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Do I name characters based on that one girl that gave me a dirty look ONCE in the halls and then kill them brutally? yes. Do I name them after my middle school enemy who I haven't seen in a decade and kill the brutally? yes again. Do I find it therapeutic? you guessed it, YEP.

Am I a psycho for it? Probably. I plead guilty, your honor.

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Oh, what? Me? Yeah, don't mind me I'm just daydreaming about the author interviews I will never give because the last time I touched my latest WIP was so long ago, if it could grow spiderwebs and collect dust, it would.

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A writer's ego is different than your average ego. It boosts itself higher than the heavens when someone compliments my work.

But tell me something as small as "is that comma meant to be there?" or "that's not the correct way to use that word" and I will go into a writing hibernation-sesh for the next century in a fit of self-doubt.

We are fragile creatures.

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They say you can do anything you put your mind to.

So here I am, staring at my WIP like a mad-man to the point where my family probably thinks I'm schizophrenic because I "put my mind to" to get it to write itself.

It has not.

People are filthy liars.

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whenever readers read something so heartbreaking or traumatic they always go "who hurt this author?"

The answer is us. We do it to ourselves. That line your reading? That is hours worth of tears, ripping our hair out, sleep deprivation, and hysteria coming back to bite us both in the butt.

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if you think about it, writers are really just little kids with wild imaginations, only instead of lollipops and rainbows and unicorns and sparkles we have swords, blood (a lot of it, frankly), unnecessary trauma and murder.

ya'll SHOULD be scared.

...but don't worry...we are too...

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sometimes I feel bad for my characters because even though they go off-script half of the time, during the other half, I appear after hours of procrastinating-writing-by-making-up-random-backstories-and-lore out of nowhere and just go:

"surprise! as of now your parents died in cold blood when you were six and you witnessed it with your little sister" and such is the start of a villain arc that will cause me to re-write the ENTIRE book because why am I even giving my main character a villain arc if they're literally the hero?

who left me unsupervised?

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2025 is the year where I don't start another WIP to add to the endless abyss....

....is what I told myself four-new-ideas ago

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finally writing that one scene that you've been looking forward to writing since you started your WIP is like finishing a good book:

you don't know what to do with your life anymore

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THIS RIGHT HEREE!

Glad to see it's not just me 😭😭 like I know a first draft is not meant to be perfect but the self-doubt HITS HARD. That's why I usually don't read books in the genre I write in 😭

Nobody talks about how damaging being a reader AND a writer is. Like I can't read a book normally without either: a) mentally criticizing every poorly constructed sentence and analyzing it or b) comparing an EDITED AND PROFESSIONALLY PROOFREAD piece of published work to my MEANT-TO-BE-BAD-FIRST DRAFT and proceeding to gaslight myself into thinking I'm shit and being thrust into a week-long writing hiatus.

I CAN NEVER WIN

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Nobody talks about how damaging being a reader AND a writer is. Like I can't read a book normally without either: a) mentally criticizing every poorly constructed sentence and analyzing it or b) comparing an EDITED AND PROFESSIONALLY PROOFREAD piece of published work to my MEANT-TO-BE-BAD-FIRST DRAFT and proceeding to gaslight myself into thinking I'm shit and being thrust into a week-long writing hiatus.

I CAN NEVER WIN

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that moment where you realize mid-sentence that you need to kill your favorite side character. Like, I'm so sorry, babe, but it needs to be done.

And yes, of course I feel sad, but writers are twisted, dark beings. I'll get over it by the next paragraph.

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Hello fellow writers of Tumblr!

Does anyone feel like sharing the websites they use for writing or what apps? I know Google docs isn't the best, so I'm trying to expand my horizons a little. Would love to hear ya'll's recommendations!

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As a writer, I can guarantee we don't know what we want half of the time.

Some days we want people to obsess unhealthily and make fan art of our characters and make Pinterest pins on quotes and create those fake twitter posts and then at the same time I would rather burn my house down before showing anyone my work.

Who created such a mentally damaging hobby and can they give me my sanity back???