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I did a clever ha. I thought I’d try some word place.

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“Everything we hear is an opinion, not a fact. Everything we see is a perspective, not the truth.”

— Marcus Aurelius

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“Some of us aren’t meant to belong. Some of us have to turn the world upside down and shake the hell out of it until we make it our own place.”

— Elizabeth Lowell

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“Don’t you dare fucking touch my heart unless you plan to stay.”

— Unknown

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Sharp as whip,

Dull as a talk on cryptocurrency,

The better I get, the worse I feel,

An autopilot's role, in my own display,

Still the show must go on.

I'm told,

I text too much, ask too many questions,

Then not enough, now I'm acting sus,

Too present, too absent,

I overthink, don't think things through,

Go out too much, yet not enough,

I'm selfish, think too much of others too,

Too proud, a disgrace, too quiet, too loud,

Too much, too little

I give too much of myself, still never enough

Can't read minds,

Barely read social cues,

So I stay inside, where rules are clear,

Close blinds, lay under covers,

Alone, in silence,

The better I get, the lonelier I feel.

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Abstraction birthed from a need to conceal. An absence of familiarity. Do these frames now house meaning? Inanimate objects captured in the hope of a new perspective? Or simply flowers captivating enough to steal the glance of a wondering eye.

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I long for a life,

Where emotions are tempered just right,

And reactions are deemed as just so,

Where interests flow and grow,

Creating a world I'd like to know,

Where words flow like a gentle stream,

And expression flows like a dream,

A life where normalcy is key,

Where smiles come easy, without me,

Where slumber is peaceful and deep,

And the demons of reality don't creep,

But alas, I am who I am,

A bundle of struggles, a deeply flawed man,

Wishing to be anyone but me,

A soul searching for serenity.

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You said you loved me for me,

So the mask I removed,

Politely you asked I put it back on,

“ I love you, too” I respond,

With tears hidden behind empty smiles.

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There is much in the dark to fear,

Yet it is the light that haunts me.

I crave the darkness,

Where my reflect can’t find me,

Neither can they, or you

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by Chris Henry

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by maxjulan

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I’ve now learnt I cannot change what I am anymore than a leopard can change its spots. How do you learn to accept the one that thing that holds you back from the things your truly desire?

Gratitude is not happiness.

Settling is not fulfilment.

I have now just realised that I shall never be able to achieve either.

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