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[briarwulf]

Life is a weird thing. Not really active on this blog all that much. Though, not really active online at all nowadays. That said, so many people from across the years of my online life come to mind. They pass by in the imagined spaces from time to time. There was a version of me in the past that rotted away so many connections. And, now that I am me more so than I've ever been. I can't help but miss the connections I wasted to easily back then.

All of this to really say I'm sorry to anyone I hurt or disappointed. It was my fault and it was my failing. And, I take full ownership of the hurt I instilled in so many moments. With that, I hope you all are in the happiness of your life. And, have attained the things you aspired to.

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Hi there, thanks for clicking on my page. My name is Valerie and I'm from the Bible Belt. I have lived in Texas for the last seven years with no issues for the most part. However, the past two years I've been doing HRT as I'm a transwoman. The landscape in Texas has steadily become unwelcoming to me. This is why I need help to move out of state to somewhere I can safely live.

Due to various setbacks (issues with selling my RV, unexpected rental charges from my landlord, etc.), I am setting up this donation page for help with moving funds and about two to three months of expenses. While I’ve luckily already got a job lined up, that won’t help with the initial transfer out of state.

Various costs in relation to the full moving out are also part of the help with these donations. Things such as car maintenance for the trip (brakes, tires, etc.), movers fees for larger items that I need assistance with, and a deposit for the apartment I’ve currently got lined up.

As someone who is openly trans in a very rural area. It has become unsafe for me to live here any longer. While Ohio isn't the first on many people's list of safe states to go. I have an existing support system there, a potential job, and an LGBT safe neighborhood in a major city. Which is a lot more than I have currently. All of this together has led me to make this GoFundMe. I'm in dire need of help to get to a safer space to simply exist and live. I've lined out where the money would go towards below. Thanks so much for taking the time to read this and even if you cannot donate, sharing this is so appreciated.

This is How the funds will be used:

Car Note: $470 x2

Rent: $600-800* x2

Moving Fee: $1-2k (For furniture)**

Gas for Trip to Ohio: $170-180

Val's Food Expenses: $160 x2

Which comes out to around $5020.

*This is the low end of the rentals I'm seeing in the area I'd be moving. The $600 option depends on Availability. The $800 option is more likely and comparative to multiple potential rentals.

**Movers fee is according to current quotes I've looked into from multiple movers. I had considered hauling it myself via a Uhaul trailer. However, I've never hauled anything and it would be a 1,340 mile trip. While potentially a cheaper option, I’m hoping to be able to go the path that will ensure everything I need gets to my new home and to lessen just a little of the stress of this ordeal. The support system I have is providing all they are able in this moment, and I've explored every avenue I can otherwise. I am not turning to donations lightly.

Thank you again for your time, attention, and support. It means the world to me.

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Hi there, thanks for clicking on my page. My name is Valerie and I'm from the Bible Belt. I have lived in Texas for the last seven years with no issues for the most part. However, the past two years I've been doing HRT as I'm a transwoman. The landscape in Texas has steadily become unwelcoming to me. This is why I need help to move out of state to somewhere I can safely live.

Due to various setbacks (issues with selling my RV, unexpected rental charges from my landlord, etc.), I am setting up this donation page for help with moving funds and about two to three months of expenses. While I’ve luckily already got a job lined up, that won’t help with the initial transfer out of state.

Various costs in relation to the full moving out are also part of the help with these donations. Things such as car maintenance for the trip (brakes, tires, etc.), movers fees for larger items that I need assistance with, and a deposit for the apartment I’ve currently got lined up.

As someone who is openly trans in a very rural area. It has become unsafe for me to live here any longer. While Ohio isn't the first on many people's list of safe states to go. I have an existing support system there, a potential job, and an LGBT safe neighborhood in a major city. Which is a lot more than I have currently. All of this together has led me to make this GoFundMe. I'm in dire need of help to get to a safer space to simply exist and live. I've lined out where the money would go towards below. Thanks so much for taking the time to read this and even if you cannot donate, sharing this is so appreciated.

This is How the funds will be used:

Car Note: $470 x2

Rent: $600-800* x2

Moving Fee: $1-2k (For furniture)**

Gas for Trip to Ohio: $170-180

Val's Food Expenses: $160 x2

Which comes out to around $5020.

*This is the low end of the rentals I'm seeing in the area I'd be moving. The $600 option depends on Availability. The $800 option is more likely and comparative to multiple potential rentals.

**Movers fee is according to current quotes I've looked into from multiple movers. I had considered hauling it myself via a Uhaul trailer. However, I've never hauled anything and it would be a 1,340 mile trip. While potentially a cheaper option, I’m hoping to be able to go the path that will ensure everything I need gets to my new home and to lessen just a little of the stress of this ordeal. The support system I have is providing all they are able in this moment, and I've explored every avenue I can otherwise. I am not turning to donations lightly.

Thank you again for your time, attention, and support. It means the world to me.

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GoFundMe text below for more Info.

"Hi there, thanks for clicking on my page. My name is Valerie and I'm from the Bible Belt. I have lived in Texas for the last seven years with no issues for the most part. However, the past two years I've been doing HRT as I'm a transwoman. The landscape in Texas has steadily become unwelcoming to me. This is why I need help to move out of state to somewhere I can safely live.

Due to various setbacks (issues with selling my RV, unexpected rental charges from my landlord, etc.), I am setting up this donation page for help with moving funds and about two to three months of expenses. While I’ve luckily already got a job lined up, that won’t help with the initial transfer out of state.

Various costs in relation to the full moving out are also part of the help with these donations. Things such as car maintenance for the trip (brakes, tires, etc.), movers fees for larger items that I need assistance with, and a deposit for the apartment I’ve currently got lined up.

As someone who is openly trans in a very rural area. It has become unsafe for me to live here any longer. While Ohio isn't the first on many people's list of safe states to go. I have an existing support system there, a potential job, and an LGBT safe neighborhood in a major city. Which is a lot more than I have currently. All of this together has led me to make this GoFundMe. I'm in dire need of help to get to a safer space to simply exist and live. I've lined out where the money would go towards below. Thanks so much for taking the time to read this and even if you cannot donate, sharing this is so appreciated.

This is How the funds will be used:

Car Note: $470 x2

Rent: $600-800* x2

Moving Fee: $1-2k (For furniture)**

Gas for Trip to Ohio: $170-180

Val's Food Expenses: $160 x2

Which comes out to around $5020.

*This is the low end of the rentals I'm seeing in the area I'd be moving. The $600 option depends on Availability. The $800 option is more likely and comparative to multiple potential rentals.

**Movers fee is according to current quotes I've looked into from multiple movers. I had considered hauling it myself via a Uhaul trailer. However, I've never hauled anything and it would be a 1,340 mile trip. While potentially a cheaper option, I’m hoping to be able to go the path that will ensure everything I need gets to my new home and to lessen just a little of the stress of this ordeal. The support system I have is providing all they are able in this moment, and I've explored every avenue I can otherwise. I am not turning to donations lightly.

Thank you again for your time, attention, and support. It means the world to me."

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GoFundMe text below for more Info.

"Hi there, thanks for clicking on my page. My name is Valerie and I'm from the Bible Belt. I have lived in Texas for the last seven years with no issues for the most part. However, the past two years I've been doing HRT as I'm a transwoman. The landscape in Texas has steadily become unwelcoming to me. This is why I need help to move out of state to somewhere I can safely live.

Due to various setbacks (issues with selling my RV, unexpected rental charges from my landlord, etc.), I am setting up this donation page for help with moving funds and about two to three months of expenses. While I’ve luckily already got a job lined up, that won’t help with the initial transfer out of state.

Various costs in relation to the full moving out are also part of the help with these donations. Things such as car maintenance for the trip (brakes, tires, etc.), movers fees for larger items that I need assistance with, and a deposit for the apartment I’ve currently got lined up.

As someone who is openly trans in a very rural area. It has become unsafe for me to live here any longer. While Ohio isn't the first on many people's list of safe states to go. I have an existing support system there, a potential job, and an LGBT safe neighborhood in a major city. Which is a lot more than I have currently. All of this together has led me to make this GoFundMe. I'm in dire need of help to get to a safer space to simply exist and live. I've lined out where the money would go towards below. Thanks so much for taking the time to read this and even if you cannot donate, sharing this is so appreciated.

This is How the funds will be used:

Car Note: $470 x2

Rent: $600-800* x2

Moving Fee: $1-2k (For furniture)**

Gas for Trip to Ohio: $170-180

Val's Food Expenses: $160 x2

Which comes out to around $5020.

*This is the low end of the rentals I'm seeing in the area I'd be moving. The $600 option depends on Availability. The $800 option is more likely and comparative to multiple potential rentals.

**Movers fee is according to current quotes I've looked into from multiple movers. I had considered hauling it myself via a Uhaul trailer. However, I've never hauled anything and it would be a 1,340 mile trip. While potentially a cheaper option, I’m hoping to be able to go the path that will ensure everything I need gets to my new home and to lessen just a little of the stress of this ordeal. The support system I have is providing all they are able in this moment, and I've explored every avenue I can otherwise. I am not turning to donations lightly.

Thank you again for your time, attention, and support. It means the world to me."

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Truly, I can't understand the refusal to see what is going on here by so many. Our nation is under attack in a very open manner, and it's being celebrated by some. We really need better education on history if there are those who are unworried by this. ₁The Nazi party wiped out democracy via legal means. The current administration is attempting to do so by any means necessary, all while people express support for it.

Truly, it's an abysmal state we find ourselves in when our freedoms are being taken, and human rights are being reversed. Empathy is denounced, and sociopathy is celebrated, all wrapped up in the greed of the extremely wealthy. ₂Yet, people with the least are celebrating an administration that seeks to destroy their way of life, for some nebulous reasons inspired by a president who lies, cheats, and is convicted of crimes.

Trump is not a good person or a worthy leader for a nation that celebrates liberty and freedom for all. Yet, so many stand by while he attempts to restrict those very concepts for many. Why is it that we celebrate the deletion of liberty and freedoms for some? Perhaps it's because some of us lack the necessary empathy for our fellow citizens, seemingly because how they choose to use their liberty and freedom goes against our own. Which, to me, is a belief that is counter to liberty and freedom.

All in all, a large swath of our nation has forgone caring about others in the name of the self. While you can vote as you wish, I will not stand by and let unempathetic people go unchallenged. I will continue to vote for the concepts of liberty and justice for all, which the GOP has demonstrated time and again that it no longer grasps, especially in this current climate and administration.

₃While it sells our government to the highest bidder—a man who runs businesses propped up by taxpayer dollars—yet, that conflict of interest is thrown to the wind by Trump's America. For by any means necessary, they will rip our democracy apart. ₄They will attempt to delete the progress we've made as a people, all in the guise of bygone eras that never were. Yet, realistically, the point was always about turning this into a kingdom for the few and a cage for the many.

This is the time to stand up for the heart of our nation. If they see fit to delete the rights of people, those people can and will fight tooth and nail for their right to live as they wish. Liberty and freedom are nebulous concepts that have lost their meaning to many within our nation, all the more reason to ring out in defense of those rights and many others being targeted and/or erased. While some might be sleepwalking us towards it, now is the time to stand fast against fascism and those who attempt to invite our nation into its grip.

₁ https://www.theatlantic.com/ideas/archive/2025/01/hitler-germany-constitution-authoritarianism/681233/

₂ https://apnews.com/article/trump-trial-deliberations-jury-testimony-verdict-85558c6d08efb434d05b694364470aa0

₃ https://www.npr.org/2025/02/03/nx-s1-5285539/doge-musk-usaid-trump

₄ https://civilrights.org/trump-rollbacks/

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Pretty sure it was sent in 2020 or so. I haven't been on in years. lol So I figured it'd be funny to reply to years old Asks because why not. xD

You're the fucker who laminated a paper towel and gave tumblr an existential crisis, aren't you

I'm indeed that person. It was merely a goof and a gander. Then someone wandered in to write an essay. At which point the dread set upon us. I repent for my ways.

That said, it is my greatest work.

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To reiterate:

Trump's transphobic Executive Orders regarding healthcare and Federal documents are currently unenforceable and are not current actionable policy of the Federal government.

Do not despair.

Do not panic.

And most importantly: do not comply in advance.

Staying alive is a radical act as a trans person in Trump's America.

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It was once serene to be Lurlene. Then it ended. That butter dream. But, honestly, Lurlene Butterman despite it's implosion at the end. Held many good friendships and meaningful memories. Very formative in helping me find myself.

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You know it was always a sort of dividing line changing my username. PortalMouth was with me for years. Honestly, still really love the lore behind it. Lots of good and bad memories. Have considered using it again sometimes. Because it was such a prevalent part of me. AS well, lots of potential for it as a stream name. Portal & Pals lives on in my mind.

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Do you still have the laminated paper towel?

Actually, no, it has long since been destroyed. To save it from an eternity of unuse I set it aflame. In the hallowed yard of old. I walked out of my house to the bonfires of my birthplace. To set loose the soul of the paper towel. So that its ash might find some purpose after a life of laminate imprisonment.

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YOU LAMINATED A FUCKING PAPER TOWEL

!!!

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You're the one that laminated that paper towel

You're not wrong. Though that was years ago. My laminating ways have long since passed. But the laminate haunts me in my dreams.

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You're the fucker who laminated a paper towel and gave tumblr an existential crisis, aren't you

I'm indeed that person. It was merely a goof and a gander. Then someone wandered in to write an essay. At which point the dread set upon us. I repent for my ways.

That said, it is my greatest work.

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My transition has been all over the place. I'm definitely on the right path. Just really regret the things I've been forgoing. Though there are legit reasons why I postponed some aspects of transition. It doesn't change the negative feelings those choices conjure in me. All of which predominantly stem from a rather toxic relationship.

The relationship I was in for 7 years really derailed a lot of aspects of transitions. While at the same time offering me opportunity to start it in the first place. Over time she just sort of grew less supportive for whatever reason. Despite my best efforts to understand her motives. It just never really happened to a satisfying degree. Even now as we are friends there are still echoes of it.

Those echoes of negativity towards my transition aren't always overt. Though they were/are definitely a large thorn in my life. Which is one reason I'm leaving for Ohio to surround myself with friends who do support me. Perhaps an odd choice of state but the support system is worth it. Plus it will be near my current HRT doctor. All things point to this being a good decision. I just wish that thought was more comoforting.

I've previously found comfort in what I perceived to be good decisions. These decisions of the past usually landed me in situations of negativity. So there is always a deep worry beneath the feelings of excitement now. So here's hoping this next year holds more success in finding happiness. Versus failures leading to more emotional distress. At the very least I will start putting far more effort towards my transition.

I'm done with postponing or worrying what others will think. Even if that means losing them from my life. If they can't grasp how HRT has increased my mental health. Then it's likely they aren't someone that I should surround myself with. This year is one of transformation of the self. This when the path to my true self becomes far more clear. Whatever the cost I will achieve this for myself.