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quit brainrot. unfollow trolls. read essays. go down rabbit holes. have a calendar. maintain a todo list. read old books. watch old movies. turn on dnd. walk with intent. eat without youtube. chew more. train without music. plan for 15 mins. execute. organise your desk. take something seriously. read ancient scripts. act fast. find bread. eat clean. journal. save a life. learn to code. read poetry. create art. stay composed. refine your speech. optimise for efficiency. act sincere. help people. be kind. stop doing things that waste your time. follow your intuition. craft reputation. learn persuasion. systemise your day (or don't). write. write. write. write more. iterate violently. leave your phone at home. walk to the grocery store. talk to strangers. feed the dogs. visit bookstores. look for 1800s novels. experience art. then love. sit with a monk and offer them lunch. don't talk shit about people. embody virtue. sit alone. do something with your life. what do you want to create? turn off your mind. play. play a sport. combat sports. notice fonts in trees. fall in love. notice patterns on a table. visualise it. talk to people with respect. don't hate. be loving. be real. become yourself. cherrypick your qualities. discard the useless. rejections aren't permanent. invite what aligns. accept what does not. read great people. be different. choose different. do great work. let it consume you. lose your mind. value your time. experience life.
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I just want to study everything and anything and just keep learning.
I wanna turn into a walking fun fact book.
I wanna be so smart it scares people.
I want to know the most beautiful and horrifying things.
I crave knowledge. I crave to be scary to those who don’t want the knowledge. I don’t just want it to be in my mind I want it to be scrawled and etched into my skin for everyone to see.
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To now add onto this I have come to the disturbing realisation that they left me because someone who was taking advantage of me was lying by omission.
This person has got me scared to leave my house and go into the city. Like, I know it’s fear because I’m having a physical reaction to it that can only be characterised as fear (this person did abuse me, I had to convince myself that I had a crush on this person to excuse how they treated me - I’m AroAce).They wouldn’t have told those old friends of mine the whole truth, they wouldn’t have left out extremely important details to make me seem like the villain of this whole situation.
They all know that I have ASPD, they are aware that I get shaky and nervous anytime I feel like I’ve done anything wrong. I over apologise, I go out of my way to make sure people are comfortable and okay with whatever I do. They are all aware of this. They are also aware that I have a tendency to take in people I shouldn’t, the people who ‘don’t have friends’ or the person who is the victim in every situation.
Coming to the realisation that this was the last thing that this person knew they could do to harm me, or at least attempt to, is disturbing to say the least.
I hope they end up seeing this person for who they are and can leave as quickly as they possibly can. I hope none of them get hurt or harmed by this person. As much as I don’t feel for them platonically, they were still impactful of my life and how I see things, I don’t want them to be hurt.
I’m not sure if I would call it a relief that my friends all decided to leave me, but I feel so much better now that they’re gone.
I feel almost like I’m no longer trapped?
Those friendships I felt like I had to walk on eggshells around especially due to my ASPD and not feeling like I could be myself without being judged by them.
My ASPD has made this really easy for me tbh. It’s easy loosing people when you can’t feel all that much or you feel tied down because of them.
Now that I don’t have them in my life I feel like I can genuinely move on to where I am supposed to be. I’m going to be moving states! Not sure if that means I’ll be going to Qld, Vic, SA or WA though. I just want out of NSW lol
#aspd things#actually aspd#aspd safe#aspd thoughts#aspd traits#aspd#aspd feels#aspd vent#aspd tag#cw vent#personal vent#vent post#vent#vent blog#sociopath#mental health#mental illness#antisocial personality disorder#actually antisocial#antisocial pd#antisocial traits#tw abuse#emotional abuse#abuse survivor#aroace
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I was very drunk when these were taken, I don’t even remember them being taken.
Anyways, this is Bachelorette Party!Mitsuri
I know i have to restyle the wig 😭 the hair line is AWFUL but I will get to it eventually 🥹
#kny mitsuri#mitsuri kanroji#demon slayer mitsuri#obanai x mitsuri#kimetsu mitsuri#mitsuri cosplay#actually aspd#aspd#aspd things#new blog#cosplay#cosplayer#demon slayer#demon slayer cosplay#cosplaying#bride cosplay
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I’m not sure if I would call it a relief that my friends all decided to leave me, but I feel so much better now that they’re gone.
I feel almost like I’m no longer trapped?
Those friendships I felt like I had to walk on eggshells around especially due to my ASPD and not feeling like I could be myself without being judged by them.
My ASPD has made this really easy for me tbh. It’s easy loosing people when you can’t feel all that much or you feel tied down because of them.
Now that I don’t have them in my life I feel like I can genuinely move on to where I am supposed to be. I’m going to be moving states! Not sure if that means I’ll be going to Qld, Vic, SA or WA though. I just want out of NSW lol
#actually aspd#aspd#aspd things#mental health#personal vent#vent#vent post#new blog#loosing friends#friendship loss#moving#sydney australia
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So, I just lost all my friends.
I got upset due to a ‘friends’ actions that put me in dangerous situations multiple times, attempting to have an adult conversation but he wanted to involve all of our other friends and not a single person wants to hear me out.
I’m so used to being alone and having people lie about what went down coz it makes them look good. Now he’s trying to completely isolate me from everything.
I’m upset that no one wants to hear me out but i’m not even upset that i’ve lost my friends? idk it’s weird.
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I saw Dan and Phil today! After so long waiting I finally saw my internet dads 😭
This was honestly the best thing that has happened to me in the last week due to everything that I’ve been going through with my awful ex-girlfriend.
I received a message today, asking if I was physically safe because of what she had been saying. My friends are scared that she’ll dox me.
Dan and Phil gave me a moment to breathe and laugh from the actual insanity that is my life.
#dan and phil#aspd#aspd things#actually aspd#terrible influence tour#instagram#new blog#mental health
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HEY HEY HELLO 👋
I’m Bones and I have Anti-Social Personality Disorder. This is diagnosed.
I’ve been going through hell recently on instagram and so I’ve moved back to Tumblr, which I have not used since the ancient times (2016).
Some of my interests as someone with aspd are;
☆ Anime - Manga - Cosplay
☆ Painting - Clay - Make-up
☆ Real Estate - Decorating
Why are you on Tumblr and talking about your ASPD?
Well, I’ve been trying to de-stigmatise that everyone with ASPD are awful and mean for years on instagram. On top of that, people in the cosplay community on instagram have decided to try and ruin my image and reputation because I got dumped and told my friends what my ex did. Then got drunk and ranted to anyone who would listen.
I am still very hurt and upset by what is happening (yes, us sociopaths do get hurt and upset) and trying to move past it after asking multiple times to be left alone.
Anyways, that is why I’m back on Tumblr and my cute little introduction 💞
Here are two pics of me in cosplay and out of cosplay, in very very casual goth/alt form.

#aspd#actually aspd#aspd things#sociopath#new#new blog#intro post#introduction#blog intro#mental health#instagram#cosplay#goth#alternative#kny mitsuri#mitsuri kanroji#ooc post#out of cosplay
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