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tw: intense meanspo (inner dialogue to myself)

ok.. so your average. you at that middle weight where people don’t think your fat, but you still have a muffin top and your thighs are barely a gap. i mean yea you could eat normally now… but why? you’ve already lost so much weight why stop here? you can go further, actually you can literally do whatever you want. you could peat, and tell yourself “it wont make me gain weight if it’s just once” but it will… you’ll get used to it. a cycle. yea this week it’s just one, but next week it’s twice, then 3 times, then everyday your eating 900+cals and gaining weight like a pig on steroids, because without ed, that what you are. so keep going, push yourself until your truly happy.

as a great girl once said “there’s nothing worse in life than being average”

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currently stalking her insta 😭 she’s so beautiful n thin

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just a reminder: you’re not anorexic until you’re under weight

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can’t wait until it’s summer where it’s socially acceptable to nothing but fruit and only fruit and go on walks everyday 😇😇

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its only hot girl summer if your actually hot… and hot girls don’t eat like you, put the food down and go take a walk. you’ll get there if you really want it.

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tw ed vent

god i hate myself so much and i hate myself even more because of it

this morning i found out one of my relatives has died and i was rlly upset so i went out and bought a couple doughnuts and a wrap and i ate it all. around 700 cals. im so mad at myself for eating and im also mad that i’m thinking about my ed when someone has just died

i hate this i just wish i was skinny without the effort

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some science info abt salt & ed’s!

consuming salt causes you to retain more water, so when we eat salty foods like chips or pasta, we tend to feel more satisfied after eating it, and when we eat salt free foods it doesn’t taste as good. so if your craving that feeling of being full, if a savoury meal with more salt then usual, for me it mostly works with soups, curry’s and most liquidy things. also, if you want yourself to not enjoy chips or junk foods that are savoury, only buy salt free options, and you most likely will get sick of it and not enjoy it anymore! i used this tactic because my sibling can’t eat salt (due to medical issues) so we stopped buying chips or snacks with salt, and i haven’t eaten a chip in almost a year ♡♡♡

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the feminine urge to not go to the gym and just starve but face the consequences when you binge and gain 5 lbs bc u dont get any physical activity 🫶🫶🫶

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why tf do i get so fat on my period

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i literally hate being on my period like all i wanna do is eat but i refuse to cave so i’m just rotting in bed to avoid temptation i haven’t left my room at all today

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starving this valentine’s day so i can be asked out on the next ♡

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god i literally hate my body so much i keep over eating at night and i gained sm weight but im too scared to weight myself to see how bad it is, i feel obese and i can barely see my individual ribs anymore… i hate this i just wanna die

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for any ppl out there who use laxis, what type do you find works best

i started with using polyethylene glycol (PEG) but i got sick of the powder and started using senna, it’s a lot easier but i tend to experience more stomach aches and bad feelings,

what laxis can just flush it all out from my body without any effects?

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my skinny sister >> to the bone

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seeing all the conspiracies of america/canada having chemicals in their food that causes easier weight gain, and that are illegal im most countries like europe etc…. I WISH I COULD MOVE😭😭😭

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God ew. .You’re going to eat that? Why. You’re stomach finally started growling and you’re just going to ruin it like that?

What’s better. Satisfaction for a mere 10 minutes, or satisfaction that’ll last you a life time? You’ve wanted to be skinny forever and you’re going to ruin it over what? Some pop tarts? A pizza? Just grab some water.

You’re just thirsty, not hungry

Meanspo directed to myself

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i kinda hate the feeling i have when i don’t eat all day but i don’t feel hungry, i feel like the hunger is more like proof im losing weight but now it’s always making me worry if i ended up eating smth by accident 😭😭😭