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binged and didnt count calories today :(

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weight is up again because i drank so much water today + i ate too much for the past few days.. feel like shit.. getting back into exercising i was able to run a lot longer today than any other day ive done sprint intervals. I wont post myself unposed because i would never recover the public humiliation of people seeing my bloated stomach.

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using my favourite characters as thinspo

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another arm and wrist picture. maybe going to pose after my workout tonight if im not too bloated.

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Im so sick of being average

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5 twizzlers 110

fried egg with ketchup 130

toast 108

half a rice cake 10

mini mozza stick 60

2 dry rib tip pieces 30

3 plain chicken wings 305

nachos 266

bowl of mango and blueberries with 0c sweetener and ice cream 296

bowl of blueberries with honey

150

total 1465

pub night dinner :( high cal cause im recovering from breakup still but im going to get back on track i swear i wont eat anything but dinner now

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oh god.. night time binge cause i went out with friends and broke up with bf

bowl of blueberries and sweetener 80c

lays bbq chips 300c

half a bag of peach twizzlers 800 c

can of light tuna 167

rice cake 40

total

1,387

that ups my day total to

2,470

put me on my 600 lb life already

breakfast

3 eggs with ketchup 276

1 tiny pancake no syrup 50

2 coffees no milk, 2 tbsp 0c sweetener 10

lunch

bubbly 0

plain rice cake with 1 passion fruit pulp and seeds, 1tbsp coconut, 1tbsp honey 162

supper

bubbly 0

3/4ths of a pork and cheese sausage 260

4 pierogis 300

tbsp sour cream 25

blueberry tea with 0c sweetener 0

total 1083

notes

supper was fucking awful because it was just sausage and pierogi and even with my portion control it was so many cals. wish i didnt have that rice cake but it prevented a binge so whatever. At least i got in a good amount of protein and im still under my maintenance

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breakfast

3 eggs with ketchup 276

1 tiny pancake no syrup 50

2 coffees no milk, 2 tbsp 0c sweetener 10

lunch

bubbly 0

plain rice cake with 1 passion fruit pulp and seeds, 1tbsp coconut, 1tbsp honey 162

supper

bubbly 0

3/4ths of a pork and cheese sausage 260

4 pierogis 300

tbsp sour cream 25

blueberry tea with 0c sweetener 0

total 1083

notes

supper was fucking awful because it was just sausage and pierogi and even with my portion control it was so many cals. wish i didnt have that rice cake but it prevented a binge so whatever. At least i got in a good amount of protein and im still under my maintenance

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my hand^

my fingers feel so fat on the keys. i want to be a dainty and fragile gamer so i can romanticize how many hours i use my pc for a day..

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passion fruit, coconut, and honey rice cake with orange bubbly (soooo fucking good tastes like creamsicle) and ice water!

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looking scary while being weak >>>

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breakfast

plain rice cake with 0 c@l sweetener and cinnamon 35

7 chocolate chips 17

lunch

light tuna with another rice cake 135

supper

steak 190, salad 10, rice 51, corn on the cob 99

1/4 cup blueberries 21

total 551

notes

didnt take pictures today sorry. i want to eat like a cat, have fish at every meal but my family will notice. when i move out my fridge and pantry is going to be sparkling water, tilapia, salmon, tuna, mackerel, cod, sugar free monsters, cucumbers, leafy greens, bell peppers, tomatoes, pork, chickpeas, 0 c@l sweetners for sugar cravings, preworkout, supplement powders and pills, frozen fruit (unfrozen is too expensive), dark chocolate, instant coffee, low c@l sauces, bone broth, chia, quinoa, teas of every kind, popcorn kernels, acv, hemp hearts, flax,

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workouts from a models reddit post

stomach vacuums

running and incline walking

bodyweight and resistance bands

oblique workouts

Pushups, walking planks, running, reverse crunches,

scissor kicks, seated band abductions, banded clamshells, banded side leg raises, banded hip thrusts, banded leg bridges, donkey kicks w/ankle

weights, leg raises w/ankle weights, Bulgarian split

squats, sum squats,

(very) light deadlifts, tricep

kickbacks, reverse flys, and tricep dips. I also walk

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got in a 10 minute run and a few minutes of planks even though i said i was on a rest day. my thighs are disgustingly large still and my stomach isnt flat if im not posing. at least my ribs are starting to show. need to start doing stomach vacuum’s soon.. i know i should let my thigh muscle degrade if i want skinny legs but im using that muscle to keep my metabolism working on my side

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total c@l today

cinnamon sugar butter crepe 300

coffee with cream and sugar 110

cinnamon sugar free sweetener rice cake with cherries 90

couple fries, breaded fish (i only ate the fish not the breading) 148

one small pork chop 118

766 total

80oz water total

notes: could’ve had black coffee or preworkout to get my daily caffeine instead of sugary. The crepe was the cheapest c@l thing on the menu of the place i went to so i couldnt get protein there, need to eat more protein overall. did so good at supper i only really ate the parts of my food that had protein but i had to nibble on the breading and fries as to not be suspicious. today is a rest day for working out but tomorrow ill go extra hard to burn off the sugar i ate today.

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short term goals

eat more egg whites

more lean protein

less candy

more dried fruit

no sugary monsters, pop, or syrup (even honey)

get used to the taste of black coffee

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40 oz water with 5 scoops electrolyte and superfood powders and 2 tbsp acv. plain rice cake with cinnamon and no calorie sweetener, cherries. 90~ ish c@ls