do what you wish and if you decide to take a look, then thanks! If not then just pretend you never saw this 😁. Also if you do follow and drop in on any streams and ask about my writing projects I may spill some beans, no promises though.