cryptikgarden - Tumblr blog

[cryptikgarden]

the rain stopped and the tears did too

my fears left with you

you were everything i wanted, nothing that i needed.

Sabrina Molina

[cryptikgarden]

its not all your fault

the late nights, the lies, the “i’m sorrys” or  “i promise i’ll try”

over and over again

i blamed you, because how could you not love me? i loved you so much

but we both didn't love me, i was so caught up on you i forgot about me

i accepted the bare minimum because part of me thought i deserved it or maybe i was afraid to ask you what i already knew you were incapable of.

its  not all your fault, that i filled your cup and left mine empty...

Sabrina Molina

[cryptikgarden]

[cryptikgarden]

in the daylight, i find myself looking at the flowers.

hearing the birds sing, the wind kissing my skin.

i feel at peace.

at night, i look in the sky find the brightest star and think of your eyes.

i look at the moon, i tell her to watch over you...

hoping the wind whispers my name and leads you here, back to me.

-Sabrina Molina

[cryptikgarden]

peace in pieces

i wish we would’ve talked about it

maybe then you would’ve grown the balls,

to tell me you weren’t about it

i was on an ongoing audition, knowing damn well you weren’t going to give me the part

you knew, your smile was my favorite work of art

the master piece, that got me stuck here looking for peace without you

cause i lost a piece of me without you

-Sabrina Molina

[cryptikgarden]

depending, on you

i often find myself replacing a present time

with a past one, with the last one

the last kiss, the last hug

the last blunt that you rolled with a list of excuses and rehearsed explanations for things done “under influences” that you didn’t remember but couldn’t forget to defend.

you were always so good at pretending, i mean i didn’t even know it had ended because you strung me along, til i was strung out.

dependent

-Sabrina Molina

[cryptikgarden]

[cryptikgarden]

crazy for you

too much of anything, can be bad for you

but too much of nothing, can kill you

looking for something that was never there

will drive you to insanity

-Sabrina Molina

[cryptikgarden]

I laid there, next to him

he looked so peaceful, his heart beating like a lullaby putting me to sleep and for a moment I think how I'm finally not thinking about you.

but then I start to

I start to compare, knowing there's no competition

-Sabrina Molina

[cryptikgarden]

[cryptikgarden]

i wish you were a part of me, so you'd never have to be apart from me

cryptikgarden

[cryptikgarden]

fiction

Your mind is my playground

You're my hobby  

Your body is an object, that only I can use for my advantage

 so vulnerable

I use you, and you let me  

I can tear you apart and you'll love me with every broken piece, of what's left of you.

Because you're mine

Every inch of you belongs to me, your emotions, your thoughts  

You've given me the power over you.  

What does this make me?

 It makes me, you.

I wish it wasn’t me who belonged to you....  

Sabrina Molina

[cryptikgarden]

[cryptikgarden]

i could never get you to tell me what you think, but when you do i always say  “that idea stinks”. i wondered if i pushed you away, i remember pulling you closer... you were my happiest place, and the most dangerous. everything you are, is everything that is wrong with me. infront of me, every little thing that bothers me about you; i found in me. 

i guess thats why i every time i run, i run back into you.  

[cryptikgarden]

awake

as i lay awake, in his arms. i wonder what thoughts cross his mind...

although, those don’t frighten me as much; as the ones that slip right through

Sabrina Molina 

[cryptikgarden]

I never liked the way you walked, til you were walking away from me.  

there came a time where I stopped listening to the things you said, til "This is it, I cant do this anymore."  

there was a moment where I felt lost with you, but now I find comfort in your absence. i am better without you.

I didn’t feel love, til you broke my heart.

[cryptikgarden]

3am

i wait up for you, watch your snaps like “i wonder what hes going to do” wait til 3ish when the club is closed, and that girl youve been buying drinks all night goes home to her aint shit ass man; the irony

here i am, 3:30 am and just like clock work you text me “wya?” and i told my girl last time,”this is the last time” and as i shake my head in disbelief, as i step in my car and reply “im on my way”.

i walk up the stairs, and tie up my hair i tell myself “just turn around you dont need to be here” you open the door, those brown eyes glistening, you come closer i can smell the Hennessy in your breath, you pull me close almost like you want us to turn into one. you push me off you, onto the bed.

i like it when we fight, but only in bed

you fill me up

we tug, we moan, our breaths fill the air, you kiss me while you pull my hair.you tell me you love me, “i love you too”...

you come and just like that you go til the next last time...

Sabrina Molina